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I can't fucking find it and I'm about to pass out
I csnt find it
I'm gonna cry
Ite so special to me too
I will find it
Come here my pocket knife
Failure girl
MEEEE
Okay I'm gonna keep looking
WHEE IS IT
Maybe my mjm stole it
She better rickingnnot have
I spent like 50 euros on that
I can't find it
My blade is so blunt how can I even do anything e it
I can't be fucked to even get ut
Besides my parents would know it's not nught
Ugh
Where is my pocket knir
I need jt
I need it
I need it
I need it
I need it
I need it
I need jt
Plesse
PLEASE
Where'd my blue thingy jt nught be in there
Ik that's where my apple pencil is
Bro
Where
I'm
Gross
Ee
I look so fucking gtoss
I hate me
Just find it
Just find it
Just find it
I have no bike shorts so I can't even hide anything if I cut
Uhh
What do I fucking do
I hope she's having fun
Where is it
Let me hurt myself
Olease
Ugh
Yum yum I could unscrew some new blades instead
Ugh but they're not sharp
They're for pencils
They're not sharp enough
Can I break my razor
Omg I still have the one from barrett
Blades yum
Ugh
How would I break it
Eieieiieii I'm gonna unscrew instead for now
Yummy here I come
I can't
Find ut
I'm out of breath
Ifc pencil sharpener it ie
I give up
I'm gonna play pjsk
I'm probably gonna relapse tonight
I'm sorry
Pjsk here I come I gues
Oh okay
Liams online
I'm
No
I will not kms
I will not kmsi
Will not
Kms
I'll wait 4 minjtes
Ghost rule
I love deco*27
Peak somgd
My mjms worried about ne
I thought I was masking it all
Im not getting anything good
I'm
I hate these piss balls
I HAYE pjsk
Wahh
Stupid stupid SNDNRJDJDHDHD
DTILL WHAT THE FICKFNRMFNRKS
I miss her
I want to cry
I distract myslf
Yeah I'm not okay
But
I'm fine
Fucking kill me
Can he shut jp
Plesde
It's not that hard to just
SHUT
UR FUCKINF
MOUTH
OH MY GOD
I'm going insane
I'm going indane
I'm going insane
I'm going indane
Olesde
Get me out of here
Get me out of here
Pkease
Please
PLEASE
Hellopppp
CAN BR DHUTT UPPPPPPPP
I think he wants me to kill myself
I mean he always says he wish I didn't exist
He wishes*
Actually he hasn't said it in a. Whike
He's probably drunk
There was probably alcohol at that party
I eouldve gone just for the slchwhol
Anything to numb me
Please
Ow
I miss her
Can I fir
Dir
Die
Plese
Ijshssj
I hate myself
!rank
Okay
Someone
Kill me
Get it over and done w
Please
Akitoya akitoya akitoya
Rrhehehhherheher
Imm so lovely
Hehshheehhesaaa
Hshrrh
Oh my god
Blades my beloved
Can u float to me
Plesde
My head
Can I dissapear
Pleasaaseee
I beggg uuuu
Please please
I'm gonna level up mafuyu
My
Hesd
Can I die
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
Kill me
PLEASE
I'm worthless
I'm wirth nothing
What use am I giving to this world
Nothing
I'm nothing
I'm just a stupid
Ugly
Person
Who isn't even sane
I hate myself
Oweies
I don't want to eat
My mjms gonna force me to
Can I cut myself open
Bleed to death
Yummy
What if I
No if I tell my parents then they won't do anything
Just let me get out of here
Plesde
Plesse
Plesse
Please
Im
I can't do this
!rank
Laaalaalaalaaaalaalalaaaaalaalaalalalalaa
My dad's calling me
I think
Just a little shrimp thats all I will ever be but I'm happy knowing that I will be okay and maybe someday something will change
he is a good boy
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Mentally
How did nene perform konton boogie
I need to know her ways
Iton deficiency gang
Aswiawwoied
I said sorry to charlie
And deleted the video
I hate who I wm
Beat eater peak
Len looks so small help
Pookir
Wiwiweiieiewiwewe
WEIIIII
I should rst
Hhhhrbtnk
Ready strady
I don't want to eatttt
I'm annoying
What the fuck
Ew
Ew
Who am i
Ew
Yuck
I lok so gross
Ew
Aua
I think I'm dead
No I don't want to eat
I don't want to
I don't want to
I don't want to
Brain revolution girl
I hate nyself
I'm so lazy I can't even get my fucking blade
Aaakskskd
!rank
I'm not laughing anymore I feel like shit again
I feel so sick
I won't tell her unless she asks cuz idk how the fuck id even tell her I can't eat
A
Eaiaie
I hope sehs okay
I hate mtself
Ew I'm so cringe
Àaàààà
Yip yip yippie
Ugh
I don't want to lie to her
I'll be able to talk to her tomorrow or something it's rine
I tbinj
I think I'm dying
I'm gay
Aigh
Csnidie
I think I accidentally stole someone's cat that they wanted
I feel bad
VRWZY
OKG
CRAZH MY BRLOVED
Can i
Die
Now
I'm so pathetic
Ew
Jia and addi aren't responding abyway
Ajeje
Oh scarletts on intagram
I'm gonna ctyyyyy ❤️❤️❤️
Oweies my ears maybe that wasn't the best song choice
I'll get lost on Instagram and not eat
Sorry
What the fuc
Eyeyey my limit is in 1 hour and 34 minutes
No 36 minutes
Yayay
I don't want her to feel responsible for my emotions
It's not her fault
It's not her fault that I feel like this
I don't want her to feel like it is
If Charlie's liams and my fault
I'm sad she's with them rn
Eieieieie I feel stupid
And ugly
Omg
Boys will be bugs mentioned what
I feel stupid, ugly
Pretend it doesn't bother me
I havnt listened to cwvetoen in ages omg
Headphones here I come
My nose is still bleeding
Ughh
I hate mtself
Hi
Can I die
Please?
Eukisukieuki
It's hard to breathe
Iyowa my beloved
I've sent like 800 things on this today holy dhit
weii
i miss wife
i couldnt say goodnight properly
i think she fellalseep
tis okay i tlak to her in mornig
hopefully
my ears wont stop ringing
i miss her
I can barley breathe what the FUCK
Oa
Liams awake
I feel sick again
Aaaaaaàaearaaaaaaa
Rawr
I miss her
I'm hungry
I hope I didn't give her a lot of trouble last night
I don't want her to hate me
I love her sm I don't want her to hate me
I'd probably die if she hated me
Did I do something wrong
Owwies I'm hungry
I didn't cut myslf last night gang
Am I epic or what
Eauhhhhhh GAH
They don't forgive me
I'm actually sorry I'm so sorry
I'm so sorry for being so annoying
I'm sorry
Rah rah rah I hate that
Ewwy
I hate who I am
I'm so annoying
No one can fucking stand me
I'm so alone
The only friend I can talk to face to face is my girlfriend
I can't talk to addi now
Which is fine
And jias struggling
When I talk to her I need to help
Euashehh
I feel so selfish
Wahaha
Liams online again
I was about to message her that I was gonna go back to sleep but if she's awake I don't wanna
What if she doesn't want to talk to me tho
Cuz I'm annoying
I'm still wondering where my pocket knife is
Lwoekh I could use it to cut my hair to see if it's strong enough
I mean I'm about to get it cut anhway
He's still online I'm

Wawawawawa
I'm sad
Ready steady
Hee still
Eahsebddbebrhrrsa
Yip
I hate
Me
I fel
Gross
I'm so sad
Can I sleep all dah
What if she doesn't want to see me on the weekend
I'm sad
My nail isnt growing but fwirbenihh cuz it was only on sunday
HES STILL ONLINE WBAT THE FUCK
Someone kill me
Can I gimeskip
Please
I'm so hungry
I'm so fucking hungry
I want to be w her
I miss her so much
So fucking nuch
I'm so sad
What if she hates me
Idk what to do
HES SRILP
I'm okay
I'm sure she doesn't hate me
Aihgmsmf
Can someone please tell me why
Why I exist
Why
Why me
I don't want my aunt to die
My teeth hurt ow
My aunt is who my mum always compares me to
She's severely depressed and really mentally unwell
Yet my mum denies
Just let me get a proper diagnosis so I can get belp
Please
I
I love my aunt
She's so icon
She's so proud of me
She was so happy when my mum told her I have a girlfriend
I hope my girlfriend can meet her
They won't be able to communicate w eafhorhwr but still
Sgtuallt I think she can speak a tiny bit of English
Either way I can translate
My aunt respects boundaries she's really epic
I miss my girlfriend
HES
SRILL
ONLINE
I feel sick
I really hope she doesn't hate me
Cold
HELP WRONG GIF
There
He's still online
Maybe she does hate me
No I'm sure it's just that she's sleeping or can't message
Wxs
Im
Okies
I'm fone
Iiim l
She hates me
No I'm sure she's just busy
Geh
Without her no one else messages ne
I feel dead
Cuz ykin a moment
It could alllll
Pow
Boom bom
Jibx
Zhut up Bernie
Yghhty
Blink
Oh my god
Oh my god
Oh my god
My dream was that she said something mean then I went to sleep then in the morning I found out she was in the pjsyc ward snd she changed her username and everythif and she didn't want to see me and I kept trying and Liam said I can okay now and she said I can play tomorrow and Liam was watching her at the ohsyc ward through the wall and I wasn't allowed I had to stay because she hated me and then there was a thingy like a drawer and I tried to talk to her but she ignored my face she ignored everything and yeah
I feel worthkess
I mißsher
How to swallow big medicine
I frl sick I miss her
She might be playing Roblox with liam
He's
More fun than me
I'm hungry
I'm not allowed to close my eoor
Liams almost been playing for 3bhiurs
It's okay I'm sure she's just playing with him
I feel
So
Sick
I'm emu otori
Emu means
SMJKE
Maybe I'll draw
I havnt drawn in ages
I want to find my apple pencil so I can finally do merry
I'll do concepts for metru
Merry
Ssiskek
My heart won't stop
I wanna play animal crossing w her
Okah she's alive
Ara
Rara
My heart
I feel
Weird
I need to piss
I don't want to
I want to stay in bed
I want to feel comfy I want my bike shorts
I hate
Me
Why am I so stupid
Can my heart stop beating so fast
Can it stop beating
What if she doesn't want to see me
I'm scared
I'm sad
I can't draw
Maybe I'll just go back to sleep
Not like I need to eat
Ugh
I'm tired
I want to sleep
I want to talk to her
I want to be w her
I'm scared she doesn't want to be w me
I'm scared she doesn't like me
Im
So scsred
I need to get a tissue for my nose but i can't be fucked
I feel
Yucky
Huh I leveled up
!rank
Weow
Does she
No surely I'm just overthinking
I'm just being stupid
I'm dcsred
I miss her
I want to be next to jer
I want to watch her okay animal grossing
I want to just exist next to her
I hate mfslf
The second I can't talk to her I come here what the fuck
I miss her
I hope she wants to come over
If she doesn't that's okay too cuz rwir enough she's definitely rxhausted
Bernie just broke something
Grrat
Can they shut up
My heart won't stop beating fadt
I can't finish my food
I miss her
I want to cru
My throat what
Pocket knife
Pocket knkfe
Pocket knife
Oh if I cojkd find u
I need to stay clean for her tho
BERNIE SHUT UP
Ammy photo from months ago
My smmy ammy
I.reallt.need a tissue
Skdkd
What if she nreskd up.e.mr
Id koll myself
Imcdmt lovemwitjiut jer
Eitnkjt her none ofits eortj it
Immsorry
I think she doesn't.lime me
Imreally lole jer
Shut up bernie
Imissjer
Eaeaeqeqea
I feel amone
What if she doesn't want to see me
Ejrnrr
I wish I could.rsfaoe.
Imcdmt cuz
If I go on insfahram
Liwm
Rjf
I.frrl.flat
Why
Bernie shut.up
I'm sad
Ahebdje
I can piss tonight
When everyones sleeping
I miss her
I need to piss
Esijejrjrjre
I miss her
I think she hates me
She's not going to want to seeme
I'm gonna cry
I'm so sad
I'm so sad
She doesn't like me
I'm stupid and ewwy
Jt makes sense
I'm nothing without her
I'm
If she doesn't want to e wme im
Going to die
I can't function when I'm without her
Shtu up bernie
I want her
I miss her
What if she hates me
What if she never wants to see my ugly ass face abain
Id understand
She's way to fucking good for me abyqay
My eyes are heavy
She meedshed
I'm sfsrefthat she hares me
Inscrared
Without he ihabe nijne
R
E
I'm sad
If she kills herself ik killing myself
I can't survive without her
I'm shaking
I cwnt
I can't do this
I cwnt
Pleasepl
Please
I don't want to go
To
Fucking
Thailand
My heart is
I can't plesse
I can't
I feel sick
I don't
Cant
I
Fuck
I feel sick
I dont want to ea
There's no way of me escaping this
I had forgotten about ut
I
I dont want this
MY MUM LIED TO ME.
SHE LIED
SHE LIED TO ME
SHE SAID MY LAST ONE WOULD BE MY VERU LADTNONE
YEAH??? YSAH SURE
FUCKING CUNT
FUCK OFF
I FONT EANT TO GO
leT ME STAY HERE
I DONT CATE
GO AWAY
go AWAY
FUCK OFF
FUCK OFF
I haTE THIS
IM SAD AND PISSED
I'm crhinf noe
I DONF WSNT
To leave
My girlfriend
And dog
And I don't want to go to thailand
And
Please
I
Ew I sound weird cuz I'm sick and crying
I'm so sad
I don't want this
Plesse
Ehy
What the fick
Please
Plesse
Please no
I don't understand
Please
Let me stay w my girlfriend instead
Id have to stay w charlie tho cuz distance to school
Ugh
I hate this
Please
Im
My mum just told me to never join in on cutting myself because it's not cool and it hurts and leaves permanent scars
I can't do this
I can't fucking do this shit
I cant
What the fuck
I thiught I would get somewhere with this
All I got was fucking pushed down
They want me to kill myself
What if I kill myself on the plane help me
No I won't kill myself
I want to be w my girlfriend
But fucking hell
Can I be dead for Wednesday and then the whole trip
Apparently I'm not allowed to express my emotions
I'm not himan
I'm not fucking human
Yay
Heh
Yip
BRO
MY DAD NJST CAME IN YO SEE IF I WAS CRYINF OR CUTTING MYSELF OR KILLING MYSELF
I fucking wish
I'm never gonna kill myself tho NOT BECAUSE OF U MOTHER FUCKERS
But because of my girlfriend
She's my only fucking reason
And she's a really good reason
The best reason ever
Oh my GOD
BRO
My mum seriously thinks I'm going to eat now
Bitfh
Fucking cunt
What do I need to do for them to just UNDERSTAND
I'm so hungry
I want food
I need food
Ugh
I should've eaten before
Maybe this is their plan
Starve me unless I obey them
I'm not going out there just to get yelled at ahain
If I tell anyone about anything I get in even more trouble
I'm scsred
I'm so scared
So fucking scared
Kmsomskmskmskkms
Yayayaya
Yayayay
Im
Why can't I just deel with this like a normal person
Deal* etf
My head
Owfj
Uausueus
Hehehhahaa
Yay
Eeauauejjds
Bro
I literally
TOLD MY MUM I WAS SUICIDAL
Is that not enough
IS THAT NIT ENIUGH
DO I JABE TO LITERSLLY KILL MYSELF AND THEN ST MY FUNERAL WILL U FINALLY HET IT??
No shed be like
Noo where did we go wronf
HAHEHNDN FUCKINF
Bibibibobi
I don't want to flood the lounge so I'm gonna message myself here
K love flop era
Ejsksnsnsns
I don't want to have dinner tonight
Jhhhhhhb
I would say I want to sleep forever but I'm scared they'll come in my sleep w needles
If I sleep I'm letting my guard down
My mum is probably allowed to still do the decisions for me because of my mental health issues and physical and ifk
I hate having her control my entire life
She has control over my whole fucking
Sndnrjdjdndkejs
I feel skck
Hatsune miku
I have a massive headache but I don't want to drink water cuz I don't want to go out of my room
I'm really scared
Idk how to get thru it
There's nothing I can do to get out of it
I feel sick
I'm okay now
I'm so glad
I'm so glad he didn't see
He's sometimes the reason I cut myself
Or apart or it
If he found that out he'd hate me even more and I'd get into troubke
I'm glad he left
My head hurts so much from no water omg
Bernie shut up
Blen
I never look at what he sends me anhynmore
I only care about what she says to me
Ejsndjejdj
Owwies Mt jead
I think she thinks it's her fsult
It's not she didn't know they would react like that
Loke
Idk how to say it but it's just not her fault
It's theirs
Theirs for looking into it
And invading
Anyways
Weeeeeee3e3
Kool
Owwies Mjeaddddd
Aisieeia
I feel alone without her
Aeaease
Gahe
Skdmdndjdn
I'm glad she sides w me
I'm glad she doesn't think I'm the one in the wrong
I'm glad she doesn't think I'm a useless human who is an annoying piece of crap
Djdjrjrjr
Rjrjrjrjrjrjjrj
My fucking headd
I think
I might pass ojt
Eaa
I feel sick
I think she blames herself
My neck omt
My legs ehat
Owcjies
My head
I'm so bored
I'm scared she doesn't like me
Euahh I should drink ester
I'll be fine
Worst case I'll go to the hospital and then I won't have to go
Lowkeh they could give me the vaccinations there tho
Uhh
I'm so bored
Shes the only one I ahbe
I could play whi
No
Ugh
I just want to kmsdkfmrkfkkf
The world would be sm better
Without me
Maybe I will play
Idk
What if charlie or liam r online
I'm not talking to her rn so it'll send me flying
Ig it would serve me right
I'm gross
Okay I'll play whi and see if I can get the hang of it again and just tune everything out and
Just die
I wish
Ew
I'm disgusting ehsy the fifk
I'm
Ew
I'm not gonna eat today
I won't eat tomorrow
I'll probably faint and fall off tomorrow but I mean serves me right
I'm a fucking cunt
I'm gross
Who would like me
I need to just shut up
That's my problem
I don't shut up
I don't know when to shut up
I'm making myself feel sick
It's just gonna remind me of how much of a fucking idiot I am
No I deserve that pain
If she dies
I'm dead
I swear
I'm killing myself in the most brutal and painful way possibke
I can't bresthe
Did I do sometbknf
My mjm just said
She really wishes I left some happiness for her
When annabelles w me I've got all the happiness in the world then all my mum gets is grumpy and shittinedd
Okay
I'm gonna pass out
Yayayayayayayyaya
I'm so uselessssssjahsheuejsnssxhhzsus
Yayeusuzux
Ueshhss
I'm glad no one messages me
I'm glad
I deserve to be alone
Forever
I'm selfish for wanting to die
I deserve to feel pain
I deserve to suffer
That's what I was born for
Im stupid to think any different
Ow my head
Roblox isn't even fucking working properly
I think my girlfriend is dead
If she's dead
I have no use in this eorld
Can my mum shut up
I miss her
I miss herr
Im
Pathetic
I feel dizzy
She can't be desd
SHUT UP
SBUT IP
SHUT THE FUCK UP
shut Up
SHUR UP
GO AWAY
DHUT UP
I DONT GIVE A SHIT
I ONLY CARE ABOUR HER
JUST GO AWAY
Oh my head
I'm useless
My heart is beating donfsst
Plwase
It was cool I wanna go there w her
The whole time I was imagining riding behind and next to her
It'll be us in the future
I'm so excited
I can't wait to get home tho
Then to jvht when she's back o can tell her about it maybe if she wants to hear about jt
EIEIEIEIEE
I did get triggered about a quarter through it but I bounced back pretty quickly
K tbknm cuz k was w horses and had gloves on
I'm proud of nyself
I'm exhausted tho
Puppies

Yayay full bars again
I can't wait until her appointments r done aayayeue
She might be exhausted from them so I don't mind if she doesn't wanna hear about today
Aa
My ankle kept acting up at the end
Hypermobility my beloved
Phony
I think I'll cut my other nails soon
ENEMY KS PLAHING ON THE RADIO
I THOJVHT OMG IS THIS ENEMY
W TNE FIRST LKKE
Whatever u call thst
omgmgmgmgmgmfmfg
Fire dsncd
She's just at an appointment
Iz oki thats why she's not replying
Wijejsnsnaa I'm scared
I'm so sxared
How do I do this tomorrow
I can't not do it
I'm not eating j feel gross
Sorry
I'm hungry for fries but nonino
I no est
I've had a sip of water I'll be fine
Esihh headache
Envy baby
Working for an hour costs as much as a sandwich
I didn't eat lunch either oopsies
I didn't want to
Ester is fine right
Water is good
It's food
I'm so disgusting wtf
Jelp a guy has his dunnies on the back of his neck
SUNNIES
Not multiple tlklets
Aaaaa
Im not prepared for tomorrow
I'm not gonna go to sleep
I can't wait until I have a garden w her
Owowowow