Getting rid of all the previous posts cause i was sad then and i dont wanna look at them :)) HERES TO A NEW JOURNAL! ill try not to be so inconsistent cause i think it will help me 🙂
#Ven0m's Journal I Guess?
rugged nebula
rugged nebula
OKAY SO, new entry for today.
I'm gonna ask myself some questions... see if over time my answers change.
How are you V?
- well, right now im pretty stressed out. i just got my first real job and i start on saturday. i am fucking terrified. what if im not good enough? what if i fuck up?
- aside from that, i love my gf and we are great. though, we never see each other cause of distance as well as jobs we both have. we're also gonna have to break up before university which sucks ass
- in terms of my mental health... i am struggling. i was doing really well for a long time - probably due to me wife. but now, things are starting to go south again. random self harm urges, hitting-my-head-really-hard type meltdowns, non-verbal episodes, all round generally sadness and loneliness.
Whats being going on?
- new job
- lots of Valorant
- lots of music (but less writing music)
- lots of modding
- lots of staying home doing jack shit all day
- staying up late and sleeping in
What are your short term goals?
- do well at my job
- see my girlfriend more
- spoil myself
- stay in touch with my friends.
what are your long term goals?
- start of the academic year strong
- get assessed for my mental health needs
- dont fuck up ur friendships
- be smart about ur relationship
thanks for checking in!