gganbu journal | Huddle | Page 2

safe saddle Oct 3, 2023, 3:25 PM

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that will bring me happiness

safe saddle Oct 4, 2023, 7:57 PM

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@deft crescent i miss u

safe saddle Oct 5, 2023, 7:28 PM

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i feel lonely

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i wish i had love

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im sorry i hurt u luna

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maybe i deserve being left

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gosh ill never be truly happy

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i feel so ugly

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ppl tell me i look nice but i feel so fuckinh ugly

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and my personality is so shit

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no wonder why ppl dont like to approach me

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can i die

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can i die

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can i die

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i want someone to care abt me

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i cant build a connection with someone

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i always get left alone

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i hurt ppl

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can i die

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CAN I DIE

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PLS

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PLS

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I CANT DO IT MYSEKF

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IM SUCH A LOSER

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WHATS THE POINT OF LIVING

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CAN I PLS DIE

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I HURT EVERYONE

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PLS

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LET ME GET A PAINFUL DEATH

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i wanna cry while i die

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fuck my life

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i was born to be a ghost

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I WANNA DIE

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let my life end meaningless

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can i due

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can i die

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i ask this mamy times

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can i die

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can i rlly die

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i wanna cryy

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i wanna cry abt the regrets

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i wanted to have an impact on other people

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i wanted ppl to actually like and care abt me

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can i die

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i messed up both relationships ive been 8n

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in

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can i dir

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can i die

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seriously

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i dont deserve love

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im rlly gonna die by mysekf arent i

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i wanted kids

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i wanted a family

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i wanted love

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i wanted kids

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rlly badly

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so i could make them prooud

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not happening

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its sad

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i wanted to be a good person

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why do i deserve this

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why

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god pls tell me

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why do i deserve this

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did i do something in my afterlife

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or previous life

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i rlly wanted to live happily

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i wanted to get married

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i wanted to be something to my wife

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i rlly wanted to enjoy life

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can u forgive me

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can u all forgive me

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pls

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can i die lonely

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can i die rn

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i wanna disappear

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can i get happiness from death

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is jt rlly hard to be happy

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how much tears do i have left til i die

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tears flow down my face everyday

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i hide so much pain

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i hide it so much

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plssssssss can i die

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why cant i die

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plssssssssssssss

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I KNEW MY LIFE WAS A FAILURE U CAN ALL LAUGH AT ME ABUSE ME HURT ME AND EVERYTHING

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KEEP HURTING ME TIL THE DAY I FINALLY GIVE UP AND END MY LIFE

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GO ON

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I KNOW ALL OF U WANT THAT

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IM VULNERABLE AND SUCH A LOSER NO WONDER U WOULD BULLY ME

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BULLY ME

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LIKE HOW I WAS AS A KID

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BULLY ME LIKE THE TIMES I GOT BEATEN UP FOR BEING CHINESE AND CALLED NAMES

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BEAT ME TIL IM CRYING ON THE FLOOR

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PLS

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STOP BEING FAKE AND BEING NICE

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SHOW ME HOW MUCH U HATE ME FOR EXISTING

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I HAVE SUCH A MEANINGLESS LIFE

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KILL ME THEN

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COME BEHIND ME AND STAB MY CHEST

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WILL MY LIFE HAVE MEANING AFTER I DIE

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will ppl laugh at me when im dead

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will ppl laugh at my grave and spit on it

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PLS DO

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i hope im able to cry

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IM DISGUSTING

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IM UGLY AS SHIR

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shit

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IM ASIAN

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im fuckinh skinny

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im fuckinh stupid

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unintelligent

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unsociable

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WHATS GOOD ABT MY LIFE FOR ME TI LIVE

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NO GIRL HAS EVER TALKED TO ME IRL

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SORRY FOR CAUSING U ALL TROUBLE

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SORRY FOR EXISTING

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I SAY SORRY 100 TIMES

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I SAY SORRY SO MANY TIMES IN MY LIFE

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I WILL KEEP ASKING FOR FORGIVENESS

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I WANNA BE FORGIVEN FOR EXISTING

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PLS FORGIVE ME

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PLS PLS PLS

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PLS PLS PLS

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i wanna harm myself but im scared

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i wanted to be something to someone

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not even my dog loves me

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when i come back home he dont greet me

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but he greets the rest of my family

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IM SUCH A LOSER

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NO WONDER WHY MY EXES TRREATED ME LIKE SHIT

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IM A LOSER

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Im.not masculine

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i cry everyday

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I ACT CUTE AND SHIT

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I have emotion

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NO GIRL WANTS A GUY WITH EMOTION

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WHY AM I LIKE THIS

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HELP

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i always knew i was different

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my face was different

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my hair was different

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my eyes was different

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my body was different

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my country was different

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the way i speak was different

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I remember eveyr pain in my life

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I REMEMBER IT ALL

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I WILL NEVER FORGET THE TIMES I GOT BEAT UP FOF EXISTING

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CAN I DIE

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CAN I DIE PLS

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SOMEONE

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SOMEONE

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SOMEONE

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SOMEONE

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SOMEONE

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SOMEON

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SOMEOEJENENENNENE

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LAUGH AT ME CMON

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Ik u want yo

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TO

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IK U WANNA LAUGH AT ME

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LAUGH AT ME A LOSER WHOS LOSING HIS MIND

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LOL

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LAUGH AT ME

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THE CLOWN

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🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

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LAUGH AT THE CLOWN

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THATS WHO I AM

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A FUCKING FAILURE

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IM SO FUCKIN RETARDED

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CAN I DIE

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IM RETARDED THATS WHAT PPL CALLED ME

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PPL LOOK AT ME WEIRD

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CAN I DIE

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I KNEW I WAS DIFFERENT

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WHY DIDNY ANYONE TELL ME

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WHY DIDNT ANYONE TELL ME I WAS DIFFERENT

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WHY DIDNT MY MUM TELL ME

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WHY DIDNT MY DAD TELL ME

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WHY DIDNT MY CLASDMATES TELL ME

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WHY DIDNTTHEY TELL ME I WAS A LOSER

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I WANTED TRUTH

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IF ANYONE IS READING MY JOURNAL FEEL FREE TO CALL ME A LOSER

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I GIVE U PERMISSION

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CALL ME A LOSER

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🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡

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I WILL SMILE WITH FAKE SMILES

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AND DIR

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DIE CRYING

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I WANNA DIE SOOOOOO BAD

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FRFR

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FRFR

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I HATE BEING FAKE AROUND PPL ACTING LIKE IM OKAY

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Can i die

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PLS PLS PLS PLS PLS

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LET ME DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

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LET ME DIE

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HAHAHAAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAAHAHHAHHAHAHAHA

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I WILL DIE

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LOLOLLOLOLLOLOLOLLOLOLLOLL

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U ALL CAN LAUGH AT ME

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flood my dms

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make me feel worse so i can end myself quicker

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AT LEAST ILL HAVE NO REGRETS ABT KILLING MYSELF

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THE BIGGEST SMILES HIDE THE MOST PAIN

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THIS WAS ME LOL

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I HIDE EVERYTHING AND I WILL DIE WITH ALL MY SECRETS

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I WILL DIE WITH MY SECRETS

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ha

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ha

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will make my death feel more relieving

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i hope i die without flashbacks

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pls

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pls

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pls

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i think im going hell

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god wouldnt accept me

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maybe i will have more pain in hell

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i was always emotional

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i remember crying many times and being helpless

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it still feels this way

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but i hide it

safe saddle Oct 6, 2023, 3:37 PM

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no one wants to date a boy who cries everyday after school

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plls kill me

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i dont belong in this world

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i cant even cry out loud

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i just lay in my bed tears falling down

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gosh im so jealous of normal people

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someone kill me

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i beg

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leave no trace of me behind

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everyone distances themselves from me

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pls kill me

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pls do

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my life is tragic

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i wanna die by a heart attack

safe saddle Oct 6, 2023, 6:05 PM

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pls kill me

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pls

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pls

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pls

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im lonely

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pls

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pls

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pls

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pls

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kill me

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i feel lonely again

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i keep falling in love and i know i cant have any girl

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im disgusting

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IM DISGUSTING

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i wont ever have a gf

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a real gf

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im absolutely horrible

safe saddle Oct 6, 2023, 6:33 PM

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pls kill me

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i dont deserve any love and affection

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i dont even deserve to hold hands with a girl

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im such a loser

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should i quit social media entirely

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maybe i should break off from this world

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im such a loser

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all these girls are so nice and perfect i have no chance with any of them

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how will i ever find a wife

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:(

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will i be single til im 40

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i get rejected by every girl and get left

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i get blocked

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i just want to find someone

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will i rlly die single

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do i deserve this

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im crying again

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my mum even told me i should find a gf instead of staying at home

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IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND A GF BUT IM UGLY AND USELESS

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MUM WHY DIDNT U TELL ME THE TRUTH

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im useless

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let me dir

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die

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i beg

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i beg i

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i beg

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pla

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pls

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pls

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can i die

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i have no meaning

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ive never been in a real relationship

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ive never been loved truly

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i dont wanna die without experiencing true love

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i will die lonely

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I KNEW IT

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i alway knew

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CAN I FIE

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DIE

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SOMEONE SEND ME DEATH THREATS IN DMS

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CAN I STAB MYSELF OR SOMETHING

safe saddle Oct 6, 2023, 7:43 PM

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why doesnt a girl love me

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am i ugly

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am i bad at talking]

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am i not funny

safe saddle Oct 6, 2023, 9:11 PM

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@deft crescent im sorry

safe saddle Oct 7, 2023, 8:25 AM

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im scared

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rlly scared

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im terrified

safe saddle Oct 7, 2023, 9:02 AM

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does anyone know that feeling when u get hurt so much that u cant trust or believe in anything ppl say to u

safe saddle Oct 7, 2023, 9:18 AM

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if someone ever told me they loved me I couldn't believe it

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im rlly hurt

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or if someone calls me pretty i couldn't

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i feel like every girl is so perfect in their own way

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and that i have no chance with any of them

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gosh im a loser

safe saddle Oct 9, 2023, 5:00 PM

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i wanna die

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i have such low self esteem

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i have no confidence

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i feel so ugly no matter what anyone tells me

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i dont wanna die alone pls

safe saddle Oct 9, 2023, 5:27 PM

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im very sorry

safe saddle Oct 9, 2023, 6:26 PM

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let me die

safe saddle Oct 10, 2023, 4:14 PM

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im getting depressed again

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lonely again

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i hate this

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when can i die

safe saddle Oct 10, 2023, 4:59 PM

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i hate living

safe saddle Oct 10, 2023, 6:09 PM

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im sorry

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i messed up

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i always do

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i say rude things cause im stupid

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i hope u will forgive me one day

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i wanna be friends again

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i hope ur happy at least

safe saddle Oct 11, 2023, 2:38 PM

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i rlly wish to die

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i rlly rlly wish

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i come home everyday and cry

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im gonna die alone

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im so scared

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im rlly rlly scares

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scared

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hell

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help

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:(

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im rlly terrified

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of dying alone

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i don't wanna live til im old and die lonely

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im rlly scared :(

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i wanna die so i dont experience that

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i wish i had meaning to someones life

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i truly have no purpose

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i hope her new bf loves her more than i did for her

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i dont deserve love

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nothing likeable abt me

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i dont even like myself

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i can never cry out loud when im home cause my parents would hear me

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im slowly dying

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i feel so much pain

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i dont feel loved

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by anyone

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how many more tears til i die

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i cant even see with all the tears

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im such a fucked up man

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im better off deadd

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i rlly wanna die

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i wish everything in my heart my lift just end in an instant

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i hurt so many ppl

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im a nuisance to so many ppl

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no wonder why im always the one texting people and trying to keep the friendship

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i wanna die

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pls

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pls

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end my life rn

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pls

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take me to hell

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god wouldnt accept me

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im a failure of a man

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i wanna restart life

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pls

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i would change my entire image

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i would talk to everyone i saw

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take my life

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pls

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take away my memories

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rid me of my sins

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i can't do this

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i hate living

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i always got bullied as a kid

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got beat up many times

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got called racist things

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i was an outcast

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i was body shamed

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i was told to shut up many times

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my parents told me they dont love me

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they love my brother instead

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my dog doesnt even love me

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he never wants to come up to me

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can i pls pls dur

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dir

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die

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plsplspls

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let me die

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let me die with my pain and regrets

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i hurt my ex

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she found another bf in happy

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when i die i hope they have a beautiful life

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i wanna see her happy

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so when i die at least i know i wasnt the one for her

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i dont think i will be able to have kids

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cause no woman will love me

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i wanted to make my parents prooud

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my grandma will be disappointed

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i was unable to live a beautiful life

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will ppl laugh at me when im dead

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or even just not remember me

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whoever her new bf is u are lucky to have a beautiful gf

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how many years til i die

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maybe i deserve to be stabbed

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randomly for existing

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i rlly rlly wanna die

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I RLLY WANNA DIE KILL ME

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ERASE ME FROM THIS WORLD

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IM SORRY FOR EVERYTHING

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IM SORRY

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THAT I WAS A NUISANCE TO EVERYONES LIFE

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i got beat up so many times

safe saddle Oct 11, 2023, 3:46 PM

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i never deserved happiness 🥲

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i remember every moment of my life which brought me pain

safe saddle Oct 12, 2023, 2:33 PM

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im fine for now

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ig

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https://tenor.com/view/sidemen-behzinga-ethan-payne-gif-23497861

Tenor

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this is behzinga

safe saddle Oct 12, 2023, 4:40 PM

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today i feel fine

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i was thinking abt her

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I always check if shes online on discord

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i hope shes okay with her bf

safe saddle Oct 12, 2023, 4:57 PM

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i got blocked again

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i hurt her so bad

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i deserve this

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im glad shes able to move on so easily

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maybe i hurt her even before we were in a relationship

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when we were friends

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i wish i could atone for what i did to her

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i wont harass her because she doesnt deserve an ex bothering her

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ill give her time ig

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to enjoy life

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i was such a burden to her

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im delusional

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i rlly hate myself

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im crying again

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see i cant live one day without crying

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im so sensitive

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i hate myself so badly

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tears always come out my right eye first

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like this emoji 🥲

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can god forgive me for what ive done

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for existing

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🥲

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sorry for everything everyyone

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i hope i die one day and everyone live their beautiful lives

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will killing myself make others happy

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🥲

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im slowly dying i might aswell end myself

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i hate crying why am i like this

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it sucks im not allowed to cry out loud

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will ppl remember me if i die

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i ask myself this

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did i mean anything to anyone

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i dont value life enough

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i think back to the past with so much regrets

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i wish i lived my life with no fear and regrets

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that i was able to do anything i wanted to in the moment

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talk to more ppl and make more friends

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i have so much regrets in my heart

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so so many

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why was i born like this

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🥲

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someonr kill me

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im helpless

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i have no obe

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one

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i dont wanna live as this person

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why was i born

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it hurts so bad

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my chest

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it rlly hurts

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ouch

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fuck

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im a sick persob

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person

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i should be going to a mental hospital

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i wish to die

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pla

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pls

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everyone around me is hsppy

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my life is truly meaningless

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can i just kill myself soon

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i wish i was brave enough

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i should die while im still young so it has no effect on others

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i hate my heart

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my journal is so meaningless

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everyone else has normal journals

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i just cry abt the same thing and beg to be killed

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im pathetic

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no wonder i got bullied as a kid

safe saddle Oct 12, 2023, 9:01 PM

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idk why i say this random shit in my journal

safe saddle Oct 13, 2023, 7:32 PM

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she moved on

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i miss what we had

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ill never forgive myself for this

safe saddle Oct 14, 2023, 11:24 PM

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i wish i had someone who i could love

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who would text me everyday

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i hate being someone who has to text everyone first

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all my "friends" on discord i have to text first

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or they lose contact with me

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i hate myself

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no one wants to associate with me

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should i just leave discord

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since no one wants to be my friend anyway

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the only reason ppl text me is because i text them first

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i could leave discord for a week and not get a single message unless its a reply

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i hate myself

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i rlly do

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i rlly rlly do

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no one likes me

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SOMEONE TELL ME WHATS WRONG WITH ME

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can i die peacefully by myself or something

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i rlly wanna die

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pls

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no one wants to be true friends if i dont get texted first

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they all leave

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me

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they all do

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everyone i have to text first

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at least 10 ppl i text to try get back in contact

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if i didnt text them i would be a ghost to them

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someone kill me

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no one likes me online then how will they like me irl

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can i die

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i hate myself

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so badly

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i hate myself

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i wanna hurt myself so badly

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i deserve this

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pls kill me

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ill keep begging everyday for a quick death

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there is nothing positive abt me

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why do i keep living to cry tears everyday in silence

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🥲

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pls

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help

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im dying

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im dying pls

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its slow

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i want something quicker

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someone kil me

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i beg

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no one wants to talk to me

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someone tell me why

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i dont insult people, i dont make fun of people, i treat everyone with respect, i show them kindness, i text them often and ask to do things together

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but yet no one wants to do these things back

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am i disgusting

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am i a disgusting piece of shit

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is that what i am

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disgusting bitch

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is that who i am

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am i rlly disgusting that ppl will lose contact with me easily

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pls tell me

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i will kill myself one day

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AND I WANNA KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME

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WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME PLS

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PLS PLSPLS

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I DONT WANNA LIVE ALONE AND DIE ALONE

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am i rlly a ghost

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with a physical body

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i wanna know why im like this

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i rlly hate myself

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i have tears in my eyes everyday

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🥲

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like this

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why do i cry

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why do i have emotions

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pls tell me

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someone give me answers

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dont hide the truth from me

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why does no one tell me whats wrong with me

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no one even cares abt me if i type in the huddle server see

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everyone else has someone to talk to

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should i just kill myself

safe saddle Oct 15, 2023, 1:37 AM

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:)

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i use this emoji cause im scared ppl will think im not happy

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when talking to them

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well im not happy but i fake happiness

safe saddle Oct 15, 2023, 2:28 AM

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will i die without finding love

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since i have such low self esteem i wont have the confidence to approach girls or talk with them

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i have no confidence when talking

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ppl make fun of the way i talk

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and i stutter when talking sometimes

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i hate myself

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see how much is wrong with me

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am i worth anything

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i hate my voice and body and personality

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i feel not normal

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:(

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gosh i dont wanna see my future if i already know whats gonna happen

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i just wish to die

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ik my life is a failure

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i lack the basics of human

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my life is full of sadness now i think abt it

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someone kill me honestly

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ill keep asking this many times

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im pathetic

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gosh im a waste of blood

safe saddle Oct 15, 2023, 6:55 PM

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gosh i love bullying kids in this roblox game

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this game is known for toxicity

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i destroy these kids so badly and make them cry even tho they legit keep tryna kill me

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pieces of shits

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this game helps me release anger

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cause im better than 90 percent of these kids

safe saddle Oct 16, 2023, 7:08 PM

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i wish ppl wouldnt leave me so easily

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i meet so many cool ppl online

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but after that first interaction i never hear from them again

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is there something wrong with me

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why does no one wanna get to know me

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and be best friends

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im jealous of people who are able to lure people in

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they must have so many friends

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im rlly jealous

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that ppl are able to keep friends

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im so so jealous

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i feel like when ppl talk to me they treat me like I'm awkward and weird

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then when they talk to their friend they actually give energy to them and effort

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more proof im a failure ig

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i have no communication

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i might aswell keep my mouth shut til i die

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if thats how meaningless my words are

safe saddle Oct 17, 2023, 10:07 AM

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im happy shes realising im nothing compared to other guys

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oh i got green name

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she deserves to be happy :)

safe saddle Oct 18, 2023, 4:42 PM

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🥲

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why do i overthink things

safe saddle Oct 18, 2023, 4:58 PM

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my brother is so spoiled

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he gets everything he wants

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my parents dont love me

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i get treated like shit

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i spend the least money and when i ask for something they say no

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i hate myself

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anything i do is wrong

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i try to be a good person

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i rlly hate myself

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🥲

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i hate crying

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but thats who ive always been

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im so jealous of other ppl

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just in general

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they are so lucku

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lucky

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im useless

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oh how i wish i never existed

safe saddle Oct 20, 2023, 2:42 AM

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im tired

safe saddle Oct 20, 2023, 1:37 PM

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my mum got me a gym membership

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for like half a year

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just went gym today to work upper body for an hr

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i feel way better abt myself

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imma go consistently 4 times a week

safe saddle Oct 20, 2023, 10:47 PM

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i feel rlly jealous

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im so dumb

safe saddle Oct 20, 2023, 11:15 PM

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:(

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gosh

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:/

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i hate myself

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why am i like this

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im not normal

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im gonna ruin it again

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i hate myself

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i hate myself

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why do i feel lonely

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why do i always want ppl to talk to

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why am i like this

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:(

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i feel so lonely for no reason

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i ruin everything

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friendships and relationships

safe saddle Oct 21, 2023, 12:55 AM

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i cant sleep

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i hate myself

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i hate myself

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i hate myself

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i hate myself

safe saddle Oct 21, 2023, 2:49 AM

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i love my gf

safe saddle Oct 21, 2023, 12:28 PM

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she hast the most beautiful eyes

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face

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hair

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shes so precious

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and innocent

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i wanna be happy with her

safe saddle Oct 21, 2023, 5:25 PM

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idk why she hasnt texted me today

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she hasnt been online for a while

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maybe her internet?

safe saddle Oct 21, 2023, 5:56 PM

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im worried for her

safe saddle Oct 21, 2023, 11:59 PM

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i love her so much

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i feel i can be a bit harsh sometimes on her

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i need to work out things with her

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because i care abt her sm

safe saddle Oct 22, 2023, 2:58 PM

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i wanna kms

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i dont deserve love

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i rlly dont

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i have so many red flags

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in me

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im useless

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all my relationships never lasted

safe saddle Oct 22, 2023, 8:33 PM

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why am i so pathetic

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so desperate

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no confidence

safe saddle Oct 23, 2023, 12:04 AM

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let me die

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let me die

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i hate myself so bad

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i talked to her friend

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he said she was feeling paranoid abt me

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and how i hurt her

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i didnt know abt her life and i assumed she ignored me

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can i seriously die

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can i

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how many times do i need to ask

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her friend says she will text me when shes rdy

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is she gonna break up with me

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i fuckin hate myself

safe saddle Oct 23, 2023, 4:53 PM

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im still waiting for her to respond

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her friendd told me she needd time to respond

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shes talking in a server with her friends rn

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i wont try get involved

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i struggle making friends in the first place

safe saddle Oct 23, 2023, 6:41 PM

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my life feels tragic 🥲

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maybe my life doesn't deserve happiness

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i wanna sleep forever

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i feel emotionally drained everyday

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sleeping makes me stop remembering stuff

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oh i wish i was born normal

safe saddle Oct 23, 2023, 7:10 PM

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WHYY OHH WHYYYYY

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WHY OHHHHHH WHYYYYYYY

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DONT U WANNA STAYYYY WITHHH MEEEEEEEEEEE

safe saddle Oct 23, 2023, 7:48 PM

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ITS A SONG LUNA LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL

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HEHE

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RUMBLINNGGGGG RUMBLINGGGGGG ITS COMING

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RUMBLINGGGGG RUMBLINGGGGGGG

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LUNA WHY DID U REMOVE UR REACTION

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:(

safe saddle Oct 24, 2023, 2:59 AM

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LUNA STALKS ME ON THIS SERVER

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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ILL BE WAITINGGGGG

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FOR YOUUUUUU

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LET ME HOLD UUUUU

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UNDER THE TREEEEEEE

safe saddle Oct 24, 2023, 2:10 PM

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she said shes fed up with me

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gosh im a loser

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no girl loves me

safe saddle Oct 24, 2023, 9:06 PM

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discord is such a horrible place

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but its the only place i can find ppl to talk to

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i feeel like all admins and mods hate me

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im just such a hateable person

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:)

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my low self esteem decreases :)

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i rlly am a loser right

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i know mods hate me in this server too

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im always scared of being banned

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then i wont have a place to talk to ppl

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:)

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im so pathetic

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even mental health server wont accept me for who i am

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:)

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i hide such a stupid face under a smiley face

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:)

safe saddle Oct 24, 2023, 9:50 PM

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got banned from a server

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and owner called me disgusting

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after i said nice things to her in dms wishing her luck and stuff

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maybe i am disgusting

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no one likes me

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:)

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disgusting shit

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my life probably has more meaning once i die

safe saddle Oct 25, 2023, 6:23 PM

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i feel sorry for my friend

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i hope shes okay

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hugs

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she knows who she is

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im sorry u feel this way

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im still ur friend

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no matter what

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huddleshibaheart

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ppl are cunts

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u didnt deserve this

safe saddle Oct 26, 2023, 1:48 AM

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@deft crescent ur very precious

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im always here for u

safe saddle Oct 26, 2023, 3:33 AM

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it makes me sad knowing i probably wont find someone to love in my life

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i dont even have confidence to approach girls

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:)

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im missing out on a lot of beautiful things

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at least im still alive 🥲

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:)

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i will look back and regret not doing things

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:)

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i have many regrets

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my childhood was a tough one

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i never felt i fit in this beautiful world

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i was treated like shit :)

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by other kids and people

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i feel no one wants me here :)

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its fibe

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fine

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one day it will be all over

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and i can cry with many regrets

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🥲

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i never felt i fit in even on discord

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i feel awkward

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people treat me differently

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my journal is so pathetic

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i say so much bullshit here

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its meaningless lol

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my brain is just deteriorating

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i wish i had a better life

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theres nothing im happy abt in my life

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even the one thing im good at i feel horrible

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the amount of tears everyday that fall on my bed

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no man ever cries as much as me

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maybe the one thing im good at is keeping my emotions to myself

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ive never told anyone irl im depressed and cry everyday

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maybe thats why people love to use me

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i put on a fake smile on discord

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:)

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so ppl dont assume im depressed

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maybe they think im creepy for smiling

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sometimes when im alone i force a smile when im about to cry

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to suppress my sadness

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gosh im so pathetic :)

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if i died ppl would remember me as the loser

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:)

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i dont mind

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i hope they do

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they will forget me easily that way

safe saddle Oct 26, 2023, 4:32 PM

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i wanna be loved

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no girl likes me

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every girl is precious

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i dont deserve any love

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no girl wants to be with ne

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me

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even online

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oh i wish i was like every other boy

safe saddle Oct 26, 2023, 7:03 PM

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im at the gym

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been here for likr an hr

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proud of myself today

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hopefully ill continue this

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im getting stronger again

safe saddle Oct 27, 2023, 3:51 AM

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wish i could date a beautiful girl

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they are all out of my league

safe saddle Oct 27, 2023, 4:08 AM

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i wish a woman would like me

safe saddle Oct 27, 2023, 8:14 AM

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@deft crescent call rn

safe saddle Oct 27, 2023, 9:50 AM

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im sorry luna

safe saddle Oct 29, 2023, 4:10 AM

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im getting to know a really cute girl

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we have so much in common

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i hope me and her get together some day

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we talked a lot abt stuff

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shes online

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shes rlly attractive in physical and personality

safe saddle Oct 29, 2023, 8:57 PM

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i always feel like girl are out of my league

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and that i have such a low chance of being with them

safe saddle Oct 30, 2023, 12:58 AM

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i dont wanna be depressed

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but i get reminded of things which make me wanna cry

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when someone compliments me i dont believe them

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when someone even tells me to shut. up i feel bad

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when someone talks about their gf/bf i feel sad

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when someone talks abt skl i feel sad

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i wish i had a beautiful life

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being in a relationship is something beautiful which i dont think ill ever have

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i cant even make real friends

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im so happy for people who can have someone to love

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🥲

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my life has always felt different

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:)

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it felt so difficult for me to do things that others can do easily

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i cant pass tests easily

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i cant talk to people easily

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i cant act normal

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i feel so out of place

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i cant dress normally

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so how will i find a gf

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if i cant do simple things in my life

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i wanna give up

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ill stay by myself forever

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living an unhappy life

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just pls let me give up

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illl live a bad life

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as long as i dont get let down ever again

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everyone has had an irl gf

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i dont even have any irl female friends

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im such a disappointment

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maybe ppl lie to me when they say i look good

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:)

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i cry everyday :)

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i feel so unhappy in this world that i think i dont deserve happiness, love

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im an example of a person not to be like

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a failure

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maybe im a bad person

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for trying my best to make friends

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for trying to love someone

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for trying to help people

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maybe im a bad person

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is that why other people have someone but i dont

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am i too nice

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i would like to die in the near future

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if my life is not turned around :)

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imagine if i still dont have an irl gf

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🤣

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im fucking loser

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fuckin piece of shit arent i

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:)

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no wonder why people bullied me in skl and everywhere

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im fuckin shit

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pathetic

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:)

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i wanna die for the sake of everyone else

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so their lives can be happy without me disturbing them

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my life is piece of shit

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my life deserves to be stopped on

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spat on

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:)

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im.not.mad

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anymore

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at the ppl who bullied mr

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me

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i understand now

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im paying the price

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by stufferinf depression

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tears come out my eyes everyday

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i cry in my room in silence

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ha

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🤣🤣🤣🤣

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piece of shit right

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:)

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i like to smile.pain away

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thats what ive always done

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:)

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maybe i deserved the racism as a child fof being chinese

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other chinese people didnt experience this growing up from the few i talked to

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:)

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:)

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🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

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i hope they had fun bullying mr

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me

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im piece of shit

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im so meaningless

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look at me crying rn

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i cant stop crying

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:)

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i lack the basics of being human

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everyone is having something nice in their life

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i cry more than any boy

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when i was in vc with random pekple

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they asked

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to us

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"when was the last time i cried"

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i had to lie and mention i watched a show

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a lot of men havent even cried for years

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months

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and i cry everyday

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:)

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im useless piece of shit

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i was a horrible bf to everyone online

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im a piece of shit

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i hurt everyone i talk to

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fuk my life

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im piece of fuckinh shit

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oh how i wish i didnt exist

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im a waste of blood

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my mum shouldnt have born me

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my brother shouldve been the only person born

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im useless

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im so meaningless

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look at me

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haha

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fuckin cunt

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arent i

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people dislike me so badly

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of existing

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thats how fucked up i am

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no one wants to talk to me

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im so fucked up my presence pisses off people

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how fuckin piece of shit i am

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haha

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my journal is a fucked up shit

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oh how i wish i was loved

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that people didnt hate me for existing

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chinese piece of shit

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i dont deserve a healthy body

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im useless with it

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i should be mute

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the amount of times ive been told to shut up in my life

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my words feel so meaningless

#

everyone else words mean something

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MINE IS WORTH FUCK ALL

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its hard to believe anyone in this world likes me

#

:)

#

people probably laugh at me when talking abt me

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Brian the Loser

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Thats my fuckin name

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piece of shit Brian

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:)

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im so loserrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

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no girl would love me

#gganbu journal