Autistic chat

[stoic mesa]

Veadotube is specifically for pngtubers

[stuck saffron]

you see i downloaded that but i cant get the damn thing to respond to my voice :'3

[stoic mesa]

Huuh it worked just fine for me, thats odd

Did you not set it up right

[sly dock]

The one saltydkadan uses isnt 3d like either, heres a video of how it looks like for example

https://youtu.be/-cUkeDcbprI?si=c73BDwhtPdbGkJHv

[chrome zenith]

q

[stuck saffron]

i have bluetooth headphones with no headset, could that be why? do i have to activate the microphone somehow?

[stoic mesa]

Idk,, sadly i cant go check it rn since im not home so i cant rlly help u bc i forgor how i set mine up :(

[stuck saffron]

ah thats ok TwT if you do figure out how its set up feel free to message me if you have time

[stuck saffron]

is it just me or are no images loading on discord rn?

[sly dock]

For me too :'))

Ive reuploaded idk why its doing that

[stuck saffron]

i wonder how that happened. is there a system overload or something?

too many images going out at once?

[stoic mesa]

Discord is tripping rn

[stuck saffron]

maybe the site has a temporary bug then ig

that happens with Fandom a lot

im relatively new to discord so idk if that happens, i got a new computer this christmas that can finally run actual decent sites XD

[sly dock]

I'll repost it later

[stuck saffron]

alright

[sly dock]

Its some drawings i made of that stupid guy whos my pfp his design activated my autism

[stuck saffron]

lol

my autism gets activated whenever i see any guy with white hair and blue eyes, bonus points if its fluffy lmao

[chrome zenith]

raaraa

[stuck saffron]

do images work yet-

nope TwT

[sly dock]

I have a soft spot for characters with resting bitch faces and big triangular noses ngl

[stuck saffron]

lmao

my type of character seems to be very mentally or emotionally unstable or otherwise psychotic anime guys with higher pitched voices. and like 9/10 times they have some sort of family issue- this is just a loose description some of my favs go outside the boxes but they check all the other ones

issac foster from angels of death, luck from black clover, ceil from black butler, killua from hunterxhunter XD

[sly dock]

Most characters i like tend to fit into one these boxes to an extend

Idiot whos full of himself

Miserable and confused

Lowkey autistic

[stuck saffron]

lmao

[silent stream]

My kitten with an earbud??

[stuck saffron]

WAIT THATS A CAT-

[silent stream]

YES??

[lost vortex]

I thought it was smth else… 😧😧

[stuck saffron]

you cant see any cat features tho-

[silent stream]

WTF DID U THINK IT WAS?!

[stuck saffron]

not a cat

XD

[silent stream]

😭😭

[sly dock]

Images are working again

[stuck saffron]

iwdhfew i found the pilot of hxh omg its so interesting-

[somber knoll]

overstimulating myself with listening to too much music

[steady valve]

I have a crazy hyperfix on Charlie the unicorn
I have watched the full series 4 times in the past few months and the only thing that makes me not think Abt it is my other hyperfixations

And kwite
Kwite silences the Charlie void

[swift flint]

I don’t understand why people make food for me that they know I haven’t eaten in years

I never ask them to either, they just make it for me out of the blue and get mad even though they know I don’t eat it

[steady valve]

NO UR SO REAL FOR THAT??? ppl just
Make me hotdogs
I have not eaten hotdogs in a sense other than retrying them or am forced to since I was about 8

[swift flint]

I hate sandwiches

I don’t like my food touching

[steady valve]

Somebody said "ew ur that kind of autistic?" To me when I got upset a saucy food and a not saucy food was touching

[swift flint]

I don’t like corn on the cob but I like corn by itself

[swift flint]

I don’t understand what you mean by this

[steady valve]

U have reasonable food dislikes

[chrome zenith]

same but the opposite

[swift flint]

I hate using my teeth

[steady valve]

Someone yelled at me
Cause they didn't like the fact I got upset about two separate food categories toucing

[swift flint]

I always crush my chips

[swift flint]

My mum got mad at me because I was acting special

[steady valve]

My mom does that too

[swift flint]

When she has one child with audhd, she’s adhd and two more children with adhd

Make it make sense

[steady valve]

I think my mom might be on the spectrum so she says really hard things for me is normal and I think she jus had to experience not normal

[swift flint]

My mom was diagnosed from a young age

[steady valve]

My mom has no diagnosis

[swift flint]

She always says I can’t be special because I’m a teenager and I should know better

[steady valve]

Just how she acts and her reactions to certain stuff feels that way

[swift flint]

She got mad at me for crying over being itchy

[steady valve]

Real

I cry over being too warm so I understand

[swift flint]

I have a skin condition and probable allergies she refuses to help me get tested for

So I’m like always uncomfortable

[steady valve]

Kh

Oh*

[swift flint]

It’s not a serious condition lmao

[steady valve]

I rlly only have eczema but also am undersensitive to pain in most circumstances so I just
Kinda scratch myself open alot

[steady valve]

I wouldn't assume it's still bad tho

Nobody likes being uncomfy

[swift flint]

Same except it keeps flaring up every day

[steady valve]

Mine is normally during summer, winter, and when I have really bad anxiety from excessive showering

[swift flint]

Mine are all the time

I get itchy when I shower

[steady valve]

Part of my chest is covered scar tissue because of the scratching so it looks weird imo

[steady valve]

I recommend low/unscented lotions while ur skin is still damp
It feels weird but I rather not have scars all over my skin then be a lil uncomfortable after a shower

[swift flint]

Anything I put on my skin makes me more itchy

So I don’t bother

[steady valve]

Have you tried Albuterol I believe it's called?

[swift flint]

Don’t know what that is

[steady valve]

Nvm that's my inhaler meds

I have medicine for my eczema

[swift flint]

Lmao

I don’t think I’ve ever been tested for it, I’ve just been told that’s what I have

[steady valve]

My doctor confirmed I had it but eczema is basically just getting itches from litteraly anything

[swift flint]

I’m itchy all the time

[steady valve]

It could be ur detergent if it's on ur skin all the time too

[swift flint]

I could be standing doing nothing and get a flare up

[steady valve]

Yeah that's just how it be :((

[swift flint]

My clothes would be unbearable so I don’t think that’s the case

[steady valve]

Idk then I'd look into medication if it's getting that severe

[swift flint]

Can’t unfortunately

[floral forge]

kinda weird but: every since i got my diagnosis for being autistic nothing has felt 'right', like- i feel out of place and alone. Idk I just hate being labled as autistic (not that autism is bad its just the way people look at me whenever i bring it up) godddd I'm so tired

[silent stream]

Dude I realate

[summer brook]

Ahh yeah that's understandable. Waiting on my assessment rn but all the disability services I've interacted with say its highly likely i have autism too, makes me wonder how much of my personality is really me or some byproduct of my ADHD and suspected autism

[floral forge]

fr everything feels so surreal

[silent stream]

I was diagnosed last year and it has been comforting and scary at the same time like I finally know why I do some things but what part of me is really me?

Sorry for dumping

[floral forge]

same here

i was diagnosed around october 2022

fun stuff-

[silent stream]

✨ totally ✨

[summer brook]

nah don't be sorry man, i cried once i got my ADHD diagnosis cus of the fear and relief too 😭

[silent stream]

❤️

[floral forge]

and i do things that could be labeled 'autistic' and i always thought was normal... (i feel the need to smell stuff if new-literally cant have any drink other than juice/water due to sensitivity-and well.. my 'childish' reactions to stuff)

weird stuff

plus intense hyper fixations

[summer brook]

oh yeah man, it was only till recently that i found out walking on tiptoes all the time is an autism trait

i just thought it was normal

[floral forge]

bro fr

its insane

like i legit need to smell stuff to feel comfortable with anything, im just so hyper sensitive in that sense

live laugh love autism

[summer brook]

o shit same, although for me its usually accompanied by biting for some reason???

shit makes no sense

[silent stream]

I am medium on the scale so I don't have drink sensitivities but I CANOT eat certain foods like anything steamed and it feels like things that bother me don't bother anyone else like when people scrape their forks at the dinner table I physically repulse but everyone else is unaffected 😭

[floral forge]

FR!

massages are a big NONO for me because they give me intense chills

and it triggers me

[summer brook]

YES!!

ever since i was a kid i couldnt handle eating red coloured food

its gotten a bit better now, but i still feel disturbed seeing ketchup

[floral forge]

ketchup/tomato sauce/tomatos in general are nasty

[summer brook]

can only have tomatoes if its hidden

[floral forge]

not worth it lol

anyway i need sleep

[summer brook]

sleep well capn, night night

[silent stream]

REAL
Same with mushrooms 😞

[floral forge]

glad other tism people feel like shit /j

[summer brook]

LMAO

[silent stream]

Hehehe

[summer brook]

oh man, mushrooms took some time for me too

texture was just so weird

[swift flint]

People always assume I’m grumpy just because I don’t want to talk to them

[distant hinge]

"A chat to talk about autistic things"?? i'm an autistic thing!! :0

[silent stream]

That's the idea 😁💯

[distant hinge]

YIPPEE!!

guess what??

[distant hinge]

i'm literally a ninja turtle

i'm literally drawing ninja turtles rn

[distant hinge]

it's 1:10 in the morning ;-;

[distant hinge]

silly

[silent stream]

It's 2 am where I am

[distant hinge]

hold up--

LEMON DEMON

[silent stream]

?

I like them

[distant hinge]

I AM OBSESSED WITH LEMON DEMON

[silent stream]

YIPYIP

[distant hinge]

My back is killing me

or more so, i'm killing my back

[silent stream]

Oof

[distant hinge]

i've been sitting at my desk for hours drawing

[silent stream]

Just chillin with my cat

Hunched in my bed lol

[distant hinge]

i'm listening to Ben Schwartz

solely because he voices Leo in ROTTMNT

[silent stream]

Heheh

[distant hinge]

i will seek out other shows the VAs from shows i like are in and watch them

which the entire reason why i watched the afterparty

[silent stream]

Real

[silent stream]

Kweet

[distant hinge]

ah

[steady valve]

3:24 am
Watching MLP and eating snacks in my room (not allowed)

I remember seeing a MLP mane 6 redraw/redesign but they made the only tomboy esque character male :/

Like u can head cannon whatever it just rubbed me the wrong way a lil

[distant hinge]

i keep on watching MLP human redesigns despite not having watched MLP in years

[steady valve]

I like the pony redesigns

I genuinely enjoy the pinky pie ones since they're always so diverse

The least diverse I've seen is between rarity and Fluttershy
Rarity being prissy white girl and Fluttershy being a hippie every time

[sly dock]

Kwiter

[distant hinge]

Kweetah

[stoic mesa]

Homestuck got me in a chokehold but it's also making me feel bad for some reason help i dont want homestuck brainrot anymore 💔

[sly dock]

I can relate to that ngl, guilt is probably one of my most common emotions at this point

[spice rapids]

I made this a few days ago
Rate it pls❤️

[midnight cypress]

looks like my soul 💜 #veryemo

[stoic mesa]

Would eat that

[stoic mesa]

It makes me wanna implode

Like, yayy homestuck!!! But euugh homestuck

[sly dock]

Frrrrr

[somber knoll]

why are video game so expensive

i felt the need to play battlefield 1 again but I had it via gamepass years ago and when I look it up it’s 40 dollars???

like it’s old at this point whattt

but i cannot express my autistic tendency to enjoy war related media 😩

i guess it’s back to watching sports related tiktoks to me 🫡

actually does anyone have a hyperfixation on sports cause like I constantly hyperfixate on it but like i vaguely get the game rules lol

i learned everything about football, basketball, and baseball from anime 💀💀💀

i have yet to read/watch any soccer manga/anime tho

I’ve heard blue lock is good and I read the authors other manga Jagaaaan (idk how many A’s are in it lol) iirc that was their manga

also I really wanna play CoD cause I was playing CoD mobile and I’m like I forgot how much I liked these types of games but I’ve hurt my index finger so idk I’m sob

sorry for rambling im just aaaaa

[rain stone]

getting so tired of seeing perfect autism representation then looking it up and seeing theyre not actually autistic 😞

[floral forge]

💀

[sly dock]

Idk why but reminds me of my oc, i love him dearly and then i realized ive projected my autism onto him

Hes now autistic lol

Kinda sucks that ive developed a original world just to realize that people will probably call it a hazbin hotel ripoff (never watched the show)

its like about Moni, a hotel appretentice in a swiss Hotel specifically for people with "Magic eyes" n stuff, one of the characters have an ever so slightly resemblence to vaggie too

[lucid gale]

Hi fellow autists

[lucid gale]

Plot twist, they're all undiagnosed

[turbid notch]

Like Abed from Community

[silent stream]

7/10, looks a little under cooked ngl

[spice rapids]

You’re right:(

[silent stream]

I usually cook toast in my proton exelorator but air frier works too😁👍

[turbid notch]

I just put it on my laptop after loading photoshop

Did u know that when Lincoln was boom the play (Our American Cousin) was in act 3? The line was “Don't know the manners of good society, eh? Well, I guess I know enough to turn you inside out, old gal — you sockdologizing old man-trap" anyways, Rip

Hehehe i love that fact

[sacred oxide]

Me frfr

[spice rapids]

Ew

[silent stream]

Not ew

[sly dock]

The CAD comics i ordered came today, but i feel too anxious to put it out of the package

I feel dread

Managed to get it on my shelf without directly looking at the cover

[plush wagon]

I'm hyperfixated on Pierce the Veil MAJORLY

my top 5 songs are King for a day, Hold on till May, Bulletproof Love, Bulls in the Bronx, Props and Mayhem

I'm obsessed w emo music as a whole

But I love screamy vocals

Especially in metal music

I know PTV isnt metal

But I'm also a metalhead

I like Opal in Sky because they're super cool

But back to PTV
I think A Match Into Water is AN AMAZING SONG

I don't care if people say the "she's MIIIIIIINE" is super emo bc that's the point of PTV it's emo music

Also TONY PERRY IS SO COOL

My lock screen rn is Tony Perry and Slipknot (It changes)

I wa hyperfixated on Slipknot right before I was hyperfixated on PTV

I love Killpop, Custer (obviously), Duality, ect ect

I love heavy metal as well, like (again) screamy vocals and heavy drums/percussion

But I also love guitar riffs but I'm too lazy to learn how to play

(Hence Tony Perry)

[icy panther]

I just ate the best tortas

[vague quest]

Chell: Eeyikes! How am I gonna "Test" these "Chambers" with this mean robot lady trying to kill me!
the portals:

[silent stream]

Tortilla 🧀

[steep pawn]

throw him against the wall and see if he makes a thud

[restive marsh]

I did

[steep pawn]

YAY

[distant hinge]

istg i can't stop obsessing over ninja turtles

my hyper fixations come far before my own health

send help

[floral forge]

kinda hate everything rn... I have made a group of online friends and they are great and all but well.. they keep calling each other autistic (ya know in the bad way) and I privately dmed one of them saying 'I wish they should shut up about the autistic thing, it really bothers me cause I am autistic.' and they go on saying 'Oh, you aren't autistic- and if you are you are the nonexistant good kind.'

wtf

i want to strangle someone and then cry in a corner

i feel so off

god im having one of those 'hyperactive i fucking hate everything' nights

[vague quest]

get the fuck out of there

[floral forge]

as much as id love to its once in a mellenia that well.. i make friends or even socialize

godddddD

autism!!!

[somber knoll]

no bc there’s some ppl I play games with who use the r slur and im like maybe dont???

[floral forge]

ikr like its literally a slur.. not something you can just throw around

but ig we 'mentally challanged' people arent allowed to care enough

[sly dock]

"You are the Nonexistant good kind"

💀

Sounds like a red flag ngl

[silent stream]

Why?!

[silent stream]

I am in a similar situation and it sucks 😔 ify

[sly dock]

I like this tumblr artist and whev'e been talking to eachother on discord but i feel like they dont want to talk to me, they never start a conversation

(and the conversations we have are usually me saying something, them replying and then me replying back and thats it)

And their replies tend to be short or samey

Everytime i talk to them i feel like i fucked up but thats basically for any conversation i have ngl, i cringe at remembering what ive said to them

Maybe i message them too often im not sure

We are both autistic and im wondering If i should just ask them directly if something is wrong?

[turbid notch]

I feel that, usally I respond to people online the same and with short replys... not cause they are boring/i dont wanna be there, but cause im like “how do I respond 💀?!”

[sly dock]

I also relate to that to be honest

Idk what to say so i just send like a cat pic

[turbid notch]

SAME BRO

[rain stone]

dawg its so hard for me to talk to ppl but especially when im talking to allistics tho 😭 they talk in riddles half the time and get mad at me for not knowing how to respond 😑

[floral forge]

Mood

[silent stream]

WHY TF DID U VIOLATE HIM LIKE THAT!?

[somber knoll]

So me coded

[sly dock]

Man i wish that where me

[stoic mesa]

What's the app name I'm interested

[sly dock]

Is it normal that i change my attitude and the way i talk depending on the person i talk to?

[dusty rose]

Yes, nearly everyone takes on different personas or attitudes depending on who they're talking to

[twin beacon]

sometimes showing people your hyperfixations is real embarrassing cause it’s like ‘yeah I’m obsessed with this old man, what about it?’

[silent stream]

Ikr 😭😭😭

Such embarrassment

[twin beacon]

mine is even worse cause he’s technically from a kid’s yt channel

i have. 2,000 pins of him saved. on my Pinterest.

[silent stream]

I hate when classmates ask me about my kwite doodles

[twin beacon]

my Spanish teacher likes to look over my shoulder when I’m drawing

like girl go teach me some verbs

[terse kernel]

bro idk if its the autism or adhd rn but im obsessing over kwite so much recently, like i could sit and listen to him talk until the end of time. the bad thing about it is i have no merch of his and the autism rat scurrying around my brain is scratching at the walls demanding a kwite hoodie, i can only hold the rat off for so long by feeding it kwite content

the second masked up shop has something on the shop for me im yoinking that shit

[silent stream]

Bro that's REAL

A song that relates to this is "making day" if u want 2 listen 👂

[somber knoll]

😤 im mad rn but I shouldn’t be but I couldn’t download a game bc my moms computer doesn’t have space for it but like I can’t complain cause it’s her computer 😭😭😭

but she deleted genshin even tho i didn’t want her to but somehow she has even less space on her computer???? girl what you got on there

i did get a laptop but it runs games really shitty

[silent stream]

😤

[terse kernel]

bro my autism is attacking me and making me want to write another kwite fanfic 😭

the rat is chanting at me

why must i be a productive member of society and feel shame? why must i hold myself back as one does?

if i was a smidge more unhinged id have multiple one shots completed

idk if you noticed but you may wanna crop the first pic as it has your town name in it. i made the same mistake before and you may not wanna put out your general location

np lol

i dont think many people noticed so youre probs good but still best to not keep it out there <3

[terse kernel]

currently thinking of a plot for my fanfic. im not a huge fan of writing ships so maybe some type of angst cuz thats up my alley

i underestimated the difficulty of making a plot, im used to already having something to work off of smh

plus limited characters to work with

i got an idea

[somber knoll]

i did that before but with my literal address 😭😭😭
but hey if doordash, instacart, lyft, uber, and my own mailman can’t find me what are they gonna do lmaoooo

[turbid notch]

My Adhd self bitting plastic and ending up getting small particles of it stuck in my tonsils and now im trying to cough it out 😭

[somber knoll]

you crave the mircoplastics

just like those mulch puppies

[turbid notch]

https://tenor.com/view/microplastics-me-eating-microplastics-me-eating-cat-cats-gif-1850316069691321432

Damn, gif doesnt work

And fr

[terse kernel]

I mentioned it before but discord isnt letting me search through the thread but i mentioned my hatred of beads in exfoliating scrubs and someone said none of their had it

I got another scrub today and it has the dang beads

Its labeled bead free too

I was gifted it hence the obvious beads but i still gave it a shot in case it was just its appearance

Literally all exfoliating washes and shit all have these dang beads

May be a US thing where its more common or smthn but literally everything has beads

[jolly thicket]

Talking about taking things literally, when I was around 6, during the night I was watching cartoons in my room, so my mom comes in and told me that she in a moment will return to turn off the TV so I could go to sleep... she never returned and I ended up awake till the next day in my bed staring at the tv waiting for my mom to turn it off, either I did that cuz I was a toddler or it was something else

[twin beacon]

kwite’s voice is now my inner monologue

[terse kernel]

I can never look at the name anthony the same way anymore

Let alone springtrap

[rain stone]

fixating on drawing while completely lacking the ability to draw is awesome and not frustrating 🙂

[sly dock]

Mine is Ctrl+alt+delete

Thats the comic where loss comes from btw

[icy panther]

I made a cup of cocoa

[twin beacon]

he looks silly :3
wanna guess mine.

[somber knoll]

filled with rage time to listen to runescape music

[swift flint]

Is it good?

[sly dock]

considering your bio is it heathers?

[icy panther]

Yes

[swift flint]

Nice

[silent stream]

Coco :3

[sly dock]

I love those stupid pet gifs

[plush sand]

FRRR

[twin beacon]

well heathers isn’t exactly kid-friendly so no. but i do love jd.

[sly dock]

I never heard about heathers ngl

[twin beacon]

you should watch it! either the movie or the musical, the movie’s pretty graphic though… heh…

[silent stream]

Oh i love heathers

[twin beacon]

ive drawn my blorbo 30 times in my sketchbook. I’ve filled up 20 pages.

[rich moth]

headcanon: tf2 spy, tf2 pyro, tf2 scout, tf2 engineer, tf2 heavy, tf2 medic, tf2 sniper, tf2 demoman, tf2 soldier are autistic

[twin beacon]

just like me fr!!

[rich moth]

fr!!1!!!!1!!1!

[twin beacon]

i swear i cant have a fav character without projecting onto them

[swift flint]

So true

[twin beacon]

the only one who I haven’t headcanoned as autistic is my absolute favorite (cause I don’t see it) but i gave him my. exact music taste

[swift flint]

Nice

[rich moth]

this is the real autism test

[silent stream]

Passed😁

[rich moth]

weird al yankovic>>>>>>>everything

[steep pawn]

REAL

[turbid notch]

I LOVE WIERD ALLLLLLLL

GUH

[rich moth]

imagine an alternative universe where weird al yankovic music is lostwave D:

[steep pawn]

its horrifying to think weird al is canon in the mlp universe and has children with pinkie pie

[rich moth]

WAGT

btw cheese sandwich is my favorite mlp pony cuz is weird al yankovic

[steep pawn]

my favorite is pinkie pie because im a badic btich

[rich moth]

wait, he had children with pinkie pie?!!?! i wanna be pinkie pie now(JOKE)

[steep pawn]

HEKLp

[rich moth]

btw, this will be fnaf 3 in 2015

[steep pawn]

why is topher so 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈

[rich moth]

bro's wannabe just like ghandi, LOL

[steep pawn]

HELP

[keen flume]

The most annoying thing that I can't help because of my autism is that some of my physical stims make me like almost hut myself?? MOSTLY WHEN IM HAPPY IDK ITS SO WEIRF am I the only one that goes thru this

[twin beacon]

i think those are called violent stims, i do that too lol

[rich moth]

this is the reason why i'm dead now lol

[icy panther]

Have any of you guys had the random lore drop about your family history?

Apparently I'm a distant relative to Buffalo Bill and my grandma kinds just drop it out of no where

[steep pawn]

Interesting!

Im. Im not ready

im not ready

IT CANT BE OVER 😕

IT CANT

NEXT WEEK?? SO SOON???

it

then sewson two

and what then

[somber knoll]

The only fun relative im related to is Francis Gary Powers

[icy panther]

I just read his Wikipedia article he seems cool

[somber knoll]

yeah I was not super closely related to him but it made a great choice for some presentations in school lmao

[icy panther]

I just found out about Buffalo Bill today when I'm in my senior year. That would have been helpful years ago in presentations

Especially Civil War presentations since he fought for the union

[somber knoll]

honestly when I made a presentation about him my teacher stopped the presentation because he wanted to talk about it lmaooo

[icy panther]

Lol bro hijacked your project

[twin beacon]

apparently im half Norwegian?? also part french

[sly dock]

My mom told me I she had two eggs in her when she was pregnant but one of them was empty once and I really don’t like that thought

[turbid notch]

My great great grandma was apart of this rich Spaniard family but had to leave her child in puerto rico with her lover cause the family was like “NUH UH”. Anyway now that family makes kitchen appliances and is still rich... damn

[icy panther]

Family lore goes crazy

[turbid notch]

Frrr

[dapper sandal]

my nanny (grandma) was a midwife who helped deliver John Lennon’s son

[terse kernel]

Bruh i hate when my autism isnt all yippee and reading fanfics. Like wtf why am i sobbing over someone eating chips near me? Like go back to the yippee pls 😔

[dapper sandal]

reall

[terse kernel]

But yeah autism is really a bitch. Sensory issues like kicking me even after im laying down limp and dead

I just wanna yippee and hug sensory objects, no meltdowns anymore pls :(

https://tenor.com/view/yippee-yippee-gif-tbh-tbh-creature-dance-gif-589865313250490818

[dapper sandal]

ikr.. I can’t even eat in the same room as my mom because she eats so loud. I’ve brought it up to her so many times and she doesn’t care to fix it because if it’s not a big deal to her it shouldn’t be a big deal to anyone else /s 🙄

[steep pawn]

sensory issues make me hate eating anything c:

[dapper sandal]

I’ve edited the same message over and over again and it keeps getting auto-modded and I give up trying to send it as a normal message. but I will still talk about these characters. so here lol

[turbid notch]

LITTERALYLYLTLYLTL

Especially that one clip of 3cpo-

[rough oar]

Helluva boss

The whole show

[hollow shale]

First time here but dumb lines that I draw in note books

[distant hinge]

yeah, someone in my class straight up was saying "he looks autistic" about some dude that his friends and him were shit talking, i said "dude, i'm autistic" and he straight up went "you are?? you don't act like it" which, uh, YES I DO. THAT'S HOW I FIGURED OUT I'M AUTISTIC.

[dapper sandal]

which one? /genq

[turbid notch]

EEEE

https://youtu.be/uWOv6KINM0o?si=mh9wZgxGf4xtvkoh

THIS ONE

[turbid notch]

^^^

I SWEAR ITS NOT A RICKROL

OR

ANYTHING BAD

ITS JUST THE 3CPO SCENE

[dapper sandal]

OHHHH THE SCENE LMAOOO

ICONIC AF

[turbid notch]

RIGHT??!?

eeeekkfwkickekvkr

YY

[dapper sandal]

HHHEJEEHEHEJSBEH

[turbid notch]

WJFJ JGKWKKFKEKBKG

[icy panther]

There is rumors of who will voice shadow in the Sonic movie 3

Apparently he might be voice by Hayden Christensen who plays Aniakin Skywalker in Star Wars

[turbid notch]

RJFJFJKVKWK KEK KWKVKWKK T

STAR WARS REF

[rain stone]

star wars mentioned 😎 (my lifelong special interest)

[turbid notch]

YTAYAYDY

SAMEMEMEMEMEMEMEM

https://tenor.com/view/poor-noises-angry-gif-23399055

Damn

[twin beacon]

Minecraft horror vids scratch that part of my brain… mmm…

[silent stream]

Lol

[rich moth]

A Animation Studio: "ok so, i'm going to animate some por-"
Verbalase:

[silent stream]

Hahahaha 😆

[lusty basin]

hi autistic people

[sly dock]

You didn’t have to call me out like that ☹️

[twin beacon]

do y’all ever just break out into song

[steep pawn]

yes

[spice rapids]

Who tf is that💀

[rich moth]

7 hours later... SPONGEBOB BETRAYED US

i mean, i watched a 2 hours video of moral orel and... they didn't explained beforel orel, lol

i mean, the same person that made the video a few weeks later made a beforel orel video too lol

[rich moth]

blows up cocoa with mind

[icy panther]

Prodigy mentioned w

[somber knoll]

this is so me

[rain stone]

my manager wants me to work on my day off and my autism is torn between being irrationally afraid of people being upset at me and being irrationally afraid of schedules changing 😨😨

[terse kernel]

As an autistic person, yes, i would indeed eat that shit up and would be watching that for however long it takes

[twin beacon]

apparently when I was four, I went to my dad’s house for a week (like every year) for his wedding but I didn’t stay with my dad. i stayed with my uncle and watched Garfield?? i threw up in the car going to the wedding and apparently my mom said I looked like I didn’t shower for a week. i was also terrified of water when I came back?? idk what the hell happened

then my mom went to court!! she had no idea my dad was getting married!!

[terse kernel]

Made myself kraft mac and cheese, it didnt turn out well 😔

[silent stream]

O no 😔

[terse kernel]

I forgot to check what we had beforehand and all we had for milk was this low fat 2% vitamin shit idk and now it tastes funky

[silent stream]

Yuck 😭

[terse kernel]

I also left it on a bit too long since i was putting away laundry and stuff so its also soft which im not a huge fan of 😭 its not horrible but yeah, idk what to do with it. Maybe see if anyone else like it and if not i might have to throw it out which feels bad

It tastes worse than the time where all we had was this vanilla milk stuff. Idk how to explain the taste, maybe a smidge soapy? Idk

[silent stream]

Feed to sibling 😀

[terse kernel]

The texture is the worst part for me, i dont think i can eat it 😔 i already had mini cucumbers at least so i still ate

[silent stream]

😔

[terse kernel]

I aint got none (at least that i live with) plus my dads gf is a bitch so im currently living with my grandma instead

[silent stream]

Oof

[terse kernel]

My dad would not drink whatever that milk is, that is something only my grandma would get 💀😭

Ngl wish i tried the chocolate milk instead at this point

[silent stream]

Well I'm glad you don't have to live with THAT ❤️

[silent stream]

I low key want to make that 😅

[terse kernel]

I think im starting understand the taste

Based off the smell i think its beans or smthn

Ill take a pic or the milk

It shouldnt have beans in it but idk why it smells and tastes that way

[silent stream]

My dad only makes soup, I like soup but EVERY NIGHT?

[silent stream]

Looks nasty 🥲

[terse kernel]

It is very nasty 💀

[twin beacon]

give it to me!!

[silent stream]

?

[dapper sandal]

“I don’t like sand. It’s course and rough and irritating… and it gets everywhere. It’s somewhat like you, Sonic.”

[twin beacon]

sand is not yummy 💔💔💔

[dapper sandal]

too crunchy

[icy panther]

Hard to chew:(

[plush sand]

i luv ur pfp

[steep pawn]

do any other autists just not leave their rooms unless they need to to use the bathroom or get water or food

[plush sand]

i do that but not bc of autism. for me its more than likely bc of depression

[steep pawn]

i think mine is both probably

[plush sand]

real

[terse kernel]

if youre having like a rough time does anyone else suddenly become way more unmasked? like to the point like "dang i didnt even know this is how i act" ? cuz ik ive been unknowingly masking my whole life but if i have sensory issues or just a bad day then ill be really stimmy, less emotionally regulated, more move-y, and stuff like that

its weird because ill usually just be chill, silent, and fine, and then i have something that slightly annoys me and now im watching youtube flapping my hands and laughing when usually i watch youtube like completely still/stiff without and movement other than maybe drinking or eating something

plus stuff i wouldnt normally laugh at im all giggly at and stimmy

[rich moth]

headcanon: fnaf springbonnie is autistic fr fr no cap, i mean, LOOK AT HER (me) GO!1!!1

[stoic mesa]

I love springbonnie sm

I always get springbonnie stuff in the fnaf roblox games i play

[rain stone]

real lowkey

[silent stream]

It's gotten worse over the past year 😭

[rich moth]

oml me too!1!!1!1

[dull surge]

My special interest is the process of decomposition. I also like to collect and clean animal bones, teeth, so forth. (The following Images are of bones and a display)

[sly dock]

Anyone else feel like the people they talk to actually du dont like them? Either secretly or obviously without you realizing/not being sure?

Probably not autism thing idk

[turbid notch]

Your so real for that

Guhhhh

I love randomly thinking of things decomposing and watching videos of those beetles eat away the flesh of the bones

MEOWWWWW

‼️

[dull surge]

YES OMG

[steep pawn]

i hate people who think stuffed animals are for kids. let me enjoy them in peace

[dull surge]

That is also very real

[steep pawn]

look what arrived today!

[dull surge]

LOVE THAT

[steep pawn]

her name is albert

[dull surge]

I love her

[sly dock]

I want to pet

[restive marsh]

THATS SO COOL!! I collect bones too!!!!

[steep pawn]

shes super soft and about as big as a 3 month old cat (rough estimate)
i got her off of amazon for ~US$27, shes from the company bearington

[silent stream]

ME TOO !! 🦴

[restive marsh]

WOOOO

[silent stream]

YIPEEEEEEE

[midnight cypress]

hell yeah! I think I'll always have some stuffed animals or smth, it's so comfy and nice and I do not care what others think about that

[steep pawn]

i bring them to school and give 0 fucks that people are laughing at it because who cares

[midnight cypress]

it's often an autism thing, but it's even more often a "people pleaser who desperately wants to be accepted by others while not knowing how to id when they're being mocked or not" thing
source? yeaaaah uh let's just say i have issues lol

[midnight cypress]

honestly I think I'll just order some custom made keychains with stuffies once i have money

I saw someone on TikTok make custom Sylvanian dolls with MCR eras

[somber knoll]

i wish i could express myself better 😭😭

it’s so hard out here being an autistic person who’s outgoing but also not outgoing like what am I supposed to do

does anyone do that thing where you type the wrong thing even though you know the right thing??
like for example using “our” instead of “are”
because I noticed that I said in a message to someone “the great plan” instead of “the right plan”, but like I don’t notice I’ve made that mistake until after I’ve sent and reread my message??

[silent stream]

Real😭

[steep pawn]

LMAO im so stupid i asked my dad for a different variation of this plushie for my birthday. two kitties. (the one i asked for is only 8 inches and its a little black cat)

[dull surge]

AAAAAAA YAY

[restive marsh]

I DONT KNOW WHAT LIND OF BONES I HAVE I JUST FOUJD THEM

[dull surge]

I have fox, fish, birds, deer, misc spines, fox teeth, cat skull, and multiple fossils. Most of the time I pass bones I find on to the trader (this is going to sound like a gd DnD side quest)...
I find bones and antlers in the woods, there's a man who walks through those woods and pays for things I find. 1930's poison bottle? 500 dollars dude. Full good quality deer antlers? 650. First year deer antlers? 1000. And so on he also pays a shit ton for full skulls and good condition bones

Bro straight up set up and "outpost" for our meet up's. He pays me in cash and he gets the bones and antlers I'm willing to pass on

[restive marsh]

Whoa ballin

[dull surge]

Bawler

[somber knoll]

i love bones!!! i used to have a cow skull

my dad had a bear skull that he painted but he didn’t know if it was legal to sell lol

he got them from an area he called bone valley

[jade tulip]

That sounds awesome

[plush wagon]

LISTENING TO MY FAVORITE KWITE SONG

AT SCHOOL

[terse kernel]

When the yippee vocal stim hits

https://tenor.com/view/yippee-happy-yippee-creature-yippee-meme-yippee-gif-gif-1489386840712152603

[sly dock]

Ive went throught fire and hell just to learn that the website i wanted to commision my art from only accepts PayPal and no one near me having a account to pay for it (and im underage)

I wanted to commision chibi art for my oc's and then turn it into a standee for my room now i feel all heavy

[twin beacon]

school bathrooms scare me

like someone stole a whole stall door

also the sink faucets

the graffiti on the stalls can be fun tho

[silent stream]

Very fun 😊

I ❤️ drawing kwite on the mirror 🪞

[sly dock]

Idk but that doesent really sound like a school bathroom problem

[rain stone]

i hate school bathrooms too omg

id rather die than go into the bathrooms cuz like 20 guys will go in at the same time to just sit in there and smoke 😭

and if u go in to actually use it they just all stare at u like ur some kind of freak

[stoic mesa]

Nah fr i dont get that

I gotta be like alone to be able to use the bathroom bro, i start freaking out if there r people there, im sorta fine w ppl inside the stalls tho but still uncomfortable

[midnight cypress]

i answer to those already put on the stalls

[sly dock]

I found out fiverr lets you pay with debit and I found someone to commission from there

[silent stream]

YIPEEEEEEE

[terse kernel]

"Follow your dreams!" "I literally only have nightmares" i cant read that without thinking a out the stall door song lol

[chrome zenith]

omg no when people would edit it to be a thing it always annoyed me when people would OUAIHRIUOHSFJ

[rich moth]

okay okay hear me out: (headcanon) walter (hl1) kissed einstein (hl1) weeks before the particles casscade

[sly dock]

Same tbh

[sly dock]

Starting conversations is hard but when i get a good starter its good

[somber knoll]

Sometimes I feel like I’m the most normal one in my family because I have no issues talking to people and my sister and brother both are like “I’m too anxious 😭” but like??? Maybe it’s the autism but I don’t get why talking to people makes ppl anxious like it’s easy 😭😭😭

Like they think small talk is difficult

[terse kernel]

nah bro you just got the lucky socially competent autism, for me personally it's like, first think of what to say, "Hey." not "Hello." or "Hey!!" Dont want to seem overbearing and not the same reciprocated level of friendship, but also dont want to seem standoffish. then gotta think of what they might say, make sure im close enough by since i have trouble understanding what people are saying if its not perfectly clear, what if they bring up something i dont remember because horrible memory and make things awkward? dont want to just stand there so i have to think of something to say if they do want small talk but what do i say? "how was your test?" then what? they say bad or good and then its awkward silence again

sorry if thats long or annoying lmao, mainly tryna explain how it is for me cuz i get not seeing how it is for others and being like "how?!" and lowkey wondering why but not knowing how to ask

[silent stream]

Dude this is so real

[terse kernel]

also if i talk to the wrong person they may be a jerk and ill cry, if they think im weird and off ill feel awful like the kind you think of hours later like "...dang i suck."

anyways i also checked this chat to rant about my own autism struggles lmfao, like bro i almost cried and had a meltdown and barely held it together when my grandma put soggy ass corn on my plate (which is one of my sensory no-no foods) and MIXED it in with my mac & cheese which is a very yum very good food

[terse kernel]

i will then have a text convo or actual chat one day explaining "hey yeah this may be cringe but im super happy youre my friend, ily, ty for being my friend and dealing with my awkwardness and i appreciate you i just dont know how to properly talk and navigate social situations"

ive learnt to be honest about everything cuz if im not then miscommunication through the roof lmao

[somber knoll]

I WOULD NEVER I WOULD THROW THAT AWAY wtf 😭😭😭
I’m blessed to have a family that really respect my problems lol

I will say I’m bad with idioms??

All I know is whenever my siblings introduce me to their friends their friends always end up loving me sidhdjdj

I think it helps because I have a lot of things to talk about cause autism

[terse kernel]

Idk if my grandma even knows i have autism 💀 and i dont think my dad fully understand sensory issues with food but hes getting there and doing well. Yeah luckily i was able to seperate it enough to still eat fine

[somber knoll]

I only got diagnosed at 17, but as a kid my mom would make me my own separate dinner when dinner was something I didn’t like 🥲

As a kid I wouldn’t eat most things and honestly my tastes haven’t really changed

[lunar crag]

my social skills are all over the place. one minute people think I’m bubbly and funny, the next they think I’m an abrasive sleazebag it’s not easy being cheesy

have had a LOT of people thru my life say they thought I hated them before they got to know me, only to praise me later that they were glad to be my friend. it’s strange

I’m definitely more selective about what I put up with from neurotypical behaviors, so I can see why I’d seem unfriendly, but I gotta protect my peace a little. I’m the kind of autistic who’s too internally emotional

I Will say though, one thing that really rustles my Jimmies is how easily people will lie about things. I’ve always been a very honest person [ofc I know my limits on like, saying things to people’s faces] and it’s just… strange to me idk

[fickle locust]

I want a crowbar

[somber knoll]

YEAH especially because it’s always things like WHY did you lie about that???? it changed nothing to lie about but it caused me to stop trusting them like 😭😭😭

[lunar crag]

GENUINELY, like what’s the point??? 😭

waste of breath and time, and disingenuous

[terse kernel]

Me except im still 17 lmfao, got diagnosed last year but my dad was understanding and stuff and wouldnt make me a meal i wont eat since he knew i wouldn't eat it

[rain stone]

be autistic in a crowded school cafeteria challenge (impossible) (its so loud)

[silent stream]

(99.9% of autistic people lose)

[terse kernel]

When you forget you were experiencing sensory overload earlier so now the tiniest thing sets you off

Was relaxing, less stressful class when this mf (my friend but im not in good mood cuz like no) came up behind me and lowered my chair thing and made me drop. I hate it so much like its sudden and i tried to stop him but it dropped and now i lowkey want to cry

Tbf i used to do it to others until i realized "wait this isnt funny and is super annoying especially sensory wise to me" so i stopped doing it at all but others still do it

[silent stream]

Dude this guy who sits next to me in school dose that CONSTANTLY 😡

[sly dock]

Im really bad at conversations

I was at the dinner table with one of the dorms supervisors and another girl and he was asking me questions and stuff and i was just "i dont know" and he was kinda "complaining" how i dont talk to other people and stuff, i hate hearing my own voice it feels weird

I dont like sitting at the table after im done, its polite to wait until everyones done but yeah, most people around me arent people i want to have friends as either so i just prefer to be alone

[somber knoll]

I think the best way to have a conversation is to find something in common, so like I like rats so if someone else likes rats I can talk to them about rats etc

I know some people find it annoying but also using your own experiences to relate to people is great imo

[sly dock]

Most people around me arent really into what i like sadly

[woven fable]

Man, I wish I was able to socialize easier with others. I feel like the few friends I do have are growing distant from me, and I'm struggling to make any new connections.

[twin beacon]

school hallways are absolute hell for me

it’s so loud and overstimulating

[turbid notch]

FR

I WAS AT THE MALL TODAY AND IT WAS SO BRIGHT AND THERE WAS A RINGING FROM THE JEWELRY PLACE AND IT WASS SO AHHHHHHHH

Also someone recognized my chainchain as donnie (tmnt) and gave me their discord so now i have a new friend:0

on call just now they were like “I can smell the autism on u”

💀

[silent stream]

I wasn't going to eat dinner because it was one of my no-no foods (Tuna casserole) bit mom made me mac and cheese 🧀❤️🥹 love you mom

[rain stone]

mac and cheese is so good dawg 🤤

i couldnt eat anything but mac and cheese a few years ago and got SO sick of it but ive been eating it again and dawggg 🤤🤤

my autism loves macking cheese ‼️‼️

[dapper sandal]

I just had maxing cheese yesterday ‼️‼️ I added hot sauce and it was perfect

[keen palm]

YAY

[terse kernel]

bro im going through like 100 stages of different emotions rn

like do yall ever get super excited for something you may not even be able to do and you cant chill even tho you know if you end up not being able to do this thing youll cry and feel horrible?

basically i want to go to my first ever concert and an artist i really like is doing a concert thing in a small area and i really wanna go but the area also has pretty high crime so idk if i can go

but rn im also planning on crocheting them stuff but i dont know how weird that is for an artist? like i wanna give them a plush, theyre a very openly queer artist in their 20s and ive seen similar artists be chill with it and idk if they will and if ill be too weird

i just want to show my appreciation even if i dont even know if i will get the chance to go up to them and give it

let alone even go to the concert

and its all ive been thinking about and ive been so focused on it and just egvbjowvgonwo

apparently theyve ordered silly lil plushes so it may be liked but even then i cant hold convos for the life of me and i know i cant just throw it at them and run

[terse kernel]

Im physically incapable of focusing on anything other than rio romeo rn

[stoic mesa]

My break is almost over and don't want to go see my classmates again man, they're the kind of people that use autism as an "insult"
Plus I've got no friends there anymore and I have been struggling a lot to connecting to people when i feel like I'm going to be judged and made fun of regardless of what i do lmao
Idk if its a tism thing or just a highschool thing

[stoic mesa]

I dont think that's weird, they would def appreciate it considering that they got plushies n stuff
Also i feel that, it sucks when you get overly exited abt smth you have a low possibility of actually being able to do x(

[terse kernel]

frrr, like im stuck hyperfixating on an hypothetical scenario where im able to do something

im just hoping i can

[silent stream]

What's that?

[thin cedar]

Which one

[silent stream]

Aspergers

Ty✨❤️

[thin cedar]

Basically it was a term created by a ||n@z! ||scientist to determine which autistic people were "good enough" to not be k!lled, and then it became associated with low support needs/high functioning autism and a lot of aspies thought of themselves as "better" than autistic people because they "weren't autistic" when yes, yes they were

[silent stream]

Tysm 😊

That's me 😅

[silent stream]

✨❤️

[thin cedar]

There you are

[silent stream]

Thenk you 😊👍

[thin cedar]

I got told off by the mods

Froze in my skin

[silent stream]

Oh🙁

[thin cedar]

Rule 3 i forgor bro 😭

Rsd be going crazy frfr

[silent stream]

I love that video 😍 lol

[stoic mesa]

My dad was diagnosed w that back in the day, basically autism diagnosis but make it somehow ableist

[civic lance]

I like eating chalk

[rain stone]

i know im gonna be sick of my new favorite song in a few days but i cant stop listening to it on repeat 😭🙏

[sweet whale]

mew mao mew mao lalalalala didinkdidinkdidinkdi

[thin cedar]

pretty much yeah

[stoic mesa]

I fucking hate school why are people so mean for nothing I'm literally just existing bro
I'm sorry I'm not normal???

[dapper sandal]

felt that, especially my early middle school experience… like bro I am literally. literally just sitting here 😭😭

[stoic mesa]

Idk why I was mostly kinda fine in middle school but high-school is being awful

The most ppl did back then was slightly pick on me in ways that wouldn't exactly bother me but now I'm being deadass excluded, it hurts to be made fun of when you got no one yk

[rain stone]

astronomically real 🙏‼️

[terse kernel]

For me it was the opposite, elementary was hell cuz small bigoted town plus school of less than 100 is hell, but in HS people got basic decency, my only recommendation is find other "weird kids", kids who dont have many friends cuz sometimes those people can be your best friend! Sometimes they dont have friends for a reason tho so be careful

Like my main friends are all lgbtq+, are talkative and great

Some i found cuz they were anime nerds like me, some were by pure luck and chance

I hope the rest of your hs isnt hellish, hs sucks enough already and you dont deserve that

[stoic mesa]

Most weird kids ik don't have friends for a reason,,,

My friends all left so I'm p much alone n shit but aside from interactions hs is fine, I'm leaving soon anyway tho

I hear uni is far much better

[twin beacon]

i was talking about my fav character to a friend and this kid said ‘womp womp’

[stoic mesa]

Bruh mind your business mf (the kid)

[twin beacon]

he has the humor of an iPad YouTube shorts kid

literally so unfunny

also he’s homophobic so.

[stoic mesa]

Nahhhh

[twin beacon]

i still pull more girls than him so

[stoic mesa]

LMAOO

[twin beacon]

have to say he acts really gay with his friend

but that’s every homophobic boy

[sweet whale]

raagghhh the selective mutism is selectively muting again

i need to yap so bad but i cant

[terse kernel]

Oof, yeah that sucks. For me what helps is just focusing on making online friendships 💖 i made some of mine in random comment sections, in video games, and in community discords! People are assholes but online there are tons of communities to join which can be great

I genuinely hope you make/have online friends cuz i still relate and want the best for you and others

[silent stream]

I frequently get the urge to AHXBDHDHDHDH like I want to do it right now but most of the time I can't because I'm with people so I just do it over text😁

Like verbally

[stoic mesa]

i cant word rn but looking at ur message made go :D
I do have plenty of online friends, i love them dearly

[stoic mesa]

have u ever tried imagining you making the noise in your head
ive heard ppl mention they do that but idk if it works

[silent stream]

Astronomically real!😁🔥

[silent stream]

Oh tysm! 😊

[somber knoll]

Online friends is all I got 🥲

Also I gotta say trios turning into duos is so true I always feel like the third wheel in a lot of my friend groups lol but they still call me their best friend so I think we’re good 💀💀💀

[silent stream]

Dude the opposite always happens to me, like I had a tight friend group and then people kept joining until all the girls were in this one group and I was excluded (they were all bad people and this was a longggg time ago)

☠️😬

[somber knoll]

no bc I’ve had this one friend group since like 2018 and I’m constantly like do they still like me???

then they go and shower me in gifts and call me their best friend and im like am I rlly that bad at reading ppl???

[silent stream]

I can't read people and it's sooo difficult 😭

Like I'm trying to get a grip but it's so hard

[somber knoll]

I’d like to think I’m good at reading ppl but I don’t think so skdhdkhd

[silent stream]

😭

[somber knoll]

there’s a reason I’m in the autistic chat 😩

[silent stream]

I feel you man 🥲

[turbid notch]

I FEEL THAT SO MUCH

ITS LIKE “NOOO LET ME YAPPPPPPPP!!!!!!”

[terse kernel]

:D im glad! People need friends and im glad you got some good ones! Im glad my message made you happy too 🥰 i feel like everyone needs some dopamine in their life lol

[dapper sandal]

I loveeee unexpected situations where I can’t mask how I feel and it makes me look like a complete bitch to a total stranger!!!!!!! 😍😍😍 /s

why do people put up with me at all!!!!!

it just takes longer for me to process an unexpected and unwanted situation so I come off as offputting!! but whatever, it’s doesn’t actually make me a bad person. I want to mask as little as possible so that’s what we’re doing 🥳

[rain stone]

ong whenever someone takes me off guard i just stare at them like 🤨 bc i have to like evaluate absolutely everything so i can react or respond correctly

it happened yesterday at work when this guy i never talk to asked me a question and before i was able tor espond he just walked away and im still mortified 😨

[dapper sandal]

oh no 😭😭

[sweet whale]

i just be standing there like ☹

[turbid notch]

REALLLL

AND I PULL OUT MY PHONE TO TYPE AND ITS SO AWKWARD

I TRY TO TYPE AS FAST AS I CAN

[silent stream]

Gabagool

[icy panther]

SONIC GENERATIONS REMAKE + SHADOW CONFIRMED

[silent stream]

YIPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

[icy panther]

ITS COMING THIS FALL

[icy panther]

Literally me watching the trailer

Tho the name is gonna lead to some crazy fighting

It's Literally called Sonic X Shadow Generations no joke

[restive marsh]

What fandom is this trying to be please help

[stoic mesa]

Mlp fnf sploon??????

[rain stone]

my fridge broke and we had to throw away all of my safe foods 🙂‼️

my moms been so mad cuz i keep having to order food bc she foesnt understand that i cant "just eat what we have" 😭

[sly dock]

Extremely silly cat

[silent stream]

He is extremely silly

[stoic mesa]

My classmates keep saying shit like "stop being autistic" as a sort of insult towards eachothers and its rlly bothering me ngl

Nobody does anything about it, I'm starting to feel like maybe it's a dumb thing to be upset about, is it?

[rain stone]

dawg its not dumb to be upset abt that 😭 abelism is just extremely normalized

so no ones gonna say or do anything abt it most of the time even tho they should

[stoic mesa]

Oh

Tbh I've told my parents abt it once and I feel like I might have made them sad bc they can't do shit abt it

The advice I got was literally "just ignore them"

Bro it's more than half of the class

[turbid notch]

That moment you go none verbal

[stoic mesa]

Why are people so subjective for like no reason
Can't people like, be more clear? More sincere??

Is it really that hard?

Like people want you to read minds or some shit, I'm no superhero bro why ru mad at smth you didn't tell me? How tf am I supposed to know IF YOU DIDNT EVEN TELL ME

Like it's your fault for not being clear abt shit, what ru mad for?

[fickle locust]

Oughhh, dude I tried one of those roblox bar games as a funny social experiment of "how different are these ppl from mic up people" and i quickly found out that the environments can double in overwhelming only bc of how large they frickin are dude
I was mid convo and I shut down and just let my shitty device consume roblox for me

[turbid notch]

Pff

Real, i cant handle calls

I was on like quite a few the beginning of January since me and my friends were hyper fixating on ocs and making lore. But it was just to much (being on call) that i would leave early or (more so now) just not join

I wanna talk to them, but calling is to overwhelming for me

Even if i were to just listen to them as i type

Its to much :(

[fickle locust]

Ourgh fr

[rain stone]

dawg the only way ive been able to call ppl is by letting them talk while i just text my responses 😭 its so hard for no reason

[stoic mesa]

I can talk to like few of my friends but then we all get tired the same way bc my friend group is nd

Talking to other people is just rlly tiring to me and I start to go blank after a while

[fickle locust]

Fr ong I relate to all of this omfg

[steady valve]

kwit

[silent stream]

Yes

[silent stream]

I can't tell if this is AI or not?!

[stoic mesa]

Doesn't look ai to mr

Me*

[sly dock]

I dont think so

AI photos usually have that uncanny smear like thing to them

[icy panther]

Did anyone else get the new jjk game

[fickle locust]

No, there's a game for that?

[stoic mesa]

yep!! Cursed clash

[fickle locust]

Huh interesting

[vague quest]

whats with these homies dissing my girl

[steady valve]

acoustic'

[silent stream]

Same😁

[sly dock]

I listened to the full song because of you and I had to tell my friend that it sounds good

You could read their disappointment through their messages

Anyways time for the 5th relisten

[stoic mesa]

Weezer!!! I like weezer

[fickle locust]

Thought I'd put this here too, I incorporated my trolls autism in my humansona lol (trollsona's there too but not completely accurate to height, they'd be a little smaller)

Bc trolls are teensie

But uhh ye i love trolls and so does humansona

[turbid notch]

YIPPE

YIPPPE

YIPPPE

I LOVE UR DRAWING

GUH

YIPPE

[fickle locust]

Ty! :D

[turbid notch]

:DDDD

[fickle locust]

Man I wannadraw more trolls

[turbid notch]

REAL

[fickle locust]

You want one?

Like i could make a trollsona

[turbid notch]

GASP :0

[fickle locust]

:3

[turbid notch]

GUH THATS SWEET

[fickle locust]

What would you want it to look like?

[turbid notch]

and uhhh hmm...

Top scars are a must 💪

[fickle locust]

Ofc bro, my trollsona has them uvu

[turbid notch]

I saw!!!!

So silly

[fickle locust]

Teehee

Any other requirements like a specifc troll tribe you wanna be?

[turbid notch]

Ooo

[fickle locust]

It doesnt have to identify the music you like

Just whichever tribe is cool to you

[turbid notch]

Rock >:3333

[fickle locust]

Alrighty!

So top surgery scars, rock troll base uh anything else?

[turbid notch]

It goes with Purple skin and Red hair i was thinking off

[fickle locust]

I make em with tails and paw pads btw

[fickle locust]

Alr!

[turbid notch]

SO CUTE

[fickle locust]

Hee hee :3

[turbid notch]

Also short hair and silly glasses >:3333

[fickle locust]

Alr!

[turbid notch]

And u can choose the rest

Its so silly

[fickle locust]

Like sunglasses or eyesight glasses?

[turbid notch]

Eyesight

[fickle locust]

Alr!

[turbid notch]

After im a totally draw our sillies together being silly and probably showing of their vinyls or smth >:3

[fickle locust]

Yay!!

My trollsona makes breakcore mixtapes, is a pop troll, but doesn't sing

[turbid notch]

OOOOO :0

[fickle locust]

Also they got the velvet and veneer treatment bc of my scoliosis which in turn gives me problems standing, and also my uhhhh throat problem

[turbid notch]

Ohhh cool 👀

[fickle locust]

Yee

[vague quest]

and i would have to agree with you

[vague quest]

femtanyl on spotify

[fickle locust]

Will check that out

[fickle locust]

Also here you go :3

The glasses are heart shaped

[turbid notch]

UGH HOW LOVELY ‼️

THE RIGHT EARING IS SO REAL

Eats this

https://tenor.com/view/cat-watermelon-eating-eats-eat-gif-25258999

GIFS DONT WORK FOR ME NOOOOO 💔

[fickle locust]

Ough same

Also the left ear is like uhh torn is

*ish

Bc rock troll :3

[turbid notch]

UGH SO REALLLL

‼️

[fickle locust]

:3

[turbid notch]

Im a try to draw our sillies by the end of the day, rn i have low battery 💀

GUHHH THEY ARE SO SILLY

[fickle locust]

Ty!

You want a ref?

Basic ref lol

Sometimes they wear the leg and arm warmers and sometimes they dont

Depends if they feel cold

Most of the time they do tho

[restive marsh]

I feel a hyperfixation brewing

[spark wind]

hello tism cult members

[turbid notch]

OHHH LOVELY

[fickle locust]

:3

[turbid notch]

This may take a bit longer but i will draw the 2 cause YAYYYY YIPEPEPEPPE

[stoic mesa]

oh yea @fickle locust
I made a troll sona weeks ago alongside w my friend bc they like the trolls movie and stuff, pinging u cuz umum you like trolls

idk if i can show my friends oc bc i didnt ask for permission or anything but yeah 😭
i literally have no clue how trolls r built i just tried to draw whatevr

[fickle locust]

HOLY SHIT THAT'S RLY GOOD

LIKE OMG THAT'S AWESOME

[fickle locust]

So like ermmmmmm EATS YOUR ART

[stoic mesa]

https://tenor.com/view/happy-catto-cats-gif-2693509101423175460

[fickle locust]

:3

[twin beacon]

the oc brain rot is so bad that now we’ve got silly little birthdays for them
(Crystal’s birthday is 2/4/2016, the release date of the first episode of emerald secret!!)

well it would be her birthday if she didn’t die

(skill issue tbh)

[vague quest]

what is this whimsical creature

[restive marsh]

ANDY!!

[rain stone]

my nephews first birthday is today and i feel so bad for not wanting to be there to celebrate it but being around my sisters husbands family makes me so uncomfortable 😞

bc they think crazy shit like vaccines causing autism and everytime im around they just stare at me like im some kind of freak 😭

[sly dock]

Something is wrong but I can’t see what

Does anyone know? It’s for an art trade with someone else so it be important that it looks good

[twin beacon]

the neck looks a bit like a funnel, try flipping it so the wide part connects to the shoulders

[terse kernel]

The arms have a different thickness slightly i think, idk

[twin beacon]

those lifesaver mints are so good

i could eat a whole bag of them

[stoic mesa]

Being overstimulated/feeling jittery while you want to do work is the worst thing ever
Like i want to do it but i cant, not because im lazy but rather because i feel like ill explode if i do anything that is not doing things that bring me comfort

I usually push myself to do stuff but in a pace i know wont make me too upset but like today i just cant at all

[turbid notch]

Ughhhh i feel that, literally doing that rn

[lost vortex]

My autism rn

[turbid notch]

Me when i do math (i hate math) to calculate how much wine bottles my vampire character probably went through during that stage of their life (im way to into the lore of my silly)

[odd kettle]

https://tenor.com/view/neil-cicierega-chungus-lucas-mantin-reddit-lemon-demon-gif-17788263

GRRRR

GRRR

[silent stream]

?

[odd kettle]

The gif

Didn’t work

[silent stream]

Ohhh

Sorry

Lol

[turbid notch]

LEMON DEMON REF

[odd kettle]

‼️‼️

[rain stone]

i love doing this kind of stuff for my silly guys i get so into expanding on the smallest thinngs

[turbid notch]

:DDDDDD

U get it hhehehee!!!!

[stoic mesa]

https://tenor.com/view/neil-cicierega-chungus-lucas-mantin-reddit-lemon-demon-gif-17788263

[odd kettle]

YAYYYY

[sly dock]

He looks so happy aww

[stoic mesa]

https://tenor.com/view/spongebob-hand-lollipop-sad-cry-gif-26494671

[vague quest]

today is not great for me

ive been sick since yesterday

time is moving slow as shit

its only about to be 10 but it feels like its almost noon

[stoic mesa]

https://tenor.com/view/원더호이-wonderhoy-wondahoy-hooray-tada-gif-27102628

https://tenor.com/view/prskfancams-prskcams-pjsk-prsk-project-gif-27471823

Can't noise, im in public 💔

[fickle locust]

Shipwrecked 64 is a neat ARG game and I'm glad it exists whoopie!

[silent stream]

Indeed

[sly dock]

I got new pins

I even got an custom one but they made the face too small/ not centered correctly so it looks dumb

[rain stone]

i cant stop spending my money on stuff i dont need 😞

i have so many star wars funko pops

[somber knoll]

we got two tornado warnings yesterday

and one more todayy

and it’s given me the opportunity to talk about tornados to ppl

also

basements????? in SoCal????

I literally once made my mom watch a two hr YouTube video about tornados

[restive marsh]

I want someone to help me configure my Alan backer avm au

[sly dock]

Its not going well at all

Its 1:23 am i'll fix it tommorow

[sly dock]

Its tommorow and it looks even worse relooking at it

[burnt parcel]

Hey guys any tips on dealing with over stim? I’m going to a card store with my bf tomorrow (he plays flesh and blood and I go with him) and last time I went i got overstimmed and cried and it was so embarrassing 😭

[stoic mesa]

Bring a comfort item if you're able to, anything that is noise cancelling like earbuds and headphones and also stuff you can fidget with, by stuff I mean like literally anything, could even be a ring

[stoic mesa]

I want to play SBURB so bad but I got like no one I can play with bc my friends either can't or just don't know what the game even is RAAUAHAHAHH
I need to get rid of my homestuck obsession ASAP man

I think it started to become low-key annoying how much I bring that shitty webcomic up

[icy panther]

I was playing cookie run kingdom earlier and I went through sherbet cookies and cotton cookies story in the extras and I'm like

[somber knoll]

WHEN I TELL U I CRIED FR

cookie run kingdom got serious good story but like it’s cookies 😭😭

[fickle locust]

I've been playing Find Everything on Roblox recently (the voice of a guy who just started yesterday), and when I found out Mayor Majig was trans I HAD to make this meme of my avi and him lmaoooo

Like guys please he's literally me I am so autistic about him

[icy panther]

Itadori is coming back to fortnite, I prayed for times like these

[rain stone]

god i used to be so autistic about cookie run i wanna get back into it so bad 😭😭

[icy panther]

You should it's still good

[spark forum]

Yall I did a thing

[silent stream]

KWALL

[sly dock]

He looks like me

[agile monolith]

https://www.tumblr.com/dragonluvr23/740881114508476416/as-an-autistic-this-is-heart-breaking-someone?source=share
i had to share this from my tumblr account. and yes, this is an actual billboard in my town.

and this is the photo for those who dont wish to go to the site

[stoic mesa]

EW AUTISM SPEAKS

[azure light]

I love him so much he's so me I'm so autistic about him

ALSO NEW HOMESTUCK SHIRT YIPPEE

[stoic mesa]

RAHHHHHHHHH

[vague quest]

i dont care who the irs sends

[plush sand]

MAIM BITE KILL

[twin beacon]

I say we all sneak into autism speaks headquarters and bite their fingers off when they’re sleeping

[silent stream]

Yes I'm on board

[midnight cypress]

gonna charge up the maximum CHOMPING OFF

[mint raven]

lmao look at him (Rockafire Explosion animatronic)

[vague quest]

what the hell is that scrunkle

[desert idol]

Clay Brick

I LOVE ANIMATIC BATTLE

[gilded crag]

Why dont you just commit acts of vilolence against them

Like damn

“Bite of their fingers”

Take a lesson from waco

Fill the building with flammable gas and shoot a pyrotechnic at it

And collapse the basement so no one survied

If you work at autism speaks you deserve this fate

Thank tou so very much for listening.

[stoic mesa]

😇

[plush wagon]

I saw a pro autism speaks sticker on someone’s car that said “autistic child aboard” and I was on a walk with my mans and I went on a rant about how much I hate autism speaks

[rain stone]

what is the poijt of specifying if the child in ur car is autistic or not 😭

[stoic mesa]

Literally no poing

[restive marsh]

ROCKAFIRE EXPLOSION AHHHHH

Me when I meet someone with the same niche interest as me

[stoic mesa]

RAHHH

[humble merlin]

Tw bugs, bug death

She eats

[tropic ermine]

i LOVE cats :3 and love joy

[agile monolith]

i had a 'tism moment today... i took a break from writting and stared at my lava lamp for 45 minute straight....

[icy panther]

Someone made the wild kratts in fortnite

[silent stream]

Yo that was my fucking childhood 🔥

[icy panther]

Imagine getting clipped by the Kratt Brothers then hearing them shout "Creature power!"

I can't spell

[desert idol]

Fellas

Roxie Richter or Gwen Stacy

[runic ore]

man i just found out i have autism but i dont know what it means

like what does it mean that i have autism 😭

[sly dock]

I ordered an custom keychain and standee on Aliexpress and I sent them my files on email, I asked them if printing on the base for my standee would be possible and if they could make the base bigger than the width of the standee and what their options are for keychain clasps

They then asked for my order number and I gave it to them, some hours later I got an order confirmation from aliexpress that it will be shipped

They didn’t answer any of my questions and now I’m scared

Update, they apparently replied to me on aliexpress yesterday talking about the base size

[spark forum]

Too many?