#melon's safe space

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narrow anvil
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im just gonna ... yes huddlecomfyblanket

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so from the past few months ( if not years) i have been struggling with things like

  1. severe anxiety
  2. severe depression
  3. eating disorder
  4. overall fatigue
  5. self doubt
  6. negative thoughts
  7. addictions
  8. academic issues
  9. self harm
    the good thing is that i recovered from a lot
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and i'm proud of myself for it

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but somewhere i still thing i need to try harder

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my social life is poor as well

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and i have been struggling with procrastination

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if i edit the list

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then

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  1. severe anxiety
  2. severe depression
  3. eating disorder
    4.~~ overall fatigue ~~
  4. self doubt
  5. negative thoughts
  6. addictions (most of them finished)
  7. academic issues
    9.~~ self harm~~
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i'm going to see how far this takes me

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XD

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also i have been cutting ppl off my life some where toxic and some i wasn't ready to deal with yet i don't know if i did the right thing i hope i did (even though sometimes i miss them)

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i promise myself to do all the tasks i should be doing today i promise myself i won't procrastinate i promise myself that i'll be a better person

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i promise i won't let anyone down

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i promise i'll change

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DaNomming ok off we goooooo!!!!!

narrow anvil
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I got a book today it's really good<33

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I had to help my brother in studies today too It costed a lot of time aaaa and now I'm panicking for my assignments

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The grilled cheese sandwich mum makes are tasty

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I want to do well academically dammit

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I have been out of it for so long it's hard to catch up 😭 I even had to miss my exam today

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All of my classmates are better than me at studies

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I barely talk to my friends at work

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It's just wrong

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I'M GOING TO BE CONSISTENT IN STUDIES TOO

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I'LL NEVER MISS A CLASS AGAIN

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(atleast try)

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😭❤️‍🩹

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It feels pathetic being so bad at it

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It feels disgusting

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And all these ppl can't stop saying sht about me

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...

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Fuc

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Dw tho melon got thissssz huddlecomfyblanket

narrow anvil
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I DON'T KNOW WHY I SHOUTED TODAY

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I MEAN YESTERDAY ...same thing

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but

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i didn't mean to

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i swear

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i told him to go away like 100 times politely as i was doing something important and didn't wanna mess up

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i ended messing up

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and it made me more mad that no one was listening to me

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like ffs

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but i'll try to control my anger too