#Breakup

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wispy torrent
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I am a shell of a person.

neon patio
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You wanna talk about it?

wispy torrent
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Yeah 🥲

hushed compass
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hey u ok

wispy torrent
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Not really

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I got broken up with 2 months ago. It was my first relationship and it lasted for 5 years. I moved in with him, away from my family. It’s over now and I had to move back home and start over. I feel like I’m sinking. I feel completely empty and alone. I can’t function.

neon patio
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Yeah that sounds hard. I guess the next step would be what do you want to do now?

wispy torrent
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I don’t know

neon patio
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Oh I see

wispy torrent
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Im turning into a terrible person because I am at an all time low and I don’t know how to pull myself out of it. Every day is almost too difficult to bear

neon patio
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Yeah, I get you

wispy torrent
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Existing hurts so bad

neon patio
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That it does

wispy torrent
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I want to talk about it but like I don’t even feel like I can express how bad it is

neon patio
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I get you. I’ve thought about writing down the experiences that got me to be like this but I don’t even know how to do it or what I would say

wispy torrent
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I know and I also feel so dramatic all the time but I’m being so for real

neon patio
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People who don’t get it will always say things like that. They will try to invalidate your suffering maybe, don’t let them. That’s not to say don’t let them help you of course

wispy torrent
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I’ve had a binge eating disorder for my entire life. This breakup and my mental state since has been the only thing to ever curb my appetite completely. Eating feels daunting

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Is it a thing to be so depressed that you feel like you’re going to die? Like not commit suicide, just that you’re functioning at such a low point that you really feel like your body and brain are going to shut down soon.

neon patio
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Yeah sort of

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For me I want to die so badly that I know it won’t happen because that’s just my luck

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Though I’ve felt like a walking corpse for a while now

wispy torrent
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I can feel my brain tensing because of how much it hurts

neon patio
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Like a headache?

wary turret
wispy torrent
# neon patio Like a headache?

No, it like I was so stressed I could feel my brain tensing up and it hurt but it was very vague and didn’t seem like a headache

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Also I think I might be crazy because I woke up yesterday and literally have felt completely fine which makes no sense because nothing has changed