i just want to keep cutting. i dont want to stop and i know its bad for me. it is the only thing that makes me calm. calm from people yelling at me. calm from the voices. calm from myself. i wish the bleeding would never stop and clot. i just feel like i am existing with no point. nothing to keep me going. the only thing keeping me from ending it all is a friend and a bag of trail mix. mostly my friend though. he has stopped me from ending it 3 times as of now.
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cyan granite
i cut myself multiple times each day. its at the point where my shoulder (where ive been cutting) has more cuts than visible skin. ive contacted hotlines to help but they couldn't. ive thought about telling my parents but i cant imagine being without self harm.