He's so perfect for me
It makes this feeling all the worse
It's like a longing
Somehow amplified
A genuine tugging feeling in the heart
Like someone has grabbed it and is slowly pulling it out my chest
Their fist embedded deep into my torso
And emptiness in my arms
A space that should be filled by another person
Yet is left bare
And i am forced to substitute
A pillow or a sleeping bag
A feeble imitation of a reality I so long for
A reality I await
Or one that awaits I
Forced to play pretend; to pretend that he is here
That he is next to me
In my embrace, and me in his
Pretend to feel his warmth and for him to feel mine
Pretend to feel his gentle touch
Pretend he can make me feel safe
As if to summon a placebo
A trickery of the mind
As if to fool myself into believing
Into seeing and feeling
That which i truly love
That which loves me
I feel so immediately attached to him
And this feeling repulses me
For it is a foreign feeling
A love i have not before felt
A feeling unmistakable yet obscured
By the tangled web of emotion that clouds my vision
All i know, my singular tenet
My singular constant is my love for him
That is the only definable tangent in my colluded head
The jungle of emotion he has led me to explore
A maze of conflicts and contradictions
The secrets of my pandora's box which he has dared to open
A for this i love him all the more
And it is a jungle he is dancing his way through
Carving a path to the mother tree
A forest in which he is hunting my solution
And has come close to permanently capturing it
My happiness
Fleeting moments pass by wherein he makes me happy
Makes me complete
Yet any self awareness of these moments tears them down
Brick by brick
Plank by plank
Until i am once again attached to a screen
Longing for him
Waiting for his response
Back at the beginning again.
#Feelings.
hazy swift
hazy swift
@blazing geyser
blazing geyser
This a really sweet work of art you've expressed here. The feeling of a left room beside you and the longing for the one you wish to have is beautifully depicted. It's the depth of these feelings that overall composed this composition more neatly. Well done!