last poem to you ( this'll be my last poem for a while I'm tired of ... well everything. I'll live.)

[humble moss]

It's been a while
How have you been
I hope you've been well

I'm sorry I haven't been there
I can't seem to...
...Put to words this feeling
Nothing new I know
But I'm still sorry

I can't take anything from you
The joy in your eyes
Your laughter
Not the warmth of your smile

I can't give you anything either
Your smile leaves
Replaced by concern
As soon as you speak to me
Your eyes turn soft
I know you don't mean to
But the pity is evident
Your smile turns cold
Like a mask has been removed

I can't pin down you anymore
I won't take your light
I won't take your freedom
Not your smile any longer

I cant pretend I don't notice
The fact you love don't me
The way you talk to me
It's obvious
The fear in your eyes
In your words

Ive been thinking
And thinking hard at that
Ive realized something
I can't just be a friend
I know I can't sit on the sidelines
If you were to fall in love
I don't think I would have the strength
Not the will
To watch as you may fall in love
I wouldn't be able to cheer you on

I had so much planned
I wanted to be the reason you smiled
The life you breathed
A support for your life
But I can't

I just want to know one thing
I've wondered for a while
My last question to you
Before I leave

Did you ever love me
Or just the aspect of being loved
If Im to speak honestly
I don't know if I want the answer

<@&1144090752457113794> <@&1145760802666717234> anything helps I'm sending this to someone.

[sly hamlet]

I can just say that it's full of emotion, and that is great. It feels melancholic and also very direct. I like it, personally I would write the last sentence differently but I think you wrote it very well

[humble moss]

Something like that?

[sly hamlet]

Yeah, that sounds so much better. It's a better transition to the question

It's really good

[humble moss]

Thank you

[sly hamlet]