I need help- TW sh & su!cide

[iron reef]

I’m struggling. A lot. I don’t know what to do- I was clean for almost two months but that whole time I couldn’t stop thinking about it. It was always there on the edge of my mind- anything would bring it up. I struggled more than I should have. It got to the point where I was scratching myself bloody and digging nails into my skin. I never counted it as a relapse because it wasn’t a cut. But then I did it again. The thoughts and anxiety won’t go away and this is my only coping mechanism. I feel like at this point I should just kill myself

[tired parcel]

I'm really sorry you're going through this right now. It sounds like you're carrying so much, and I can only imagine how exhausting that must feel. Just want to remind you that even when things feel really overwhelming and you can’t see a way out, there are always people who care about you — even if it doesn't feel that way in the moment.

What you're going through is hard, and I get that it's not easy to talk about or even express. The fact that you're still holding on, even when everything feels heavy, shows strength — more than you probably realize. But please, remember you're not alone in this. You don’t have to carry it all by yourself.

If you need to talk or just want someone to listen, I'm here. You matter, and things can get better, even if it feels impossible right now. Please don’t hesitate to reach out to a pro or someone who can guide you through this, because you deserve all the support in the world.

#🆘｜crisis-help-channels

[green jolt]

What are you talking about? What are you clean from? Because depending on it, it could be all fine or it could be real bad.

[iron reef]

Self harm

[iron reef]

Thanks. I appreciate this, I think I needed to hear that. Your a really kind person

[tired parcel]

[green jolt]

I thought you were talking about drugs.

[iron reef]

Oh

[iron reef]

Fuck I thought that was the last time

It was supposed to be the last time