karmic pecan
interact or reply if you ever want to! <33
in my corner, i’ll probably complete daily prompts, share what i did in the day, share what’s on my mind, or what i read (since i love reading)…
and i’d love to talk to anybody 
[ CWs and TWs will be added when needed 
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My username always changes, so you can refer to me by my username or just ‘Anonimity’ or ‘Miles’! I like to play Roblox and I’m on my journey to self-care ❤️
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ENTRY 1 !
Today’s struggle… ::
Y’know, I didn’t really think that it would be difficult to be on the road for a healthy mindset. I’ve figured out it takes a LOT of time to decide on going through a self-recovery. While trying to answer the prompt, I felt a bit selfish since I’ve always been thinking of others and not really what I needed to hear or read,,,
Today’s review… ::
It was alright, I guess? I woke up around 12pm since I always have a lie in on Saturday’s, brushed my teeth and had a shower, ate some snacks and did things I enjoyed! Then we ordered some pizza from my favourite local pizza place and I played games <33. Was not very productive, but I’m proud of even getting up; weekends make it hard to get up when all you wanna do is sleep.
PROMPT — “Write yourself an apology letter, with the apology you deserve, but never received.”
~ Dear Red Moon,
I am sorry for peer pressuring you into doing things you didn’t want to do. And I want to improve on my wrongdoings so both of us can be happier with a healthier relationship.
I am sorry for making you uncomfortable during certain conversations. I will not bring up anything that makes you uncomfortable, but if I slip up, please tell me. I want us to trust each other instead of keeping things bottled up inside of us.
I’m sorry for misgendering you and using the wrong pronouns. Please keep reminding me of your name and pronouns, because both of us can work together so I can remember and you can feel safe around me.
And, I am sorry. I want us to have a healthy relationship. I know that friends tend to have their arguments, but too many arguments can affect our bond. And I want us to have the strongest bond out of anyone.
[ 21/01/23 — 23:48 / 11:48pm ]
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SATURDAY’S CHECKLIST !
Self care is imporant! Everyday, my goal is to complete at least six of some self care things (like sleep and cleaning).
Getting out of bed? —
Brushing teeth? —
Washing face? —
Showering? —
Eating at least one meal? —
Completing work? —
Talking to friends and family? —
Going outside? —
Exercising? —
Drinking water? —
Took vitamins? —
Doing things based around my hobbies? —
SATURDAY REVIEW
Saturday was actually alright! I completed 8 out of 12 things on my checklist, which is a massive achievement! I didn’t take my vitamins because I ran out, but I’m trying to get some today, so that’s something to look forward to! I didn’t exercise or go outside, which is a bit bad due to the fact that I have a vitamin D deficiency and need more sunlight, but there’s always room for the weekdays and today. I didn’t complete work cause I’m lazy, yet I will be completing my work today.
I argued with a friend which impacted my mental health. The worst part is that I have to sit by them in one of my lessons. It’s going to be very awkward, especially since we’re partners. I wish they could respect my privacy. I do not want an apology from them due to the things they’ve done (it’s pretty extreme), yet they don’t respect my boundaries. But, I hope the argument resolves soon.
I played a few games with my friend and boyfriend today. I played Activate with my boyfriend, and then Activate and Evade with my friend.
… Today, I think I can improve on stepping away from negative spaces and working. I procrastinated a lot yesterday, but this work needs to be done. I honestly just wish the seagulls outside my window did my work for me. 
SATURDAY’S RATING !
Rating the day out of 5! So I can reflect on this journal and see how specific days went.
[ 22/01/23 — 11:40 / 11:40am ]
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(Also, I’m kinda thinking of a point system for self care and recovery, where everything I do grants me one point, and at the end of the month I can see how many points I’ve gained… Since games really help! Does that sound sensible ooorrrr? 
)
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ENTRY 2 !
Sunday’s struggle… ::
Sunday’s review… ::
PROMPT — “What’s one thing in normal life you think is wildly overrated?”
~ Concerts.
Concerts make it feel like your insides are all having a party. It’s super loud. Sure, you get to see your favourite artist live, but is it really worth it? They’re really overrated, thousands of people go see concerts and I just struggle to get it. I get that it’s an entertainment thing. Maybe I don’t understand because I’m sensitive to loud sounds…
[ 23/01/23 — 07:10 / 7:10am ]
SUNDAY’S CHECKLIST !
Self care is imporant! Everyday, my goal is to complete at least six of some self care things (like sleep and cleaning).
Getting out of bed? —
Brushing teeth? —
Washing face? —
Showering? —
Eating at least one meal? —
Completing work? —
Talking to friends and family? —
Going outside? —
Exercising? —
Drinking water? —
Took vitamins? —
Doing things based around my hobbies? —
SATURDAY REVIEW
Sunday was great! I completed 9 out of 12 things on my checklist, which is one more than Saturday!
The thing I improved on was my vitamins. Yesterday I bought some multivitamins and took one, since I’m only supposed to have one a day. I’m so happy I got them, too. <33
I didn’t shower on Sunday. That’s because I have a shower one day, skip the next day, and then shower again after that day. So that’s around 3-4 showers a week. I procrastinated again. But, I’m trying not to. Kinda isn’t working though. 
No arguments today! I stepped away from any negativity. The bad part is that I will be seeing the person I argued with in person today. We have lessons together. It’s gonna be really awkward, but I’m gonna try and keep my distance.
I played a few games again! I played PVP games and Activate on ROBLOX with my friend, and other games with my boyfriend.
… Today, I think I can improve on actually working. At least do a little school work. Work is really hard for me to do, but I know I can do it.
SATURDAY’S RATING !
Rating the day out of 5! So I can reflect on this journal and see how specific days went.
[ 23/01/23 — 07:18 / 7:18am ]
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ENTRY 3 !
Monday’s struggle… ::
Monday’s review… ::
PROMPT — “What is something you want to hear from others about you?”
~ ”You’re a fun person.”
I want people to say good things about me. Whether it’s looks, personality, how I do my work, kindness… Anything, really. Words can go a long way, so anything positive helps. But, I think the compliment “You’re a fun person” sticks with me.
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MONDAY’S CHECKLIST !
Self care is imporant! Everyday, my goal is to complete at least six of some self care things (like sleep and cleaning).
Getting out of bed? —
Brushing teeth? —
Washing face? —
Showering? —
Eating at least one meal? —
Completing work? —
Talking to friends and family? —
Going outside? —
Exercising? —
Drinking water? —
Took vitamins? —
Doing things based around my hobbies? —
MONDAY REVIEW
Monday was bad. I completed 10 out of 12 things on my checklist, which is again, an even better achievement! I was too busy with work to focus on hobbies and exercise.
My ex friend is spreading runours about me in school. He doesn’t realise that talking negatively about people is the issue in the whole argument. I’ve stayed civil, yet he threatens violence and making the issue a bigger problem. It scares me.
I didn’t play any games or read any books.
Today, I think I can improve on stepping away from negativity again. I’m gonna remain civil and calm. I sit by him in one of my lessons today. Terrifying.
MONDAY’S RATING !
Rating the day out of 5! So I can reflect on this journal and see how specific days went.
[ 24/01/23 — 07:10 / 7:10am ]
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ENTRY 4 !
Tuesday’s struggle… ::
Tuesday’s review… ::
PROMPT — “How can I better take care of myself?”
~ ”Writing.”
I figured out that this journal actually helps me deal with my issues. It’s like a few minutes to myself, writing everything that comes to mind. I can also take my vitamins every day, since they keep me energised.
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TUESDAY’S CHECKLIST !
Self care is imporant! Everyday, my goal is to complete at least six of some self care things (like sleep and cleaning).
Getting out of bed? —
Brushing teeth? —
Washing face? —
Showering? —
Eating at least one meal? —
Completing work? —
Talking to friends and family? —
Going outside? —
Exercising? —
Drinking water? —
Took vitamins? —
Doing things based around my hobbies? —
TUESDAY REVIEW
Tuesday was eh. I completed 10 out of 12 things on my checklist again, which is great!
My ex friend is spreading rumours about me in school AGAIN. I asked him to respect my boundaries and not talk to me, yet he called me a bad person. I really don’t understand.
Today, I played a few rounds of Combat Warriors by myself. It was pretty fun.
Today, I think I can improve on stepping away from negativity again. I’m gonna remain calm and just step away from my ex friend.
TUESDAY’S RATING !
Rating the day out of 5! So I can reflect on this journal and see how specific days went.
[ 25/01/23 — 07:08 / 7:08am ]
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ENTRY 5 !
Wednesday’s struggle… ::
Wednesday’s review… ::
PROMPT — “If your feelings were an animal, what animal would it be and why?”
~ ”Hm...”
Some type of animal that’s energised. Maybe a jerboa, because they have two legs and they hop around everywhere.
WEDNESDAY’S CHECKLIST !
Self care is imporant! Everyday, my goal is to complete at least six of some self care things (like sleep and cleaning).
Getting out of bed? —
Brushing teeth? —
Washing face? —
Showering? —
Eating at least one meal? —
Completing work? —
Talking to friends and family? —
Going outside? —
Exercising? —
Drinking water? —
Took vitamins? —
Doing things based around my hobbies? —
WEDNESDAY REVIEW
Wednesday was eh, but worse than Tuesday. I completed 9 out of 12 things on my checklist. Worse, but it’s good!
My ex friend is spreading rumours about me in school still. I told the teacher and they did not believe me because apparently I wasn’t crying.
Today, I played a few rounds of Combat Warriors by myself. It was pretty fun. But, I cut ties with my boyfriend. Not because I don’t love him, but because I need space for now.
Today, I think I can improve somehow. I don’t know how.
WEDNESDAY’S RATING !
Rating the day out of 5! So I can reflect on this journal and see how specific days went.
[ 26/01/23 — 07:54 / 7:54am ]
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ENTRY 5 !
Thursday’s struggle… ::
Thursday’s review… ::
PROMPT — “In what ways (big or small) do I impact my school, family or, community?”
~ ” Talking is enough.”
In my eyes, everyone makes an impact on something just by talking and being there. Say a school club, for an example. A person just being there impacts that place. Taking part in those clubs make it worth while, same with when you’re in school or with friends. I think the impact I have is so small, that it’s actually big, y’know? Something small like talking to my friends… It made me realise that I do have an impact on others and that I am loved by my friends.
THURSDAY’S CHECKLIST !
Self care is imporant! Everyday, my goal is to complete at least six of some self care things (like sleep and cleaning).
Getting out of bed? —
Brushing teeth? —
Washing face? —
Showering? —
Eating at least one meal? —
Completing work? —
Talking to friends and family? —
Going outside? —
Exercising? —
Drinking water? —
Took vitamins? —
Doing things based around my hobbies? —
THURSDAY REVIEW
Thursday was okay! It was better than Tuesday and Wednesday. I completed 11 out of 12 things on my checklist. Just one off… But it’s an achievement!
School was alright, too. It was hard to work but I got through the day. On the fifth lesson, I had Chemistry. We were doing course work and the teacher complimented my work and my writing after doing an experiment… Best compliment ever…
Today, I played a few rounds of Combat Warriors by myself again. It was pretty fun. I miss my boyfriend, but I know I need space right now and I want to make sure I feel better so he can feel better, too.
THURSDAY’S RATING !
Rating the day out of 5! So I can reflect on this journal and see how specific days went.
[ 27/01/23 — 15:49 / 3:49pm ]
karmic pecan
GUYS
OMG
OKAY SO
IVE BEEN ARGUING WITH A FRIEND FOR A WHOLE WEEK
AND
AND WE MADE UP
AND NOW WE’RE FRIENDS AGAIN AND I’VE NEVER FELT HAPPIER
SO HAPPY
I SENT THEM A NOTE ABT IT AND THEY SENT ONE BACK AND WE MADE UP
AND THEN WE DID JUST DANCE TOGETHER IN PE 💀
AND THEN MY YEARS HEAD TEACHER JUST WALKED IN
WATCHING US DANCE TOGETHER
AND THEN THE TEACHER ASKED IF EVERYTHING WAS OK AND IF WE WERE FRIENDS AND WE SAID YES
YIPPEE
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ENTRY 6 !
Friday’s struggle… ::
Friday’s review… ::
PROMPT — “What steps can I take to grow into the person I want to be?”
~ ” Reflect.”
In my eyes, reflecting is important! You reflect on your past days and think, “How could I have made that day better?”. And sometimes, you couldn’t make your day better in any way, but that’s okay! Reflecting on your days and taking the time to try and heal is the best way. It all just takes time.
FRIDAY’S CHECKLIST !
Self care is imporant! Everyday, my goal is to complete at least six of some self care things (like sleep and cleaning).
Getting out of bed? —
Brushing teeth? —
Washing face? —
Showering? —
Eating at least one meal? —
Completing work? —
Talking to friends and family? —
Going outside? —
Exercising? —
Drinking water? —
Took vitamins? —
Doing things based around my hobbies? —
FRIDAY REVIEW
Best day ever! It was better than any other day. I completed 12 out of 12 things on my checklist! Hit the jackpot BABYYYYY
School was amazing! I worked well, made up with my friend, did PE (one of my favourite lessons), had English and I worked well, lunch was great, everything was great!
Today, I played Combat Warriors by myself again, and I got a new weapon on it. Which is epic! It was so fun. It feels like he doesn’t love me anymore, but I think I’m just overthinking. I also watched a horror movie that my friend suggested, and I don’t regret watching it. I legit PREDICTED THE ENDING.
FRIDAY’S RATING !
Rating the day out of 5! So I can reflect on this journal and see how specific days went.
[ 28/01/23 — 12:31 / 12:31pm ]
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im too tired today
to do my passage thing
the uhh
daily check thing
so i skip saturday
and ill do the sunday one
tomorrow
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ENTRY 7 !
Monday’s struggle… ::
Monday’s review… ::
MONDAY’S CHECKLIST !
Self care is imporant! Everyday, my goal is to complete at least six of some self care things (like sleep and cleaning).
Getting out of bed? —
Brushing teeth? —
Washing face? —
Showering? —
Eating at least one meal? —
Completing work? —
Talking to friends and family? —
Going outside? —
Exercising? —
Drinking water? —
Took vitamins? —
Doing things based around my hobbies? —
MONDAY REVIEW
Meh. Got a cold. Not the best start to the week. I completed 10 out of 12 things on my checklist. Not bad!
School was boring. I couldn’t focus on my work because my sickness was distracting me. No clue what it is, but it made my whole face hurt. It felt like an allergic reaction.
Today, I played some games. Combat Warriors, puzzle games, a few rhythm games, and I played Dungeons & Dragons at school with my friends.
MONDAY’S RATING !
Rating the day out of 5! So I can reflect on this journal and see how specific days went.
/ 5
[ 31/01/23 — 21:54 / 9:54pm ]
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i kinda just figured how to
speaks prisms?
prisms....
the secret is that its morse code in different shapes
△ means .
▽ means -
ᐞ means /
so thats pretty cool
bold cryptBOT
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!!!
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i need tips on how to stop being jealous tbh 😭
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drew this thing
its supposed to be like a uhhh
creature cryptid thingy
i dont really know what he is but i headcanonned that hes made out of ink (hes my pookies oc)
anythinf that touches his skin basically gets sucked into it like uhh
quicksand /j
!!
no handshakes i guess 😿
puppet boy is such a good song
then again i really like the sped up version
like these ones
ONE OF MT FRIENDS ALMOST FOUND OUT I AM A HOST OF A SYSTEM
OHHH MY HEART
SWEET MAMA
HEART SKIPPED A BEAT 😭
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back from school anddd
im so tired
i worked well
i think
the sky looked like this
this morning
this song is so good
swearing
but
good
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YOU AND ME YOU AND ME YOU AND ME LOVE LOVEEE
WHATS THAT PUPPET BOY??
DONT TELL ME WHAT TO DO
WHATS THAT PUPPET BOY?
IM@NOT A FREAK LIKE YOU
WHATS THAT PUPPET BOY???
ILL MOVE WHEN I WANT TO
I CANT HEAR YOU PUPPET BOY
NOW DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!!!
i love music
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NEVER
AHHHH
NEVER
HAVE I MET SOMEONE LIKE YOOOUUUUUU
AAAAAAHHHHH
all these past messages have just been lyrics
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gasp
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the sky frim my bus
looked really pretty
work and school was tiring
but i actually asked my teacher for help this time
and everything was fine
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just woke up
now i gotta to maths homework
before my teacher puts me in detention again
also i have 666 pings
i got 20/30....
better than 19
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💀
I wanted the black version.
Cause most of my avatars are black themed.
But I made a random avatar to fit the colour, so it's fine.
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I JUST REMEMBERED
I HAVE A PHYSICS TEST
AND LIKE
I DONT HAVE A CALCULATOR
CAUSE MINE BROKE
AUUGGHH
good luck to me
bye guys
(i love greggy he is so funny)
(he wont see this but its ok)
welp datas runnin out
peace
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i played...
fnf a
lot
the roblox version
and theres this one mod which i really love
its aaaaaa
mandela catalogue mod
and they added one of my favsourits remixes
this clip is kinda fire tho
i took so many clips 💀
but yeah
a good game
they have cool effects
like the og songs
cause a lot of fnf roblox games dont have the effects
they have like 29639272 mods too
overexaggerated number but still
a lotta mods
i was gonna make this journal all fancy and nice looking but i have too much going on in my mind
so i just HAVE to share it
i always silently look at other users journals and always think theyre pretty
i usually skim through them and read occasionally
i like cat covens journal
id love to talk to people in the server but im too scared 💀
and i know i have no big reason to be scared and im jus overthinking
but talking HARD.
i also like browsing through #843703818579607552
makes me feel happy that other people like the server
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boo
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spooky!
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i can see my oc playing this on his electric guitar
i dunno why but i can see it !!!!
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MY BOYFRIEND DREW MY OC AGAIN!!!!!!!
AWAAAAA
AWWHWHSHSHWHQH
I LOVE HIM SO MUCH
(my bf)
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guys
i found the best animal ever
theres these cows called
watusi cattles
oh my@god
look at their horns
they look so silly
sobbing my eyes out
/pos
WATUSIIII
OHHH MAHH GOD
THEY ARE SO CUTE
i love cows n cattles
