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elfin hamlet
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She still hasn't replied

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She can't be gone she can't be

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No crying

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I am okay

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She's not gone

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She might just need some space

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Im probably annoying her

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No

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She's gone

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Ejrjtnfj

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Killne

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Please

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Djd

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I'm breathing

elfin hamlet
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They don't like me ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ˜ž

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Tis okay I have wife jia and addi

elfin hamlet
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I LOVE MY WIFE SO MUCH

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Okay I genuinely think it's gonna end like everything else has and they're gonna just talk without me now and make a group without me

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It's fine I've got wife jia and addi

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If they do that then they weren't real in the first place

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It hurts but I know that girlfriendo won't leave me

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So I will always have girlfriendo even if they leave me

elfin hamlet
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I think I'm the problem

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Cuz why do they not like me

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Why does everyone not

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Loke

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I mean I have people who like me

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But if so many people

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Girlfriend gone

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I wait

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I'm so lonely

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I'm used to being lonely it's me

elfin hamlet
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I'll just stop messaging tjem

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I'll just stop

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Stop it all

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Maybe charlie literally wanted to use my birthday just to see my girlfriend and liam

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It's fine

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I don't want to go to pilates it's so difficult

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I just want to sleep and message wife

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I really hope she's back soon

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Ewp before pilates

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I feel so dead

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My hearts bwarinf so fast

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My visions going blurry I feel like something's wrong

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I'm fine

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In not breathing normally

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I'm not fine

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What

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I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine I'm fine

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I just need to breajre

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I just hope she doesn't abandon me

elfin hamlet
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Sjjdndndjv

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I hate

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I hate I hate I HATE

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I'm breathing so heavily

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Level 28

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Sharon's here already fucking kill ne

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I hope I can say bye to girlfriend before I fo

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I cant

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I'm so scared

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If she's gone I'm gone

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Im fine

elfin hamlet
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I'm shaking

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I'm so scared

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I'm so scared I'm shaking

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I can't even go to the fucking toilet

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Hearing her name triggered me

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I can't

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Im

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I'm

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I csnt

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I fsnr

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I fwnt

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I cant

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I cant

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I cant

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I cant

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I can't walk in

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I'm stuck in the bathrom

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Snaking

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I can't brearhe

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I can't beearhe

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I'm fine

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In fine

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If she's gone I'm dead

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I cant

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I cant

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I csnt

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I can't mive

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I can't do tbis

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I cant

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She's just not here right now she's not dead

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She's just not hrre

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She'll be back

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I'm fine

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I'm fine

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It's okay

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It's okay

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It's okay

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I need to sit down

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I'm gonna pass our

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I'm not

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She's not

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I can tell she's not

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There's something

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I don't know

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Im

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Fuck

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She's not

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She's not

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I can't do this

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I'm gonna throwbup

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She's not kkay

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She's not

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She

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She just doesn't

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Fuck

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In fine

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I'm fine

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I want to be there

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I can't take it

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If she dies or anything

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I'm honestly gonna

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Fuck

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I can't do this

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I fant

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I'm cryint

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I cant

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I can't do this

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I can't do this

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What if she did sometbknf

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I'm so scared

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I love her

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I love her so much

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I can't losose her

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I cant

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She's the one I care about the most out of sbyone

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My life didn't have meaning until I met her

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I need to stop crying

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I can't thiugh

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I cant

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Just the thought of her gone

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I'm

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I can't do this

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I can't do this

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Please tk to me

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I can't see my screen properly

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Please talk to me

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I can't have you leave me

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You promised me you wouldn't

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Please dont

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Plesde

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I'm sobbing

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It's gonna be just

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Its

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Ir

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Plesde

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No

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There's no purpose of living if I can't

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I can't

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I told her I can tell

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I fant

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I fwnt

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I cant

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Plesde

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I can't take it if u

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If u go

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I'm so desperate

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I need to stop crying and get all this snot away ew

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What if she's lying

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I

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She can't leave

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Plesde

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I'll do abyrbinf

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Literally anything

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Id chop my arm off to keep you alive

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Plesde

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Plesde

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Please sstay with me

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Forever

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If she's dead I'm dead

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She

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I can't

elfin hamlet
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That was the fastest I've ever washed my hair in my entire life

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Ejrjtnnrr

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I'm scared

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What if I wake up and

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I can't

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She makes me the happiest I've ever felt

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She knows how to comfort me

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She understands me

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She's the only one I can be me with

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Shes the one I feel the safest with

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She's the one I care about modt

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I would do anything for her

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And that says a lot because I hate doing things on demand for people

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She's my light at the end of the tunnel

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She gets me through things

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No matter how difficult things are I'm always looking forward to my future with her

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It's all worth it

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I love her so much

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She's the best girlfriend I could ever ask for

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I didn't even ask for her she just came into my life

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Now I can't imagine my life without it

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Her* not ir wtf

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I didn't have a life before I met her

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I was just

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I was barley existinf

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Then I met her

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And I felt like I had a purpose

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She makes me feel wanted

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She makes me feel needed

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She makes me feel loved

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She makes me feel so happy

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I never thought anyone would love me

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Genuinely

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She's actually the best thing that has and ever will happen to me

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She's the sweetest person ever

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She makes me feel like I belong

elfin hamlet
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NO MORE EXQMS

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For this term

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EEE

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So stressful holy shit

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I'm gonna go grey

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After this week it's only 70 weeks until I graduate and I can live with my girlfriend

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I can breathe now

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I can't wait to play animal crossing when I get home

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If she wants to onlt

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Id she doesn't that's fine too

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20 minures to myself with no mum

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Happi

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I hope she's back soon cuz now I can talk normally until 1:20

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YiPPIES

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I love heat abnormal

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I want to make the thingy

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I can't wait to decorate our house w her

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My throat hurts

elfin hamlet
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I'm so

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Scared

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I don't want her to leave

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What if she

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I csnt

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If she's dead I'm

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I have no motivation to live if she's dead

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I'm killing myself if shes dead I won't be able to survive

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The pain itself would kill me

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The pain if her being dead would kill me I wouldn't even have to kill myself

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I really hope she stays safe

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My worst fear is her gone

elfin hamlet
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67 in a merry rizzmas

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I didn't think this is how it would be

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It's

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Idk

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Loud

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There's so many people I wanna go home ๐Ÿ’”

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It's okay I have sleepies w girlfriend to look forward to

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Eiaieieiejejajsjejisiaa

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I miss her so much I want to be w her

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It's only been a week

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I'm the only one doing the test in walk

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Ejdnfnfnjf

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I feel so untalented

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Everyone can canter

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Everyone i know

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Ejdjdjdj

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She can canter

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She can canter and she looks so good

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I mean she always looks good

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Bur she looks extra good

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I miss her

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Eisjdjejend

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I want to be next to her

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I want to be next to her and have horses at our house

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I love her I can't wait to live w her

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It's gonna be so epic

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My epic wife

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Aiyaiyaiya

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EEEEJAMANANSNSNSNZNAAA

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(lyrics

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Trust

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Hi how can I help u?

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I'm so happy I brought jereniah w me

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SHE MADE HIM FOR ME

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W HER OWN HABDS

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IM

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Djnfnfjejd

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Djfjfjdjd

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I love him

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He's so pookie and perfect

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She's so amazing at crocheting like what

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It's so difficult

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Jeremiah so pookie

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I love

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SND MIKU

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Rjfnnfjaaaa

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Crocheting is

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Fuckinf hard

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I kinda could do it then I just

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Idk it's so many things

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Like the tension and stitching AND THERES MORE THAN ONE STRICH

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LIKE SORRY HOW

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I miss her

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When I get home I need to remember to charge my ipad

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I need to do merry

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I love are u okay

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I'll make sure merry is doje for sleepies

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Cuz then I have something to give her

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Nanannaaaa

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I LOVE FIRE DANCE

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I'm so happy I could watch it w her

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On my BIRTHDAY

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FOR THE FIRST TIME

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WIRH HERRRR

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WIRH HEEEREER

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She's so peak

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I can't wait to see her

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MY BORTHWR NEVER TEPLIED TO ME WHAT THE FUCK

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Something's coming somethinfs coming somethinfs coming somethinfs coming somethinfs coming for you HEAR ABNORMAL PEAKKK

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Wdym she's a person who actually loves and cares about me and my stuff ๐Ÿ˜ญโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ

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I love her

elfin hamlet
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They're giving me like no free time and I'm so sad I really want to be able to talk to her

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I hope the trip is long like 3 hours so I can talk then

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I miss her I miss her I miss her I miss her I miss her

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I can't wait to give her the matching shell I found and merry shell

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I think she's at an appointment

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I distracting myself w pjsk but I wanna play it w her

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I wanna pkay it w HER

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HER

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NOW

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PLEASE

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8 minutes until I have to chabge

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Okay ๐Ÿ˜ž

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I hoep she's back soon so I can talk on the way

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I WAS ABOUR TI GET A FUCKINF FULL COMBO THEN I FUCKED IT UP

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I'll tell her about it when she's back

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When I get back maybe tonight after she's gone to sleep ir something I might try draw sonethinf for her cuz it's been so long and I want to

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I just need to decide whar

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Okay wait I need to get ready

elfin hamlet
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I'm so exhausted I feel like I've had 8 days already in this one day

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I want to be able to talk to her

elfin hamlet
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I feel so icky

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I wish I was w her

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I can breathe when in with her

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Okay I'll focus on something for her so then it's like I'm kinda w her

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I can't fucking draw

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I need my own pencil

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I miss her so much

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I'll just play animal crossinf

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I hope I can message her at tonight

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I miss her

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I feel so like

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Down without her

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I'll draw something for her when I get home and I'm in the right space to draw because this camp is just not the place to draw

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I cojkd sleep until 6

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I won't wake up and what if she messages and then I'm asleep

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I miss her

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Oh

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Okay she nught just not be seeing my messages that's why

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In sure

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My heart dropped when I saw her typing and messages from her in it I'm

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It's fine

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She'll message me when she's ready

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I think I'm being to over the top atn

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There's a fire alarm wtd

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If I die I love u annabelle

elfin hamlet
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Hospital is scary but at the same time I don't want her to die from no fluids

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What if she can't come to sleepies ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

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That's been my motivator ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

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Iyaiyaiya

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What if her mum doesn't let her come

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If that happens I'll bawl my eyes out ๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”

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If that happens

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Idk

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Seeing her irl is what gets me thru things

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It's what's getting me thru this

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Cuz I know oh after this then I'll see her sooner

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If I can't see her i

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I won't be able to do abyrbinf I'll just

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It's okay

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She nught even be too exhausted to see me anyway

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She wouldn't want me to stress about it

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I'll be fine

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As long as I can message her I'll be fine

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Hopefully

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I miss her so much nt eyes r hurting

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I can't cry here

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When everyone's gone I fwn

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I miss her so much

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I miss her so fucking nuch

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I want to be playing animal crossing while being next to her or just next to her in general

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I have a massive headache my drinking has not been good today

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It's been better than yesterday tho

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I miss her

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I miss herr

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I niss

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HER

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I dnfnnf

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I have a massive headache

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I need to drink water but I can't

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I will later

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Maybe

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In still sad about charlie and lian

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It's fine

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They can't help it

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Ir something idk

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Ig it's not fault for not being interesting

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My fault for being annoying

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I'm happy I'm not annoying to her

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If I was I would change myself tho because I never want to annoy her

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I think addis starting to get sick of me

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After 5 years

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It's okay I have jia

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And I've got her

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I'll always have her

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Shes probably doing something else I'll message her in a bit

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I keep checking if she's messaged help me

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Echo

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She messaged I'm hapi

elfin hamlet
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R E G R E T

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Bitch r u still fucking in there?

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Bought a bunch of shit I didn't need now my bank account is empty and I should really get some sleep

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But that's a problem for tomorrow me

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REPLAY

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I love regret rick

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I should lowkey reply to my mun

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I wanna burn my house down to an ugly black

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Why I'm switching faster than the channels on tv?

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My enemy's invisible j don't know how to fught

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My toe keeps dislocating

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I hate my toe

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I'm happy I can still see stuff on my phone

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She on a inal crossing

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Me too but she can't see

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๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”

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Nnaanaana

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Fire dance peak

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I wanna watch the movie again lowkey

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Eaugh I miss her

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I accossiate all the songs that r in the movie w her now so listening to them makes me extra hapy

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Byebye bye

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Socks

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Ew

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My head

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More more jump

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I feel sick

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I'm obsessed w the override dance

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I miss her

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I miss her so much

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I feel dead

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Im so exhausted

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I wish I could message her more

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I don't think she's okay

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In sure she's just distracted and I'm overthinking it

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Dirkrjfsj I hate my stonach

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I'm glad I can tell tho

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But still

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I'll be here for her when she's ready

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It doesn't matter how long it takes

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As lMY TOE FUCKINF DISLOCATED AGAIN

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IM GONNA CUR IR OFF

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As long as she stays safe

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As long as she stays safe I'm happy

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I will wait for her

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No matter how long is takes

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I miss her

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My hands r dirty from fixing my toe

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I HAYE MY TOE

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Okay she's not okay

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Idk what to do

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If ur reading this please stay safe

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Bug me fr

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Is*

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It's bug, bug bug

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Real

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IYAIYAIYA

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I miss her

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I don't think she's ready to talk to me though

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I fel like I'm gonna passout

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I'm fine

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Maybe in pissing her off

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I just hope she doesn't leave me like everyone else

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Cuz I care about her the modt

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I'm

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๐Ÿ˜ž

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My mjm just happily

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Okay

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I think I'm annoting

elfin hamlet
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HELO ME MY PGONEW ON 1 PERCENT

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Charlie replied to me

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Does panadol numb non ohsycial pwin

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Will it numb my hesrt

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I miss her so much

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It hurts

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It hurts so much

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I'm definitely being annoying

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No

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It's fine

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She'll like

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When she's ready

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It's okay

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I just have to be patient and trust she

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Idk

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No animal crossing

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I wanna wash my hands ejsndndjdjfd

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I don't have clean water in my bottle either

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Phony

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I'll charge my seitch

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Phone maybe

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No I need it to see if she messages and music

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That's all I use it for mainly

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NOT ANOTHER DEATH IF ITS TRUE

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I'm sure it's not true

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I wish I could help jia

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Snnddnnfnfndnndnn

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It's a real thing

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It's a real real thint

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I almost lost her

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I miss her

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I'm breathing

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In ikay

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I'm okay

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I'm okay

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I am okay

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In fine

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What if she's fone

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What if she's fone

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What

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What if she's gona

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It's a real thing

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It's

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I'm so sorry for jia

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This is making me go into a panic about my girlfjrbd possibly being dead im

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She's not

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She messaged me

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I'm breathing

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I'm okay

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She messaged me

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She's not dead

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She's not

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She won't

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I feel sick

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I feel like yoshiki in this frame

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NO I CANT FIND IT

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I'm going deep diving I need to have this imagine

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Inage

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Image

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Not jia too

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Okay image

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This is what I feel like

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I can't brearhe

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I'm okay

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Okay

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Jrs okay

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I need to wash my hands stikl

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I just want to text her

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Okay jias okay

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I want my girlfriend

elfin hamlet
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Kagemine

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This new pen is not it

elfin hamlet
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I'll tell her later

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I think her phones probably dead

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What if she doesn't like me

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Tjjtjttntnfnfnfnf

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Reeal

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Deleting that tho

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Not bad but

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Idk

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Euehshshdhd

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I miss her

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Iclifss ๐Ÿ’”

elfin hamlet
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I can't breathe properly

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I need to finish this or she'll hermad

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Hopefully girlfriend can message later

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I miss her

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I miss her so much

elfin hamlet
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I dreamt she was gone

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And since I didn't say goodnight

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Well I did but like

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Not properly

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What if she doesn't want to see me

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It's okay I have until 12 now

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Please

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Please don't hare me

elfin hamlet
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It's good news

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Idk if it'll make her happy

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Rjshdhebdbdhdhe

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But like

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I'm relieved about it

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I'll sleep better tonight knowing she's alive but like

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I don't sleep well or at all cuz I think she hates me

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I'm annoying to talk to

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I'll play animal crossing and see if she replies to me

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I can't even play animal crossing

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All I'm doing is hust

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Sitting on my phone when I say I'm gonna play

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I'll atleast get my seitch out

elfin hamlet
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I don't have peace anymore

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I want to live w her already ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

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I'm gonna cdy

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I've just started messaging them again

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They were ignoring me so I was like okay I'll get one if Charlie's interests

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Okay

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It's fine

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They don't want me

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It's ikay

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Theyre probably takkinf abihr me privately

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I'm trying not to cry

elfin hamlet
# elfin hamlet

If anyone actually reads this sorry for the music in the background

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I'm gonna fucking cry

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Okay they didn't ignore me because I replied to them talking about the rain but then I think they got sick of ne

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I'll stop messaging no matter how serious or funny something they say is

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I don't care

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If

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Ikay

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I have other people it's okay

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I would go offline but I want her to see my music

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Oh my god I feel sick

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It's okay

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Oh my god

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I can breathe

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I am okay

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I am safe

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Oh my god

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I'd leave it but then the ownership would go to charlie and he'd change eveehrhinf

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I'm too much for most people

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I'm glad my girlfriend isn't part of those most people

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I'm so sad what the fuck

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Im wearing my jacket that reminds me of her

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I just put it on

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I feel safer now

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Im cold

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And hungry

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Mostly cold

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Oh my god๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ

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Whenever I unmask even just a little bit I WASNT EVEN BECAUSE MESSAGINF but

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Everyone then turns on me

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Tbese lyrics

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I love bug

elfin hamlet
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Idk id that makes any sense

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My god in so sad

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I thihght rhey enjoyed being around me

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Maybe they did for a bit

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Rbeb just stopped

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It's understandable

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I'm so sad

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Im so lucky I have my girlfriend and friends though

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Online friends but I mean it's still something I guess

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Why do they choose to stay with me

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Maybe in just abbotibf wbd rbeir jusr deiqlinf wjrb e

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No addi and jia do care about ne

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My girlfriend does too the nist

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I have 4 notifications from the server now

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Not notifications

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Pings

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Ejdbd

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Charlie just

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Ifbired what Liam sqid

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It's ikqy

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I just won't respond

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I might even just stop reading completely

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Im so sad what the fuck

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I can't moce

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I can't get ihr id bed

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Im so exhausted and sas

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Im so fokd

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I should turn the air in idd

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I can't have my blq jer

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Ykw idc Im getting my blanket

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Atp I won't have a blanket for the night abyway

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So I'll use my normal one dirty

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I nusr stay awake so I can be here when she's. Axj

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I'm so sad

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Im so fucking aas

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So fucking

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Fuck

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My blanket fucking stinks

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I feel sick

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They're talking normally

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It's throwing me back to primary school

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And highschool

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No matter where I am and who it is

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This always happens

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Not w my girlfridn jia and addi tho

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I'm so sad

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There's no use in trying to convince myself about abyrbinf now though

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I decided to give them a second chance (I guess in this case see if they'd give me a second chance cuz I think I've done something wrong

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Abgway

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Rjrjnfjfjfnffnffnfjfjffe

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My girlfriend said like last week or something that she didn't liek how they were trearing me

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I can't brwdhe

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Im breathing

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She told me to rennebee to breathe

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Im breathinf

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Im okwy

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My brother just said he broke the law (a minor one or something) because youtube said it was okay

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I need to stop seeing what they're saying

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I've had notifications off for it for atleast 2 weeks or 3 now so that's helped but it doesn't help when I can actually see

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Anyways

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Oh gid my mum just made me have this thing because

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I can't even say it I'll tell my girlfriend

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Ydsusduss7sus

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I think I already told her about it but not the med side

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It's bug bug bug

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Aajdnsnsnsjsa

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Paranoia

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Paranoia paranoia paranoia iyaiyaiya

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Im so sad irs really been getting to me ever since Liam and charlieb started ignoring me

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Emma and sakura or idk her name irs something like that ignored me when I said hi and just

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I said hi agaih

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It's fine

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Claire was nice to me

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I'm so sad

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I hate school

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I'm so excited to see her I miss her so much

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Djfndjdjdjjfjddj

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I want to see her niw

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My hands r still bloody

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I'll wash them later

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I didn't wanna wash them cuz I wanted to message her right away

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Is that yucky

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Ejejdjdjdjjedjjrdjjeeie

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Fredy yoshiki

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Iiiiii mkkisisss heeerr4jjesmdsndndjd

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It's okay

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Tomorrow will be uh

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FIVE DAYS

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Why'd that take me so long

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I want to live w her akrsdy

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I had to colour in my sketches today and finish my last sketch and I hate how it looks

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The wonderful drawing oh my god

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I need to know who drew it

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I'm making the first one for fashion wek

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I wanted to show rhen to her today but then I had to coloru then

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Now I don't like how they look

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I'll show her still

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But like

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Nanananaaa

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Fire dsnce

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Peak

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Mayve animal crossing if she wants to stikl

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HAPPI

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Aaaaaiyaiya

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There's stillbkood on my habds

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I miss her

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I need to get up and wash my habds

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Thanks for checking in I'm not doing well

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Just got told iff by my sad

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My heart is racing the guy who gt every ibe to turn on me hust nessaged me 5 years kater

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What does: I'm big now mean

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Okay nvm

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Why is he sharing this much w me what

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Eiejejejej

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I can't breathe properly

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In gonna throw up

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I miss her

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I want to message her

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I want to be next to her

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Does she hate me too

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I can't brearhe

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In sorry please don't hate me for messaging him

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He messaged me first

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I don't like guys

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I love her

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I never wont

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I can't brearhe

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I think

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Idk

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I'm so scared

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I cant

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My eyes hurt

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In scared

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I can't eat

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She hates me

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I can't do rhis

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She hates me she

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I can't do it it's too fucking hard

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I've done so much research for nothing

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I feel sick

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I can't do this without my medicsrion

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In using that as an excuse I'm just not smart enough

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I can't do this im

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My mum's gonna get pissed at me

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I'll get punished

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And I'll have to do it at home

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Which will be even more stressful

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My hearts besfinf so fast

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I need to rbesthe

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I feel so sick

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I can't

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I want to cry

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J can't do this

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I'm never going to finish it

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Im never going to finish school

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Im never going to be able to get a job

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I'm never going to get the points

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It's all going to be wasted

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I can't bewarhe

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I need

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To breahr

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I think I'm gonna pass ihr

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I'm gonna throw up

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Oh my god

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Im sorry

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I just can'tdo it

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Why am I so bad at this

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I feel so sick

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Surely it'll be fine

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It wont

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I'll get yelled at

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And I won't be able to speak w my girlfriend and have my switch or anything

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I can't bresthe

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I'm so stressed

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I'm so fucking stressed

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I'm so ehxhausted

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I want to be at home

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I wish my girlfriend liced at my house

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Or I loved at hers

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She makes me feel safe

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And my worries go away

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Ejjrhrhrr

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I can't let addi know I'm stressed

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Ejrjrj

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I kind of did bur

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IRS rine

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2jeje

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In so triee

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Oops

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I don't want boss baby what the fuck

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Dsugh I'm dhinf

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I'm so exhausted I'm so exhausted I'm so ehxauset

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Heat abnormal peak

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Shit my portable charger is desd

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My phone's 4

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I want to bite my fingers off

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Lowkey

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Idk why

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I get random impulses and it's weird

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This is just one of tnem

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Idk how I'm gonna hide my olanzapije now

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Lowkey stressed about tbat

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It's okay I'm syre I can just put it in the bin ina tissue or skmethjng

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My hands feel sticky and gross

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I feel like I need to throw up

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Loweky ๐Ÿ˜ž

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Things r so tricky

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But w her it's better

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I want to live w her bow

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I'm so sad

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I'll get a job so I can start saving tii

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Then as soon as we have enough money

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If I can bring my stuff from my room then we'll have like a bit of furniture to start w atleast kinda

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I miss her I miss her I miss her

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Eaugh

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50 minutes

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Im isolating myself from everyone at school now

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My mouth is killing me

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It'll get better and then the next day at school I'll just

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It's ijay

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It always has a chance to heal when in w her

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I want to be w her

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Noe

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Firever

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I love that I got the chance to show idk what her name was miku

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I love showing stuff that my girlfridn made me off

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It's always so epic

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I miss her

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I feel so sad

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My heart is beating really fsst

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I think it's cuz of my small dinner maybe and it was sugary

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It could also be that my family is being loud

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And that im scared

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I'm scared they're gonna take her back

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I don't want that

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In scsred

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I want her bere

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What if they take her back

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What would I do

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What could I do

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I sound like a rohl dahl ir whatever his same was rhyme

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It reminds me of a verse in the car in the hat

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I loved that book

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I hated the kids in it

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44 minutes

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43 now ncm

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Maybe she's just fallen asleep

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That's okay

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I'll still say gaynught cuz I can't sleep without not saying it

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And I want to like

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Idk i

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I need to?

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It's part of my routine and unless in w her ohsycially I can't sleep without saying it

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My heart won't stop beating so fast what the fuck

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I don't want them to take her back

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Honestly I'd probably relapse really badly if they did

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It'll be okay

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But what if jrs not

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What if they take her back

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What if they take her back

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What if th

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I cant

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What if she dies because they don't look after her

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Id kill myself

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I fsnt breshre

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I want her here w me

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Now

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What if they don't treat her rught

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What if they r really mean

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What if they take her things

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What if they take her phone

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And I can't message her

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I can't breahre

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Im so scared

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I don't want her to ever leave me I'm so scared

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38 minutes

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I was gonna message her but in scared now

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The Liam and charkierhinr has made me really self conscious about my messaging

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I know she says in not annoying burnlike

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Idk

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27

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37*

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Aiyaiya

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I love the envy baby dance

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36

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I want to message her but what if she's sleeping and I wake her up

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What if she's like

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Messaginf someone else and I seem desperate

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What if

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I can't breathe

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35

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I can't see properly

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I need to nessgae her

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Im so gay kill ne

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I feel

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I don't know

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I want to always be there for her

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And be w her

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I want to be w her forever

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I'll go w her anywhere

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Everywhere

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Wm I annoyinf

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Maybe I'm obsessive

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In a bad way

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T neck huers

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33

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Focus on good things

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I want them to just shut upppoppppppp

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Or just cancel so I can rest

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My mum finally acknowledged that I'm not normal after the camp

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SHARON SAID SHES SFILL RECOVERING

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ONE GKRL ON MY TEAM IS GOING TO TNE DOCTOR

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Just cuz she thought it wasn't normal that she was still exhausted

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Bur anyways

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I have in again

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Im not messaging in it anymore

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I swear

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It makes me so sad

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I feel like I'm gonna throw up

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It's fine

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I've got her so I'm fine

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She'll stick w me

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Shell still be friends w them but like they like her so it's fine ofc she can

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She can be friends w whoever she wants

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I'm so sad why doesn't anyone like me

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Im trying so hard

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What am I doing wrong