This is probably where I’ll put all my letters to people which I write, but don’t plan to send.
Probably stuff which I let my emotions say.
#skylarks journal
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TW — running away, ||death||
If only you knew what happened at home daily. You’d understand why I want to leave, and never come back. You’d finally take me away from this horrible hell-ridden house where I feel trapped and unable to think for myself. Always fighting, or disagreements. Never a day of peace or where I’m not crying.
These chains can only be broken by someone who actually cares about my life. You don’t know how much I’ve thought about ||dying while here or the thoughts of killing myself|| and/or running away. I’m never happy here.
Barely any privacy due to mum knocking on my door, but not waiting for a reply. Same with grandpa. I have multiple reasons to leave. No one will take me. Not even nana who would if she could. I just want to be respected, loved and cared about. I lack everything a normal kid needs. Love, touch, attention. Every time I try to talk to mum about it, she dismisses me.
You’re the complete opposite. That’s why I talk to you, and open up more to you. You’re more of a parent than she ever was. You aren’t narcissistic, you sneaky care, and have empathy. Unlike that person who is my mom. You’ve only seen her when she’s with y’all, and never when it’s just her and I.
This is one of my pleas for help. I’ve never asked for it until today. I’m getting to the point of running away. I’ve never trusted mum since 2021
Since I met you though, I guess I’ve always thought of you as a mother/parent unlike Kat, or anyone else . You’ve taught me more than mum ever has.
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Today was.. okay. Boring ig.
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Finally have a name/name’s—Kyle/Jay
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I’ll try and post daily
Today was okay
Woke up at grandpas, mum and I then packed up, and started to go on a drive, up north, to where her, two friends and I are staying till Monday. Pretty chill day.
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Yesterday was.. interesting. Not going to go into details though. Fun ish. Boring too. Idfk. lol
Today has been ok. Pretty chill.
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Today was fine.. a long drive down back to the boat though.. had sushi for dinner which was nice