I wish you a goodnight Logan:333
stay safe and rest easy
#Logan's Journal
twin lake
love you man<3 /p
Love you too dawg/p
twin lake
goog morning goob morning!!:3
Goober morning
I wish you the same :3
buoyant pier
Goober morning
I wish you the same :3
r you doing okay today :3
buoyant pier
thats good to know:3 well i wish everything goes good today, im excited!
twin lake
:3
I hope everything goes well for you too man. Always do :3
twin lake
So bored
twin lake
The amount of time this MF has said "I'll be on" then proceeds to go to a pool party or sum shit without letting me know
twin lake
twin lake
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCKFFUC
FUCK
FUCKF
FUCK
FUCK
GOD FUCK
Cant fuckjng breh.
Cant rhinn
Fuck I'm shaking so fuckin bad
Jesus
Fuck
Fuck
Oh my God fuck
My hands won't stop
Won't stop shaking
I'm gonna have a mental fuckin breakdown Jesus fuckin Christ
buoyant pier
I'm gonna have a mental fuckin breakdown Jesus fuckin Christ
Shit logan whats going on?? Are you okay
twin lake
Shit logan whats going on?? Are you okay
Someone dumped a kitten under a bunch a vines next to our house and I was weed eating back there and accidentally hit it with the weed eater and hurt it. I panicked and got it inside. It's ok but I'm just really fucked rn. I didn't see it because it was under the vines and I had headphones on and the weed eater is gas powered so I couldn't hear it
buoyant pier
oh… man.
Im sorry that happened, its okay right??
twin lake
Yea it's ok
We cleaned it up
buoyant pier
I know you didnt mean to hurt it in any way, it was an accident. Its heartbreaking
But im glad its inside and youre taking care of it. Please dont go too hard on yourself, youre doing your best
twin lake
It's alright
Just fuck
There's blood all over my gloves and it's like at most 2 weeks old
It'll survive. We patched it up
buoyant pier
It's alright
thank god, youre a really good human Logan. More then you know.
If possible you could take it to a vet, its probably in shock. Some injuries dont show up immediately
twin lake
We're trying our best without a vet because we can't afford it
We all have some form of animal health training
buoyant pier
Thats goodi pray that kitten will recover quickly, youre doing really good
twin lake
I nearly completely broke down
I didn't mean to hit it
I couldn't see it or hear it
buoyant pier
its not your fault Logan
you couldnt see it or hear it, you didnt know it was there.
You didnt mean to hit it, thats okay. Just focus on the cats health, they need it really bad. Please dont beat yourself up about it, everything will be alright
buoyant pier
twin lake
teal cloak
For you…
twin lake
A friend of mine got sextorted a while back and he told his parents and instead of helping him they just yelled at him
What the fuck are wrong with parents
If you yell at your son because he was sextorted you failed as a parent
brave birch
Indeed
buoyant pier
Is everything alright Logan?
buoyant pier
Everything feels
Loose
im sorry your feeling this Logan. If it’ll help try to ground yourself with something, sit down and relax somewhere safe, drink some water. Maybe check your temperature.
You dont have to explain everything if you dont want to, just focus on staying safe fren. Im here if you need anythingyoure not alone in this
twin lake
Thank you
I definitely don't feel great. Don't wanna stand up cus my legs don't feel stable. Idk what's going on tbh
My hands are shaky
Very unstable
buoyant pier
Very unstable
That doesnt sound good at all. Im worried and i know things are hard rn but could please try to drink some water or eat something. Something with sugar or salt if possible?
Im really hoping this isn’t something medical.
you could tell someone about this if theyre around you. Like family, friends or just anyone nearby.
you need help rn and i just need to make sure you dont fall or pass out. I care about you so much
i hope you’re going to be okay, im scared for you man
ill be right here for as long as you need
twin lake
buoyant pier
Promise youll be okay, okay?
I hope you dont pass out, not on my watch you wont. If u do, I’ll climb into your conscience and drag your ass back out if i have to /lh /srs
buoyant pier
good, ill keep your word on that
No dying on me Logan! Not allowed. Doctors orders :3
Still here fren, im not going anywhere
twin lake
buoyant pier
feeling any better?
you dont have to answer, just focus on yourself. You matter more
love you man :3 <33 /p
I believe in you logan, i know things will get better sooner than later
i wish you a good recovery, im still here
-# sorry if im being annoying
twin lake
i wish you a good recovery, im still here<:hugs:992823004532842516>
-# sorry if ...
You're not
Promise
buoyant pier
You're not
Promise
thank you.
Im glad to hear back from you. No pressure to talk, just happy youre here still here
twin lake
Tried taking a nap
Didn't work
Took some medicine
Idk. It could be like five different kinds of migraine
My head is pounding, I'm sweating, I. Shaky, tears in .y eyes. Idfk. I'm feel so hot but If I poiint my fan at me my head hurts ten times more
Having chronic migraines is one of the worst things I could've ever been diagnosed with
Almost in tears from how bad it hurts
buoyant pier
God that sound absolutely horrible, im really sorry youre going through this
I hate that you have to go through this, especially alone, i wish i could take that weight off you.
You dont have to talk or do anything right now, im right here, forever.
Im really worried for you, and id be giving it my all to help you if it weren’t for this screen. Ill stay as long as you need.
If you can, put a cold and wet cloth on your forehead. Stay well hydrated and in the dark. If the fan hurts you could point it a little bit away from you, so you still get airflow but not directly at you.
And maybe getting away from noise, that really aghrivates a migrane
I dont mean to worry or scare you at all but worst case scenario, im hoping you dont have to call the ER. If it gets any more worse
oh and try to minimize using ur phone aswell. Or any other screens in that matter
buoyant pier
Ik youre taking medicine for the migraine but please dont take too many. Too many will only make it way worse
buoyant pier
Logan you are strong.
You are loved. /p
You are not alone.
This will pass
I just know it will
ik it sounds cliché, but i mean it
twin lake
Jesus fuck that was the fucking worst
I took ibuprofen and some melatonin and I laid down
Got an hour of sleep
It feels so much better
Jesus
Fucking
Christ
God chronic migraines is so bad and so many people just don't even know how much worse migraines are compared to headaches
buoyant pier
God chronic migraines is so bad and so many people just don't even know how much...
Dude you have absolutely no idea how relieved i am to here your feeling better, even if its just a little
i cant imagine how hard that was to go through. You’re stronger then you know Logan, im proud of you. If you need anything just tell me.
you deserve a very good rest after all this
please take it easy
twin lake
My perception of time is fucked
It's already midnight
Jesus
That migraine fucked me
buoyant pier
twin lake
Going to a big protest to participate in the national protests that are happening tmr. Our rights are in danger. Our lives are in danger. It's our right to stand up. And thats what I'll do. If I get arrested then I get arrested. This will be a peaceful protest. Sun, rain, hail, storms. It doesn't matter. This is important
My rights for marriage equality
My rights as a gay and gender non-conforming person.
My rights to service
My rights to anything a straight person has
Adoption
Marriage
Service
Anything
The fact that people who aren't queer don't even think these rights are under attack
Just because I love another man does NOT mean that I shouldn't get the same treatment any other couple gets
These are fundamental rights
EVERYONE is entitled to
twin lake
twin lake
The word is nuance
There's nuance to everything
Nothing is black and white in this world
twin lake
Fuck
buoyant pier
im gonna go to sleep a little sooner here cus im sick. Its 9:34 pm
I hope you have a goodnight!!! And a great rest <333 /p
but if you need anything just let me know and ill be there
again, no pressure to talk
buoyant pier
Congratulations
twin lake
I'm scared 😭
buoyant pier
I'm scared 😭
i know its scaryjust take it slowly, and at youre own pace. Nothings being rushed. Just breathe fren
twin lake
i know its scary<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>just take it slowly, and at youre ...
I hope things will go ok. This makes things even more real. Sometimes I forget that I'm getting older and the older I get the more I have to do and the closer I get to living with my boyfriend and all the stuff that goes on in life
It's just fucking scary
I wish I could say I'm not scared but I really am
buoyant pier
I wish I could say I'm not scared but I really am
Sorry for the wait, i took a bike ride cus its hot asf out. And its okay to be scared Logan. Getting older brings so much change, and it can be overwhelming when the future starts feeling real. Youre not weak or dramatic for feeling scared. Youre human. And these feelings mean you care deeply about what’s ahead. But youre not going through this aloneill be here, every step of the way, cheering you on and listening when things get too loud. You don’t have to have it all figured out. Just breathe. Your allowed to take things one step at a time. And no matter how scary life gets, I believe in you!!!!!!!
twin lake
Sorry for the wait, i took a bike ride cus its hot asf out. And its okay to be s...
Thank you man
buoyant pier
Thank you man <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>
of course frenalways. im here for you no matter what
teal cloak
And now our leader is trying to terminate the Trevor Project
Mark my words
Within the next two years there will be a military kue
Mark my words
twin lake
Just so tiring
Problem after problem
Having fucking dreams about self harm
Going out to help
Doing all this shit
Dealing with all this shit
I'm just tired
Of everything
Thinking about my future with my boyfriend and our life but idek if that'll come at this point
The world is going to shit
And I just wanna lay down and cry
I just wanna stop trying
I'm doing all of thi
Trying to fight for better futures
Trying to keep going
I wanna be happy and live with my boyfriend and have a good life
But idek if that'll happen because of this fucking world
As I get older it just gets worse
All I can do is sit down and listen to music
The fact that I can be here and actually have genuine fear of a real possible future where the world just ends
Never getting to actually do what I want
Never getting to have fun
Never getting to pursue music
Never getting to hold him
Or kiss him
Or be with him...
Never getting the life I want..
Fuck i wanna cry
buoyant pier
Logan.. please calm down for just a moment
i hear all of this, i hear you. I feel all of this. And you dont have to carry all of the whole weight of the world on your back alone. Youve been so strong, so giving, and so full of fight. But youre still human. And youre allowed to feel tired, scared, and defeated. That doesnt make you weak. That makes you real Your dreams matter. Your music, your love, your future. They matter. And i know things feel terrifying and bleak, but you being here, feeling all of this. That’s courageous as hell.
You deserve the future with your boyfriend. You deserve mornings filled with safety and nights with music and laughter and fun. Even if it feels unstable, please hold on to even a sliver of that hope. Ill help you carry it, every, single, step of the way
buoyant pier
I know Logan, i know youre so, so tired. And im sorry its felt endless, like theres no break, no breathe. But youre not alone in this, im still right here Logan. And i dont want you to have to keep holding this on your own
you dont have to fix everything right now. Not even tomorrow. Right now, all i want for you to know is that your life matters. That you matter. And ill stay by your side for as long as it takes for that weight to feel even a little lighter. And ill stick with you forever fren. Forever
buoyant pier
You dont have to apologize Logan. I want to be here for you, not just when things are light, but when theyre heavy too. Thats what friendship is Yeah? Youve always cared so deeply, even when youre hurting. I see that and i care about you so much. Please dont feel bad for needing comfort, you deserve as much as anyone else.
Also, im not keeping score on who’s struggling more. Were both here, and i want us both to feel safe and cared for. No pressure fren, just warmth
No matter how much im hurting, i’d always come running if you needed something.
twin lake
Thank you John
I'm just a mess. I'm crying and I'm so uncertain in everything
buoyant pier
Thank you John
I'm just a mess. I'm crying and I'm so uncertain in everything
You dont have to have everything figured out Logan. Not tonight, not tomorrow. Its okay to be be a mess, thats human. Youve been carrying so much for so long, im proud of you for still being here, even through uncertainty. That takes strength, even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. im not going anywhere, cry as much as you need. Ill sit with you as long as it takes. You dont have to go through this alone fren
twin lake
Thank you John
Genuinely
buoyant pier
Thank you John
Genuinely
no need to thank mebut nonetheless, youre so, so very welcome. Always welcome. Youre amazing Logan, even when you don’t think you are. Thank you too
no pressure to reply if you don’t want to. Just know, I know everything hurts so much right now, and it’s crushing. But you matter to me like family, I love you like a brother. I really do. You don’t ever need to hide your pain from me to protect me. I care deeply, and I want to help you carry this weight, not make you feel guilty for it. You’re not alone in this. I’m here. Always
twin lake
"You can take my sight, tear my body, i wont stop fighting, i wont stop fighting"
twin lake
no pressure to reply if you don’t want to. Just know, I know everything hurts so...
You're a brother to me as well
twin lake
God fuck this stupid fucking bullshit day
I'm genuinely surprised I haven't killed someone are hurt someone yet
All
FUCKING
DAY
Like can I just be treated like A NORMAL FUCKING PERSON INSTEAD OF CONSTANTLY BEING CALLED AHIT
buoyant pier
Like can I just be treated like A NORMAL FUCKING PERSON INSTEAD OF CONSTANTLY BE...
Logan i know you didnt deserve any of that, none of this. Not at all. You are a good person, ive seen it, felt it, know it. You try to be kind even when life doesnt return that to you. And really, that takes strength, more then people even realize. Im sorry todays been like this for you. Youre not evil. And i dont blame you for feeling this way youre allowed to be angry. Youre allowed to break down. But please, just hold on. Dont carry this pain alone, im here. And ill keep being here. You matter to me.
Please drink some water, try to sit somewhere quiet for just a moment. Let your body, and your mind breathe. Even if the world isnt kind, I will be
twin lake
Im a bit calmer now. I'm just trying not to snap at someone. I'm this close to losing my mind and saying shit that I shouldn't. The shit I actively wanted to call clover is insane because I just can't take shit like this rn.
I'm honestly surprised I even held back
I'm glad I did
But just fuck
buoyant pier
Youve already done something really strong Logan, you held back that means alot, even if it doesn’t feel like it. Im proud of you for that. Youre under lots of pressure and it makes sense your emotions are loud and hard to control right now. Its okay to be pushed to the edge, youre human, not invincible. What matters is that youre trying. That you care. I see that. I see you. You dont need to explain yourself to me. If you need to just scream into nothing or just sit in silence, Ill still be right here beside you fren. One step at a time:3
Typo rerhghjjfjfjfjfjjf
twin lake
It's ok. Thank you John
twin lake
buoyant pier
brain filled with just woof :3
twin lake
Also CHARGE YOUR PHONE
twin lake
brain filled with just woof :3
Yesh
buoyant pier
Also CHARGE YOUR PHONE
WHAT
twin lake
CHARGE YOUR PHONE 😭😭😭
buoyant pier
ITS FINEEE
buoyant pier
HOW WOULD YOU KNOW, PUNK /lh
twin lake
ITS A SCREENSHOT FROM YOUR PHONE 😭😭
buoyant pier
dropbed
twin lake
I WILL END YOU 😭😭
buoyant pier
NUH UH
twin lake
YUH HUH
twin lake
YUH HUH
buoyant pier
no
buoyant pier
i sah wuh i sa
twin lake
😭
buoyant pier
brian calls
twin lake
BRIAN CELLS
twin lake
I WISH
buoyant pier
WHERE MA FUCKIN PIZZER
I PAY 4 OFLAR
OH MY FUCK MY PHONE VIBRTAING I THIN I GOT A PHONE CARL
twin lake
😭😭😭
twin lake
Johns favorite sight
buoyant pier
AND HES HOT
SHUT UP
SHUTP
SHUT THE UP
SHUSH
ZIP YOUR MOUTH
TAPE IT
noooooo NOOOOOO
twin lake
😭😭
buoyant pier
huggies
twin lake
huggies<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>
Huggies
twin lake
God I'm so fucking excited for this Clipse album
Pusha T and Malice are cooking so far
buoyant pier
eevvennnn more huggiesyou deserve it
twin lake
buoyant pier
<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>
Still important to me, still my best friend, still thinking and caring about you every day fren <33 /p
Always. No matter what goes on. Nothing in this reality, nor any other will change that. Youre the best
twin lake
Still important to me, still my best friend, still thinking and caring about you...
Same on my end
Always on my mind. Always gonna be here
buoyant pier
Same on my end
Always on my mind. Always gonna be here <:chu_hug:108583988480103...
always
twin lake
I can't believe how good today was
buoyant pier
late reply but I’m relieved yesterday was good
i wish todays just as good as yesterday, even if its just a little:3
twin lake
https://tenor.com/view/furry-anti-furry-furries-hug-huggies-gif-1277503237759022...
I hope you have a good day too Johnny
You're awesome
buoyant pier
youre awesomer. But thankies:3 ill do my best to make it as good as possible
I hope things are going good already this morning
If not, then that’s okayyou can tell me anything, im here fren. Im here for you
-# no pressure to respond if you don’t wanna:3
twin lake
I hope things are going good already this morning
If not, then that’s okay<:chu_...
Im so glad you're here. And I'm here as well. Anytime and always
buoyant pier
Im so glad you're here. And I'm here as well. Anytime and always
always, anytime, anywhere, anyhow, with anything. Ill always be here for you too. Through hell and back, or twice if I have to.
Huggies
twin lake
Huggies
buoyant pier
and just so you know for the future..
anything you do or tell me. I don’t judge. I would never judge you. Anything that happens, will never ruin your importance, nothing will ruin your worth. Im your friend because i want to be, and i’d do anything for you in a heartbeat.
You can tell me anything, and I’ll always try my best to help you through it, my heart will never waver. You matter so much to me, and nothing you tell me will ever change that. Nothing you say or do will ever ruin this friendship.
Im with you on the long run, Logan.
And beyond
buoyant pier
twin lake
USELESS FUCING WASTE OF OXYGEN
CANCER
NOTHING BUT A FUCKINF RAT IN SOCIETY
DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT BEING TOLD NO IS
FUCNING USELESS WASTE OF APACE
Finally fucking unmuted
twin lake
Sorry John
buoyant pier
No need to apologize Logan, i just hope youre doing okay. I know its hard around clover, its your right to get angry. I don’t judge you off that, or anything really.
just breath and relax, take a break and kick your legs up. Let your mind drift away from this ignorance.
You didn’t deserve any of that, none of it Fren. I got you
twin lake
buoyant pier
If im being honest when i saw what eas going down earlier i felt protective of you fren <33 /p
youre already doing good just by surviving it, im proud of you Loganyoure safe here
twin lake
I don't normally get mad like that
buoyant pier
And thats okay, thats your right. You’re allowed to get mad.
Sometimes its good to let it out.
Youre a good person Logan, one of the only ‘greatest-in-all-ways’ kind of person i know. Im really, genuinely proud of you
twin lake
twin lake
So tired
buoyant pier
hope everything’s going okay fren <3 /p
twin lake
Nothing feels real rn
Idrk what's going on
The world feels light
Something feels wrong with my body
Idk
Nothing feels like how it's supposed to
teal cloak
Thanks. I'm just
Idk
Something feels incredibly wrong but idk what
I feel that
twin lake
My vision isn't perfect
My voice isn't coming out right
Im fidgeting a lot
My head hurts too
I'm not dehydrated
Ive drank a lot today
Idk
Something is wrong but idk what
My eyes hurt
Fuck
Feel a sense of dread
A really strong sense
Kinda anxious
I feel itchy
Fuck what's happening man
I feel uncomfortable
Jesus
buoyant pier
im here fren, im here. Whats going on sounds really overwhelming and scary. Youre not alone in this, i promise.
It might be your anxiety spiking really hard, especially with the dread and body stuff. But i dtill thank you for describing it here, even through these feelings you said it. That takes strength, really.
Try to take a few slow breaths Logan, maybe eat something with sugar and rest in the dark, ill be right here with you through it. No pressure to say anything if you don’t feel like you should, im not going anywhere. Youre safe, and well get through this together fren /p
you might be having a panic attack, or even sensory overload. Im hoping its not anything medical. I really, really wish that its not
i’d do anything for you to feel better fren, you have no idea how hard id try to help you if i were there
twin lake
I'm trying my best to stay calm. My heart rate isn't too bad but I feel paranoid
And a very strong sense of dread
My eye sight is a bit better but I'm still struggling to get words out
I have a pain behind both of my eyes
Like near the tops of them
buoyant pier
Thats good its at least getting a little better, youre doing great Logan, seriously im proud of you for staying calm even while it all feels so intense. The pain in ur eyes, the dread, the struggle to speak, it can absolutely be a part of a panic attack or anxiety, i know it will pass. Just focus on now fren, not the next minute or next hour. Just now
you dont have to explain anything perfectly to me, just breathe with me fren. Youre safe right now, and im not leaving youre side. Were gonna get through this together man/p
I promise on my life
twin lake
buoyant pier
im glad you told me this. Especially with how stressful things been, the pain in your eyes could be from a bad headache or from panic. But I just want to be careful, if it gets worse, or if anything starts to feel not normal for your body. Then please try to get it checked out fren. Even if it might just be a virtual one. Just be safe
twin lake
I will
It's such a weird feeling
Like reality doesn't make sense
buoyant pier
it sounds scary logan, and i want you to know feeling disconnected from reality doesnt mean you’re in danger. Youre mind is probably really overwhelmed right now and trying to protect you. It can feel like things are fake and all floaty and such, but i promise youre still here, still grounded, and still not alone. Im right here fren, ill be here through literally anything.
I dont exactly know how to solve this kind of problem, like youre distant from reality. But youre already doing a really good job. Im proud of you Logan for holding on im genuinely proud of you
buoyant pier
I’ll always be here fren, always and i never plan on leaving, not ever, not in eons
twin lake
You're the best
Genuinely
buoyant pier
And no matter what, no matter what state im in. Ill always find time to help you out
if it had to come to the point, id quite literally die for you /p
you matter so much to me, you have value in my life fren
twin lake
Same here Johnny. Always
twin lake
buoyant pier
You're the best
Genuinely
youre the best too fren, the best i know out there:3 genuinely /srs
twin lake
I'm not gonna take your love and care and our friendship for granted. Ever.
buoyant pier
Same here, not ever. Not in any reality, any universe, dimension or any other weird space term.
Youre amazing <3 /p
twin lake
buoyant pier
also fren i know it might not be a good time but when youre feeling better maybe you could check out this song i think you’ll like. Only if you want to tho
https://open.spotify.com/track/6oxfnbwSvVvl8FhqojHfd5?si=AzMq5-skTZKH_hnZZlzr_w
it just reminds me of sleep token alot, more or less the band itself
twin lake
Ill def check it out when my phone isn't on life support lmfao
Thanks Johnny
buoyant pier
thankies and ur welcome lol
go charg ur phone:3 and i wish you feel betterim still here, even when youre not there
twin lake
I fell in the shower and now my head hurts 😭
buoyant pier
sorry that had to happen, are you okay?
twin lake
I'm alright
Just hurts 😭/lh
buoyant pier
Well im glad youre alright, just be safe and try not to accidentally fall again please
i hope you feel better soon, and i wish tomorrow will treat you better, even if its just a little
twin lake
buoyant pier
twin lake
Fuck this stupid fucking bullshit
Goddamn piece of fucking shit
Im gonna fucking lose it
Already on the verge of tears
I just can't fucking deal with stupid shit man. I come here to my journal so that my friends can talk to me since there aren't ANY FUCKING VENTING CHANNELS and all of a sudden now they wanna enforce a rule that isn't fucking necessary
Not gonna fix the fucking venting channels problem but journals are the fucking issues
Not like we've been ASKING FOR THE VENTING CHANNELS BACK FOR FUCKING AGES
twin lake
[verse 1]
when the blood spills apon the snow
I'll be right beside you
when the flood takes all that you own
I'll be right beside you
[Chorus]
When I saw you go
I felt my heart turn to stone
[Verse 2]
Souls in the river, carry out to sea
when nothings left to wither
silence underneath
feel It pull so tightly
I bare my teeth
[Chorus]
When I saw you go
I felt my heart turn to stone
[Ending Bridge]
Why can't I find my home?
Now I must walk alone
twin lake
One of my cats may die soon
He's not doing well :((
buoyant pier
One of my cats may die soon
He's not doing well :((
Logan im really sorry to hear that ]: this must be hard to sit with, if there’s anything you need to talk about or just vent to, or just to sit in silence. Youre not alone im here, truly. I know how deeply you love them, and with whatever happens.. ill be right here with you fren. Beside you through anything, any disaster, any storm, or any darkness
No pressure to respond if you don’t feel like it, just know that I’m always here, and always thinking of you fren <3 /p
buoyant pier
buoyant pier
I wish you a real good night Logan
i hope tomorrow’s good, i hope it treats you well. Even if its just a little.
I wish the best for you, and your cats <33 /p
if you need anything just let me know fren, im still here
please stay safe, and strong. Youre a genuinely beautiful soul. And i give you my sweet dreams, you deserve to be comfortable. You deserve happiness :3
no pressure to reply if you don’t feel like it, ill sit with you in silence, through everything
buoyant pier
goodmorning my fren :3 i hope todays gonna be better for you.
You’re still amazing and deserve more kindness than you know
you dont deserve any of this pain, any of this stress and suffering. You didnt do anything to receive it.
I’d take it all off your chest if i could
i wish the cats are doing good too, they deserve just as much love as you do.
If things arent well then… no need to say anything if you don’t wanna. Ill still be here beside you every step of the way, cheering you on and wishing only the best! :3
huggies
huggies
-# again, no pressure to reply:3
twin lake
goodmorning my fren :3 i hope todays gonna be better for you.
You’re still amazi...
You're the best
You're the best
buoyant pier
You're the best <:hugs:992823004532842516> <:huddleshibaheart:854758761830940672...
youre also the best
my best friend
And one of the best people I know in my life
twin lake
I hope you're ok Johnny.
twin lake
I'm never gonna get to live my life happily
buoyant pier
Im sorry you feel this way Logan
i know i dont have all the answers, but your life has meaning. Even if it doesn’t feel like it right now.
Youre allowed to feel this way, like youre broken. But that doesnt mean your beyond repair. I believe with all my heart and soul that happiness can exist for you, even if its not here yet. You matter more than you know.
Im still right here fren, never gonna let you go you don’t have to go through this alone:3
buoyant pier
im really, really sorry that has to happen. I know this feels serious, and especially overwhelming for you. With that kind of pressure, trying to hold it all together for your family, is honestly too much for one person alone. I dont know how to fix that but i know damn well youre not carrying this alone even when it feels like its all falling apart, I still see your strength, and your importance. Youv been doing your best through impossible, and that means something Logan.
Im here fren, through all and anything. Youre not a burden, you dont have to hold this weight by yourself
twin lake
im really, really sorry that has to happen. I know this feels serious, and espec...
It's such a struggle. Medicaid and food stamps are possibly getting cut and they we need them. Without them we have basically no money and no healthcare. God I'm just glad you're here because I couldn't do it without you man
buoyant pier
I cant imagine how hard this must feel for you, and your family. This kind of news. Its not just stressfull, its its terrifying. Youre trying to carry your family afloat through it all alone, and thats more then one person should have to shoulder alone im glad, really glad you told me Logan. And i want you to know. Youre not alone, even when everythings dark, and im still here, still your frend, and still supporting. Even through the worst, even through the end of the world.
Youre doing the best anyone could do. Even when things feel hopeless. And I really do admire your strength, even if you dont see it or if you dont believe it. Well get through this together, i promise always and forever fren
twin lake
Thank you for being here
buoyant pier
thank you too frenim always gonna be here. always
twin lake
Maybe I'll go back to self harming. Idk. People seem to think that I wont lose my healthcare or food stamps but they're just wrong
Can't wait to be homeless next year if this fully passes
Why can't I just exist and be happy
buoyant pier
Why can't I just exist and be happy
Logan, hey, i hear you. and i believe you. This whole this is terrifying and its not fair. You dont deserve this kind of fear. But please. Please Logan, dont go back to hurting yourself, okay? That pain doesnt make it feel any better. It only takes from you, and you’ve already been through so much i care for you so much Logan. And i need you to stay with me. Im not going anywhere. And ill be here through this no matter what happens
you are not alone, even when it feels like the worlds falling apart
twin lake
Logan, hey, i hear you.<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:1085839884801036...
I'm gonna be honest I'm barely holding it together man.
My phone is barely working
I gotta deal with this horrid heat
I'm dealing with this stupid political bullshit
I just can't be happy man
All I can do is cry
buoyant pier
Logan.
Im so, so sorry. You dont deserve any of this. Not the heat, not the fear, not the stress, none of it. Its okay to cry, youre not weak for it. Ill be here to hold you through it fren /p
youre not wrong for feeling this Logan. It just means youve been carrying to much for too long
Im here for you Logan. Through all of it. Really. I wish I could actually take this weight off your shoulders. But until then, ill keep sitting with you. Youre not alone in this.
im here man.
forever.
buoyant pier
You’re always welcome. Always appreciated. Ill be here for you always. I promise.
and hey, please promise to me youll stay safe. I care about you so much. Youve been through too much, and i don’t want anything else to add onto that.
So please, fren. stay safe and take care of yourself. Even if its just a little.
You mean the world to me
You don’t have to respond right now, or at all if you don’t feel like it.
Just hold on with me. I’ll never let you go
huggies
buoyant pier
Good i love you fren/p
i trust you to that. You’re the best
twin lake
If you like rock you'll love this song
God it's musical perfection
I'm probably gonna grab more music I love and send it here
twin lake
I promise on my heart and soul if you like scream or rock you'll love this artist. His name is Fabvl and he mixes genres so easily it's honestly musical perfection
buoyant pier
huggies
No particular reason
:3
just wanted to hug someone
besides, you deserve them
buoyant pier
https://open.spotify.com/track/3pCpOaXuWTVc085Jyd0iLE?si=7KYJoCS1QVKxrnEOQKeKZQ
Also i really liked this one
twin lake
Also i really liked this one
I highly recommend most of his catalogue
He's a fantastic independent artist
buoyant pier
cyberpunk edgerunners for the cover honestly a turn-on for me😭musics also amazing im really really enjoying the lyrics
twin lake
cyberpunk edgerunners for the cover honestly a turn-on for me😭musics also amazi...
The whole song is based off edgerunners
Fabvl is a nerdcore artist
He makes songs inspired by characters from anime and nerdy things like games
buoyant pier
The whole song is based off edgerunners
Fabvl is a nerdcore artist
He makes so...
i caught onto that, having beaten cyberpunk 2077 twice immediately set off a light in my spark listening to the song
Wtf i worded that word
I sorded theat weird
i worded that weird*
buoyant pier
i give em a listen
:3
twin lake
https://open.spotify.com/track/1fWA7oV5aXTONcVXJVhUdy?si=yZpnPp7iQMuzCeKJ5KJX5w
This one is much more of scream rap which I FUCKING love
Inspired by chainsaw man
buoyant pier
lowkie do i seem like the type of guy to listen to dark trap metal
Just curious cause i do enjoy it
Thinking in 3rd person, out of the context, i don’t seem like the type of guy
Anyways
twin lake
Thinking in 3rd person, out of the context, i don’t seem like the type of guy
Dont seem like it
But it makes sense once you get to know you lmfao
buoyant pier
Dont seem like it
But it makes sense once you get to know you lmfao
it does make sense :3c
the whole part of my world that likes that sorta stuff is heavily centered on my sona
Like a second brain ig
twin lake
Lmfaooo
He looks cool tho
Him and my Sona would be frennnnnnssss
buoyant pier
partners in crime 
twin lake
Same jail cell 
buoyant pier
top bunk
twin lake
Bet
twin lake
Lmfao
buoyant pier
actually probably not a softie😭
He was HEAVILY based off of Five Finger Death Punch
Thats kinda the whole reason why i made him was because i absolutely loved the band
twin lake
You deadass drew my Sona like perfect. It has everything that's part of my personality and it's perfect. He looks rough but also friendly at the same time
I love it
buoyant pier
:333
twin lake
I couldn't have described in detail better than how you drew him
buoyant pier
Im truly honored, im very happy you love it that much:3
Im being honest here i had you in mind when making it /p
its easier to point out certain details that way for me cause im very easily distracted
twin lake
It's literally perfect
It's why I trust you so much with my anniversary art
I don't trust anyone to handle that more than you
buoyant pier
:3
you have my word, i have it all in my heart. I can’t wait to get started on it, i won’t forget.
And ik its ok if its delayed past your anniversary date but i promised myself I would complete it before then
Im honored, and really happy you trust me with this fren
twin lake
Ofc
Not only are you hands down one of my closest friends
But also the only person I'd trust with something so important to me
buoyant pier
twin lake
I love this image 😭
buoyant pier
logan goobert
twin lake
He's so derpy 😭
buoyant pier
Your character is very fun to draw:3 i enjoy drawing them
twin lake
I'm glad :3
I always wanted my Sona to be a little unique. Even if it's still a blue wolf 😭
buoyant pier
I'm glad :3
I always wanted my Sona to be a little unique. Even if it's still a ...
There’s always the opportunity :3 but im not pushing, just excited for whenever you decide to make changes. Cause I’ll be glad to draw them again and again
Just for you fren, you deserve it
and for free duhhh
id never request money from my best friend for my art of them
twin lake
Like i mentioned with the other version you made
Those white tattoo like details looked gorgeous ans I loved them
I'm excited
twin lake
and for free duhhh
id never request money from my best friend for my art of them
You're awesome. Genuinely
buoyant pier
twin lake
twin lake
Gang :3
buoyant pier
Gang :3
buoyant pier
Goodmorning!!
:3
also happy Fourth of July, I wish today will be great for you fren
twin lake
Goodmorning!!
:3
also happy Fourth of July, I wish today will be great for you ...
Same for you my fluffy friend
buoyant pier
Same for you my fluffy friend
twin lake
WORK GOT CALLED OFF TODAY
WOOO
LETS FUCKIN GO
"if it's tit for tat or track for track you'll find out
if you wanna have a crack at bat I'm Mike Trout
All these underground cats don't rap they rhyme sounds
I hate pussies always tellin' me they wanna have another conversation
Mother fucker give me confrontation
Mama said that violence ain't the answer and to find cooperation
Everything is good in moderation"
🗣️🔥
"bitch I never rapped about no drugs till I did something
Bitch I never rapped about no guns till I griped some
God was outta touch till I sinned some
Bitch you never had no bitches but you been one"🔥🗣️🔥🗣️
twin lake
Feels like everyday my boyfriend gets into an argument with his mom and his mom just yells. I hate seeing him so upset. He hates himself everytime it happens
God it fucking sucks
He's such an awesome guy but he's always hating himself constantly
And it's not his fault
Never was
Never is
It just sucks that he feels so bad about himself
twin lake
@unkempt nebula
Not even close 😭
unkempt nebula
<@1109428573204398080>
Not even close 😭
Yoo never thought you'd actually look like Wolverine with a shorter beard 😭
You def don't look like the femboy twink I imagined you to be 😭
twin lake
You def don't look like the femboy twink I imagined you to be 😭
😭😭😭😭
buoyant pier
wild😭
twin lake
[chorus]
Turn the wheel and rewrite the page
Tear out the chapter and your mistakes
Heal what can still be saved
They might be threatening
But we are the reckoning
(Tear down the empire)
I need to practice my metal screams
twin lake
WE'RE GONNA GET THE FUCKING HOUSE
LRTS FUCNING GO
ME AND MY BOYFRIEND HAVE A PREPAID HOME THATS GON A GET PASSED DOWNTO ME
WE'RE GONNA GET THE FUCKING HOUSE
LRTS FUCNING GO
ME AND MY BOYFRIEND HAVE A PREPAID HOME THATS GON A GET PASSED DOWNTO ME
LETS FUCKING GO
MY PAPAW IS GONNA PASS THE HOUSE DOWN TO US
twin lake
LET'S FUCJING GO
buoyant pier
YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
IM HYPED
TODAYS AWRSOME
MY MUSICS HITTING
MOUNTAIN BIKING RN
AND UOUR GETTING A HOUSE WITH YOUR BF
TODAYS AMAZING
Genuinely, im so happy for you Logan
Im smiling so much
twin lake
I can't believe it
I won't have to worry about a house or rent
Me and my boyfriend will be able to move in together
twin lake
buoyant pier
https://open.spotify.com/track/5jIBzV0EBWDlnqJ29VkDRe?si=sEFknz8gRUKZrM-Io5aWXg
i think youll like this maybe
the intro is amazing imo
twin lake
Yeah, I got a God Complex
'Cause being God is complicated
I ain't got much rest
Now look in awe at my creation
Architect the game you're playing (aye, aye!)
Everything I say is fated
This is greatness, got the preacher prayin' (aye, aye!)
'Cause I'm a God
'Fore there was seed
'Fore there was land
'Fore there was sea
'Fore there was man, bendin' the knee
'Fore there was damned to be banished by me
Let there be light, with a deity scream
Let there be mic and an 808 beat
All for the hell of it
Bitch, I invented this
Legend of genesis owe me a fee
I'm in my element up in the peak
And you peasants are sediment settled up under my feet
And I'm being benevolent, bringing you peace
And sorry but sonny the sentiment isn't for free
And you're relevant 'cause of my feats (uh)
Are you paying penance or biting my schemes? (uh)
Friends and my enemies soundin' the same
'Cause they're made in the image of me
twin lake
Lord have mercy
I just got dmed by a friend who I haven't heard from since 2023
twin lake
That was a trip down memory lane
Me and four of my old friends hopped in a VC and talked
Jesus
twin lake
God damn man
twin lake
@buoyant pier
I wanted to mention by the way. I'm gonna be 4 years clean at the end of this year. I know you've been clean for a while too and so I wanted to say that I want us both to hold each other up. Keep each other from ever doing that kind of stuff again so we don't fall back into addiction. I just wanted to say that
buoyant pier
<@864240810304471040>
I wanted to mention by the way. I'm gonna be 4 years clea...
You have my word
you have all my words
no matter what happens or what you go through, ill hold you through it <3/p
always
with my heart and soul
buoyant pier
both of us
always
I’ll be your torch, and you’ll be mine. We don’t ever have to go back there again, not if we have eachother fren
im getting a little tired
I hope you have a wonderful night Logan, i wish your sleep will be soft and peaceful
Sweet dreams <33/p
I’ll be here in the morning!
twin lake
im getting a little tired
I hope you have a wonderful night Logan, i wish your s...
Goodnight Johnny
buoyant pier
Goodnight Logan
twin lake
I'm hopeful I get mod. I want the best for this server
buoyant pier
I'm hopeful I get mod. I want the best for this server
I hope you do too!! Youd be a great mod:3
genuinely
you have this ‘guardian’ energy imo, if that doesn’t sound weird
twin lake
you have this ‘guardian’ energy imo, if that doesn’t sound weird
It doesn't
twin lake
Fuck I love Ski Mask The Slump God
twin lake
Fuck that shower felt so fucking good
I just sat there and let the hot water run down my face
God it was amazing
buoyant pier
buoyant pier
work!! You got this Logan, i believe in you :3
make sure to rest well and drink right after work fren
yummay
samdwhinh
buoyant pier
work!! You got this Logan, i believe in you :3
make sure to rest well and drink ...
tomorrow*
buoyant pier
Yummy samich
btw hii, hru Logan
twin lake
btw hii, hru Logan
Im oki
Had a good day outside today but fuck I donr wanna go do to workkkkkkkkk :((
buoyant pier
Im oki
Had a good day outside today but fuck I donr wanna go do to workkkkkkkkk ...
im happy youre oki, and that today was goodi understand that feeling, not wanting to go out right after a calm and enjoyable day. Were on the same page, but itll be worth it! Some good rest and downtime right after, thats well deserved.
Ill be here, now, tomorrow, the next day after, and the next day after that, and so on. forever
twin lake
im happy youre oki, and that today was good<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>i under...
At least since I'm going to work tomorrow I don't have to on Friday and I can play the new destiny 2 expansion all day that I totally didn't spend 150$ on...
Definitely
... Not
buoyant pier
twin lake
Shush 😭
buoyant pier
did you forget to cooe it a bednight story and kiss it on the forehead before tucking it in for the night😭
twin lake
😭😭😭
twin lake
Bro istg
I'm way too much of a violent person
I wanted to break that guy down for what happened
twin lake
HOLY SHIT
LETS FUCKING GO
teal cloak
HOLY SHIT
LETS FUCKING GO
What’s up
buoyant pier
buoyant pier
I'm limping
im sorry that happened Logan, please rest it when you can, and dont push things. You mean too much to me to risk any more hurt.
Im here fren, talk or just to distract you from the pain
I hope it heals quickly!!
:3
twin lake
twin lake
😭😭😭
buoyant pier
I can't afford another TV
Hey Logan, I just woke up rn and saw this. I know things feel like they’re piling up on each other, and I wish I could just make it all better for youim really sorry about the tv too, its more than just a screen, especially when you’re really stressed.
You dont have to respond at all, just know that Im right here if or when you want to talk. Im here. Ive got youi hope you’re day gets better, i really do
Please stay safe too, youre okay with me fren. Even though you’re offline, ill be here the entire time, even if Itll take to midnight
I’ll be thinking of you, so please get some good rest, today’s already been rough but know that you’re not alone. Even when you’re not online
huggies
twin lake
*huggies*
I got lucky. It's prime day so my mom said she'll buy me a new TV. I got really really really lucky that it's prime day and everything is on sale
twin lake
I'm ok. I had a little breakdown but I'm ok. Thank you for being here John. I had a really stressful morning
buoyant pier
I'm ok. I had a little breakdown but I'm ok. Thank you for being here John. I ha...
Im relieved youre doing ok, this morning may be stressful but today will be better, I just know it.
Im always here for you Logan, always and forever, you never have to thank me for caring about youi always will. Every single second of my life
i do hope the rest of today will treat you better. Im here if you need anything, quite literally anything my fren
buoyant pier
youre always welcome Logan
always and forever
and really though. Im here if you need anything
Im always happy to give
im ever thankful to have you, and youve been a lifeline for me.
best friends in the whole universe and beyond
And youre not just a lifeline to me. Youre the best friend i could ever dream of, the one person i never knew I needed in my life /p
youre amazing, more then you or I could ever imagine.
Nonetheless. You. Are. Perfect.
Im always gonna be beside you Logan, you got me for life, and whatevers after
Youre more then just important, you are essential
<33/p
twin lake
NEW TV AND A GHOST OF YŌTEI GAMEPLAY TRAILER
THIS JUST TURNED FROM A HORRIBLE DAY TO AN AWESOME ONE. ALREADY HAVE MY NEW TV. GOD FUCK YES
buoyant pier
HELLYEAHH
im happy youre happy
have fun with the new tv!!!!!!
Ghost of yōtei looks pretty fun:3
i should get it too since I already beat Ghost of Tsushima, im pretty sure its a sequel
twin lake
i should get it too since I already beat Ghost of Tsushima, im pretty sure its a...
Sequel with a diff character
It looks amazing
buoyant pier
i should buy it when it comes out:3
it already looks great, and i can’t wait until the release
twin lake
Same
I'm preordering it 😭
buoyant pier
buoyant pier
i hope you have a wonderful day fren :3 stay safe
buoyant pier
<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338> <:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>
how are you my fren
you dont have to answer that, ive just been thinking about you <3/p
twin lake
you dont have to answer that, ive just been thinking about you <3/p
Im good. Just woke up so I'm kinda tired but I'm alright. How're you fren
buoyant pier
im really relieved to hear your good
im doing pretty good too
twin lake
I'm glad. You deserve the world Johnny<33/p
buoyant pier
as do you Logan <33/p
more then anything
twin lake
as do you Logan <33/p
more then anything
twin lake
genuinely, more then anything in the world
As well as you Johnny
You're a beautiful person
buoyant pier
As well as you Johnny
You're a beautiful person
you’re just perfect, nothing less
I mean it. I don’t know how else to describe you. Youre amazing
Also what i was referring to in mainchat, i am drawing loona from helluva boss
and yeah. that bitch.
Im drawing her
crazy woman.. ugh
twin lake
Gooooooooooooodddddddddd moooooorrrrrrrnnnnnninggggggggg
twin lake
:3
twin lake
I feel great
How're you
buoyant pier
I feel great
How're you
im really happy to hear im feeling pretty good, today’s gonna go great!!
twin lake
twin lake
No you're the best Johnny
twin lake
Nuh uh
buoyant pier
the LoGoat
twin lake
You're the bestest
twin lake
:3
twin lake
:3
buoyant pier
but you’re still better
twin lake
buoyant pier
teal cloak
LeBron?
twin lake
Going to sleep after a fairly good day
I've been genuinely happy recently. Which is hard to believe considering everything that's happened recently after all the problems and hard days constantly being frustrated and crying it feels good to be happy again
twin lake
Bro this Clipse album is so peak
twin lake
On god anything made by Pharrell is a classic
twin lake
"Walking with my dawg, I Am Legend"
twin lake
Its actually insane how someone can judge something that I do and love when they know nothing about it
How the hell are you gonna criticize my knowledge of music when you don't know anything that I do
You don't know anything related to music theory or note composition or jackshit related to it
So why the fuck are you saying I don't?
Literally all I do is listen to music and learn and borderline study how music is made
I'm planning on going to music school
I'm planning on getting more and more into music as my life progresses
How the fuck are you gonna say "you don't know anything about that" when you know less than I do?
buoyant pier
youre valid for feeling upset about that Logan, your love for music and everything youve learned, and everything you plan on learning matters. And you’re already doing a good job
:3
i know what that feeling is like, youre not wrong at all for it my fren. Idk whats up with that guy, he doesn’t know at all, not a bit
buoyant pier
and it shows Logan, i see youre love in music. Music is you. In how you are, how you feel and care.
And dude, its fucking beautiful/p
no one gets to invalidate that just because they dont understand it. No one. Theyre just not on ur level, but i do. I see how much it means to you Logan. And i back you, always man
when you get into music school, ill be rooting for you. Cause you deserve the best.
And im already rooting for you, proud of you for getting this far
like man. If i could i would go to every one of your concerts. No joke, i know it would be amazing
twin lake
Thanks Johnny
twin lake
My brother found a snake in my house and my mom dropped it so now it's lose in the house and we can't find it
twin lake
Kitten is dying on our porch and we can't do anything to save it
Im on the verge of tears
I wish we could help it but its not gonna live to daylight
I saw my brother pick it up and gently place it over some milk and the poor baby just fell into it because it cant hold itself up
I just wanna cry
I wish I could do something
Poor baby is barely breathing
It hurts
buoyant pier
It hurts
im really sorry youre going through this. I wish i could take the pain away or help somehow. You did everything you could, and just the fact that it hurts shows how deeply you care. That poor kitten knew what it was like to be cared for, it knew kindness and love, and that’s because of you Logan. Thats real love.
Im here okay? Right here, always
no need to respond my fren, im grieving with you. I really hope today will be better for you Logan. Ill be thinking of you/p and ill be here the whole time, right with you, even if I can’t, im still here for you
twin lake
no need to respond my fren, im grieving with you. I really hope today will be be...
Yeah I'm ok now
Just tired and a little sad. But otherwise I'm alright
buoyant pier
Yeah I'm ok now
Just tired and a little sad. But otherwise I'm alright
im glad and relieved youre doing alright, even if youre sad. Youve been through alot today and you deserve some rest my fren.
Both in your body and heart im still here if you need anything at all. Even if just quiet company
twin lake
There's very few things I like about myself
My singing voice is one of those
It's honestly insane how much self hatred I have. I hate so much about myself but I genuinely love how I sound when I sing
twin lake
Good morrrrrrrrrnigggggggggg
buoyant pier
Gooooodmroninngggggg
twin lake
Gooooodmroninngggggg<:bkhai:1189411937042321469>
How're you doing Johnny :3
buoyant pier
How're you doing Johnny :3
Im great!! Just been lying around all day cause boring. Hru Logan:3
twin lake
Im great!! Just been lying around all day cause boring. Hru Logan:3
I'm good
My mom finally came around to the idea of "you're almost an adult and so you can go out whenever you want so long as you tell me"
buoyant pier
I'm good
My mom finally came around to the idea of "you're almost an adult and s...
thats really great!!! Im happy to hear youre doing goood
twin lake
Finally being treated like an adult 😭
twin lake
Ngl I love the new expansion for destiny
I really really do
I just wish people would stop being so fucking negative about it
"saved me 40$"
"New planet same enemy"
Like dude
Can we stop complaining for once
twin lake
I hate being sick
buoyant pier
I hate being sick
buoyant pier
im still here fren, i know being sick absolutely sucks:[
I hope you get better soon, very soon, even if just little by little. Ill be there every second of itstill my best friend, still caring about you endlessly.
And yeah it sucks even more you can’t really do much being sick, i understand..just rest up and drink plenty of water, i know you can fight this sickness, you’re strong. Really strong, and i know it.
Take it slow and easy okay? You matter so much to me
no pressure to respond Logan, i just care so so much
huggies
twin lake
I'll be ok. Just sucks. I don't handle it well in terms of how I feel during it. I've never handled it well
I'll be ok
buoyant pier
it makes me happy youre pushing through this, even if you’re not handling it as well as others. Im proud of you Logan
Ill be here with you always, and ill carry you through it if youre tired
Thank you for reassuring me, you deserve so much better than this
twin lake
I'm just now starting. I've been wanting to do it for a long time. So far I have the concept of the first two songs and I think I know what genre they'll be in. The album is gonna be a mix of at least three different sounds.
The first one is gonna be a slow intro. Probably something akin to mother I sober. The second one is gonna be something akin to swimming pools
Just not 100% rap
There'll be a lot of singing but also rapping and screaming. The album from a sound pov is supposed to start off very light and happy and lively and then sink deeper each minute you listen.
By end being something very akin to Dance With The Devil in sound
Wanted to summarize here lmfao
I know what the first two tracks are also gonna be thematically
Track 1: it's abt my aunt. Her passing was the start of a spiral.
Track 2: it's gonna be about the spiral and how it started after she died
I have a lot of themes I need to explore with this album in eight tracks. Sex addiction and using it as a coping mechanism, self harm, suicide attempts and a lot more
buoyant pier
I know this will be powerful, not just music. But you
And i know its not gonna be easy to dig through all of that, but you’re really brave for even trying. This will be a work of art, a very beautiful thing that takes so much strength to do
Ill be here the whole way Logan. Even if all i can do is give you feedback or listen or remind you that you don’t have to do this alone.
Im open to anything.
anything
youre not doing this alone fren, im all ears, all ready to give you my fullest
ill be cheering you on logan, helping you in any way I possibly can. Because you deserve the support. You deserve so so much
im honestly really really excited, im all jumpy and stuff rn :3
twin lake
Brainstorming for this album haa brought back bad memories. It's worth it. I need to face it. But I'm realizing how many sexual partners I had during this time and how much I used it to cope
buoyant pier
Brainstorming for this album haa brought back bad memories. It's worth it. I nee...
im proud of you for trying to face it all, that’s really strong of you.
Not many people at all would even dare think about, im rooting for you Logan, all the way
twin lake
Thank you Johnny. It's just odd to think about. They weren't romantic partners or anything. It was just sexual. And only sexual. I used it to cope so much and I can't believe how much I actually did
buoyant pier
twin lake
<:chu_hug:1085839884801036338>
buoyant pier
i hear you Logan, and thank you for trusting me with that. Really.
Its oki to feel conflicted about it all fren.
There no shame in that, yiu were just coping with the pain how you could
-# sorry if that sounds harsh
It really doesn’t define who you are man. And it definitely doesnt change how i see you Logan. Youre still strong, still growing and getting better, and still worthy of all the love in the world.
Ive got your back fren, always
twin lake
i hear you Logan, and thank you for trusting me with that. Really.
Its oki to fe...
It doesn't sound harsh dw
twin lake
Tyler The Creator loves to call mfs bums lmfao
twin lake
Track 1: it's abt my aunt. Her passing was the start of a spiral.
Track 3: the start of a self harm addiction.
Track 4: the start of a sex addiction
twin lake
I'm so tired
buoyant pier
I'm so tired
buoyant pier
Make sure to get good rest and relax my fren, you deserve it
Youre comfort is a priority
twin lake
twin lake
This song is such a massive inspiration for my musical style
Fuck I love the screams in it
The vocal quality is fucking beautiful
The instrumental is extremely what I rap and sing and scream over
And fuck the vocals
I'll never give them enough praise
twin lake
<@744897081130614925> BROTHER
What
twin lake
Listening soon
twin lake
"Silent tears that bleed both eyelids"
Beautiful
"just look into the light as it falls from the sky, you couldn't make it your life was a lie"
twin lake
I love knowing that the Mangaka of jujutsu Kisen loves boys love and yaoi so he very intentionally wrote Gojos and Getos relationship very specifically lmfao
twin lake
I also just love yaoi and BL's in general.
twin lake
"why are you so insistent on living in sin"
Because I don't give a fuck dawg. I am an atheist
I don't give a flying fuck
Keep that shit to yourself
buoyant pier
buoyant pier
Way too ignorant.
people dont have any clue how theyre decisions effect others
You didn’t deserve thatpeople are just way too self absorbed
im sorry that happened Logan
twin lake
It's ok
I'm just frustrated
buoyant pier
yeah, i understandim here fren, you deserve do much more kindness than that
twin lake
It's just ridiculous
Like you believe that a big magical all powerful man in the sky created everything and watches us at all time to make sure guys don't fuck each other
I believe that's stupid as fuck
buoyant pier
it is stupid as fuck, just another theory or whatever, idfk whats going on in that things head.
People, especially the self proclaimed “religious” need to see you for who you really are and not your sexuality.
i see you truly, not just because i HEAVILY sympathize with you, but i lnow youre a beautiful and kind soul and so full of love
and really, god would love you for that. In that guys world, his god would love you regardless
twin lake
Genuinely all I've seen over almost 18 years of life is that religion is a cancer that does nothing but separate people and cause massive issues
I sit here and do so much good and try to be the best person I physically can
Yet I'm a horrible person cus I'm in love with a guy
I'm the problem
buoyant pier
Genuinely all I've seen over almost 18 years of life is that religion is a cance...
im not religious either, and its just fucking foolery.
like just because you love another man as a man, thats not something to “repent” or sum shit. That’s something beautiful and should be taken seriously, in an accepting and loving way.
This gods “grace” as the people say is just hate shielded by the masses.
ur not the problem, youre just you. HES the problem, and his beliefs. He deserves better. YOU deserve so much better. Better then anyone.
twin lake
It's insane to me. Genuinely. You believe that cool. There's hundreds if not thousands of religions in this world
What make you sure that yours is correct
And what makes you think that it applies to everyone
buoyant pier
nothing truly can.
Were not a hivemind, we humans don’t just think the same way.
And if u do, or at least think so, then youre as dumb as a fucking ant.
Like this has been going on foy thousands upon thousands of years, and its simply just bullshit.
Like yeah, whatever if people think its a bad thing then let me be the beacon, and show me off with pride, because fuck.u.all
twin lake
There's just no reason in any way that love should be looked down on
At all
Everyone on earth is substantially different
In no way in any world should love be seen as bad or sin
I'd give my life for my partners. Anytime, anywhere.
buoyant pier
Love is love, love is different for everyone. Some people want to be with the same sex, some people want to change their sex.
thats a beautiful thing
thats what makes people special
thats whats really important.
Love is never a sin, unless well, if its the ifykyk kinda love. But regardless, love is inevitable, even if its with someone whos the same gender.
Their god is WRONG, and FAULTY. And really they’re just worshipping a demon who plays kindly.
and its honestly beautiful how much you love your partners, thats real love. And thats what people should take in.
Its so fucking simple how easily society could get better if people just fucking accepted each other
twin lake
It's the same as racism and xenophobia and everything else to me. You are hating or trying to change another person because of WHO THEY ARE
That's not your right
They are different
They're unique
Just because they have a different skin color, love life, gender, beliefs or anything else doesn't mean you should hate them.
I only hate people who hurt my loved ones or who lack basic human empathy
buoyant pier
it was never a right in the first place, that’s something their god didn’t want
people hate because they feel superior to others, especially if its usually the socially unacceptable. Which is yet again as fucking foolish as driving a semi into an orphanage because someone told you to.
i only hate people who hurt me and my loved ones too, that’s important, and thats exactly what more this world needs. REAL LOVE.
twin lake
Religion (especially ones like Christianity which claim to spread love) only spreads hate in the world
And we don't need anymore of that shit
I've never once felt loved or cared for by a Christian that isn't my mom
My boyfriend lost his dad from his life cus he's gay
All because he's Christian
twin lake
My boyfriend lost his dad from his life cus he's gay
(on top of a couple other reasons but still)
buoyant pier
My family tree was never religious. So i may not know alot with religion stuff
im really sorry that happened too Logan.
Wouldnt it seem like a gay christian should be treated well because theyre a christian?
sure doesnt look like it to other christians, which is utterly ridiculous cause arent the religious SUPPOSED to love everyone. As LITERALLY STATED by the bible.
Its just ludicrous, purely and utterly absurd.
I dont pity them, thats on them for being dicks.
they broke their own rules.
twin lake
I was raised Christian my whole family is for the most part. I left religion as a whole after realizing everything it claims to spread just doesn't happen.
Like the Christians in this world genuinely don't have empathy for anyone
I've been nothing but treated horribly because of it
I sit here and I'm a good person without a god telling me to be
I love everyone
Care for everyone
Wanna help everyone
I have issues with myself but one thing I don't is my kindness
I'm a genuinely kind person
All I want is the best for everyone
Everyone to be treated with kindness and respect
How is that so hard for these people to understand
When their own religion is literally ABOUT LOVE AND RESPECT
buoyant pier
because they dont know what true kindness is like. And they were never a true religious if they dont know how to love and respect.
its hard for them because they’re making it hard on purpose, they want to be the center of society and whatnot, its all just a game for them. And theyre cheating.
Literally everything, they can he greedy, lustful, gluttonous, wrathful, slothful, envious and what ever the fuck. its them who are sinful, because they’re making are actively doing it.
and if i dont recall, isnt the holy spirit supposed to bring love and protect everyone regardless? idk. But id believe that would be blasphemy
twin lake
Like I'm just
Fuck man
And the fact there's christians out there who think atheists don't have morals or know kindness
Because we don't have God to show us
BITCH
I don't need God to be kind
If you need someone to tell you to be kind what does that say about you
buoyant pier
that says you know nothing of kindness, or rather chose not to know kindness
twin lake
If you don't do everything in your power to help others you simply aren't a good person
I won't hesitate to lay a bitch out
Regardless of gender or beliefs
And people that lack empathy and only care about themselves deserve to be played tf out
buoyant pier
they deserve a lesson.
in their minds they dont deserve to be “laid out”, their religion wants to solve with respect and love, which has never actually happened.
like if you put a bitch down it’s inevitable you are too, but tenfold.
buoyant pier
they deserve a lesson.
in their minds they dont deserve to be “laid out”, their ...
Not you tho, you have a valid reason
more then valid actually
twin lake
more then valid actually
buoyant pier
twin lake
Step on the glass
Staple your tongue
Bury a friend
teal cloak
Step on the glass
Staple your tongue
Bury a friend
Sounds painful Ngl
twin lake
Boyfriend goes to the hospital tmr
Idk why I'm so anxious about it. It's a really basic operation and has a beyond low chance of hurting him. But I'm still worried and anxious
twin lake
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can.
Your beauty is beyond compare with flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin and eyes of emerald green
Your smile is like a breath of spring, your voice is soft like summer rain
And I cannot compete with you, Jolene.
He talks about you in his sleep and there's nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name, Jolene
But I can easily understand how you could easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, Jolene.
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can.
You could have your choice of men but I could never love again
He's the only one for me, Jolene
I had to have this talk with you, my happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, Jolene.
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him even though you can.
Jolene, Jolene, (Jolene...)
I love this song so fucking much
I hate how I relate to it tho lmfao
twin lake
Boyfriend is leaving for his op
Still worried
Idk why I'm like this. Any kind thing that goes on with him I worry
buoyant pier
Boyfriend is leaving for his op
Still worried
Idk why I'm like this. Any kind t...
its because you care so deeply, and so much. I understand i know things will be alright, he’ll be alright Logan. I know he will.
Just keep on going, keep on thinking, never lose your hope, he might need it.
i hope the both of you are well, love you man/p
youre not weird or anything for worrying like that, thats love, and that kind of love is beautiful
teal cloak
Hai Logan. We might not be very close but I wanna say that I hope you're okay. I hope everything goes better in your life and I hope you find happiness if you don't already have it. Everything will always get better no matter what you just have to keep hoping and keep dreaming! Take care of yourself. Eat,drink,sleep. Anything. You matter ‼️
twin lake
This was never the way I planned
Not my intention
I got so brave, drink in hand
Lost my discretion
It's not what, I'm used to
Just wanna try you on
I'm curious for you
Caught my attention
I kissed a boy and I liked it
The taste of his cherry chapstick
I kissed a boy just to try it
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I liked it
No, I don't even know your name
It doesn't matter
You're my experimental game
Just human nature
It's not what, good boys do
Not how they should behave
My head gets so confused
Hard to obey
I kissed a boy and I liked it
The taste of his cherry chapstick
I kissed a boy just to try it
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I liked it
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I kissed a boy just to try it
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it
I kissed a boy and I liked it
The taste of his cherry chapstick
I kissed a boy just to try it
I hope my girlfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong
It felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight
I kissed a boy and I liked it
I liked it
GAY
GAY
HOMOSEXUAL
GAY
twin lake
I have polar opposite personalities online and irl
Like dead ass
I'm much more myself here than irl
I'm so cut off and colorless irl
twin lake
LEYS GO
twin lake
My head needs to shut the fuck up
Overthinking constantly again
Bro we're nearly three years into this relationship and I still think I'm bad
That he'll leave
Fuck is wrong with me
For something as stupid as being bigger or something
Fitting his type more
Fuck what's wrong with me
twin lake
There's days I wanna break
buoyant pier
you don’t have to stay strong all the time fren
Just breathe, breathe and take it slowly, little by little, ill help you carry your burdens.
Youre not alone my frend
u don’t have to carry anything all at once, by yourself, that much is too big for one person.
Im here Logan, just breathe with me fren
things might be overwhelming right now, and im really sorry.
But remember i, we both promised to help eachother stay strong. And i still hold onto that dearly, so keep pushing whatever it is you’re fighting, ill push with you
youre safe here Logan, im here now
buoyant pier
twin lake
Thank you for always being here Johnny
buoyant pier
always Loganalways and forever
buoyant pier
And fuck I can't play for shit