sOOOOOO i have a bsf (known him for about 3-4+ years) and ive DEFINITELY gained feelings for him over time.... ahem STORYTIME: so a few weeks ago i managed to get into a "relationship" with him—the happiest ive been in my life, i loved (well still do) him more than life itself..and he acted like he did the same...wed hang out all the time...compliment eachother, call for hours..weve even cuddle until one of us fell asleep..(and trust me, i meant EVERY word) - so i thought it was doing great....until well lets say a week or so in he asked me why i was still calling him pet names..i was confused..then the truth came out—HE THOUGHT THE ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP WAS A JOKE..i had never been so hurt...but i didnt hate him—i still dont...granted i did cry for days and still messed up from it...and then a week ago he told me he got a BOYFRIEND...then the total jealousy hit.. So lets fast forward to now....i cant even text him without wanting to cry...im still extremely obsessed and ive had to stop myself from calling him "dear/hun" (it became a habit during our relationship). LIKE IM TRYING MY BEST TO RESPECT, AND BE HAPPY FOR THEM...BUT I JUST GET SO JEALOUS AND IM, AGAIN, INCREDIBLY OBSESSED..IVE NEVER LOVED ANYONE SO MUCH IN MYBLIFE—..like i jump up at every notification and race to check my phone bc i think its him...all of this just has been geeting worse over time..my depression has increased for sure...ive been acting different..even yelling back at my own parents..ive never done this..and its obviously affecting my mental health..and unfortunately physical (ive been cutting myself way more often, and the thoughts get worse...ive also beeen starving myself and getting heartburn from it, but dont do anything) I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO..BC I DONT WANNA RUIN OUR FRIENDSHIP EITHER AAAA (sorry if i made any errors im rlly tired)
#An Unhealthy obsession/ref
latent plover
latent plover
Update for the 0 people who care: its been gettimg worse and i just went through another mental breakdown, i miss him and the way he used to treat me too much..
💔
I feel so selfish for this and it hasnt been helping
gaunt chasm
it's not that we don'T care, but except by saying "turn the page and stop thinking like that about him" we can't do nothing for you...
There is no really any advices. This is the kind of situations that only time can heal..
latent plover
Mk
latent plover
Ok so chat
I GIT BACK WITH HIM AND IM ACTUALLY SO HAPPY 😭 (i confessed everything to him kinda on accident--with a mental breakdown--it genuinely wasnt anything planned, it just happened bc of a conversation..) and i literalky double checked if he was actually ok with it, thst i wasnt trying to get him to do smth he didnt want to, that i wasnt getting him into a situation that could mess anything up for him...that he was genuinely happy with it and truly cared...etc., i tried my best and im glad that it actually worked out (i cried like i couldnt believe whst happened was real, i was just again SUPER HAPPY) :3 i finally have my motivation and sense of worth back ^^
gaunt chasm
oh ? what happened ?
latent plover
oh ? what happened ?
So welll.....he said he only got back with me for MY sake...so i was happy—so basically he never liked me.....and well he started to feel guilty and broke up to stay with the other guy :(
Whats worse is that i double checked EVERYTHING when i got back with him...
i asked a lot of questions making sure he was ok with it all
and that he wanted to do it, that i wasnt getting him into smth he didnt like, etc.
:(
gaunt chasm
well, he probably wanted to make you feel good. YOu never know.. :/