#vent bc feelings r too much
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i dont
im sobbing again please stop
i cant handle this please fuckifn kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
jill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kille me
kill me
kill me
kill me
kill me
i dont want to be alive
i really really dont
i dont want to be alive
i dont w at to be alive
i dont want to be aluve
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be alive
i dont want ot be alive
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be alive
i dont wznt to be alive
i dont wznt to be alive
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be qlive
i want to hang myself
i want to stab myself
i want to slit mt wrists so bad i bleed out and die
i want to shoot myself
i want to strangle myself
i want to scratch every layer of skin off my body
i want break all of my bones
i want to give myself a lobotomy
i want to give myself horrible brain damage so i never have to think
i want to fry my brain cells
i want to rip out every vital organ i have
i want to bleed out
i want to die
i dont care what way
i want to die
my arm stings now
its going to be horribly scarred
i never want to eat pr deink again
maybe i just wont have water ever agzin
that will kill me
itll be a fun xay to die too
im not gonna drink water
im js not gonna deink any water
im not going to
i want to fucking die i cant handle anything
im crying agzin
i think scarlett hates me
has liam turned her against me
is thzt why he hasnt refriended me
i think she hayes me too
she said it but i dont think its true
sad
chaewon 1
chaewon 2
pookies
sad
idk
that sort of made me sad
i can recognide asc
world is spinny
i feel like i should theowbup
i ate too much today
i know i didnt actually but my eating disorder makes me think i did
im so full i dont feel good
im so mad and pissed at lysekf
ive worked for a week to get down to 65.6kg
in one nighr ive gotten up at 66.6
im so disappointed in myself
i dont care
im kot eating tmr
at all
at all
im not having a single bite to eat
ok google says that the quicker i lose the more i gain
but
i lost iver 16kg when i didnt eat fir a month
if i do that again im down to 50kg
lowkey
my legs are shaking
but to me im not perfect
i shut her down and feel bad
bur i cant accept that im good
lwokey
at jacaranda place if i js dont eat
thats 12-14 weeks of not eating
three and half months
i could
ghe thing is my scale i have at home is faulty
like it changes alot
surely my weighr change isnt that severe
its too late for that
nothing can bring me up
it was the ine thing i was succeeding at
and now im nothing
i want to cry
so badly
i just want to cry
im so sad
im so sad
ive beng mh nail do much i can feel the blood threatening to leak theough my skin
i taste blood yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaya
i peeled my naul really bad
i hate the way shes being treated by everyone
she doesnt deserve it
i want to take her away from all the bad things and peoples actions
my precious girl
im scated
i dont want anything to happen ti her
shes been theoigh so mich and shes being worked to death
im scared
im trying not to cry
im so agfected
i feel sad
i want to cry but i cant
i promised myself i wouodnt eat today but i js had popcorn
im not good enough
im bad
i want to rip all my hair out
i want to cry
i cant cry
i want to
i cry
i hate myself
im scared
im so scared
im scared
im scared
im scared
i cry
im scared
i cant see my tears r blurring
im scared
im so scared
its too many calories
i had too many calories
i cant breathe
i cant live
im so uoset
i cant
im so useless
i cant even go on a fuckifn excersion
everyones getting beter
im not
im getting worse
whats weong with me
and whos fault is that
its mine
i hate
i need tissues
im so scared
for her for myself
i hate
i cry
i sob
i cant
im so scared
im so wrong
and bad
àd horrible
and ugly
and fat
andgross
and ew
and mean
and horrible
and repeteitice
and unvalid
everyone hates me
its all true
i need to accept ut
im so gross
i feel and look so gross
its all me
itd all my fault
everything is
i ´eed to be there for others
im so tired
im so exhausted
i just want to die
i want to go to dleep and never wake up
ever
im in so much pain
on pinterest someone szid instead of self harming wrap urself in a blanket and cuddle a toy
ill do that
i do that
i do that
i keep myself from delf harmung
i watch south park and hug sua
i sjould crochet a massive mizi and sua doll
that wiuld be fun
its all my fault
i make her feel not good
i make everyone feel not good
i always have and i always will
i need to not be around anyone
good thigns
what are good things to look forward to so i wont kill myself
i have horse ruding on friday
im going dor a trail ride
that will be fun
it wont be stressful bzcause itll js be me and the lady
and shes really nice and ubderstanding
on saturday morning we will be working with horses at happy paws
that will be good
sarah said she might be able to let us brush them this time
i cry more
im not good enough
she doesnt want to tell me anything becausenim not good enoigh
i cant self harm
focus on animal ceossing
make urself feel better
ok go
go on animalcrossing
play
make urself feel beyter
u need to feel better
while shes gona u can cry and scream and scratch rself
im sad
im sad
im sad
용감한 내 가방, no keyring, no hand mirror
Oh, rock will never die, 린다, 린다 자장가
한정판 콩국수 matcha보다 고소해
I'm too shy for all these, 데이트 내내 젤리슈즈
I got Suede on my vinyl, 나의 동화책
I'm not cute anymore (uh-uh)
I'm not cute anymore (uh-uh), 안 돼 no more
강아지보단 난 느슨한 해파리가 좋아 (uh-uh)
'Cause I'm not cute anymore
오분 컷 완벽한 my makeup tutorial
When I get super stressed, 공포영화 좀 볼까?
근데 넌 멀었어, oh, I don't like cherry coke
난 외계인이 아냐, 그냥 털털한 편인 거야
I got Suede on my vinyl, 나의 동화책
I'm not cute anymore (uh-uh)
I'm not cute anymore (uh-uh), 안 돼 no more
강아지보단 난 느슨한 해파리가 좋아 (uh-uh)
'Cause I'm not cute anymore
my bags so brave, no keyring no hand mirror
or rock will never die linda linda lullaby
limited edition konguksu matchas got nothing on this
im too shy for all these, jelly shoes on my date
i got suede on my vinyl, my fairytale book
im not cute anymore
im not cute anymore
no way, no more
ill take a laidback jellyfish over a puppy
cause im not cute anymore
five minute perfection, my makeup tytorial
when i get super stressed how about a scary movie?
but youre way off
i dont like cherry coke
im not an alien im just kind if easygoing
i got suede on my vinyl, my fairytale book
im not cute anymore
im not cute abtmore
no way, no more
ill take a laid back jellyfish over a puppy
cause im not cute anymore
peakest song and lyrics ever
난 외계인이 아냐, 그냥 털털한 편인 거야
im trying si hard not to cry
its 10 days but i wont survive
ill probably try to kill myself
im that fucikg attached
i dôt fuck care
i csnt handle this
im gonna cry
i just want to go home
let me go
im so tired
and strzssed
and sad
let me go
kill yourself
fucking kill yourself
im gonna killy myself
im gonna fuckinf hang myself
im gonan fucking kill myself i cant handle àything
i dont fucking want to be alive
i want to be fucking dead
20 feet in the ground
dead
cold body not houghts
dead
i just want to fucking die
im crying so hard
i hate being alive
i hate being me
im so fat
and gross
and weird
im a horrid person
get me out of here
please someone fucking kill me
why cant anything go right
i broke a fucking tissues
i cant deal with anything
i need to be gone
a rotting corpse in the ground
im gonna fuckinf kill myself
im not making it to 30
ive always known that
i want to rip all my intestines out
i dont want them anymore
please get rid of them
my eyes are leaking so much
i cant handle this
fucking end me
i hate everything
i hate being alive
i hate being myself
fucking emo cunt
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be here
im so scared
im so scared of everything
i just want to sit in a dark hole asleep dor the rest of my life
i donr want to be awake
i dont want to think or feel
i cant syop sobbing
i feel so gross
im so tired
let me sleep
my bear is wet
fucking hell
fucking kill me
i want to die
mine has been a life of such shame
Now I have neither happiness nor unhappiness. Everything passes. That is the one and only thing that I have thought resembled a truth in the society of human beings where I have dwelled up to now as in a burning hell."
mine has been a life of such shame
i cant even guess myself what it must be to live the life of a human being
no longer human is such a relateable book for me
fuckass gifs
i dont want to see a cunt ass disgusting anime creature
i want to see the book
or junji itos art
i love junji ito
favourite author
i hate everything
why cant i get off all the skin on my body
i want to go back to the psych ward
nothing to do but read all day
o ly thing is i dont have music
i can listen tot eh first 2 episodes of modern family on repeat again
i want to go back to the psych ward i csnt handle anything thats happening to me
rhis is how i feel
my breathing calmed down
my heart and head have not
i want to screw a nail into the sidz od my head
like that one movie my dad used to watch
that was straight up gore
that he would watch with his eight year old daughter
or seven
some young ass age
im fucking deceased
i dont like
im ruining everything
im ruining her entire life
i ruin eveeyones life
i always have
ive always ruiznd everyones life
ive always been the one that causes hurt pain trauma and issues
its all my fault
i cznt handle this
i dont like being a burden
i dont like being the type of perosn i am
i dont know how to change
its so hard
i want to leave this earth
im not worth anything
i dont deserve to keep living
i cznt handle anything
my head hirts
so does my hurt
heart
and every piece of everything in my vody
i dont like me
all my faults r all i cna think about
i dont have any redeeeming things about myself
im gon’a hang myself
of course its only me
its always just me
im the issue
i dont want to be alive
i dont want to be here
i hate being sad
i hate being me
and having to deal with zll my issues
im so depressed
ewys
im crying again
i hate my mind
and my body
and my feelings
and my thoughts
i hate it so much
i will never like myself
its impossible
i dont want to eat again
i dont want to drink again
i dont want to breathe again
its all my fault
im not animated enough
im not more excited
its my fault
im not alive enough
i feel so dead
i am dead
im useless
ive achieved nothing in life
i never will
im useless
when i cry
i sound like im laughing
thats a good thing ig
i sound like a donkey
i want to kill myself so desperately
i dont want to be alive
i really relaly dont
i bring badness into everyones lives
im a burden
im like a dark creature rhat sirs on everyones shoulder that brings them bad feelings and thoguths
i dont want to be alive
i relaly dont
please someone kill me
please
please please please
please kill me
i want to be happy for once
only death can solve that
i should go back to my dads
he has alot of alcohol there
who givzs a shit abt my trauma w him
its not valid
like im js making shit up
he never did àything bad
it was all js me
im the one w problems
i should go back
i can get drunk
that would be a good escape
i can disappear from earth for a couple hours
what if i js try and attempt again
ill go back go the psych watd
and i wont have to think about anything
i can js stay in my room and read all day
sure i might go fucking insane but i wont have to be alive
omg i sound so cringe
i dont care
ill be gone
and that will be all that matters
i need to take more thzn 1200mg of seetraline
no
im prettt sure i took 2000
no
i took 24000
2400*
maybe 4000
would that kill me
google says 4000 u can still survive
8000
when im older
i moght have to wait until im in control of my meds
but i can overdose then
but its too far away
im so dead
im not alive
i need to keep ceying so i become numb
i checked and im 64.7kg now
thats a good thing
i js need to keep going
i need to be aeound ber
i started sobbing as soon as i thoight that
she would make everutjing beyher
im scared to message her
im scared to be around her
but if i was i would feel so much better
i wouodnt even think of killing myself
now its my only thoight
if im around her i wont have to go through these thoughrs
i need to be around her
im crying so hard
i can barelt breathe
she hates me
i make her life worse
its all my fault
i bring her down
she needs to be brought up
she needs someone better
i can never be that good
im horrible
im a horrible person
no one likes me
no one ever will
i want to sleep for eternity
i hate me
i hate my life
난 외계인이 아냐, 그냥 털털한 편인 거야
i am an alien
and bot the good kind
rhe gross kind
can i be sua
i want to fucking
please
please
i squeeze my neck
stop breathing
i watched a whole movie while i was aslepe
like in mt dream
it was about the boss baby doing a while bunch of robberies and he went to far and tim the brother trued to keep him from going too far and had a love interest who the baby shived the love ibtzrests dog insude an egg along w a bunch of other worth alot stuff and shived them in a room in the museum and said ‘who said i never wqnted to rob the museum’
and then i woke up
there was a whole ass thing t’werz the sisters from coraline were w the love interest and int heir house and tim and the boss baby snuck in and stole millions worth of paintings and they escaped w it snd the love interest tracked down all of the apartments in the city until she found tim
i just got hit with insecurity
im a shit rider
im not good around horses
im not good at all
i want to cry
i feel like shit
i want to cry
she sent a picture of us znd it included my leg
i started crying and now im ceying again thinking about it
o cant look at the picture i stat like rubbing my skin really bad and crying
i cant look at it
im crying
i cant even see a picture of me
i want to delete every picture ever taken of me
my nose is too bug
my cheeks r too chibby
my eyes look so weird
my lips look really gross
my ears stick out
i have a mole above my lip znd it looks really weird
my skin is gross
my legs are too fat and the chunk badly and have like waves on them
and dents
my fingers r so fat and so are my arms
my stomach is so gross
i hate looking at me
i just cry
so badly
i ahte myself
i cant stop crying
i dint wan to get my hair wet because it was straigjtened a couple hours ago
i hate eing me
can i be literally anyone else
i hate myself so much
i had chips and a mcflurry
i ate too much
i dont wznt to gain weight
i look like fucking michael jackson
the uncanny version of him
like this
without the defined cheek bones
i want to peel my massive scab
i hte feeling like this
i hate hating myself
but im so geoss
i can never stop
i hate my nose
i genuinely want to rip it off
i hate it so much
i cant stop crying
i dont want to get my hair wet but i cant stop
but i dont love me
tahtsvthe problem
i dont love me
its out of everyones control
im just ruining everything
i need to get better at masking
i feel this shit everyday and she shouldnt have to know every time
im just bringing her down
i shouldnt hzve eaten so much
i feel so gross
i dont like being online
no
i dont want to make her feel bad
why do i kepe ruining stuff
im making her not feel good
i hate myself
i of all people
i dont like making people not feel good
especially her
i need to be hit
i took a picture of myself and im crying now my eyes look so gross
i hate the colour of them
why do they look like that
why do i look like this
i want to be able to change everything about me
im so gross
and unmotivated
all i can do is sit in bed watch south oark and play animal crossing all dzy
i literlaly cant do anything else
im so fucking lazy
i cant stop crying ill never amount to anything in life
i need to peel one if my scabs
its got gross stuff on it znd i dont want to gross her out
its a reàly really big scab
friction burn
guck its bleeidng alot
im sobbing
i want to make a sua doll
i cant
i have to make stuff for the market
its so syressful i cant handle it
im so scared
i dont want to be around people
everything i make id ugly
im not doing any good
they all look bad
i need to make money
but i cant even crochey
and i cant handle being in public so i cant handle a job
HELP I WA SPLAYING A GAME W WILLOW AND IT TOOK ME EIGHT SECONDS TO FIND THE TREASURE
im too scared to send to girlfriend so i send here instead
i have no one
im alone
lwokey
i lost my appetite
i dont want to eat
i dont want to gain weight
i want to keep losing
i feel like ill throw up
its ok ill only eat half
im truing so hard not to cry
everyone has good stuff
i dont
i dont have a life
im not exciting
or real
or fun
or funnt
i remeber messaging the kztseye server côstantly and pretending to be asleep when my mym znd sister came into my room to put my birthday presents in it znd then me ditting in the corner of my room opening my predents znd crying while waiting for the ambulance
ive chewed my lips so bzd
ive tipped off as much skin as i can
im so anxious
i dont feel good
imtrying s hard not to cry
i keep peeling
its the only thing stabling me right now
my mouth tastes weird
my tymmy feels weird
i cant even stand up fir too long without feeling faint
she hates me
she hates me
she hates me
she hates me
she hates me
dhe hates me
im alone
im all alone
I CANT SEE
im alone
im so alone
ima l’ alone
she realused im a bad perosn
thats a godo thing
she can get away from a horrible person like me
i deserve to be alone
i should be alone
im so dissyrzssed i cant even think
im dhaking so mych
um so distessed i cant even shower
im cryi nf so hard
i cant live
i couldnt even get changed without sobbing
now i cant stop ceying
i just looked at myself in the mirror
i look so gross
and ugly
and gross
i started crying
im so sad
im sad and tired
and done
im so done
i dont want ro think or feel anymore
i want to be numb and not exist
shes lying to me
she says people care znd love me
ive never even talked to them
i should go back to the psych ward
and die there
im slone
im all alone
im just flopping
i have no energy
i have no energy to eat or drink
i have no energy to think
i dont want it to be tomorrow
i dont want it to be today either
im gonna cry
i dont want it to be any day
im sad im nog
im ashamed im not
im guilty im not
im crying i really dont want it to be tomorrow
i want to disappear
i think im condtantly in despair
i want to didaooear
let me please
i dont want to be here
i hate being alive
im so depressed
my life hurts
im so alone
im so far gone
i dont know how i csn ever come back from thid
the depth im in is impossible to get out of
my stomach hurts so much
its like i can feel it contracting
i think im a bad person
i dont know how to change
i dont want to be a bad person
i am tho
i can barely rype
im hallucinating a fifty packs a day dmokers voice
im crying
my suster is succedding more than me
all i can fo is cry and watch south park all day
she can actually fibdtuff for boni
i cant do anything
its almost like iwtkisslm
its stressing me out beyond belief
i want to disappear
forever
never reappear
its too much to ask of me to keep living
i wouodnt be surprised if i start getting grey hairs soon
im a horrible person
i have no one and nothing
my sister took so fucking long tismp
i want to kill myself
i fucking hate being slive
i hate being alive
olease fucking kill me
i dont want to be alive
im scared
im really relaly scared
im so anxious
i cant breathe
my heart is beating so fast
im so scared
im really really scared
im so so scared
i shoudont have eaten
im anxious i dont want to go to jacaranda place
im really scared
she hates me
and im scared
im really ezlaly scare
di dont want to go to jacaranda place
i want to go home and cry in my bed
i shoudont have sent it
i cant delete it now
its ok just close fiscord
dont go on it
close it
its gone
im scared im scared im scared
im so scared
im scared
i dont want to go into javaranda place
im scared
my heart is beating so much
im so scared
im so scared
we r like two minutew away
im so scared
nvm we r here
i dont want to go in
i want to cry
i dong wang go go in
i want to see if my mym can go in and i dont have to
i relaly font want to go in
im trying not to cry
i dont want to go in
im so scared
please dont mane me go in
we have 10 minutesbecore we have togo in
im trying so hard not to cry
if i dont do this i dont get in to jacaranda place
i need to do it
i cantthi i cznt
p’ease dont make me do this
im so so scared
i cant cry
im so scared
i dont want to do thus
im so scared
please dont make me do this
i dont want to cry
i dont want to do this
i cant do this
my heart hurts
i dont like
i dont like
i dont like
i dont like
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
srop
srip
srop
stp
stop
stop
stop
srop
stop
stop
stop
stop
stop
i cant do this
i dont want to do this
i dont want to eat
i dont want to drink
i dont want to do this
i cant do this
i cant i cant
i cant
my mym talkedd to le and i jumped
im scared
and heightened
i dont want to do this
i want to go home and cry
i cant cry here
i need to cry
i cant do this
i hurt
i hurt so much
i hate this
i hate
please i dont want to do this
my heart and brain hurts
i dont want to do this
can this giy stfu
im sctually gonna hit him
i dont fucking care
im never talking to him
he ever comes up to me and says hi? im walking away
i dont rucking care
he should kill himself
he deserves only pzin znf suffering
i wish a horrinle life on him
i hope he kills himself
i fucking hate him
im gonna beat the living shit out of him
i hope hes in horrible pain
contantlt
never stopping
pain
only pain znd depressiô for him
he deserves a sad and miserable life
fucking kill yourself allan
kill uourself
now
u deserve nothing but despair allan
kill yourself
my heart is beating so fast
ive been here for so long
let me fucking leave
i want to have a heart attack
so i can fucking leave
can my heart please stop
12:58-2:32
how logn i was fucking in there
fucking finally gone
i want to kill myself
i hope i fucking die
i hope i get into a car crash on the way home
and i finally fucking did
i hate my mum jedus christ
can we fucking go
im trying so hard not to cry
its all her fault
its all her fucking fzult
can we fucking fo
fuck u mum
im not gonna frink water for the rest of the day
fuck u
she doesnt actually like me
mia doesnt like me
she prefers me without my natural hair
she doesnt like talking to me
i bring her sadness
ive goven her so much trauma
im horrible
im do thirdty
i cant deink water tho
im so thirsty
my throay hurts so much
i feel like im gonna pass out
im so dizzy
and swirly
my stomach hurts from not eating
hmm i wonder why dumbass
I GOT STAR FRAGMENT ISLAND AGAINNNNN
im gonna kill myself
star stavles server goes down in 5 minutes
i js wanna playstar stable
i really want the matching saddle pad to the leg wraps i ahve
i have to buy it now
im not even close to getting it😭😭
if anyone reading this is on star stable and on the server firestar
friend me
im kit shadowstar
im so fucking anxious
i hate it
i jsut want to cry
why cant i cry
i have no one and nothing
i keep peeling my lips
they hurt
i want to rip every cell out of my body
im so dehydrated i cant even cry
i have no one
i dôt have anyone
imalone
im isolated
i have no one
no one cares
no one likes me
everyones happy that im failing
theyre all happy im going bacjwards
i want to go back to the psych watd
let me go back please
i dont want to be here i want to escape
im not hungry anymore
its all my fault
i bring horribleness to everyones lives
im like tomie but im not pretty
and in the bad way
i kin yozo oba minus the sexism
i should reread rhat book
mine has been a life of much shame
i cant even guess myself what it must be to live the life of a human being
hes so relateable
i dont feel human
i dont think i am human
im so dehydrated
i cant cry bc im so dehydrated
can someone please do this to me
im already insane i just need someone to kill me
i want to fucking die
why cant i vomit up all my burdens