kindred nexus
i can't see
i can't see the beauty
i can't see happiness
i can't see love
i can't unsee pain.
all i do is crying
my constant is suffering
they all think it's easy,
say i want it
imagine that i'm just
an attention seeker
repeat that i'm pretending
pretending?
sure, in their rainbow world
where they erase hunger
where they erase war
where they erase death.
what am i supposed to do there
should i join them
be a coward
enjoy a life of lies
be part of their emptiness
should i accept my duty
should i stay alone,
with my own thoughts,
locked in my house,
prisoner of my mind,
hostage of the real world
slowly driven mad.
am I the only one?
the one who sees beyond the smiles
the one who feels a billion times
the one who hears the cries of pain
the one who just believes
that life is nonsense,
in a universe that existed before us
and that will subsist after we all die
am I the only one?
to the rivers of tears,
oceans of dark ideas,
lakes of desperate cries,
seas of silence,
where the mainland
always ends up breaking under my feet,
letting me drown,
letting me choke.
am I the only one?
seeing too far,
hearing too loud,
feeling too much,
suffocating in my awareness?
am I the only one in this lost world,
or will you open your eyes?
oblique gyro
