opaque trellis
TW: Suicide (implied??)
North Star
Bright
Oh, how bright you were
Always
Before I had spoken
Even a word
To you
And I was jealous
Jealous of how
I could see your gums
Whenever you smiled
Jealous of how
You threw your head back
And leaned forward
When you laughed
While I stood there
Numb
You came up to me
And I stargazed
At the constellations
In your eyes
Sailors use the North Star
To find
Their way home
You became
My North Star
You helped me
Find my way
Home
Into your arms
Your scent
Still on the clothes
You borrowed
For the first time
I truly felt
Like me
Only when I was with you
But this
Was all
Only temporary
We knew it
From the start
When you told me
You would go
And now you’re gone
And I’m still here
With a bottle of pills
In my hand
Swallow them
And the last thing I see in my mind
Is you
Things could have been different.
gleaming notch