hammis journal

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my journal of excessive thoughts ig, as well as just having a place to write about stuff I enjoy doin'

Firstly, I’m thankful for this because;
This is actually really resourceful.
I’ve been journaling since I was really young and having a journal on the phone would been really good for me just because I’ve never really been the one for writing as much on paper anymore.

So having this for me is really positive, where I’ll be able to journal about thing daily in a much more productive way. I always use my phone and by that it’ll become more efficient and easier for me to remember writing more. I have tremendously bad memory when it comes to important things like this, for me this is important because I’ve been doing it for so long I never really wanted to stop. But there was a time where I didn’t journal at all and because of that things just went wrong.
This makes me really happy.

Journaling for me was so much fun when I was younger, for me it wasn’t only about writing but also expressing myself in a more creative way. So I drew a lot, the emotions I was feeling back then, but now more I’ve come to notice that I write much more than drawing. Maybe because I’ve found new passion in writing since I was younger and that has made me happy. Writing you can do in so many ways to express yourself, how you feel, what ever you imagination takes you and that’s the fun of it.

I actually look forward to writing more, because lately I’ve not had the time to but now I see myself have reason to actually pick up writing again if it’s about my day or how I’m feeling. Though I know I’ll have as many tough/rough/bad days as easy/good/happy ones I actually look forward to writing about them again.

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Talk about my day, how was it?
My day today was rather slow going, had only one lesson today though it was a long one that lasted from 12am to 2:30pm. We did nothing much but I was entirely exhausted and distracted a lot during the lesson so teach' was not that happy about it. Me and a friend got told to be quieter multiple times, though we weren’t and got yelled at.. we talked about Fantastic Beast during class because my friend didn’t know those movies existed so I just became really excited talking about them with her. Our teach' not so much though.
After that fiasco of a class I had to have a meeting with my mentor, had a development talk.. ueueueu and apparently I had to be the one leading the conversation and not my mentor and I wasn’t really that interested in talking at all.. kind of had a hard time forming words. Really embarrassing moment of today.
Share an old memory you like
First time I learned really how to snowboard, which btw took me days to actually be able to go in one of the blue slopes without falling on my knees or bum.. lmao
I remember that the guy we rented the snowboard from at the place we where on our skiing week had given me a to small snowboard.. so it was rather difficult to learn BY MYSELFT how to actually do it. Because at the time it was only me and my father, and he is a skier and does not snowboard at all. But it was fun. Now it’s been 6 years and I can finally say that I’m an average good snowboarder.
I absolutely love snowboarding and soon it’s that time of year again and I can’t wait to go skiing/snowboarding with my friends/family!! It’ll definitely be so much fun!

3 songs I like, and what they mean to me

• Zombie by The Wolves (cover)
  This song has kind of always been a part of me threw out the years. Listened to this song when feeling down, because in some way it makes me remember that it’s just all in my head. That the bad thought I have are fighting, negativity is not healthy and this song makes me remember that.
• Cosmic Love by Florence + The Machine
  Though this song might seem sad and have heavy lyrics I can never seem to stop listening to it. In some way it gives me goosebumps in a much positive way. I feel like I’m closer to my brother with this song, gives me hope tho find my way back to him. Once the time comes.
• Iris by The Goo Goo Dolls
  The first time I heard this song was the first time when I watched Treasure Planet. That movie is such a good movie, being one of my comfort movies I watch.
  This song I’ve resonated with for soooo long it kind of hurts, but somehow in a good way. Because in all honesty all I wanted was for my family to know who I really am. But don’t want the world to see me at the same time.

Mmmm yeah.

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Huddler Prompt nr1: What is something I can thank myself for?

With due diligence can I thank myself for actually getting up every morning and going on with my days. Being tired of work/school sucks, having no motivation to do anything most of the time is stressful and exhausting. Because it makes you lose interest in the things you love doing, you become a shell. But I’ve actually been trying to do things my way, which I’m great full for.
Trying out new things that make me happy, set my own expectations that’s reasonable and not to hard to achieve. I don’t want to but myself in distress just because of the high expectations other people have of me. So I’m happy and thankful for finally come to terms with myself and my work ethics, it’s important to have good and reasonable expectations for yourself. Not having to worry about being perfect all the time. It’s extremely exhausting work to put yourself in the position that you have to work to fit in a box other people want you in. And I’m done with that, because it’s not healthy and makes me sick to the stomach thinking about the time where I honestly thought I had to fit in that box of high expectations of others just to please them, and not think of myself at all.

That time is over, I’m working on myself everyday to make my own decisions. To make me proud, and priority my own thoughts for once!! It’s time to take myself in consideration, to care for myself this time and do things my way to make me happy!!

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CW// talk about feeling unwell/having breakdowns
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Did not have that good of a day today. This morning I woke up at 4am.. that was not the time I shooed have woken up at.. I was exhausted but could not fall back asleep.. watched some YouTube and fell back asleep out of nowhere.. but woke up again at 5:30am and saw no meaning in me trying to sleep more because was going to wake up at 6am originally. I was so sleepy and felt realy litol at that moment, wanted to go back to sleep and idk what came over me but I hade my first breakdown of the day.. and mm.,, it was not fun.

But that’s not everything.,,,
Had an exam for my MTB(mountain bike course) where we had to bike/guide and do reparations/fix a problem that our instructors made on the bike that we had to solve. Like for example change the hose in the tire of the wheel or having to change the chain etc.

Nothing with the repairs wanted to work and I hade a total breakdown.. again :c
I had been trying to get the tire of the rim but it didn’t budge AT ALL.. I had been at that point for probably 25 minutes and that was it.
I felt the tears go down my cheeks, I was so exhausted after all the biking in the woods.. my hands was hurting, everything just went wrong today. We had a writing exam as well at the end of the day, that went better than expected but after that we where done I just wanted to go home. As we all where on our way home, feeling the tiredness getting to me even more., and a headache progressively getting worse.. migraines :/
But home, finally. I honestly just collapsed in the living room because of being so exhausted, kinda felt like a dream everything. Thinking about everything that happened today nothing seemed real. Like I was just watching a movie in third perspective.. it was weird, today was weird.. and tomorrow probably will be to, as it’s going to be a long day even longer that today was .. mmhmm

I’m taking it easy now tho, snuggling my stuffies

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The week is not over, but this week has still probably been one of the worst one in a while. Been struggling regulating my own emotions and thoughts, not seen good from bad. Been overwhelmed, anxious, overthinking a lot and just outright exhausted all day.
Yesterdays mishap at the MTB exams did not make things better and today I’ve just got this tiring headache all day.

Wednesdays and Thursdays are the most important school day, and I messed up on both of them. I went to school today but with the motive to just get on with this day and try be there all day, hopefully.
Which did not happen, as I sat alone because not wanting to socialise or talk to anyone at all just be there and get it over with. But as the day went on my mood progressively shifted to be worse. And my teacher did notice, he asked how I was.., tho couldn’t really answer him because it was just so terribly awkward to form any sort of conversation/word… they go brrr.
Nicely enough he saw how uncomfortable and tired I was he let me go home, which I’m really glad for. So in all fairness I’m grateful for my teacher’s understanding and let me go home.

Now tbh though I really just want to weekend to come

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So today was interesting !! /pos

First off I wanna start this with just saying how proud I actually am of myself, being in phase with schoolwork as essays and assignments are done with. As well as every project we’ve worked on site done as well, I’m not behind in anything. And I can say that I’m really impressed because usually I’m ways behind in schoolwork.
So that’s something new :D /vvpos

Today was a better day as well, emotionally, mentally and physically. But still some flaws as always that’s harder to deal with, though glad to say that it has improved since this week started. Im also looking forward to tomorrow and Sunday, as I’m going to be at the farm/stable !!
Going to be working with a new horse they we got no to long ago, so that’s exciting :>

had movie night with mum
And booiii it was awesome !!!
We watched the new Black Panther (Wakanda Forever) movie and it was such a good movie!!
It’s probably right now at least the best movie that marvel has made these past years. Because my god the Dr.Strange movie and Thor Love and Thunder was not particularly that good at all in my opinion. So I really enjoyed this one, the first thing the did was MAKE ME CRY xD
It was soo sad but so amazing, loved it so much. Possibly new favourite marvel movie right there!!!

Sooo cool!!

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Huddler Prompt nr2: What do I wish I knew more about?

I wish I knew more about my brother, who he was, how he was, what he did, what his passions were, what his dreams were, and things like that. Because I did not get to do anything like that. I did not know what kind of person he was or dreamt to be, what his likes or dislikes were, his personality or what he was passionate about, instead it was just… absolutely.. nothing. Because, I can’t remember anything

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Huddler Prompt nr3: Was there anything in my week that made me excited? And why?

This week was nothing out the ordinary, tho had a fun time at my intern workplace, Wednesday.
As well as watched the new Black Panther movie with my mum, Friday. Nothing much has really happened this week, that’s really worth mentioning if not already mentioned. The weekend was okay, did nothing special yesterday but today though I worked at the animal park/farm and stable. It was fun, got the exercise and ride one of my favourite horses today, she’s awesome !!

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Jus some pretty pics taken of the snow today!!

And the doggies

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Ohhh no I missed two days /neu

Well, yesterday was quite or ordinary. But today was really good!
I worked today, and it was really fun actually even tho it made me extremely tired from all the social interaction with all the people, my boss and colleagues where really helpful and understanding as they always are.
I got to help a lot of people today, with problems or troubles they had with things. It was fun, but exhausting as well
So in all this day was good

To make it up to myself imma write one more thing!

Huddler Prompt nr4: What inspires you?
To be entirely honest, Idk what inspires me.. I really love to read so maybe books are a kind of inspiration to me in some way?
Books are really cool, let you imagine the world behind the pages! That’s what I love about them, as well as the stories and characters!
But I’ve always had an interest in North Mythology and Greek Mythology! So that’s a thing that inspired me throughout my childhood ig

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Huddler Prompt nr5: What’s one thing you wish you knew about yourself five years ago?

I wish I had known about the turmoil I’d faces when I was younger and the extent of it would affect my life. But that was not the case now was it, I could never have expected any of what happen to have happened, really. You never can and you never will know what’s to happen in the future even tho you might wish it. Well either way I kind of don’t care anymore… 🤷

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I’m tired but..

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Huddler Prompt nr6: When I face difficult situations, whom do I go to for advice?

Usually when I find myself in a difficult situation, I’ve come to notice that I actually want my sisters help more that my parents. I don’t know why, maybe because I find more comfort in her presence and her help in the matter of what’s going on. But it’s been recently that I’ve wanted her help or guidance(?) i guess.. more so than my parents.

I love my sister, she’s a fighter and have been threw so much in her life that she’s more knowledgeable about than my mother or father. And having her help is comforting, having her back is great. Because there was a time I never really got to be with her, when she was gone a lot from home because she was ‘sick’.

I have to be better at calling her though because it’s hard having conversation now when she no more lives with us. I’m terrible at calling people, to have chats or just to see how people are doing. It’s kind of terrible of me, I’d really like talking to her more.

I’m grateful for having her in my life /vvpos

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Huddler Prompt nr7: What is something I can do for myself today?

Seriously?… go to bed and sleep, but do not wake up to late the day after.

I really don’t like waking up later than 9am tbh, it makes me even more tired waking up later.

But for now, I’ll just say goodnight and hope everyone has good nights as well ^^

Ni ni

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Hi ^^

It’s a change of scenery, new pfp and some other stuff I felt like be a good thing to change around a little ! /pos

I will write again later today when the next prompt comes or writing something for myself. :D

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Self Prompt nr1: Tell about 1 good thing that happened today

Today got the news that my father had bought a new video game for us to play!! God of War, and wow, it’s such a cool game! I’ve wanted to try this game for quite some time and my father bought it this week and surprised me with it! So when I get home we’ll be playing it, and decorate our home with some small Christmas decorations!!

Can’t wait! Right now tho I’m with my mother and godfather at a restaurant to celebrate that my godfather got a new job! The restaurant we are at is one of my favourites, it’s such a cute one!

This day is a good and calm one! It’s nice

Song choice of today!! I love this song so so much! /vvpos

https://open.spotify.com/track/1myEOhXztRxUVfaAEQiKkU?si=_U51PYzVRgm7egZQ1wCSWA

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Huddler Prompt nr8: What are 5 things I like the most about myself? Why are these my strengths?

In all honesty it’s hard to say, because I could probably say more things that I typically don’t like about myself instead. Buuuutt, that’s not what we doing today :>

hammis most likeable/positive traits

1. Open minded
2. Respectful
3. Integrity
4. Responsible
5. Resilient
   These are the strengths I’ve been told and hear people talk about when talking about me.. guess it’s because of the things I’ve been through and experience throughout my life. In some ways I myself see some of these as drawbacks tbh, but most of it is just myself being awfully hard on myself.

Being respectful and having responsibility is some of the things my parents have always taught us. As being respectful, in the background you’d want to be kind. Not always the case though, now os it. You can be respectful but as well as not being kind about it. That’s not who I am though, I never intentionally want to cause harm to others, never. I’ve always been open minded when it come to other people or stuff in general ig.

Ever since I was younger, I’ve kind of had to be responsible with my schoolwork/work because I’ve had such a hard time with school. And the teachers we’ve had has not been that good. So it has always been myself having to check in with things like this. And I like being responsible for myself, having my own structure I find is important for me.

But.. being resilient. Well that comes from all the heavy things been through in my life. Mmm yup.
The resilience also comes from my father, we are kind of the same person that way. We often thing logically about things. But I do have a vivid imagination as well, I’m a writer and reader! ^^

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Self Prompt nr2: Talk about fun stuff/adventures you get to do with school

Ooouwwwhhh !!! I’m awake, and it’s sooooo early xD

Having to make these trips with our college is tiring, really sucks. /pos
But at the same time they are a lot of fun, like we had so much fun the last time even tho that time we woke up at 4am having to take public transport to take express trains to our destination.

We went to a farm where there was a lot of tractors, quad bikes and the possibility to do mechanic things on everything. Because we apparently need to be able to do that too xD
The first time we all where there it was really fun, hopefully it’ll be as fun this time as well.

It’s kinda funny, even tho I woke up extremely early for me, I feel more awake than ever. It’s weird xD

So imma be gone three whole days from normal classes woop 🙌🏼
And imma make small entries for what we’ve done during these days. Think that’ll be fun ^^

So excited, but still feel like imma get tired from everyone.. because we all gonna live in small houses with each other, welp xD
Just have to wait and see I guess.

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Update: we made it to the farm! We here, woop 🙌🏼

It took its time lmao xD
But we are having breakfast/brunch now, just some sandwiches and tea! Later we will eat lunch and then start with “classes” at once after that. ^^

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Late update for the whole day: dinner time!

Sooo first day all done! It was a lot fun today, we hade class after lunch for 2h about how to have the best ergonomically work ethic when working with heavy machinery as we’ve been doing today.
After that we had a small 30 mins break to be able to change to work clothes and move in to our houses, as well as chose our groups !!

Later we all went to our stations of work, my group having agricultural machinery! Where we used different agricultural machines with the use of tractors! It was a lot of fun. Can’t wait for the next day!

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Day nr2: Whole day of work

This day is the longest one, being the whole day from having to wake up at 6:30am to eat and than start our first lesson by 7:30am which is 2 intense hours of work. Only got 20 miniature breaks.. which is honestly not enough, but that’s because the day would otherwise only be longer, and that would be even worse.
Next lesson would be at 9:50am to 11:50, every lesson is 2 hours.
So it’s constant and I like that with this! /pos
After that we had lunch! Buuuuuut… for only 40 minutes.. like.. that’s not enough xD
Either way, 12:30am-2:30pm was the third one, and probably the best one! Lastly 3:00pm was our very last class for the day. And we got to end that one early, nicely enough of our instructor.

1:st class: Quad-bike nr3
I think driving the quad-bike has to be the best thing ever, it’s so much fun! And we got to do 3 different things this lesson.

1. Learn to use the winch
2. Drive backwards
3. Get a “broken” quad-bike up a trailer on another quad-bike.

2:nd lesson: Implement & Tractor
This lesson we got to learn how to use different implements for tractor in farm work! We also learned how to attach a fork to a tractor, as well as how to park backwards with a tractor with a “trailer”/implement that was attached to the tractor back.

3:nd lesson: Quad-bike nr4
This Quad-bikes lesson we got to do a little different things than the first. We had to attach a small trailer behind them and we drove through tough terrain like humpback slopes, big logs/stones, and much more I do not know how to describe them.. but it was like an obstacle course for Quad-bikes.

4:th lesson: Reflect the day
Was just to reflect on what we’ve done these two days and what we thought about it.
What we thought was easiest/hardest thing we did so far.

But in all it was quite the good day, but I’m extremely exhausted.

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Day nr3: The last day

So we are all done today! And right now we all are on our way home, on a travel bus with two stories! Isn’t that cool
We on our way to the railway station to take the express home, and I’d say that this half week of classes and training has been fun!

1:st lesson: Forest machinery tools (tractor)
This lesson we used implements for forest work I guess you could call it. Where we had two different tractors having to do two different tasks, tho within them we had to do small challenges that the instructors gave us.

1. A tractor with a timber claw = had to pick up timber and move from one side to another.
2. The tractor with a silage bales claw = to pick up big tractor wheels, 3 ones where we had to do small challenges with them. Where 1. you had to be able to balance them the right way up, 2. Where you had to build a snowman of them, 3. where you had to build a snowman but with the big wheel laying down, the second standing up and the little third one laying down as well.. it’s hard to explain to be honest ‘xD

2:nd lesson: Working environment
This was about how to have a good working environment, so we talked a lot about it and walked around looking at everyone who had there other lessons. We had to look for what they did that could risk them getting hurt and stuff like that. And we talked some more.

[update] - we are on the express train on the way home!! And lols I forgot about the 2:nd one.. so yeah. ‘:D

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Huddler Prompt nr9: What’s one thing that makes your life easier?

One thing that makes life easier? I don’t really know, it’s so hard to only choose one thing, is it not?

I’d have such a hard problem.. let me rephrase that. I’m having such a hard time choosing one thing that makes life easier because in all honesty I’m not quite sure.

Hmmmmmmm…. It’s so haaaarrrd bruhhhhhh ‘:D

Oh no, I know. MUSIC! Pfft yeah.
Music makes so many thing in life much easier for me.

1. Music helps me sleep easier
2. Music helps me relax in difficult times/situations/moods
3. It’s generally calming
4. And I meditate sometimes

Music is just the best! A song I’ve had on loop recently is Haven by Novo Amor! Is nice song to listen to.

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Huddler Prompt nr10: If you could travel 10 years into the future to tell yourself one thing, what would you say?

You did good. That you did a good job working on your relations with your family and yourself. But it’s hard to say, because even tho it’s something non logically thing to be able to happen I’d like to think I’d say something like that to myself. Be proud of who I’d become in the future ig. Idk really

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I’m really tired, might not write todays prompt because I actually want to sleep rn. I’ll write tomorrow instead I think, dunno fo sure tho 🤷

Ni ni

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Huddler Prompt nr11: How would you compliment yourself?
Like this ig.. idk really. This is not really a compliment tho

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I like this one… tho I’m terribly bad at “following” it ‘xD
Maybe it’s a sign to try and be myself and find the people who like me for being., well me

BUUUTT! Is an early bird today, and it’s Wednesday!

So, today it’s special school day, I’m not entirely sure what we’re doing today. But yesterday we had to watch a short movie about trees,, yes about trees xD

And than after we watched the movie we had to reflect on the conversation of the short movie to come to school with two questions we are supposed to debate about in class. In all honesty, the movie was quite interesting actually. I enjoyed watching it and I had much to think about when trying to think of what kinds of questions I want to ask.
And I’m glad we don’t have the longest day today, because I feel tired and want to be in better mood for tomorrow.

Hopefully our teacher doesn’t bore us out in class.. lmao

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He in fact did not bore us out during class today.. buuut, I just noticed that I’m terribly tired and will sleep now.. ni ni ‘^^

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Cw// talk of fire
Weellllll… ehm. The fire alarm sent of om our floor of our school.. this is an interesting day ‘^^

I just got to school and see people going down the stairs and a teacher said the fire alarm went of and it was not supposed to be an exercise drill? That it was a real one this time. So we stuck in the cold now, but we where really lucky because 2 firefighters that had a class with one of our classes so it was really lucky for us actually! /pos

Though I really want to go inside now because it’s really cold out.

Our headmaster is currently trying to get information about which part of the floor that the alarm went of on.. but it’s taking some time..

I did not think my Friday was going to be like this.. not at all

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Oh right!!! UPDATE

We got to go inside again! I’m in class rn lmao xD

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Lets talk about a game today!

I recently got God of War and later on we bought God of War Ragnarök, and the first of those games where really good! I really enjoy playing the games that follows a story behind everything. And this is one of many I’ve had a blast playing. God of War was shorter but I liked that about it, all I can really say about it was that it was just beautiful made. The graphics of the game was amazing and the world where the story plays out is really cool!

The characters are awesome as well!! I really like Kratos, he’s cool :D
As well as Atreus, Mimir, Sindri, Freya and Brok, these are the main ones we get to see. All those characters are some of my favourite but I think all the characters in the game over all, are awesome.

And then we have God of War Ragnarök! This games plays out at least a couple years after because Atreus is probably around 14-16 years old in this game. He was much younger in the first one.

We get to meet a lot of new people and characters in Ragnarök which is really fun! I really like Fenrir, Atreus wolf!! And many, many more characters we get meet!
But in my opinion I think Ragnarök is the saddest of the games, I cried a lot tbh during my time finishing ‘The Path’/‘The Story’ of the game.

Though it was amazing, so much have gone in making this game, because every realm is different this time. And we get the change to visit all of the nine realms.

WE EVEN GOT TO PLAY AS ATREUS!!!! It was so much fun!!
And we got to team up with Brok sometimes and with Freya other times, even Sindri! It was really cool!!
We got to see Thors whole family, and other people from Asgard. Hugin and Munin where there!
We even got to meet another giant, and visit Jötunheimr again!

I think God of War is a new favourite game of mine. /vvpos

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Well done @atomic dome ! you are rewarded with <@&1051306961662128248> for having made an entry in your journal on 10 different days.

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Oh? Is that a thing!? That’s really cool

So awesome!! That makes me really happy actually

Well for that imma give y’all some cute puppy pictures of my dogs puppies !!!

Eeeeeee they are so adorable omg!!

Me and my friends have been talking nonstop about the puppies all day! These are the newest pictures we got of them, and omg they are just adorable and so fluffy!!

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Self Prompt nr3: Something you’ve been looking forward this day?

First of all I can say that today has been kind of a ‘meh’ day, not that good and not that bad. On Mondays I only have one lesson and it’s not one of my favourite subjects in school to work with tbh. All I’ve been thinking about today is that I’m going to my aunt and cousins to eat dinner with them! I’ve been looking forward to this all day and yesterday!

We had planned this a couple days ago and it’s been a while since I saw them last time! I also look forward to having our Christmas with them this year again.

I hope Christmas this year is better than the last one, I’m sure it will be. I have a feeling this time it will be!
It’s really cold this evening, my hands are cold but I got gloves on so it’s okay and the buss should be here soon! Well imma listen to my music and be on my way to my aunt now ^^

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Self Prompt nr4: Christmas gift time!!

I’m so happy my Tuesdays are really short, I only had a period in school today because the last class that my classmates still have to go to, I’ve already studied that class.. so I end school by lunchtime xD /vvpos

SOOOOOOO I have all day basically to buy the gifts! And I’m already done?! Like HUH-
I so thought this was gonna take so much longer and much more effort. But no, I’m done and on my way home!

Though, for my two cousins I got Lego! They both really like Lego so I had to try find something they would like. Which I did!! My older cousin got a Lego monster truck and my younger cousin got a Lego poodle!!
For my sister I got her a really comfy pyjamas set! And my aunt is getting skincare products from a really cool place! She tends to be really uncomfortable during winter because her skin gets all dry, so Imma help with that this year!
My mum though is getting a goodie bag with lots of different stuff, she will get her favourite candies, a scrapbook that I’ve made with a lots of memories, a funny shirt(because it’s tradition now) and a perfume I know she’s been wanting to get!!
And my father is getting his own goodie bag with a lot of things he likes, licorice, charcuteries and a scarf I made!!

It was actually fun going on this Christmas shopping spree for myself!! Maybe that’s why it didn’t take such a long time xD
Well it’s still really cold here, minus degrees (Celsius), my fingers and neck are soooo cold bruhhhhhh

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Self Prompt nr5: Talk about something you enjoy working with

Well I work at a farm of a sorts I guess, I work there wherever I can and have time to do so!! I really love working with farm animals, and those animals we have are horses, goats, pigs, sheep, hens, rooster and chickens occasionally of course. As well as lambs and baby goats.
We sadly don’t have cows anymore, tho rabbits/bunnies and cats of course!!
This farm is a day-camp for children to learn about the farmers life and the animals that are commonly seen in a farm. And we have different kinds of camps as well, if it’s directed to a specific animal or activities we have, sometimes we have adventure camp as well.

All of this is so much fun, usually it’s organised to be about 3-4 groups of 10-15 children in different age’s. And the groups are color based so we know what group everyone is in, it makes it easier for us leaders and and the younger leaders who are there as help to us.

But I want to talk about our animals we have! We have horses, 4 of them actually and their names are Leora, Amarillo, Hamlet and Sierra! They are all really good horses and really nice! But tbh Hamlet is my bestie, I’ve worked with him for manny years and he is just the best!!
Then there is our pigs, Matteus, Ronnie and Helga which are siblings all of them. We have pre sheep and goats but I’m only gonna name a few of them, those who I like the most and are just sweethearts!! There is Nova(goat), Ester(sheep), Xavier(ram) and lastly we have Enid(goat).
We have our three cats which are adorable! Frank, Nina and Alice are their names and I love them so much!!! They are wonderful cats!!

Well, I guess that’s all I have say I think! LMAO I FOUND FUNNY PICTURE OF MY DOG

He is yawning

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Idk what to write this night, it’s also kind of really late ‘:>
So think I’ll only leave with this ^^

Ni ni

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Huddler Prompt nr12: Write about an electronic device you feel grateful to have

I’m grateful for PlayStation!!

It allows you to play games you like and watch movies!! It has a multi use in many ways, and that makes me happy! There so many games I enjoy playing on PlayStation like for example, Rachel and Clank, God of War, Uncharted, Assassinations Creed, Knack, Unraveled, Tomb Raider and many many more!!!

It’s awesome!!! And I have a new game to wish for this Christmas, hopefully from my brother because he’s often the one to get the new games or let me borrow his games!!

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To make up for lost day yesterday! I’ll write today as well when I wake up again ‘^^
Imma sleep tho, ni ni

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Huddler Prompt nr13: What’s one thing that someone told you that you hold close to your heart?

Something that someone has told me that I hold close to my heart?

Maybe that time someone special told me how understanding I am of the people around me, even tho they said I can be a tremendously awkward person in the situation ‘xD
I hold that close to my heart because of who the person it was that told me this, it was a shock for me because in all honesty I never thought that this person would ever say something like that to me. But when they explained why it hit me that they had the experience of me being understanding of them and that now one else had ever been.

This person had been through a lot of hardship and just outright awful things, they where not a trusting person and they explained to me that I was the ever first person that they could really lean on. I was the shoulder they could cry on for help. And that for me was heartbreaking but just as is it felt really good. Because they’d trust me enough!
I hold that person close to my heart and what they said to me close to my heart, and to bring that with me, being understanding towards other people, not to judge others.

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Huddler Prompt nr14: Write about your favourite holiday story or movie. Why do you enjoy it?

I really enjoy the movie ‘Rise of the Guardians’ and I think it’s my absolute favourite holiday of any kind movie! As Santa, Easter Bunny, Tooth Fairy, Sandman, And lastly Jack Frost is in the movie!!

The movie has a really amazing underlying story and importance! For me this movie means a lot, because in some aspects ai could see myself in Jack Frost!

Some of my favourite actors voice the characters! Hugh Jackman plays Bunny, Chris pine as Jack and so on!
And I just really like that the sole purpose and story of this movie is to protect and cherish the children who believes in them. Because those children who believe are the Guardians job to protect them as those children are the ones keeping them alive(?) ig.

It’s a great movie! And I’ve seen it 2 times this year already ‘^^

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Huddler Prompt nr15: What is the best gift you ever received?

As of now it’s the headphones my father bought me for Christmas!
Why I already know that is because me and my father is having Little Christmas rn, and we’ve opened our gifts from each other! These headphones are amazing, noice cancelling, on ears, Bluetooth and so much more. I’ve had these other headphones that’s been really bothering my ears as they directly are on my ears and it hurts to have them in for to long. So getting These new ones is great /vvpos

Mmm I’m also a little sad that I forgot to write in the journal yesterday ^~^ /neu
I’ll probably write some more later today, rn it’s still quite early.

Heads up, I will probably talk about Horizon and info dump here after I’ve tried the game for a while xD

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mmm to tired to write, will talk about Horizon tomorrow instead

Ni ni

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Self Prompt nr6: Talk about Avatar (the blue ppl xD)

I just watched the movie! And let me tell you this was probably the highlight of this year! This movie, WAS AMAZING!!!! /vvpos

It was definitely worth the wait for it and the hours to watch it! It was supposed to come out in 2018 I believe, but was postponed to this year. And a whole 3h and 10 minutes, omg!

There was never a dull moment, something always happened! The story was amazing, new people and tribes! A whole different view of Avatar, different cultures and beliefs!

Im just kinda flabbergasted and have a los of word right now ‘xD
Im still kinda just processing that I’ve seen the movie, it went soo fast yet took so long. Time just flew by, we didn’t even realise that it was over before it even started kinda feeling yk

So cool! Its done ^-^

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Jus this! He a friend ^-^

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Self Prompt nr7: Im sick (this is no heavy sick talk, just me and complaining about winter sickness)

I hate being sick and I haven’t been this sick in years.. like I think I sooo jinxed myself this year tbh ‘^^

In all honesty I actually never really get sick, in terms of what being sick is.. but already yesterday I felt really stuffy and bad. Now this morning when I woke up my nose was runny, stuffy and all that awful with being sick. My eyes where kinda clogged ig, and I called my mother… to make thing better I was crying /s

I get so fkn emotional when I have the sickies, it’s awful, and I hate it. This morning was the worst, called my mother, was crying, didn’t know what to do because felt pain everywhere. So she kinda talked me into some kind of plan of what to do this morning xD

1. Take some meds to help evaluate the pain
2. Take a warm shower
3. Make tea with honey
4. Eat something, breakfast/lunch or brunch whatever
5. Lay down and burrow in a pile of blankets
6. And watch series/movies or take a nap

Yeahh we did all that and more, being sick sucks and it’s soooo boring and it hurts.. I’m so done with this already…
Got help from my aunt to, she came to take my dogs and got me some nose spray, cough lozenges, ice cream. So grateful for that, it helped a lot! She’s awesome, she even told me if there was problem in the night that I could call her because I’m home alone atm

Im so tired now tho, I just wanted to complain here, dunno why

Welp ni ni, I hope none of y’all is sick because it’s awful, and hope y’all get a good nights rest! It’s a well deserved one

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Huddler Prompt nr16: I forgive myself for.. being sick?

no matter how annoying or exhausting it is being sick it’s not my fault for being sick or getting sick

Even tho I’ve probably made my mother sick now because I am, I’ve tried my best to stay away from her or had a mask if we would interact together? But I guess it wasn’t helpful

Now I’m just tired all the time and waking up by 10am, doing nothing, just laying in bed reading or watching movies to spend time.
And I’m the kind of person who hates waking up later than 9am, it’s awful, I feel like I mis so much of the day 😭

Now tho, I don’t really see a point in waking up earlier because I can’t even go out and do things, I have to stay home because I’m sick /nav

But I did jinx myself, tho it’s not really my fault because I say this every year to test my luck.. still tho I’m not really sick sick, just a small flu. Honestly it’s a little funny /s in some kind of way just because now I know I should stop jinxing myself before Christmas /ij

Well, I hope everyone else has had a nice winter break at least

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Huddler Prompt nr17: I couldn’t have done 2022 without my dogs ig?

This years been really hard on me and my family emotionally and mentally. But I probably couldn’t have gone through this year without my dogs, because they are my emotional support.

They are my everything, no matter how annoying they might be sometimes, because they’ve helped me more times than I could ever count.

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Huddler Prompt nr18: 3 things I’d like to try this year in 2023

1. I’d like to go away one week with my father to skiing/snowboarding. We never got the chance last year
2. I’d like to try top rope climbing this year
3. Maybe try calling my siblings more? I’m so bad at calling ppl :< /nav

But mostly I want to go skiing or snowboarding with my family or with some friends next year ^^

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Self Prompt nr8: Horizon talk! I’m a nerd yes xD

So I’ve been playing Horizon for a while now since I got it for Christmas from my father.

And let me tell you, it’s probably one of THE BEST games I’ve played that has a really really good story and graphics. It’s amazing!
And what I think I like best about the game is in fact that’s there’s more opportunities to talk to the ppl in the game, and more cinematic storylines here and there. It’s not all about the combat stuff but it also makes the game feel like a movie!! That’s what I most like about these kinds of games.

The main characters is amazing!
Aloy is a girl who was raised by the Nora and she’s sett on a journey to save the world, where she meets all kinds of other clans and other civilisations and people. You have the Carja, Utaru, Tenakth and probably many more.

The games is set in the future where the ‘old world’ as it’s called was our world.. tho no more. A war broke out and machine like robots in shapes of animals or something entirely different now rommes(?) the world.

Either way this game is a new favourite of mine!!

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Self Prompt nr9: You tired, no? Well I certainly am

I feel like I’m being mocked by this sick flu(?) idk what’s happening but I’m still sick. Or at least I’m not really 100% well again.

I’ve not been sick for this long of a time in a really really long time, it’s getting quite annoying. My throat hurts and my nose is stuffy, it’s so bad sometimes that I can’t really breathe through my nose.. have to take nose spray all the time

My head hurts, probably a headache.. but that’s because I do nothing but watch tv or playing video games atm. That’s my fault, though I do drink lots of water and eating good everyday.. at least try to do the latter.

Might take a nap, feels like I’ve been driven through a truck

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Self Prompt nr10: Game Night with friends, DND and Mutant!

Game night are the best thing ever, and my cousins family has the best games ever to play! Whether it’s a board game or rp game like dnd or Mutant it’s always so much fun!

We try to have these game night as often we can as possible, because they are fun and awesome! We’ve already done dnd and now we’re playing Mutant. Though taking a break because we are about to make dinner and eat before we continue!

…. I kinda had to stop writing :/
Ehmmm.. welp update then

We are playing Mutant again, and it’s so much fun, like being a Theater kid again because it’s rp

There’s so much laughter going around

I gibe cute scribble

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Self Prompt nr11: my heads kinda empty today…just rambling

Idk what to talk about to be honest.. kinda out of ideas on what to talk about and even though we are able to use the Huddle Prompt I’ve wanted to try make my own ones yk

And tbh I have no idea how to define a friend

I’ve been drawing more lately, feeling more motivated to do so! Though it’s still what I call more of scribbles and stuff yk.. not quite drawings

I wanted to go out today with some friends but they kinda ghosted me all day.. so I stayed home with my father instead 🤷
Honestly I don’t have many friends lol, the ones I do have either live quite far away from me or in another country.. so that’s of the table to visit them

This turned really emotional draining really fast.. rn tho I’m just listening to music and reading a lot of mini fanfics of different characters I really like. I’m bored basically

Love these kinds of outfits 👆🏼

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Huddler Prompt nr19: How do you know if someone is a true friend?

I’d like to hope that a real/true friend is someone you can rely on?

That a true/good friends except you for who you are, that their supportive and love you /p for who you are with flaws and all. Though that does not mean friend have to agree with everything you say yk

That friends also stick around the good times and the bad times because life has its ups and downs. Be given a shoulder to cry on, listen to problem we might have and hopefully find ways to cheer us up?

I’d like to be told the truth even tho I might not like it yk.. to be surrounded by the people who loves you and share your values. Be given advice in difficult times, be guided ig? Idk.. I feel like I’ve always done these kind of things for other and would like to have this as well.. idk would that be to much to ask?

It feels like I’ve always given so much but gotten scraps in return to what I do for my friends.. am I selfish to think like that.. I feel like it is /neg

Idk what to think tbh it feels selfish, to high of expectations.. Mm maybe it is

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Huddler Prompt nr20: What are some things that your struggling to be motivated about?

I’m finding it a struggle to draw big pieces, anything I try to come up with never gets done. Everything I’ve worked on that’s bigger then what I consider a small scribble yk

All the small doodles and scribbles I draw I often do them when I write my irl diary/journal, and sometimes it’s pages just with them or I’ve written something and drawn a little as well. But once I try to make really big pieces of art on a canvas I can never really finish them or I’m not motivated enough to finish the project

Well in all honesty I like to doodle or make scribbles more either way so it doesn’t really matter to me a lot lols 🤷

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Huddler Prompt nr21: What are some things that make you sad?

1. Music yk
2. Sad animated movies
3. Reading a sad book
4. Writing my journal can make me cry lols
5. Changes (can be a lot pressure with difficult changes)

I’m tired 🥱
More drawing tho

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CW// cursing, venting, capitals
** Self Prompt nr12: Uuughfhgjhfhfj im so mad rn and tired of this ||shit||**

I’m so done with this, I wrote to long of a ||fucking|| text so it deleted EVERYTHING… I wrote my ||fucking|| venting and APPARENTLY IT WAS TO ||FUCKING|| LONG?? Say what?

I can’t even really remember what I wrote,, I know I liked what I wrote and want the text back word after word BUT I WONT GET THAT BACK
Im to emotionally exhausted for this, I came back home to mothers place and my room was a mess because my dogs had been trash hunting my bin and there was trash all over my ||fucking|| room. Im so mad at my dogs, im so mad at EVERYTHING, im just soo tired

Im so ||pissed off|| that’s it’s annoying and hurts, it hurts. I feel so empty. Idk what to do, I just wanted to come back home to my mothers place doing the normal, take the jacket and sheas of, make dinner, watch movies, take a shower and go to bed. BUUUTTT NOOOUUU THATS NOT WHAT I GOT

My cheeks are wet from all the crying, ✨mental breakdown yk✨
And I’m sitting on the bathroom floor just trying to process what’s happened.. but even that’s exhausting and makes me mad. I don’t want to think about it idk what I want, I can’t think clear anymore
This is so different from what I wrote the first time I know it and that’s making me so much more angrier because I liked what I wrote a lot even tho I can’t for no reason not remember any of it.

I’m so mad, so exhaustingly furious with myself

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Huddler Prompt nr22: Describe your perfect day

To be calm, not disturbed by people I don’t like or that are annoying, be able to draw/scribble in peace, not have my teacher be mad at me 24/7 because apparently “I don’t focus on class”, listen to music peacefully, not be forced to talk to much, don’t be asked to many questions, when home be able to take it easy and watch tv and study without being disturbed, to get help if somethings hard or I don’t understand, people to be nice and understanding…
idk really…

But I’d just generally want to be left alone to be able to enjoy my time listening to music and drawing!

Something that would make me happy and really get me talking tho would be if someone asked about my interest and hobbies

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Huddler Prompt nr23: Discuss 5 things you wish others new about you

I wish people could understand this:

1. That me not answering to you while we where to have a conversation doesn’t mean I’m not listening, I often become trapped in my own head and zone out really easily. Though that does not mean I’m not listening to you. Same goes if I’d have my headphones on with low volume of music - I’m listening even though it seems like I’m not and I actually have my full focus on what you’re saying. The headphones is to minimise me listening to sounds around me as I luv up everything going around at the same time. So it’s only for me to be able to concentrate on one person.
2. That I can have a really hard time understanding others and my own emotions, this can make me really tired if I don’t understand what’s happening around me or to myself. I usually don’t pic up if you’d be sarcastic or serious so I’d always question what your saying to taking everything seriously, which can cause miscommunication between us.
3. My love for specific cartoons and series I could talk about non stop and info dump my intense joy and love for them. I know it can be annoying for some people and often when I here people talking about stuff I’m currently hyper-fixated on or just overall am fond of I tend to shut my self up because I don’t want to be interruptive.
4. No matter how much I claim I hate my dogs I really don’t, I can just be so done with them because they can be really annoying at times. But they are my world and my support no matter what and I’d do anything for them.
5. My obsession with the colour green. I really love the colour and that can probably be proven just by this journal. The colour green is associated to nature, and I think really that’s why I love the colour so much and I love the forest and the wildlife within it.

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Huddler Prompt nr24: What things are you avoiding dealing with?

Just problems…

My Paranoia
My Anxiety
My Adhd
My Autism
My Emotions
My Insomnia
My Night terrors
My Thoughts
Being Sleep deprived
Overwhelmed by work/collage
My hate for collage
Overbearing Friends?
And the pain

I just try to live with it, I’m to tired to do anything about it.

Writing this in hopes of getting tired enough to fall asleep.. woke up in cold sweat and hyperventilating because of nightmares and terrors. It’s to early for this and I want to sleep so bad but my mind is not letting me.

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Self Prompt nr13

So I just had what felt like the longest and most exhausting day of the week EVER… I’m tired and class was so boring I was probably asleep for most of it either way. And I don’t fall asleep often during classes
Most days like these I tend to forget time.. it passes so slow on days like these even though it would feel like it goes so so fast and you’d wish the day was over but it’s not
In some ways even though I’ve been home alone now for the week I’ve come to be much more inclined to follow a kind of routine because I have the dogs to take care of and have to make dinner and at least have the house to look clean because I’d not want to take the dishes if it where to be piled up in the sink… that would just make me sooo unmotivated to do anything and it would be worst..
But being home alone now makes me take on more responsibility of myself and my dogs, having to make sure they go out and get food and that I get homework done and make dinner for myself.
I’m in a position where I understand how my mother feels like, the stress of it all is the only downside to it I think
Ive been so stressed and not been sleeping that well because of it and it’s making each day more awful to bare and get through. Nothing I can really do about that though.

All I really do when I’m home is taking care of the dogs, watching series or movies, doing homework, build puzzles(because I’m so bored) or play video games. So nothing really interesting yk. And it’s getting so boring to be home alone.. and my paranoia is not making things better because of what happened some time ago..
Probably talk about that another time tho because don’t feel like doing it rn

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https://open.spotify.com/track/6xhLjxsDRrBjNH7DWFRnJn?si=jAmkSUHdSu26g7qxObTygw

I love Sea Shanties so much!!!

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Self Prompt nr14

I was invited to eat dinner with my aunt and my cousins today, as I’m still home alone with my dogs and it’s been kind of stressful lately my aunt was nice and reached out to me to see how I was doing and asked if I wanted to eat dinner and spend Friday evening with them!
We’ve eaten already and gone out with the dogs for their night walkies, they got to come with me ^-^
And now we are having snacks, team and are going to watch a movie now

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https://open.spotify.com/track/0Kcmx1gjzCHvXox49FPITz?si=YNioidzvRnSXnAk1QZEoJg

New song!! Idk what it is about sea shanties, they’re just really good! ^-^

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Self Prompt nr15

So today my sister arrived to take the dogs to live with her because she’s going to be the one taking care of them next week till mother get back home from her vacation. So I’m dog free and going back to my father tomorrow to be with him for the week. So that’s actually a relief, I get to take it easy and have at least one day of from having to take care of them. Though it’s been great having a tight routine with the dogs and going to class and everything, I’m kinda happy having to not watch over them anymore alone. It was stressful but enlightening because now I know how tough it is for my mother to having to take care of them on her own. This whole week I’ve been so much more organised in following a routine and really having a tight schedule for myself.
But I didn’t really sleep much and school got stressful, so much I’m behind in some work to be done for next week though I took time and gotten everything done today.

Tomorrow I’ll probably head out with a friend of mine to a mall, which is going to be fun. I’ve not been out like that for some time.. because I’m usually never out and about doing thing or having things planned with friends. I enjoy my alone time spending it by reading or doing other things I enjoy more. I don’t like crowded places or public places just because there tend to be a lot of people around. But tomorrow I’ll try and have a good time, otherwise I’ll just have my headphones at the go and put them on noice cancelling and have my stim/stress toys with me in case. I’m always prepared yk
Plus my friend knows my triggers so they’ll be able to take me out of difficult situation if needed

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Huddler Prompt nr25: What is one thing that you did for someone else this week and how did it make you feel?

I’ve already talked about this quite a lot during the week, but having to pet sit for my mother when she’s been away for vacation.
This entire week I’ve had them in my care as I’ve been home alone as well during first week of collage back from winter brake. It’s been awfully stressful but at the tame time I’ve been more prone to having a good routine for myself. Because taking care of the dogs has it’s own schedule so I’ve been having to have my own as well. I think that’s had me realised just how exhausting it can be taking care of them by yourself and having to take care of yourself as well.

It kind of backfired the first they when I got home to a mess of everything in my room.. and having a panic attack, mental breakdown and screaming at my sister taking the anger out on her.. it made me feel really bad an awful. Though I’ve apologised to her I still feel awful about how I treated her.
Collage work and dogs does not work well together.. I got behind in work and became more to procrastinate my work much more.. so that was not really good at all.
I’ve learned how hard it mush be for my mother taking care of them on her own when I’m not home at her place, and I’ve realised how much responsibility was put on myself with them and my own necessities. I admit my mothers a beast, she’s an amazing and strong person and I admire that about her so much! In the future I now think I’ll take the responsibility of taking care of my dogs with my mother instead of her having to ask for help all the time.

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Self Prompt nr16

I really don’t know what to write about today and the Huddler prompt is to hard for me to really answer.. so Imma talk about the fact that me and my father had the best conversation EVER!!! During dinner we was talking about my new favourite band and folk music all time during dinner, and it was so much fun. I kinda info dumped on him but he was genuinely interested and listened the whole time. Made me really happy and felt appreciated

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Huddler Prompt nr26: What is something you want to hear from others about you?

Hopefully that I’m a kind and caring person, but also the truth even though at times it can hurt no matter what. Because I’d like to be able to be better if I have been mean in some way? And I’d not know..
But to hear the truth would be optimal because I’ve learned that I take every word to seriously when something could be told in a sarcastic way or joking way, I would not be able to tell the difference.

I can’t really understand emotions well, at least emotions I’ve not self experienced? Idk. It’s hard to really know what’s what.
Idk really.. tbh I’d like if people didn’t talk about me at all, gossip amongst adolescence is horrible.
They are truly ruthless and I’ve had my fair and share of information about what some people have said about me behind my back and that’s the worst kind of truth out there. So idk I jus don’t know

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Huddler Prompt nr27: How can I better take care of myself?

By being better, to have a good routine to help me better to remember important things I have planned. Use alarms to remind myself of taking medication and to remember to eat something before going to bed, like a little night snack so I don’t go hungry the day after. To do things I enjoy doing, like drawing, reading, listen to music, take walks and try to not procrastinate work/collage related things like assignments/essays and other things. To work things through in a pace that best suited me so that I don’t overwhelm myself. Take it easy, or at least try to yk

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https://open.spotify.com/track/7HY0wLHPhWer6uSUYxsL3k?si=Aeo2SJ28RKWRE3E3W-mqDg&utm_source=native-share-menu

This song is todays prompt.. yes mhm.
Nothing else because I’m to tired to write really.. and I just wanna sleep

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Huddler Prompt nr28: Write down 5 things that you did well this week

1. Finnish my climbing course for the green certificate card
2. Study for a hard exam coming up and going through it with ‘flying colours’ is what my professor said. Even though I’d not believe in the words
3. Cook dinner for me and my father one day and making him happy doing his favourite meal ‘alright’ for my first time
4. Taking care of important things that include my health
5. Being able to go one week without heavily feeling awful in some kind of way.

This week has had its ups and downs but the majority of the things I’ve had to do has been really good for me and the people around myself. This was also really good because of the stress I went through last week all alone I’ve felt really good the past days making sure my health and happiness has come above all else without disturbing the peace around me.

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https://open.spotify.com/track/0Kcmx1gjzCHvXox49FPITz?si=2w7DxKGWSbCwwZlRmd0lOg

Another song!! I just love Sea Shanties, they are the best kind of music tbh

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Huddler Prompt nr29: What’s one thing in normal life you think is widely overrated?

I think.. romcom or just romantic movies, books.. I’ve never liked it and don’t understand why people seem to like it so much. I don’t understand what’s so good or fun about it, to me it’s just cringe and actually not funny 🤷
Well movies in general depending what type of movie it is, idk

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https://open.spotify.com/track/7EioHGLoCcjuIgQwKh8O8H?si=HCrHwdusTACVM4t8y4b99g&utm_source=native-share-menu

New song for the Promt of songs! This is on my playlist, and today was random choice. This songs just really good, even my mother likes it and that kinda funny to me xD

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https://open.spotify.com/track/6CKU2H5ZhY27Toecau0JbO?si=4dWIz-kCSS2AZWZxnyEfdg&utm_source=native-share-menu

This days song Prompt this song I really like this because it’s adorable sweet! Like seriously

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Huddler Prompt nr30: If your feelings could be an animal, what animal would it be and why?

Probably some type of bird as they generally represent freedom. Though numerous things are represented by birds, including the link between life and death. However, since they can fly anywhere they wish to go, escape, and be free, birds generally would probably be a good pick.

Atm in life I feel the freedom of being able to be myself and do thing I wasn’t able to do before. As well as it connects my ties with the deaths of loved ones/friends that I’ve been through. And I’d think being any kind of bird would surely be amazing

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Funky music is the best kind of music, and this song is really funky! And it makes me so happy I do happi dances

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Self Prompt nr17: Fun day of climbing and fathers birthday dinner out

Well this was a interesting day, firstly I’ve been out climbing today with my mother. Which in all was so much fun, where I got to secure her to climb the walls and climbed myself on Auto-belay and Bouldering! We climbed intensely for around 2 hours, it was awfully hard but still we had a lot of fun. We took breaks and drank a ton of water so it was okay, we took care and didn’t go all out.

After that we went home so I’d be able to make myself ready for going into city to meet my father and everyone who was to come for the dinner out. A Italian restaurant with a three course meal which was really good! Funny thing the whole night there was singing for a lot of tables, apparently meant had their birthday dinners at this restaurant. The food was really good and it was nice having dinner out like this, though it was really noisy and the volume of the restaurant was annoying and disturbing for me.. and I didn’t like that but I had my noice cancelling headphones, how rude of me it might have been to have headphones on while people around our table talking.,, I don’t really care cuz the noice was to much and really overwhelming at some point.
Though a friend of my fathers was there and he made it a lot more bearable, he tried make me focus on one thing and it kinda worked which was good.

But in all this day was quite a good day, except for the noice I was surrounded by all day.. it was bearable🤷

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Self Prompt nr18: Planed my own birthday present for my father! We went bowling!

So my fathers birthday was this week and yesterday we had a big dinner out with some of his friends and family, but today was a day for only us. My father is not really one for getting material things as presents, so my idea for a gift this year was to spend time with him doing something fun and something we haven’t done in a long time. That idea was to go bowling and eat dinner out as well!
We had a blast bowling for an hour, fun 90’s music and disco with bowling was the best! We haven’t done this together in such a long time I thought it could be a lot of fun, and it was!
He beat my dum ass at it because ofcc why not xD
He got like in the 100 pints almost every game we played, but for me seeing him actually trying and having fun doing it made me really happy. Because I know for him this was all he could ever ask for, as he tells me all the time he doesn’t like getting material stuff and just wanting to spend time with us instead, so I was really happy seeing him enjoying this. It was a lot of fun but god was it awful to get beaten all the time lolz 😂

I’m just happy he was happy! It was really fun to go bowling, much more fun than watching a movie at the cinemas. /vvpos

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Self Prompt nr19: Stressful studying for a biology exam

I really hate studying, it’s the worst and when you’re doing it kind of last minutes studying because you had no plan whatsoever for how to start it. Ughh it’s awful..

I so should have made a plan for this exam but I haven’t, to be totally honest I think we’ve gotten to little time with this part of this course. But alright, studying for all this week and doing the exam this week as well. How fun, yayy /s

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Self Prompt nr20: Feeling accomplished(?)., idk I’m just happy

Yooo I’m so happy!!!
I’ve been trying to learn a new language for forever, and it’s been a while since I really really was dedicated to working on it. 62 days of 30 minutes to an hour depending on how I felt, is amazing really!
I feel really happy that I’ve actually tried and doing my best at keeping this going on to have some kind of consistency(?), idk. Stuff just fells out of hand sometimes yk..

Eehh idk..
but studying is going kinda well ig, it’s highly fun topic but exams are still stressful yk.
But either way, fun thing im climbing tomorrow again with our class, and I can’t wait ^-^

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Self Prompt nr21: Being sick sucks

Well I’m sick.. again.. and it’s awful

I cant stop crying, my throat is sore and I can’t breathe through my nose..
I went climbing today as well and I dotn think that was a good idea because I started feeling bad yesterday.. I just thought that climbing wouldn’t effect me this much.. either way I don’t regret going climbing because I got my red card certificate for climbing.. though I’m feeling awful now

Eveything hurts, just took medicine so I hope that helps at least. My mothers not home because she works night shifts, so I’m home alone having to take care of my dogs and myself atm.. I don’t think I’ll be going to work tomorrow either..

I’m rambling aren’t I.. ughh I feel so drowsy and feverish, it’s hot but it’s cold at the same time,. I hate this feeling so much

I’m going to take a nap., no I’ll eat before taking a nap but after I’ve eaten something I’ll sleep

Meet a friend ^-^ he said hi

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Self Prompt nr22: still sick

Im still sick and stuck at home, my throat is worse and my nose still runny.
But funny thing… I accidentally took my mothers allergy nose spray instead of actual nose spray for when you have a runny nose.. lolz
It was kinda embarrassing when my mother told me it was the wrong one, no wonder my nose was still runny all day.

And another funny thing I learned today was that the word ‘sickies’ means (If someone takes a sickie, they take a day off work saying that they are ill, especially when they are not actually ill.)

So I was gonna write that because I think it’s funny saying ‘having sickies’.. but I’m actually sick tho so yeah

What can I say, you learn something new everyday

One more thing I wanna say …. LOOK AT THIS FLUFFY COW OMG OMG SO ADORABLE AHHWWW

I love cows so much

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Well done @atomic dome ! you are rewarded with <@&1051524388505268266> for having made an entry in your journal on 50 different days.

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Ooh :00 ?? I haven’t even noticed it’s been that many! Wow, I’m honestly shocked /vvpos

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Self Prompt nr23: Still sick

We still sick.,, yayy /s

I honestly jinxed this year I think, after Christmas last year I got really sick and had to stay at my mothers place an extra two weeks because I didn’t want to make my father sick as well. Now I’m sick again, not as bad as the first time but still bad enough to not go to collage.

I think I’m getting a little better but I can’t be sure, plus my throat is killing me. It’s so soar and it hurts to talk every morning for a couple hours or so. But it is getting more manageable by the day and I’ve gotten the time to study and catch up on school work.

It’s still exhausting because I usually don’t get this sick, like ever.. but that has changed now ig.
I’m definitely not going to work this weekend tho, because I’d not want the children of my skiing class to get sick as well. Kinda sad about that because I was really looking forward to this weekend.

But one good thing today is that my friend was able to help with buying groceries, and not only did they do that but they bought a ton of ice cream as well!! /vvpos

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Self Prompt nr24: still sick, yayy /s

Welp, we still sick and not done much today. Woke up at around 9:30am because didn’t want to wake up to late today. As well as I had to feed my dogs and take them out for a walk.

After that I made breakfast, which was soup cuz anything else hurt my throat in the morning. Made tea and then went to watch the tv till mother woke up. I’ve been studying some more today as well for the exam cuz couldn’t do it during Friday.

Now at fathers place and just taking it easy, helping a little with making dinner and watching tv, as well as done chores 🤷
Normal day, even tho we sick

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Self Prompt nr24: still sick, yayy /s

Welp, we still sick and not done much today. Woke up at around 9:30am because didn’t want to wake up to late today. As well as I had to feed my dogs and take them out for a walk.

After that I made breakfast, which was soup cuz anything else hurt my throat in the morning. Made tea and then went to watch the tv till mother woke up. I’ve been studying some more today as well for the exam cuz couldn’t do it during Friday.

Now at fathers place and just taking it easy, helping a little with making dinner and watching tv, as well as done chores 🤷
Normal day, even tho we sick

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Self Prompt nr25: still sick and it suck (and we going to collage, so awesome /s)

Wee woo, we still sick and thinks it’s progressively getting worse, my nose is clogging up even more and can’t breathe through it most of the time. Good thing tho is that my throat no longer hurts as much in the mornings. So it’s manageable ig 🤷🤦🏼

And rn,, I’m trying to finish a presentation and book analysis for tomorrow morning.. yeahhh so much fun
Well kind of at least, it’s one of my favourite novels to read ‘The call of the Wild’ ^-^
So I’m having fun making these assignments for some reason. It’s a little tight in making them the day before but it’s all alright ig. Love dogs so it makes things easier, and I’ve learned a lot of funny things about the author Jack London!

Other than all this I’ve been watching Physical: 100 on Netflix and it’s really funny to watch when just trying to spend time doing nothing.

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Self Prompt nr26: Still sick weewoo

Nose is stuffy and so much mucus have been blown out
Eyes runny with tears and my throat hurts a little again.. welp.
Did a covid test and it was negative so we just either have the flu or something like that.

Well I did the presentation for that novel today this morning and it was alright.. but went overtime +1.30 minutes
And our teacher was really quiet about it,, I just got really nervous and anxious how long my presentation took so she asked if wanted to know what my time was.. and she said is was around 8.30 minutes.. we were supposed to do 7 minutes.

But I always get really anxious and shaky during presentations because I hate public speaking so much in front of coups of people so I tried to calm myself down and tried my best to talk slower to not talk to fast.. it was really awkward

But think it was good enough at least,, dunno though. Will have to see when get the results tomorrow

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Self Prompt nr27: We getting better

So I don’t think I’m sick anymore, now I just got a stuffy nose and breathing through is a little hard. But don’t feel weird sick anymore so that’s really good actually!
Especially as now with class we have our special program we are doing atm for these three weeks. Where we have alpin activities and introducing them to children and learning out different things. Today my team was reasonable for the cross country skis! It was lot of fun, though I don’t ski that king of ski we had fun!

Tried to actually ski cross country, but I fell on the ground multiple times, not easy when there was like only ice as well. Made things even harder because of how slippery it was. But I laughed it off, it was kinda funny xD

Tomorrow my team are responsible for the snowboarding station!! And I’m so hyped because I’m a snowboarder so it’s going to be awesome!!

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Self Prompt nr28: Snowboarding is fun..

This day was extremely fun and awesome! I love snowboarding so being able to actually teach children something I enjoy this much was so fun. It went all really well with the four groups we had today, everyone of them was amazing with their progression and how far they got with snowboarding. Even though some of the boys where not that good in listening or having their focus on us leaders/instructors we managed by those hardships and had a lot of fun.

Me as a instructor is totally amazed by all of the kids compassion for this winter activity. Im just so happy this day was this successful and that we accomplished such great teamwork with the respective groups/stations. As they say ‘teamwork makes the dream work’

Though all my bones and every finer of my being is in pain in some way because of being in snowboarding boots all day and falling a couple times after we did our work - the slope was still open for us to have an hour of snowboarding or skiing ourselves.. and yes I fell a couple times xD

But what’s the fun in not falling at all, we just had a lot of fun!
But I’m so tired and all of me is just completely beat after today

Old foto 👆🏼 (only for the aesthetics )

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Self Prompt nr29: Worked as a alpin teacher/instructor today!

So earlier on Thursday I got asked to work as a skiing teacher for ski school to teach children from any age how to ski. If it’s the basics or more advanced teaching.

Every booking of ski school no matter how many children it’s always to be a private lesson. If it’s two siblings we try to be to instructors. But there weren’t that many bookings today so we had it a rather calm day which was good!

So firstly we had to arrange everything with the slope and the rental of skis and boots. After that we opened up and startet out the first ski school. But if I can count correctly and remember I think we had a total of 11 children in ski school today during the day.

So we fun 5 h of skiing all day!! And yeah even though we were only 3 teachers/instructors today it went really smoothly in how we managed as a whole group!

I’m just really impressed with children tbh, every kid that came today where really persistent and really just wanted to learn. Many of them had never been skiing before or had just once or twice. All of them made so much progress in only the hours they’d booked to be there.

It was really amazing to see tbh!

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Self Prompt nr30: Going through rough times

It’s a rough time right now and I’m not going to talk about it..

What I’m going to talk about is that I did spend the time with my older sibling, and had a sleep over and we had fun movie marathon night!

We watched Star Wars.. more like I made them watch the movies..oops
But we had a fun time and it was nice to actually spend time with them. It’s been a while since I did.

The saw to that I was in a better mood and tried and comforted me.

But though that, I’m still sad and feel awful, in a sour mood and just feel stupid and there’s a lot of emotions I can’t register or recognise.. I hate feeling helpless in this aspect, it’s the worst rn.

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Self Prompt nr31: I am tired

Tired tired, we have been having movie marathon today for the most part and staying home for school. Didn’t feel to good so got permission to stay home and work on stuff if needed. But all day I’ve been taking it easy and watching movies or series.

Got a haircut today as well which was fun and quite good because my hair was getting awfully long and annoying as it was tickling my nose and getting in my eyes. But that’s fixed now ^-^

Right now we are watching Scooby Doo and omg the nostalgia of these movies are just so much fun! I think honestly Scooby Doo are the best movies to watch especially the live action ones and not animated. Tho every movies of them are really good!

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Huddler Prompt nr31: Describe yourself in ten words. Why do those words come to mind?

1. Lazy - I’ve been told that I’m lazy all the time, doesn’t matter who says it, if it’s family members or friends or people from collage. I’ve always been told I’m lazy.
2. Integrity - been told that I’m not the kind of person to be open to whoever, tho I’m social but with the people I feel safe with.
3. Introvert - it’s self explanatory really..
4. Empathic - I feel with other and take care of other in a good way especially with people “weaker” or people who’s struggling with difficult situations (that’s what I’ve heard at least, idk)
5. Equality - because I think that everyone has the right to be able to be themself with no consequences
6. Caring - I take good care of people who needs help and a shoulder to lean on, to stand up for people who can’t stand up for themselves
7. Quirky - im odd and not like everyone else and confident to be myself and confident enough to be myself, I have quirky sense of humour /pos
8. Stubborn - strong willed in the meaning that I have specific opinions about many different things, and I don’t back down easily
9. Animal friend - I love animals, but I’m not an animal rights activists
10. Big heart - Those deserving of my love will have a long life friend who you always can lean on

Kudos to my mother helping me with this.. because I’d never be able to come up with ten different things on my own. But nr 1 lazy.. that’s me writing that, the other things I got help with, I’m to mean to myself to say any of this about myself because I don’t see it really.. yk

I’ve come to learn I’m awfully mean when it comes to myself.. welp it’s done either way with or without help

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Self Prompt nr32: Snowshoes and biathlon

CW & TW // weapon(NOT REAL, it’s electronic like laser doom stuff kind of)
The rest of our class came back this week and now that they are back we have our original planed groups for these days where we do ‘Everyone at snow’ this program thingy.. tbh I still don’t know what to call it but yeah either way.

We had snowshoes and biathlon(electronic tho exact copies of those used for real biathlon) and it was really fun! The snowshoes are self explanatory, we didn’t do much but we are there to show children how to use and how to do these kinds of things for them to have fun and learn.
Biathlon is something else, where we had to explain to the kids how to shoot(still electronic, not a real weapo) and how to handle it. We did some fun where the kids had to run around a couple cones and then back to the shooting range/station and hit their marks. Another thing is we did, 5 targets of those targets that was red they had to run around the cones that amount of time.

It was fun to se the kids having fun, yeah we made them run xD
But for good exercise and reason, it made it more fun for them and made it more realistic for how biathlon works.

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Self Prompt nr33: Alpin was todays station!

Skiing is so much fun, teaching it tho to kids like ski school is great! I’m so thoroughly impressed with children’s persistence and wanting to do and be good at something. It’s amazing to watch their progress, how from not have any sort of experience in skiing to knowing the basics and being able to go down a rather small slope is really amazing!

They are sooo persistent and stubborn individuals, and learning new techniques! We had children who was allowed to go up the big slopes and go from there as well. Some of them that I went with because they need a leader/instructor to go with them so from my group I was the one taking them up the ski lifts. They were really good and had great technique when going down the slopes, as well as good format and things like that. Some of them might have been better then others buts it’s a learning curve.

But we had fun, and they had fun! And that’s the most important part of this project ^-^

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Self Prompt nr34: Calm and chill day

Though had to wake up rather early today, like.. at 6am lols, this day was really calm in terms of classes and what we did in them. So first period was the annoying one because this assignment we’ve been having to do now for a couple days has been really challenging in terms of having to search for the right and reliable sources. But other then that’s it’s okay ig,, I’m just dyslexic and god I hate having to read so much information and having to turn it to my own. When it comes to good grammar I’m alright but the information is hard especially this particular essay.

After that we had homeroom class, which in all was really chill the first part of it. We watched a movie about the evolvements with AI.. and it’s kind of terrifying to be completely honest. They’ve come to realise that they can in the near future.. a decade from now at earliest that we are able to work with actual artificial intelligence..
well either way I hope they don’t make this quite yet.. because it’s kind of scary yk

Ohh I had spring rolls for lunch today!! It was sooo good, got 10 spring rolls with rice and miso soup!!
It’s the best kind of food, Thai food is amazing!

And funny thing the last period I didn’t really do anything in class. Because I didn’t have to, so our teach just said that if I were to have any assignments or essays that weren’t done that I could do them in his class. But I’m fairly ahead with everything except that one essay we are working on rn, but that I’m not able to do, because have to work on it in the right class.
Either way we just went through some stuff and I actually kind of dosed of but listened the whole time while me and a friend was drawing the entire class

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Self Prompt nr35: Called my father today

We talked today about me seeing him tomorrow to talk about some stuff that happened.. I’m really nervous and scared to hear what he has to say but I just want to get it over with.

Better late then never

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Self Prompt nr36: Went to a science museum today

Went to a science museum with my mother and my younger cousin today! A child-friendly museum attraction where you can learn about science through interactive experiments!

It’s such a cool place, I’ve been there before when I was much younger but it’s such a cool and fun place that even now that I had so much fun with my cousin.

The experience of these cool and different experiments are awesome! There’s everything from magnetic experiments to water experiments and cool black rooms and colour experiments!! So much different stuff can be tested.

There’s even a mirror room, and fun mirrors over the whole place. And live preformed shows! Optical illusions as well, sooo much you can see and try and do there! And to top it of it’s three stories of cool and different experiments and on the third story there’s a slide that takes you back down to the last story and you’ve “finished” your visit, or you could just be there for longer and try stuff out again and ride the slide down again!

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Self Prompt nr37: We are going to talk about clothes!!!

Look at this sweater!! I want it soooo bad omg it’s adorable

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Self Prompt nr38: more clothes I want

This sweater has a freaking dinooo on it, it’s so adorable!!! And I really like sweater with different patterns or cute motives in them! And this a dino so that’s amazing, I love dino!
And just give me this hat please, I’d really want one and have one for myself please

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Self Prompt nr39: more clothes

These pants I want so bad, the grunge look and that they are oversized just makes them look more cool and comfortable!

I like to be able to be flexible in my clothes and oversized is much better than skinny especially when it comes to pants/jeans.
And they are cargos and have pins and stuff! Give me please

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Self Prompt nr40: Going on vacation with friends

So it’s snow season still here, and me and some friends are going on a ski/snowboarding vacation together! I haven’t gotten the chance of skiing or snowboarding anything this or the last year so to say the least I’m tremendously excited about it!!

I’m on my way to our friends house, where we are having a sleepover till tomorrow and in early morning we are hitting the road to get to the slopes (our destination)
It’s going to be exhaustingly fun in the car for 5-6h when we are a full car also

But all for the adventure and the exiting times we will have in the slopes in a couple days now

So in all, I can’t wait till we there! I’m the only snowboarder and the rest of the group is all skiers xD
This will be fun!

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Self Prompt nr41: We have arrived

We are here, in the cabin now just taking it easy and playing some board games!

But tomorrow is the first day it on the slopes snowboarding or skiing with everyone

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**Self Prompt nr42: Snowboarding 🏂 **

I feel so cool when doing the spinnies

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Self Prompt nr43: Skiing ⛷️

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**Self Prompt nr44: Snowboarding 🏂 **

Me taking a break

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Self Prompt nr45: Pretty pictures

Todays sky was really pretty!!

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Self Prompt nr46: Funny Video!!

We made a train!!! Tooot tooot comes the train 🚂

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Self Prompt nr47: Had a bad day

Today was reaaalllyyy windy, so windy that some of the lifts where closed especially the bigger lifts. And if you wanted to go all the way up the slopes you’d be blown away by the wind xD

Other then that I had an argument with my friend, and we went our separate ways because she was kind of mean to me so ai no longer felt like being with them anymore and I just went away. I had to be on my own for this day because I’ve been with these people for a whole week and I’m no people person so I’ve been on my last few straws.. and I just felt annoyed and sad because they said some derogatory comments about me.

So being by myself today was the right move, and on the way home tomorrow I’ll probably want to sit front seat so I don’t have to be in an of mood all the way home.. I don’t like small spaces and people touching me for long period of times so I’ll not be sitting in the backseat with the others.

I want to go home honestly, I’m tired of being with these people, I’m easily annoyed by them now and I never really liked my friends younger sister to begin with..

She’s loud and annoying, but aid never say that out loud and to have been with her for this week has her on my nerves this entire time, I just feel done and really bad and guilty for some reason.. I wanna go home, so bad

I don’t care how fun we’ve had it, I don’t want to talk or do anything with them for a long while and I just want to be able to be by myself, alone. Tomorrow we’ll drive home and I can’t wait!

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Self Prompt nr48: This was the last day

Last day of been in the slopes snowboarding! Today was a snowboarding day even though it was really really icy in the slopes. But it was fun and some of the slopes where okay to ride.

We where able to be out for around 4h before we got picked up to start heading home, now we’ve been sitting in a car for 3h and 3h more to go ‘:D

But this week over all has been fun and awesome, even though got in an argument yesterday.. I’m honestly glad that we’re going home because I want to be home now and be able to sleep in my own bed and be by myself for how long I see fit.

That was not possible this week as I was sharing a room with my friend and was with them this entire week xD

Either way we soon home!

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Self Prompt nr49: clothes I want

I love the dark academia aesthetic and look in general, and just overly baggy clothes, and grandpa sweaters are the best! So these two sweaters I’d want because I love nature and I have a big fascination with SPACE ☄️🛰️🪐

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Self Prompt nr50: LOOK AT THIS

Yoooo this knitted hooded sweater is EVERYTHING

It’s like the Harry Styles sweater but in neutral forest colours instead!! It’s soo cool, I wanna make this for myself!! Imma do it

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Self Prompt nr51: cute hats

They look so cozy and cute, and they have little cat ears

I really wanna make one of these to!! In the end of this I’ll have so many new project and clothing pieces to work on

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Huddler Prompt nr32: What are some of the things you do to de-stress?**

Most of the times I’d resort to listen to music or heavy rain lofi sound tracks to de-stress and calm myself. Other times reading and doodling can help as well, in the case of read my comfort books. Books I could read so many times because the story comforts me. Or doodle, just draw random or planned paintings or just pictures to get my mind of things.

There’s not really much that actually can help me de-stress in positive ways, those are just music, doodle, and read. Other that that there are ways for me to de-stress tho they’re what I’d call negative towards me and I’ve been advised to not use those methods. So I try not to, and only stick to listing to music while reading or drawing.

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Self Prompt nr52: Just IRL journaling

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Self Prompt nr53: to true, it happens all the time

Which makes me never want to talk to those kind of people who tells me this, it hurts to much.

And it’s why I stay quiet all the time, because I have either nothing to say or nothing to comment. I don’t like talking because it annoys me to much, it takes to much energy

Rather stay quiet anyway, because I can tend to blurt out hurtful things instead. Which makes me feel bad and guilty for making other feel sad. I never want to hurt anyone, and people don’t seem to want to talk to me anyway

So, I don’t bother talking

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Self Prompt nr54: to that one person

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Self Prompt nr55: makes sense you know

Though did not know it was kalkend that in all honesty ‘:D

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Self Prompt nr56: these are cool shoes

These shoes are awesome, I want. I’m gonna find them!!

They’ll make me taller to

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Self Prompt nr57: Been a while, I’m back

Things has been a lot recently and I’ve just taken a well deserved break from social media and stuff.

Though I’m not a 100% okay, I’m better, and I’m still getting better. There has been a lot of questioning about myself and things at home and I’ve just done my best to take my time answering them one by one. And on top of that, collage has been dragging me down a lot, taking a lot of my spare time.

New things has happened, we’ve now take more days for the group of us who’s taking the climbing course. We’ve been given the opportunity to work and climb more to advance our technical skills.

So to say I’ve been busy and I’ve just taken time to get myself together again. I’m really happy about one thing tho!
I got a tattoo and I’m so happy that I actually went and got it because it means a lot to me, the message behind it.

With all this it was the anniversary of my older siblings passing as well, and for some reason I felt completely numb to it.
As well as that I learned some things about my family I never really thought something like that I’d be told about. Either way I’ll slowly start writing more again for all the days I’ve missed

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Yoo!! We back and alive again.. its been awfully hard to write consistent journal entries, but Im trying my best ^-^

This whole week has been so much fun! We’ve been climbing nonstop from 9am-1pm from Monday to today with exception of having Wednesday as a day of!

Its honestly been so much fun, but damn my arms and toes are killing me xD

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Hi! It’s been a while hasn’t it

I’ve not been able to write as much as I’ve wanted to for some time. Schools been a drag and we’ve done a lot of camping which has made it nearly impossible for me to be on my phone or at home really

I don’t know if I’ll ever really be able to write much anymore, tho I really want to try and I will !!
So in the future I’ll try to write small entries to this journal a couple times a month to a start

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Uhm, hi

The fact that I’ve actually been online for sooooo long kind of makes me sad..

A lot has happened and that’s partially the fact that I’ve been gone for so long. The thing’s we’ve been doing at school has really limited my use of the phone

So in all honesty I’m disappointed in myself for not making daily entries to my journal but I’m not going to beat myself up about it. That’s just not going to make me feel any better y’know.
Well first of all we’ve been camping a lot for different reasons, one of them being that we hab a really intense First aid wilderness course for a week. Went Monday to Friday where we had to go up at 7am and where the day was over at 5:30pm through all the week. Of course this took a toll on ALL of us, but we had a lot of fun as well!

Im going to try now again, better this time. To really write one or more times a day at least. If I miss one or two days I’ll not fault myself because these last weeks of school has been A LOT and the rest will be even harder.

I’ll always be back tho, and I’m really glad to be back

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Self Prompt nr58: Been a while, huh!?

Hulloo!

Have gotten the day of today from classes so funny thing, I’m actually out skating rn :D

It’s been a while since I’ve really been out skating, got my longboard out today so thought I’d be fun to take a stroll around with it!
Also cleaned my room and went through my closet because OMG, sooooi much old clothing I can’t even wear anymore xD
Like to big bags of clothes are now up for my cousins to look through because I don’t really know what to do with them tbh.

Other than skating and cleaning I’ve just been home reading or listening to music or doing both, multitasking yk

Oh, I just finished reading this short book/novel about gods and their angles. It was sooooo sad I cried so much like wth. How can a book portray so strong emotions, it was quite interesting really. The author of this short story wrote all the feeling and emotions of the protagonist so well! It was a blast to read, but by far one of the safest things I’ve read as well T-T

I’m just rambling I know, but really dunno what to talk about

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Lmao…

I say I’m going to be better with writing but I’m straight up just ignoring it and procrastinate even further each time I got on discord… but in all honesty I’m horrible at remembering these things, and especially more so now than before.

It’s making it so much harder to write these entries daily

Imma try tho, fr this time

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Well it for sure didn’t work at all..

Either way, hiiii hope everyone is doing good and for those who are having summer break or any kind of summer vacation rn, that you all are having fun!

For those still working or taking summer jobs rn, y’all are amazing people so keep on the awesome job your doing in whatever work you do!

I’m sending virtual hugs to any who needs it today

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I’ve noticed that I’m really bad at this by now. Well if it wasn’t for being so preoccupied with work this summer for now, I’d wish I could at least write more than I do!

It’s quite fun, writing about the day even if it’s been a good one, a bad one or just normal and I’ve not done much.

Wish y’all well, and hope everyone has a good day

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I have noooo idea what to talk about today really.

My brain is out of ideas and I like writing about things I’ve come to think on my own. While the prompt given today is funny I don’t really have an answer for that one tbh xD

Though I’ve recently been watching a really good show called The Last Kingdom! It’s about old England history which in truth is really interesting! After this one I’ll probably watch the Vikings show because ppl say they are rather similar

I hope everyone has a great day/night wherever y’all are

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Self Prompt nr59: Im on a road-trip!

Hulloo!

I’m in a car.. entails the road trip part lmao xD

Hadn’t got anything better to do so thought I’d write about what we’re going to do on this road trip :D
For instance we’re going to our summer house at the coast first for a couple of days, after that we’re going to drive to a cottage we have rented out for a week. When we are there we have it planned to go to a really cool place where you get to live the live of old town Texas, Mexico and something called Buffalo City… and there’s real buffaloes there, if we lucky they’ve even gotten their calf’s :3

After all that we’re going back to our summer house at the coast to spend a couple more days and then we drive back home!

So to say the least im exited!
Just listening to some music and hanging with our dogs in the backseat., we chilling

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Self prompt nr60: The start of our adventures this summer trip

Heya!
… lmao I’m on vacation in another country now

So uhm update on last entry didn’t go all to well now did it xD
Im noticing just how awful I really am at this.. my head has me on zero focus except reading and Sky which with all due respect is my hyperfixations atm.. so kinda stuck here

But I’m in another country and have been for a couple of days now! Here to see a dear friends wedding which is in just a few days from now. Really excited for it and excited for the couple!

They travels here had its coming ups and downs because we had to make a pit stop at Poland, and our flight from Poland to our destination was delayed. In all we didn’t get our luggage when we got here
So we had to buy clothes for a day so we at least had a change of clothes to the next day lol xD

Good news tho! We received information that our luggage had come later in the evening yesterday, so we went to pick them up at the airport today this morning! Safe to say our luggage was not damaged and everything was safe within

Funny start of this trip tho… but truly stressful