carmine juniper
okay so me and my ex broke up a couple months ago on good terms, and at first i felt kinda okay, like i had already started letting go before it even ended. but now it’s all catching up. i keep dreaming about her — like comforting dreams where we get back together or she comforts me or smth— and i wake up missing her so bad it hurts.
i feel guilty for even feeling this way because i’m kinda in a new relationship now and she’s great, but it’s like a part of me still wants my ex. like i don’t know if i want her back or if i’m just missing what we had. part of me wants to move on. part of me doesn’t. i just feel stuck and numb and confused. Ik it’s just grief but like it’s weird some days im happy and chill others im drowning at night missing and craving but also numb from physical touch. It’s literally my love language.
thin onyx
solid berry