Im ok
I think
Like 90% sure
Tired. So incredibly tired and getting progressively more stressed. I'm working on it but it's hard.
#Logan's Journal
twin lake
buoyant pier
twin lake
buoyant pier
I get it fren, youve been carrying too much lately, thats okay.
Im here, you dont have to face this alone, even if its just to sit in silence with you
buoyant pier
goodi keep your word close
Please be safe fren, and just know that you dont always have to be strong, you just have to keep pushing
I love you man/p
twin lake
Love you too man/p
I'll always push through. Even though it's hard
buoyant pier
ill push with you
twin lake
buoyant pier
twin lake
Long
Fuckin
Day
twin lake
buoyant pier
im so sorry you had to go through that, you don’t deserve to be treated like that, not even a second of it im here whenever you need me fren, always.
i hope you’re feeling at least a little better
buoyant pier
thats good, im glad ur a little betterrelax my fren, and breathe, things are going to be alright.
people can, and honestly they do. Fucking pricks, you never deserve to experience that stuff
twin lake
buoyant pier
twin lake
Fuck I feel like shit
teal cloak
Fuck I feel like shit
Wanna talk?
twin lake
Idk
I'm just having a lot of thoughts and a lot of shit is going on
teal cloak
Idk
I'm just having a lot of thoughts and a lot of shit is going on
Let it all out man
Im here to listen
twin lake
Constantly wanna cut
I'm extremely depressed atm
I'm uncomfortable all the time
I'm tired all the time
I feel like barely no one cares
I'm having a horrible time mentally with overthinking about my relationship
I worry constantly that I'm not enough
I feel like I just wanna disappear cus no one would notice
I can't even tell if my boyfriend feels bad about me or not
Idk
I don't know anything rn
I feel so fucking horrible
Can't sleep
I have work in the morning
I don't wanna fucking go
I'm missing his birthday
Part of me feels like I'm fucking up my friendships
I feel like people can't stand me and I'm annoying
I feel like that with my boyfriend. Idk why. He doesn't do anything to show he feels like that
I just overthink probably
But I just can't fucking tell
teal cloak
Hm
This is all reasonable
I feel you
You just have to take some deep breaths at the moment okay?
Just take a few
You need to ground yourself
Truly look at this
I think your boyfriend truly loves and cares for you
And i know for a fact that you aren’t annoying
Many people would miss you
twin lake
I just feel so irrelevant
twin lake
teal cloak
I hope you feel better soon friend
Dm me if you need to talk or just need someone to listen
Or even a distraction
The last thing i want is for you to relapse
buoyant pier
Constantly wanna cut
I'm extremely depressed atm
I'm uncomfortable all the time ...
Logan, hey. My fren. I can tell you’re carrying too much right now..and I just want you to know youre not annoying to me at all. I really, really do care about you, id notice more then you think if you suddenly disappeared.
Logan, from the depths of my heart, my soul and spirit, you matter to me. Even if your brain tells you otherwise.
And hey, no dont do anything i swear to protect you, i promised.
We promised together.
Id rather you stay safe then anything else, so please, stay safe for me..
For now fren lets just slow things down together a little okay?
Ik boden already helped u out..but still just breathe with me, slow and deeply. In for 4, hold it for 4, place a hand on your chest gently and let it out slowly and gently for 6. And distract your mind a bit, whatever helps i dont want u to feel like ur alone during this, because youre not.
And im damn certain Jay loves you, cares about you, and understands.
just take it easy okay? and stay safe. Thats all i ask of you, nothing more i love you fren/p
im always here for you. No matter what goes on with you, no matter what state either me or you are in, no matter what may come next.
Im your friend and i promise to help and support you and carry u through ur burdens. cus u deserve it, all of it.
And im here Logan, im always here, holding space for u, and caring for you every little second of my life.
Youre going to be okay Logan, im here
-# bwah sorey for the huge block of text
twin lake
buoyant pier
you’re important to me. Just as much as my own boyfriend.
you dont have to go through this alone my fren, i love you so much fren/p
truly, and genuinely
i aint goin anywhere
None of your friends are. Especially not me, or Boden, or anyone of that matter.
You’re invaluablei want you here
bwahhhh ALSO TELL JAY I SAID HAPPY BIRTHDAY :3 he might be getting a gift sooner or later
twin lake
Thank you Johnny
buoyant pier
no need to thank me my fren, its my purpose in life to bring people happiness, to help make their lives even just a little better
you’re amazing
And especially yours.
teal cloak
Sorry i wasn’t responding
I got muted..
Tell jay i say happy birthday
You two are perfect for eachother
buoyant pier
twin lake
buoyant pier
<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:10858398...
just wanted to check in on you fren, cus im going to start making a lil something for your bf’s birthday
twin lake
just wanted to check in on you fren, cus im going to start making a lil somethin...
I'm ok. Mom's being more than annoying today but I'm actually ok
And I'm excited :3
buoyant pier
thats good im so glad youre okay Logan
buoyant pier
And I'm excited :3
:3
twin lake
buoyant pier
twin lake
You doing alright today Johnny?
buoyant pier
i am, things are getting better
twin lake
That's amazing to hear
buoyant pier
twin lake
twin lake
I don't doubt it Johnny
I always believe in you
buoyant pier
Forgot to show u this, thought itd be interesting
its like this almost every day
i hope you have a wonderful day my fren, and Jay a pleasant birthday
twin lake
THERE AINT NO REST FOR THE WICKED
MONEY DONT GROW ON TREES
I GOT BILL TO PAY I GOT A MOUTH TO FEED
AND AINT NOTHING IN THIS WORLD FOR FREE
NO I CANT SLOW DOWN, I CANT GO BACK EVEN THOUGH I WISH I COULD
NO THERE AINT NO REST FOR THE WICKED
UNTIL WE CLOSE OUR EYES FOR GOOD
twin lake
I'm gonna break sometime I swear to God
buoyant pier
Logan hey take a breath with me. i know it feels like u might break, and its okay to feel that way. youre not alone fren, im right here with u
just breathe slowly and slow down a lil, you matter so much to me fren. and ill help u get through this, through anything. nothing youre feeling makes you any less important or loved <3/p
teal cloak
I'm gonna break sometime I swear to God
I hear you, man. I know things feel heavy right now and it sounds like you’re carrying a lot. Just know you don’t have to go through it alone — I’m here for you no matter what, whether you need to vent, sit in silence, or just distract yourself. You mean a lot to me, and even if you feel like you’re breaking, I’ll help hold you together. Please don’t give up on yourself — you’re stronger than you realize, and you’ve got people who care about you.
With love- boden /p ❤️ 
Same goes with johnny
Hes here for you
We both are here for you man
buoyant pier
both of us are here for you Logan, fullyyoure amazing fren, just take things slow right now, thats all i ask, because you dont have to carry all this by yourself, and you dont have to fix anything right now. just rest, and breathe slowly, wrap up in a blanket and relax. we all can get through this together
teal cloak
Exactly
twin lake
I just wanna break something in half right now
I'm so fucking pissed off and I'm so fucking done.
I'm trying to calm down but my mom is just being a fucking bitch. It's like everytime I fix something or I finally start to feel better something else just had to fucking happen
buoyant pier
teal cloak
Logan, I feel you bro. It’s like the second you start to feel some peace, life just throws another punch. It’s not fair and it’s not on you to keep fixing everything all the time. You’ve already been carrying so much, and I’m proud of you for still standing. I’m here, man if you need to let it out, rage, cry, whatever, I got you. You’re not alone in this, even if it feels like it.
buoyant pier
i hear you logan, i really do. that sounds so frustrating and it makes sense youre feeling so angryits okay to feel that way, no blame. were here for you, and we can try to get through this moment together fren. just take a deep breath with me, slow and steady. in for 4, hold 4, and out for 6, gently and slowlyfind something safe to grip hard, punch your bed or a pilow, something tog et the energy out without hurting yourself Logan. youre not alone, were holding space for u fren, and we care so much about you, no matter what may happen. youre a priority <3/p
twin lake
I've been crying the last few days. Since Thursday. Letting it out. Feeling better. Then shit happens. Cry. Feel better. Shit happens. Over and over and over and over and over again. Fucking constantly
I can't feel better for now then twelve hours before some BULLSHIT happens
buoyant pier
logan i hear you. its exhausting, and it makes sense you feel like this. its okay to cry, its okay to feel all of it were here for you Logan, youre not alone in this. just focus on winding down a little, please. just breathe gently and slowly. youre safe, and youre cared for, well get through this together, i promise. me and boden, and you
teal cloak
Logan, I get it — it feels like you can’t catch a break, like every time you finally breathe, life just throws you back under. But I want you to know those moments of crying, letting it out, and feeling even a little better do matter. They show you’re still fighting and still alive, even if it feels like a cycle. It’s not weakness, it’s proof you keep getting back up. I’m here with you through every ‘over and over’ — you don’t gotta go through this shit alone. I truly see how this is so damn frustrating for you and understand. You dont deserve that shit man. You are probably one of the people who deserve it the least. But me and johnny, we are here for you man. We aint gonna just leave you here to deal with all of this alone. Because we care about you man. Always will.
buoyant pier
youre never alone fren, never ever, were not going anywhere
buoyant pier
right here in this moment, youre safe logan huggies
twin lake
teal cloak
buoyant pier
youre wellbeing is a priority to me, ill always help push away whatever is pulling you down, both of us will. you matter, more then you could ever imagine. Me and boden are here for you, forever and always Loganunconditionally, and indefinetly, youre not alone
teal cloak
You have shown me and johnny love and kindness at our darkest hours. We will do the same for you friend. Thats what friends do like john said, your wellbeing is a priority to us ❤️
buoyant pier
youre amazing Logan, more of a best friend than anyone has been to me. and i, we'll continue being your friends, supporting you and holding you through both your lows and your highs. my heart never wavers
teal cloak
I honestly have nothing more to add, john took the words outta my mind
He put them perfectly
We will be here for you, through thick or thin, mud or blood, everything man
Shit me and john would walk with you though hell and back
twin lake
Thank you two
I appreciate the words and help. I would normally talk to my boyfriend but when I'm so irritated he's scares easily so I try not to doo don't scare him.
buoyant pier
teal cloak
buoyant pier
always here for you, no matter what happens. always here for you to let out your feelings, ill carry them, ill carry your burdens were both here, arms open, whenever, however, and with whatever. Love you fren, so much /p
twin lake
buoyant pier
teal cloak
We love ya more than you can imagine man, i truly see you as a brother over screen. So whenever you are struggling man me and john are gonna try our damndest to help you out. No matter what
buoyant pier
teal cloak
buoyant pier
and beyond
teal cloak
Indeed
twin lake
Bro why does PSA SUCK for grading TCG cards
PSA is so ass
twin lake
If I woke up in the morning as you and saw myself in the mirror I think I'd hate me too🔥🗣️
When the beat drop go stupid
This another level final boss type music
Only met a few In a feud I can duel with
And if you ain't you, but you fueling the movement
Eight bars double looped just do it
Got em wound up til they wound up wounded
Now they loud huh, 'till they wound up muted
You let a rap god spit wound up drooling
Wait a minute
All the birds tweet 'till they get clay pigeoned
Go against me, that's some real atheism
I was made in God's image so I give the same given
Oh lord, I can feel the snake in 'em
And we both human, but it ain't the same is it?
You are my sons, so that make it so different
My parental right is to whip 'em, get it
Copy copy, rock 'em to the body
Pull the plug and prop 'em in the lobby
Ain't a God, but ain't a god can stop me
Probability of death is obvious
But I don't give a fuck
We all have to die someday, so what?
Me I'm gonna die on my own two feet
I'll be ten toes down when you're ten toes up
Woah woah, flow so smooth, it's butter
Thor right here, I'm lord of the thumpers
808 hit a fourth door like thunder
808 make a bitch pause, buffer
Adam on the mic, but it ain't no jumper
Told the frog leap, but there ain't no jumpers
You got a bad bitch, well my dame go dumber
She came from my rib so it ain't no wonder
Came from my ribs so the chick got sauce
Balls so big couldn't fit in my drawers
Why you think I walk with a Four Leaf Clover
It's all luck if you get to see what I've got
No forgiving you, for forbidden fruit
Try to run in my home, four four to your roof
We can war in the streets, we can war in the booth
But I'm keen to your schemes, endure and improve
And don't give a single fuck about awards, or the ruse
Or the rules, or the jewels, I just war for the crew
Cause there ain't another human that can do what I do
I done brought it from the genesis to moving ITunes
You in my arc every single hit a typhoon
And in my arc every single minute high noon
Wanna leave when the bell ring you in my school trick
Better sit on that stool bitch
Bars
Wait, wait, wait
Put me on prime time
I'mma clutch it, I'm not with the hive mind
I'm who does it, I'm first in the byline
Number one and I'm doing a sky dive
On who doesn't respect, you run for the check
But you running from me when I run in to check
You run without looking, there's nothing to check
'Cause a run in with me is a run in with death
I'll run in your scene and then dump on the set
'Cause when Adam gets even, no atom is left
And when Adam gets Eve, then we adding the rest
'Cause if Adam gets beaten, you battling them
twin lake
Some days I feel like I'm enough
Some days I feel like I'm not and that I don't give him what he needs
Some days I feel like he's gonna get tired of me
Bored
Not be excited to talk
Not wanna be around me as much
buoyant pier
Not wanna be around me as much
I hear you logan, i hear you. I get how scary it feels, but logan, those thoughts arent the truth. No matter how convincing they may seem you give so much, care and love so much, and the people you love aren’t going to get tired of you fren. The fact you even worry about this shows just how deeply you care, and that my fren is exactly why youre more then enough <3 /p
twin lake
buoyant pier
twin lake
Finna change my name here to "gay dating advice"
Istg😭
I give way too much gay dating advice here to first timers
twin lake
Follow up doctors visit
Checking my blood pressure again
If it's gone down then I don't have it
If it's the same I do
Hooray
buoyant pier
twin lake
<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:10858398...
Blood pressure has gone down
twin lake
God I'm so happy
I've had so many family members pass from blood pressure issues
I was so concerned
buoyant pier
It means that fate is not for you my fren, youre safeim so fucking happy
and im sorry for your losses, i bless them <3/p
Im proud of you for holding on
Even if its just barely
You’re still here
all i could ever want is you to still be hereyou’re important, and so admired
luv u fren/p
twin lake
I ALSO LOST WEIGHT
LETS FUCKING GO
270 down from 290
I've lost 50 pounds since December of last year
buoyant pier
gwahhhhh im so proud about today.
So much greatness, it makes me happy seeing you happy fren
twin lake
I'm a sucker for you
Say the word and I'll go anywhere blindly
I'm a sucker for you, yeah
Any road you take, you know that you'll find me
I'm a sucker for all the subliminal things
No one knows about you (About you), about you (About you)
And you're makin' the typical me break my typical rules
It's true, I'm a sucker for you
🗣️🔥
Relatable ass lyrics
twin lake
Im starting construction of the gay council server
I need a server profile
buoyant pier
Im starting construction of the gay council server
I need a server profile
I have options
twin lake
Bro
"That's so much butter and that's so much oil"
Bitch
Can you cook or do you just meal prep?
Like Jesus Christ. "Omg your using oil to fry eggs". No shit dumb ass. I let the oil drip off from the eggs too moron. The butter and oil adds like 10 calories total and it's way better than a fuck ton of carbs for breakfast
twin lake
Fuck what's wrong with me
buoyant pier
Fuck what's wrong with me
im here fren, im not going anywhere
there’s nothing wrong with you. Youre human, a person, and your feelings are valid
youre not broken or weak, not a burden or messed up
you’re safe
youre not alone in this Logan
stay safe for me okay Logan?
Im here always
<3/p
buoyant pier
good. i trust your words fren
tired raven
Fuck what's wrong with me
im sorry baby
twin lake
im sorry baby
Its ok
I love you so much
tired raven
Its ok
I love you so much
i love you so much too
twin lake
Fuck life scares me
buoyant pier
Fuck life scares me
sowy for the delay i was workin
i managed to get off early
super early actually
twin lake
It's Oki
twin lake
My baby boy just got off from his first class and he was so caught off guard that when the professor ran out of stuff to talk about he dismissed class even though it was an hour early
He's not used to it lmfao
But he also took the wrong bus and had a bit of a scare but all's good
And I hope you're good too Johnny
buoyant pier
i wish him well
im doing good aswell
A little worried but good
bf has been pretty sick and has been waiting to tell me until now. And im concerned
twin lake
Huggies
twin lake
Genuinely feel like I may have auditory hallucinations
Istg I keep hearing shit and there's nothing there
I keep hearing my name or like distant beeping
Or breathing that isn't mine
twin lake
Tomorrow is one of the few days I'm home alone and it's the only day that my boyfriend is gone until 10 at night
buoyant pier
Tomorrow is one of the few days I'm home alone and it's the only day that my boy...
youre not alone fren, never alone. Even if people arent around
<3/p
twin lake
Honestly today went pretty ok. Even though I was stressed it wasn't bad
twin lake
Honestly I can't believe how attached I am to my boyfriend
He leaves for a few hours and I miss him really bad. I'm not like in mental pain or anything but I do miss him so bad
twin lake
I wish people didn't get so precious about what hotdogs and sausages are made of
The whole "cow lip and ass* thing is really annoying
Making hotdogs and sausages actively reduce waste and allow us to really use the whole animal for food
Especially with hotdogs that use natural casings
Natural casings tend to be some kind of intestine like pig or sheep
Normally those don't get used or could go to waste but hotdogs and sausages allow us to use those and respect the animal more
We kill animals for food and survival
So what we should do in return is make sure the whole animal is used
Make sure nothing goes to waste
And that's what hotdogs help do
twin lake
Fuck my hand hurts so fucking bad now
buoyant pier
please take care if it fren, i know things are so overwhelming and hard to handle all at once..you dont have to hold it all by yourself Logan, im hereplease, try not to hit anything hard that might hurt you, a pillow or your bed works
I just don’t want you getting hurtyoure not alone in this my fren
i wish, i wish things get easier and smoother for you <3/p even if its just a little
youre never alone
plsase do take care of your hand, youre too important to me fren
im not upset or anything
twin lake
buoyant pier
twin lake
Sorry Johnny
buoyant pier
no no, Logan, its okayi know sometimes you just have to get the stress and frustration out however you can, im not upset.
all i care about right now is that you heal up, you matter so muchplease dont be sorry, youve done nothing wrong
Love u fren/p
buoyant pier
i know it hasand thats okay, its okay to be frustrated and stressed so much. Its your right, and your feelings are valid
Just try to take a moment to drop your shoulders and breathe, slowly and deeply, carefully. And let your body slack, your going to be okay fren maybe drink sum water too, and a little bit of rest <3/p
but no pressure fren, i just care about you so much
twin lake
Thank you Johnny
I'm probably gonna grab something to eat
buoyant pier
thats good go eat something fren, im here for you always, always and forever
twin lake
Time to sleep with my boyfriend
I love him so much. He's one of the few things in this world that brighten my day and genuinely make me beyond happy
Idk where I'd be without him
3 years ago I asked him out
And every since he's been the love of my life and the best thing to ever happen to me
He's sacrificed a lot for me
More than I could've ever asked
Hell he stopped being poly for me because I get jealous and insecure
He's been devoted to me ever since
Shown me love and affection when I needed it
And when I didn't lmfao
And when I didn't deserve it
He thinks he isn't good enough for me
But he is
I don't deserve him
I don't deserve this beautiful boy
Even right now I hear him snoring and talking in his sleep
He's saying my name in his sleep
Saying "hubby" in his sleep
He's amazing
Is he a little weird and corky sometimes
Absolutely
Does he have his own problems
Yes everyone does
But I see through everything to see the beautiful person he is
Through all of his self hatred
There's a guy who's precious
Truly one of a kind
I'd be lost without him
So incredibly lost
But I have him. Even though I miss him when he's away. The second he gets home he calls me
The second he's gets home he calls and says he missed me
I couldn't be myself without his love
I wouldn't trade him for anything.
Nothing
Even in the worst case scenario
A million dollars
A billion dollars
The world itself
All the money I could possibly have
If I was on my death bed and I could break up with him to extend my life
I wouldn't do it
Because I'll at least die happy knowing he's here with me at my end
Now I sleep
To the sounds of my beautiful boy snoring away
Sleeping soundly and comfortably
I sleep with him
I promise I'll marry you one day Jay
I'll do anything for you
twin lake
Definitely gonna need glasses
Picking up my new ones in two weeks
My eyes are lowk ok but also I'm nearsighted asf
Not as bad as my brother tho
Bros left eye is good awful
teal cloak
I also have glasses and people say I'm harry Potter, bibidy boo 
teal cloak
teal cloak
Bro I accidentally posted this here sorry @twin lake
I was still buzzed from the surgery
Thats my bad
I thought ur journal was mine
(Its right above mine)
twin lake
Bro I accidentally posted this here sorry <@744897081130614925>
Nah da
You good dawg
amber sundial
Sorry for your loss
buoyant pier
buoyant pier
Im sorry i couldnt talk more earlier i was busy wit work
i know things are really hard right now…how much u care for those kittens…im so sorry..im here Logan, always hereits okay to feel this way, youre not broken, nor a burden or weak or anything. Youre just hurting, and thats okay <33/p
just fren, please try to stay safe for me okay? Im with you till the end, i vow.
No pressure to respond <3/p
twin lake
I know I probably shouldn't wish death on others
But if your beliefs ACTIVELY HURT OTHER PEOPLE
You deserve nothing less
Good fucking riddance
The world is better without you
I keep seeing people online say that no one deserves that
But that's nothing but lies
There's always gonna be people who deserve it
always
And you either stick by your no one does or you don't
Because by that logic the moustache man didn't either
He was a husband and a father. I am sorry for them. But his beliefs hurt others. Actively promoted it
And he didn't care
Cared more about guns then he did children getting hurt
"gun violence is the price to pay to keep the second amendment"
Like stfu
He deserved it
twin lake
I keep seeing people online say that no one deserves that
Specifically people on Twitter
Like bro
You wish death on gay people all the fuckin time
Don't care about children drying in school
But the second he dies all of a sudden it's "no one deserves to die"?
Where's that logic with the gun violence
Its called an amendment
It can and should be changed
Or at least be enforced
And that's from someone who loves guns
But God forbid you actually care about the children
FUCK he's one of the people who deserved the worst done on to him
twin lake
Homophobia in chat
In life
Children dying
People dying
People encouraging extinction
Of minorities
Rest in piss
God I wish the US would improve
FUCK I wish world would improve
But people like him and those disgusting bitches I just times out exist
And the world will never been good with them in it
buoyant pier
twin lake
To this day
RIP Mac Miller
Juice WRLD
Lil Peep
Pop Smoke
Gangsta boom
Nipsey
And fuckin so many other MCs
Too many to name
XXXTENTACION
He tried to turn everything around when he died
With all the death going around the last few years there's so many people. Rest in peace all those who've died in school shootings recently
Rest in peace actors who left lasting impressions on everyone
James Earl Jones
We miss you
Rest in peace Robbin Williams
Another soul we lost to suicide
I don't know a single person who hated him
Rest in peace to my aunt's and my family members and friends who I've lost
People die too soon all the time
People who struggle with mental health who abuse drugs and other forms of coping
There's people who never deserved to die
There's people who did deserve it.
Rest in peace to those who didn't deserve it
I wish the best for the families of those who did deserve it.
There'll always be death and there'll always be those who do and don't deserve it. Its a fact of life.
People who say "no one deserves it" lie
I wish death on anyone who goes out of their way to hate others for their sexuality, skin tone, gender, religion and discriminate in general. People who hurt others. Who don't take into consideration the feeling and emotions of others
People who hate and don't love deserve it
But I won't wish death apon anyone until they've proven they deserve it
I fucking hated Kirk. One of the people I've hated the most. He cared more about guns then he did children
His family don't deserve to lose their husband and father
I hate a lot of people
I have a lot of hate in my heart
That's clear
That'll always be true
Because I hate everyone who hurts or doesn't care about others. Or people who prioritize themselves over others
I won't cause pain onto others until they push me too fsr
Idgaf about gender or anything. If you hurt others. FUCK you.
And if you hurt my family or friends I will hurt you worse
End of story
Lay a fucking hand on boyfriend and you won't live to see Tomorrow
Idgaf who you are
If you hurt my boyfriend you deserve everything that happens to you
I will care for people. Give my own life for others. Go out of my way to make others happy. I care the world for my friends and family
I do care for others
I have compassion
I would call myself a good person
I'm kind and I'll always do anything to help others
I'll lay there for hours ontop of hours just listening to your problems if you need that
If my friends needed an organ I'd do without hesitation
Especially if it's one that won't kill me to give
Fucking take that shit
People have treated me wrong throughout my entire life
And always will
All because of who I am
Still to this day people wanna take away my right to marry
But I've remained a good person who will go out of my own way to save a stranger
I'd jump infront a truck to save someone
But that doesn't mean I don't think others deserve death
That doesn't mean I'm not petty or have hate in my soul
I'd give my kidney to a homophobe just so they have to live knowing a gay guy saved them
I've talked to every different kind of person
I respect your religions
I respect your beliefs
until they start to hurt others
Don't like gay people cus of your religion?
Fine
But the second you verbally or physically abuse someone because they're queer, proves you deserve no respect and only death
If you can't take the well being of others into mind when you do shit I shouldn't take your wellbeing into mind when I wish the worst on you
I fucking love guns
But the second people say "gun violence is a necessary thing to keep th second amendment" cough Kirk cough you make me want th second amendment removed
You don't care that KIDS ARE DYING IN SCHOOL?
Tf out my face
I understand if you don't want people to die
But these people actively hurt others by existing.
Parents send their kids to school scared they won't see them that night
And you think that's fine??
Idgaf if people say "people shouldn't die for their beliefs"
Yes they should if it actively causes harm on others
If your beliefs harm others you deserve nothing less
And maybe that means I do too
If it does so fucking be it
If that means I deserve death then I deserve death
That what you wanna hear?
Fine
I deserve to die too
I'd rather die knowing I'm right then die being fake by saying "no one deserves death and everyone deserves to live"
Mf no they don't
I don't even believe in heaven or hell but Kirk is in hell
Along with everyone else who deserves death
Would I say this to his families face?
No. Of course not. I'd tell them I'm sorry for your lose. I'm sorry for all the grief it's caused on you.
Because I am sorry for them
They don't deserve the grief
But who knows
Maybe if people like him didn't exist he wouldn't even be dead rn. How ironic that the guy who doesn't care if people die from gun violence to protect the second amendment died from gun violence
Its poetic as fuck
All I care about in life is how precious others are. How happy others are. My purpose in life is to make others happy and be kind to those who deserve it.
But that doesn't mean I can't wish death on people who hurt others
Who lack compassion
FUCK your goddamn "I have their family in my prayer" your fucking "my prayers go out to their family"
FUCK your prayers. Maybe fix the fucking problem instead of sitting there and saying "I'm sorry for your lose you're in my prayer"
Prayers don't do shit
Fix the fucking problem
Prayers don't do Jack shit
Prayers don't stop people fucking dying
Do something
Don't pray to clear your own conscience
You aren't doing shit about it
"I have the family of those kids who died in school in my prayers"
Shut
The
Fuck
Up
We shouldn't even live in the same world where kids die in school
Where people die because of their gender
Or sexuality
Or skin tone
Or religion
End of story
But when people like you mother fucker exist who don't do anything and just "pray"
You actively don't do anything to fix the problem
Shut the fuck up about the praying and so something productive
Yes I'm pissed off
Yes I fucking hate people like that
I'm beyond pissed off
Like bro you're gonna tell me rn that you don't care to do anything that helps
You're just gonna sit there
Fold your hands
And pray to sky daddy
FUCK off
Not doing anything to fix the problem
Like fuck man
To summarize this rant
I'll help anyone and care for anyone as long as you don't hurt others
FUCK you and I hope you die if you hurt others
And if you sitting there praying for others instead of trying to fix the problem fuck off
You can tell people who say "no one deserves death" has never been on the receiving end of people who hate you so much they want you dead or threaten to kill you
Or been on the receiving end of losing someone
At the hands of someone else
You can disagree all you want
Block me if you want
My stance will never change. People who hurt others or spread ideas that hurt others deserve death
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He's so beautiful
The love of my life
He's so perfect
In every way I could possibly imagine
I love him
I love him so much
twin lake
Some people piss me the actual fuck off
teal cloak
Some people piss me the actual fuck off
Greatly agreed
twin lake
I love scream Rap
"if you aren't living like you're dying you aren't living you're surviving"
Max volume
Always
Blasting
I love distorted bass
twin lake
The Handmaid's Tale is looking strikingly familiar nowadays
A very well made story
With a very specific message
One to be weary of
It is a great story though
Genuinely very well written
I'm glad I have to both read and watch the Hulu adaptation
I also recommend it heavily
The book and the Hulu adaptation is genuinely amazing
So many good stories with such amazing messages
twin lake
Fucking random ass age verification law is gonna go into effect in my state at the end of the month
God it's so stupid
twin lake
Fuck I feel like shit
twin lake
Im winding up in a dark place again
Things feel dark
And lonely
Feels like I'll never be happy
I wish my boyfriend was home
I need him :((
And I miss him
He won't be home for like six more hours
I feel self-conscious
I feel depressed
I feel lonely
I feel upset
Like I wanna cry
Feels like the world is collapsing in on me
Fuck I hate my body
Its so fucking disgusting
I not eating anymore today
I just can't
I feel so fucking gross
What the fuck is wrong with me
And my body
Such a fucking disappointment
I won't live up to anything
My boyfriend will be disappointed
I'll never be what he wanted
I feel so disgusting and gross
So fucking useless
So fucking gross
buoyant pier
Fren
its okay to feel all this, it is
But none of it is true not even a bit
Im here my fren, just a little longer until he comes back
he wont be disappointed
I guarantee.
You’re not a disappointment, not in his or my eyes or anyone elses.
You are what he wants, you, yourself, is core
And no matter what happens that part of you will always be loveable and cherishable
youre not gross either, i can say that with a certain pride
You are a beautiful person
My best fren
Promise to me you will stay safe until he comes back?
No pressure to reply
im here Logan
remember our promise
Even if u feel like ur going into dark times again, i wont leave your side
i will support you
however i can
twin lake
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You dont have to talk alot if u dont feel like it, or at all fren
just know
that neither me
Or him
Will leave you. Not look down on you or think unwell of you
youre still amazing
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<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:10858398...
That rest was well deserved my fren <3/p
Even if just closing your eyes makes it better, thats good, and im so glad
twin lake
Even if just closing your eyes makes it better, thats good, and im so glad<:chu_...
Im sorry if I worried you
I've started going to a really dark place again and I'm trying my best not to
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Logan, my fren
You dont need to apologize <33/p im here for you always, always and forever
And its okay to feel dark sometimes, its okayyoure not alone in this
twin lake
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Just focus on staying safe for now okay? And please don’t hesitate to reach out if things start feeling heavier
huggies
ill always listen fren, you are not a burden.
I care about you so much
twin lake
Just focus on staying safe for now okay? And please don’t hesitate to reach out ...
I promise
buoyant pier
I promise
good, i hold your promise closeim always here if u need to get something off your shoulders fren, always, no matter what it may be
i will always protect and support my friends
always.
twin lake
"Yeah I got a God complex cus being God is complicated I ain't got much rest" 🗣️🔥🗣️
twin lake
Mama ain't raise no quitter
She raised a BITCH
twin lake
Idk how I'd live without him
He genuinely just completes me
He fills that missing part in my soul
Whenever he's gone I have a hole in my soul
I never feel truly fulfilled
Truly happy
Truly myself
But when he's here
Talking
Being with me
I feel whole
I feel complete
Like I'm real
Even if he yaps constantly lmfao
He talks endlessly
But it's honestly adorable
I wouldn't have it any other way
He's perfect
No matter what anyone else says
No matter what he says
He's perfect to me
He's perfect for me
Regardless of his flaws. Everyone has flaws. No one is flawless. But his flaws don't change how perfect he is to me
If I had to go back in time and relive everything
Honestly
I wouldn't do anything different
Every negative thing in my life helped me get to him
My self harm
Depression
Everything
My exes
Without those I wouldn't have met him
So honestly I wouldn't change a damn thing
He's worth the pain
All the negativity
twin lake
I love you baby
twin lake
Honestly i feel a bit better recently cus of music
Not too much better
But I can smile
twin lake
Fuck is wrong with me
Such a fucking idiot
No self control
I never do shit like that
buoyant pier
u oki fren? Its okay if u dont feel like explaining
your comfort and safety is priority
twin lake
Idfk
I just had no self control in general
Now I feel like shit
I never do shit like that
What the fuck is wrong with me
buoyant pier
hey, its okay, sometimes we mess up and thats ok.
nothing wrong with you fren, i can tell u that straightjust breathe, okay? Im here fren
buoyant pier
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i know you dont, and im sorry it went down, you lost control and it doesnt mean its your fault entirely fren. You messed up, i did too, and its okay it is okay. I think its best to just say sorry, you dont have to carry this alone
You are not.a burden, just try to calm down ok? Even a little is good, im not going anywhere
huggies
twin lake
buoyant pier
twin lake
<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>
Just upset. It's my job to stop shit like that and I did not I didn't fast enough
buoyant pier
Just upset. It's my job to stop shit like that and I did not I didn't fast enoug...
and thats okay, truly, it is my fren.
People mess up sometimes, and thats doesn’t mean your broken or messed up, its human and accidental so please dont be so hard on yourself, its okay to feel upset.
Next time you’ll know, and ill be there to support you and remind you to keep track fren
twin lake
Ok
I just need to make sure I keep some self control
buoyant pier
Yes, good my fren you dont have to be perfect, just try, and if you forget or feel like its difficult ill be there to help you. Youre not alone fren
big hugs
twin lake
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be careful fren :3
twin lake
I will be
But I'm fucked 
twin lake
Neverrrrrrr
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good
twin lake
What is that 😭
buoyant pier
the observable universe
twin lake
I AM A UNIVERSAL BEING
twin lake
buoyant pier
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LOGAN
twin lake
YA
buoyant pier
I MEANT TO SAY LOGAN
twin lake
PIGSN
twin lake
IM GONNA GET A NOISE COMPLAINT LMFAO
twin lake
YSS
buoyant pier
hi
twin lake
Hewwo
buoyant pier
LOGEEB
twin lake
LOGEEB
twin lake
LMFAO
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logan have u seen my art of the fruit
twin lake
BRO THIS SONG IS ON FULL BLAST SPEAKERS
twin lake
logan have u seen my art of the fruit
Idk :3
twin lake
WHY DOES THIS LOOK SO FAMILIAR
twin lake
😭 😭
twin lake
WHAT IS IT
I FORGET
buoyant pier
IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE A REFERENCE TO THE ANNOYING ORANGE WHEN PEAR HAD A NIGHTMARE ABOUT ICE CREAM BUT I FUCKED UP AND MADE HIM A STRAWBERRY
twin lake
OHHHHH SHIT
I KNEW JT LOOKS FAMILIAR
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twin lake
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twin lake
NEVER
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ALWAYS
twin lake
IMPOSSIBLE
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IM GAYEST’ER
twin lake
ITS NOT
buoyant pier
IT IS
twin lake
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IT TOTALLY IS
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<a:BearHello:1393716436698005535>
KANYE NOOOOOOOO
buoyant pier
WHOS THAT
twin lake
HATSUNE MIKU
twin lake
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teal cloak
https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/943601449835831389/1062538937383526450/...
Bro 😭
amber sundial
Well damn
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im so happy logan
just knowing how far uve come and how far u’ll go just makes me so fucking proud
youre amazing fren, truly
4 whole years
twin lake
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im here for u and with u always, until youre 5 years clean, a decade and a thousands of millennia
im proud of u
Genuinely so damn proud
Great job
youre stronger than you think
twin lake
I couldn't do it without you, my friends and my boyfriend. All of y'all keep me going
buoyant pier
you dont ever have to stop going fren, not anymore, were staying for the long run
ur stuck with us >:3 we’ll continue being beside you, endlessly because you deserve it and nothing less. It just makes me smile so much knowing you’re safe my fren
best fren
Ur still so awesome <33/p
always
and not even if i was offered the world or NATIONAL protection could make me think otherwise.
Your such a wonderful and strong person its honestly baffling to me
huggies
Youre the best
best fren forevahhhh
twin lake
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twin lake
My anxiety
I feel my heart rate just exploding
Like I'll never be accepted. The world will never be kind to people like me
I'll never be allowed to be happy with him
No matter how hard I try
How much we love each other
It doesn't matter
The world hates us
That's all it'll ever do
I just want to cry
The fact there's people
WHO WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE
What's it's like to fear that the person you love could be killed just for loving you
That the world sees you as less then human
That the love I feel for him will never be treated like real love
I'll only ever be viewed as a fucking freak
And I'll forever live in constant fear that me loving someone could get them killed
Or hurt
Or lose people
I'll always feel like I'm not enough. Because why the fuck should he be with me when he could just be with a girl and accepted by the world
He could just be with a girl
Be happy with her
And never be scared of someone hurting him because he's with me
He's the best thing in my life
I love him
I love him so fucking much
More then I could describe through a screen
What I'd give to just let people know in their heart what it feels like to never feel safe all because you love someone
I'm a good person
I only want to help people
I only want people to be happy
I'll always help someone in need
But why does that mean nothing
Why does every good action I do mean NOTHING because love him..
I'm bawling my eyes out right now
He doesn't know
He shouldn't
I shouldn't worry him
I can't
I feel my eyes burinf
I feel my head pounding
I feel completely destroyed
Fuck who I am
I wanna be proud of who I am
Proud to be gay
buoyant pier
twin lake
I just wanna be accepted
I wanna not be here
Crying my eyes out
To the point where my eyes are red and burning
All because I'm not allowed to love someoen
All because I can't look at this guy and see my future with him
See myself with his last name
See us together
All because I love him
I suffer
And no one will ever understand
No one who's straight will ever feel my pain
My fear
My constant mental decline
They'll never understand
I just want them to understand
Even my own friends who I love to death.
They'll never understand how I feel
They'll never fucking know
They'll say "I'm sorry"
"you don't deserve this"
"We accept you"
But the world never fucking will
And you can say you're sorry all you want but it'll never change that I'm hated for love
Because someone who's straight will never be able to understand what it's like to sit here and cry for hours because you're scared that just being with someone is dangerous
And people are gonna see this
Look at it
Some will think I'm overreacting
Some won't know what to say
Some won't care
People are gonna look at what I'm saying and never acknowledge jt
Because it doesn't effect them
"I'm not gay so Its not my problem"
Its all i ever hear
buoyant pier
hey
my fren, logan. Its okay it is going to be okay. I know it well.
Please take a moment to just breathe, and rest your mind, even for a momentyoure not alone, logan, not ever alone in this.
Its okay to feel this way, its truly okay, youre not broken, youre hurtim here okay?
I am sorry, for u and the world. Im aware it wont fix things, but because im going to support you always, because youre my fren and u matter so unbelievably fucking much to me.
This worlds pure unbridled shit and hell, i understand that much but please dont take it on yourself too hard. Youre not overreacting, youre so stressed, anxious, and not okay. And thats okay <3/p
logan
i promise you your future with jay isnt completely wrapped with fear and dread.
Im here, just breathe with me for a moment, in for 4, hold for 3, and out for 6, slowly and gently. Close yours eyes and drop your shoulders, sit or lay down on something soft and comfortable and warm. Water and dim lights.
Its going to be okay. You dont have to be alone in this, you are not a burden for feeling this way.
Not even the slightest.
Right now, in this moment, saying all this just shows how deep you love him, and how strongly you fight for your relationship. And that shows how resilient and protective you are, and that’s irreplaceable, thats something most people dont dare act upon.
Youre special, jay too. You both are.
And your guys’s love? Is your love. Not anyone elses. And if they think wrongly of it? Fuck them to oblivion, scumbags.
And that one fear..i dont have a clear answer for it, but i do know thats very unlikely to happen
its okay cry, my fren, you love him so much, and he loves u so much.
im glad youre here, he is too, im fact ALOT of people are. And accept you, not just because youre a kind and loving person, but because youre you.
The person behind the screen with his whole life and feelings. thats the part we love most/p
twin lake
buoyant pier
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Things will change Logan. They will
Right now in this moment, its okay to be scared and to cry so hard youre here, im here, hes here
big warm huggies
I love u fren, so much/p
just rest, and soothe yourself down however you feel like it, even just a little is good <33/p
youre feelings matter so much, so damn much more then those of the people who put u down for being who you are and for loving another man.
you, right here, you, logan. Are the single most best thing to ever come upon this planet/p
i promise you its going to be okay
Promise to me youll stay safe my fren?
twin lake
I promise Johnny
buoyant pier
good, Logan youre the best yknow that? Even through your hardships..you still make things brighter always, youre invaluable, and nothing could ever tear you away from Jay, or me, or boden miso or any of the others who love you so dearly much/p
twin lake
I love you man /p
Some days it feels so hopeless. Especially with all the crying. My head is pounding and my eyes burn but you help so much
buoyant pier
i love u too man /p
im so happy to know what i do helps you
Those hopeless days, the crying, the pounding and eyes burning..thats your love bursting out of your heart, showing just how much you love Jay, and us all, and thats beautiful
<3/p but please do take care of that, im worried you might get hurt im still here fren, always so
big huggies
No pressure to respond to that fren, just know youre loved endlessly no matter what/p 
bestest fren
twin lake
I promise I'll be ok
twin lake
I slept for hours
twin lake
Hello, it's me, I'm the voices in your head
You said you wouldn't, but you're listening again
You try to run, try to hide, but you know it wouldn't last
I think we should be friends
Hello, it's me, I'm the voices in your head
You shut me out, but you're listening again
You try to run, try to hide, but I keep on coming back
I think we should be friends
twin lake
Hello, it's me, I'm the voices in your head
You said you wouldn't, but you're li...
Vent lyrics
Do you see?
Everything you wanna see?
Is it everything you even need?
Is it everything you wanna be?
Wanna be?
I don't even know who I am anymore
I'm looking in the mirror
I don't even know who I am anymore
I'm trying to see it clearer
All alone
No way of getting home
Is the where I belong
Maybe I don't even wanna
See what I've become
Do you wanna know what you want?
The kid that we knew
Yeah, he's gone
And they say we’ll never go back
I gotta go back
I don't even know who I am anymore
I'm looking in the mirror
I don't even know who I am anymore
I'm trying to see it clearer
I don’t even know who I am anymore
I'm looking in the mirror
I don't even know who I am anymore
I'm trying to see it clearer
Have I become the same as you?
More vent lyrics
twin lake
No Christmas this year
Cant afford it
Mom needs surgery
Only gonna be living with 3/4 of outs income
buoyant pier
twin lake
I hate how much i relate to Before You Go by Lewis Capaldi
Man I want my OC drawn like Dabi
I feel like that could be fucking sick
Man I fucking love Dabi
twin lake
I can't believe how far we've been in our relationship
Some days It just feels so regular
But then I wake up like this some days and I'm just trying to process how we've been together for so long.
I never thought we would tbh.
At the start I thought "oh he's poly. I could try it out and see and maybe have fun and stuff but it probably won't last"
But then it did. He gave up being poly. And now we're here
I'm not complaining at all
I love him to death and I'd do anything for him
Its just crazy to me how this relationship that I expected to end fairly quick is now my longest and most caring relationship to date
twin lake
A wall made of roses is a wall made of thorns.
All seems beautiful and fun. And then when you least expect it those beautiful roses you knew stab you as you try to stay with them
twin lake
Siting in the rain with music
Singing in the rain
Maybe some drinks
God I love cold rainy nights
Rock hits hard on a cold, dark rainy day
twin lake
Its down pouring here 😭
buoyant pier
ergg..lucky
twin lake
I love the rain
buoyant pier
Massive real
buoyant pier
Rock hits hard on a cold, dark rainy day
ik its not rock but but try listening to this https://open.spotify.com/track/5MfaIo9rwm7Hg1of3nUt2y?si=VcBuCNKPQL6ReHykVsFa6Q
for me its, really, fitting
Htf did rock translate to rocket science
twin lake
Bet
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:33
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Rocket league is in my auto correct 😭
twin lake
HOW 💔
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Idfk💔
twin lake
Its sabotaging us
twin lake
I wish it could down pour everyday 💔
buoyant pier
go to brazil..
twin lake
Hell no that place is a tyrinid hive colony 💔💔
buoyant pier
your house would flood and break down if it rained everyday💔💔
twin lake
Forceful lake house
twin lake
Idk
I genuinely don't know if that's the right way to spell it
IM DYSLEXIC AND AUTOCORRECT DOES NOTHING FOR ME 💔💔😭😭
buoyant pier
WE NEED AUTOCORRECT #2 FOR DDISLECIX PEOPLE
buoyant pier
wb in the rain outside like now
twin lake
I do enjoy it
twin lake
Bet lmfao
buoyant pier
https://open.spotify.com/track/5hxrx9IwZcGpuPS9yYiwls?si=vS7VQZU1T8aOIyiWhXxU0w
I would recommend the whole album, but this one hits
Deep and emotionally for me
beautiful music
twin lake
Btw you got into Wesgun I think it was lmfao
twin lake
My fault
Thinking of West side gun lmfoa
buoyant pier
😭😭
twin lake
But yes Wesghost lmfao 😭
Man I've been up for so long my brain is fried
Means drinking
That'll fix it
buoyant pier
sleeeeeeep when u can
twin lake
I will
Promise
But for now it's funsies
buoyant pier
okiiii, i trust ufor now its for fun, just dont overdo it
twin lake
I promise
Can't break those promises
buoyant pier
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:3
something that i actually find funny (no offense to you at all)
But when i reccomend music you seem to forget😭😭not funny in a bad way, idk how to put it but i just smile alot
twin lake
something that i actually find funny (no offense to you at all)
But when i recco...
😭
I forget everything 😭
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😭what about the time with the ouija board
twin lake
Bells are ringing 😭
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DELIVERY BITCH😭/lh
twin lake
😭😭😭
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A 6 PACK AND DOMINOS PIZZA😭😭WHERES MY FUCKIN TIP
twin lake
😭😭😭
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50$ TIP TRAFFIC WAS SHIT I JUST SAW A BUTT NAKED DUDE RUN OVER MY CAR AND IM SCARED😭😭😭MONEY. NOW. SWEAR I JUST SAW FUCKIN BLACK ADAM FLY OVER ME
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twin lake
I love not having gifs not auto play cus this just look like a black box without clicking on it 😭😭😭😭
😭💔
twin lake
It gets harder to understand the less sober you are 💔
twin lake
So er
buoyant pier
So…er
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ozzy osber💔