Kiri's slow descent into madness

[brisk hornet]

Anyways full thing

[brisk hornet]

TRASH FLIRTING

JUST BECAUSE I'M PLAYING THE ROLE OF EXCITABLE PUPPY DOESN'T MEAN THAT THE ONLY PICKUP LINE YOU CAN USE IS YOU'RE SO CUTE

FUCK OFF!!!!!

GET MORE CREATIVE!!!!!!!

[strange canopy]

hey!! sometimes men aint that good at rizzing NOT ME FOR SURE UHM..

[brisk hornet]

that doesn't mean that the best thing to do is spam you're so cute like 😭

it gets hella tiring after a while

ah my good mood from earlier is gone

it was nice while it lasted i guess

[brisk hornet]

sometimes it feels like i can't breathe

i feel so tired

i don't even feel the urge to run away anymore

everything is so exhausting

im tired

im tired

im so tired

its so tiring to just exist

[brisk hornet]

I can't sleep

Hnghhh

[brisk hornet]

atp i give up on sleeping

hnghh

i should go bother someone lololololl

simple hasnt been replying to me

and tedd's probably asleep

hm

m so bored

hnghhhh

[brisk hornet]

mf my friend isnt even acknowledging my apology

like bitch

i didnt even want to apologize

but i went out of my way

to fucking apologize to u

even though u fucking pissed me off by acting like a brat

and you got the fucking gall to just ignore me

fucking hell

yk i was this fucking close to just cutting off the entire friend group you know...?

can't even be a bit more empathetic towards me huh?

motherfucker if u don't respond by today i'll block the entire friendgroup?

have fun trying to fucking keep it together

fucking pissing me off

fuck,

like im so sick of trying to act mature and doing shit the right way

motherfucker

fuck

[brisk hornet]

m so tired

fahh

i feel kinda bad for rejecting all my friends lol

but i wanna be alone rn

i wonder how much i need to pay for them to understand

[brisk hornet]

read an incomplete work they said

itll be fine they said

motherfucker it ends on a CLIFFHANGER

[brisk hornet]

tired

[brisk hornet]

i wanna get a cat

surely

surely a cat would make me feel better...?

is it selfish to buy a pet for one's own desires?

is it selfish to depend so much on an animal to live?

so tiring

i feel sorry for my family

at least with my friends i can reject their outings

but it must be tiring living with someone who doesnt even have the energy to smile

[brisk hornet]

im tired

im tired

im tired

im tired

i hate this feeling

i hate feeling like this

it feels like im suffocating

[safe oracle]

not really cus a lot of people get cats when they feel lonely

[brisk hornet]

seriously so annoying

what's that saying, give them an inch and they'll run a mile?

sigh

everything's pissing me off lately

seriously what right does he have to tell me what to do?

everybody seems intent on pushing my boundaries

and i can't even sleep again

fuck

... i forgot to take a picture of my inventory.

fuck

now i can't even send the pics to get my account progress restored

wtf is this bullshit

[brisk hornet]

mmn should i find a poor sacrificial lamb?

i'm thinking either simple or xr~

hm

if i cut off xr i'll probably get booted from the fg though

maybe i should just cut off all 3 of them then?

mmn i think i kinda like them though

or at least i'll start liking them more once school starts

and simple is really the only one i still speak to on discord

sigh tough choice tough choice

ah its so much work to form new relationships

most of the time i don't even get that high anymore because i didn't really like them that much

so annoying

can't cut off xr and the others because i'll need them in the future

can't cut off simple because i'm not that attached to him yet

fuckkkkkk

this is so fucking annoying

even cutting off rhizo wasn't that good

i thought i liked him?? i thought i was starting to get obbessed with him??? so WHY

WHY WAS THE HIGH NOT THERE

i didn't even think about him that much??

where was the regret??? the burn???

so fucking annoying

huh

it kinda makes me wonder whether i really liked wille or if i just liked how much i regretted cutting him off

hm

interesting train of thought

[safe oracle]

https://tenor.com/view/speed-speed-trying-not-to-laugh-speed-laugh-speed-meme-speed-face-gif-10539222740170660302

how it feel reading this rn

the moment i saw poor sacrifical lamb

[brisk hornet]

sorry i havent slept in like 2 days

so

my ramblings get a bit out of hand

and nonsensical

[safe oracle]

WHAT

how do you manage 2 days I've been up for like 13 hours and I'm falling sleep

[brisk hornet]

idk man

everytime i try to fall asleep i just don't

its annoying because now my head hurts

[safe oracle]

you should have like something to drink near you

[brisk hornet]

probably

[strange canopy]

I hope you feel better soon!

[brisk hornet]

I feel like I'm still 13 years old

I feel like somewhere along the line I've just stopped aging and yet my body kept growing

[brisk hornet]

Aha everything feels kind of hazy

I wonder if I'll get any sleep if I can pass out

I feel exhausted

I mean I always feel tired but it feels softer now

Maybe like peace?

How long has it been since I've felt like this?

It feels like forever

Mmn

I like this feeling

I hope it stays

[brisk hornet]

mmn i just woke up

12 hours

nice

[brisk hornet]

holy shit i mustve been outta my mind writing that wtf

jesus

yeah im never staying up that much anymore

[brisk hornet]

Want to throw up but there's nothing to throw up

[brisk hornet]

ughghghgh school starts tmr

FAHH

[brisk hornet]

i find it really funny that hyperlaser seems to be the most cosplayed in the phighting fandom because of how easy he is to cosplay

[brisk hornet]

All the bls that have good art seem to be yaoi

[brisk hornet]

M sick

[safe oracle]

yaoi extinction

[brisk hornet]

my new teacher is so awfully idealistic~?

[brisk hornet]

omg now i rmbr who he reminds me off HAHAHAHHA he reminds me of my old math tutor omg

the bragging kind

like not bragging bragging but the kind that wants to share their knowledge so bad they come off as bragging

do yall fucking see this shit

ohmyGOD

innovation of future my ass if you're too lazy to learn how to write properly just say it

writing is a fucking skill

its hard to stay anti gen ai when ur entire fucking school is preaching about how its the future and forcing u to use it for assignments

the world is shot

[brisk hornet]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OSYmTw6_bjc&list=RDmnCbu5DoZT4&index=3

honestly when i first listened to it i didn't even realize it was about trans people lolll

literacy is gone~

[brisk hornet]

humanizing algorithms...?

i mean i guess it's an effective teaching strategy

but i fear the long term concequences of students hnghh

[brisk hornet]

this module is genuinely turning me religious

[brisk hornet]

fuck i need some wine

[safe oracle]

is this like the gender bent version of a guy needing beer

[brisk hornet]

hell yeah

tbh i put a lot of effort into the way i talk

but i guess because it goes the opposite way it doesn't really get acknowledged~

i'm jealous of those that naturally come to know slang or can speak so cheerfully

everything i say comes out as passive aggressive it's like super annoying

even my tone of voice even the words i use

ah shit

its so annoying seriously

its like everything i do just hurts others?

super annoying

i just wanna be a cute girl

but with such a nasty personality

its hard to hide it for long periods of time?

annoying

[brisk hornet]

can somebody vent im bored as hell

[brisk hornet]

RELEASED FROM MY SHACKLES

RAHHHHHHH

im never talking in vent chat again god forbid people have different meanings of words

huddle rlly needs a way to appeal punishments

also i have not

done

my groupwork

HAHAHHAHHA

fml

[brisk hornet]

the rage of a pet is really a special thing

innisfree greentea go pump challenge

[brisk hornet]

dude my fucking cramps

hurt so much

for WHAT

its 9am theres no reason for them to be this intense

and my lip has a cut that recently healed over so now its extra sensitive and HURTS whenever i smile or drink smt bubbly like my ENERGY DRINK

fml

fml

fmlllllllll

[brisk hornet]

FAHHHHHHH

dies

9am class.............

4 hours.........................

they want to kill me

yk i do find it kind of amazing i can type without even looking at my keyboard

[brisk hornet]

omg

BYE LOOK AT MY PING

26848 btw

[brisk hornet]

2nd week of school and i already wanna kms

whats new

shit shld i just give up

genuinely a really tempting option

[brisk hornet]

I get so easily overwhelmed it's not even a joke anymore

How tf am I supposed to cope with my schoolwork like this

[strange canopy]

Love evade such a good game to play

[strange canopy]

Relatable tbh 😭😭😭

[safe oracle]

HATE evade such a BAD game to play

[strange canopy]

https://tenor.com/view/xenoverse-goku-super-saiyan-angry-dbz-gif-1416275111944307575

[brisk hornet]

oh we got the 2 sides of the player base here

[brisk hornet]

i think its a really common sentiment but i wanna die young

somehow the thought of growing old and ugly scares me more than the thought of death

or maybe i just dislike the thought of being an adult?

adulting....

I DONT WANNA GROW UP

FAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

dude what if i have to file taxes

omg

WHAT IF I ACTUALLY HAVE TO DEAL WITH UNPLEASANT PEOPLE IN THE WORKPLACE THAT HAS AN IMPACT ON MY EMPLOYMENT STATUS

NOOOOOOOOO

i dont wanna to have to hide my real feelings just for the sake of getting along and staying employed

shit

[brisk hornet]

i'm bored

i wanna play with someone again

mmn

today is a day for comfort though

i suppose my wallet can take a breather this time lolll

qifrey maybe?

i haven't actually done any research on him, i guess now would be a nice time to do so

[strange canopy]

Am actually laughing so hard lmao but fair lowkey

I don't want to be a dad with a job

[brisk hornet]

dude the things ive heard about having to manage ur workplace manager is insane

[brisk hornet]

RIGHTTTT

its scary to grow up

sob

[strange canopy]

Maybe I love school afterall

😭

[strange canopy]

I mean just remembering the time I spend with my friends makes me don't want to grow up

We kinda love going to abandoned places and stuff

On the summer we do that alot so it's just gives me alot of memories

KIWI WHYYY U JUST MAD EME HATE GROWING UP MORE

[safe oracle]

I think ugly is the wrong way to put it

nobody is ugly really

it's just a word made by people to hurt people

[brisk hornet]

lol

so like

guess what

the guy i liked

and i guess still kinda like

wille

killed himself

lol

maybe this is the time to crash out

fuckkkk

[strange canopy]

i dont even know how to react i hope ur feeling okay tho cuz i bet thats painful

[brisk hornet]

Thanks lol

It's still pretty light because I don't think it's really registered that he's actually gone

Idk when I'm gonna realize it thi

Fun!

[brisk hornet]

It hasn't hit me

I guess it's more like settling into me?

Like little things

That reminds me

That he's actually gone

Like he was a really big music person

But his Spotify artists hasn't moved

Like at all

I'm

I'm not really sure how to feel

[brisk hornet]

Don't wanna live but also don't wanna die

Sigh

[brisk hornet]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VkSoIx9yPzA

[strange canopy]

This game deadass made me fucking depressed bro U FIND THE SADDEST SHIT

[brisk hornet]

i write the saddest shit </3

LMAO but yeah that game is depressing asf

u ahve like troll letters next to ppl writing their suicide note

[strange canopy]

😭😭😭 very lovely

[brisk hornet]

fuck

bro

i missed

my quiz deadline

shitttttt

[brisk hornet]

mimi british vtuber got arrested for drawing loli porn

genuinely why is every crime i hear from the uk so ass

first it was the fucking censorship laws

now its this

bro

we're so fucking cooked omds

i fucking bet theyre gonna start going after queer artists after a while

then after that political artists

we're genuinely so fucking cooked

every piece of news i read just convinces me further that this is not a future i want to live in

fuck man

spending resources on this useless shit when theres bigger fish to fry

like idk the fucking rape gangs???

but oh nooo lets go after this artist who's drawings obviously causes way more damage

they fucking forced her to dox herself

[brisk hornet]

somethings wrong

somethings wrong and i cant tell what it is

[strange canopy]

I already gave up bro the future is doomed

[brisk hornet]

dude why does youtube keep recommending his suicide video to me im trying to become less depressed not MORE

you dont HAVE to remind me that he's dead goddamit

[brisk hornet]

i guess on the bright side he doesn't have to see how shitty roblox is getting

[strange canopy]

i feel like if i laugh im going to hell

[brisk hornet]

its ok we're heading to the same place

[brisk hornet]

i want to crash out

i wanna throw something so bad

i wanna make a mess

fuck

"oh if you don't go shower soon i'm gonna get really mad" FUCK 0OFFASEXBHFASJVKX

FUCKING KILL YOURSELF NOVBODYT IN THIS FUCKING HYOSUEHOLD EVENF UCKING LIKES YOUJ

BGO EAT SHIT ANDX DI4E

I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT

YOU THINK VEERYTHING FUCKING REVOLVES AROUND YOU????:"

NOBOPDY GIVES TWO FLYING FUCKKSJFERSKLHUFGHJKDSFHUDS

TAKE A FUCKING KNIFE AND OPEN YOUR FUCKING NECK

[brisk hornet]

anyways

a tad bit overdramatic

im over it now

[brisk hornet]

i genuinely need to get off twitter

[brisk hornet]

the concept of using your phd dissertation title as your safe word because nothing turns you off faster than a document you spent 4 years of your life doing

[strange canopy]

https://tenor.com/view/what-gif-13438281732003437257

[brisk hornet]

IM SORRY 💔

[strange canopy]

no its just funny asf

😭

but relatable

[brisk hornet]

glad to know my crash out has entertainment value

[strange canopy]

u crashing out is too entertaining trust me

its not ur first

time

[brisk hornet]

what can i say, i live to serve

[brisk hornet]

LMAO were u even watching back then

i feel flattered

[strange canopy]

yes im always watching

FUCK

[brisk hornet]

random ass fuck

nice

[strange canopy]

I JUST REMEMBERED I NEED TO EDIT A VIDEO FOR MY FRIEND*

[brisk hornet]

LMAOOO

[strange canopy]

he will get so mad

[brisk hornet]

off you go then

toddle along

[strange canopy]

bye bye!

[safe oracle]

@brisk hornet i need to confess a sin ive committed today

in my comfort journal here

today i procrastinated showering for an entire hour

please forgive me

sorry for the sudden intrusion

i hate taking the attention from peoples personal places but i wanted to say something here

[safe oracle]

do people actually use twitter like frequently??

[strange canopy]

I take my time showering as I use alot of products

[safe oracle]

dude my hair is like twice as long and I use like 1 product per 3 weeks

[strange canopy]

I use 4 😭

Every day

[brisk hornet]

LMAOOO no its fine i find it rlly funny

[brisk hornet]

girl ur good

in fact ur BETTER

just for an hour?? girl???

[brisk hornet]

no forgiveness needed you are a free man

[brisk hornet]

... yes.

[brisk hornet]

ngl i'm kinda thinking abt quitting roblox

FAHHH

so tired

dont wanna do work

sighhhh

[strange canopy]

Kiwi ur making opps by saying that

[brisk hornet]

literally who wld be able to blame me w the current state of things 😭

[strange canopy]

Yk what fair most of the people are kids cant say anything without chat being locked

BUT LIKE

There is some good games

[brisk hornet]

yeah... but with the direction roblox is going...

did u hear theyre tryna remove r6

like

[strange canopy]

Yh ik about that I dont even give a fuck anymore I only play with my friends to have fun

I mostly play story games nowadays and rocketleague

[brisk hornet]

ohhh

im mostly adopt me and evade nowadays

though its getting kinda boring

[strange canopy]

Evade is funny when u talk in vc

U see the funniest people

[brisk hornet]

eh? like the vc servers?

[strange canopy]

But I never tried adopt me

[strange canopy]

Ye even tho

[brisk hornet]

dont

[strange canopy]

There is some uh

[brisk hornet]

its a capitalist hell

[strange canopy]

LMAOO

I did hate adopt me from when I was 10 or sum

No what

I forgot

Not 10

[brisk hornet]

what

[strange canopy]

Older

[brisk hornet]

I HOPE SO??

[strange canopy]

Idk why I said 10

[brisk hornet]

adm was released in like 2017

if u were 10 playing that that means ur like max

uhh

actually wait

no that means ur older than me.

oops

[strange canopy]

No I started playing in 2018

[brisk hornet]

oh wow

how time flies

[strange canopy]

I forgot how old I was

It's fine

I used to play Weird game in Google before that

[brisk hornet]

same

[brisk hornet]

what weird games

[strange canopy]

Erm Ben 10 doing parkour 💔💔

Holy nostalgia

Nvm it was peak

[brisk hornet]

LOL

its always those kinda games

i think i used to play

y8 games

a lot

[strange canopy]

YEEE relatable and I used to have the weird habit of asking my parents for help and when they touch the mouse I start crying

Cuz I thought they ruined the game for me

IM GETTING MEMEORIES BACK

I shall go before I die

[brisk hornet]

LOLL

[strange canopy]

Bye bye kiwi

[brisk hornet]

123girlgames

[brisk hornet]

byebyee

[safe oracle]

girl

https://tenor.com/view/nepunator-cat-slap-window-gif-6611310231571189927

[brisk hornet]

its finee theres nth that wrong w it

[safe oracle]

i just had a random burst of energy thats all

[brisk hornet]

i joined a toxic ed server let's see how long it takes before i get influenced

[brisk hornet]

omg i NEED to do some work

like

fahhh

ohmyfuckinggod why does my teacher love to assign us to read 50 pages worth of case studies that we wont even use in class are you INSANE

ohmyfuckinggod

WHY DO I NEED TO LEARN ABT THE VIDEO SPECIFICATIONS

im dying

wtf

[brisk hornet]

same fucker that sexually assaulted me lol

im so glad that only one person replied and it was to reject him LMAO

die cold and lonely bitch

[strange canopy]

disgusting people ngl hope ur okay

[brisk hornet]

Trying to recognize which manhwa a random girl on my train is reading

It's making me realize that all manhwa looks the same nowadays

Also somebody smells like puke in this god forsaken train holy shit

Kms

[brisk hornet]

I've been in there for like a day and i'm starting to monitor all my calories

ts effective ngl

im starting to realize that like all my meals are like at least 500+ cals

holy shit

but i cant even calculate like

my bmi because I DONT HAVE A WEIGHING SCALE

bro my mom keeps the weighing scale in her bathroom

ugh

im gna assume im at like 55kg? unless i gained weight and went over 60.

dude im fucked

im already in the average????

im like

dude im in the fucking high end of my average

IM FUCKED

wait i actually need to lose weight

dude ts isnt good

dude.

IM FUCKED

im overweight

omg

55kg + 160cm

60kg + 160cm

and this is js a fucking estimate

imagine if im over 60kg

omg

im a fatass

FUCK

huh my classmate looks rlly good w a pullover fringe

bro its because im short isnt it

thats why they expect me to be lighter

FUCKKKKKKK

dude my aunt keeps stuffing me w food in the morning

how tf do i tell her that toasted bread, mayo, ham, pork floss and eggs is way too much.

fuh

i need to purge holy shit

that fucking sandwich was way too much

why tf did i eat all of it

FUCKKKKK

[brisk hornet]

r my teammates stupid lowk

because like why did my teacher have to tell them our target audience wasnt js our students...

hello....

wasnt it obvious from the content they post.....

like im not even for analyzing the content bro.....

[brisk hornet]

dude my classmate is 155cm and arnd 37-40kg im gna kms

FUCKKKK

[brisk hornet]

i lowk can't tell if my stomach hurts because im hungry or if i'm too full

[brisk hornet]

my teammates fucking hate me bro

but theyre so fucking stupid it pisses me off more

like its one thing to always shoot down my suggestions

its another to replace them with fucking micro-trends and expect it to do well

yall cant fucking analyze for SHIT

like do u rlly think js spamming some stupid ai shitpost into every project is the answer

be so fucking for real

i wldnt even be this pissed off if they actually gave good suggestions

but they're just fucking stupid

gods

i wanna puke so bad fuck

i need to empty the contents of my stomach

fuck

disguisting

i feel way too full

i hate it

i need to remove my stomach

[brisk hornet]

wow no wonder everyone on edtwt is a bitch

the hunger rlly gets to u

my head's spinning lowk

funnnnn

wanna just go to sleep

wanna just go to sleep forever

he's so positive it's borderline disguisting

[safe oracle]

it's only a little bit higher than 21.48 though shouldn't it be okay?

[brisk hornet]

yeah but its the high end

[safe oracle]

you got this kiwi

[brisk hornet]

thank u, i'll be sure to try to pull myself out of this mindset if it starts to become a real problem!

[brisk hornet]

nvm guys i was freaking out for no reason

im still my original weight... lucky

lowk ive kinda realized that ive been fasting all throughout secondary school

jesus christ no wonder i weigh so little

mf ive been skipping breakfast and lunch for an entire 4 years

1 meal a day mf

how the hell has my body not collasped

[strange canopy]

kiwi.

that still underweight

lock in twin eat more!

food is yummy

buy 3 big macs everyday

[brisk hornet]

it IS yummy

like im not saying this to brag but i genuinely have a small apetite

it gets worse when im stressed (which is all the time)

like its so weird because i get hungry so often but also full so fast

like bro

my stomach is not meant for the 3 big meals a day schedule

it wants like 8 small meals every few hours

[strange canopy]

guh 💔

i cant help u with that sorry

i eat very healthy

me healthy

[brisk hornet]

wowie

when u say healthy do u mean like

diet healthy

or mental healthy

i gotta clarify

[strange canopy]

everything healthy

i genuinely hate not being healthy

gym made me think life without healthy food

is bad

but sometimes i eat fast food

like today

[brisk hornet]

wowie

i hate doing research sm

"oh go to mass comm it suits ur personality!!" mf u did NOT tell me that mass comm was all abt research

research......

FAHHHHHHH

[strange canopy]

relatable

[strange canopy]

ay but ai exists

[brisk hornet]

do not

i will not stoop

to the level of using ai

to conduct research for me

[strange canopy]

if i pass idgf

[brisk hornet]

[strange canopy]

math and physics are making me go insane

[brisk hornet]

igaf

[strange canopy]

so using ai

is like

[brisk hornet]

how do u even trust ai w science n math of all things

[strange canopy]

dw i dont trust ai with math

even i wish i can

ai too dumb

but science yes

i use him

[strange canopy]

he helps kind of

[safe oracle]

[strange canopy]

and im talking to you while fighting the hardest boss in aotr

[safe oracle]

one for both of you

[strange canopy]

oh wow

love that

[strange canopy]

I AHTE U BRO I GOT ONLY EPICS

[strange canopy]

all because of airhead

[safe oracle]

aotrholic

[strange canopy]

i broke 1 leg 1 hand lost my eye

speed i need this

sorry kiwi forgot ts ur journal

[brisk hornet]

all good

[brisk hornet]

im hungry again sob

i literally js ate some rice like

2 hours ago

bro

[brisk hornet]

i ate ONE waffle and suddenly i want to throw up

is it just me or is my stomach shrinking

bro

[strange canopy]

guh 💔

[brisk hornet]

CAN I NOT GO ONEEEEE FUCKIGN MEAL WITHOUT WANTING TO THROW UP

dude all i want is to eat good food but i cant even do that

[strange canopy]

eat a kiwi

[brisk hornet]

yk i used to think ppl who cld get full from so little was so lucky

but now that i am like that its fucking hell

[brisk hornet]

i dont have any kiwis </3

[brisk hornet]

like im wasting so much money because i cant adjust portion size

im wasting so much FOOD because sometimes i js cant takeaway

bro

ts pisses me off

i cant even fcking finish a small bbt without wanting to throw up

its not even i feel full when i get a bbt w a meal

i cant HAVE a drink w a full meal

or i wont be able to finish

i have like the opposite of a ed or smt

the hell bro

[strange canopy]

its okay kiwi one day u will eat like a normal human being

one day

one day

[brisk hornet]

i hope so

lowk i wanna bring it up to a doctor or smt

[strange canopy]

its prob fast metabolism too

[brisk hornet]

can it work faster

ideally during my meal

can it digest during my meal and not take like an hour to digest before i get hungry again

[strange canopy]

it just makes you to feel hungry sooner after eating and idk why u cant eat much

i used to have a friend like this

[brisk hornet]

aw man

[strange canopy]

Feeling full quickly, or early satiety, is often caused by conditions that prevent the stomach from stretching or delay it from emptying, such as gastroparesis (slow digestion), peptic ulcers, GERD, or infections like H. pylori. Other factors include nerve issues, small stomach capacity, or hormonal imbalances affecting appetite signaling.

google gonna make u terrified

ggs

[brisk hornet]

oh!

[brisk hornet]

ohmygod

thats like searching up a small pain u have and google going "yeah its over buddy u have cancer"

im hungry now tho

gonna go eat dinner finally

[brisk hornet]

i finished eating

i cant tell if im full or hungry.

FAHHH

more waiting..... i dont wanna overeat again.....

[brisk hornet]

lowk i think i might be hungry this time

hmmmm

do i risk it......

hmmmmmmmmmm

[brisk hornet]

HE HAD A FUCKING FIANCE??????

bro he told me he was single

holy lore drop

BYEEEEE

[strange canopy]

very very VERY interesting thing to say 💔

[safe oracle]

how old was he bruh

[brisk hornet]

bro he was like a year older than me...

im more surprised that he had a fiance at that age

[safe oracle]

?????

is that even legal???????

[brisk hornet]

technically fiances are like

non-legal...?

i mean its not a bad thing ig u js dont see it rlly often

super young damn

[safe oracle]

yeah but like at such a yougn age is so strange

[brisk hornet]

right????

im lvl 30

woohoo

i think i may have sent his fiance

back into a depressive episode

shit

uhhhh

fuh

[safe oracle]

WHAT

[brisk hornet]

dude because like

theyve been commenting on his video everyday

and i reached out ebcause i was lowk concerned

because it kinda seemed that they were his partner

and also i was curious

and so i offered like

if u ever need to vent

u can do it w me

[safe oracle]

omg i thought you were having it bad enough right now

[brisk hornet]

yeah 😭

fak idk how to comfort bro

im so shite at this

[safe oracle]

just dont be like

reptitive with your comments back

bc that pisses even me off

[brisk hornet]

yesssirrr

ill try my best

o7

bye it sounds so robotic

im gna crash out

omg

im deleting my acc

i can always make a new one

BYE

I CLOSED THE CONVO SUCCESSFULY

LETS GOOOOOOO

[safe oracle]

https://tenor.com/view/illya-yay-jump-fate-fate-stay-night-gif-15310536727475874066

[strange canopy]

how can u find people like this

ts like the most depressing shit

u can ever seee

[brisk hornet]

wdym

like ppl like the fiance

or ppl like me

LMAO

[strange canopy]

People who are ready to cheat on their fiance's

like ts

is just

sad

disgusting

very

FUCKING

DISGUSTING

[brisk hornet]

HUH

NO

WAIT

NO

WHAT

WE WERENT DATING

WAIT OMG NO

I DIDNT MEAN TO IMPLY THAT WE WERE DATING

[strange canopy]

explain then if its okay

like

IM HELLA FUCKING LAGGING

NOW

kiwi what did u do to me

[brisk hornet]

LOL

oopsies!

teehee

[strange canopy]

rah ima just go shower and forget about this

[brisk hornet]

LOL my bad

i shld prob shower too

[brisk hornet]

tired

tired and unproductive what a combo

[brisk hornet]

theres no way im getting full when i need to leave for school soon

dude i cant wait for my shit to digest i have to LEAVE

no choice i guess ill overeat again

fuh i dont wanna go to sch

[brisk hornet]

My stomach hurts

Fuhhh

Tbh I really want to die

It's just that things are totally tiring?

And it's not like there's anything left

[brisk hornet]

need to kms holy fuck

tbh what i lack for in empathy i just try to make up for in experience

i wonder what experience i should try next

ive recently covered eds

hm

dude im supposed to interview other ppl at dorms next sunday

my fucking schedule next sunday

the ONE day i have like 3 other things due

im gonna

dude im gonna kjms

[safe oracle]

𝓱𝓪𝓹𝓹𝔂 𝓫𝓲𝓻𝓽𝓱𝓭𝓪𝔂 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵𝓮

[brisk hornet]

BYE whats w the fancy text

[brisk hornet]

Are you depressed or is your blood sugar just low

[strange canopy]

damn u got a schedule?? ur too smart for me

guh

[brisk hornet]

How is having a schedule considered smart 😭😭

[brisk hornet]

my damn back is so hunched if a chef fries me ill turn red

[strange canopy]

im too dumb and too introverted for a schedule

[strange canopy]

I wish I was joking.

[brisk hornet]

cup noodles + 1 piece of ham + 1 egg

my sister said i shld go see the doctor

since she said i might have gastric

considering the eating schedule like 2 years ago

im inclined to believe her

[brisk hornet]

tbh kinda considering renovating vivi's account

its lost its og purpose

might turn it into a commentary one instead

[brisk hornet]

I hate how it seems no matter what I put in my stomach it just hurts

[brisk hornet]

It feels like I'm drowning

[brisk hornet]

lowk my lack of energy might be because of the lack of food i eat...?

it js occured to me

because i tried to calculate the amt of calories i usually eat

its like

maxing out at 1k

...?

isn't that way less than the reccommended intake?

bro istg im gna be so pissed if my lack of energy is literally because im not eating enough

can i js kms

[safe oracle]

it could also just be from all the anxiety you've been having

[brisk hornet]

That might be true too

Sigh the human body is so complicated

[brisk hornet]

fuck im so tired

[strange canopy]

relatable editing the same vid for 5 hours

[brisk hornet]

i'm kinda tired of acting like i don't want to die

[brisk hornet]

sighhh school really is a bit too much...?

everytime im in here it's like constant minus hp

-1 -1 -1 -1 -1

chipping away at my will to live

[brisk hornet]

im studying at the place where i got assaulted

nth like confronting trauma head on!

yk what really sucks is that this is actually a rlly good study spot

quiet, air con, not too cold not too warm, window view, natural light, close to toilet, couches to sleep

bruh

its rlly perfect

[brisk hornet]

fak shit

idw do work

wtf is this.

IM NOT MADE FOR DATA

SPARE MEEE

[brisk hornet]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0EnAPvoIoXM

[brisk hornet]

honestly i dont really want to live anymore

it's hard to describe this feeling

it's not like it's stemming from any particular incident

just this vague feeling of despair?

i can't feel anything besides for this

i can't even muster up any kind of righteous blind hate towards the people that have wronged me before

everything just seems so lifeless

im tired

i dont want to live anymore

[brisk hornet]

it got better for a minute

now the feeling's back

[brisk hornet]

the hell

they said i'm being rate limited

whatever the hell that means

js lemme send my posts jesus

[strange canopy]

twitterholic

[brisk hornet]

unfortunate addiction

[brisk hornet]

new profile gang

tbh not sure how i feel about the pink/black...

might try a purple/pink and grey next

[safe oracle]

tuff

[safe oracle]

purple and black might be cool aswell

[brisk hornet]

oo u might be right

[brisk hornet]

need ts irl

[strange canopy]

is it the same orr

[brisk hornet]

idk LOL

im so hard omg

i love longshots w novaria

its like doing a longshot w xavier but BETTER because she has limited range

[brisk hornet]

so tired

sigh

[brisk hornet]

lmao maybe it's because they're kinda young but its really fun teasing them

i'm like totally looking down on them, aren't i...?

welp whatever

fucking hell they're way too funny

i hope i dont accidentally traumatize them or something that wld suck

WHYD THEY REJECT MY APPLICATION

WHAT REQUIREMENTS IS THERE TO BE MET?????

YALL SAID NOTHINGGGGGGG

im gna lose it gng

reapplying it is

my fucking diginity....

ohhhhmygod

my ego is brusied

fah

i need to stop acting like an immature brat omg its not gna be the end of the world if i get rejected

ohhh im gna lose it

THE SPIDER'S MATE??

YALL MAKING ANYYYYY ANIMAL A MATE NOWADAYS

but i admit my curiosity has been peaked

okay yk what i think thats justified

not the girl but damnnnnn that spider hella fine

wld hit 100%

we are apparently expanding our tastes

first it was the vampires

then it was the werewolves

and now we're going for the spiders

WHY

WHY DO THEY KEEP REJECTING MY APPLICATION

I DONT UNDERSTAND?????

do they hate me.....

fuh

shld i js

text my moot

fakkkk

what if they said they hate me and want me to die

what then

no i gotta act nonchalant

FAHHHHHH

I SENT IT

ok

extra diginity down the drain

i need to calm down.

scrubbing my whiteboard as if im some paesant maid in the versailies

i got way too worked up over the application thing

fahh

gotta calm down

my emotional regulation skills is a big fat 0 lmao

[brisk hornet]

i got into WHA twt for the fanart and immediately i am bombarded w angst

STOP THE HORRORS

[strange canopy]

idk what to start with 😭

[brisk hornet]

LMAO

my bad bro

[strange canopy]

nah u good lmao its ur journal

[brisk hornet]

girl bye i got rejected because the main admin doesnt like proshippers

YOU REALIZE THAT LIKE

3 PEOPLE IN THAT DC

ARE PROSHIPPERS

RIGHT

???

3 of ur admins r proshippers one of them literally has a commentary account to criticize antis like

but yeah

im glad it wasnt my fault

of all the things i expected them to say this wasnt one of them LOL

[brisk hornet]

marcel

my beloved

man

i wanna kms

[brisk hornet]

ugh

fuck

heh

it accurately reflects everytime i play novaria

mvp but losing

heh

ughhh fuck marcel is so fucking adorable

[brisk hornet]

i was wondering why there was so much maid fanart

turns out it was maid day yesterday lol

dude omg i love yumeshipping w qifrey n all but FUCK orufrey is genuinely just the better ship like I CANT COMPETE W THAT

when the more popular and objectively better ship already exists in canon UGHGHHGHGHH

[brisk hornet]

bye i cant when they get emotional

like

man

im going to LOSE IT

im going to LOSE MY MIND

FAHHHHHHHHHH

ORUFREY IS SUCH A GOOD SHIP

THEIR EMOTIONAL BOND

IS JS

I CANT COMPETE W THAT

ITS LIKE

OBJECTIVELY THE BETTER SHIP

MY GOD

omg

im so funny

jesus christ

i love having custom stickers gods

[brisk hornet]

the fucking ed server is arguing abt proships and antis bye

I GOT KICKED

BYE

omg

that place was NOT chill like that i was absolutely wrong

im so glad i didnt give my twitter handle to them

sheeshhh

[brisk hornet]

sigh

somehow its rlly disappointing

ig i got way too attached to that server

fah

sigh

join a support server they said

itll be fun they said

this is why the community i like to surround myself w is usually found through darkships

to avoid bs like this

[brisk hornet]

fuckk

fuck my stupid chud ass life

this is why i hate getting attached to new ppl

fml

fml

fmk

stupid fucking sensitive fucking heart

im in a gc w some ppl from the server and fuckk one of them isnt responding and its genuinely making my stomach hurt from stress

lowk the tag qiolru is rlly opening me to the option of bottom olu and top qifrey

hm