So tomorrow I have to go to a mental hospital where I have been alot before but I don't like it there. If I don't go there I have to go to a Living group. I really don't know what to do now I just want to take my life right now. I think there is no other way to make me feel better. If been thinking about This for a while now and If been harming myself everytime I can't anymore
again. I'm sorry if it sounds weird but I just don't know how to say this all. Sorry
#I don't know what to do(tw: sh, suicidal thoughts)
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So tomorrow I have to go to a mental hospital where I have been alot before but ...
I cannot stress this enough, there is no logical reason to end it. Think of it as a 0% chance of getting better. You stay alive, it could be 1%, but that’s more than nothing, and speaking as someone who was the 1% to experience a side effect of a drug I took, I can say that those small % are worth hanging on too. At least, these were the conclusions I came to when I was having thoughts. It’s not the best thing to have to hold on to, but it’s there
Things may be miserable, something I cannot describe as they are your feels alone, but ask yourself. Would you rather the bad but with a chance of good, the experience of life’s up and downs, or would you like nothing, none of it, not even the feeling of having none of it, just the fact. When you end it, the final feeling is what you go out with. You don’t feel that relief of not having to worry about it, the last thing you’ll feel is the same thing you feel now, and is that all you ever want to feel?
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So sorry