#Kiri's slow descent into madness

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brisk hornet
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explain this

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somehow

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like why i struggle so much to start something new

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in terms of like consuming media i mean

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like its not just general shows and books

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but even long fanfics that arent oneshots

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i struggle to consume without spiraling

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fml

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fml

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fmkl

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fml

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fml

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fml

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yk at times like this i tend to outburst at my friends

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like high stress

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ill start cutting ppl off

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and i know its bad

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but tbh idk how else

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to get rid

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of this feeling

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collatoral damage huh

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one of these days im gna fucking kms!!!!! <3333

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haha

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but what if

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what if i just

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slipped and fell off the roof

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heh

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nobody would know

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not that it matters

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BUT!!!!

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what if,,,

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just what if,,,,,,,,

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atp im gna start thinking i kin ame

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this group revives my desire to fucking jump off a building <3

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sensitive

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ha

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fucking kms!! <3

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can i spam the gun emoji

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and itll materialize

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in my hands

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preferbly already loaded

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dude fml i wanna kms so bad aha <3

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I saw this on the tree that's near the place I always sit for my lunch

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It kinda looks like bird's nest, but they only nest in caves

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Hm

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Maybe a bug nest?

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This is the kinda things I used to send to wille lol

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It's kinda crazy how my mind still immediately jumps to him whenever I see stuff like this

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i have a sore throat

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lowk delirious from the meds

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lollllll

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hi gng here to reccommend this absolute gold of a playlist not because of the song but because of that image and title

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somebody get me a gun

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vdp most soul sucking subject omds fml

brisk hornet
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choker boy sitting next to me ngl

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idk how to feel abt it

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my throat is so itchy i wanna rip it out ngl

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fff

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do yall think if i get back w matilda i can convince him to do my vdp padlet exercises HAHAHAHA

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is getting assaulted for my grades worth it

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tbf its just class participation ts aint graded

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or shld i try finding another pedo to do my work for me hhhhhh

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all my exes arent rlly into design i think

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hhhh

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maybe cam?

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i mean hes rlly into linux idfk if he uses illustrator

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shld i js hire a professional ngl

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i wanna cut smt open ngl

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ill prob go get like the rotisserie chicken from the store

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that shits nice

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vdp has me in a CHOKEHOLD and not the pleasurable kind

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i taste blood??????????>

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Holy shit SLUTTIEST fucking tank top I've ever seen

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Wtf

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That shit is so obscene somebody arrest him wtf

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Attire cld send a victorian mother into cardiac arrest 💔💔💔

brisk hornet
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Good breakfast

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Still taste blood tho

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Concerning

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Seeing as to how I only ate a well cooked sausage

brisk hornet
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Being in such close proximity to choker boy is not helping my anxiety

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Mf reminds me of my dad what is ts 💔💔

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Noise arnd me isn't helping either

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Fml bro 🥀

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Bro atp all I need to get rid of my depression is a good fucking

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Preferably by Scythe

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Bro I just reopened our chat and

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READ LAST WEEK

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FUCK ME BRU

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Everything that this man does INFURIATES me

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ugh

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i wanna go hang myself or some depressing emo shit

brisk hornet
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For some reason

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It's so disgusting to see someone so blatently attracted to me

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I used to think of it as a compliment

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What changed?

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the national library is located near the commercial district so access is easy, mrt closes down at around midnight but I would still be able to book a grab if needed. They can't block my debit card because it's my seperate account.

The library closes at 9pm, it's best if I'm in there by latest 7pm. People start trickling out at 8, then cleaners show up. So it's best if I try to sneak upstairs around 7:30.

Need to wait for the guard to be distracted, then rush upstairs. If caught, there's always the contigency plan of just jumping off at the 11th floor's open garden.

brisk hornet
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fuck my life

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theres so much work

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and im so tired

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god im so tired

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should i just kill myself

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is this even worth it

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yk my classmate asked me tdy like

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what wld i do if i found out i had an incurable disease

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and was gna die in 1 year

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and my immediate thought was js like

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nth wld change

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i wld still go to school

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maybe i wld like sleep in class or be more blunt to my classmates since i wld die by the end of the year

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but

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my routine wldnt change

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and it kind of makes me wonder

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if it wldnt change

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because i'm already living as if im gna die soon

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i dont have a plan for the future

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i cant see a future honestly

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everything just feels so tiring

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imagining it was lowk relieving

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like i know for sure

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im going to die

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and i can just plan around that

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im tired

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i wonder if believing in god would get me out of this mess

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honestly all i need right now is just some form of hope

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if god gives me that who am i to reject him

brisk hornet
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man i wanna try edibles

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hypocritical of me to say seeing that i do frequently use the block button but its ok!

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oh now i feel bad

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thats lowk what i did

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um

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heh

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heh,,,

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ts feeling like a crowd chanting that liking ybc is bad and ur sweating in the corner w ur ybc merch

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NOT THAT I LIKE YBC

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lowk its a bit too freaky for my liking

brisk hornet
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my friend said that she thinks i have adhd

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bruh

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i'm not THAT much of a hedonist right???

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right???

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that my friends see me as dopamine motivated,,,, right???

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my heart hurts

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everytime i go to ecg i swear i get another identity crisis fml

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why do i even try sometimes

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random fucking emoji go

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LMAOO

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WHAT IS THIS

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I SEARCHED BLOOMING PANIC IN GIFS

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wait whats this called

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THATS ONIONTHIEF???

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ONIONTHIEF IS HOT?????

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AND NOT SOME FUCKASS NERD???????

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SURPRISE SURPRISE???????????????????

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holy shit wait

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HE ISSSS A FUCKASS NERD

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artist has rose tinted glasses

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lowk i can see why some ppl like him but he aint my typ

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LMAO THE FIRST SKETCH OF ONIONTHIEF

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OH

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OH YOU POOR BABY

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WHAT DID THEY DO TO YOU

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DID THEY ASIANIFY YOU

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man i wanna kms

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bro my cramps are so bad tdy i masturbated like 7 different times on top of taking meds like 2 times

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fcking crazy

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cramps suck

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and my fingers fcking hurt

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like im too unathelatic to even do it more than once most times but 7 diff times??

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uw to kill me.

brisk hornet
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i always get so horny during my period make it stop

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i thought shit was supposed to happen during the ovulation stage

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not during the first like 2 days

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tf

brisk hornet
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i wonder why he keeps haunting me

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not even fuckass matilda appeared in my dreams this often

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and he's the one that assaulted me

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so i really wonder

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just why he can't leave me be

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mm

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i haven't slept properly for 2 days already

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i wonder how long i can keep this up before my body breaks down

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at this point it feels like i'm doing this on purpose

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do i really want my condition to deterioriate so desperately?

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i'm not sure either

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sorry

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thats the only thing i know how to do

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i made a new world

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in my mind

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its like a magical manor kinda thing

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i really can't wait to play in it

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but my assignment is due tmr at 1159

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so i don't have the time to go play

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how sad

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i really should start...

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but isn't it fine to just indulge myself a little bit more?

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no

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push

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PUSH

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WE WILL PUSH

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LOCK IN LOCK IN LOCK IN

brisk hornet
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we did not lock in we fell asleep

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mb gng

brisk hornet
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im tired

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my manor doesn't seem so fun anymore

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it's such a pain having to come up with new settings each time

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i wonder where i should place my house now

brisk hornet
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i'm tired

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i don't want to sleep

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i don't want to eat

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i just want to not exist

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i want to be loved by the characters i adore

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is that too much to ask

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is my willpower too weak for me to immerse myself fully in my imagination

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an escape

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thats all i'm asking for

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i want to be a child again

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i want to be small and fragile and weak

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i want people to think of my crying as a normal thing

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something i do because i am a child

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and hold me and comfort me

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because thats what children needs

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i want to be unaware of the pain

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i want to be selfish again

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i want to think of things that makes me happy

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i want to lose my sense of responsibility

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my body feels too big now

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too big to be considered childlike

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hoily fucking shit wait is THAT why i always fucking end up with pedophiles??? because they treat me like a child????

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what the fuck.

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OHHHHH FUCK NOOOOO

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that is disguisting

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that is actually disguisting

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ew

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ew

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ew

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ew

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e

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we

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we

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w

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fuck

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i can feel his hands on me again

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fucxjvdlk

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fuck

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fuck me

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not in the sexy way

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but like

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in the fuck my head and watch my bleed out kind of way

brisk hornet
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descent into madness indeed

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holy fucking shit kms

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play it over and over and over again

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this too

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i miss wille

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man

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sometimes i like to go through the unsent project and pretend some of the messages are from him

brisk hornet
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im reading a fic

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and i genuinely

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can't tell

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if its ai generated

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hhh

brisk hornet
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headache

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i wish they wld let us post voice notes here

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wld be so peak

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constant nyem nyem nyems

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i just saw some mf state "made with ai" in a tamon fic like tf

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ur srly making ai slop of underaged sex

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go kys

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fuckin hell

brisk hornet
brisk hornet
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i had like

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the BEST mocha espresso ive ever had

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in my dream

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like i dont even like coffee i havent even tried mocha before

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but it was like

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perfectly sweet and somewhat chocolately and smooth and the way it just like GLIDED down my throat

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and the best part

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THERE WAS NO AFTERTASTE!!

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IT WAS JUST CHOCOLATE THEN BAM

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NOTHING

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perfection holy shit

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the things i wld do to be able to taste that irl

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also it kinda sucks that one of my fav self-indulgent fics of all time only gets written when writer is high

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like ik i shldnt be wishing that they wld get high but like

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the fic,,,

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i find it somewhat illegal that the boggio community doesnt have the phighting stickers

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LIKE CMON

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THIS WLD MAKE A TERRIFIC STICKER

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HELLO??

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THEY EVEN HAVE THE HEART STICKER THAT EVERY SERVER HAS FOR SOME REASON

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ts has gotta be the worst miss of the boggio community yet

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ngl im starting to feel faint

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uh

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its prob because i havent eaten a proper meal in like

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a day

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lol

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bro how do i keep meeting guys thatre ALWAYS into music

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its always the music ones

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istg

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KAGURA IS GETTING WHAT?????????

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WHATTTTTTTTT

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WHY

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FOR WHAT

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NOBODY IN HELL WAS FCKING COMPLAINING ABT KAGURA

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BECAUSE NOBODY FUCKING PLAYS HERRRRRRR

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WHY IS SHE GETTING NERFED WHAT?????

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I JUST GOT HER DRAGON MAIDEN SKIN TOO?????

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WHYS SHE GETTING NERFED

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WHY IS HER ULT GETTING NERFED

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HER ULT IS LIKE HER MAIN SOURCE OF DMG????

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BROTHER ONCE ENEMIES GET ATHENA'S SHIELD SHE'S FUCKED

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HER CDS ARE SO LONG SHE MIGHT AS WELL CAMP IN BUSHES AND HOPE A MAGE OR MM WALKS BY WITHOUT CHECKING

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MF WHAT IS THAT NERF FOR?????

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PLAYERS NEED TO LEARN COMBOS POSITIONING MANA MANAGEMENT OTHER HERO'S CC SKILLS AND FOR WHAT

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FOR HER TO NOT BE ABLE TO FCKING BURST????

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BROTHERRRRRR

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KYS MONTOON

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wow

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ive been saying kys a lot more often then i wldve liked

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bro wtf am I learning her for then

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(i'm still not gonna quit her)

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like be so fr

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who the hell wld quit after getting THIS beauty

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nah man im dedicating my life to kagura w ts

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she is beauty she is grace

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i find it funny i try to main any skin i think is pretty

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like rn i'm learning luo yi

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because I want her starborne matron skin

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like

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bro look at it

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its so obvious i have a preference for certain kinds of skins

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wait lemme show u the rest of my wishlist

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lowk im playing mlbb as a cosmetics game LMAO

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like theres this one

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this one

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(and yes xavier is the only male hero i play besides harley but lowk i keep thinking that harley is a girl)

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theres this

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theres this

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theres this

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likeeee

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im PRETTY sure theres a reoccuring theme here

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tbh theres also esmelreda's blazing shadow but thats mostly because i love her voice acting on this one

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idk smt abt southern accents are just

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gosh

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SO SULTRY

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HOLY SHIT TAKE MEEEE

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The fucking things that illustrator drives me to do

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I haven't actually journalled in here in a while, or at least written down something positive in a while lol

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When I get back I wanna write abt smt I saw

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Idk maybe it's the happy drunk thing kicking in

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Making me all sappy and sentimental

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so I was at a country club and the way to the study room has this long hallway with windows lining it

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and it overlooks the club area

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man i dont even remember what i wanted to say lol it was smt along the lines of how if i ever get married i rlly wanna do shit like this when we get old

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like dancing tgt at a club

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oh wait i rmbr

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it was also because of the dresses

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because usually idk maybe its smt wrong w my viewpoint but i never see old people wearing like nice clothing

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so i really enjoyed seeing them looking so happy and beautiful in these like sparkling dresses

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what a contrast

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yk?

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and just like that, valentines is over

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its such a wonder that a day as special as this can be so

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uneventful

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holy fucking shit vodka tastes like ASS

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Feesh water

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how much more do i have to drink to become happy again

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unrelated but i love this scene

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like for some context theres 2 girls living in the same house

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1 girl who was at home cooked tom yum noodles

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while the other girl was out

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so the 1st girl was eating when the 2nd girl came back and then the 2nd girl gave her like a look like "wheres my portion" kinda thing

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and this was sitting opposite her

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and idk this is just

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its touching because the noodles are taken out yk

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its the consideration

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because if u let the noodles soak in the soup for too long its gna get too soft and bleh bleh

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so she took it out

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i love that

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i wish i had that

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bru

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i cannot be getting jealous over a fcking animation istg

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i like my noodles hard tho

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i rlly wished that they wld remember that

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idk prob smt along the lines of like to be loved is to be seen or smt

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its just remembering the preferences yk

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like how i like my noodles hard

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or how i don't eat chocolate unless i'm specifically craving for it (meaning that it shld be accompanied by milk followed by a mouthrinsing) or its one without a very strong aftertaste

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or how i fucking hate roses

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LIKE WHY WLD SOMEBODY GET ME ROSES

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WHEN I REPEATEDLY TELL THEM

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THAT I FCKING HATE ROSES

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LIKE??????

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maybe he was js stupid idk

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go away

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ur not my current lovely

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is it really a lie if its a part of me?

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burn me

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burn me

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burn me

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burn me

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burn m e

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fucj my hands are shaking

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twichting

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sorry

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wrong word

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twitching

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god sits like a fish out of water

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occasional

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so much worse

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im gna have a panic attack rq

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yk it kinda sucks that i wanna be pampered but all the guys that like to pamper their gfs are like,,, family guys

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so we never last very long

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because i can't promise them anything

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what a shame

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yeah im not doing some fuckass analysis of a brand i dont care abt omds

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(lies)

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ok 5 minutes

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we shall do it

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for 5 minutes

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and see if we want to continue doing it

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if we want to ig we will

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if not we're going to bed

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ok?

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ok

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so tiredddddd

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sob

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so many projectsssssss

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ueueueueueueue

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jajajiam what is WITH this dude

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disguisting

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gross

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i feel like muu LOL

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at least muu got voted not guilty

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lowk i rlly wanna play andy and leyley

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ive heard its good for stimulating disguist

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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eugh

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just thinking abt having to sit at the same table as that fcking man child

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gross

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i wonder what bullshit he's gna spout tnight lmao

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i hope he just stays silent

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boring

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dull

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stupid

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gross

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this is what you get for hoping

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see

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this is what you get

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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gross

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disguisting fucking pig

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theyre all the fucking same

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mm

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should i just get rid of him

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i dont wanna play with him anymore

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eeny meeny miny moe

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catch a tiger by his toe

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if he hollers let him go

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eeny meeny miny moe

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eeny meeny miny moe

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catch a tiger by his toe

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if he screams don't let him go

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eeny meeny miny moe

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everything lines up

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everything lines up so well

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its all so familiar

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yet you never try to stop it?

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you rather a clean cut off with him taking most of the blame huh

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instead of trying to fix things? or maybe you're scared

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you want to be the one that leaves

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isn't that right?

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coward

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pftt

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seriously

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what are you ever good for

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you stupid stupid little child

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crashed out over nth he didnt say any stupid shit lol

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oh the woes of badly written porn

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scythe wld never do me harm

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(she wld)

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she's soooooo cute omg

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i love her sm

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her smile is sooo adorableeeee

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they're so cute tgt honestly

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i aspire to have a love like theirs

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its probbably not possible w how fucked up i am but i can try LOL

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idk if i can classify his playlist as "nostalgic" but thats how it feels to me

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i used to listen to these songs in his background

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kinda crazy huh

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m so cold

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Fml

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Fml

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Fml

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Fml

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Eugh I feel like shit

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Like why the hell was that guy even telling me abt his failed crush and his suicide attempt

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Like I'm glad ur opening up to me but like????

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IT WAS 5AM

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I don't care abt u THAT much to stay up for u omds

brisk hornet
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i miss wille

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i miss having smt to look forward to everyday

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now everything is just tiring

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how dull

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I tell them that I can't do something then they have the gall to act surprised and disappointed when I in fact cannot do said thing

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It's so loud

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I hate it

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I hate it so much

brisk hornet
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good lord i am beaten and bloodied i beg of you please spare me from the rest of these excruitiating activities

brisk hornet
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omds what is the POINT of a fcking giveaway role if you jsut PING EVERYONE

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do they rlly fucking think that just because you rephrase what i originally said with more fancy words it somehow makes it better

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if anything it just makes it sound more STUPID

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get to the fucking point

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this is a research module not a fucking writing module

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yeah fuck it im taking a drink

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i dont rlly like the idea of having to use alcohol as a mood booster but

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the project is due in a day

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i dont rlly have a choice

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pretty good

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love the animation

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the music is on point for this one

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esp the ending

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i really liked this one too

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this one too

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and this

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there was another one i really liked

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i cant find it tho

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black kat draws is so good

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ah the emptiness is back

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im tired

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found it

brisk hornet
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im tired

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and cold

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can i just give up?

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please?

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who the fuck says oh godric griffyindor while fucking a girl what is wrong w this guy

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i like nerds but thats just

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ick

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IM FUCKING LISTENING TO A FUCKING GUY VOICE ACT A FUCKING CHATGPT GENERATED SCRIPT

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WHAT IS MY FUCKING LIFEEEEEE

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im gna have a panic atk in the middle of class

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what is kfe

brisk hornet
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lowk

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i shld js kms after this

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fuck

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fuck

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fc

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heh

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fc

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kfc

brisk hornet
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THE WRITER REPLIED TO ME!!! ON A FIC I THOUGHT THEY ABADONED!!!!

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MY FAITH IN HUMANITY AS BEEN RESTORED

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GHKFDJHGKJDFGJKFDGHDF

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IM SO UNBELIEVABLY HAPPY RN

brisk hornet
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mf was genuinely talking abt another girl holy shit

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talk abt bad sex etiquette

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omg i hit my fucking ankle ahainst the side of my chair

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hol shit

brisk hornet
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tired

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im so tired

brisk hornet
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sometimes i wonder if i ever did genuinely like wille

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did i ever understand who he was?

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did i ever like him? or did i just like what he represented to me?

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i think im overthinking

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sigh

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i always manage to gaslight myself into thinking i don't actually like a person

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guess thats what happens after years of your crush turning out to be some sort of creep or pedo does

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lol

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so much for my ability to judge other people

brisk hornet
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im so nervous my stomach is act hurting omds

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omdsssss

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odmsfhdskjhgdsjk

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yes thank you catbot

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ohhhh im so cooked

brisk hornet
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so lame

brisk hornet
brisk hornet
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sigh

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so lame

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so boring

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ugh

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and the fcking chatting website i like is down too

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so dull

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im so bored

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fuck

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istg i need a fcking jester

brisk hornet
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yk sometimes im in a small fandom so much i start recognizing writer's name whenever i go through all the fics in ao3

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and im like "wow this fic was good lemme check the writer- WINTER?? THEM AGAIN???"

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true story btw all the fics i really liked was like by them

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which is fcking insane considering theres like 1k+ fics

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sigh

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im bored

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i shld find a new boy toy

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i blame matilda for introducing me to that term LOL

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he's the one that rlly started it

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boytoy, jester, whatever you wanna call em

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hhh

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actually are any of my friends avaliable

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hhh

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i mightve forgotten abt one of em

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yeah no their either boring underaged or already taken

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man

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fml

brisk hornet
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is it weird that the more i know someone the less i like them

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except for wille

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wille's an exception

brisk hornet
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gjkdhgj IM SO BORED

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OHMYDAYS

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boredom is act killing me

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ffs

brisk hornet
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fu

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fucufuuck

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the guy ver of crush crush

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aka blush blush

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has FURRIES

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FFFFFF

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man

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i got nth against furries but im not into that shit

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BUT THE GUY AVATARS LOOK FINE AS HELL

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MANN

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one of ems scottish too </3

brisk hornet
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So suffocating

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Everything is so suffocating

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I'm glad

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He actually did pick up piano again

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Aha

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I'm so glad he seems to be doing well

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I'm so glad

brisk hornet
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im so tired

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its weird

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i feel even more drained during school holidays

brisk hornet
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hold me and worship me and tell me i mean something

brisk hornet
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welp thats the end of that i suppose

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sigh if i knew he was nvr gna become more entertaining i wldnt have stuck arnd

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what a waste of my time

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also ngl im considering installing minecraft for the fun of it

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maybe ill join an online server...?

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hhhh

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i keep seeing ads for like a fairy smp on my fyp HSHSHSH ngl im rlly curious abt that

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so many diff types of fairies scuteeee

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wait lowk it reminds me of this one outfit i made b4 in rblx

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uhhh

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this one

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idk why her forehead is so big in the photo HSHSHHS

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but yeah she's one of my fav outfits :3

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though only in avatar catalog,, i think she has like... 15? 20? accessories

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and roblox only allows a certain amount to be put on sob

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rip fairy outfit you shall always be missed

brisk hornet
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yes moonton yumebait us more

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i cant believe they made a rig of this guy

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yes bbg take my buffs or whatever

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moonton im begging yall JUST MAKE THE FUCKING OTOME GAME AND MY LIFE WLD BE URS

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U CAN PAYWALL EVERY SINGLE ROUTE AND ADD 5 DLCS AND I WILL LAP THAT SHIT UP

brisk hornet
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man i forgot how friendly filo is

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so quirky

brisk hornet
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filo keeps mentioning sparkling butter and im confused

brisk hornet
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Ugh seriously who the hell allowed the school to make their shirt so THICK

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And I ordered the wrong size too so it's too big on me

brisk hornet
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holy shit i js read peak

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new manhwa called my possession became a ghost story

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holy shitttttt

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dude i love religious manhwas

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and the art is GORG

brisk hornet
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HELP I LOST MY BANK CARD

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omg

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im so cooked bro

brisk hornet
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Some freak is taking pics of me on the train but forgot to turn off his flash bru

brisk hornet
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take so wild i didnt even know it existed before that

brisk hornet
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Karaoke w my friends :3

brisk hornet
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fun

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the inside was like one of those host club rooms www

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neon lights n allat jazz

brisk hornet
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hngh i feel kinda guilty i guess

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he seems like a nice guy

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but i can't really match the intensity of his feelings

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sigh

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i can't tell if he's being genuine or not

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seriously what a pain

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everything would've been better if he just never confessed in the first place

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now the whole friendship is awkward because of that

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its kinda,,, gross?

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to know that somebody i regarded as a friend sees me in that light

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icky

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disguisting

brisk hornet
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got an interview in like 4 hours and i havent even prepped HAHHAHAH

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im so cooked

brisk hornet
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pfp change :D

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now i'm blue

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yippeeee

brisk hornet
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im tired

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everything is so dull

brisk hornet
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how does one practice writing smut you ask? well i would like to introduce you to GROOMERS who loveee using ROLEPLAY

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yeah all my smut fics contain the words that some guy taught me over the internet because he was tryna convince me to send pics of me naked through roleplay

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idk why im only saying this now

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it kinda just reminded me since im working on a new oneshot wwww

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like "huh this sentence seems a lil familiar.." WAIT A SECOND WAS THAT FROM THAT ONE GUY-

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i cant find his dms anymore its kinda sad

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he mustve deleted his acc or smt

brisk hornet
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sometimes i wonder if my teachers see me as some sort of sad wet cat

brisk hornet
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ugh the temptation to js post my pic so i can be called cute

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like gimme my validation

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gimme my attention

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theyre my fcking birthright

brisk hornet
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i wanna be moots w someone but idk how to even ask :c

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sob theyre so cool

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ok guys i have to shop for ethnic wear so lets go

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omg why are they so EXPENSIVE

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ok so for the event it needs to be at least knee length (sob)

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im short as fuck so its not gna look good on me

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but we'll try out best!!

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CHAT WHAT DO WE THINK

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see the thing is,,, its gonna look big as fuck on me

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SOB

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WHY DID THEY SPECIFY KNEE LENGTH

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I CANT DO THAT

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i might just order the top for this one ngl

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hhh it needs to be flowy and knee length

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eugh

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all of them are either too short or

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too tight

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..

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i hate it.

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fucking hell THINK ABOUT THE FLAT CHESTED GIRLS

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wait this is lowk so cute

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ughhh i saw someone wearing those like lace fingerless gloves

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fcking obsessed

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like smt like this

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like i know im cute and perfect and all but sometimes i really wished i was like taller and more elegant

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lowk i gotta sort out the clothes in my closet

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ugh

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shopaholic

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retail therapy n allat jazz

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so many things r too big

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omds

brisk hornet
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dude i js had the weirdest fcking dreams of some haunted ass lake

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all from different perspectives of the same story

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like hole lee shit

brisk hornet
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sigh some males really have no sex etiquette

brisk hornet
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its so wild to me that ppl will act as if they know u better than urself like where do they get the confidence from

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what u think u know me js from a few tweets?? buzzer noise INCORRECT i actually wrote that in one of my 256 moods so try to guess what mood im in now

brisk hornet
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im tired

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im so tired

brisk hornet
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Too loud

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My thoughts are too loud

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I can't stop them

brisk hornet
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okay i genuinely like

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i can't tell

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if he's being nice to me

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because i tip

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or because

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he's new???? which probably not since he has like over 200+ orders,,

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but like

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WHY DOES HE KEEP TEXTING ME

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WHEN I HAVEN'T PAID

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FOR HIS TIME

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IM SO CONFUSED

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does he do afterservice?? is that what this is??

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i mean that kinda makes sense but like

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idk maybe its just because i don't usually give afterservice

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so i'm confused by it

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what is he bro

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why does he do ts

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OK GOOD NATURAL STOPPER

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i can't read smut anymore

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what the fuck

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"?????

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WHAT

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..

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i'm going to fucking kill matilda.

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HOW DARE HE INFECT ME WITH SUCH

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WITH SUCH HORRIBLE THOUGHTS

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THAT I CAN'T EVEN READ SMUT ANYMORE

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FYCK

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WHY

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WHY DOES HE KEEP TEXTING ME

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WHY IS THIS MF ANNOYING ME IN THE MIDDLE OF MY BREAKDOWN

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DOESNT HE KNOW THAT THIS IS IMPORTANT

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OKAY TOPIC DONE

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I WAS CHEERFUL

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PLEASE

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PLEASE STOP TEXTING

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I BEG OF THEE

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unrelated but yuno's 3rd trial slaps

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hole lee

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i loved the mv

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tbh i loved all their mvs so far

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except for fuuta

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fuuta can go die in a ditch

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like

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this is my playlist

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for milgram songs i rlly like

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and

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its all the 3rd trial songs so far

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except for fuuta

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AHA

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and ofc gotta include the queen mahiru

brisk hornet
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recently someone asked me about my love languages

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so i wanna redo my rankings

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since it has definitely changed

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Giving:

  1. Gift Giving
    It's easy. Honestly having to pick out presents for special occasions is still stressful, but it's a lot easier now. I love spending money on people I care about, because it's just such an easy way to tell them that even if I don't/won't/can't show it sometimes, I still do love them.

  2. Physical Touch
    I still do love physical touch, I really am a touchy person. I love being able to link arms, hug, cuddle, hold hands, all that stuff. Even just leaning against them is nice. It's just not as nice now that I have some unsavoury experiences. A real shame.

  3. Words of affirmation
    This one kinda depends on the person themselves, but I do find that i love giving genuine compliments to my friends as long as they're not too dramatic abt it wwww

  4. Quality time
    I haven't really been that into this lately, it's just been a lot more difficult handling another person I guess? I got too used to being alone.

  5. Acts of service
    I do like doing this sometimes, but not often.

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Receiving:

  1. Words of affirmation
    I love validation. Attention. Anything. I love it.

  2. Acts of service
    idk this one is more subtle i guess, things like holding the door open, carrying my bag, shielding the corner of the table when i bend down to pick something up, those things.

  3. Quality time
    neutral

  4. Physical touch
    makes me kinda uncomfortable if they're the ones initiating now, bad experiences and all that. I still do love it when my friends just throw themselves at me, it makes me feel super loved.

  5. Gift giving
    this one just makes me feel like i owe them a debt or something,,,

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sometimes i look at a smut fic tags and i'm like "yeah,,, vaginal sex, breeding, unprotected sex,,, ANGST??? LOSS OF CONTROL TRAUMA??? WHAT????"

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like

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whats gg on gang

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holy shit somebody fucking put "soulmate? holemate!"

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LAMOAOAOAOAO

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HOW DO PPL COME UP WITH THIS

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yeahhh love the gege/meimei trope

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ohmygod thats just mean

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thats sooo mean

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wtf

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i mean i guess if ur into that????

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okay go off sex ed??

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ouch thats gotta hurt their wrist

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okay like the positioning of ur wrist genuinely matters so much esp when theyre close

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like

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u dont want it to be in an uncomfortable position or pose when theyre coming right because theyre gonna LOCK ur fingers in there

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like u dont wanna hurt urself while fingering them

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NO

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NO????

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SHE'S A VIRGIN DON'T FUCKING DO THAT PLEASE

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UR GONNA RIP HER

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oh

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ts aint even hot anymore i'm lowk horrified

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nuar ts aint for me

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im sorry

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dang lowk,,, fem caleb sounds nice,,,

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HMMM

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HMMMMMMMMMM

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wait this reminds me of like

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the lgbtq hierarchy in china HAHHAHAH

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like i watched a video explaining like the top of the food chain there is like those independant older sister types

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LMAOO

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and the bottom is bisexual girls HAHHAHAHA

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"the art of giving head" BYE HOW DO THEY COME UP WITH THESE TITLES

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6k+ word count dies

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waiting for the day i move out so i can finally wear shit like sleep slips

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like nightgowns

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dude i love how ethereal they look

#

idk maybe its because i read a lot of historical manhwas

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they just look so pretty

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esp with like the sheer outer cover

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like this

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its sososo pretty

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its too bad so many of them have lace tho

#

hate lace

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in front of the grandma is diabolical

#

u ever go over to someone's house and see their massive collection of plush toys

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and then fuck in front of said plush toys

#

and during it while you're trying to distract yourself you just so happen to lock eyes with one of them

#

and they look fucking traumatized

#

is this another version of vouyrisum like

brisk hornet
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dude lowk

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my panties are gg missing

#

usually i wldnt get mad but one of them was my light blue one and i rlly liked that one because it matches the color of my cardigan

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like

#

wtf

#

???????

brisk hornet
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bro i fucking hate shaving sm

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holy shit

#

the prickly feeling is so fcking annoying

#

but i also hate having hair

#

like

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WHY DO WE HAVE VAGINAS AND DICKS

#

WHATS THE POINT

#

they look so ugly too

#

and like

#

omds im so fucking done w hair

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in general

#

shld i go for waxing instead atp

brisk hornet
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i sound so childish

#

sigh

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idk i feel like the usual way i speak w all that fancy ass words makes me sound like a snob

#

so sometimes i watch like teen movies and try to ingrain their slang into me lol

#

idk

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i know the way i speak isnt exactly academic

#

but sometimes i use certain words to talk

#

and it makes my classmates like "switch modes" into the academic one where they use the posh posh chim words and try to sound smart and thoughtful

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and i just

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i hate it

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i just want them to act normally around me

#

im not trying to be snobbish

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its just how i talk

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so i try to change it

#

by acting dumber

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by using more childish words

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hngh

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but also because there's just a charm in scolding someone like a dumb teenager

#

makes me feel like a mean girl www

brisk hornet
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i don't get couples that are like super sexually active

#

like maybe its a stupid question but how do you know if they're staying for the sex or you?

brisk hornet
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Why is he offline

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Omg

#

Sob

#

Ueueueue the one time I rlly wanna order and he's offline

#

He's been offline THE ENTIRE DAY

brisk hornet
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awoop jumpscare

brisk hornet
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I FOUND MY LOST PANTY

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it was like

#

like yk how u seperate ur undies and socks into washable bags so it doesnt get mixed up with the laundry

#

apparently i didn't empty them because i found it in there

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MYSTERY SOLVED

strange canopy
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we happy for you

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wait arent you the same person who joined vc LMAO i just noticed eh

#

and its okay if u dont want me to talk here cuzz its ur journal mb i lowkey have nothing to do

#

other then chatting with other people

brisk hornet
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i did join a vc but like i only rmbr the name of the afk one

brisk hornet
brisk hornet
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dude theres like

#

like

#

theres an animatic im looking for

#

its smt abt pink hair

#

and trauma cycles

#

omg

#

STOPP I CANT FIND IT

#

THIS IS THW ROST

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ohhhhmygod i cant find it

#

fuck

#

fucjkkk

#

THIS IS THW ROST

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ITS CALLED CHOKE I FOUND IT IM A FUCKING GENIUS

#

TA DAAAA

brisk hornet
#

i rlly

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rlly wanna kms

#

lol

#

my heart hurts

#

sigh

brisk hornet
#

im tired

#

it feels like im drowning

#

but im not crying

#

but theres a suffocating feeling in my chest

#

and i dont know how to get rid of it

#

imagine if this is like an actual medical condition and not like me being fucking crazy www

#

..

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my bank is down.

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ohmygod i am genuinely going to kill myself