young oasis
the oxford dictionary defines the word desire like this:
noun: desire; plural noun: desires
a strong feeling of wanting to have something, or wishing for something to happen
desire is a strong word
strong words leave my mouth the same way you can’t seem to leave me—stilted on the end of my tongue and tangled in your throat
i desire the same way i despise:
consumed entirely by the thought of a noun i no longer know how to say
it’s a condition of living
or just a condition of how i live without you
it’s a curse to hold something i hate as dearly as something i adore;
clutched to my chest with crescent-shaped grooves pressed to your surface
i keep you inside me
what do i desire?
oxford says i wish, that i pine, that i ache and thirst and burn and crave
but i think desire fits well enough
six letters slot between the wedge of your knuckles, rolling like a coin over fingers and thumbs neglected
three syllables, a defined vowel and supporting consonants
desire is a lovely word when i’m not thinking of you an indulgence
something that can’t be taken away
i give power to the word because
what else is there to do?
drawn taut and beautiful to the cinch of my mind
and there’s nothing left but need
there are so many things i could say, but i would leave you wanting
unable to speak in fear of being left, in fear of driving you away
desire is not enough to make you stay, and it’s not enough to miss you like i know i should
devout grotto