#Boden’s Main Journal

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Basically derealization

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Time to js pretend im normal

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Man

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Somehow im not breaking down in tears

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This dude is built different

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Crazy how one day pluto is gonna back off and im gonna realize that i lost emi

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im sorry man

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elfin rivet
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i didnt fully read that message before it got deleted, but i dont know much about DID im so sorry mate.

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I just

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Thought it seemed attention grabby

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I didnt like how it made me look

elfin rivet
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no its ok.

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Im just looking for any info i might have missed

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Im never telling anyone irl about this tho

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Thats not happening

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Not ever

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but if you need any help with it, and im not saying you do, im just saying IF you need it, telling someone irl could help?

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Yeah

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Probably

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If it gets to the point of putting others in danger then ill tell someone

elfin rivet
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thats good

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its good youre being responsible and safe about it. if that makes sense? idk if that makes sense

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It does

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I will take any responsibility of what happens when pluto is here

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But understand its not from a place of spite or hatred

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i understand that dw

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its not something you can control, im assuming

jolly umbra
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Idk what to call this “version” of boden

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Of me

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Maybe it is boden

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Idfk

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So i js decide to call him pluto

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Me in the back of the class 600mg caffeine into 3rd period

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I had a project due yesterday i think

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But i cant get it done cus idk how

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I had to leave early yesterday

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Im pretty damn pathetic

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Why would you think that

elfin rivet
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opal siren
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Np, dms are open if you need anything

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I have no fuckin clue whats going on with me

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Everything

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In my brain

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This whole

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Episode

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If thats what we even want to call it

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Grah im gonna be behind on my health work

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Oh, it will get better one day even if its not tomorrow i promise

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Yeah i hope

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Tbh i hope its only some sort of episode and not a disorder

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Damn

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Icl

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Im kinda hurting rn

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Why

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You ok

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Probably not

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I forgot he tweeted this

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This made me giggle

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maybe the bee is also making an album and no one knows

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I dont fear death tbh

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I know its gonna get me one day

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Its gonna get all of us one day

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Why fear it

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Those who fear it have too much attachment to this world I think

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So i have a date to hoco

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Not rly a date

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More a favor

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For a friend

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His cousin is homeschooled and hardy gets to interact with kids her age

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And he was originally gonna take her

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But his mom said i should

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She said that this looks good

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Im kinda excited

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This is Ye’s best outfit

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I wanna dress like that

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He knows fashion

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Sometimes i look in main chat and see one or two ppl i dont fw and then js leave

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Cus its short and doesnt look that good

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I also need to learn how to dance

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My hair is so clapped

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School tomorrow

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🫩🫩🫩🫩

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School? NOOO

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Sadly yes

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Might change my pfp

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I changed it to the third one

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Thats cooll

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Thanks you

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Yw

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Might change my name too

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But that may confuse some ppl.

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With all this shit going on inside me

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Until i let y’all know pluto or wtv the fuck we wanna call him is like

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In control ig

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Idk what to call it

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I dont feel like my body is mine

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I feel like im watching everything

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But

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Yeah

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Pluto is still in control

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Or fronting or wtv

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Im still not sure if this is an episode or a disorder

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Hope it gets better SOON

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Idk if i should call it pluto

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I should probably find a less confusing name

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Boden doesnt even feel like my name atp…

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@flint swallow if you want to really understand id read

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Criminally underrated

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Crazy, bipolar, antis*mite.

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And im still

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The king

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PEAK

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bro this whole album is so good

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Criminally underrated

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The experimental sound

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Its so fucking good

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Only one skip on the whole album

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Fight me

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1-Yeezus
2-Donda
3-ye
4-Vultures 1
5 -mbdtf

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Tbh ye and mbdtf are interchangeable for me tho

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My favorite Ye album

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CROSS MY SO MUCH I GOT NAILS IN MY HANDS 🔥🔥🗣️🗣️🔥🔥🔥

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CITY ON FIRE LIKE BETHLHAM

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Im removing my roles

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Removed

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Why do people have to be such cunts tbh

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Dawg

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Just cuz that bitch

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Said so???

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Hell nah what

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Wha

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Do yOu hAvE a DiAgNoSiS?

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Cuz of her right 😭

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Yeah

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I hate those ppl

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So might as well end it all

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Not that

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That sounds bad

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Make sure it doesnt happen again

opal siren
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opal siren
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Your diagnoses, your fucking choice whether you want people to know or not
It's a mental health server, those cunts have 0 say over this shit

opal siren
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We ball

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God why do bitches gotta be such cunts

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Like

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Oml

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Fr hahah

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You wonder why nobody likes you

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0 self awareness

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opal siren
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Yeah ik in general too lmao

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Ooooh

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Mb

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Man now i js feel like shit

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I wonder how she would feel if she knew she is the reason i committed

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We debating

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I could get high

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I might

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Nuhuh gng

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Go sleep 💔

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How old do you think i am

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10?

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Lmao

opal siren
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No clue 😨💔

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If y’all got 11 minutes you should watch this

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Preferably in a quiet place

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Jeez

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You know your in a depressive state when you pull out donda

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I have a strong feeling a lot of y’all dont fw me.

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God damn this fucking shit

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All this shit

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What the fuck

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What fucked up my brain

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Why

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Why am i still in this episode

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Why am i still in this state

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Why am i still in this fucking

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Body

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Why

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This body doesn’t feel like mine anymore

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Boden doesnt feel like my name anymore

opal siren
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Im disassociating and derealizing

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Im fucked

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Dude

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Deep down im scared

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What if this is a disorder

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What if i dont come back

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What if i stay this way

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This was a bad time when i felt like this

opal siren
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I was using opiods and drinking cough syrup

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Like

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I was a fucking bum man

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I was so fucking depressed

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And now im starting to feel that exact way

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When i was doing all that stuff

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Goddamn

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Do you have access to like therapy

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No

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Ah fuck

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I'm pretty sure this is depersonalisation

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Yes

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It is

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God im thinking of doing some bad shit

opal siren
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Blast music in your ears

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Stop hearing your thoughts

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Stop thinking.

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Try to empty your mind (ik this is easier said than done)

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Yeah ive been doing that

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Idk…

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I think tonight is gonna be bad

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Please please please try

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To do what miso

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To do what

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To live?

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To keep dealing with this psychological hellscape?

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Its a lose-lose miso…

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I lost the one person i actually loved

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Im so fucking tired

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Im so fucking tired

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So

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Fucking tired

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Im sorry

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Its just

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To much

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Im sorry

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Bye

opal siren
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Don't apologise

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You're allowed to be tired

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I do not expect you to just be happy

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You've been through a lotta shit

opal siren
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Or as the kids say

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Don't let the opps win 💔

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Im

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So

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Done

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Dude

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I wanna just

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I wanna fucking end it all man

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It would be so freeing

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Ik im gonna sound so fucking stupid rn but

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Ydk that

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What if it's worse

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What if afterlife does exist

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Better than this

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And thats nit stupid

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Kinda how i woulda responded

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Deadass why would you risk it

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Don't risk it

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I 100% understand that living is so fucking painful

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But what's to say the alternative is better man

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I dont want to anymore

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Ik this is an extremely feeble argument

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Im willing to take the risk

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Please

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I dont know miso

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I really dont

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Im scared

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Im confused

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Im hurt

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I just want peace

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I want it to all be quiet

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I dont want to have to wrestle with another fucking person in my brain

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Yes yes yes I know I know
Completely valid
But please
Don't do it man
We cherish you
And for that selfish reason
We won't let you leave

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I think you could move on

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Im pretty sure most people would

opal siren
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There's help in the future yk
I know it all seems hopeless
And you'd rather take the risk
But just imagine the shit you'd do when you come out the other side man

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It's worth it i swear

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BIG NO

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Work a 9-5?

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No, you don't have to

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There's other shit to enjoy

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Then what

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You need money to do enjoyable shit

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Even if you do work a 9-5, you'd be earning
You'd be able to go to concerts and shit

opal siren
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Man

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By working a 9-5?

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Im lucky to even graduate

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You ever had to talk to cops 4 times in a week?

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I almost got expelled 3 times last year

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There's other jobs dude

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You ever been sat down and told that your gonna end uo in prison at 16 and that im gonna waste my life?

opal siren
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Its terrible

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But you'll make it through

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Its fucking horrid

opal siren
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Im not a good fucking kid

opal siren
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You might've done bad things

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You're still a fucking kid

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Man

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What for

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Bad things don't make a bad person

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There's a huge grey area

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Hm

opal siren
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You can't just say that things are black and white

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Did you have dinner

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Yes.

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Im so fucking done with this whole goddamn fucking sick joke

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Like

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Lemme just go through a list rq

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Mhm

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Myth- wouldnt gaf

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Khora- wouldnt gaf

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Okay so?

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Kya- move on in about 3 weeks

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Logan and john- maybe 3 months

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No deadass even if they don't THEM NOT GIVING A FUCK DOESN'T DECIDE YOUR FUCKING VALUE DUDE

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Laz- maybe a week

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I dont think people would miss me

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Mads- maybe a week

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YOU ARE YOUR OWN PERSON OKAY?
NOT DEFINED BY THE NUMBER OF PEOPLE WHO GIVE A FUCK
YOU MIGHT NOT THINK YOU'RE A "GOOD KID"
BUT MAN I KNOW YOU ENOUGH TO TELL THAT WE NEED MORE PEOPLE LIKE YOU

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You're someone who knows empathy

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Real fucking empathy

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Not the fake bs

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You're someone who cares

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Could you maybe not yell

opal siren
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I feel like it doesnt contribute any positivity to an already positivity-deprived conversation

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It only brings stress and tension

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There is no use for it

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The point of conversation isn't supposed to be positivity

errant hearth
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You can't just discard them

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Ive been yelled enough in my life miso

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I dont need any more

opal siren
lethal compass
# cobalt drum Logan and john- maybe 3 months

3 infities*
Even though we don’t interact much i still care for you, my friends are my family
And i love family
Regardless
And unconditionally
Even if you might not see it, your like a brother to mechu_hug

opal siren
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Again ive been yelled at telling me im going to be in prison by 16. That im wasting my life. That im going to die by 22. I dont need any more.

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opal siren
errant hearth
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Some people actively try to make me feel like shit

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Or just pray on my downfall

errant hearth
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Mhm

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Hm

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That could be the case

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At fucking all

lethal compass
# cobalt drum Thank.

No need to thank me fren
chu_hug chu_hugyou matter to me as much as anyone else, and you matter a hell of a lot to me and logan.
Like genuinely
You have value and we all love you.

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Im just.

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Im

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Really having a hard time man

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I lost emi

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And im losing my fucking sanity

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:((
That's horrible

lethal compass
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fren

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This whole fucking thing inside me

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I have no clue whats going on

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Im confused and scared deep down

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Damn petrified

opal siren
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Anyone would be tbh
But please man
Don't give up please
You don't have to be "strong"
Hell, you don't even have to be cheerful
For now, just use your support system
And keep going
I know you have it in you

errant hearth
# cobalt drum Damn petrified

I understand. It makes sense. But we're here for you. Always will be. Damn sure my dms are always open and you can dm me anytime you have to. You can and will get through this. Hard times aren't always gonna be the times you're in

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I hope so.

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Its okay to feel this way, its okay to not know and struggle heavychu_hug it doesn’t mean you’re less of a person, it doesn’t mean your less loveable or less enjoyable.

Its you, you are the beauty, and despite that some shit happens, your worth has never truly declined.
I can say with certainty you are not a burden.
Youre fun, and i really like being around you, your music and personality too
Its palpable, and its you
Our fren

You dont have to fix anything right now, just try to breathe and take things easy right now. Youre not alone and you dont have to carry all this by yourselfchu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug chu_hug
were here. Forever. Anytime. Anywhere. Anyway.

We love you man<33/p

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We absolutely love you man/p

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Fuck getting high tonight.

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Maybe i should just go to bed

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go eepies my fren
You deserve some resthuddleheartshape

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Goodnight.

opal siren
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lethal compass
# cobalt drum Goodnight.

promise youll try to stay safe okay?
you dont have to be perfect, just trychu_hugi wish you a wonderful night fren, and the sweetest of dreams to you

no pressure to reply tho<3/p

errant hearth
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Thank you all

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Anytime, dude

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Welp

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Bully got delayed until november

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Fuck Ye keep the damn album atp

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Surprise drop it

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Please i beg

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Stop doing shows

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Get in the studio

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Currently in waiting room for PT appt

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God why do people have to be such cunts

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Im starting to just hate everyone

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People js mean to me

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For stuff that isnt even my fault

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Like man

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Aint my fault i got into drugs whrn i was fucking 11

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I didnt know any better

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Sorry im sick so my voice sounds pretty goofy and a bit high pitched

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What a sad day

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Bro's pulling a gta 6

opal siren
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I hardy did anything

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I didnt even get to talk to any of my friends today

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Sad

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Im sad

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I wanna get high

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Really badly

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But the fam is home

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Mom is home

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I think she wouldnt notice if i took one of the THC lemonades

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But i wanna save it for a day when i can enjoy the high

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Maybe this weekend

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—HOE—
HEAVEN
ON
EARTH

MIXTAPE PRODUCED BY YOURS TRULY

—1.20.25—

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Im hype

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This project is one of my most polished projects yet

opal siren
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It is fucked up how quick people are to judge

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Like maybe think for one second before you speak

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Imagine stooping so fucking low you're judging the "descisions" of a child

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I was barely able to decide what to eat every day

opal siren
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Mf i shoulda been playing lego star wars

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You didn't get to make a decision

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But nah

opal siren
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I got to try weed

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And

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Always needed to feel that way

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And you went through all that shit
And you have come out of it
Without ANY help
That's how fucking GOATED you are, never forget.

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Yw lol 😭

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I wanna tru and graduate early

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Try*

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i feel like i can

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Im just not sure how

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And public school doesnt want me to graduate early because then they get less funding

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“Y-you can graduate early b-but we REALLY d-dont recommend it for r-reasons”

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Like

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Cmon now

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Anyways

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I have two songs written

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Production wont be fun

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But

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We ball

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Soooo

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God imma need to lock in

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I really want this to be good

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YOU GOT THIS!!!

opal siren
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4 songs completely written

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I think it will be about 7 tracks long

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God

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Tbh

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Now i dont feel so bad abt what that cunt said to me

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Im out here making fucking ART

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what are you doing

opal siren
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Being a bum and playing fuckass video games all day

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To tired to continue

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HOE 1.20.25

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I failed my spanish test yesterday

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8/38

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I really dont want to go to school today

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Im so sleepy

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And i just feel like shit mentally and physically

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But i got a math test

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Jesus christ

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That on experience a while ago completely ruined my body image

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(Hes in this server)

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Already a bad day

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Fml bro

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I wanna cut myself sooooo bad rn bro

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And i aint done that in months

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opal siren
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Im starting to feel like i was used

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Mixtape written

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Need idea for cover art

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A sunset

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Or ghost

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Its called HOE

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Heaven on earth

tired kettle
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nice

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Imma record vocals for the bonus track

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Dm me if you wanna here it

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Finished it

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Oh

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Dm me if you want to hear it

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🙂

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Actually dm me the word “bonus.”

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Cus ko js dmed me a gif of a cat lmfao

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(I will respond in all caps with semi cryptic comments js for the rollout and asthetic)

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Grahhhhh i wanna get high rn

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Them THC lemonades looking like a good time lol

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Like as for fun

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Not in a depressing way

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I just think ill have fun if i take it

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Its 10mg THC infused

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So it would give me a bit of a fun time

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First response to listening

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They said it was actually good

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When will this episode end man.

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On my hands and knees praying that its not DID or another disorder

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Should i just

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Give up

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I dont know if its ever gonna end

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Im scared

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What if this is how i really am

opal siren
opal siren
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Man idk miso

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This like

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“Version”

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Is not so cool

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Man

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Fuck

opal siren
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Emotionally distant

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Kinda emotionally cold

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Just kinda an asshole

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Circumstances have made him that way.

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Never forget that

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And he still has more empathy

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Than

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Most

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Dentist

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Finished

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My teeth are so smooth and clean

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“Im just so mentally ill bwaa durhurhur 🤪🤪”

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“Im a sadist 😈😈😈😈😈👺👺👹”

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Please stfu

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Ur not tuff

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Nor funny

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Js annoying

opal siren
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opal siren
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Delete this

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Thank you

plush fjord
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sorry

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No worries

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Dont need reminders

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Pretty sure she used me and then left me at my lowest

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oh

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sorry for you

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Wish i was talking to kaz rn

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Shes so awesome

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Okay im gonna start not associating myself with one of my friends here bc they are making fun of an older man

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And i think thats really rude and disrespectful

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Dm me if you have questions/complaints

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DM “BONUS” TO BEAR WITNESS TO ONE THING,

GREATNESS.

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Lowk gonna try on a suit

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Man im not fw anyone rn

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Also cant try on suit

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Sorry

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It is what it is man

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I should be able to tomorrow

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Indeed

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Damn we kinda going into like

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A depressive state

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Im sorry about that, i truly really hope it gets better for you soon, and it will get better

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Even if it takes a long time

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Ig ill js play some 2k or sum…

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Ok

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You ok?

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Tried playing hd2

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Lowk js made me worse

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Im sorry about that

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No stress

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We got a suit

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nice suit

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looking quite dapper

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Needs to be ironed

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Bwa

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Bored

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Nobody online

opal siren
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Frr

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Bro witnessed history

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Rather than some ratchet bitch

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Her loss

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Damn my throat hurts

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So sleepy

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How do people not like vultures 1 bro

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Like

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Genuinely give me a 5 page essay and turn it in by Wednesday at my desk

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If its bad then tell me why

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Not just some

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“Forgettable lyrics”

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Aint gonna cut it gang

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One skip on the whole album

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Maybe two if your a softie

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Make experimental rap sexy again smh

analog berry
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Me and my hbs bouta be the best dressed dudes at hoco

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School lowk has be drained

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WAIT DO YOU GUYS WANNA HEAR MY ERIC CARTMAN IMPRESSION???

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Its lowk so good

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I used to look good bro

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Wtf happened

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Wth is wrong with me bro

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Like

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Its not even jupiters fault

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She didnt think abt how it might effect ppl

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But damn i read that and my stomach dropped

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I get so damn triggered when people talk abt drugs man.

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Like

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God now i cant stop thinkin of relapsing

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Fucking great

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J Cole and some S

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Hm

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Seems i get ignored

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Im walking.

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Im done.

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My body feels slo relaxed.

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I hope i overdose.

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Tonight will be my last night alive.

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I apologize to those ive hurt

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Im sorry about last night

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I dont even know what happened

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I took a bunch of my lexapro and threw up

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Im so sorry

errant hearth
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1/3 of my squad was forced to therapy after one mission

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I have PTSD and an extreme fear of doors

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Ill never forget you officer robinson

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Ready or not.

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Chat btw its a video game

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Not

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Like

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Real life

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Homecoming is tomorrow

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Lowk excited

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I think

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I just hope its fun

elfin rivet
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So bored dude

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If i was home alone i would take an edible

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But

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Im not home alone

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So

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I find nothing enjoyable

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The only thing that sounds appealing rn is getting high

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Maybe tomorrow idk

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Still cant believe i relapsed.

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Guess who is home alone for the next like 3 hours

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Time for that edible

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Yoooo

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My date said she thinks im hot as fuck

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Shes so fucking pretty dude

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I hope she has fun

merry star
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Actually my hb cousin

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Ive hung out with her before

merry star
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My buddy

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I've got a date with unemployment

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Just finished the edible

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Now we wait

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Im starting to get really giggly at everything

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Eye check

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Clear eues

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8:20

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My eyes are feeling heavy

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merry star
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36 minutes

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Cant stop smiling

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Literaly

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Okayyyyy

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I am friedddd

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Eyes heavy

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Unstoppable giggling

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And cant stop smiling

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Ooooo my mouth is dry

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Water

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Its a good sign

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You drink enough water right

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??

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Im gettibg cottonmouth

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Wowza

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Last night was fun

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Getting ready

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I put a little texture powder in my hair to make it fluffier and softer looking

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Ill be offline for the rest of the night

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Im so fucking fly

merry star
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quasi granite
# cobalt drum Mads- maybe a week

dawg i would never move on. i’m sorry you think i would but i wouldn’t. you’re one of my best friends here. and i would be beyond heartbroken if something happened to you.

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Whole fam is yelling at me

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Im tired

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And just very irritated

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Like

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Nxidjcd

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Leave me tf alone

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How hard is that

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To just close the door to my room and leave me alone

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Fjfjdiicjdjxc

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And my internet is going fucking broke rn

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Like

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Takes 3 minutes to send a single message

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Dncjxiyhdbfhvyu hbguf

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Xbsuv jcu C h gyku icc vc

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Ncjx Hz u C

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Im actially fucking tweKing out

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Nothing is going good rn

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Leifn hdyft j ex fmm

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My throat hurts

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Bfjdjdjfjdjdjc

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cdnxhcjv

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Bdivjc

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Bdivjcc

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Bdxbcjv

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Bdjcbcc

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But how did that date go bro?

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Bdicbc

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Bsjcuf

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I hate everything tn

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MY FUCKING INTERNET

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GODDAMN

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MY INTERNET

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HOLY SHIT

merry star
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That's the key to being happy

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WTF

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why does everytging have to inconvenience me rn

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BRO

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WHAT THE ACTUAL SHIT

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BCJXUXJXJXJC

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BDXJBC

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BCJCHCJCUC

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MY FUVKING INTERNET

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Im not even gonna leave my room

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But i need water

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Im not going out

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Cus my family is just going to yell at me

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Yw

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It feels like i have something in my teeth but its literally js my tooth

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Its annoying tf outta me

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Uhm.

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I ordered ye and ksg today

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They might arrive tomorrow or Wednesday

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Oof yep prob the tooth

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No pls dont attempt

opal siren
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It's not stupid

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Thanks miso

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Anytime man

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Wowza

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Im really feelin like relapsin rn

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Oof

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Like

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Damn

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Im almost 3 days clean

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But

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Damnn

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Fu k

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Its like

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Jdjcjdjxj

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It will make you worse

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Well shit

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Im sorry

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Not ur fault

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I hope you get better

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At least i should try and enjoy the high

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Being high off cough syrup is so

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Strange

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Like

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Im so sleepy

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But cant sleep

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I feel so floaty

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But also so deep in the ground

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I hate everything

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Im on the verge of tears while singing my heart out to kanye

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Gay p*rn

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Hahaha

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Haha

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Soooo funny

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Mf it was mentioned like

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An hour ago

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Now

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Let it go

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Ffs

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Like im looking at a bunch of 11 year olds icel

analog berry
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Thank you 😭 100% agree like damn I wish I hadn’t seen that ngl

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Move tf on 😭

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Like come on

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Honestly

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Are you like 10????

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Just let is go ffs

analog berry
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And it’s mixed age company 😭

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Come on guys not appropriate

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The fact that all of them want to see it is js gross

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Like

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Holy horny

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Jesus christ

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11 year old behavior 🥀😭

analog berry
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Call me weird but I hate sex stuff 😭

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Like

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Bro

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WHY ARE PEOPLE FLOCKING TO LOOK AT WHAT IM ASSUMING IS GAY PORN ON DISCORD 😭😭😭🥀🥀🥀😭😭

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I can’t believe i actually had to say those words

analog berry
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Fr 😭

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You’re 100% right btw 💀

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Truly dark times

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😭

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Wait did they finally let it go?

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Moment in history

analog berry
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Wild

opal siren
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Lmao 😭

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J cole is the reason kendrick lamar exists btw

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Never forget that

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J cole told multiple labels including tde abt kendrick

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Thats why i needa one dancee

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EKSKSJDJDJ

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IM SO EXCITED

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MY PACKAGE MIGHT BE HERE TOMORROW

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OR WEDNESDAY

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HDCHHDCJ

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ye and ksg

merry star
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Vinyls

merry star
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"ye and kys"

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Oof

merry star
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Xd

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My top 5 fav kanye albums

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5-KIDS SEE GHOSTS

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I love its emotional maturity and vulnerability while also being able to be energy filled

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4-VULTURES 1

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Truly and underrated album, the emotional vulnerability is there with amazing vocals and experimental production

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HM-mbdtf

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Truly a work of art and one of if not the best hip hop album of all time

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3-ye

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The pure, raw emotion is flooding out of this project

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2-Donda/Donda deluxe

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The vocals and production mixed with such emotion. Pure and raw. Deserves to be played in a large, open, dark space.

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And number 1

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Yeezus

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The experimental production mixed with hectic but passionate vocals make it easily one of Ye’s best works

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Some of the people here are just painfully unfunny bro 😭

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Im pretty sure i have the largest venting journal

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Almost 4k entries

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Idk if thats good or bad

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We ball tho

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Yoooo

opal siren
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Wuhuh

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Jeez that was quick lol

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Anyways

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Dear diary,
School time

opal siren
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Don't eat your teacher please

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To late

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Some days i hate people some days i dont

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Still in this episode

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I wonder what color the vinyls will be

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The ones i ordered

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Ive seen that the ksg ones can be pink or blue

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And the ye ones can be green

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D sa hxjdmfkc

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My packageeeee

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Jscjbcjc

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I cant waitttttt

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B

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H

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Jbh

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Jnn

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You will cry if you listen to this

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Fuck y’all

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Im done

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I cant take it anymore

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You guys fucking suck

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Im done

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With all of it

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Ive made my decision

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Oh no

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Pls dont tell me you attempted or commited

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No

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I hope your alive and the episode goes away soon

analog berry
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If ykyk.

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Anyways.

opal siren
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man my dms are open

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please be safe

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Hope your ok, if you need to rant im here

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Well

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Shit

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Im alive

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I remember going into a state last night

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Due to some people being bitches to me

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And then i attempted

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I tried ||hanging myself with my shirt||

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it didnt work

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And i had to go to school

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And i was so tired

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And wishing it worked

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Fuck everything man