i just want to be loved
the way i love you.
and i want you to stop lying,
because a part of me can’t help but believe
that maybe its true.
but i’m not your first anymore,
not even your second.
i dont think you even see me anymore.
but if you do,
im really sorry,
because the only thing that kills me more
than knowing i’ve been replaced
is putting you in first like i haven’t.
and putting on a smile
pretending like i’m not tired
because all you want to do
is be chased,
and chased,
and chased.
written 2/8/2023