dull bison
I played vrc for 3 months for the summer break of 2024 and I saw some really messed up stuff during that time like NSFW in general it was bad and I still get memories from some of it and to add to it a server I was in got raided when I was waiting to get picked up from school and I saw more graphic images I don't even think I can explain any of it because I just know that I'd get banned but some of the graphic images are just some things that are never gonna leave my head I still feel like that I want to cry because of it but I'm scared that my mom or someone else in the house would try to get info about it and I'm scared that monitoring soft wares will be put on my devices as I've been fighting since November 2024 to not get these soft wares on my devices
I'm sorry if I'm getting emotional and too personal but I feel alone I joined this off one of the only friends that I talk to still and even I feel like I'm going to be replaced by someone who made false allegations that I'm a disgusting eh uh gay person after I blocked them with this night being one of the worst and it almost led to me disappearing and running away by the way this is only about a third of what happened to me and I can barely describe anymore of it because I just know that people are going to wonder of I'm okay or not 24/7 I'd explain it with someone but under the condition that it never get reported to moderators as I'm worried about getting banned
I'm not even remotely surprised that I wanted to kill myself in October like no sane person could not endure not even a third of what I did and still be okay I also have no clue why I still chose to return to vrc even after the 3 months of fucked up stuff and I see some more disturbing shit with the people who put it on just being so casual about it like it's nothing I can't even fit everything into this post I was scared to post this as I didn't know if I was going to get harassed for it
surreal ore
lunar surge