#uzarts figurative realm

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digital bay
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Fuck

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Get a hold

digital bay
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It's hard

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But she speaks to me now

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It's happening

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We're talking

jade aurora
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Who?

digital bay
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The girl

jade aurora
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Oh alright!

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See?

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Told ya

digital bay
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Thanks man

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Props go to the wingman and the others who assisted

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Love yall

jade aurora
# digital bay Thanks man

The moment you took up to yourself, started therapy and have been controlling yourself to become your best self love is coming to you

digital bay
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It's gonna be a while but I'll get there

jade aurora
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Remember to treat love how it should

digital bay
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Treat love how it should treat me

digital bay
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Wonder if I should just leave discord and stay here

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Actually just have a life

digital bay
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Oh how badly I yearn

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I've taken three pages just to fill out my thoughts in the moment

digital bay
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Limerance is the death of me and I must let go of it if I am to live

digital bay
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I was rejected

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Kinda

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No

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I was

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I did too much

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Put too much in

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I wanted connection

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I didn't want to just fucking text

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I don't want this texting shit

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I wanted something real

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I wanted a connection

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Ffs

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I didn't want to have to make a fool of myself

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I'm probably the talk of whatever group now

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Fuck

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Fuck

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FUCK

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Fuck me

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And there's all these thoughts going through my head as my father is just yapping on and on and on about school and putting in effort and shit

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I get it

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I really do

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But I want to look into these thoughts and write them down

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And now I can't remember for the fucking life of me

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Fuck

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I want to feel but feel so little

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All I got was a bye

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No explanation

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No, "I think you're taking it too far"

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Just bye

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Fuck me

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Sideways

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Oh

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She really did leave ig

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But she still rejected me

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Right?

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FUCK

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And I'm blocked

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I just wanted something

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I want something like the old love

digital bay
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I just need to hurt rn

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Wasted

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Wasted time

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Wasted feelings

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But fuck me

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I want something

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Now where the FUCK is that earphone I threw

digital bay
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I will break myself down tonight

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And tomorrow we will build

digital bay
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Not happy rn

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I don't feel happy

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I feel like killian Maddox and carmy berzatto

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I'll keep my moaning here in the meantime

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But now I have to shit bricks over 11th grade which is great

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So

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Yeah

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Fucking lovely way to start off the year

digital bay
digital bay
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It's time to go back go school

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Eleventh grade...

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Kill me now

digital bay
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Busy

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Tired

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Mind occupied

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Tired

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Failing to stay off of it

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Not keeping up with a lot of stuff her

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Rejected

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Rejected

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I was rejected

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I'm shitting bricks

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I'm scared and nervous

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This year counts

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I was rejected

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Tried

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Tired

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I'm tired

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Busy

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Mind occupied

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Shitting bricks

digital bay
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Not the best rn

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But I'm Journaling and in therapy again

digital bay
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God I fucking loved her.

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I would give her my heart on a silver fucking platter

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Fuck me

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I feel tired

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And miserable

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And I just want to sit in my room

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And be alone

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I don't want to go to school and feel like an alien

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Constantly tucking in my fucking shirt

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Feeling that blazer grow fucking tighter

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But I have to survive

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And get good marks or else I will fuck up

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I don't wanna fuck up and fail as much as I have already

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I just sit

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I can do so much

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But do fuck all

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Why the fuck am I doing this

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Fuck me

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What's wrong with me

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I just feel like shit

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Over her

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And I feel like shit because of him

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I fucking hate him

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Day after day

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You fucked me up you bastard

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I want you to die

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I want you to fucking die you piece of shit

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I hate you

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You sick lying scumbag

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You fuck

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Why did you fucking do that to me

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Why

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Ma I'm not okay

digital bay
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I hate you

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You know that?

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It took me a while

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But now I hate you so much

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I would gut you if you did it again

digital bay
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Gut you like the Pig you are

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I wish you hell

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You fucking lying prick

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That night

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That fucking night

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Is forever ingrained in me

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I was so young

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You fuck

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The fact that I was so close to you even afterwards

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Now I don't want to look at you

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He alone with you

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Interact with you

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I had to fucking process it all last night

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I recoiled when I thought about you

digital bay
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I'm not clean by all means

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I'm kind of spiraling

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I want to blame her

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Or I could blame myself for texting her

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Either way

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It hurt

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And caused all of this

digital bay
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You fucked me up

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You hurt me

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I know I texted you but why the fucking cliff hanger?

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Huh?

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I've spiraled

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No

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I can't hurt muself because of you

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You are just a person I've never known

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But even then

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I haven't been clean

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And it's fucking disgusting

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Blood still stains the blade from the last use

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Yup

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6 passes

digital bay
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It hurts again

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It really does

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Barely know her

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But

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I'd walk through hell to see her smile

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My love seeps from my heart as I try to scoop it up

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Because maybe she should give me the love that I could never give myself

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It hurts

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It hurts

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I want the rose

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And the thorns just hurt

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You stare at that spam account again and again

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And it just...

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Fuck

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Bro

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I

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It's God's plan

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Let it happen

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Roll with the punches

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Or whatever

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"roll with the punches" but I just wait to get knocked out

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Fuck me

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FUCK

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FUCK

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FUCK

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Feel like some of the online guys don't really fw as much. Guess I ain't been online much, floated around and did Jackshit besides taking space in the gcs and servers. Dunno why I came back tbh

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I didn't do fuck all in any servers

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I thought maybe I'd put it all away if that thing worked out with her

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But I'm here

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With unfinished rps

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And this

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That most have access to

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So

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Yeah

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I'm only here cus I'm too fucking lazy to journel for real

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And I need to waste time because I have the work ethic of a bleached cum rag

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Maybe I will blow my brains out

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Talk about a first kiss eh?

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Anyways

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I don't want to go to that fuckass gala

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I want to sit in my books

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I want to journel

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Journal

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Journal

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The word is journal you African ingrate.

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Anyways

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I want to go to therapy

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I want to stay by myself

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Not have people come up to me and ask what I'm doing with that book in my hands

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Not be forced into warcries because I'd rather read about wars and heroes

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Uthred's journey to reclaim Babbenburg at the hands of a treacherous uncle

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I want to write the next chapter of Zarta and birth the world that lay dormant in my mind

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I want to spend days improving that Minecraft world

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I want to gym and cycle until I can finally look in the mirror and not grimace at the sagging sack of shit I call a belly

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I want

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I want

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I want

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But reality

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Is a bitch

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And I don't use that word much

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Anymore

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I'm tired

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I'm bitter

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I'm not happy

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I'm scared, stressed, lazy

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Lazy

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So

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Lazy

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Fuck me

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What test is this, lord

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You know I fail tests

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I fail them all

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Fuck me

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I fail

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I fail

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And just

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Fail

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I'm so

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Fucking rtarted

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(good luck with censoring that)

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But I'm here

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In a room

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Living

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I feel like I'm rotting away

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My own brain, degrading into a sludge

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I wonder what it would be like in my old age

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Maybe it would be dementia or the other one

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Maybe my hearing would go

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Maybe I won't get married

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Yeah

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Not married ever

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Single

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Miserable

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Because don't we all romanticize the misery

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Love it

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Fantasize it

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Make it into movies

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Set the standard for us all

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When your life turns out shit then you get that little excited pulse in your veins

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"yes, now I can behave like shit because I feel so. I have a justification for my incompetence, I can finally snap, I can have that grand crash out and show everyone how I truly feel. Just like the depressed guys from that edit."

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That's how it feels

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Yknow

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The solution is in front of me

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And I'm so

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Stubborn

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Because it feels normal

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Safe

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It will kill me

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And maybe I'll kill myself

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Because being like this means I can be weird with purpose

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There's I reason I'm a timid piece of shit

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That girl I've barely met eons ago blocked me

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So I'll cry like a bitch and just act moody

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It's all so that I can be lazy and incompetent

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So that I can be a lesser person

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A husk

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A being with no goals

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Barely a thought of ambition

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I can talk to people

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I can interact

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And smile

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And put myself out there

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When I try

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But I don't

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I don't try

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Why don't I try

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Try please

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Try

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Try

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Try you dumb asshole

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Do something with your life

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Or just waste away

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Be irrelevant

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Die

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Walk away

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Get a shitty apartment

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And spend your weekends staring at a white ceiling on a shitty mattress

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Then put that steel to your mouth and pull the trigger

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You useless fucking ingrate

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You belligerant addict

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You unloveable

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Fucking loser

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Incel

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You're an incel

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No one likes you

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You take up space

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Whether it's in a GC or next to your friends

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They don't fucking like you

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You're there

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You're just there

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Present

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But not there

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You fuck

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You dumb fuck

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You performative

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Attention seeking

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Fuck

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Fuck you

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No wonder why you got fucked

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You useless bitch

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You fuck

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Fuck him

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But fuck you more

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You earsling

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You are useless

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A stain on the boot of this fucking world

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You will amount to nothing in this world

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And you will be miserable for eternity since you enjoy it so much

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Useless fucking ass

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Wasted your time

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Go fuck yourself

digital bay
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Brotherhood and community has died.

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That's sad

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That's why a lot of us are all sad, depressed and lonely

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Not saying that it's the solution

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But it's a factor in the greater picture

fleet copper
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I enjoy talking with you Uzart, you're a very smart person and I enjoy hearing your ideas and takes on things, I enjoy havign mature convos with you because you're able to have them with a mutual respect, regardless of whether you disagree with my ideas or not. You can be super creative and funny, and you've been a really great friend.

I think maybe you feel like you take up space because you dont talk in the gc really. I assure you we do like you, and I certainly like you, I like talking to you about things, especially things like history and religion and things like that, whether its here or on tiktok

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and you really care

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I mean I dont think you wouldve invited me here if you werent concerned about my mental health even if it was pretty minor

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youre valued a lot more than you know

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especially by the tge people

digital bay
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Thanks Vax..

fleet copper
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aus
and you're welcome ah_shy_smile

digital bay
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I am a good person

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I'm a fabulous bitch

digital bay
digital bay
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The weights are heavy but my hate for you is heavier.

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I will kill you

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I will yell at you

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You are a bastard who has harmed me

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I will not allow myself to be damaged by you anymore

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You bastard

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I will forgo hunger if it means that I can be better than you

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I will be smarter

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I will be richer

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I will be better than you

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Because even after all those years I will not buckle

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I hear no bell

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I HEAR NO BELL YOU BASTARD

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I

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HEAR

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No

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FUCKING

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BELL

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COME AT ME BITCH

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I WILL NOT GO OUT SWINGING

digital bay
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Life feels so good

digital bay
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We live in an oath less world

digital bay
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Shiiiit

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Shit

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Shit

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Shit

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My dad found bloody tissues under my bed from when I was SHing

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FUCK

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Fuuuuck

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That's going to be an uncomfortable convo

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Or maybe I'll just avoid it all together

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Fuck

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Fuck

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He didn't say anything

digital bay
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Nothing happened

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But uhm

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That lonliness is creeping back in

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That

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Yearn for connection

digital bay
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Fuuuuuuck

digital bay
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YES

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I feel good

digital bay
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Yearning for love once more

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Fuck

digital bay
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Tired

digital bay
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I'm so fucking tired of it all

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"I don't want to live in a hole anymore. It makes me feel poor." - Fantastic Mr Fox

digital bay
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opinions

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so many opinions

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but theres people around so nah

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why dont i use my fucking journal

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im tired

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should i tell em

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my mother said no one else should know

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so ig

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yeah

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they don't need to know

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maybe they oicked uo but they don't need to know

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ugh

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my typing

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theres a need for attention

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validation

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reaction

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you know

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even when you don't say anything

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you do enough with the hope that people will pick up

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Why do I feel so restricted

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this is my space ffs

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the wrong words

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or opinions

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pisses them off

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what the fuck

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i feel watched

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if i feel so then I should do something

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i feel reactionary

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a block to my own change and growth

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and healing from bastards that go unamed

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(I did it again)

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i give up on my book

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that fuckass book

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ideas must just remain so

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I was never going to write a book

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or a hit series

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fuck me mfjfjrrjrr

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i like the sound of my own voice

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and being dramatic

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like a drama

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but i'm too self aware

digital bay
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Who the fuck cares if you're not there

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Who the fuck cares about how many parties you go to

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Who tf cares

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They'll care when you get the best and do the best

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You know that

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They'll be waking up from hangovers and I'll be in the fucking gym

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Cus fuck them all

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All of the

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Fuck it all to hell and back

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The social life

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The going out

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I don't need that

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I never fucking did

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I didn't need a gf

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Because I'll be better

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I'll do better

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I'll be greater

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And I'll write the book

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I'll publish those papers

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I'll give those lectures

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I'll be better

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So that they can all look up at me

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And I'll look down

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I'll look down

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At all of them

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And I'm saying this

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And it sounds like absolute shit

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Tf am I doing

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You know

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They're all kids

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They're all fucking children

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And I think older than them

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I'm more mature then them

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And I sit

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And I think

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And I'm alone in my room

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The lonliness

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Back

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Again

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Eating at me

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Him

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In the corner

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Taking bites

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I'm more mature

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That's why they don't like me (sometimes.)

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That's why when I give advice

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I sound like an adult

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I don't give the fun advice

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I don't tell you to smoke a blunt and forget your worries

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I slap the thing out of your hands and tell you to get your shit straight

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The mature mind

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The mind

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My mind

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I am going crazy in my mind

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I cry in my mind

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My mind wants to be heard

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Understood

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I want to be loved

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So much

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That I feed off of content that illicits that feeling of need

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I want more hours in that therapy office to rattle off the shit I want to say

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All of it in its entirety

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I want more

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More

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Because I am by nature greedy

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I am by nature demanding

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I want more

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My mind is a stage that demands an audience

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I want to comtrl

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Control

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I want

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I want

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I want

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But I am I thankful

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Un

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Thankful

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I'll show it to you

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We'll talk about it because I need a cipher to this rambling shit

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Help me

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Fucking help me

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Why is it so lonely

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Why am I different

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Why did you make me so different you prick

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You fucking prick

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You bastard

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You fucking bastard

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You

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You

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It was you

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I hate you

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I want to see the life fade from your fucking eyes

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I want you to die like a dog

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I want something to happen

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So that I can act out agaisnt you

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Bang and scream

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Kick and shout

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I don't want to stab you

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Cut you

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But I want to maul you

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Maim you

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Beat you

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It will be like the "wrestling" you showed me

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This time I will bare my teeth and cry fury and I beat your skin

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Bruise it

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Cut you cheek and turn your eye purple.

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I want you to loose your fucking teeth

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I want you dead or dying

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I want them to shout for me to stop

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I want to be dragged away kicking and screaming

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Because you're a dog

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I like dogs

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But I'd kick you to the curb

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I'd run you over

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You ruined me

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You

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And that fucking lock down

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Working in tandem

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I am not happy

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In this moment

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And I blame you

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You bastard

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I don't want to be better

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I want to be on top of you

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Killing you

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Because you're a dog

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And so is your father

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And so is his father

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I want you dead

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I want to kick your teeth in and break your jaw on the fucking concrete

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I want to rip out that long hair of yours

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I want you dead

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You pervert

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You sick fuck

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I will kill you

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Because you killed a part of me

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Scarred a part of me

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I am a freak to myself

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A shame to myself

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My own worst critic

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And even if I hate myself

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I'll hare you more

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You fucking dog

fleet copper
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You should be a poet Uzi /gen

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I had a feeling with your creative writing talent youd make some good poetry

digital bay
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Hm

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Thanks

digital bay
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Every rep goes to you

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You lowly sack of shit

digital bay
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Rage

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We are a people of rage

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We possess a sense of savagery that is culled by our civility

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But being civil is hard

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It is tiring

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Being wrathful is convenient

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Easy

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Freeing to a degree

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Because to destroy is easier than building

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I saw that in the rage room

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I thrashed and banged agaisnt bottles

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Tvs and a heater

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Through each hit I became savage

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My parents saw it

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I could see the contempt on my father's face

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I was savage

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Silent but savage

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So

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Wrathful

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I was just reverting to my nature

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But nature is not always justified

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Civility is sane

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It is moral

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It is courteous

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Nature rejects civility

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It works off of whim and desire

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Civility tells you to wait until dinner, comb your hair and love passionately and fairly

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Nature tells you to eat when hungry, care not for your looks and rape like a dog

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With that

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I must keep civil

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I must stay silent

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Nod politely

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And stay sane

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Ig

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All of this occupied my mind as I obliterated a TV and heater

digital bay
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I scared him

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That pure rage

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It was violent

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And it scared him

digital bay
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I couldn't keep that bird alive

digital bay
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Not gonna be my best day

digital bay
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Nvm

digital bay
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Heavy day

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The winds howl and the trees whistle

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The baby sobs from his crib

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The storm cannot be prolonged

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It has come

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And it has flooded the canals with rain

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Thunder cries

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And the wailing wind carries on

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Before it must stop

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For the sun must peak through the clouds once more

digital bay
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Howling hound

digital bay
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Ahh

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The lonliness is back

digital bay
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I don't suffer from that male lonliness epidemic bullshit

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I'm just lonely because I'm too scared to put myself out there because I've been rejected for showing some ounce of confidence

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I keep my circles small

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I don't really talk to people

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I feel like a fucking loser

digital bay
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One formed by tiktok

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So yeah

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I still don't believe that the male lonliness is the result of bad women or some shit

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But

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The system failed us and made us dependent on one gender to bear the brunt of our emotional baggage

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Also

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Ngl

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I'm a Lil bit soured by the experience with my friends

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It wasn't really a normal situation

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I hate to be the mediator, the voice of reason and the guy who fixed there problems

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And before they turn on their heels and point their fingers and shout, "Well you didn't need to do that" or "You didn't need to be there, I would have Survived."

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You best be grateful that I took upon myself to prioritize your guy's mental before my own because I cared for yall

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Or maybe I had my own selfish desires

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Maybe

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I don't knkwn

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Then again

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I don't know a lot of things

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I don't know why I broke down like a howling hound

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I don't know why I constantly fuck up

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I don't know

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But I don't want to resent

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Or hate

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Or cower behind my issues so that I can justify being a shitty person

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But man

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It was tiring

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Here and irl

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That whole ownership thing was fucking lame

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I did most of the work in that server and I guess I made an effort

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But that night i left

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I was sick

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And I felt like shit

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And I left

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It's only been a year

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For some reason in the back of my mind I feel like I'd sort of be entitled to this rant if it was for maybe 2 of 3 years

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But

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Yeah

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I feel lonely

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And I feel like shit

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And I need my therapy

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I will genuinely scream if I don't go

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Because I want to fix myself

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And be better

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And I hate having all of these emotions weighing down on me

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These complex

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Overly mature emotions

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I hate it

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And I'm tired

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I'm fucking tired

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I don't want to do this

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I don't need this in my life

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I just want to sleep

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I saw that....

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Prick

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Anyways

icy gulch
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no I'm so sorry i was trying to press reply

digital bay
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I'm tired

icy gulch
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I didn't mean to do that i'm sorry

digital bay
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It's okay

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It's fine

icy gulch
icy gulch
digital bay
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I live in my head

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My head spins me around

icy gulch
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you need to step out of your head

digital bay
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Into future scenarios and plays shit from the past

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The therapist said that we need to look into some of my last issues next week

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So yeah

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But uhm

icy gulch
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oh

digital bay
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I just live in my head

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And barely go out and do shit

icy gulch
#

I barely go out too

digital bay
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When I do shit it's exclusively with my parents

icy gulch
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but i live in the moment i stopped living inside my head

digital bay
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It's okay but it would be nice to go out with friends or myself more

digital bay
icy gulch
icy gulch
# digital bay How?

just stop thinking about your past and don't worry about future, these are 2 heavy weights you're carrying

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it'll be probably hard to get used to but try and keep going

digital bay
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Ig I could take a bike ride

icy gulch
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fucked up shit anyways

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live for yourself, and love yourself

digital bay
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Yeah

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Thanks

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I'll try

icy gulch
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I hope you get better

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I don't really help or care about people but seeing those messages felt like it was me

digital bay
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That's nice of you

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Appreciate you, friend

digital bay
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Fuck

digital bay
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Drama

fleet copper
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Its very normal to be scared after being rejected

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Doesnt make you any less of a good person or make you a coward

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Rejection hurts, especially when you worked up a lot of courage to ask

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It takes guts to ask people those kinds of questions

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Its very vulnerable

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But dont let fear sway you

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Theres always nos

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but there is always people who will say yes

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Youll find a yes eventually huddlekittywave

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It could be in an unexpected place though, you never know

digital bay
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I'm actually talking to people

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Putting myself out there

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Struck up good convo at the school event I did

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Became a recurring face

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But that's not why I type rn

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There's trouble in paradise

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Well

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Not really paradise

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But

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My friendgroup has splintered

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Now I must either glue it back or sand off the broken edges

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Drama has followed almost all friend groups I've been in

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I'm tired

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I'm fucking tired of having to be the person who picks up shards from the bottles they throw

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It's not good for me

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I'm tired

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I'm so fucking tired

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At this point I want two visits to therapy and a rage room every week

digital bay
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Today I spend my time after gym alone

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Declutter

digital bay
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I'm just more or less anti social

digital bay
digital bay
fleet copper
digital bay
#

Fuck

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I did it again

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Just like in the cantina

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Fuck me

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These arguements make me question my religion

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I don't want to

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Why am I questioning religion

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What the fuck

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I'm told that my prophet all things

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I won't believe it

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It all makes me feel worse

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But I see a pattern

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I feel like a minority

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I'm an Indian man

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It feels like the world hates us Indians

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Even Indians

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Luckily I don't live in India

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Worst of all

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I have opinions

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Stupid

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Unchecked opinions

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I get flustered

digital bay
#

I'm dying alone

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Uhhhh

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I'm so dying alone

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Fuck

digital bay
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I like debating

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But I'm shit at it

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And every tournament makes me want to cry

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I feel out of place

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I'm shit at debating

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I'm going to be a shit captain

digital bay
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im not okay

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i weep right now

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but i want to howl

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howl like the saddened hound in morning

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for I mourn my stolen innocence

digital bay
#

50kgs on leg raises, because fuck you

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160kgs on leg press, because you're a dog

digital bay
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I'm such a fucking loser

digital bay
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How about i push them all away

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Swear then all

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Curse and scream

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Make then hate me

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Then sit

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I don't rlly fw tge no more

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I'm different

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I don't want to be there

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Maybe I'll put distance between me and him

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Maybe I fucked up my friendship with her

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Then what?

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Where do I go?

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I'll wander around aimlessly

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Maybe I'll make camp somewhere in the school and stew away

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Ruminating as I sqauller away

digital bay
#

It wanes

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Why does my faith wane

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It can't

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It shouldn't

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Fuck

#

Fu k

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Fuck

#

Fuck

#

Fuck

#

Fuck

#

Fuck

#

Fuck

#

Fuck

#

Fuck

#

Fuck

digital bay
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Loathe

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The problem with them is that they keep bringing back people into the community who were originally removed for being toxic

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Sure there was an exception with one

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But there's that other one who keeps rearing her head every few months then everyone cries wolf when she mucks around and ticks off the wrong person

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If they are a problem

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Leave them in the fucking gutters and move on

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There's no use in causing more drama

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Then going to gossip in the GC about how they are the devil incarnate

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And for some reason

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There always needs to be someone on the fucking chopping block

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Let's not forget about that

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Always someone that needs to be ousted to ensure stability or some shit

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Or maybe it's just for the thrill of it

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I know I'm guilty of it

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But are they?

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I've been an offender

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And I don't think my self consciousness will free me of it

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But at least I'm aware

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Hey gang!

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If there's a guy that's caused shit in the community and forgives characters like anissa and it's triggering

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Yeaaaaaa

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Get him tf out

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If there's a person who constantly ragebaits and pisses you of and you can't stand them

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Get them tf out

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You don't have to be a generous martyr

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And you can say no

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Also your politics suck

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Can't say it here

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But like

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Get a load of these people

digital bay
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And should this become the talk of whatever dms or secret GC then you address me directly

digital bay
#

Therapy tiiiime

digital bay
#

2026 has been a shit year

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I hate this

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I'm tired

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I feel like shit

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I'm done with tge

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School

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Everything

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I just want to marinate

digital bay
#

I'm so fucking done with it all

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The smiles

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The nodding at the table as your mother prattles on

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The prospect of seeing friends

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Of connection

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Of waking up

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It sickens me

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For I don't want to play this anymore

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If I could I would suspend myself in a room of no gravity and float

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Or a zero senses chamber or some shit

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Because I'm done

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He has fucked me up

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Great job dickwad

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The trauma you left me with has left me like this

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Here's your fucking gold

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You shit-bred turdswine

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Would you like to see me dissolve further?

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Issolate and loose my spark?

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Because I'll give you a front row seat

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Then I'll take a crowbar and scoop your fucking brains out

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Because I don't want to have the poetic, "revenge of a life well lived."

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I want you dead

digital bay
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I'm tired

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I'm tired

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I'm tired

digital bay
#

might be losing it

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fighting is not good

digital bay
digital bay
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dont want to fucking work

digital bay
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I hate this

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Feel like putting a bullet in my head

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And going back to the tally

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I promised you I wouldn't

digital bay
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You're a chud

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Such a fucking chud and a loser

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Go fuck yourself

digital bay
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Why can't I fucking sleep

digital bay
#

Debating is giving me something

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I like it

digital bay
digital bay
#

I'm not Halle

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Happy

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I'm pushing away my friends

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All of them

digital bay
#

Hate

digital bay
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One day I'll put a bullet through my head

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Either that or I dissappear

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Dissappear and go to the wild

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Maybe the savannah is shit so I'll move to America or new Zealand

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Go live in the countryside

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Or

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I go work on farms

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I hate it all

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I'm unhappy

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I want to go away

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Just go

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And never come back

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At all

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For a good few years

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I don't want to see my friends

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My parents

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Family

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Him

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I don't want to see the city

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I don't want to see school

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Maybe I could run away

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But all I want

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Is more time away

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In nature

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Among the trees and gentle streams

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Tumble in the grass and itch it away afterwards

digital bay
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Loathe

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But I understand

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But

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I want to leave

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The.

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Online

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People

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I'll just be a passaby in their story

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A side character along the way

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I don't want to do this anymore

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Ref

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I give up

digital bay
#

They're all gone

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I feel no better