inner sand
We don’t talk about this much
But, I think You would know better than anyone
The desire to know and be known
To love and be loved.
I am still alone.
I love them all
There is none who can truly see
What I see from behind my eyes
I remember the October sky
When I first felt this ache
When I first realized
I was truly, deeply alone.
I remember the cold disc of the moon
Lending light to my darkness below
As the stars witnessed the end of my life
I was truly deeply alone
Life is inexpressible.
Emotion is a dangerous, violent ocean.
Its peaks and valleys are without pattern
Unpredictable, wild, uncontrollable.
I am in unending agony
As I fall asleep
Terror grips me
Mortality taunts me.
Shadows chase me in my dreams.
Armed men come for my family.
Unspeakable things are done to us.
There is no rest for me.
Delusion surrounds me
The line between reality and fantasy is zigged and zagged
There is none who can truly see
What I see from behind my eyes
honest island