#idk what to call this

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elfin hamlet
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Kageyama

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Fire dance peak

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Ill message her later cuz she deserves to have fun w liam

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I don't want to take that away from her

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Liam just sent me a reel

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So they're not there yet

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I feel sick

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It's fine

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Im fine

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She likes me

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She won't abandon me

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She likes when I message

elfin hamlet
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What if sbe

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Sides with Liam and charlie

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And leaves me for tbem

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I'm alone now

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Im fine

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Im okay

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Im fine

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Im okay

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Im breathing

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Im fine

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Im okay

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I'm shaking

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I need to get into bed

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Im sorry

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I'm so sorry

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I'm so sorry for being such a fucking looser

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I hate who I am

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I'm so

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Yuck

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Oh my god

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My eyes hurt

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I can't stop her from having a good rime

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I could never do that

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I don't want to do that

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Im so disgusting

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Ugh German

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It's fine

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She'll have a good time

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She'll come back

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Then maybe we'll play together

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I'll send gifs to myself

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I can't fuin her day

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I hope she's having a good time

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That'll make me hapy

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I have no motivation for anything anymore

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Kms

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I womt

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Yah yoda core

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Help

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Okay I'm gonna stop saying stuff in general cuz it's just draining more from me

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Iwanttokmssobadly💔💔💔😭😭😭

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I wont

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I wont

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Ewufh

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Iyaoyaiya

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Sndbdndb

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Bug is me

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I love that I have songs I relate to deeply in and then there's just

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I'm so fucking stjpid

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Abyways

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Hi me

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Hello

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I'm so tired

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Djdnf

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I hope she's having a good time

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Nvm im deleting that

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I'm sure it's just cuz she's w everyone

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It's fine

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It's fine

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It's fine

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It's fine

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She's fine

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It's fine

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Im fine

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I'm not fine

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Jelp

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My eyes hurt so nuch

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Everything huets

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I can't besdbe

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And I feel like I'm gonna throw up

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I'mokay

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That's a lie

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Bur I'm okay

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Trust gang

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Yn mym isndbreolting tonneee

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My mum is still not respondingf

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Loeclt

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When girlfriend leaves I'll probably fall asleep

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I am NOT going to forget what that YouTube short told me last night

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Maybe ir was to make people not cut deep

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That's such an odd video tho

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Why

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Help

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Yeah surface cuts hurt more ofc

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Id u want to numb the pain u have to cut deeper!

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What

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Insane video

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It's showing me a lot of stuff that have things to do w suicide lately

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Mainly vocaloid but still

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Like help okay

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Eahvh

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My mum's not replying

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I have German in 4 minures

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3 nvm

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Im actually about to fall asleep

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Surely she can't make me

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She will

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She will make me

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She always does

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I've reached my limit and gone WAY past ir by going to school

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2 minures

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Villain nughtcord peak

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I love superstar

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One minjre

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She's not replying what

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I can't hold myself

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My body isn't working

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She's not replying

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I swsar

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Id she makes me

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She will make me

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Oopsies Germans starting

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What if I just go to sleep

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In so exhausted

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HEKL YEAH SHE SAID YES

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I can't have my phone or anything thi

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Bye gang

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I will sleep

elfin hamlet
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If my mum emails the school they'll know it was me and then I'll get beaten up

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I don't want to get beaten up

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I will make sure nt mum won't enail

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She's not okay

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I can tell

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I don't want water

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I've had barley any today

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What if she doesfn kike me and jrs all just

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It's all a lie

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I'll habe water later

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Maybe

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I think I'm gonna pass ojt

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I miss her so much I'm gonna cry

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I think she

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Doesn't like me

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My heart hurts

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I don't know what to do

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Jias messaging me but I can't message her I'm sorry

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The only one I can talk to is my girlfridn

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My mum wants me to sit w Emma and everyone again tomorrow

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I canr

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She's not replying to me I'm scared

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I'm so scared

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I can't brsfhe

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My knee hurts

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I miss her

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I miss her

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I miss her

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I want to skip these appointments

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I don't like tnem

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I just want to be w her

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Only 2 sleeps

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I can breathe

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No it's not it's 3 sleeps

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What if she doesrn want me

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I'll have water so I don't pass our cuz I want to see if she replies to me cuz that's the most important thing to me atm

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Eauhh

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Water

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I had watet

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R u proud of me gabg

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Jeremiah

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I talked about spending time w her in ot today

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My ot things we're just really close best friends

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She's my best friend but she's also my girlfriend

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She's the best

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Am I the best for her though

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What if I'm not

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I need to get even better

elfin hamlet
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I GOT AN A IN MATHS

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IMSEJSKDMZKSJSKSKEKDNSKSJSJSJJSDJAJAKA

elfin hamlet
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My lungs hurt

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I miss her so nuch

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I don't want to go away

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What if the appointment wasn't an appointment and it was something else and now she's gone

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I can't breathe properly

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I

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Im gonna cfy

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In scared

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Im shaking

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I can't breathe properly

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Living is so hard

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I can't survive without her

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It's been like not even 2 hours

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I can't breathe

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Im scared

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I have 10 minjfes

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In scared

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I can't bearhe

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I can't see properly

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My visions bluery

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Im shakinf

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I'm so scared

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I'm so fucking sxared

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What if her mum made her do something

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I can't breathe

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What if she's gone

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What if she broke her pronise

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Please

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I can't bresrhe

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The thought is just

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Setting me off

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Im scared

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I'm so scared

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I want to be w her forevee

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Im

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I think I'm gonna pass iur

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What if she's dead

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What if she's dead

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What if she's gone

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For good

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Fir ever

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She's gone

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She's not dead

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My theoat hudfs

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Im scared

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I'm so scared

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Im sonscared

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Hoe wanted to take one of my marshmallows

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I'm not eating then but I'm not giving one to you you sweaty dumbass

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I can't breathe

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I don't want her to leave me

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It's her choice but

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I

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I want to keep her

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I'll be selfish for just that

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I want to keep her safe for the rest of my kife

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She's not okay I'm gonna cry

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I want to be able to help

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I want to be able to hold her

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Why isn't this going thru

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Nvm it did

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I want to hold her in my arms for the rest of my life and protect her from everything bad

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She said it's okay

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It's not

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Somethinfs not right

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Its

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Im

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I can't brsafhe

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Somethinfs wronf

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Somethinfs not right

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Sinetbinf happened

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I can't breate

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Why am I never there to protect her

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Why canr I be there

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Why can't I be w her

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Why can't I sheikd her

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Why can't I make things better

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What if she's going to attempt again

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I won't survive id she does

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The only thing getting me thru life is her

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The only thing getting me thru school is her

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The only thing getting me thru everything is her

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Im scsred

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If she's gone

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I am gone

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I swear I will kill myself

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I have no reason to loce

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Live

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The pain will be for nothing without her

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Living will be no use without her

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I have no future without her

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Without her I literally see nothing

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What if she's gonna kill hedsldf

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Im

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I fsnt

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I can't

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I can't do fhis

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I cant

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I can't do do

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I c

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I canf

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Plese

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My heart is

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I don't know

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I need to work

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How am I going to work

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I dant

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What if she kills herself while I'm gone

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What if she kills herself while I'm sleeping

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What if she kills herself while in at school

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My life was nothing without her

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If she's gone then it's nothing again

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I met her then life was suddenly worth living

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I was so close to ending it but I met her

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I met her

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If she's gone from my life

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I don't exist either

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I cant

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If she doesn't keep her promise

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Im

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I will die too

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I can't breathe

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She said not to worry and stuff

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It's not okay

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It's not okay

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Sinetbinf is wrong

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Sinetbinf is wronf

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I can't

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I can't live without her

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Nothing is worth ir without her

elfin hamlet
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I HATE vietnam

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No honey we don't hate vietnam

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I HAYE VIETNAAM

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(I HATE fsk

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(I HATE SCHOOL

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(I HAYE WORK

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I HATE

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I HATE vikki

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Vikki can shbau

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Why did that take AN HOUR

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MORE RHAN AN HOUR

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BRO

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I HATE

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Hey I got to put pjsk and vocaloid in it rho

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And I put earthworm Sally as me because that's what I did ages ago

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I HAD TO FUCKING RE DO IT BECAUSE VIKKI WAS A CUNT

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I HAD TO RE DO JT ALL

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IM PISSED AF HER

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If this isn't good enough I swear fucking hell

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This isnt a vent this is a RAGE

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Hah..

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Minimum rage mentioned..

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Eaugh I feel sick

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I overworked myself

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Just let me play and talk w her already 😭😭😭😭

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I don't want to do German noe too

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I'll do it on Monday or whatever it doesn't matter

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I don't care about German let alone work at all

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My girlfridn comes first but others don't let me put her first

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Im breathing so heavily I rushed that so hard so I could be back

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I lowkey

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I can breathe

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I can't

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But I can trust

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Im breathing

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Im okay

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I tell girlfriend later when she's back but for now I tell myself

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Like here

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I put gumi for vocaloid

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I put a random horse

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I put a random blue heelee

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I put more more jump

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For cosplay

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Cuz that's what I want to work on next even tho I won't be able to but srill

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Uhhhhh

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Whayelse

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I think that's it

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I can't wait to tell herhwrherhehehwhehehheheheherrrrddsedieidiwisisidrir

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It's not that interesting

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It's not interesting at all actually

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She might not want to hear about it

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I've got other interesting things I rhjnk

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Foot

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My shoe is odd

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I'll tell her at sleepies or sometbknf like or when I'm like

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When I have my results back or somethinf

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Hopefully tomorrow

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Hopefully

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Accept me

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Hire me

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Hire me

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Hire me

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Hi ire me

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Hire me

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HIRE ME

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I'm so scsred

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She's not replying to me

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I'm so scared

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I'm so scared

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I'm so scared

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I'm so scared

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I'm so scared

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I can't brwsrhe

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Im scsred

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Is she dead

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She's gone

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There's nothing I can do

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There's nothing I can do

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I can't do

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Abyrbinf

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About ir

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What if she's back in the ohsyc ward

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What if she attempted

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If shes in the ohsyc ward id get so distressed id make myself bleed out a painful desth

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Im sfared

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What if she's dead

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If she's dead

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And if I find out she's dead

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Im killing myself

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I don't care

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There's no use for me if I'm without jer

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She makes me feel wanted

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And she makes me feel like I have a purpose in this world

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She appreciates me

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Without her I'm nothinf

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Can I live at jias house with her

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She's offered

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We would just need to get jobs and like have money for flights down

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Im overthinking

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Surely

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Please

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Surekt

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I hate my brain

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I hate my brain

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As soon as I get the thought I go into an endless spiral

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But its then okay when she's there

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If she messages I'm okay

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When I can talk w her im okay

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She makes everything begyer

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I can't deal w things by myself

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I'm glad I have jer

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She makes it begyer

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She's there to reassure me

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And she promised me

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So it's okay

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And I trust her

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It's okay

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I'm just overthinking

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My stupid brain

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She's okay

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Im just overthinking

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She's okay

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Im okay

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She'll message soon

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She's busy or something and I need to respect that

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It is okay

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It will be okay

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I am okay

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I can brwarhe

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Kagehina

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Okay I'm breathing

elfin hamlet
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I fell asleep accidentally and I feel so bad my stomach burts

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My dreams were weird

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I was w her tho and I'm so sad

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I was gonna play w her after my switch was charhed

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I ruined it

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I fell asleep and

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FUCKINF

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I want to reverse time why the fuck did I have to fall asleep again

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I'm so sad what the duck

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I slept w my jumper on tho so it's like I had her w me stkesdt

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Still it's not good enough rjenrnf DBNRFJ

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Eaugh

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I feel so sirry

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Miku Jeremiah and pietro were next to me tho

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Ejsbdndjdjddn srkl

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I feel bad what ifjje

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Like what if

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She promised irs okay

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I wish my mum woke me up to feed ammt wbat tbe fuck

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My fingers r so short what

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In not showering in gonna shower tomorrow I need to be here when she's back

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Maybe she's asleep already

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I can't get that fucking balloon

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Just a fucking sky egg

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Dndnfndnd I want to be w her

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If she's sleeping or doesn't wanna organize it today then I ask if we can tomorrow

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I need to find my apple pencil cuz then maybe after my likit I can work on merry

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OMG CUZ WYSHESHSHAAAA AHABABASAAHAHAHHA IT DOESNT HAVW A LIMIT AND I CAN STILL SEARCH SFUFF

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AHAAHAHAH

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SO I CAN HAVE A TAB OPEN OF MERRU IM OMG

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I'm so happy

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I've got it planned out in my head

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I need to clean my iPad case tho it's crusty

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Rnnffnfndndndndnfnfndndnde

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Ugh it's school tomorrow

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Irs the last week nrul holidays rho jrs okay

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Hopefully then sleepiee

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I feel so unmotivated

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I keep checking to see if she's nessaged ejrnffnrnrnrnrn

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Lanade

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Kanade

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Im emu otori

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Emu means SMILEEEKEEEE

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What if she thinks I ifnired her

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And she's mad at me

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I .miss her

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I got iced coffee from a balloon what

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Im dehydrated

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I keep just staring at the thingy w her idk what to call it our chat or whagever

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Im not doing anything in animal crossing ieadjfndn I just want to be w her

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Eaugh

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This sucks

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Im scared now

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It's almost been an hour

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She promised and she's probably just sleeping and I'm overthinking it jrs kjay

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There's someone in general who likes haikyuu wha

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Rjtntndndmn

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I feel so chuldish

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Like when ur parents leave u at kindergarten

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I miss her I want to be w her I want her

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Oh my god im so glad she's on animal crossing

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She's not dead

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Good

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Oh

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One hour left

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I hate this why do I have to have a ljmut

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I hope she's back before my ljnit

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It's says she's offline for me on animal crossing what

elfin hamlet
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Im hallucinating badlt

elfin hamlet
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I feel really sick

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Apparently hallucinations arentgood gang

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I knew that already

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I want to be able to see her on the holidays

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Bur at the same time if she doesn't want to or if she's too exhausted to then that's okay too and I'll respect that

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I hope she doesn't hate me

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I feel so sick

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I feel so lonely without her

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I'll probably cry all holidays

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Nvm I'll have no time cuz my family will be home the whole fime

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Scjool is way too much for me

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I can't handle it anymore

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And now loke

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No sleepove

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It's fine

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It's okay

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I feel so sick

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I just want to go home

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And cry

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And sleep

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Until I can see her again

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What if I can't see her

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Im brearhinf

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I am okay

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I hate people

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People hate me

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And fair enough

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I'm not very likeable

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Im

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Like odd

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Along e my stupid little habits

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Krlfmfmd

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I feel like I'm going to faint

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What if I'm dying

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My head hurfs

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Eauhh

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I hate who I am

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Im breathing

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I feel like I need my whayever it is

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I never use it

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Bur I need to breathe

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Thing for asthma

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Villain

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I love villain

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I miss her

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ONG THE GIF PKAYED AT RHE RIGHT TIME FOR THE ENDINF

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My back hurtd

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I think my spine is deteriorating

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Bernie doesn't like me

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Fair enigh

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I'm gay and he hates gays

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What if she hates me

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Or shed drsd

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Rktmmgkrkdfmmf

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I feel pointless

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Birdbrain real

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My eye hurts what

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Uhoh

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When is lunch

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It is lucbh

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Esit

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Stop

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😭

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I was hoping she'd be back

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Tis okay

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I'm just overthinking

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Like I always fo

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Oh it's time

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I feel so sick

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In good j have until 1:50 YAYA

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I don't care about my friends anymore

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They make me feel like shit

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And I can't do anything about ittttt

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And I can't go to guidance ever or I'll get screamed atttt

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If I get help I'll get punishedddd

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Yayayaaaa

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Jdnfnfjfjdkdfi

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Real car

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If I find out she's not alive I'm killing myself right here

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Im sad

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Im scared

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I want to be w her

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Dna fr

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Frfr

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Frfrftfrrkrkfnfkf

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Fjfnfgkfkkffjjfjff

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I feel so lonely

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I have my animal crossing villagers

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They're always happy to see me

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I hate mee

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Yayesiaa

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I feel so gross

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I hate people touching ne

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I DONT GOVE A SHIT IF UR MY PARENT

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DONT TOUCH ME

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I didn't like that when I was little so why do u keep doing jt

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That's why I don't sit with the fsmily

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To have her over I'm going to have to deal with it tho

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And not snap

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Eajgj

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I can't eat in front of my family

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Im not good enough

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She deserves more than me

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I'm also a shit child

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No wonder my mjms like that to ne

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She's probably just clicked

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Fair enough

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Im shit

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Sjes not bsfk

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I have a headache

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No itd not a jesdsche

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Idk what it is

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I'm so tired

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I want to be w her

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She's

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What

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If

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What jf

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If she is im gone too

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I feel like shit

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My mjm just casually dismissing the fact that im suicidal again

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I never stopped being suicidal

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Maybe she doesn't take me seriously

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I mean who would

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Irs me

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Golden fred

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That's fredbear but

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I love

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In scared she's dead

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20 minjres

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How am I gonna survive English

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If I sleep when I get home it'll prove my mjms point

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I can't sleep

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Ekfjdjdjdjf

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I feel

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Rsugh

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I can never cry

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Im never allowed to cry

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I always have to just

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Suppress Mt emotjons

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Supressn mt emofjons and exist

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My eyes hurt

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Oh my god I feel so sick

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Cjfnfnfjjfjf

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I love staring inti soace

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Im scared

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In scsred she doesn't like me

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Im scared she's desd

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Im scared

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I'm so scared

elfin hamlet
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Im so tireddd

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My finger hurts so much

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Phew he didn't open my door

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I'm so tired

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Im falling sleep

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I won't sleep until she back fho

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Im so fkfdd

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I need do mwaaage jia and miley but I only have energy to message wife

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Wif

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My fingers going numb against

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Ijjm

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I'm so sleepg

elfin hamlet
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People r looking at mrrrreee

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This is MY spot

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MINE

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My finger hurts smn

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If I tell anyone about it they'll think like the wrong thing about my mum

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She didn't do it ok purpose

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Owwies

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I'll play pjsk

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Bitch r u still fucking in there

elfin hamlet
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I hate teachers what the fuck

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Just let me go to my little place

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They're louder than the srudents

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SHIT THE FUCK UP

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What the fuck

elfin hamlet
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Im so hungry

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My finger hurts

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Bro in so hungry what the fuck

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A bit more than an hour and then I get to talk to her tho

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It's worth it

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I mean it'll always be worth it to talk to her

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Iendnrnddnd I'm so hungry

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Why did my mum call me a pig

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I

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Anyways

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Then she wonders why I don't like eating w everyone

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I'm so hungry

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I hope I can play animal corssint with wife todsy

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I'm so hungry that I feel sick now what the fuck

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I don't ask for maccas cuz we probably won't have time and money and also i don't want to seen like a pig

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Idk what I'm doing wrong

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What am I doing that makes me a pig

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I'm so good at masking fashion pookie didn't notice anything

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My stomach hurts orjff

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Some kid came up to ne

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Abyways

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I'm so hungry

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Dies she want me to gain weight or not

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Id u tell me I'm a pig ofc I'm not gonna want to est

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Kids r so annoying what the actual fuck

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I'm so hubgry

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Am I not enough

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Ew kids

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I wish I could have my 3ds cuz I'm so sad I can't message her while I'm playing at school

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My feet r numb

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I miss her

elfin hamlet
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My mum asked if I wanted maccas and I said I didn't mind because I didn't want to sound like a pig

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Im really self conscious now

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I'm not hungry anymore

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Well I am

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Ugh

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My finger hurts srull

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I love oberride omf

elfin hamlet
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My finger is going numb now

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Aaaaaa

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Bernie is certainly interesting

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A party

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Not that I would go to a party but still

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Yumyum

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My finger is so numb

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Is that normal

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Uhuhm

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Wife not back

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Sjdfdkdj

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I look odd

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I miss ber

elfin hamlet
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I need to get sm stuff done and I'm dying from cramps

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I havnt even stsrted

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Eajajah

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My stomach hurtsss

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I hate my period

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I. Need to do this so I can have her over but I physically cabt

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In trying not to fall asleep

elfin hamlet
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I feel like theowind up

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I have to do pilates too eauhhv

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I havnt done any work yet eirher

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Idsmile peak

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I have so little energy that even pjsk is taking energy from me

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I stopped playing at 11

elfin hamlet
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Okay stuff from ot

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Suppressing my emotions and only showing my true emotions when w annabelle is why I have no energy all the time

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I need to find a way to not suppress everything and be able to cry and stuff

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And yes I forgot what else

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Still gonna cry at only 3 am and w annabelle cuz that's when I feel safe to tho

elfin hamlet
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I can finally rest

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I miss her so much

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It's been 4 days

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I brearhe

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Yah

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Yah

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Yah

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I havnt used yah in ages

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MUSIC

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Sweaty

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Liam saying people r inforinf him? Uhhm

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When people don't talk to u for a few hours but they do talk to u every single other second of the day id say it's a once off

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He talked to me today because he was desperate for someone to talk ro

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All the other times he just ignores me

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Wbat

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Abyways

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It's fine I've got my girlfriend to talk ro

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And my animal crossing villages to talk to

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J accidentally pissed off judy this morning

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YAY SWITCH HAS CHARGE

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I'm so excited for when wife comes to my islanddd

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Omg I need to work on wxs things so then that can be his theme

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Im finding inspiration and I'm happy but I'm just so sad

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In so sad

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I would say it's fine but my ot said it's okay for it not to be fine

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No it's fine

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Jt is fine

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I'll stop lying to myself one day which will be when I'm living w ber

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It's fine

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There's blood from my nose bleed on my switch still

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I'm emu otori

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BELL

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HELP

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IM CFYINT

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IM DYINGG

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Not even that made me smile but it loosened my face so I mean at least that's like

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Iyaiyaiya

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Boy do I love emotions

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Kanade is so me I can understand why I have the same mbti as her

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I go thru screenshots to make me happy

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I feel so lonely

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Addis in brisbane but I just want to message her I don't want to message anyone else

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I miss her

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My ot said

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I forgot what she said when I said I'm barley able to cey

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D

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N

#

A

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I'm in ppain

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I hate my period

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Im lonely

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She probably finally realized that I'm borinf

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I hate who I am

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I can't cry

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I'm not allowed to cry

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I'm not allowed to show my emotions

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Real

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I want to be around ber

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I want to be around her

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She makes me feel safe and wanted

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And needed

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And loved

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Echo real

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Iove vocaloid

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Dmfnfkrkdnfnfnsnsnsnfjfjejssn I should write down all the vocaloid songs I relate to one day

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It would fill up a whole book

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I'm so sad

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Am I

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I nee

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Idk

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I hate

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Me

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She's realized how boring I am

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She'd rather spend time w others

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Fair eniygh

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Or what id she's dead

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If she's dead I'm sitting mt writs tonight

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Idc about anythinf id she's dead

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I can't breathe

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I can't see

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She doesn't like me anymore

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I can't brarhe

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What if she's dead

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What if she's gone back

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I have no reason for anything id she's gone

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Or what if

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She's in hospfa

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Snd

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That's why

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That's why

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Thahd why shes

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Im

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She's the only one who understands me

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The only one who I trust

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The only one who I feel absolutely safe with

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The only one I can be my true self with

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The only one I lovd

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I can't breathe

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I need to focus on the thing I'm doing because it'll make me happy because irs for her bur

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I cant

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I cant

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Id she's dead IRS not worth ir

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Nothing's worth ir

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Hey I have 4 more blades now

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What if I starve myself too

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Yeh I'll starve myself too

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I'll cut myself 800 times

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No I'll go w my lucky number

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3000

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I'll bleed ojt

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And die

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If she's gone no one will miss me

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What if I get a knife rho

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Hey

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That could be nice

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I'll become yuri

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I'll stab myself 30 times

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If she's

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I can't do this

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I wish I had sharper blades

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Nvm they're probably blunt from sm use

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That's the good thing about my parents not suspecting abyrbinf or my support workers

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I can buy as many as I want and not get questioned

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More more jump jump jimp

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I'll die before I get an append

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Oh well

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Not like itd be worth ir with her gone

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Im

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My heart is racing

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Miley said for me to not kms

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No infact I'm not eating morjer

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Jia also told me to not kms

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She begged me infact

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Last year

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Im only staying alive if she's alive

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Sorry gang

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My life has no use otherwise

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What if I snap my bones

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Real

#

What r reasons to not kms

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Bro

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The only reason

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Is her

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She's the only reason I have to not kill myswlf

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What fucking list

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There's no list

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Irs just ONE

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I want to carve my flesh

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Im going insane

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I want to be with her

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She makes me feel better

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I can cry normally around her

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Anemdndndksnsksmsk

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I will not kms

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(if she's alive)

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I will kill myself if shes dead

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I don't care

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Nothing is worth it without her

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My ot said I shojldnt get a job until I've sorted out like emotions

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I can't be calm until I'm w her

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So I have to get a job so I can

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Mafuyu is so relatable fifk

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Me staring at

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No

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Wait it's my vent I can say it

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Me staring at my ||blade|| HELP ME

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Im going insane

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Birdbrain

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Hey can I become a gummy bear

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Oh the gifs

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And can my head get chopped off

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Plesd

#

Iyaiyaiya

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I'm so scared

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Eimmgn the ndsnsns skmsnddnsnd

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I'm so scared

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What if she's lying

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Im

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Wait it's April 1st

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Im so scared

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I'm so fucking scsred

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What if she's lying

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And she kills herself

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And I'm all alone

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Wiithout her I'm worthless

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I can't make it thru life without her

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Im scared I'm scared imnscared

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What if I'm not a good eniugh reason

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If she dies I am going to kill my self so brutally that it will go down in history

elfin hamlet
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CAN BERNIE SHUT THE FUCK UP I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD

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I HAYE HIM

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EVWN WIRB MT DOOR CLOSED

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HEA SO LOUD

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SHUT UP

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He just said to me

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"no need to scream, relax"

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He got that from his dad

#

Wow

#

I only screamed because he wouldn't listen to me as I kept getting lihder

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And irs making me panic

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Oh my fucking god

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Now my throat hurts

#

I can't wait to live w her

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And be away from this fucking loud shit

elfin hamlet
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HOLY SHIT

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Okay

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Gossip

#

But I witnessed it happeb

#

This girl said why do u always leave when it gets mentioned your oregnant

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She then said while picking up her bag well cuz u don't believe me

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Then

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As the argument kept goinf