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serene trellis Aug 12, 2025, 4:39 PM

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i hate it when i realize i hate myself,from the appearance to the core,,

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for such a long time i find myself have difficulty gettin along with others.honesty I THINK I TRIED MY BEST to do so,yet i still dont have that kind of "true friends"

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now lying on my bed i think of my fycking past--how ive been bullied,how i cut myself,how i struggled with my depression and my suicidal thoughts
to me these memories almost turned into a blur,but it never means im "normal"now.right,in the past three years ive tried almost any solution to fix myself

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then it ends with nothing
like all the things i did are meaningless

serene trellis Aug 12, 2025, 5:13 PM

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no no no dont let the weird looking Eric KID come along, ohh fucking nooo.

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like how i feel

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i had thoughts to kill but

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NO I WONT ID BETTER JUST HANG MYSELF I DONT WANT TO BOTHER ANYONE ANYMORE

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why do i have to exist?

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no please noo,i dont want to

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and i wait for my end,like waiting for the end of the movie

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lol

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alright i want to say a lot today i guess

serene trellis Aug 12, 2025, 6:57 PM

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ruined my daily schedule to have more alone time

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feel better when im alone,,when its late in the night

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i feel okay

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if god is kind enough

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let me escape after im a adult

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tomorrow please be better

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please

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wish i were one of the victims

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wait for a chance,for an accident to take my life away

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i will be thought sick of by everyone if i kill myself

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hate

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hate

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i learned

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to die by ur side is such a heavenly way to die

serene trellis Aug 13, 2025, 7:53 AM

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feel better now

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sleep,,,4amto1pm

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may study this afternoon

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dont wanna lie around anymore

serene trellis Aug 13, 2025, 12:44 PM

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feels goood...

serene trellis Aug 13, 2025, 7:45 PM

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lol im planing for my suicide now

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one day ill be free

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instead of rope ill try other material,but ill end in hanging myself anyway

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at least not today lol

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i have to

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,

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i finished writing my last note,now keep it as a secret,,,who will find it

serene trellis Aug 17, 2025, 4:38 PM

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im back i feel fine now

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im so dumb

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chiikawa

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i want friends

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i want to sleep all day

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ive been struggle with my suicidal thoughts ,i planed a future for myself but im afraid that i will kill myself before i enjoy it

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i admit this is the only place im able to write my thoughts freely,,

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