Thank you for sharing Kari. I really enjoyed reading your story. 
You have accomplished a lot at such a young age.
#4 years of immersion, my current goals and ambitions
violet summit
How many books had you read at the time you took the N1?
vague bear
Kari's only 18? wow dude huge respect, good read
analog warren
lethal condor
did you end up learning to drive?
same
i haven't driven in years
thanks for sharing your story. the japanese journey seems like it's messy for most people. it's good to see the non-perfect stories can still work out in the end
how do you look back on AJATT? good influence? bad influence? mostly good but flawed? unrealistic?
limpid fern
im just a lurker but i loved reading your story @soft zodiac thanks for sharing
i can relate
lethal condor
ha. i think we all do. the amounts just differ
violet summit
patent imp
That was an amazing read
Your progress is amazing 👏
errant nova
Good story Kari I can relate quite a bit I didn't have as extreme of a fall out as your AJATT phase but I definitely had points where Japanese was taking over and if my time wasnt spent doing Japanese I basically considered it a complete waste of my time
Good to see another young life learner trying to find their way 🤝
errant nova
19
sinful lagoon
based
the point about natives whitenoising is true, most of my taiwanese friends don't know half the words in my chinese mining deck since a lot is from 純文学, but also i think you'll find that if you ever move to japan you're going to encounter random words (things like kitchen tools, home repair stuff, or something) that every native knows but literally never came up in your immersion and you never needed to use that word until you need to buy something specific for your apartment
naive mist
nice work writing your story
my favorite example of those type of words is 親展
you get it to see it in the cover of mails and because of the meaning nobody would probably use it in a sentence
I did a search of refold and tmw, and only my message on tmw shows up which kinda proves a point that it's obscure
lethal condor
oh lol. ok, maybe i'll keep it
i definitely want to know 点字 anyway
all my research into the passive vocabulary of university student japanese natives is that it's huge. like they test them on dictionaries with 50,000 words and find that they know almost all of them
dusky fractal
sucks to have that kind of realization about parents at such a young age
if my time wasnt spent doing Japanese I basically considered it a complete waste of my time
I've been in this state for at least half a year, I don't know if I should do something about that. On one hand, it keeps the immersion going, but it feels I'm missing on many other things
silk grail
Yeah so after reading this I think is time for me to step up a bit and do my job as a doctor here. I’m probably one of the only doctors here in the server (actually I will be in a matter of months) but I’m 26 years old and ,thanks to med school, i have a good knowledge on human interactions, psychology, etc (I already work on the field for over a year now and what I’m about to tell you guys I’ve been saying for more then years to patients in hospitals, clinics and etc.) so ,I can’t stress this enough, do NOT neglect human interactions (family, friends, social, sports, going outside, exercising, etc.) they are the core of the human psyche and one of the pillars of a healthy mind. I know everyone is different and in this “niche” of jp learning a lot of us tends to be introverts and to prefer the pc over humans but that’s not how it goes unfortunately. Reading this story and the replies I see that the isolation is a pattern that repeats more then we like to admit and , I will make karifurai’s words mine here “it was unrealistic and unsustainable for me, but it depending on the type of person it can still be good” YOU NEED TO KNOW YOURSELF, if the method is not detrimental for you mental health go for it. But if u see that it’s not doing good for your mind, you are getting depressed, you are getting tired of people/family, you don’t have motivation to go outside, please stop and think about the method (and how much of a tryhard u trying to be),seek specialized help and maybe take a break, fortunately karifurai was able to notice this and took action when he was really low, congrats man I’m really glad for it, but not everybody might be able to get out of the “hole”, so please prevent this from happening.
approach life in a healthy way, eat good, workout/or anything physical you like, enjoy life above everything else. As a lover of the language I wish that everyone can learn jp. But not at the cost of you healt, that’s too high of a price to pay and won’t be worth it in the end. Be safe, be healthy, life is beautiful and the top blessing we could ask.