Friends...?

[supple estuary]

People come, people go
People say 'Yes' And people say 'No'
I just wasn't aware they'd all go at the same time...

I lost one, and gained three more
I regained one, and lost the three from before..
They all came back, seemingly for long
But it didn't even last as long as my favorite song

I was scared to be friends with them
Suppose I was right to be
I shoulda known they didn't really like me
It's okay though... Well I'll make it that way
Even through all of my woe, I'll make them smile all day

They went, and then came back
Then the two went, one at least cut me some slack
But ooh look at how they're slipping...
They're falling away from me, and I have not the energy to save them
They're grasping on the edge of a cliff;
And all I wish to do is stomp on their fingers

I don't know why they've left me...
Perhaps it's my voice, my face
My personality, me being a disgrace..
Who's to say?
Maybe it's the way I fake being okay
But it's all you can do when your 'friends' may not like you that day
Maybe if I wasn't such an utter disgrace...

[celest pier]

Ahhhh yeh

Those dirty bastards, they did something wrong!..,to make you feel that way

Referring 2 “their grasping in the edge of a cliff and all I have the urge to do is stomp on their fingers”

I’ve had the same feeling

To be honest

And I was horrified at myself

In retrospect I knew it was the depression within myself

The sickness within myself…

Mostly To know that I’m not strong enough to save a lot of people, most people in fact, and it hurts when it’s my friends that I can’t save… so my bowels freak out and go for the petty pain they caused me. And lashes out…

That’s the feeling of it anyways…

Gotta know, that you just gotta get in a better mindset

Friends are hard to find in this world

Gotta make sprouts wherever you see it possible and favorable

@supple estuary