#emi's journal

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First poem y'all xx

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"I Want to Stop Being Empathetic"

I want to stop this aching tide, This ocean heart I hold inside.
I want to shut the feelings down, And never drown when others drown.

I'm tired of eyes that sense too much, Of breaking from a passing touch.
Of reading pain in someone's tone, Then crying in the dark alone.

I give my soul in gentle strands, They take, then leave with empty hands.
I patch their wounds, ignore my own, And wonder why I feel alone.

They lie, they scream, they twist, betray,
But I still hone they'll change
But I still hope they'll change
someday. I still defend them, wear the blame, While they forget they spoke my name.

I want to freeze this burning grace, Rip out the softness from its place. To turn my care into a wall, To never flinch, to never fall.
To watch a tear and walk away, To feel nothing when they sway. To love myself the way I should, Without believing pain is good.

But here I am still made of light, Still wishing wrong could turn to right.
Still holding space for hearts that break, Still hurting from the love I make.

So maybe I don't want to stop.
Maybe I just want it to not Destroy me when I choose to feel, Or make me doubt what's fake or real.

Maybe I just want to be wise, To see the truth behind the lies. To guard my heart with gentle shields, And not bleed out in others' fields.

I want my care to have a gate, Where not all ghosts participate. To love, but never lose my name To walk through fire, but not in flame.

So no I won't stop being me, But I will love more carefully. My empathy will still exist, But not for those who clench a fist.
I'll feel, but I will not collapse. I'll hold my soul in careful wraps. And if I give my heart again... It'll be to someone who defends it then.

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Well. First I post here

outer sable
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these are the type of poems id love to inspire my own from 😞

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it already started off so well and the structure is so good

nimble tide
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Aw tyy

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I have a full book and I'll post more often but not all are in English so they're not much

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emi's journal 🫶

outer sable
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its okay i hope it js doesnt sound weird when you translate it

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I won't lol I'll post the ones In English nd make more

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I can finally post my miserable shit here y'all

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😩

outer sable
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yesss

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Chat my heart issues are worsening I might have to ask mom to take me to get checked again

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I'm scared

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Whats going on?

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Or do you not know

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My dumb ahh went and listened to the music I used to hear when I wasn't well

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Which I think triggered my anxiety

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And now my heart is hurting so bad

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Like I might actually start crying from pain

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I don't think that's it tho

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It's been getting worse and worse the past month

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Crazy how I'm asking a robot

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nimble tide
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Is there anything I can do to try and distract you??

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I dunno

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Lowk bad at helping but I try

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Thank you

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But even idk

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It hurts so bad

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I would try to listen to calming music and take deep breaths

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Like really deep

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This is different

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My anxiety aches are mostly in the middle of my chest

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This is ON my HEART

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And sometimes it hurts sometimes it burns

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Sometimes I feel a cold sensation on it

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Ideka

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Hmmm

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Uhm

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Drink cold milk

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Idk

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I looked up how to stop heartburn

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I DRANK WATER THAT HAD ICE

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Nothing's working

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I want to ask mom to get me checked out but I don't know

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What if I'm worrying her for nothing

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No

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Uh

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Uhm

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Uhm

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Hmmm

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Keep taking deep breaths

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And

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Uhm

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Talk about

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Kittens

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Kittens are calming right?

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I’m sorry

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Yeah

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I lowk don’t know how to help

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I’m trying my best rn

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Until the scare the literal crap out of me

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You're already helping

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SHE PUSHED A CAT DOWN

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Cat

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AT MY FUCKING WINDOW

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Yes.

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That lowk would be freaky

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No correction

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A FUCKING CAT

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They were fighting not fucking

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Wait that's wild

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Mb

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🙈

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Now but fr

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And I cleaned my window

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And she came and nuzzles all around it.

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AND MADE IT DIRTIER YHAN BEFORE

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Did I mention I don't own her

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NOO

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I named her Noa tho xx

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😋

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Noa

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Thats lowk a good name

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I used to have a goat

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An actual female goat

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LeBron?????

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I name her Stella 😋

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Mb

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She's dead tho

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Awww

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Sorry

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BRO

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Wha

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I just accidentally touched my stitch

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And now

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He's looking at ms

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Wait

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Your stitch?

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Like tha alien

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Yuh

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I'm kinda obsessed with stitch

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Ik that's weird

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Nooooo

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It’s not

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Lots of ppl are

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Dawg I’m obsessed w Kanye

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lol

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Am I weird??

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Maybe

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He's a human tho

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LOL

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Jk

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You're cool

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I'm obsessed with Billie Eilish too

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Wait how tf did we go from cats to Billie Eilish

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Idk

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But we are here to might as well keep going you feel?

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I have the attention spam of a 2yr old tbh

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Why did my neighbor turn on the outside light bru

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Crazy

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It's kinda 3:49

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It means..

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Stay my d1 hater

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Woah I'm creative

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Seeeeee

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What 😋

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U lowk creative

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Oh

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Dayumn

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You're so chill bru

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Tyyyyyyy

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You are too

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Lowk match my energy

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Fr

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Twin

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Wait cuz how did I get better

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Aw

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Twin ❤️‍🩹

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TYSM

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Yw

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You cool asf brutha

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I'ma find a poem to post now

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Like genuinely fun to talk to

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"Invisible Effort"

You smile at them like they're the sun,
Like they're the only worthy one.
Your praise flows out in steady streams-
While I just fade behind your dreams.

They barely try, yet get the light,
While I work hard, but stay out of sight.
I show up strong, I do my best-
But I'm the shadow, not the guest.

You don't see the tears I hide,
The ache I carry deep inside.
You only cheer for those who shine,
But never turn your eyes to mine.

They speak, you listen-every word.
But when I speak, I go unheard.
Their flaws are small, their faults forgave, While mine are chains I must behave.

You say it's "nothing," not that deep,
But still at night, it makes me weep.
To know I'm here and giving all
Yet always second when you call.

I'm not a storm, I'm not a scream,
I'm just the one lost in between.
The quiet kid, the steady hand,
Still waiting for you to understand.

And though I never cause a scene,
The weight inside me isn't clean.
It builds and breaks and bends my spine-
The pain of never being mine.

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Emi

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This is actually so good

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Aww

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I’m deadass

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Tysmmm

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I wrote my first poem at like 10yo xc

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Xx*

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Dawg I could never

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I only just started writing music

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I lowk can’t write poems

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I write raps 🥀

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I used to write songs tooo

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But um

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Yeah?

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The song you showed me was so good

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I did burn the book

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I had 2 books

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Almost full

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What whyyy

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Of just songs

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The work of 2+ years

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Why did you burn em

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And since I wrote them at a sad time

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Most weren't so happy

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So

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That’s horrible

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You can already guess

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Lowk gonna give ya a hug because that’s terrible

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So I burned those two and an art book I had

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Omg.

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You're kinda the second person to know lol

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The work

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But yeah later on they did make fun of me saying I was too sensitive and it was a joke

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Because I ran off to home and told the principal I'm sick

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Omg

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And left

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That’s terrible

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Omg I’m so sorry hugs hugs

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You don't have to apologize

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You didn't do anything 🫶

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I’m just sorry this all happened to you

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No person should go through that

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Don't worry

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I moved out last year so

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If I hadn't I would have probably ||kms|| there

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Not js bc of this

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You moved out?

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That would be pathetic

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But the story is longer

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City

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Ooooh

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I used to have a farm there

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I’m glad

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Kind of a village

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That’s cute

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And dw a lot of my songs arent happy either

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That's where Stella was born 😩

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Ty

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And I usually don’t immediately head to DMs to vent just bc

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Idk

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I usually vent in my “vent journal”

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Which is in “vents 2”

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Just so you know tho

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My DMS r open

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But you are lowk so kind

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Like ALWAYS

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Tysm

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Istg you're so sweet

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It lowk means a lot to me

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You're awesome dude

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I might just post all my poems in one day I'm too impatient 😩

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I get it

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It's funny cuz only u and airhead read this so

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Idek why I'm posting

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Because soon

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Others will see

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Hope so

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People will find it soon

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Dw

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I know they will

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Holy shit I almost broke my nail

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Owww

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I’m a dude so I don’t know the struggle

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It hurts bru

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As if someone stepped on your finger

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Wait what did you do to almost break it

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I was trying my hair

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Tying

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Oooooh

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Lowk hope it feels better

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Ty

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It doesn't last much

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@quiet kestrel

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Dawg her poems are actually good

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quiet kestrel
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deadass i relate to that poem more then i want it to

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i love it

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great job, genuinely

grand mortar
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Can I read the poem

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Told ya

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Thank you

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Omg ppl are actually watching em 🥹

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I'm touched

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I told ya

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What did I say

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Man @nimble tide Tysm ily bru

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These are lovely poems

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late egret
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I'm not really usually into poems, but these are lovely af

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I told you

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uhhh

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umm

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WHAT DID I SAY

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I'm gonna cry fr

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U SAID SO

late egret
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U HAOPY MF

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grand mortar
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I’m glad I helped

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The only person whoa liked my poem was a teacher. Although she does have 40+ years of experience but uh

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grand mortar
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uhh

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i think the

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poem

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is

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um

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grand mortar
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i dont wanna be narcissistic

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and rude

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so uh

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with all honesty

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i think

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your poem

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is

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Yeah?

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uhm

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i think

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its

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phenomenal it is so good

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in all honesty

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The suspense was wild

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But I agree

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In all honesty it was so good

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It made sense

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Lol fr

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Tysm

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The ryming was so good

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The first one?

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Both

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Aw

grand mortar
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i refuse to speak about the poem.

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I swear I'm crying

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its bad /j joking lol

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only positivity

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no negativity

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grand mortar
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emii

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sleep

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It's okay

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I'll use your timeline

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4:35

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Am

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It's

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Sleep

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9:42

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Lmao

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Oh

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Well shit

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I’m so smart smh

grand mortar
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thats it

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Ikr I'ma sell ur brain

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sell my kidney

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Sure xx

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YEESD

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I need it thooooo

grand mortar
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sell my heart

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it goes for 1,000,000

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Holy moly

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Lots of money

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Oh

grand mortar
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nope

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I'ma be rich

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thats not alot of money

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But wait

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thats alot of guacc

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Guacamole

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If a heart costs that much

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Yes?

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How does a person only cost 200k?

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How does one gain this information hMM

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Uh

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Well

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I’ll wait…

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come kill me first

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im here in florida

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miami

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Why?

grand mortar
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nvm

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i was joking

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Alr

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Let’s let emi use her journal now lol

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ok

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I just went through my poems from a few months ago and damn

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More than js sad

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I'm probably posting them here since I can't write them on my notebook

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I get it

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Tho some are specific

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Yeah, I get it.

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.

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No name 1
She whispered secrets to the night,
beneath a sky
too wide for fear,
her voice,
a thread of silver light
the stars leaned close
so they could hear.

She asked them
where lost dreams go sleep,
and why some hearts
grow quiet young,
why scars don't always mean you're weak,
and poems bloom
on wounded tongues.

The stars said, "Child, your fire burns deep,
you carry galaxies inside.

Some voices shake-but still,
they speak.
Some shine the most
when they must hide."

So she stood up,
her shoulders strong,
and turned her silence..
.. into song.

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No name 2
One day,
without warning,
she felt the light return.
Not as a blaze-no fireworks-
just a small, warm burn.

It curled beneath her ribs,
like sun through winter's glass.
A quiet thing,
a golden thread
she didn't think would last.

But it stayed.
Through teardrops.
Through tired bones.

It hummed while she was all alone.

It didn't ask her to be loud.
Or fearless.
Or okay.
It simply said:
You made it here.

You're glowing anyway.

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"Through a Glass, Dark and Cold"

The world tilts sideways, colors fade,
A muted scene, a dream delayed.
Faces blur and voices drone,
I walk alone but feel unknown.

The ground beneath feels soft, unsure,
As if I'm trapped behind a door.
A stranger's voice inside my head,
Repeats the things I left unsaid.

I reach to touch, but nothing's there, A hollow hush, a vacant stare.
Time slips through in silent streams, Reality dissolves in seams.

I'm watching life, but not within,
A ghost of me, a fading skin.
No anchor holds, no solid ground,
Just drifting slow, without a sound.

The sky above a painted glaze,
A faded photograph's dull haze.
My own hands feel like glass and stone, Unfamiliar, cold, alone.

The echo of a distant laugh,
Feels like a shadow split in half.
Words become a tangled mess, A language lost in emptiness.

Breath feels distant, rhythm slow, A hollow chest that can't quite know If this is real, or just a lie That wraps around me, tight and dry.

No light can pierce this frozen mist, No warmth to grasp, no gentle twist. I drift, I float, a soul undone, A flicker fading with no sun.

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@quiet kestrel Yo John check these out rq

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"Everyone Thinks She's Funny"

She throws the words like skipping stones, And every one hits deep in bones.
She laughs so loud, the room lights up,
While I pretend I'm strong enough.

"It's just a joke," she says again, With crooked grin and poison pen.
She knows the crowd will laugh on cue,
While I sit still, just pushing through.

She calls me names with playful flair, Mocks my weight, my scars, my hair.
The way I talk, the way I sit-She wraps it all in "harmless" wit.

They laugh. They cheer. They think
she's bold.
I crack a smile, though I feel cold. Because if I speak, if I resist-I'm the one who can't take it.

I say "That hurt," and watch her smirk.
"Relax," she says, "don't be a jerk." "You're just too soft. Don't take it wrong-
I've joked like this all along."

And maybe she has.
Too long, too loud.
Too cruel beneath the cheering crowd.
I start to wonder if it's me-Am I just broken secretly?

But no...
This isn't teasing light.
This isn't fun. It isn't right.
It's targeted. It cuts too deep.
And afterward, I barely sleep.

Because no one sees it like I do
-The tone, the twist, the hidden screw.
They see a girl who "tells it straight"
-Not one who fills my chest with hate.

They clap for her.
They look at me, Like I'm the weak one quietly.
But I'm not soft.
I've just been burned
By jokes that never should've turned.

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"At Least I Didn't"

"Of course I'm better. At least I didn't-"
Yeah, I heard it. Every didn't.
You wore it like a golden crown, While kicking me when I was down.

"At least I didn't slit my wrist."
You said it cold a spiteful twist.
Like I should bow because you're whole, Like scars make me a lesser soul.

You stood there smug, above my ache, As if your heart could never break.
As if the blade beneath my skin
Was something you could use to win.

You didn't cry behind locked doors.
You didn't scream into the floors.
You didn't bleed, but that's no prize
-It's just a mask on hollow lies.

You think control makes you divine,
That suffering makes me decline.
You measure worth in who breaks first, Like pain is something to rehearse.

But here's what you don't understand:
My blood once slipped from trembling hands, But I got up. I stitched the seam.
I stood inside my darkest dream.

And you? You point, you scoff, you sneer-
Because you never faced that fear.
You talk like scars are proof of shame.
But mine are proof I played the game
And lived

So go ahead and wear your pride. Pretend you've never hurt inside. But don't you ever raise your chin Like I'm beneath the state you're in.
Because I survived. You just pretend.
And I won't break for you again.

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"Was I Just a Window to You?"

"Why didn't you finish it?" you say, Like I left some story halfway.
Like my blood was just a chapter closed, Like my pain was art you never chose.

"You could've told us what heaven is like."
As if I owed you that insight
As if I was born just to die
And come back with the stars in my eye.

I wasn't your prophet. Not your key.
Not your peek at eternity.
You treat my death like some small dare-
"Too bad she made it back from there"
You think my silence holds some prize, Some angel's song behind my eyes.

But I didn't see clouds or gates.
I saw my ceiling. I saw hate.
I saw your faces, not the light.
I heard your screaming through the night.

Not worry no but rage and scorn.
Like my hurt was a thing to mourn only because I didn't stay six feet below, tucked far away.

"You almost had it. Why stop there?"
You laugh, like I should even care.
Like death is something you can tease.

Like I was selfish for wanting peace.
I didn't try to go for show.
I tried because I couldn't go
One more hour in my skin
Without the screaming caving in.

And now you look at me and grin,
Like I should wear a different skin.
Like I should've just done it right
-Ended it all that brutal night.

But I'm still here. Against your wish.
And no, I won't fulfill your list.
I'm not your glimpse at afterlife.
I'm not your ghost, your blade, your knife.

I'm not your lesson. Not your joke.
Not your "almost" that nearly broke.
I'm just a girl with scars you knew
-And none of them were meant for you.

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"You Still Talk About It"

You still talk about it like it's small,
Like I just tripped and had a fall.
Like bleeding out was just a phase,
A moody cry for better days.

You bring it up in passing tones, In crowded rooms, on speaker phones.
You whisper sharp, then fake concern-
And wonder why I never turn.

You ask if I'm okay now, sure
-Then laugh like pain should be obscure.
You roll your eyes when I go still,
As if I tried to die for thrill.

You tell your friends behind my back,
As if my blood was just an act.
As if I didn't mean to break,
As if it all was just mistake.

You think that now I should be fine, Because I've made it past that line.
But every joke, and every stare,
Just proves you never really cared.

I see the looks. I hear the name.
The way you speak it full of shame.
Not your own, of course just mine,
Like I embarrassed your design.

You don't ask why. You don't ask how.
You just assume I'm better now.
You mark my pain like it's a brand,
But never once reach out your hand.

I didn't try so you could mock.
I didn't bleed to start your talk.
I broke, and still you pick my thread,
And pull it like I'm not half-dead.

So yes, I live. I made it through.
But not because of any of you.
You want a story, something sick?
Go write it down - then choke on it.

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"They found me bleeding"

They found me bleeding, red on white,
A quiet room, no will to fight.
The blade still resting near my side,
My final thoughts too sharp to hide.

No breath was held, no silence deep,
No moment taken just to weep.
They stormed inside with fire and speed-
Not for my soul, but for their need.

A hand flew fast across my face,
A crack that echoed through the space.
"Are you insane?", the voice came loud, Like I had failed them, made them proud.

"You want attention, is that it?"
"Do it right next time. Make it quick."
No hug, no care, no steady hand-
Just threats I couldn't understand.

They didn't see the shattered girl, Just bloody wrists, a shameful swirl.
They didn't ask, "Why did you try?"
Just barked and cursed and told a lie.

"If you do this again, you'll see
-You won't be safe, not even with me."
They stood above like I was trash,
Like I had caused this fatal crash.

My skin still stung from where they hit,
But worse was how they looked at it
My wounds, my cries, my quiet plea Turned into something ugly... me.

No softness came. No voice grew low.
Just rage for what I couldn't show.
And when they left, the door was wide,
But I just curled up there and cried.

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"The Shadow in the House"

There's a shadow in the house I know,
A storm that comes and never lets go.
A voice that shouts like thunder's roar,
A father's rage that breaks the door.

He drinks the bottle to forget,
But leaves behind a heavy debt.
Not money owed, but pain and fear,
The kind that no one wants to hear.

His eyes once warm, now cold and wild, Lost somewhere far from being a child.
The man I needed, strong and kind, Replaced by chaos in his mind.

I tiptoe 'round the cracks and cries,
The broken silence, twisted lies.
His words like knives, his fists like stone, In a house that never feels like home.

I wonder why the love he had
Was buried deep beneath the bad.
Why the bottle's bitter call
Was louder than a child's small.

But through the nights of fear and pain,
I find a light that still remains.
A spark inside that won't be drowned,
A voice that rises from the ground.

I'm not the blame for his mistakes,
Not the cause of all that breaks.
I'm more than anger, tears, and shame-
I'm the survivor of his flame.

One day, I'll walk beyond this door, Leave the hurt behind no more.
Build a life where love is real,
Where broken hearts begin to heal.

Until that day, I hold my ground,
Though silence screams and storms surround.
I am stronger than the night
-A soul that's searching for the light.

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"I try"

I raise my hand, I take the test,
I try my hardest to be my best.
I stay up late, I push, I strive
But somehow, no one sees me try.

They see the grades, not what it took,
Not every page inside my book.
Not every tear I didn't show,
Or how I learned to hide the "no."

They don't see me biting pens in stress, They don't see how I settle for less
Than praise or care just quiet air,
A silence that feels so unfair.

I spell the words, I solve the math,
I walk the quiet, unseen path.
No gold stars, no proud "well done,"
Just moving on like I'm no one.

I cheer for others when they shine,
But wonder why it's never mine.
Do they not see the fire inside,
The battles I fight just to survive?

I'm not the loudest in the room,
But I still bloom - I still assume
That maybe effort should be seen,
Not just the grade or test machine.

But still - I try.
Not for applause, not for display.
But for the future I'll build one day.
For the me who knows I gave my all,
Even if no one watched me fall.

So maybe no one claps right now.
But I'll keep going - I'll learn how
To lift myself, to chase my spark,
To light my name inside the dark.

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"She Was Supposed to Protect Me"

She held my hand when I was small,
The one I thought would catch my fall.
She brushed my hair and kissed my face,
She was my first and safest place.

But something cracked along the way,
The words she swore began to fray.
The comfort turned to quiet fears,
The hugs were hiding unshed tears.

I told her something deep and raw,
A truth I'd kept beneath my jaw.
It hurt to say I barely spoke,
But in her hands, I placed my broke.

She looked at me like she had heard,
And nodded gently, word by word.
I thought, "She sees me, I'm okay..."
But lies were planted that same day.

Because later, from a cousin's voice,
I learned she made a different choice.
She took my pain and passed it on
Like secrets were just hers to pawn.

I asked her, shaking, full of dread,
My heart already hanging thread.
She didn't comfort, didn't cry
She yelled at me, then told a lie.

She swore she didn't say a word,
She twisted truth, denied I'd heard.
But texts don't lie the way she can
I saw the proof with my own hands.

And there it was: the final blow.
Not just the lie - the way she'd go
To hide it, scream, avoid the blame,
Then look at me like I held shame.

She broke the sacred thread we had.
She made me feel like I was bad.
Like trusting her was my mistake
As if my pain was hers to take.

And still, I sit with this tonight,
The ghost of love, the lack of light. Because how do you forgive a face
That turned your heart into disgrace?

How do you speak to someone who Would rather lie than just say "true"? Who'd watch you drown and walk away, And blame you for the tidal wave?

But maybe this is what I know:
That blood is not what makes love grow.
That family should protect, not harm
Not twist your truth, then raise alarm.

And maybe I'll still see her there,
But now I'll breathe my own clean air.
I'll guard my heart from hands like hers
From lips that twist and voices slurred.

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I'm not the one who failed to care.
I'm not the one who left it bare.
She chose to shatter, chose to lie
But / survived. And I still try.

So here I stand, betrayed but free,
Still holding on to all of me.
She broke the trust but not my soul.
I still have fire. I'm still whole.

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This is it for now

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Holy shit

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I read a good amount

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And so far

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Holy shit emi

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Lol u deserve a medal

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These are actually phenomenal

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Aw ty

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No like

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These are so good

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@quiet kestrel get in here

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Seriously I'm so happy someone finally read them

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I'm so gonna make more

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I’m on “I try”

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Now I can finally delete them from my notes

quiet kestrel
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I just finished all of them

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Omg emi

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The way you write these

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U deserve a medal tbh

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How so?

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For reading your work?

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Dawg I’m happy to

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I don’t need a medal for doing that

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You a genuinely talented and amazing, funny person

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Tysmm

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"Words That Wound"

They toss the word around like play, "Autistic" thrown to tease and sway.
A careless joke, a laughing sound,
But pain lies deep beneath the ground.

It's not a game, not funny, not fair,
A label used without a care.
To mock the minds that think and feel
In ways unseen, but deeply real.

Behind the word is life and fight,
A world that's different, out of sight.
A mind that processes its own,
Not broken, just not fully known.

When people joke, when words are thrown,
The seeds of hurt are deeply sown.
They laugh, they mock, they make a show, Unaware of all they don't know.

The person laughed at hides the pain,
The silent cries behind the strain. Because those jokes don't just amuse, They isolate, confuse, abuse.

It's easy for some to say,
"It's just a joke, why make a way?"
But every word that cuts and stings
Stops the healing that love brings

Autism isn't just a word
To throw around and be absurd.
It's part of who someone is
-Not a punchline, not a quiz.

So think before the jokes you make,
The wounds you cause, the hearts you break.
Because for many, it's not light
-It's battles fought in silent night.

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Want some opinions on this lwk

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As someone with autistic tendencies

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Yes

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Just ues

nimble tide
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Lol

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You said so much

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With 3 letters

maiden temple
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Ues?

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Yuh

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"Afraid to Sleep"

I dread the dark, I dread the bed,
Where thoughts turn sharp inside my head.
Not dreams, not rest - not peace, not night,
But paralyzed, with frozen fright.

I close my eyes and drift too deep,
Then something stirs beneath my sleep.
My body still, my mind aware,
And in the room, there's something there.

I try to move, to scream, to cry,
But all I do is blink and lie.
The shadows crawl across the wall,
They whisper things, they breathe, they call

A figure stands beside my chest,
It leans in close, a cruel guest.
It doesn't move, it doesn't speak,
It watches while I lie there weak.

And though I know it isn't real,
That doesn't change the way I feel.
The weight, the breath, the icy skin
-It feels like death is closing in.

Each time I sleep, I fear that place,
That silent mask, that watching face.
So now I fight to stay awake,
Afraid of what my dreams might take.

The fear of sleep has made me cold,
Exhausted, numb, and growing old.
Because rest, for me, is not a gift
-It's just the place where horrors drift.

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This is after pulling an all nighter and a week staying up till 4-5 😋

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So.

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Most of my poems till now were abt me

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Except the autism awareness one

maiden temple
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Holyyyyy

outer sable
outer sable
nimble tide
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Good morning

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My nail fell yall

nimble tide
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I don't have glue

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Fuck

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Maybe you could pick up some?

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Idk where 😔🔥

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Probably at a convenience store

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Or a hardware store

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I’d let ya mom know

nimble tide
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"You, Without Knowing"

You talk like your words don't matter much,
Like presence fades with every touch.
But I've seen more in your quiet ways Than some reveal in endless days.

You hide your light behind a screen,
Afraid to show what you might mean.
But even pixels can't disguise
The depth that lingers in your eyes.

You doubt your voice, your worth, your mind,
Yet still you're thoughtful, still you're kind. You make me laugh without a try,
You never even wonder why.

You think you're plain, or just okay,
But I'd still listen every day.
You carry storms you never show,
And still give peace you'll never know.

You're strong in ways you don't define, You lift while saying, "I'm just fine."
But I can see the cracks you hide
-And still you stand, still you provide.

You talk like you're forgettable,
But you're not. You're unforgettable.
There's something in the way you speak,
That makes the world fade as white as bleach.

So if you ever feel too small,
Or think you barely matter at all
-Just know you've made a space in me,
Where all the real and rare should be.

nimble tide
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Readin it rn

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Wait

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Mb

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Editing errors bru

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Bro. Wait

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I wrote some twice

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Oh shi?

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Now it's fixed

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I’ll re read it

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Dude…

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Top three nicest things anybody has ever told me

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3- calling my voice nice

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2- calling me sweet

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1- writing a damn poem about me

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Funny thing is

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It’s all you

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Holy shit emi

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Words cannot describe how sweet and kind you have been to me

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I almost shed a tear reading that

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Your so talented

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That touched my fuckin heart

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Omg emi

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Your just

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Amazing

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Your so

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Just

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Peak human being

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Words cannot describe how awesome you are

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If I could give you a big ass hug irl I would

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Thank you so much emi

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Now I’m blushing dawg

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Err

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I lwk have another

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"The Voice You Try to Hide"

You speak, and silence dares to stay,
Like even noise is swept away.
A voice so rich, so calm, so deep
-It lingers in the mind like sleep.

But still you shy from every word,
Afraid your tone might sound absurd.
You doubt the sound that fills the air,
Not knowing just how rare it is there.

You say it's strange, too rough, too low, But what I hear, you'll never know.
It's thunder wrapped in quiet grace,
A comfort in this scattered place.

It's steady, warm, and full of soul,
A song that makes the broken whole.
It calms the chaos in my mind,
The kind of voice that's hard to find.

You call it awkward, call it weak,
But it's the voice that makes me speak.
It pulls the edges of the day,
And softens all that's hard and gray.

If only you could truly hear
The way your voice brings others near.
Not strange, not wrong, not dull, not bare
-It's something rare, beyond compare.

You call it awkward, call it weak,
But it's the voice that makes me speak.
It pulls the edges of the day,
And softens all that's hard and gray.

If only you could truly hear
The way your voice brings others near.
Not strange, not wrong, not dull, not bare
-It's something rare, beyond compare.

So speak, even when fear is near,
Your voice deserves to echo clear.
You've got a gift you try to hide,
But it's your strength-not just your pride.

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Imma read it rn

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I’m actually speechless

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This

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This is so sweet

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Omg

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I literally can’t put it into words

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I hope u acc like it

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I do

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Can you send them into our dm?

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I would love to read them again sometime

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You rly like my voice?

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You think it’s calming?

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Omg emi

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That’s

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Just

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Omg

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I can’t even put it into words

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Yess

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Your so unbelievably sweet

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I don’t think you will ever know

nimble tide
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OOTD #1 🫶 (my style is a little weird)

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My poor nails. (Had them for 16 days)

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Btw I add spoilers so I don't see what I posted because then I'll keep staring at it till I decide it looks so imperfect and then delete it. ✨

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After ripping my acrylic nails off I kinda like my naturals ..

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Someone's nails who don't grow (deff not me)

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Yo rate my food. Ik it's not so pretty but it tastes good and I love cooking. Kind of my therapy

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Looks amazing ngl

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And avacado?

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Looks good

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Thanx

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Yo I made like so many more poems

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And there's also old ones I haven't posted

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"No"

A hand that reached where none should go,
A whisper sharp, a darkened "no."
A laugh, a grip, a breath too near,
And suddenly the world grew fear.

My voice was small, but still I tried,
My body tense, my scream denied.
He didn't hear or didn't care,
Just chased the silence in the air.

I froze. I fought. I begged. I stared.
Into a face that never cared.
The walls were still. The night was loud.
My skin felt heavy, lost in shroud.

It didn't go the whole way through
-But I still bleed in ways not new
Because even almost is enough
To make the world feel cold and rough.

They say, "But nothing really happened..."
Yet I still flinch when fingers tighten.
They say, "You're fine, he didn't win,"
But I still wear him on my skin.

It wasn't full, it wasn't done
-But trauma doesn't wait for "none."
It claws, it lives, it doesn't sleep.
It visits me when silence creeps.

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"Further Down"

At first, it's just a missing spark,
A little silence in the dark.
A skipped reply, a heavy sigh,
A night alone you can't deny.

Then days grow thick, like mud and glue, And even breathing tires you.
The world keeps moving, fast and loud, But you just drift outside the crowd.

The mirror blurs, your face goes pale, Each smile feels thin, like it might fail.
You fake the laugh, you nod, you try
But something's gone and you don't know why.

The hunger fades, or grows too much.
You hate your skin, recoil from touch.
The bed becomes a second skin,
And morning feels like it's a sin.

Your mind begins to echo lies,
Like, "You're too broken to survive."
You start to count the ways you've failed, Each memory a coffin nailed.

No one sees the downward slide,
It's quiet, cold, and trapped inside.
They think you're tired, shy, withdrawn-
Thev don't know half of what is wrong

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There's like so many more but I can't post all because if I lose motivation I'll have nothing to post

outer sable
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way better than mine i love em

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yay

nimble tide
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I love how they're all traumatic 😋

outer sable
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might be my sign to write up another\

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I'd love to see

outer sable
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i started something like a month ago but then i kinda just didnt add to it

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id love to finish it though

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That's so gooddd

outer sable
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thanks im just brainstorming on it

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Noa 🥹

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Btw

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I read your song and WOW

nimble tide
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You're so talented

nimble tide
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That sucks

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You should go out and hung w her

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I do all the time

nimble tide
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🥹

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I'ma post a few more poems

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I posted two earlier

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I readed em :3

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Damn

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"If I Mess It Up"

I hesitate with every breath,
Like one wrong word could lead to death.
A misstep here, a crooked glance,
And I'll have ruined every chance.

They say, "Just try," but they don't see
The war that's happening inside me.
Each choice a weight, each move a risk-
What if it all comes down to this?

What it i fall and can't get back?
What if they laugh, attack, react?
What if one flaw is all it takes
To prove I'm just a list of mistakes?

So I rehearse, I overthink,
I stop myself right at the brink.
I want to speak, to dance, to shine
-But every word feels out of line.

I hold my breath when I begin,
Afraid of showing what's within.
Because once it's out, I can't rewind
They'll see the flaws I try to hide.

And if I stumble, just one beat,
The ground will crumble from my feet.
So better quiet, better small,
Than risk the rise before the fall.

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Kind of my biggest fear

nimble tide
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YOU CALL ME TALENTED??

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Smh

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Your lowk so good at this

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I can’t Cri Cri

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Man look at your songg

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You should sing it 😏

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It’s not as gooood as this thoooo

nimble tide
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Alr

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I got you

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ACTUALLY

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YAY

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Mhm

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I’ll have to find out how to record and view the lyrics at the same time

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Just get a voice recorder and then go to the app where u have the lyrics

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It worked for me

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I messed up a few times

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Can u send in dmss

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I wanna listen to it often

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I got you

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U can keep it here too yj

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Yk

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It's funny how one nail fell so I ripped all off

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hi

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"It Comes at Night"

The room is still, the silence deep,
I drift into a fragile sleep.
But peace is brief - it doesn't stay.
The dark begins to twist and fray.

A soundless scream, a shifting shape,
A dream I can't outrun, escape.
The walls collapse, the ground is thin,
And something wicked pulls me in.

The sky turns red, the floor turns black, The voices echo at my back.
A thousand eyes I cannot see
Are watching, reaching out for me.

I run, but every path is wrong.
My legs are weak, though fear is strong.
The door I need begins to melt,
The pain is real. The terror's felt.

I hear my name in snarling tone,
From shadows made of skin and bone.
They speak in sounds I've never known,
But still it cuts me to the bone.

The air is thick, the rules are gone,
Time slows until it drags on and on.
And just before I scream or die,
I wake with sweat and hollow cry.

But even then, it doesn't leave.
The nightmare clings, it makes me grieve.
I sit in bed with widened eyes-
Still lost within those twisted skies.

Because my mind becomes the cage
That haunts me in this quiet stage.
And though the world begins to light,
I'm scared to close my eyes tonight.

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"Invisible Battle"

I wear a smile, I play the part,
But pain is tearing at my heart.
They say, "It's nothing, just a phase,"
As if my mind's a passing haze.

I scream inside, but no one hears, Drowned out by doubt and careless sneers.
"My thoughts aren't real," they say with ease,
As if my suffering's just a tease.

They tell me, "Get up, just be strong,"
As if my fight's a simple song.
But shadows crawl and grip my soul,
And no one seems to know the toll.

I reach for help, they pull away,
Like darkness is just a choice I made.
They laugh, they judge, they turn their back, Ignoring signs and every crack.

The weight inside grows heavy still,
While I'm expected to have will.
No scars to see, no cuts to show,
Just battles fought they'll never know.

I'm tired of being told it's fake,
That all these struggles are mistakes.
My silent cries, my hidden pain,
Brushed off like sunshine after rain.

A broken soul, a shattered word.
And though they fail to understand,
I'm more than what they demand I am.

I reach for help but touch the air,
No one is truly, really there.
The walls respond with hollow stares, Reflecting back my deepest cares.

A lonely fight no one can see, A hidden war inside of me.
The tears fall down without a sound,
In silent rooms where pain is found.

outer sable
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omg perfect timing

nimble tide
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Jesus how do you do this

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It’s like it’s effortless

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I'm in your walls

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Frrr?

outer sable
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hows the brick taste

nimble tide
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Like rotting rats 😝

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I don’t live in brick house 🥀

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And it smells like sugar

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Boden is that u

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Noooo

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That’s you smh

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Nah

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I smell it in your bedroom

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Uhm

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Uhhh

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I eated candy

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That’s what

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Yoooi see your dog

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I forgot name

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Cecesia?

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Cercie lol

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Cesia?

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Close

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Shit

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Mb

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Cercie

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U good

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Cercie

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Cercie

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Cercie

maiden temple
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Chat is dis wizz

nimble tide
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Making my keyboard remember cuz idk shit

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L

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Im not hiding smh

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She kicked me off ma couch

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Good girl

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Layin on da floor

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Proof

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Btw what's with the shirts in the wall

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Why no pants

maiden temple
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Why no socks 😭💔

maiden temple
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Only wears shirts

nimble tide
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Imagine socks on the wall

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Wild

nimble tide
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maiden temple
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Scribbled out his pretty face</3

nimble tide
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Wanna hang vinyls up on my wall

nimble tide
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Oh wait glasses don't work on that

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Damn

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Myth thinks I’m hot confirmed

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Lol

nimble tide
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Damnit

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He is

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He has seen my face

maiden temple
maiden temple
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18

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I’m not

maiden temple
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Nah im hk your too young for me teah

nimble tide
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How is he not in love

nimble tide
maiden temple
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Myth your done

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Okay granola bar

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Whattttt 😭

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Xx

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It's my fav bar

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Sooo

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Dog on couch

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nimble tide
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Your uhhhhhhh

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Idk my fav thing

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Your Kanye

nimble tide
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Im watching a love story rn

nimble tide
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Lmao

maiden temple
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I see it

nimble tide
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We met 3 days ago and this is a pure friendship

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Myth and emi beef

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Don't ruin it for me mf

maiden temple
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Alr alr sorry😔

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Im not tryna make u upset

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Slight crash out

nimble tide
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Mb 😭💔

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You good dw

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My memory is not memoring

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Real

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Lemme post a few more poems cuz why not

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That’s chill

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I'm chill 🥶😅

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"Empty Room"

I laugh, I smile, I play the part,
But silence lingers in my heart.
Surrounded, yet I feel unknown
-It's not just loneliness... it's alone.

I fear the day the voices fade,
When all my colors start to shade.
When texts go dry and doors are shut, And I'm the one they all forgot.

I fear the quiet in my chest,
When no one checks if I've had rest.
When birthdays pass without a sound,
No footsteps coming back around.

I fear the ghosts of used-to-be's,
The warmth that left so casually.
The friends who smiled, then disappeared,
The ones I once held close and near.

What if I'm too much, or worse-not enough?
What if my love wears others rough?
What if they stay just out of guilt,
And leave once all my cracks are spilt?

I try to speak, but hold it in,
For fear I'll chase them off again.
So I just nod and let it go,
And pray they never really know.

Because I've seen what "leaving" means
-It starts with silence in between.
Then one by one, they drift like snow,
snow,
And I'm left wondering where they go.

So here I sit in crowded air,
With haunted thoughts and vacant stares.
And though the world may never see
I'm scared that no one stays for me.

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"Caught in the Storm"

A sudden rush, a racing beat,
My heart explodes inside my chest.
The walls close in, the room's too small,
I stumble, struggle, fear the fall.

Breath slips quick, then feels too tight,
A gasp, a choke, a losing fight.
The world spins wild, then turns to gray, As panic steals my breath away.

Fingers tingle, vision blurs,
A thousand whispered, frightening words.
"Can't escape," the terror cries,
Trapped inside these frantic skies.

My mind's a cage of spinning thought, Battles lost and battles fought.
No anchor here, no steady ground,
Just crashing waves that drag me down.

I try to speak, but silence breaks,
The shaking hands, the chest that aches. The fight is fierce, the terror raw,
A storm without a single law.

Seconds stretch and bend to years, Drowned inside a sea of fears.
And though it ends as quick as came,
It leaves behind a burning flame.

The memory of breathless pain, The dread that floods my veins
again.
Caught in the storm, I wait, I pray
-For calm to come and take away.

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"The Hours That Never End"

The clock hands crawl, the silence thick, My thoughts move fast, my pulse ticks quick.
The world is dark, the lights are low,
But sleep won't come. It never shows.

The ceiling stares, the pillow's flat,
I toss, I turn, then lie like that.
My mind plays films I didn't choose
Regrets, what-ifs, the things I lose.

The hours stretch like endless rope,
Each minute strangling every hope.
I count the time I've still to bear,
As shadows breathe the stagnant air.

I feel too much, then nothing near,
My heart beats loud with phantom fear.
The sheets are hot, the room is cold,
I'm tired, but sleep won't take hold.

They say to breathe and clear my mind,
To think of waves or stars aligned.
But all I see are empty skies,
And heavy truths behind closed eyes.

I hear the hum of distant cars,
The creak of pipes, the fading stars.
The world's asleep, the city still
While I lie trapped against my will.

My body aches, my thoughts won't cease,
I'd beg the night for just some peace.
But dawn will come, and still I'll lie,
Eyes wide and dry beneath the sky.

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"Afraid to Sleep"

I dread the dark, I dread the bed,
Where thoughts turn sharp inside my head.
Not dreams, not rest - not peace, not night,
But paralyzed, with frozen fright.

I close my eyes and drift too deep,
Then something stirs beneath my sleep. My body still, my mind aware,
And in the room, there's something there.

I try to move, to scream, to cry,
But all I do is blink and lie.
The shadows crawl across the wall,
They whisper things, they breathe, they call

A figure stands beside my chest,
It leans in close, a cruel guest.
It doesn't move, it doesn't speak,
It watches while I lie there weak.

And though I know it isn't real,
That doesn't change the way I feel.
The weight, the breath, the icy skin
-It feels like death is closing in.

Each time I sleep, I fear that place,
That silent mask, that watching face.
So now I fight to stay awake,
Afraid of what my dreams might take.

The fear of sleep has made me cold, Exhausted, numb, and growing old. Because rest, for me, is not a gift
-It's just the place where horrors drift.

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"Wrong in the Mirror"

The mirror stares, but tells a lie,
A twisted truth I can't deny.
They say I'm fine-"You look just right,"
But I see monsters every night.

My eyes go first, then face, then skin,
A thousand flaws I hold within.
Each angle wrong, each shadow loud,
I drown beneath perfection's cloud.

Too big, too small, too sharp, too wide,
I shrink, I hide, I burn inside.
I tug my clothes, I bend, I turn,
No peace to find, just ache and churn.

They smile and say, "You're beautiful,"
But compliments just make me dull.
Because what I see they'll never know
-The hate I feel continues to grow.

Photos feel like cursed glass,
Proof of things I cannot pass.
Reflection lies, but still I stare-
I pick apart the person there.

They say it's "just a phase or thought,"
But they don't live the war I've fought.
This body is a haunted place,
A battleground behind my face.

So when they speak with kind intent,
I nod, pretend I'm confident.
But deep inside, I wish they'd see
The stranger living inside me.

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xx

nimble tide
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Aw tyy

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Your lowk talented tho 🥀

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I wish I could write like this

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Istg it’s like you do it without strain

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The song you wrote is literally so much better be fr

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You're fucking AMAZING

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And your voice makes my brain tingle in a good way

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Awwww tyytyttyty

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I’m glad

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But this stuff

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You make it look so easy

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I go through like 11 different versions until I find one I like 🥀

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Brutha u think I did these in one take 💔

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Not to mention most were written during a mental breakdown or anxiety attack

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It’s just crazy

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So do you

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You make it more

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I’ve only shown 3 songs here since I arrived like 4 months ago

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Wait cuz I only saw one th

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The others are like

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Long gone

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Dayumn

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Into the Abyss of chat

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That's sad

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I have em on my phone tho

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I think I got

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27 songs in total

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Woah

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that's amazing

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Ty

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Noa left 😭💔

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Biden

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Daden

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Tf

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Lmao

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Boden

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Yep

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I js wanna say

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Mhm

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You're awesome sauce 🙏

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You are too

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Awesome soup even

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You're awesome kebab 🤤🥙

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Your awesome sandwich

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Face reveal lwk

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What

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Cucumber 🥒

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Gang…

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nimble tide
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I SAID A CUCUMBER GANG 😭😭😭😭

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What is so wrong w a damn cucumber… 🥀🥀

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Dw twin ❤️‍🩹

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I didn’t lol

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What was it

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That was it 🙏

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Why did you delete shrek 😭

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Cuz

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.

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Wrong gif

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Oooo

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Alr

nimble tide
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Nervous?

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Lowk getting ghosted smh 🥀 /j

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Lowk died

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I fucking love the rain bro

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It’s so awesome

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💀

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Wdymmmm

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Gang I love the rain

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It sounds good

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And

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It like

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Looks awesome

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Same fr

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Twin

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Dap me up twin

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Microwaving pizza rn

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Cus I’m fuckin hungry 🥀

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poor baby

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🍼

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Yay

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Meet and greet

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Let’s go

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But I would lowk like

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Actually nah

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I don’t hit women 👍

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NOOO

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Face reveal

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I know what it’s gonna be…

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What

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But I still pressed on it 😔✌️

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xx

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That's why I have trust issues

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Lmao

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Me too twin

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Half of a faceee

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Poof she's gone

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Addicted don't know what the fuck I'm on

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Half face too but this is when my hair looked good 😭

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Man

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U fineeee

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Wha

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Like

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For real?

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Fine 👌👌

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Dawg

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You said that n I lowk hit the

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Tysmmmmm

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Actually

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I smiled

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But that’s when my hair lowk looked good

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Now I needa see one with bad hair bruv

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Alr

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Gimme a second

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Dms? Or here idc

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Can’t show faces here so DMs

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Alrighty

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My heart hurts so bad

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It's burning

grand mortar
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Real shit

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hruu

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feeling good cause you are here

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i feel better now emii

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took a smoke break

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grand mortar
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but i quit vaping

grand mortar
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It hurts your lungs

grand mortar
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oh well

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my lungs are cooked

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wtf am i doing

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im out sorry im in ur journal bothering u gonna be in my journal

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what do u wanna go by

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emii

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emi

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or anything else

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Js emi

grand mortar
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alr emi

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im gonna go take a smoke break and question my life and prob start crying byeeee

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Nooo

grand mortar
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what

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Dont

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You're gonna hurt your own feelings like that

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im just gonna stop

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if u have any commentss say it in my journal im not gonna interupt your journal anymore

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Im back

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The smoke break made me even more numb

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Anyway I like ur poem

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Its nice