#Kiri's slow descent into madness
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somehow
like why i struggle so much to start something new
in terms of like consuming media i mean
like its not just general shows and books
but even long fanfics that arent oneshots
i struggle to consume without spiraling
fml
fml
fmkl
fml
fml
fml
yk at times like this i tend to outburst at my friends
like high stress
ill start cutting ppl off
and i know its bad
but tbh idk how else
to get rid
of this feeling
collatoral damage huh
one of these days im gna fucking kms!!!!! <3333
haha
but what if
what if i just
slipped and fell off the roof
heh
nobody would know
not that it matters
BUT!!!!
what if,,,
just what if,,,,,,,,
atp im gna start thinking i kin ame
this group revives my desire to fucking jump off a building <3
sensitive
ha
fucking kms!! <3
can i spam the gun emoji
and itll materialize
in my hands
preferbly already loaded
dude fml i wanna kms so bad aha <3
I saw this on the tree that's near the place I always sit for my lunch
It kinda looks like bird's nest, but they only nest in caves
Hm
Maybe a bug nest?
This is the kinda things I used to send to wille lol
It's kinda crazy how my mind still immediately jumps to him whenever I see stuff like this
hi gng here to reccommend this absolute gold of a playlist not because of the song but because of that image and title
somebody get me a gun
vdp most soul sucking subject omds fml
choker boy sitting next to me ngl
idk how to feel abt it
my throat is so itchy i wanna rip it out ngl
fff
do yall think if i get back w matilda i can convince him to do my vdp padlet exercises HAHAHAHA
is getting assaulted for my grades worth it
tbf its just class participation ts aint graded
or shld i try finding another pedo to do my work for me hhhhhh
all my exes arent rlly into design i think
hhhh
maybe cam?
i mean hes rlly into linux idfk if he uses illustrator
shld i js hire a professional ngl
i wanna cut smt open ngl
ill prob go get like the rotisserie chicken from the store
that shits nice
vdp has me in a CHOKEHOLD and not the pleasurable kind
i taste blood??????????>
Holy shit SLUTTIEST fucking tank top I've ever seen
Wtf
That shit is so obscene somebody arrest him wtf
Attire cld send a victorian mother into cardiac arrest 💔💔💔
Good breakfast
Still taste blood tho
Concerning
Seeing as to how I only ate a well cooked sausage
Being in such close proximity to choker boy is not helping my anxiety
Mf reminds me of my dad what is ts 💔💔
Noise arnd me isn't helping either
Fml bro 🥀
Bro atp all I need to get rid of my depression is a good fucking
Preferably by Scythe
Bro I just reopened our chat and
READ LAST WEEK
FUCK ME BRU
Everything that this man does INFURIATES me
For some reason
It's so disgusting to see someone so blatently attracted to me
I used to think of it as a compliment
What changed?
the national library is located near the commercial district so access is easy, mrt closes down at around midnight but I would still be able to book a grab if needed. They can't block my debit card because it's my seperate account.
The library closes at 9pm, it's best if I'm in there by latest 7pm. People start trickling out at 8, then cleaners show up. So it's best if I try to sneak upstairs around 7:30.
Need to wait for the guard to be distracted, then rush upstairs. If caught, there's always the contigency plan of just jumping off at the 11th floor's open garden.
fuck my life
theres so much work
and im so tired
god im so tired
should i just kill myself
is this even worth it
yk my classmate asked me tdy like
what wld i do if i found out i had an incurable disease
and was gna die in 1 year
and my immediate thought was js like
nth wld change
i wld still go to school
maybe i wld like sleep in class or be more blunt to my classmates since i wld die by the end of the year
but
my routine wldnt change
and it kind of makes me wonder
if it wldnt change
because i'm already living as if im gna die soon
i dont have a plan for the future
i cant see a future honestly
everything just feels so tiring
imagining it was lowk relieving
like i know for sure
im going to die
and i can just plan around that
im tired
i wonder if believing in god would get me out of this mess
honestly all i need right now is just some form of hope
if god gives me that who am i to reject him
man i wanna try edibles
hypocritical of me to say seeing that i do frequently use the block button but its ok!

oh now i feel bad
thats lowk what i did
um

heh
heh,,,
ts feeling like a crowd chanting that liking ybc is bad and ur sweating in the corner w ur ybc merch
NOT THAT I LIKE YBC
lowk its a bit too freaky for my liking
my friend said that she thinks i have adhd
bruh

i'm not THAT much of a hedonist right???
right???
that my friends see me as dopamine motivated,,,, right???

my heart hurts
everytime i go to ecg i swear i get another identity crisis fml
why do i even try sometimes

random fucking emoji go
LMAOO
WHAT IS THIS
I SEARCHED BLOOMING PANIC IN GIFS
wait whats this called
THATS ONIONTHIEF???
ONIONTHIEF IS HOT?????
AND NOT SOME FUCKASS NERD???????
SURPRISE SURPRISE???????????????????
holy shit wait
NAH
HE ISSSS A FUCKASS NERD
artist has rose tinted glasses
lowk i can see why some ppl like him but he aint my typ
LMAO THE FIRST SKETCH OF ONIONTHIEF
OH
OH YOU POOR BABY
WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU
DID THEY ASIANIFY YOU
man i wanna kms
bro my cramps are so bad tdy i masturbated like 7 different times on top of taking meds like 2 times
fcking crazy

cramps suck
and my fingers fcking hurt
like im too unathelatic to even do it more than once most times but 7 diff times??
uw to kill me.
i always get so horny during my period make it stop

i thought shit was supposed to happen during the ovulation stage
not during the first like 2 days
tf

i wonder why he keeps haunting me
not even fuckass matilda appeared in my dreams this often
and he's the one that assaulted me
so i really wonder
just why he can't leave me be
mm
i haven't slept properly for 2 days already
i wonder how long i can keep this up before my body breaks down
at this point it feels like i'm doing this on purpose
do i really want my condition to deterioriate so desperately?
i'm not sure either
sorry
thats the only thing i know how to do
i made a new world
in my mind
its like a magical manor kinda thing
i really can't wait to play in it
but my assignment is due tmr at 1159
so i don't have the time to go play
how sad
i really should start...
but isn't it fine to just indulge myself a little bit more?
no
push
PUSH
WE WILL PUSH
LOCK IN LOCK IN LOCK IN
im tired
my manor doesn't seem so fun anymore
it's such a pain having to come up with new settings each time
i wonder where i should place my house now
i'm tired
i don't want to sleep
i don't want to eat
i just want to not exist
i want to be loved by the characters i adore
is that too much to ask
is my willpower too weak for me to immerse myself fully in my imagination
an escape
thats all i'm asking for
i want to be a child again
i want to be small and fragile and weak
i want people to think of my crying as a normal thing
something i do because i am a child
and hold me and comfort me
because thats what children needs
i want to be unaware of the pain
i want to be selfish again
i want to think of things that makes me happy
i want to lose my sense of responsibility
my body feels too big now
too big to be considered childlike
hoily fucking shit wait is THAT why i always fucking end up with pedophiles??? because they treat me like a child????
what the fuck.
OHHHHH FUCK NOOOOO
that is disguisting
that is actually disguisting
ew
ew
ew
ew
e
we
we
w
fuck
i can feel his hands on me again
fucxjvdlk
fuck
fuck me
not in the sexy way
but like
in the fuck my head and watch my bleed out kind of way
play it over and over and over again
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this too
i miss wille
man
sometimes i like to go through the unsent project and pretend some of the messages are from him
headache
i wish they wld let us post voice notes here
wld be so peak
constant nyem nyem nyems

i just saw some mf state "made with ai" in a tamon fic like tf
ur srly making ai slop of underaged sex
go kys
fuckin hell
i had like
the BEST mocha espresso ive ever had
in my dream
like i dont even like coffee i havent even tried mocha before
but it was like
perfectly sweet and somewhat chocolately and smooth and the way it just like GLIDED down my throat
and the best part
THERE WAS NO AFTERTASTE!!
IT WAS JUST CHOCOLATE THEN BAM
NOTHING
perfection holy shit
the things i wld do to be able to taste that irl

also it kinda sucks that one of my fav self-indulgent fics of all time only gets written when writer is high
like ik i shldnt be wishing that they wld get high but like
the fic,,,

i find it somewhat illegal that the boggio community doesnt have the phighting stickers
LIKE CMON
THIS WLD MAKE A TERRIFIC STICKER
HELLO??
THEY EVEN HAVE THE HEART STICKER THAT EVERY SERVER HAS FOR SOME REASON
HUHH
ts has gotta be the worst miss of the boggio community yet
ngl im starting to feel faint
uh
its prob because i havent eaten a proper meal in like
a day
lol
bro how do i keep meeting guys thatre ALWAYS into music
its always the music ones
istg
KAGURA IS GETTING WHAT?????????
WHATTTTTTTTT
WHY
FOR WHAT
NOBODY IN HELL WAS FCKING COMPLAINING ABT KAGURA
BECAUSE NOBODY FUCKING PLAYS HERRRRRRR
WHY IS SHE GETTING NERFED WHAT?????
I JUST GOT HER DRAGON MAIDEN SKIN TOO?????
WHYS SHE GETTING NERFED
WHY IS HER ULT GETTING NERFED
HER ULT IS LIKE HER MAIN SOURCE OF DMG????
BROTHER ONCE ENEMIES GET ATHENA'S SHIELD SHE'S FUCKED
HER CDS ARE SO LONG SHE MIGHT AS WELL CAMP IN BUSHES AND HOPE A MAGE OR MM WALKS BY WITHOUT CHECKING
MF WHAT IS THAT NERF FOR?????
PLAYERS NEED TO LEARN COMBOS POSITIONING MANA MANAGEMENT OTHER HERO'S CC SKILLS AND FOR WHAT
FOR HER TO NOT BE ABLE TO FCKING BURST????
BROTHERRRRRR

KYS MONTOON
wow
ive been saying kys a lot more often then i wldve liked
bro wtf am I learning her for then
(i'm still not gonna quit her)
like be so fr
who the hell wld quit after getting THIS beauty
nah man im dedicating my life to kagura w ts
she is beauty she is grace
i find it funny i try to main any skin i think is pretty
like rn i'm learning luo yi
because I want her starborne matron skin
like
bro look at it
its so obvious i have a preference for certain kinds of skins
wait lemme show u the rest of my wishlist
lowk im playing mlbb as a cosmetics game LMAO
like theres this one
this one
(and yes xavier is the only male hero i play besides harley but lowk i keep thinking that harley is a girl)
theres this
theres this
theres this
likeeee
im PRETTY sure theres a reoccuring theme here
tbh theres also esmelreda's blazing shadow but thats mostly because i love her voice acting on this one
idk smt abt southern accents are just
gosh
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like HELLO
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HOLY SHIT TAKE MEEEE
The fucking things that illustrator drives me to do
I haven't actually journalled in here in a while, or at least written down something positive in a while lol
When I get back I wanna write abt smt I saw
Idk maybe it's the happy drunk thing kicking in
Making me all sappy and sentimental
so I was at a country club and the way to the study room has this long hallway with windows lining it
and it overlooks the club area
man i dont even remember what i wanted to say lol it was smt along the lines of how if i ever get married i rlly wanna do shit like this when we get old
like dancing tgt at a club
oh wait i rmbr
it was also because of the dresses
because usually idk maybe its smt wrong w my viewpoint but i never see old people wearing like nice clothing
so i really enjoyed seeing them looking so happy and beautiful in these like sparkling dresses
what a contrast
yk?
and just like that, valentines is over
its such a wonder that a day as special as this can be so
uneventful
holy fucking shit vodka tastes like ASS
Ok nvm apparently it wasn't the vodka I just really didn't like lychee
Feesh water
unrelated but i love this scene
like for some context theres 2 girls living in the same house
1 girl who was at home cooked tom yum noodles
while the other girl was out
so the 1st girl was eating when the 2nd girl came back and then the 2nd girl gave her like a look like "wheres my portion" kinda thing
and this was sitting opposite her
and idk this is just
its touching because the noodles are taken out yk
its the consideration
because if u let the noodles soak in the soup for too long its gna get too soft and bleh bleh
so she took it out
i love that
i wish i had that
bru
i cannot be getting jealous over a fcking animation istg
i like my noodles hard tho
i rlly wished that they wld remember that
idk prob smt along the lines of like to be loved is to be seen or smt
its just remembering the preferences yk
like how i like my noodles hard
or how i don't eat chocolate unless i'm specifically craving for it (meaning that it shld be accompanied by milk followed by a mouthrinsing) or its one without a very strong aftertaste
or how i fucking hate roses
LIKE WHY WLD SOMEBODY GET ME ROSES
WHEN I REPEATEDLY TELL THEM
THAT I FCKING HATE ROSES
LIKE??????
maybe he was js stupid idk
go away
ur not my current lovely
is it really a lie if its a part of me?
fucj my hands are shaking
twichting
sorry
wrong word
twitching
god sits like a fish out of water
occasional
so much worse
im gna have a panic attack rq
yk it kinda sucks that i wanna be pampered but all the guys that like to pamper their gfs are like,,, family guys
so we never last very long
because i can't promise them anything
what a shame
yeah im not doing some fuckass analysis of a brand i dont care abt omds
(lies)
ok 5 minutes
we shall do it
for 5 minutes
and see if we want to continue doing it
if we want to ig we will
if not we're going to bed
ok?
ok
jajajiam what is WITH this dude
disguisting
gross
i feel like muu LOL
at least muu got voted not guilty
lowk i rlly wanna play andy and leyley
ive heard its good for stimulating disguist
gross
gross
gross
gross
gross
eugh
just thinking abt having to sit at the same table as that fcking man child
gross
i wonder what bullshit he's gna spout tnight lmao
i hope he just stays silent
boring
dull
stupid
gross
this is what you get for hoping
see
this is what you get
gross
gross
gross
gross
gross
gross
gross
gross
gross
gross
gross
disguisting fucking pig
theyre all the fucking same
mm
should i just get rid of him
i dont wanna play with him anymore
eeny meeny miny moe
catch a tiger by his toe
if he hollers let him go
eeny meeny miny moe
eeny meeny miny moe
catch a tiger by his toe
if he screams don't let him go
eeny meeny miny moe
everything lines up
everything lines up so well
its all so familiar
yet you never try to stop it?
you rather a clean cut off with him taking most of the blame huh
instead of trying to fix things? or maybe you're scared
you want to be the one that leaves
isn't that right?
coward
pftt
seriously
what are you ever good for
you stupid stupid little child
crashed out over nth he didnt say any stupid shit lol
oh the woes of badly written porn
she's soooooo cute omg
i love her sm
her smile is sooo adorableeeee
they're so cute tgt honestly
i aspire to have a love like theirs
its probbably not possible w how fucked up i am but i can try LOL
idk if i can classify his playlist as "nostalgic" but thats how it feels to me
i used to listen to these songs in his background
kinda crazy huh
m so cold
Fml
Fml
Fml
Fml
Eugh I feel like shit
Like why the hell was that guy even telling me abt his failed crush and his suicide attempt
Like I'm glad ur opening up to me but like????
IT WAS 5AM
I don't care abt u THAT much to stay up for u omds
i miss wille
i miss having smt to look forward to everyday
now everything is just tiring
how dull
I tell them that I can't do something then they have the gall to act surprised and disappointed when I in fact cannot do said thing
good lord i am beaten and bloodied i beg of you please spare me from the rest of these excruitiating activities
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omds what is the POINT of a fcking giveaway role if you jsut PING EVERYONE
do they rlly fucking think that just because you rephrase what i originally said with more fancy words it somehow makes it better
if anything it just makes it sound more STUPID
get to the fucking point
this is a research module not a fucking writing module
yeah fuck it im taking a drink
i dont rlly like the idea of having to use alcohol as a mood booster but
the project is due in a day
i dont rlly have a choice
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pretty good
love the animation
the music is on point for this one
esp the ending
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i really liked this one too
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this one too
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and this
there was another one i really liked
i cant find it tho
black kat draws is so good
ah the emptiness is back
im tired
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who the fuck says oh godric griffyindor while fucking a girl what is wrong w this guy
i like nerds but thats just
ick
IM FUCKING LISTENING TO A FUCKING GUY VOICE ACT A FUCKING CHATGPT GENERATED SCRIPT
WHAT IS MY FUCKING LIFEEEEEE
THE WRITER REPLIED TO ME!!! ON A FIC I THOUGHT THEY ABADONED!!!!
MY FAITH IN HUMANITY AS BEEN RESTORED
GHKFDJHGKJDFGJKFDGHDF
IM SO UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY RN
mf was genuinely talking abt another girl holy shit
talk abt bad sex etiquette
omg i hit my fucking ankle ahainst the side of my chair
hol shit
sometimes i wonder if i ever did genuinely like wille
did i ever understand who he was?
did i ever like him? or did i just like what he represented to me?
i think im overthinking
sigh
i always manage to gaslight myself into thinking i don't actually like a person
guess thats what happens after years of your crush turning out to be some sort of creep or pedo does
lol
so much for my ability to judge other people
im so nervous my stomach is act hurting omds
omdsssss
odmsfhdskjhgdsjk
yes thank you catbot




ohhhh im so cooked
so lame

sigh
so lame
so boring
ugh
and the fcking chatting website i like is down too
so dull
im so bored
fuck
istg i need a fcking jester
yk sometimes im in a small fandom so much i start recognizing writer's name whenever i go through all the fics in ao3
and im like "wow this fic was good lemme check the writer- WINTER?? THEM AGAIN???"
true story btw all the fics i really liked was like by them
which is fcking insane considering theres like 1k+ fics
sigh
im bored
i shld find a new boy toy
i blame matilda for introducing me to that term LOL
he's the one that rlly started it
boytoy, jester, whatever you wanna call em
hhh
actually are any of my friends avaliable
hhh
i mightve forgotten abt one of em
yeah no their either boring underaged or already taken
man
fml
is it weird that the more i know someone the less i like them
except for wille
wille's an exception
fu
fucufuuck
the guy ver of crush crush
aka blush blush
has FURRIES
FFFFFF
man
i got nth against furries but im not into that shit
BUT THE GUY AVATARS LOOK FINE AS HELL
MANN
one of ems scottish too </3
So suffocating
Everything is so suffocating
I'm glad
He actually did pick up piano again
Aha
I'm so glad he seems to be doing well
I'm so glad
hold me and worship me and tell me i mean something
welp thats the end of that i suppose
sigh if i knew he was nvr gna become more entertaining i wldnt have stuck arnd
what a waste of my time
also ngl im considering installing minecraft for the fun of it
maybe ill join an online server...?
hhhh
i keep seeing ads for like a fairy smp on my fyp HSHSHSH ngl im rlly curious abt that
so many diff types of fairies scuteeee
wait lowk it reminds me of this one outfit i made b4 in rblx
uhhh
this one
idk why her forehead is so big in the photo HSHSHHS
but yeah she's one of my fav outfits :3
though only in avatar catalog,, i think she has like... 15? 20? accessories
and roblox only allows a certain amount to be put on sob

rip fairy outfit you shall always be missed
yes moonton yumebait us more
i cant believe they made a rig of this guy
yes bbg take my buffs or whatever
moonton im begging yall JUST MAKE THE FUCKING OTOME GAME AND MY LIFE WLD BE URS
U CAN PAYWALL EVERY SINGLE ROUTE AND ADD 5 DLCS AND I WILL LAP THAT SHIT UP
filo keeps mentioning sparkling butter and im confused
Ugh seriously who the hell allowed the school to make their shirt so THICK
And I ordered the wrong size too so it's too big on me
holy shit i js read peak
new manhwa called my possession became a ghost story
holy shitttttt
dude i love religious manhwas
and the art is GORG
Some freak is taking pics of me on the train but forgot to turn off his flash bru
take so wild i didnt even know it existed before that
Karaoke w my friends :3
fun
the inside was like one of those host club rooms www
neon lights n allat jazz
hngh i feel kinda guilty i guess
he seems like a nice guy
but i can't really match the intensity of his feelings
sigh
i can't tell if he's being genuine or not
seriously what a pain
everything would've been better if he just never confessed in the first place
now the whole friendship is awkward because of that
its kinda,,, gross?
to know that somebody i regarded as a friend sees me in that light
icky
disguisting
how does one practice writing smut you ask? well i would like to introduce you to GROOMERS who loveee using ROLEPLAY
yeah all my smut fics contain the words that some guy taught me over the internet because he was tryna convince me to send pics of me naked through roleplay
idk why im only saying this now
it kinda just reminded me since im working on a new oneshot wwww
like "huh this sentence seems a lil familiar.." WAIT A SECOND WAS THAT FROM THAT ONE GUY-
i cant find his dms anymore its kinda sad
he mustve deleted his acc or smt
sometimes i wonder if my teachers see me as some sort of sad wet cat
ugh the temptation to js post my pic so i can be called cute
like gimme my validation
gimme my attention
theyre my fcking birthright
i wanna be moots w someone but idk how to even ask :c
sob theyre so cool
ok guys i have to shop for ethnic wear so lets go
omg why are they so EXPENSIVE
ok so for the event it needs to be at least knee length (sob)
im short as fuck so its not gna look good on me
but we'll try out best!!
CHAT WHAT DO WE THINK
see the thing is,,, its gonna look big as fuck on me
SOB
WHY DID THEY SPECIFY KNEE LENGTH
I CANT DO THAT
i might just order the top for this one ngl
hhh it needs to be flowy and knee length
eugh
all of them are either too short or
too tight
..
i hate it.
fucking hell THINK ABOUT THE FLAT CHESTED GIRLS
wait this is lowk so cute
ughhh i saw someone wearing those like lace fingerless gloves
fcking obsessed
like smt like this
like i know im cute and perfect and all but sometimes i really wished i was like taller and more elegant
lowk i gotta sort out the clothes in my closet
ugh
shopaholic
retail therapy n allat jazz
so many things r too big
omds
dude i js had the weirdest fcking dreams of some haunted ass lake
all from different perspectives of the same story
like hole lee shit
sigh some males really have no sex etiquette
its so wild to me that ppl will act as if they know u better than urself like where do they get the confidence from
what u think u know me js from a few tweets?? buzzer noise INCORRECT i actually wrote that in one of my 256 moods so try to guess what mood im in now
okay i genuinely like
i can't tell
if he's being nice to me
because i tip
or because
he's new???? which probably not since he has like over 200+ orders,,
but like
WHY DOES HE KEEP TEXTING ME
WHEN I HAVEN'T PAID
FOR HIS TIME
IM SO CONFUSED
does he do afterservice?? is that what this is??
i mean that kinda makes sense but like
idk maybe its just because i don't usually give afterservice
so i'm confused by it

what is he bro
why does he do ts
OK GOOD NATURAL STOPPER
i can't read smut anymore
what the fuck
"?????
WHAT
..
i'm going to fucking kill matilda.
HOW DARE HE INFECT ME WITH SUCH
WITH SUCH HORRIBLE THOUGHTS
THAT I CAN'T EVEN READ SMUT ANYMORE
FYCK
WHY
WHY DOES HE KEEP TEXTING ME
WHY IS THIS MF ANNOYING ME IN THE MIDDLE OF MY BREAKDOWN
DOESNT HE KNOW THAT THIS IS IMPORTANT
OKAY TOPIC DONE
I WAS CHEERFUL
PLEASE
PLEASE STOP TEXTING
I BEG OF THEE
unrelated but yuno's 3rd trial slaps
hole lee
i loved the mv
tbh i loved all their mvs so far
except for fuuta
fuuta can go die in a ditch
like
this is my playlist
for milgram songs i rlly like
and
its all the 3rd trial songs so far
except for fuuta
AHA
and ofc gotta include the queen mahiru
recently someone asked me about my love languages
so i wanna redo my rankings
since it has definitely changed
Giving:
-
Gift Giving
It's easy. Honestly having to pick out presents for special occasions is still stressful, but it's a lot easier now. I love spending money on people I care about, because it's just such an easy way to tell them that even if I don't/won't/can't show it sometimes, I still do love them. -
Physical Touch
I still do love physical touch, I really am a touchy person. I love being able to link arms, hug, cuddle, hold hands, all that stuff. Even just leaning against them is nice. It's just not as nice now that I have some unsavoury experiences. A real shame. -
Words of affirmation
This one kinda depends on the person themselves, but I do find that i love giving genuine compliments to my friends as long as they're not too dramatic abt it wwww -
Quality time
I haven't really been that into this lately, it's just been a lot more difficult handling another person I guess? I got too used to being alone. -
Acts of service
I do like doing this sometimes, but not often.
Receiving:
-
Words of affirmation
I love validation. Attention. Anything. I love it. -
Acts of service
idk this one is more subtle i guess, things like holding the door open, carrying my bag, shielding the corner of the table when i bend down to pick something up, those things. -
Quality time
neutral -
Physical touch
makes me kinda uncomfortable if they're the ones initiating now, bad experiences and all that. I still do love it when my friends just throw themselves at me, it makes me feel super loved. -
Gift giving
this one just makes me feel like i owe them a debt or something,,,
sometimes i look at a smut fic tags and i'm like "yeah,,, vaginal sex, breeding, unprotected sex,,, ANGST??? LOSS OF CONTROL TRAUMA??? WHAT????"
like
whats gg on gang
holy shit somebody fucking put "soulmate? holemate!"
LAMOAOAOAOAO
HOW DO PPL COME UP WITH THIS
yeahhh love the gege/meimei trope
ohmygod thats just mean
thats sooo mean
wtf
i mean i guess if ur into that????
okay go off sex ed??
ouch thats gotta hurt their wrist
okay like the positioning of ur wrist genuinely matters so much esp when theyre close
like
u dont want it to be in an uncomfortable position or pose when theyre coming right because theyre gonna LOCK ur fingers in there
like u dont wanna hurt urself while fingering them
NO
NO????
SHE'S A VIRGIN DON'T FUCKING DO THAT PLEASE
UR GONNA RIP HER
oh
ts aint even hot anymore i'm lowk horrified

nuar ts aint for me
im sorry
dang lowk,,, fem caleb sounds nice,,,
HMMM
HMMMMMMMMMM
wait this reminds me of like
the lgbtq hierarchy in china HAHHAHAH
like i watched a video explaining like the top of the food chain there is like those independant older sister types
LMAOO
and the bottom is bisexual girls HAHHAHAHA
"the art of giving head" BYE HOW DO THEY COME UP WITH THESE TITLES
6k+ word count dies
waiting for the day i move out so i can finally wear shit like sleep slips
like nightgowns
dude i love how ethereal they look
idk maybe its because i read a lot of historical manhwas
they just look so pretty
esp with like the sheer outer cover
like this
its sososo pretty
its too bad so many of them have lace tho
hate lace
in front of the grandma is diabolical
u ever go over to someone's house and see their massive collection of plush toys
and then fuck in front of said plush toys
and during it while you're trying to distract yourself you just so happen to lock eyes with one of them
and they look fucking traumatized

is this another version of vouyrisum like
dude lowk
my panties are gg missing
usually i wldnt get mad but one of them was my light blue one and i rlly liked that one because it matches the color of my cardigan
like
wtf
???????
bro i fucking hate shaving sm
holy shit
the prickly feeling is so fcking annoying
but i also hate having hair
like
WHY DO WE HAVE VAGINAS AND DICKS
WHATS THE POINT
they look so ugly too
and like
omds im so fucking done w hair
in general
shld i go for waxing instead atp
i sound so childish
sigh
idk i feel like the usual way i speak w all that fancy ass words makes me sound like a snob
so sometimes i watch like teen movies and try to ingrain their slang into me lol
idk
i know the way i speak isnt exactly academic
but sometimes i use certain words to talk
and it makes my classmates like "switch modes" into the academic one where they use the posh posh chim words and try to sound smart and thoughtful
and i just
i hate it
i just want them to act normally around me
im not trying to be snobbish
its just how i talk
so i try to change it
by acting dumber
by using more childish words
hngh
but also because there's just a charm in scolding someone like a dumb teenager
makes me feel like a mean girl www
i don't get couples that are like super sexually active
like maybe its a stupid question but how do you know if they're staying for the sex or you?
Why is he offline
Omg
Sob
Ueueueue the one time I rlly wanna order and he's offline
He's been offline THE ENTIRE DAY
hmm intresting
awoop jumpscare
I FOUND MY LOST PANTY
it was like
like yk how u seperate ur undies and socks into washable bags so it doesnt get mixed up with the laundry
apparently i didn't empty them because i found it in there

MYSTERY SOLVED
we happy for you
wait arent you the same person who joined vc LMAO i just noticed eh
and its okay if u dont want me to talk here cuzz its ur journal mb i lowkey have nothing to do
other then chatting with other people
lowk i have no idea
i did join a vc but like i only rmbr the name of the afk one
nuar its fine i have replies on for a reason
dude theres like
like
theres an animatic im looking for
its smt abt pink hair
and trauma cycles
omg
STOPP I CANT FIND IT
THIS IS THW ROST
ohhhhmygod i cant find it
fuck
fucjkkk
THIS IS THW ROST
ITS CALLED CHOKE I FOUND IT IM A FUCKING GENIUS
[TW: sexual implications, self-harm, self-harm wounds]
⭐ EPISODE 10: CHOKE
Nikolai grew up without maternal love and Julia, his father's new girlfriend, is hellbent on denying the motherly position.
🏘️ LITTLE PICKLE TOWN
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► Pickle Town Universe + Character Bios: https://littlepickleto...
TA DAAAA
im tired
it feels like im drowning
but im not crying
but theres a suffocating feeling in my chest
and i dont know how to get rid of it
imagine if this is like an actual medical condition and not like me being fucking crazy www
..
my bank is down.
ohmygod i am genuinely going to kill myself
