flint sparrow
Hello, this is my journal for thoughts, musings, and whatnot. I am a polyfragmented DID system of many, so signing off will occur. Our collective name is Mii Channel. We're autistic and have several different mental health things going on, so buckle down as we go on the ride of life together.
Currently, I am internally musing while listening to retrospective YouTube videos. I am trying to teach myself empathy for others and so far, it's got mixed results. I'm making progress in therapy, no doubt, I am just wishing I was more neurotypical
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Home alone and taking care of my doggo. What kinda mischief will result? Who knows?
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I ended up feeling really sad today because one of my long time friends really broke my trust with doing something bad I cannot stand people doing. I don't want to go into too much detail here, but what I am willing to say is that it really hurts to know people twice my age think it's okay to justify lashing out at alters just because of something outside of their control and they couldn't possibly know about.
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A culmination of emotions arisen last night that I do not understand. I am exhausted, even though I had just woken up from sleep
It's odd come to think of it, but at the same time, therapy will be able to help me understand it I bet
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I need help wording my emotions when I feel a lot of stuff because once I feel more than two emotions, I don't know how to parse them
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It seems easier to take things slower. I made progress by getting to know my new job coach today and he said he'll help me get accommodations
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I wish I never had behavioural issues
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I'm trying my best, I really am. I don't understand why people try to do oppression olympics when I'm hurt
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Don't even feel like a human, don't human, no human no human, just a machine grinding grinding with a dead blank face
I cannot live without dissociation and covering my expressions to the point of having a neutral face for most anything and needing to use my voice to express, even though no one wants to hear me
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Today was none too bad luckily, I just wish I can daydream my life away
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Tired and just wanting to be sleeping for a long time, like longer than a day
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I feel sick to my stomach and I wish I can help others even though I can't physically do so bc of being in different states
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Very tired, stayed up past midnight from an emotional episode