median ivy
My bones crack as I walk home, I walk home alone.
Every moment weighs a ton.
I won’t show it, I’ll be fine on my own.
I’ll hold you close, help you carry everything you’ve got.
You dump it on me, I’ll carry everything you cannot.
Let me hold it, even if I start to fall.
I’m already holding too much, but I’ll give you my all.
My knees start to buckle, you can hear my bones crack.
My bones start to crumble but I'll mend them back together.
I’ll use paint and plaster.
Each time it crumbles faster.
But I’ll just paint it after.
Cover up every crack so you won’t see that I am weak and that help is what I’m lacking.
This thin veil starts cracking, so it won’t last so long.
Soon you’ll see just how much is really going wrong.
You’ve never seen what’s truly going on.
How my had my father never seemed to care if my day was long, so I’ll just bleed these feelings I’ll regret to share.
The veil breaks and then you start to see.
You said you wanted to try to help fix me.
You try to plaster it, but the cracks run too deep.
They won’t seem to close, then my blood starts to seep.
You put a bandage then say I'm good as new.
In the end my problems don’t matter like yours do.
Though there’s much I wanna say, I just stop talking then it’s back to you.
I’m back to pretending that I'm fine, but if only you knew.
I’m walking, but I'm walking with a shattered spine.
I find myself here again.
I’ll make sure I won’t trip so far.
I can’t get close to you even if it’s really hard.
Stay at a distance so you don’t see this low.
Splintered bones in my skin that barely start to show.
I pluck them right out then I bandage them up.
This feelings all I’ve known.
I find comfort in the cold.
Comfort in this dreadful place, the only place that I know.
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