Johnnies mindscape wooooowww

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

FUCKING ANGYRY BIRD PIG ON A SWIVEL CHAIR

[bright sun]

Bad piggies level

[solemn trout]

LEVEL

[bright sun]

😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

LOGAN

LOG 🪵 bfloab

LOGNAVS

LOGBAA

LOGABA

[bright sun]

WHAT

[solemn trout]

WHAT DO i DRw

DRAW

[bright sun]

the first thing my mind went to in not PG so let me think 😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

PLEse dont be ABOUT FFREDDU

OR THE PIG

ACTYlly im FIND WITH THE PIG

[bright sun]

THE PIG KILLING FREDDY

🗣️

[solemn trout]

IM SORRY

HE DID IT

[bright sun]

🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

[solemn trout]

IM SO FHANKFUL FOR THE PIG

HE FUCKING KILLED FRWDIDUDR FARTBAAZT

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

NICOLE WATERSON

IM DRAWING NICOLE WATERSON

1%

OK IMAGINE THIS

A HORSE APPEARS IN FRONT OF YOU 50 FEET IN THE AIR IT LOWERS ITSELF SLOWLY AND BREATHS A DENSE BLACK GAS OUT OF ITS MOUTH AND YOU FALL ASLEEP FOAMING IN THE MOUTH

AND ALL YOU HEAR IS

haaaaaaaaaaaagghhhh

[bright sun]

ARE YOU SURE YOU HAVEN'T TAKEN ANY SUBSTANCES 😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

NO

YES

YES

YSS

[bright sun]

I WAS GONNA SAY WDYM NO

[solemn trout]

YES

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

THIS FREDDY AFAZBAREAR
LIKE WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS GUYS PROBLEM MAN

HE KEEPS CRASHING MY GAME

AND HES A FUCKING IDIOT BEAR

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

HOLY

IM WHIPPING UP SOMETHIMG BEAUTUFUL

I AM SO FUCKING MOODY

[bright sun]

😭😭

[solemn trout]

UH

IM SORRY

[bright sun]

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT THING

[solemn trout]

SHREK OR SOMETHING I DONT KNOW

HERE ILL DRAW HIM BETTER

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

NEVERMIND I CANT

IM FUCKING SOBBING OVER IT

[bright sun]

WDYM SOBBING 😭

[solemn trout]

ITS HORRIFYING

[bright sun]

I MUST SEE

[solemn trout]

I CANT😭😭😭

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

PH MY FUCKING GOD IM MORTIFIED

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

WHAT DID YOU START

DRAW

[solemn trout]

SORRY

IM ACTUALLY CRYING OVER THIS

I CANT SHOW IT HERE😭😭😭

HES IN A FUCKING POOL FLOATIE

[bright sun]

MY DMS EXIST 😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

I MADE A FUCKING DIGITAL FOOTPRINT😭

[solemn trout]

These would go fucking sick as my mountain biking attire
I might buy them pretty soon

[solemn trout]

i want tuna so bad affhfjfgfhhgjh

[solemn trout]

Blblblllblnlbkblblblbknkbl

Bored

Sooooooooooooo boorreeedddsde

Buh

Bored

Bored Bored

Bored Bored Bored Bored

Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored Bored

[solemn trout]

Small portion of the games i play
:P

Last pic was OLD ASF

Guh i need to sleep now for real

I pray the best for everyone

[bright sun]

Get some rest man
Love you dawg/p

[solemn trout]

i will youve got some well deserved rest waiting.
I love you too man<3 /p

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

[solemn trout]

Goodmorrning

Bwaaaaa bwa

[solemn trout]

I hope you all have a good day :3

Love you all so much

[solemn trout]

WOAH

i ated it

UM WHAT😭

[bright sun]

Ofc you would be amazed but something shaped like that

[bright sun]

MY CROSSBOW HAS YOUR NAME ON IT OIL CANISTER

[solemn trout]

https://tenor.com/view/lebron-james-crying-baby-celebrate-meme-gif-25564236

THATS A PICKLE

[bright sun]

BUT THE SHAPE

[solemn trout]

JUST AN ORDINARY PICKLE

THATS HOW PICKLES ARE SHAPED

[bright sun]

ITS THICK

[solemn trout]

THEYRE ROUND AT THE EDGES AND CYLINDRICAL

[bright sun]

GIRTHY

[solemn trout]

I CHOSE A BIG JAR OKAY😭

[bright sun]

GIRTH

[solemn trout]

NOT A BAD THING

ITS ACTUALLY BETTER

YOU GET MORE PICKLE

[bright sun]

THICK

[solemn trout]

THICK A

A

[bright sun]

😭😭

[solemn trout]

WHERE DID THE A COME FROM

[bright sun]

THICK ASS

[solemn trout]

I SEE THAT

[bright sun]

WHA

WDYM YOU DO

[solemn trout]

I ALREADY ATE THE DAMN PICKLE

[bright sun]

😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

SHUT YIREPRPRP

URP

[bright sun]

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN

😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

IM HINGRY

[bright sun]

FOR GIRTH

[solemn trout]

NO😭

😭😭😭

😭😭

😭

😭

😭

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

FOR THE PICKLES

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

I LIKE PICKLES OKAY

I LOVE DM

EM

[bright sun]

NO WONDER YOU DO

THEY'RE SHAPED

[solemn trout]

DUH THEY TASYE GOOD

[solemn trout]

THATS NATURAL

[bright sun]

THATS WHAT THEY ALL SAY

BUT THERES NO WAY TO EAT A CUCUMBER WITHOUT LOOKING GAY

[solemn trout]

YOU CUT IT

CUT THE CUCUMBER

AND EAT UT

IT

DONT JUST EAT IT WHOLE

[bright sun]

SO LIKE YOU LIKE SMALLER

[solemn trout]

NOT AT ALL

ALSO

[bright sun]

AVG SIZE THEN

[solemn trout]

YOURE RELENTLESS

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

IM BEING BULLIED

[bright sun]

I BET YOU LIKE IT

[solemn trout]

I LIKE THE BIGGER PICKLES CAUSE THEY OFFER MORE PICKLE THEN OTHER PICKLES

[bright sun]

REALLY HITS THE SPOT DOESN'T JT

[solemn trout]

PICKLE PERSPECTIVE

YEAH I ATE THAT

IM NOT A FREAK

USUALLY

[bright sun]

YOU SURE

I KNEW IT

[bright sun]

I KNEW IT

[solemn trout]

WHAT

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

IM BEING BULLIED FOR MY LIKINGS IN FOOD

[bright sun]

YOU LIKE EM THICK AND GIRTHY

[solemn trout]

SCREENSHOT

FINE I DO

[bright sun]

LMFAO 😭😭

[solemn trout]

BUT IN THE CONTEXT ITS SOME EDIBLE

WELL

MORE EDIBLE

[bright sun]

BOTH CONTEXTS

[solemn trout]

https://tenor.com/view/boom-explode-microwave-gif-13736643

[bright sun]

YOUD LOVE TO

Cant finish rhat

Maybe I'm too drunk already

😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

MY MIND FILLED IN THE BLANKS

IMMEDIATELY

😭

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

SUBCONSCIOUSLY

[bright sun]

I KNEW IT

[solemn trout]

ALSO LOOK AT THIS FUCKIN THING

[bright sun]

YOU LOOKING AT

Nope can't say that either

Fick

😭

[solemn trout]

FICK

[bright sun]

FUCK

WHICH US ALSO

Nope

Not that

GOD DAMNIT

😭

[solemn trout]

IM LOST

[bright sun]

GOOD 😭😭

[solemn trout]

I DONT WANT TO ACCIDENTALLY GASLIGHT MYSELF

SO IM FORCING MY BRAIN TO UNUNDERSTAND

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭

YOU FORCE A LOT OF
still no

GOD DAMNIT

THE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS ON TO SAY WHATEVER I WANT

[solemn trout]

PICKLE

[bright sun]

LONG THICK

[solemn trout]

STOP MAKING ME THINK😭

[bright sun]

NEVERR

😭😭

ITS YOUR FAULT FOR YOUR BRAIN

[bright sun]

NOW ITS COMMON PRACTICE

AND MY BRAIN IS FUCKED

JUST LIKE

[solemn trout]

FOR EATING A SLIGHTLY LARGE PICKLE

[bright sun]

Nope

[bright sun]

A LARGE GIRTHY LONG

[solemn trout]

OK IM TOTALLY FINE WITH THAT

[bright sun]

WDYM YOUR FINE WITH THAT

[solemn trout]

I UH

FUCK

IM DEFEATED

[bright sun]

YOU LIKE BEING

[solemn trout]

I LIKE BEING

WHAT

[bright sun]

YOU KNOW EXACTLY WHAT

[solemn trout]

STOP INVADING MY MINDSCAPE

OFF LIMITS

TRESSPASER

[bright sun]

I KNOW YOU

[solemn trout]

NOT FULLY

[bright sun]

IM AWARE OF YOU

IM IN YOUR MIND

[solemn trout]

THE MACHINATIONS OF MY MIND ARE AN ENIGMA

I AM ACUTELY AWARE THAT YOU ARE NOT AI

[bright sun]

OR AM I

AM I JUST A GAY BOT WHO WANTS TO BREAK YOU

[solemn trout]

OK THEN

WHAY SHOULD I NOT EAT THE PICKLE

[bright sun]

BECAUSE THERES SOMETHING ELSE IN A SIMILAR SHAPE YOU WANT

[solemn trout]

LIKE CAKE

[bright sun]

LONG

[solemn trout]

LONG CAKE?

[bright sun]

THICK

[solemn trout]

THICK CAKE

[bright sun]

GIRTHY

[solemn trout]

YEAH THATS GOOD

[bright sun]

HAR

The alcohol is speaking to me

ITS SPEAKING

[solemn trout]

I LOVE EATING CAKE

[bright sun]

THICK, PLUMP XAKE

[solemn trout]

I LOVE GIRTHY LONG THICK CAKE!

[bright sun]

CAKE YOU CAN GET NICE AND DEEP IN

[solemn trout]

DONT FUCKING QUOTE THAT

OR SCREENSHOT THAT DAMN IT

[bright sun]

CAKE YOU JUST TAKE IN

CAKE THAT IS ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL

[solemn trout]

MY STOMACH CAUSE CAKE TASTES GOOD

[bright sun]

VERY DEEP IN THAT CAKE

[solemn trout]

IM EATING IT

[bright sun]

THAT PLUMPNESS

[solemn trout]

AND IM ALREADY FINISHED

[bright sun]

I BET YOU DID FINISH
FUCK I XANT FINISH THAT

[solemn trout]

YEAH OK IM QUICK WITH IT

I REALLY LIKE LEMON CAKE ANYWAYS SO

I WANT MORE

MORE CAKE

I NEED IT

UNIRONICALLY

[bright sun]

YOU LOVW FINISHING THAT CAKE

EATING IR ALL UP

[solemn trout]

I KNOW VRU

I LICKED THE PLATE CLEAN

[bright sun]

OFC YOU LICK IT CLEAN

[solemn trout]

DUH

LICKING MY LIPS CLEAN AND THE FORK

I DONT WANT TO LEAVE ONE TRACE OF CAKE LEFT

[bright sun]

EACH AND EVERY PEACE

PIECE

LICKED DELICIOUSLY CLEAN

[solemn trout]

YEAH

IM PROUD OF MYSELF

[bright sun]

PROUD OF YOURSELF FOR GETTING DEEP IN THERE

[solemn trout]

I SHOULD TREAT MYSELF MORE LIKE THIS

[solemn trout]

IT WAS GREAT ACTUALLY

[bright sun]

IM GETTING EVEN MORE DRUNK

WE GOT A RESIDENT EVIL 9 ANNOUNCEMENT

[solemn trout]

DONT GO TOO OVERBOARD BRO
BUT HAVE FUN

https://tenor.com/view/cat-funny-cat-funny-smile-happy-gif-7621419476068285580

[bright sun]

IM GETTING FUCJING WASTED

[solemn trout]

I ALSO HAVE A POPSICLE

[bright sun]

EVEN BETTER

[solemn trout]

I KNOW

[solemn trout]

IT WAS ONE OF THE MULTICOLORED ONES

YEAH

I ATED THAT THANG

[bright sun]

W

[solemn trout]

3 BITES

[bright sun]

YOU CAN TAKE THAT SHIT CANT YOU

[solemn trout]

PERHAPS

YEAH

[bright sun]

W

THROAT

[solemn trout]

I DONT WANT TO GET INTO THE DETAILS

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

THIS CONVO IS STANDING OVER THE EDGE

[bright sun]

IM ALWAYS ON AN EDGE

[solemn trout]

IM SO EDGY

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

MUSIC TASTE

[bright sun]

I LOVW EDGY

[solemn trout]

ONLY MY FUTURE HUSBAND WILL UNDERSTAND ME

FUCK

[bright sun]

HIM AND I DO

[solemn trout]

FFFFJJ

I BIT MY TOJUE

TONGUE

[bright sun]

[bright sun]

ARE YOU OK?

[solemn trout]

YEAH

JUST OW

[solemn trout]

ARE U SURE

[bright sun]

POSITIVE

SPEAK YOUR MIND YOUNG ONE

[solemn trout]

POSITIVE POSITIVE?

[bright sun]

POSITIVE POSITIVE POSITIVE

[solemn trout]

I SEE NOW

SO BASICALLY IM GAY AS HELL

[bright sun]

YESSSS

[solemn trout]

IM GONNA DO THE SILLY

[bright sun]

YES
SILLY

[solemn trout]

IM GONNA SILLY

IM SILLYING

OG MY FOOOOOD

OH MY GOOODNESS

RAHHH

IM FUCKING SILLY

SALT

THIS IS METAPHORICAL

LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR🗣️

LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR🗣️

LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR🗣️

LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR🗣️

[bright sun]

W SILLY

[solemn trout]

GOD I LOVE RIDING

[bright sun]

I BET YOU DO

[solemn trout]

IN FACT

IM GONNA BE SELLING MY BIKE

SO I CAN GET A FULL SUSPENSION

ONE THAT WONT ABSOLUTELY DESTROY MY ASS

[bright sun]

I THOUGHT UOU LOVED
cant finish that

[solemn trout]

UH

I HAVE NO ARGUMENT

I HAVE ANOTHER HARDTAIL SO IM FIND

IF I WAS A WOMAN I WOULD STILL BE GAG🗣️

GAY

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/925971776566067221.gif?size=48&quality=lossless&name=SkypeSpeaking

[bright sun]

But-

[solemn trout]

IM UNSTOPPBALE

[bright sun]

Then youd like women

[terror]

[solemn trout]

gross

[bright sun]

EXACTLY

[solemn trout]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/925971776566067221.gif?size=48&quality=lossless&name=SkypeSpeaking

[bright sun]

MEN

WE LOVE MEN

[solemn trout]

MEBEBEBEE

YS

YES

[bright sun]

ALL MEN

[solemn trout]

Y

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/925971776566067221.gif?size=48&quality=lossless&name=SkypeSpeaking

[bright sun]

SMALL

TALL

BIG

SHORT

LARGE

SKINNY

ALL KEN

MEN

ALL MEN

SO BASED

[solemn trout]

101%

EVERY MAN IN THE WORLD COME OVER I WANT TO PARTY

[bright sun]

YES

FURCON ROOM PARTY

[solemn trout]

YES

EVERYWHERE

ANYWHERE

HOWEVER

FOREVER

AND EVERYONE GETS HUGS

ESPECIALLY LOGAN AND MY OTHER FRIENDS

THERE WILL BE BEER AND BEDTIME STORIES

AND EVERUTHING NILLY WILLY AND FUN

GARAGE IS OFF LIMITS THO

VIP SECTION

[bright sun]

WW

[solemn trout]

VIP SECTION IS COOOOOOLL

WE GOT

STUFF

YUH

GUH

[bright sun]

I MUST GO TO A ROOM PARTY

[solemn trout]

VIP SECTION

THERE WILL BE

FRENCH TOAST AND CANDLES

AND LOTS OF OTHER THINGS

AND ALSO DANCING

SLOW DANCING AND IRISH JIGS

[bright sun]

ALCOHOL?

[solemn trout]

EVERYWHERE

IM URGING

GET DRUNK TONIGHT

GETTING

IM GONNA SILLY AND SLURP

AALLLLLL THE YUM

A MAN WHO YEARNS IS A MAN WHO EARNS

DOESNT LINE UP WITH ME THO

[bright sun]

AS LONG AS YOU'LL BE SAFE

[solemn trout]

I WILLLL I PROMISE PROMISE

I MIGHT RANT ABOUT FAILING TO BE ACCEPTED INTO A RELATIONSHIP

EXPECT THAT

[bright sun]

AS LONG AS YOU'LL BE OK😭

[solemn trout]

I WILL

I WONT GO TOO HARD

[bright sun]

EVEN DRUNK IM WORRYING ABOUT YOU😭😭

[burnt snow]

LeBron…..

[solemn trout]

https://tenor.com/view/gunna-evil-train-evil-train-amazed-gif-10646266488740545349

[burnt snow]

Gunna a rat but that’s an evil
Ass train Ngl

[solemn trout]

Evil ass train… 😔

[solemn trout]

ill be okay:3 i promise you

[solemn trout]

RAHHHH

[solemn trout]

I really hope you all are okay

im just feeling really worried fsr i dont know why

Uugghhfghj

I didnt even do anything

My blood sugars are high as shit and my pump is dead and i cant find my charger

Im 440

fickinh hell mg vision is fucked

and ahen i stNd up i trip over

dizzy

I feel like my heart is in my throat

fuckinf hell i cant find my insulin

YSS

YES

FUCK YES

I FOUND IT

OH MY GOD

servers been so quiet

[steep star]

Indeed

[bright sun]

Jesus Christ
Are you alright John?!
I was drinking with some friends

So sorry

[solemn trout]

Im okay im oky
Dont apologize you haven’t done anything wrong, i was just forgot where i put it.
My heads pounding like nuts though

Im still high but its getting down slowly

god, beer really skyrockets my blood sugars

no more drinks for me, i dont want to go into hyperglycemic coma

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

[bright sun]

I got so worried so fast

[solemn trout]

Sorry, im safe now im just not feeling well rn, itll take a little bit to get back to normal

[bright sun]

Ok. Be safe ok. My own heart rate shot up I really thought something bad happened

[solemn trout]

I swear i will, im sorry for stressing you out so much
i’ll remember where i put my insulin next time just for you

[bright sun]

It's ok. No need to apologize. I'm your friend I'm gonna worry. Especially when it comes to stuff that's health related. I'm just relieved and glad you're ok

[solemn trout]

I just dont have any words to express how god damn thankful i am😭

[bright sun]

I'm Thankful you're ok too

[solemn trout]

[bright sun]

https://tenor.com/view/furry-hug-furry-hug-gif-4599868346549116697

[bright sun]

Stay safe Johnny

[solemn trout]

you have my word. I will stay safe

You better stay safe too lol, i trust you with everything

[solemn trout]

meow meow

Meowmeow

Meow

Meowmeowmeia

Meow

Meow

Wood

Woof

Wood

Woof

Woof

[solemn trout]

“There's a lit cigarette
In the hand of my new angel
She's blowing smoke like halos
And now everybody wants her” 🗣️🗣️🗣️

[solemn trout]

being pressured to trauma dump

fucking dick

blocked

[solemn trout]

Im honestly a mess inside. I know i have the loveliest of friends to keep me company and talk to. But just generally, i always leave the chat when i see a couple in it(other servers).
And im so fucking jealous, im practically desperate to be with someone, But i dont want to be obsessive.
I have all this unused love in my heart that just sits there locked up. And it just all burns away then comes back and repeats. I cant stand being alone, i dont want to have to go back to my old relationship.
-# dont ask abt that.

Theres a void that struggles to close, im just waiting for someone, something to close it.
I want to marry them, i want to live my life with them, i want to hold them and be held, i want to do all the little things ive yearned to do for years. And i dont give a fuck what they look like or how they act. Someone i can say hi and bye to every day, someone i can express myself fully to without being self conscious or scared. Someone who can feel for me when im hurt inside
Ik its pointless for me to say all this but i just wanna

[lilac rain]

Hiya I'm so sorry that your dealing with all this but you deserve so much better if you want to be friends I'm here 4 u or even want to talk to me I'm here !

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

Thankies
im feeling better now, i just cried. But im relieved

[solemn trout]

[bright sun]

Always always here for you man. Never gonna abandon you<33/p

You mean the absolute most to me another human can. I'm never leaving your side

[solemn trout]

I dont have any words, i just love you so fucking much /p
i cant imagine a life where i didn’t have you

Also im starting to build me a gap jump

im gonna be mountain biking now cant talk for a while, sorry. I love you all so so much <33 /p

[lilac rain]

Good good

[solemn trout]

Im back HEOOOAOAOAIAH

from bike

god i feel so good

But my legs are fucked up from fatigue

[solemn trout]

wheelied the last one

[solemn trout]

Todays been good.

[burnt snow]

That good looking hella good

[solemn trout]

God it is:3

[solemn trout]

https://open.spotify.com/track/6gfUOprNMeD8amncMOSFl0?si=Q2efrepkR623xzU0Kg83
i sympathize with this song so hard

[solemn trout]

https://tenor.com/view/furry-gif-6361263715529090234

[solemn trout]

Vruhggh

my shirt is way to big

slipping off my shoulder and everything

[solemn trout]

GGAAAHGHHHHHHHHHH

I HAVENT STRETCHED OUT IN FOREVER

MY BACK IS RUINNed

man why you puttih all that peppa on tha steak

take all tha peppa off ther

I DRIVE BETTER WHEN IM TIRED

[solemn trout]

I js saw someone hook up with a dude BECAUSE HE WAS FUCKING SOUTHERN. THATS IT. THATS ALL IT TOOK

IN CHAT DIFFERENT SERVER

COME ON MAN

FUCK

Holy selective picky asshole😭

im not one to argue tho

its just kinda pathetic imo that you love someone just because they live in the bottom half of your country😭😭

[solemn trout]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/1176218812811591770.gif?quality=lossless&name=cateat

Bored

[bright sun]

Bro the amount I just don't understand that is insane😭

[solemn trout]

This generations perception of love is absolutely rotten😭

“OH MY GODS HE WALKS ON HIS HEELS!!! I WANT TO MARRY HIM” like bitch dont you have bunions😭😭😭

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭

It's like how height is a deal breaker for people. Bro. Why. Make it make sense. I'd date a guy who's 7ft or 4'1
As long as he loves me 😭

Like why is love conditional nowadays 😭

[solemn trout]

cause people are selective and dont want responsibility😭

[bright sun]

I'm so not picky it's insane 😭
Small, big, short, tall, muscular, skinny, Health or mental problems irdc

Just care about me 😭

[solemn trout]

I never gave a single fuck about what or who or how they are. Just if your kind and loyal you got me there😭

[bright sun]

EXACTLY

Like just don't cheat on me
Use me
And be a good person

Well
I guess there's a small requirement of being a guy but like 😭

[solemn trout]

small requirement😭thats an ideal dawg

[bright sun]

Well me personally as long as your AMAB and not a trans women I'll prolly date you 😭

I feel like those aren't bad requirements

😭

[solemn trout]

i wouldn’t think they are

[solemn trout]

Hope ur all okay

Studying is so boring wtf afgfhhj

[burnt snow]

Are you in collage

[solemn trout]

I am:3 i study Botany

[solemn trout]

guyhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh tf do i do im bored

[solemn trout]

i actually took my fuck ass time to draw my oc in there😭😭
And yuh i went overboard

[bright sun]

I didn't know you were ace😭

[solemn trout]

IM GAY ASF BUT I DONT WANNA YKNOW AT ALL😭

[bright sun]

I GET THAT I JUST DIDN'T KNOW YOU WERE ACE 😭

[solemn trout]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1222659466819010673/1239546805394604082/convert.gif

[bright sun]

LIKE ITS NOT LIKE I CARE BUT I JUST DIDN'T KNOW 😭😭

Kinda shocked me lmfao 😭😭

[solemn trout]

IM NOT THAT FREAKY DAWG😭😭😭

BUT NOW YOU KNOW😭

[bright sun]

I NEVER AAID YOU WERE😭😭😭

Just surprised
Most ace people don't fw me 😭😭

[solemn trout]

WELL I DO😭

HEAVILY

[bright sun]

😭😭😭THANK YOU

NEW JOHNATHAN LORE I GUESS 😭😭

[solemn trout]

GOAT😭😭

[bright sun]

NO U 😭😭

[solemn trout]

LOGOAT😭😭

[bright sun]

NO

😭😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

YES

[bright sun]

NIEN

😭😭

[solemn trout]

JA

😭😭

[bright sun]

Нет😭😭

[solemn trout]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/996357214510010418/1314881353296252958/viddit_b547a69a.gif

I SAID YES

[bright sun]

GIMME MY MOUTH BACK
I NEED TO YAP

😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/926628091395190824/1277468327178145812/toothdecay-ezgif.com-optimize.gif

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭

IM NOT THE GOAT
YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

THATS WHAT THE GOAT WOULD SAY

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

DONT COPY PASTE WHAT I SAID

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT NO YOU'RE THE GOAT NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/1176218812811591770.gif?quality=lossless&name=cateat

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1237444098462453884/1347657419521527902/copy_84877E2E-E21A-463A-AA2D-A728D047E8FE.gif

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[bright sun]

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

NO YOU'RE THE GOAT

[solemn trout]

NO
YOURE
THE
GOAT

[bright sun]

NO

YOU*

[solemn trout]

NO
YOURE
THE
GOAT

NO
YOURE
THE
GOAT

[bright sun]

BO

NO

YOU

[solemn trout]

😼 yeah what you said, ‘you’

[bright sun]

😭😭😭

Side note
I'm genuinely shocked an ace person actually fw me 😭
They always say I'm too much cus of ykw 😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

@sudden dock WHOS THE GOAT ME OR LOGAN
SAY LOGAN
SAY LOGAN
SAY LOGAN LOGAN LOGAN

[solemn trout]

youre never too much😭😭youre more than i could ever ask for
im your friend cus i want to be😭i always fw you regardless of identity

[bright sun]

I MEAN LIKE
IM REALLY FREAKY SO YK 😭😭
I did kinda have a whole conversation about how being slutty is ok 😭😭😭😭

APPARENTLY I'M A LOT FOR SOME PEOPLE

😭😭

[solemn trout]

nothing you say or do is gonna make me break away😭😭im actually with it

[bright sun]

😭😭😭😭

You're the first one yk lmfao 😭😭

[solemn trout]

im honored😭you deserve more people like that who accept you

[bright sun]

YOU CANT LIE THO I AM A LOT
IM A VERY SPECIFIC KIND OF PERSON 😭😭

[solemn trout]

FINE YOU MIGHT BE ‘ALOT’ IN A SENSE BUT NOTHING YOUVE DONE HAS OVERWHELMED ME OR MADE ME THINK WRONGLY OF YOU😭😭

[bright sun]

IM GLAD 😭😭😭

NOT MANY PEOPLE CAN SAY THE SAME 😭😭😭

[solemn trout]

WELL IM GLAD TO BE THE FIRST😭😭 YOU DESERVE IT

[bright sun]

😭😭😭

IN GLAD YOU'RE HERE 😭😭

[solemn trout]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/880342502660530176/1295085289449980025/mar_you_crane.gif

[bright sun]

ALCOHOL OVER ORIGAMI 😭😭

[solemn trout]

[bright sun]

I love this emoji 😭😭

[solemn trout]

🧌

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

[solemn trout]

bump cus idk

[solemn trout]

God I’d literally kill for someone to scratch my back and massage

I’m rolling around on my back rn and pawing at the air

[solemn trout]

really tho i would absolutely melt into a hug

Any hug

from anyone

It’s something i think about alot, considering that my cousin is very self consumed

i don’t want to talk about it anymore rn. I don’t want to brood and bring myself down, i need think clearly

Have a goodnight lovelies:33333 <33 /p
I wish you all an easy rest and a warm morning

if I’ve said anything earlier today that I missed that didn’t sit right or made you feel bad, im sorry :[

[sudden dock]

https://tenor.com/view/both-agree-yes-good-gif-4591420

[solemn trout]

Ghuh fuck im hallucinating again

my ears are ringingg just stop already come on

booo stupid brain

[burnt snow]

Bro what

You all good my man?

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

im okay

i forced myself to sleep, sorry i couldnt respond

[solemn trout]

[burnt snow]

It’s all good. I’m glad your okay

[solemn trout]

love that word makes me look down at the ground and bare my eyes into the ground.
I crave it. Almost desperately.
Ive always just wanted to be held, cradled in their arms. I want to feel their chin rest atop my forehead while they cradle my head and run their hands through my hair. I want to feel them hug tightly me from behind to the point i cant even move. I want to see them smile when i look at them.
i will give them exactly what i want from them.

And about online… i could say the same. Someone to talk to when im alone or bored or sad, that will help me out. Someone who will say kind things to me and not just leave. a nice talk and sweet nothings whispered in the call and text.
Loyalty, kindness, honesty, trust, love, happiness, passion. Why cant i just have it? Ive already done so much and all ive gotten is a broken heart. Everyone else gets it so easily, people who hook up just because of simple things. Relationships forming on servers like this where i know i wont. People get it all so easyily but i have to keep trying, and i still fail.
Its all a mess in my life, i cant stay like this for long or im gonna regret being single.

🍍

🏌️‍♂️

A THUMBS DOWN FOR MY LOVE LIFE

[solemn trout]

And i know it’s GENERALLY not easy to get what im stating. Its just all the people i know do get it easily. And thats all ive known, that its so easy to find love. And my life seems to defy every one of my needs

i feel like im asking for too much

I get clingy too easily i think…

Not in an obsessive way. In a way where they’re attention makes me happy, and I want to be around them

Im both a fustercluck and a clusterfuck

I hope yall are doing ok, especially you logan. Im really sorry for what happened..

Please take care of the kitten as much as possible

[solemn trout]

I hope this doesnt make me an uninteresting person

and im sorry if anything i say stresses you out, even if its a little. I dont mean to

[bright sun]

I am. We brought her in for the night.

[bright sun]

You're a human John. You want human things. Doesn't change a thing

I'm gonna worry about you. Ofc I will. But it's normal. You worry about me and I worry about you

You don't have to apologize for a thing you say or do

[solemn trout]

thank you so much for being here Logan
I can’t thank you enough

[bright sun]

You're my best friend John
I ain't going nowhere

[solemn trout]

you are too, and im not eithernot in forever

all i wish for is just someone that see’s me really

and it’s exhausting

Too exhausting for me

[bright sun]

It's really exhausting

But you'll get there

I understand. Trust me I do. But someone like you doesn't go unseen forever

You're a beautiful soul

[solemn trout]

it’s felt longer than forever, one point in time it will eventually break me.
But i really do hope that doesn’t happen.
almost everyone around me is in a relationship, and i witness hookups everyday in other servers. And there’s just nothing i can do, wether its online or irl.
Its not just exhausting, it hurts.

[bright sun]

I know it hurts. But you're fucking gorgeous. The people who Ignore you are the people who are wrong. The people who fuck up. The people who take for granted what's right in front of them. And I'll tell you this straight up you'd be a fuckin amazing boyfriend. You really would and will be. There's not a damn thing wrong with you or who you are. You don't have to change or do anything. The people looking past you just don't understand how perfect you are/p

Love

will

Find you

[solemn trout]

im finished with trying to find a physical relationship, nobody wants me, yet. But i dont know about online, im still after the same thing, its just more confusing.
And I really, really wish youre right. Sometimes i dont know if i can keep holding on to that hope.
But thank you for believing in me, it feels a little more real with you saying it/p

i trust you

[bright sun]

Im glad you do because I'm telling the truth and nothing but the truth

Like it's hard to articulate what I mean because of how my sexuality works considering I can only feel romantic attraction to one person at a time. But like if say I wasn't dating anyone there would probably be something brewing for you considering how fun, kind, genuine, funny, considerate, empathetic and compassionate you are. Now obviously that's not the world we live in considering I am with someone and I'm Mono-romantic. But I hope you get what I'm trying to say. Its not impossible for someone to love you.

And if someone like me (who has severe trust, abandonment and a lot of other issues) could've probably felt something. Then anyone can. It's not a far fetched thing to say someone is gonna love and adore you

Again it's hard to like get across my point without sounding like I like you in that way (i don't, it's platonic I can't physically feel that way considering my sexuality) but I hope it makes sense

[solemn trout]

I understand completely, and I really appreciate you saying it. It honestly means more than you know to hear all that from someone I care about so much. I respect your relationship fully, but still, it’s comforting to know that someone like you sees those things in me. /p
-# I too have some issues, but im not getting into that.

Youve made me feel better, a little less unlovable today. Thats huge, thank you so fucking much.

now please excuse me im going to cry myself into a napi dont take you for granted, your more than i could ever wish for.

[bright sun]

I love you to death man /p
I promise you'll get there

[solemn trout]

I love you too /p
i really needed this, thank you Logan
Ill be back soon

[bright sun]

Ok
I'll be here when you are
Always

[solemn trout]

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

Im back

I feel relieved but not exactly different

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

ughf my pillow is soaking wet

[bright sun]

You alright Johnny?

[solemn trout]

Im fine, my pillows just wet from crying.
I might just stay in bed all day and brood but im not really sure. I need to stay active
Thank you

[bright sun]

I'm here if you need me

Any and always

[solemn trout]

No word, no action, in existence can express how thankful i am for you.
Youre a star, i love you so fucking much man /p

[bright sun]

You never have to do anything for me
Just continue to be here

[solemn trout]

Sorry im crying again
lounge is off the edge and doggo is leaving the server and.
I feel so powerless

[solemn trout]

thankyouy

[bright sun]

I know
I'm sorry so much is happening

[solemn trout]

god i just bought myself jimmy johns and now i don’t want to eat anything

i actually don’t know what to do

[bright sun]

[burnt snow]

Hey John you wanna join a gc w me, Logan, ramen, mads, doggo?

[solemn trout]

sure, i might not talk too often tho

[burnt snow]

That’s all good

[solemn trout]

I have a feeling im going to cry myself to sleep tonight

[solemn trout]

I don’t think I am!

[solemn trout]

theres that feeling again

Like i have to cry because itll makes me feel better

ugh lifes just not fair. Plain and simple. I shouldn’t even worry about it if its something i can expect

sorry if i make any of you sad or feel bad about this.
Please dont.
I dont want to stress anyone out

i killed the gc

Ugfhh

Sorry

man

[bright sun]

https://tenor.com/view/furry-hug-furry-hug-gif-4599868346549116697

[solemn trout]

Logan I really hope you get better
Im scared for you man
I don’t want anything to happen to you

i really wish i could take that pain off of you

genuinely

I hate seeing my friends in pain so much

please stay safe man, i know you can get through this. you matter to me like a brother /srs

[solemn trout]

im just gonna be expressing my thoughts here rn

Don’t worry about me im not feeling bad rn or fonna do anything absurd

so

my life

Purpose

lifes purpose

i feel like i was built, physically and mentally. Just for mountain biking

Like ik its just a sport

but its so much more to me

Its my lifeline

Without it

i wouldnt have anything to do but lay around in the house all alone

im not acceptable of love
Im dont have and physical company
I dont have a riding buddy that actually listens to me when i want to go ride

im a loner
And really
I embrace that.
Unfortunately so

No ones gonna want me anyways so im gonna make myself want more of myself

my potential

My future

i know i can do it

by myself

ive been burned and scarred but i reforge through the fire

i need to stay strong for everyone i love

Everyone i know

really

My life’s pointless.
But i always find something to occupy myself from thinking that way

and i stay consistent

Ehh

Insistent really

but i always know

That my life

Means more to me then i could ever imagine

and to my friends

i dont hurt myself because i know i will regret it. Because i know my friends will give up what they can to help me

Not saying i dont want your help

I do

its just i dont want you to hurt just to heal me

and brbrrrrffghghjgjfjfjfj

I cant join the marines

Ugh

i totally would if i could

Diabetes bites you in the ass in more than one direction

But i am signing up for SWAT in the near future

im not confident in myself.
I know i can do it.
No glaze. No brag.

I just have that thought locked in the frontlines of my mind

hmhm thank you for reading

making dinner!

especially you Logan. Im staying strong for you fren /p

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

This also goes for the people ive tried to save. And all the people that smiled at me.

And everyone in the lgbtq community, and other related groups

Mountain biking-hitting a jump-catching air-fist in the air and a finger to the sky-kissing this cruel world FUCK EM ALL

actually tf i should record me doing that next time i go out

and im not just trying to stay strong

I need you all to stay strong too

No specific reason, its for yourself, for the side of this world that fights and cares. for me

[solemn trout]

And even if you have no reason… thats a reason itself to stay strong

and if you cant do it, you have all the time in the world. No ones stopping you.
You. Got. This.

I. Believe. In. You.

Even if i dont know you.
Dont take my words for granted

and

Its not just about being strong

Its about survival

https://tenor.com/view/snow-leopard-jumpscare-snep-gif-5063034205420097622

and i hope u trust me

Because i trust you.

[solemn trout]

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

idk what to do

bored

ogghhj

i feel horrible

My blood sugars are skyrocketing and i feel stressed and my gut is telling me something is wrong

and i just feel disinterested in doing anything today

oh well my knees are buckling when i stand up i guess

I feel like i did something wrong. Or is it just my high blood sugars… im having a hard time understanding

i just want someone beside me so badly it hurts.
But im not gonna glorify it.

and even if its online.
Still not glorying it.

glufkfuhboaosba xbaiabsbckaknsbd

Blu blu lbu lbu lb koi gifuf fi gli glu glu

[solemn trout]

stupid fucking tree

bored

again

utredgghyfghj

[solemn trout]

brokedown in the shower earlier. Im confused as to why i do this oftenly…

https://open.spotify.com/track/4OrsxzojjNNyNmQrIc5pzH?si=eujfognRQsONVJ7wRWLtaQ
I was listening to this song, maybe thats what happened.

But idk

Im really trying not to think about being by myself

worded that wrong ufggh

im really trying not to think about why im by myself*

but I already know the answer to that
-# i dont

wowie it is late

11:25

big long cold shower

sigh

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

this is nice. Warm soff cozy, utter silence. Nothing but my breathing and my music.

oh to hear another pair of lungs.

“You're an interesting species.
An interesting mix.
You're capable of such beautiful dreams,
and such horrible nightmares.
You feel so lost, so cut off, so alone.
In all our searching, the only thing we've found.
That makes the emptiness bearable,
Is eachother.”

So tired

Heavy ass blankets on and im still cold

[solemn trout]

goodnight

[bright sun]

Nighty Johnny

[solemn trout]

Father hasnt responded to my text yet

he never does

ugfhhj

[solemn trout]

Trails going smoothly
Still in hella progress

[solemn trout]

ignored all day since i woke up
-# not u tho logan, thank you so much
Coincidence, or im fucking everything up where i go.
i dont know

I havent played minecraft in a while

maybe ill do that

fuck being sick makes everything worse

Music, Art, Mountain biking, Extreme sports, being a genuinely good person.

For some reason thats all i see in myself that’s interesting.
Like not to be arrogant. I know theres so much more to me then i know.. its just how i feel right now. And i dont know how to proceed into finding the other puzzle pieces to my life

my glucose levels are 188 and i feel like im 40

life bites you in the ass bigger then any conventional bandage can fit.
Its always the hard things you need to get to stop it all

if i could scream out loud i would feel so good right now. Maybe even sing a little.

I dont like raising my voice tho, i really dont

[burnt snow]

I’m so sorry if I made it seem that way friend

[solemn trout]

its okaymb about the little wait, game is distracting

[solemn trout]

if im being like completely honest

Im absolutely clueless about how online relationships work. Hell even how they start

Like im aware its happened and is happening, even in this server too

but im just so confused

like how do you even find someone. You dont just pop in peoples dm’s and say hi. Youd sound like a creep at first
imo.

and besides that

even catching a sliver of connection with some stranger youve been talking to. Like how, how, what, maybe even a why

yayy minecrafts working again

Spawned right by an outpost

neat

that means a village is close

[burnt snow]

So beautiful

[solemn trout]

marvelous place for a base

[bright sun]

Could never ignore you
Not in a million years

[solemn trout]

thank you boden
Thank you logan

[bright sun]

Always
You're my best friend

[solemn trout]

[solemn trout]

why does everywhere i go i always find a couple smothering eachother in my face and people bragging about their partner. Like what the fuck.
ow.

carrot on a stick and im the fucking pig.

goodnight

sigh im feeling sicker too

[solemn trout]

Im feeling sicker ufdghjjj

I can’t just stay in bed all day

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

Voggfdsaadghjkhfsfghj i wish i had someone, just someone i can spend time with when im sick. Someone real, someone I can hold onto. Someone to just ease me down when im feeling this way
I don’t like being sick.

im still in bed and its 3:12 pm

man

I shit you not if i ever attempt a 6th time for a relationship i will get rejected again

I expect it

God i miss playing with my old friends so much.
Found some old clips of when we were playing gtav

[solemn trout]

blehhhhg bluhbkubh belh bleh blej. Kemhbbdmlddjbrbrnrlrr r nrmernbrbr

[bright sun]

https://tenor.com/view/furry-hug-furry-hug-gif-4599868346549116697

[solemn trout]

youre honestly the best Logan, the best

[bright sun]

https://tenor.com/view/furry-anti-furry-furries-hug-huggies-gif-12775032377590226395

I just want you to be happy

[solemn trout]

youre efforts are really, really appreciatedand hell do they work! :3
you’re probably one of, if not the only person i know that can really make me happy

thank you, so, so, so, so much

Still in bed

uhgvvhhj

[solemn trout]

todays sort of a bum. But thats find

Todays also my friends birthday so im drawing him something:3

[bright sun]

[solemn trout]

[solemn trout]

Fuck

Fuck

Fuck

Fuck

Im scared

Im actually scared

My other friend, god i love him so much/p He matters so much to me.

now hes offline, everything in his bio’s gone, simplified his username. He never does this.
Yesterday was his birthday and hes been having issues with his bf. His bf just started ti stop texting back to him and all he gave my friend was a ‘have a nice day.’ My friend is a really bright and fun guy.
Im worried. I really don’t want anything happening to him.

he didnt block me

god i feel like shit

like shit

Actual fucking shit

did i do something???

did i do something wrong??? Did i say something too late or something too bad????

i hate this

i hate it

i hate

I hate

I hate

I hate

i hate

I fucking hate myself

why does this have to happen

i don’t want to do this anymore

Fuck now I feel even sicker

my eyes hurt

I feel so fucking hot

I don’t want to get out of bed

I just want to stop this

I can’t believe this is happening

Please

Im sorry

Im so so sorry