#The Ko of the Kos

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candid oyster
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just drank a latte

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daily dose of caffeine i suppose

candid oyster
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i just drank 5 cups (16 ounces each) of coffee (lattes)

candid oyster
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currently on my 7th

candid oyster
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okay so i drank 9 cups, i am done for today.

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peace out

thick dagger
candid oyster
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i slept great

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no side effects

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one of my american friend's called me if i was okay

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i think i am

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?

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personally i was wanting to see if overdose on coffee could kill me, but no maybe i have tolerance

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i can't overdose on my meds but i can fuck up the effects of the meds

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anyhow i kind of want a seizure for my stroll so i can crack my head open

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when i fall

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strangely enough i have been happily taking insults like it was a compliment, purrhaps i am too used to it now.

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eh i don't know what to vent about

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i want to vent but i have no clue what to type

somber juniper
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Damn man that sucks

candid oyster
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unfortunately so

somber juniper
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U should lowk like not do that and go watch anime or eat or idk

candid oyster
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can't find any good animes

somber juniper
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Not give me ur top 5 instead

candid oyster
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i already knew that, but thanks.

candid oyster
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yes i am.

candid oyster
somber juniper
candid oyster
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nothing have improved, i keep relapsing.

candid oyster
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Valproate

somber juniper
candid oyster
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yes, though they keep upping my dose

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sometimes it works sometimes it doesn't

candid oyster
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or part of it..

somber juniper
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I’m gonna go take care and hope u have a good future ahead of you

candid oyster
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i technically stay at the hospital due to other health conditions that require longer hospital stay, so i can't avoid the meds they give me.

turbid ice
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And obviously the dose must be same for a while

candid oyster
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i understand, i am just telling you in-case you didn't understand my circumstances.

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maybe i am not explaining my health well, but i don't quite understand what you are asking of me...

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i can't take vitamin b due to Cholestyramine this is a cholesterol‑lowering drug which can reduce absorption of B vitamins.

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yes you may.

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i kind of want more coffee

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it tasted so good.

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i'll just waddle to the hospital cafe later

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i take advice, but don't like advice because it doesn't ALIGNNN

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i can't fucking take it nosleepchu

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Ah. perhaps i should list my conditions here so people can give me better advices..

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yes yes fabulous idea

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Uh let's see...

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i don't think it's worth it

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ok, now i hate my life even more. why do i even talk to people i can't have a reasonable conversation with, like i am always the reason why i always get upset, I have fucking anger issues and i can't like "Calm down", one wrong word pisses me off.

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maybe this is the reason why all my friends keep leaving me

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i am always so easy to be used

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fuck life man.

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i absolutely hate myself

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why can't my life just stop already?

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coffee does nothing

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meds can't help me

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people keep leaving me and betraying me

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my parents have passed away already

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my cat died due to friend neglect

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life is just full of misery

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typing all this and i am not even crying

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that is just how much i have become dull to reality

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advices just don't work on me because no matter how much i try nothing changes

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i am so sick people

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sick of people

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people.

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try. try try. try again. keep trying.

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fucking worthless

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i am so tired

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tired

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of

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people

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tired

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of living

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why haven't i died in my sleep yet?

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what even is my role in this life

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"what is the point of living?"

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what is it?

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what the fuck is it?

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i can't trust anyone anymore

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my doctors can't even help me

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i mean.. i like my nurse because she's sweet

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friendly not romantic

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i am gay

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that was so off=topic

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i am literally trying to happy myself

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this is not the best idea at all

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right

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i forgot to mention

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but my friend Juna passed away from cancer

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so i am even more depressed

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she was pretty good with her artwork

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i miss all my friends who have passed away

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they were the only real ones

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the ones that i was all happy with

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giving me myself more reasons to just disappear

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people leave

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"It is just one less person in your life"

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One less person in the population

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"move on"

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i'll keep moving on

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"Jump"

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i did and failed

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"you said i could borrow money"

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i didn't say that

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"let's me friends?"

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sure!

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"Sorry I was just kidding around my friend limit is full"

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the fuck is a friend limit

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"want to go out on a date?"

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no thank you

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"you are a freak, you fat psycho"

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thanks for the compliment

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"no one cares"

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I understand

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"You are stupid, why are you still alive?"

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I don't know

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"Can you buy me food, I don't have money on me. Please?"

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You always do this, but ok.

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"Meet up with me at -----"

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i was left there till night

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Ok.

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"I am sorry, can we friends again?"

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Ok.

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"I need some money please best friend?"

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How much?

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"500"

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I can't.

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"Fuck you, you whore, you are fucking broke."

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That is not it...

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"your cat died? You are joking."

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I wasn't.

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"Can't you just move on, why do you keep coming back?"

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You are the one that kept clinging on.

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"why are you crying, you are so ugly while crying."

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Yea. Thanks.

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"You listen to such loud music, why?"

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To blur the trauma.

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"Sicko"

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K.

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"Take a gun and shoot yourself you freak."

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Ok.

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"Did you do it? Doesn't look you are dead."

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Um.

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"Ko! I missed you!"

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... yeah you did..

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"What kind of person would miss you"

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I fucking knew it.

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"Why do you look that?"

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Look like what?

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"Eiko, I have to change your meds again."

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Yes, doctor.

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"Eiko. You are going to have to have brain surgery. I am sorry."

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Doctor, what is exactly wrong with me?

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Where did everything go wrong?

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Why do I have to live like this?

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What can I change to do better?

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Ok doctor, when will it be?

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Doctor, what is my survival chance?

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Doctor, is it possible to pay you to kill me during the process?

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Doctor, I don't want to live through it.

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Doctor, if it goes wrong, what happens?

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Will i become a vegetative state if it goes wrong?

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Will i forget everyone?

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"Eiko, it will be a 35% Survival, write down a list of questions you'd like to ask. Currently, you are bombarding me with too many questions. Please ask one at a time, so i can think clearly."

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Think clearly? I can't even think clearly.

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Sorry doctor.

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I'll do what you say.

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..

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"Eiko, what did you want to ask me?"

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Oh. Nothing. I thought it through.

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"Are you sure? I remember you questioning when I last came?"

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Oh, you are just hallucinating.

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I don't remember saying anything

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I would like to go through with the surgery contract.

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"Are you sure? This is the only time to think again."

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I am sure.

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"Alright, well your surgery will be 6 months from now or earlier. Let me know if you have any questions. See you soon."

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i made the choice

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I can't just back up now.

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Honestly, I would be happy if i died.

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Happy

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if

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i

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died

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died. in. pain.

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it is now 1:48 AM

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cameras go off at this time

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time to SH! yayyyyyy

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peace out

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ko im always here if you need to talk huddlekirby

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sorry i havent been active, ive been busy with work nosleepchu

candid oyster
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you're one of the coolest person ive met in a long time! nekocat_party

candid oyster
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i need to go back to work 🏃‍♂️

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please have an amazing day ko!

candid oyster
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i couldn't find one with a cat

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apparently cats don't go to work enough

candid oyster
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i left a scar on my right hip, not deep enough but better than nothing

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change of topic

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let us go back to cats

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barn cats work a 5am to 4pm shift neko_peak

candid oyster
candid oyster
candid oyster
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peace out

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give that cat a raise right now

candid oyster
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yes

candid oyster
candid oyster
candid oyster
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nooo i didn't notice the gradient color changed sadness is it because the boost goal went down?

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i have to wait 2 days before i can transfer my boost from this one dead server

thick dagger
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😔

candid oyster
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how many boosts is needed to regain the gradient color? a_kitty_neko_bored_tired_no

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actually screw it ill just boost extra

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shit i have to re-add it the long way

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nevermind

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ill try again next monday

candid oyster
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my soul is so itchy

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i hate allergies

candid oyster
candid oyster
candid oyster
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i didn't know i'd like milk chocolate and caramel

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awesome

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Cadbury caramel

candid oyster
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i just remembered a memory i hated

candid oyster
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ONE OF MY FRIENDS FINALLY MADE A DISCORD ACCOUNT WOOOOO

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glad they didn't use their real name, but their dog's name

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woof

steel relic
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KOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

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wait i need to read the rules

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KO, i read the rules huddleyay so now whar

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oh sadness

candid oyster
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Darn.

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She’s sensitive so it makes sense she’d feel like that

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I am sure she’ll join back soon

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I sent her to a cat server

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i think cat server better than this one

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cat = happiness

candid oyster
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Figured she wouldn’t particularly like it but she wanted to join

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i wished i had a cat or dog

candid oyster
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One day you can

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it would be nice to have some company and unconditional love

candid oyster
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Hmm, I am a bit friend-less now, I wonder if I should drag another friend in Yummers

steel relic
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Ko is it okay for me to cry in here

candid oyster
steel relic
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omg i lvled up

steel relic
candid oyster
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Po? Oh you mean Mr. Porkie

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He’s weird, no way I am bringing him in here

steel relic
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lmfao

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wait so who were you thinking of dragging in? KannaSip

candid oyster
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I haven’t thought about it but it was one of the male idiots in the other group

steel relic
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whar

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who

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what

steel relic
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I think i know who that is

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shit i didn't mean "what"

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oh and ko disappeared, noooo

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surely... i can.. keep chatting in here...?

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@candid oyster damn it come backkkkk many_tears

candid oyster
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a_kitty_neko_bored_tired_no you can keep chatting in here if you want but I have to get to routine now

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I’ll edit the name so that you can be in here

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Ko's Life + A Friend

steel relic
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whattt just "A friend"?

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i am sadder

candid oyster
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nosleepchu don’t get your hopes up

steel relic
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so mean..

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womp womp

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ooooh Seiji is in here too

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@torpid anchor HEYYYYYY

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ugh none of my friends are on, other than Po

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time to go back to tiktok yippie!

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bye KO!!

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@candid oyster remove the "A friend" doesn't quite suit it

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Ko's Life

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peace out

gaunt scroll
candid oyster
candid oyster
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I can’t bump on a smaller device

candid oyster
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poke poke, flop

candid oyster
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tired

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suddenly i want a caramel apple

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but i currently don't want sugar

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i'll just grab an apple

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augh back pain

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i feel so old

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17 hrs and 23 minutes before i can transfer my boost from this one server to over here

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i hate myself

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me and my toxic selves

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  • an extra alter
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SealClap ah yes, hiya drol

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one of my ex-friends came crawling back to me and as usual I accepted them again

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it is me and them playing with each other's feelings

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plus my other self just manipulating all their emotions to use against their members

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i don't quite understand why i am me but also not

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half-friends

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i like to call them

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i am tired

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i don't feel that great playing with them like toys, but of course my other self is like "wooo, let's ruin it for everybody! yayy"

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i am not sure if it is called "regret" or something, but i feel bad once i've returned

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and then the cycle goes again

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it is rather tiring

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but i do it just for the "fun" of it

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in the end, i just fuck up my mental health even more.

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it would've been nice if my parents were still alive

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unfortunately it seems both decided to take a walk to the store to get milk together.. /sarc /lh

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tired

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maybe

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i've already reached the cycle

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the middle of the cycle

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where i just play with the person's feeling

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and then expect them to come back

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i hate myself for that

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and yet

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i keep doing it

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because i can't change it

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it is just not easy

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is it that bad that i am not crying in this kind of vent?

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but just holding on again and again

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waiting to release?

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but having nowhere to release..?

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rather

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tiring

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i feel like this is a beginning of another relapse

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i hate it

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but i am the cause of it

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i wonder

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but

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where did it really all go down?

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the first time i was ||raped|| or the first time i got ||stabbed|| on my way back home at night? Or was it the time i had my first mental breakdown back in middle school..?

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i don't know

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but life sure is falling on me

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and

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i hate it

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i always hate it

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everything about myself is what i hate

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i don't enjoy being alive even though i try to act it out

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to entertain those around me

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to believe i can get better?

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no.

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i can't get better

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i put myself in this kind of path

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the path of unfortunate events

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a path i can't survive on

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a path that all i can do is get worse and worse on

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keep relapsing everytime i believe i can get better

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what a pain.

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it seriously is just a pain in the ass.

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so fucking tiring to keep living for others

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my friends that aren't really friends

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people that i don't even know in real life

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kids that i see almost everyday

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i really just can't do it

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people piss me off

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i piss myself off

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i bite my tongue and bleed

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i don't understand myself anymore

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my emotions

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my problems

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my pain

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the people around me

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i don't fucking understand

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i don't even know what i am even venting about

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because it is all just bullshit

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coming from my fucked up mind

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i feel sorry for a friend but personally idgaf

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i put my anger on others thinking ill feel better but it just fucks my relationship up more

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in the end

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i just suffer

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and they feel miserable

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and then

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after

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i have to write a damn apology letter

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an apology letter

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certainly i should just shut up right now

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but

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i just angered myself

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fucking hell.

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half my friends can see this journal but honestly no one even knows the real me outside of this world

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who knows

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i could just be faking it all

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but it could also all be real

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let lies be lies

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let truth be truth

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i am so tired

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i hope this surgery actually kills me

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i could honestly just push them to make it closer

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if it is luck that i survive, then well fuck, i guess life is making me live

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crying? no such thing in my vocabulary.

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life just pisses me off in imaginable ways

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it is too bad really.

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but oh well.

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i'll just sleep it off

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sleep it off...

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@steel relic i found you a pfp

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Ko's Empty Life

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i am off now

candid oyster
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The Last Remnants of Ko

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hm

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i still don't like it

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Ko’s Fragmented Life

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eh it is ok.

candid oyster
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chuweagle

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oh wait no

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it is a cheagle

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Chihuahua + beagle

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they look kind of derpy but one of my friends are getting one

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Dachshund are so cute

candid oyster
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hot dogs

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candid oyster
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candid oyster
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I just left a friend, sounds about right.

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From this day on, i will not be accepting any more online friend requests. However if we've talked before and you want to be a friend of mine, make sure you ping and ask me.

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Do not directly DM me, my DMs are closed as of today. You may ping me in said server.

candid oyster
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when will the server gradient come back?

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the colors look so dull

candid oyster
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hives attack, my back is covered in itchy bumps nosleepchu

candid oyster
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i send things out of context

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i am so pleased that the gradient is back woooo KannaWooKannaWooKannaWooKannaWoo

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i choked on water

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very great

candid oyster
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i am tired

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of life

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well practically everything

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so ye

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life

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same im tired with life nosleepchu . wake up, work, go home, repeat. pay bills monthly

candid oyster
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adult life is great jerryzoom

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very great jerryzoom

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i guess thats why they say enjoy your life while you're a teen

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forgot to update

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huddlekirby👋

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chusit 👋

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i went to a card shop to play yugioh with friends. it was fun huddlekirby

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nice

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!rank

noble skyBOT
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there was a rumble rumble

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7.5 magnitude

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i hope you're safe ko

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very alive, not sure about well

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ah yes a leg cramp

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augh

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  • temporarily disappearing
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  • had a darn seizure, fortunately i was on soft surface KannaWoo
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  • reducing my time on discord, so ill be off more than before
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Ko’s Crossing of the River

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i hope you're okay ko nosleepchu

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journal not journaling anymore chusit

candid oyster
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drinking all kinds of tea and none of them suits my taste

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bumping my way through life DA_CatBump

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i put too much lemon in my tea A_WolfPanic

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my head is pulsing KannaWoo

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i hope you're having a wonderful holiday ko!

candid oyster
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finally ended terms with an ex-friend (considered an ex-friend now that we aren't going to chat to each other anymore) KannaWoo

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i am not going to update my journal for a few days, but ill be bumping (might not be on at all), i am going to get my surgery done (Early).

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i hope your surgery goes well kosadness uwu

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Survival of the fittest

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Not my greatest feat

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It is going to take at most 7 weeks for recovery

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Damn… I really was ready to let go

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Now I got my 9 lives back again

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I hope you are okay Ko

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sending love to ko

candid oyster
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dang, whilst i was gone the huddle server boosts reached 31! What an accomplishment. NekoCat_Royal

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how've been ko? its been a long time

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hiya, been alright, recovery is slow as i expected

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how have you been?

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my 3 week holiday vacation is coming to an end. i head back to work this tuesday sadly

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i went to my friends house a few times and we played video games. also went to a friend's Christmas party

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i slept through new years eve huddlekirby

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im glad you're alive and recovering ko even tho its slow

candid oyster
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all and well

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was everyone well?

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waiting on my nitro to die out

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jiggly cat

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ko!

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Ko’s Light

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Ko’s Light Once More

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"The Light Beyond the Styx"

I have crossed the Styx so often
that the ferryman no longer asks my name,
he only nods, as if I am part of the river now,
a familiar ripple in its black, unbroken skin.

Each passage carved a little more from me,
like water wearing down a stone,
yet somewhere between the hush of oars
and the breathless dark beneath the hull,
I learned to keep my eyes open.

Because even in that place where light
is a rumor whispered by the dead,
I saw it, thin as a thread, stubborn as a pulse,
a glimmer that refused to drown.

And maybe that is the strange truth of it,
walk through enough shadow
and your vision sharpens for the smallest spark,
cross the river too many times,
and you begin to remember
that even darkness has edges
where the light leaks in.

candid oyster
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battled finding a new pfp

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ko is tired sleepyYawnCat

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shit. i think i ate raw bacon

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pork e nella

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i'll be fine, it was just 2 slices

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i am going to find out if i have a poo-ah-rrhea nosleepchu

candid oyster
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one of my fresh American (as in newly-made) friends got into UMASS Dartmouth, congrats to them! nekocat_party

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GUYS, or SOMEONES.. PEOPLE, I'll finally be able to go home in a week KannaWoo

candid oyster
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My new American friend sent me this: (messaging app of her father and her) jerryzoom

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i find it kind of funny

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i told her to stay hydrated

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chug it

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love me sum headaches

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haaaa.... i haven't had matcha latte for a while, this is scrumptious YUM (no picture taken)

candid oyster
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So bored

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i went down the rabbit of retro game collecting jerryzoom

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especially nintendo

candid oyster
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i need those mario, zelda, and pokemon games nosleepchu

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were they fun

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theyre very expensive but so far i just been collecting games i played as a kid. so nuch nostalgia

candid oyster
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gato

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cat

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neko

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kitten

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car

narrow elmBOT
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oh why

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shoo shoo cat bot

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i never asked for your presence

candid oyster
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i've been awake for quite a bit

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time to log off

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or not

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someone added me, probs a scammer, and we have no mutual servers together so i am going to check it out, cuz ... curiosity killed the cat

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they just mistook my user for their gamer friend

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hit my darn shin again

candid oyster
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ah my soul feels so dry, why is hydrating so hard, like no matter how much water and electrolytes I take in, i am still so dry

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ch_laundry anyways time for laundry

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now that i am home!

torpid anchor
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Hi ko how are you?

candid oyster
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why the hell is the music glitching

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luv me some popcorn 3catpopcorn = I found something entertaining

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gasp I finally reached nitro silver

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holy shit, i hear some sort of high pitched screaming but it is so far away i can't locate where the hell it is coming from. I really hope i am not hallucinating because i have already gone 2 weeks without one

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anyways, i am eating cotton candy grapes but it has like a hint of lychee taste, my brain can't configure the taste

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i like this star

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made myself a drink and it tastes horrible

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too much water

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now i have to remake it

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omg my friend supported this Dani person that was monetizing for her gains and she asked for more.

"Definite scam but hey it was just 10$ loss." my friend said

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The account is like something "Justine"

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anyways, don't trust sus websites

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my friend likes supporting people so i can't do anything about it

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don't worry, my friend only sent 10$

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that dani person was asking for money yesterday

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she got her watermelons out jerryzoom

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i remember some girl catfished me and made up lies so i can send her money

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AGH I STUBBED MY TOE

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help, i don't want to be mean and block this person but they DMed me randomly to play Minecraft but I don't even have it and now they want me to download some suspicious gaming client to play with them for only TEN MINUTES ---- EDITED: not suspicious gaming client, my friend has it but right now he can't play

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nevermind i'm all good

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going to rest now

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muscle cramp muscle cramp hueeergh muscle cramp muscle cramp arrrgh catPain

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dam wrong gif

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i am going to go back to hunting the dust in my house

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"How much more can you fake it?"

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"Playing a life that is fake"

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"Thinking you can be 'happy' when you are actually not"

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"Remember what happened before everything got better"

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"Keep being happy but you know deep down, that it is all a lie"

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"Stop thinking useless thoughts."

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"You should do it for your family"

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"Why do you want to do it? Wouldn't it be a waste because you had surgery?"

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"Not everyone recovers like you do"

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"Are you faking your illness?"

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"We can't be friends anymore, I don't want to be involved in someone's death if you plan to do it"

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"Please don't die, I am here for you"

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"Stop using weird emojis, it is kind of disgusting"

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"Your friends left you because you are ill, so get better or be better"

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"So fucking in-sensitive, get the fuck out of the friend group"

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"God can help you, bring god into your life and you will be so much better with his help"

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"Why do you act so much like a furry, you are so fucking weird, Idk why we are even friends"

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"Huddleverse can't make you feel happier no matter how much you are in it, sometimes it is good to just get off the internet, maybe it'll make a difference for the greater good"

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"Just do better man"

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"Can you send me money? I really need it for my sister's funeral"

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"Thank you so much for being a worthless friend!"

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"You are such a walking red flag, why are you even alive?"

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"First you are straight, now you are bisexual, and now you are gay. Why can't you just choose one?"

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"Your parents want you to live a good life"

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"Music can't make you happier, you should listen to podcasts"

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"Your friend committed suicide because you told them that you would attempt, so they followed in your steps"

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"Stop saying things that you won't take to heart"

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"You keep saying you attempted but you failed, so now I think you've just been lying to us the whole time"

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"Your story doesn't make sense"

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"Your cat died? I think you just want attention"

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"Sometimes it is good to just give up on life, like everyone says"

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"Pain this, pain that, I don't get your suffering, I had much worse"

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"You said you overdosed 19 times, I think that is just bullshit"

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"What kind of medications are you on? I want to be like you so I can get out of school"

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"I want to be like you"

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"Let's be best friends"

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"You are such a heartbreaker"

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"Why do you send so many cat gifs? Like you don't need that many"

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"When do you sleep?"

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"What epilepsy, I don't think you have that"

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"Depression is of no such thing, you are just lazy so you say that to get out of life"

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"Your friend got into all her schools of interest but you know, you shouldn't be friends with her"

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"Stop being a fake male, be more like a woman"

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"Stop hiding out so much, use your voice to speak for yourself"

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"What are you, male or female? There is no such thing as neither"

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"You probably have a dick down there"

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"All your friends are fake, why are you even still friends with them?"

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"I am tired of your venting"

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"Your art is all ai, stop doing that"

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"Sorry, I didn't mean to. Can we be friends again?"

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"What is anxiety like? Is it something I can use to get out of school?"

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"I wish I was just like you, free from everything"

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"You act like you are five"

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"Mental health is just a lie to be lazy"

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"Won't your family be sad when you are gone?'

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"No way that is true, give me your health documents"

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"Online friends aren't helpful, stop choosing them over real life friends"

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"Everyone is fake"

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"Why did you block me?"

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"Dam you such a bih"

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"My boyfriend left me because of you, you are all of the reasons why I hate you"

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"I want a girlfriend, can you help me?"

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"You are such a joke"

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"You art is so ugly, you should be just like me, a pro."

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"Ko's Light Once More, what is that cringey kind of title?"

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"You want a hug, it'll make you feel better"

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"Actually, you don't need a hug, I was just making a sarcastic joke"

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"Your parents need you!"

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"Are you sure no one will miss you?"

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"My girlfriend hates you, so we can't be friends anymore, sorry."

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"You should try being productive, if not then go ahead and be a fucking useless prick"

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"My brother likes you, so can you go out with him? If you reject him, we are no longer best friends"

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"You have parents, you keep saying that you don't have any. I am pretty sure you still do have family"

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"You are so cheesy, that it is so fucking cringe"

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"When did you become gay? Ewwww"

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"I am here for you, so don't do it. I understand all your issues, I have gone through the same. Don't take it to heart, I was once like you"

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"Everyone starts somewhere and reach high up, but sometimes people don't reach that area. So don't be like that too."

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"You should read the prophecy"

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“Trying to understand your explanations feels like watching someone attempt a puzzle while holding all the pieces upside down. You speak with so much confidence that it almost distracts from the fact that nothing you say actually connects to anything around it. Every idea you present starts out sounding important, but then it drifts into confusion like a radio signal fading in and out. It is almost impressive how you manage to sound absolutely certain while offering thoughts that collapse the moment anyone looks at them closely. Talking to you is like waiting for a train that keeps announcing it will arrive soon, yet somehow never appears, leaving everyone wondering why they believed it in the first place.”

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"Talking to you feels like explaining a lost cat to someone who has never cared about anything"

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"It is amazing how you can be so present and yet contribute so little, like a background character in your own life"

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"Why are you so numb, be someone more expressive"

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"Your messages have no emotion, add like '!' or '?'"

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"Are you listening? Why are you always in your own world? Why are you daydreaming every single minute of your life?"

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"You talk like someone who thinks they’re the smartest in the room, but every sentence proves the opposite"

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"If you believe, believe you can do it, believe that you can kill yourself"

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"You act like you matter in every conversation, but the truth is no one even notices when you stop talking"

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"It is like you are trying so hard to be important that you forget to actually say anything worth hearing"

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"It is almost unbelievable how you can be so focused on yourself while offering nothing that anyone would ever find useful"

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"No one is going to believe you, stop spouting lies"

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"You keep acting important, but no one is actually looking to you for anything"

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"No one expects much from you because you are worth no value"

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"When I go to Japan, we should date"

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"You keep pretending you matter to people, but the only person who believes that story is you"

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"Everyone gets along the same with or without you"

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"You act like your opinions shape the whole group, but everyone moves on the moment you stop talking"

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"Your opinions don't matter so just stop sharing them"

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"Why are your DMs closed but you still respond to me?"

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"Shut your mouth you don't understand anything just like how I understand you better than your own self"

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"I am trying to help you, but you just aren't taking it"

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"Can you listen?"

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"I want to talk to you on VC can we do that? Your voice pisses me off, ugh nevermind"

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"Stop being with him, he is mine"

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"Omg can't you just be like Rosie?" (Rosie = Ex-friend)

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"Be like me!"

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"Change your mindset, it just isn't right"

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"I am sorry, I am so sorry, please forgive me, I am so sorry, I won't do it again"

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"Ew! Stop begging for attention you whore!"

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"Be more feminine, why do you act so much like a dude?"

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"You dress like you’re desperate for attention, like you want every guy to stare at you"

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"Show me what a panic disorder is like so I can share what it looks like to my other friends"

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"Drop dead you weirdo"

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"You act a certain way just to get guys to want you, like everything you do is for them"

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"Dress more male, and then they won't crave your body"

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"You should have attempted again if you desired it so much"

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“If someone is mean online, just close your eyes. Problem solved.”

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“If someone sends you a rude message, reply with a picture of a potato. It won’t help, but it’s a potato.”

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"just say it’s your fault."

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"If people are being cruel, the best move is to do nothing and hope the universe magically fixes it.”

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"If someone insults you, respond with even worse insults"

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"If someone spreads rumors about you, panic immediately. That always makes things better"

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"Calm down"

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"Dang girl you wildin"

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"Show me that ||wet pussy||"

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"Dumb ahh bih"

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"Jump, jump, jump, jump, jump"

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“Bro, you talk like you’re trying to speedrun being wrong. Every time you open your mouth, it’s like your brain hits a loading error and just hopes nobody notices. The group chat literally gets quieter when you show up because everyone’s trying to figure out how someone can be that confused on a daily basis.”

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I don't even have parents nor other family members so when you talk to someone, don't expect to know everything about them

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My baby brother didn't even live long out of the nicu

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My cat passed from friend negligence

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My parents passed away early on

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I am the way I am now, it is not easy to just change something that has been there all your life

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And when you chat with me, please don't use slang, I want you to be serious

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I love a headache

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I vented but I didn't even cry, I was just angry

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i don't want no hugs
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I am so tired of people giving me information that is repetitive

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we however got the litty spaghetti

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not me trying to bury my vent

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anyways

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time for my daily dose oF

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Matcha

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or maybe i just drink the tea bagged ones

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i don't know

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i'll just drink the first thing i see

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i chugged water instead

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i got a headache

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fuck. i am allergic to something and my whole arm is just covered in red bumps

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it is only my left arm too

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4 out of 10, how are you?

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  • I'm hungry 😭
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thank you :)

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i just thought of a motivation and then my brain buffered and i forgot now i am bit sad that i can't remember it AbbySad

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p.s I still couldn't remember it

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as a result i did absolutely nothing productive

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penguin(s)

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🐧 85501cutepenguinknife

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Also hiiii Koooo I've missed you!

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love a nosebleed, fortunately looks like a light one

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i hate myself

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but i have recovered brain surgery-wise so i can't just kill myself

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it'd all be a waste of money

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i had a split sense of faith in myself to live but there is definite regret

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because now i have to live for something i can't put my tongue on

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my brain keeps buffering, i should start writing stuff down on a notebook hMM or something writable

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i left something in my bedroom or i think i did and then searched everywhere but i don't know what i am looking for

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surely it'll appear when i don't need it

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or if i even placed anything

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i need to buy groceries to stock my fridge but it is still very early

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4:54 am over here

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groceries at 5am? chiikawa

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no i plan to go around 9 AM

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so that there is at least light

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and not pitch darkness

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damn now i am depressed for whatever reason

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took a little break from discord chusit

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might honestly do it again, helps me concentrate

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i am currently looking for a workplace

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hence me being poof

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i have such poor music taste

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i got rejected from my work application today

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no worries, i am going to try round three with another place

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why are people so fucking rude

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impolite motherfuckers

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i supported you in the long run and now you are saying I didn't do shit

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i should really stop making friends with impolite fuckers

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they always hiding their true self behind that shitty ass smile

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getting on everyone's good side, so that they can backstab

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it's not easy, never has been

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can't find the "one"

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They come and they go

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fuck life

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What is behind a smile?

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Not teeth and mouth and a tongue... I want you to think of it in like a serious perspective

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Ko’s Nightfall Once Again

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Ko’s Nightfall

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!rank

noble skyBOT
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i am so tired

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i keep drinking matcha and straight coffee to keep myself awake

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Anxiety Attack Chance +2

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hella nauseous

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screwed up the strawberry syrup, now its too sweet MaysiSigh r.i.p matcha

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still going to drink it anyways tho

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how u been?

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ive been doing good! just working and going out on weekends

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how about you?

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i hope you find work ko, you deserve everything in this world 🫂

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i think i worded that wrong but it is totally alright jerryzoom

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🤣 jerryzoom

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thank you ko it means a lot ❤️

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??? when did i get the GOATED role? I thought that is only for those who use the server's tag ahri_Huh

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perhaps it was to make up for the other tag i had that disappeared from my role list? hMM

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now that i think about it, what happened to all of V's roles shock

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i swear there was more than that

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oo cheese

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i unfortunately am lactose intolerant

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NOOOO

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That good?

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surely.. it is a cookie made without lactose... right?

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