please dont reply to these, im just yelling stuff out into a void 😞🩷
#Moth’s life
final wasp
i dont get what my mom wants from me anymore. let me put context into this.
recently, my brother got jobs at our neighbors houses for money because he is saving for something worth apparently 1,000 USD. he gets paied 5-60 bucks depending on the difficulty of the job itself. so he has a lot of money as of now.
but when it comes to me, i dont have a job yet. im too focused on school and have a very low attention span, so even a simple job would be way too much for me. so instead of doing outside jobs that require me to leave my room or house, i do jobs inside my house to help myself get better. this includes: cleaning my room after months or years without doing so, cleaning up my cats litter boxes, taking out the trash, etc. All of those require me to take my already burnt out body and put more pressure onto it. my parents promise me money or game currency if i clean my room, bathroom, or anything else in our house. this year, ive cleaned my room FIVE TIMES. with my mental health struggles, that is almost impossible to accomplish for me. but instead of my mom paying me she just says “well thats a start,” after i just finished cleaning stains, dirty clothes that have been there for months, bugs, and food off my floor and bed. i dont get paid at all. it just makes me feel as if my efforts were for nothing and that i dont get the attention my brothet gets. its infurriating. i just want someone to realize that my best is all i can give. i cant give anymore than what i do. but they choose to ignore it all. my mom just makes me feel so unloved and makes me feel invisible and that my best isnt enough for her. i just want to be appriciated.
final wasp
wooo more venting. but im genuinely losing my spark and talking to people way more less. it all hit when school started. i feel so horrible.
final wasp
my mom js threatened to kill herself and me and now shes all buddy-buddy with me wtf
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being ignored by all ur bsfs and your own bf lowk sucks
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how to find someone who can actually love me no glue no borax
why get into a relationship u know ur not ready for ?? was all i gave to you for nothing?????
lol ok sums up i am unlovable
final wasp
Moth’s life
DUDE OMG THIS GUY IM CURSHING ON IS SO FREAKIN SWEEET AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I TALKED TO HIM THRU TEXT FOR 2 HOURS TODAY. NON STOP.
I LEARNED SM ABOUT HIM AND IM SO SO IN LOVE
I AM SO HAPPY I GAVE HIM MY DISCORD
HES IN MY 2ND AND 3RD PERIOD
AND IS JUST THE SWEETEST BOY EVER
HE COMPLIMENTS ME EVERYDAY AND IS FRIENFS WITH MOST OF MY FRIENDS ????
LIKE OMG
WE LIKE MOST OF THE SAME STUFF
AND ITS SO NICE TO BE AROUND HIMM
HE SAID HE WAS GOING TO GIVE ME THE BIGGEST HUGS TMRO I CANNOT WAITITIIT 🥹🥹🥹
final wasp
my mom bought my dog a shock collar. wtf.