lime flower
I never made one before because i think i would embarrass myself but i just need to get things out of my head without saying it to ai lol.
I've been 'dating' someone ever since early feb and the first month was amazing but then couple months in i see the change PLUS i NEVER been in a relationship before, he was my first. But in the middle of may i left him but then a month later he found my email saying "i still think of us" and other shi. when he emailed me i was already going thru stuff and i still missed him, of course my dumbahh went back, he offered me to stay with him for awhile..So now I been crashing at his home every since the 4th and i notice he never holds my hand, doesnt scoot close to me when going to bed or even cuddling/kissing me. It just felt like we were just friends or roommates. i had the guts to say 'what the hell are we?' my overthinking was right, he just sees me as a friend while he knew i was the obsessed clingy type, i crave touch and love so now im a little uncomfy being near him bc for a few days now he met this girl from the uk online with same interests as him, hes been texting her and i look at my side seeing him texting while i overthink. he always tends to walk ahead of me like he doesn't want to be seen with me and i cant walk away now bc im yk going thru stuff. we dont hate each other but this hurts me, im shaky and the only thing to make me feel good is drinking. I just feel so lonely. I feel like this generation isnt for love