Well today 27/2/26 I start this... today I decided to stop making self hurt because enough was enough and I dont want to my parents finding out... Today, in the recees my bioloogy teacher finded me with a phone but idk why he give it back and just sayed that you need to save it in your backpack and then in English class we had an exam and I decied to copy, obiuslly the teacher didnt find out and finally in F,Q (Fisics and Quimics) we did a project of sugar in drinks. Today I told another friend about the suicide think and the scars thing and now the only persons that know that are 3, well then when I became home i did cut my self a lot of times but I decided enough its enough and lets see how many days I stay clean. Btw the images are from the scars so if you want to SH/Suicide it can triger so i dont think that you shoud open them, and today FINALLY my website reached 22mil active users and i got the first person that wants to put an ad directlly in my website. Thank you 😉
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Hello! Today is 28/2/26, today the fucking people of the goverment taked down my page but it is avilible at a new domain, today I didnt self hurt so I didnt self hurt for 24 hours im trying to do a month of being clean, lets see how it goes. Today I played a lot of minecraft, exactlly with the mod of BlockFronts and im proud of today not watching anything related to gore or things like that, and also ALMOST my brother and my mom find out the thing with the scars and all of that. Thank you 🥳
Yelow! Dear person, today is 1/3/26, today im a little bit scared of everything, when I waked up I grabbed my phone and open instagram and I found out that EE.UU and Israel provocated a war, I decided to enter Twitter (X) and there was a lot of gore of the war and people crushed by buildings, that affected me a little bit because im trying to do a month completlly clean of everything: Gore, SH, trying not to suicide, etc... Today I finally reorganized my room and it gotted pretty clean and today I dominated the handstand so pretty good the day. Then I played S.T.A.L.K.E.R [Shadows of Chernobyl] (Btw i recomend it a lot) I continue the missions etc, then hopped into BlockFront and I found a vulneravility in the code so I can inject hacks like fly or even aimbot. Then in my discord server of TVFreedom I got 70 members! Btw day 2 of being clean! Thank you for reading 😊
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Well today 2/2/26 I SH… I’m sorry but I just needed to do it, I also was going to suicide, a step more and I will be dead. I was in the border of my window ready to jump. But we’ll apart from that I got a 3 in history in an exam that I did good, and nothing much, well supposedly today I had a project of maths but I didn’t do it so that’s good, well my best friend skipped school today. I remodelarse my UI of the website and I “did a voice reveal” in the voice chat and nothing more. Thank you!
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Hello! Today is 3/2/36, today I didnt SH so 1 day clean (Again) but more friends almost find out, we were in the recces and they tooked my shoe (I dont really know how) but they took it and they almost reveald all the scars that I have in both legs but I think they didnt found out. Today in English class I did with a friend a story like we needed to go to the front and tell a story idk why, they almost tooked my phone away but they didn't find out. Well in the app of Huddle I didnt stop getting friend requests and I think that all were pedos, but apart from that not that bad the day. (At least I didn't miss the bus) Oh and I almost forgot, todat I FINALLY got Discord Nitro and well I boosted this server 2 times. Thank you very much, see you next day! (If i survive 😆)
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Dear journal, today 4/2/26, today I didnt SH so thats 2 days clean (Again). TOday I didnt do a shit in school. In first class they allmost tooked my phone but I hide it at time then in 2º my teacher didnt show up so more time with the phone and in 3º class why not more time with the phone. Then finally reces and well I watched a math that is in my school. It was my friends vs someones of 4ºESO (10º grade i think). Then 4º class, my teacher didnt show up as well so I stayed with one of my best friends [Daniel] and well I did darts and put them in the ceiling, then in 5º I finally did something (sleep) and idk how the teacher didnt notice and finallt 6º was P.E so well we did an exam of jump and I started playing football [Socer] and I did 2 goals. Then like always I go with 2 friends to their houses and today finally i sneaked in with my other friend. Well i didnt miss the bus and I got home at time. Btw today is the birthday of my grandmother soo actully not that bad the day at the final! Thank you, see you next day (If i survive 😜)
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Dear journal, yesterday I didnt write, today is 6/3/36 yesterday I finally redo atheltics and I got a pretty good mark, today I did nothing in school, i even fell asleep. I only sleeped 5 hours, thats pretty bad for my body. I cant talk much right now. I think that today is the day
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