TW: contains suicide and self harm,
I am 13 years old, my name is sunhat.
#my life
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In 2024 I had friends, I had a good life. Then i started getting bullied for my looks. And especially my teeth. My friends stopped talking to me and they got more and more distant. And then they cut me off.
I was getting into a really depressive state and I begged my mom to let me stay home from school. She let me. And that's how I got a 20% attendance that year. My teachers started telling my parents that my attendance was really low. And they said that CPS could get involved. I was really scared by this. So I forced myself to go to school. And I was alone there, I had no friends and my grades were terrible. I eventually found some friends that I'm still friends with today and they are really great! I was around twelve. When I started figuring out what self harm is. I eventually found a razor blade and cut into my skin. It wouldn't stop bleeding and I was crying in my room and praying that the bleeding would stop. And it stopped about 15 minutes later. I told my dad I hurt myself the next day. He got really mad. he grabbed me by my shoulder and threw me into a wall. And told me I was grounded and took my phone and smashed it in front of me. I was thinking that he doesn't care about me. And I still think that's true, my mom and older brother comforted me while I was crying
I stopped going out of my room much after that. And when my dad tried to talk to me I tried to avoid him. I tried to kill myself by taking my mom's medicine. It didn't work and i just woke up the next morning. Around this time my friends got in a huge argument and my friend group was split up. I was getting worse and worse. I didn't wash my hair or my teeth. My friends noticed a little and said, why don't you cut your hair much? At this point my hair was at my chest. And since I'm a guy long hair isn't normal for us. I cut my hair with my scissor and my hair was at my shoulders again. My friend noticed that there was an empty bottle of pills in my room and asked if I'm sick.
I didn't know what to say so I just said they're in my room for no reason. He believed it, and THEN he looked at my wrist for a second and said "what is that sunhat?"
I just said my cat scratched me and he STILL believed it. I don't know how dumb that kid is