transdome

[lofty nacelle]

This is also awesome wtf

[open knoll]

do you ever think about how much knowledge about trans medical care that we lost to the nazis

[grand hearth]

Yes but don’t stop girly pop is so catchy

[open knoll]

cause like, book burnings and shit

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh I always assumed it was too early for studies n shit on that anyways

[lofty nacelle]

It isss

Tbh I think it also matches the OST sm but I only found out about the game after it came out so when the soundtrack was set in stone 🤷‍♀️

[solid oasis]

hor mone

[lofty nacelle]

Love em

[winter comet]

magnus hirschfeld was a prominent sexologist before and during nazi germany

there was queer shit goin on around that time even in academia and studies

[lofty nacelle]

I will look into this

[golden plover]

We have existed throughout history

[lofty nacelle]

This is true

[golden plover]

https://tenor.com/view/soggy-sog-soggy-cat-fact-check-fact-checked-gif-3086258029609134343

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh it’ll always shock me some ppl to this day don’t realize trans ppl exist

Apparently one of my coworkers got told I was a woman today and all he said was “how is that a woman with a voice that deep”

[golden plover]

Dude has never heard deep voiced women (and how gjvfkxuvfjvfkvj they are)

[solid oasis]

gjvfkxuvfjvfkvj 💜

[lofty nacelle]

REALL SHITTT

[dull raft]

i feel like a creature stuck in transition (pun slightly intended)

like that scene in the steven universe movie where ||amethyst comes back and shes going through every form shes ever had||

i feel like that constantly

i dont feel like a human socially

i know physically and mentally i am one

but it feels like im not accepted by other humans as one

and that feels intrinsically tied into my gender in a way

[spring lynx]

my work shift today has taught me that im clockably trans but ppl cant tell which way, lmao

[honest lake]

oh thats a crazy phase

happens to many trans masc people i think 😭

like people came up to a trans guy i know and were like "YOU WILL NEVER BE A GIRL"

[spring lynx]

YEAH
its so funny tbh

like not that ppl are so hateful but the sheer confidence of it

[spring lynx]

esp since im not transmasc (although i do identify as the first transfem transmasc transfem)

[open knoll]

how does that even work

[spring lynx]

dont ask it just makes my dysphoria happy

[solid oasis]

I understand u

[spring lynx]

😇

[lofty nacelle]

Fuck they finally hired a proud transphobe

AND I gotta train her too

AND my bigot ass uncle almost sent me into a spiral today’s so fucked up and twisted

[winter comet]

honestly? i get it

[lofty nacelle]

I think I’m gonna kill this door host one of these days after she deadnames me thinking she’s a detective for figuring it out

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/pinkie-pinkie-pie-pinkie-pie-with-hammer-pinkie-pie-bashing-her-head-in-bludgeon-gif-18141205287381834115

idk bout u but its so damn euphoric to record music

you always sound the best whenever u record a song

[lofty nacelle]

Nah that’s real af

Well I haven’t done vocals at all it just feels good tbh

[frosty sky]

i have done vocals for a couple years now and i glowed up so much

i reach pitches i could never back then because i did not train LOL

[lofty nacelle]

Fuck yeah!!

[random flax]

wassup transgenders of the mg server

[random flax]

WHAT THE FUCKKK

im sorry twin

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/hitomi-shizuki-madoka-magica-pmmm-magia-record-yuri-gif-24397332

[lofty nacelle]

My TL decided to introduce me with my pronouns bitch IMMEDIATELY went to he-ing me😭

[elder saffron]

Sounds like they won't last long if they keep that up

That's if your management cares I guess

[lofty nacelle]

They’re like fossilizing so sadly I think they won’t get fired or in trouble but all my TLs and managers(kinda) fw me heavy so they’re at least gonna get hell for it socially

[elder saffron]

Well I'd look into if your work has any sort of policies against just outting someone like that

[frosty sky]

me realizing my employment in the future is going to be extra hard for me if im an actual woman

[elder saffron]

At least where I work they can't just up and out anyone here

[lofty nacelle]

I wish but it is a Walmart and the HR lady is a conservative so

[elder saffron]

Knowing job policies will be your #1 weapon

Ok bet we work for the same company

[frosty sky]

well fuck im ruling out walmart

[lofty nacelle]

Wait whart so can I get her in trouble or what’s the line?

[random flax]

ok point 2 her and then we can all kill her 🩷

[lofty nacelle]

Nah it’s honestly mostly been good just I’m starting to be clocky n shit now

[frosty sky]

well okay fuck that mf ^_^

FUKK DAT BITCH

[random flax]

dude walmart has BEEN conserverative, they rolled back on dei shit when trump came back and so did target. target actually rolled back on pride like entirely because some loud conservative minority started bitching and moaning

[elder saffron]

Look into the respect for the individual policies, if you feel like anything that's been done violates those guidelines bring that up, if HR claims it's not an issue I'd go to your coach or TL next, if that doesn't help anything then the correct step is to talk to your SM but I personally would just submit an ethics report

[random flax]

some of yall gotta look in2 these companies i beg

[frosty sky]

its just corporations

[random flax]

^^^

[frosty sky]

i aint buying any pride shit from ANY company unless its like indie

[random flax]

corporations are usually going 2 lick conservative boot

[frosty sky]

or at least cool

like HT

[lofty nacelle]

Tyvm:3

[random flax]

it's not even js that

in general

corporations suck

they're all like this pretty much

[frosty sky]

L corporation

[random flax]

except costco and arizona

seemingly

does valve also count as a corporation

[frosty sky]

Corporations and sexual orientation is a bad combo.

[random flax]

i mean pride isnt js about sexual orientation either

[elder saffron]

When I first came out the HR lady at my old store outed me to others and had also outted a trans guy at the store who literally 100% passed

[random flax]

corporations and marginalized people r a bad combo

[frosty sky]

I wonder would any company want to do that with heteromance?

[random flax]

brotha eugh

[elder saffron]

Then finding out later that her doing that was a big no no pissed me off

[frosty sky]

shit that triggered a certain complex of mine

[elder saffron]

She would also be like "Walmart cares about it's trans genders"

[random flax]

walmart dont give a FAWWWKKKK LMFAOOOOO WHATS SHE TALKING ABTTT

[elder saffron]

Yeeaahhh

[frosty sky]

mane FUKK THAT 😂

[random flax]

queer people are no longer profitable so rainbow capitalism is out and fascism is in

[frosty sky]

they can finally stop being pushed into my face >_<

[elder saffron]

It always cracked me up cause even before rolling back stuff they would talk about how they care for the lgbtq community while also propping up organizations that are known to be very anti lgbtq

Like brother you can't have it both ways

[random flax]

reminds me how i saw white castle promoting autism speaks ,,,

no baby dont do that i like your chicken rings..

[frosty sky]

huh

[elder saffron]

But idk at least the people at the current store I work at arnt too bad compared to my old one and the insurance helps a lot with my hrt those are the only positives

[frosty sky]

nani the fuck!!!!!

[random flax]

i feel like its almost poetic that your walmart insurance covers your hrt

thats beautiful actually

[lofty nacelle]

I feel you tho ONE OF my TLs outted me to everyone on the front end p much😭 😭

[elder saffron]

Our insurance actually covers a lot of transition stuff funny enough....for now at least

[frosty sky]

if people try to out me i pray i beat the case

[lofty nacelle]

Damnn I hadn’t looked into that yet bc diy and part time hell yeah tho

[random flax]

if i get outed imma start gaslighting tf out of people idc

[frosty sky]

chat making me so riled up what the hell

i straight got distracted from making a music cover

[random flax]

im dying on this stealth hill (4 now) like mind yo business david /ref

[frosty sky]

if i get outed i smoke on their pack

[random flax]

https://youtube.com/shorts/bp4WxLUeyLE

[frosty sky]

if i get outed i turn them inside out

[elder saffron]

I dealt with a lot of bigotry when I came out at work, I went from being 2nd shift meat and produce to 1st shift to cap 1 all because of bigotry and I don't recommend sticking it out especially with how much it damaged my mental health but I finally went to 3rds and it honestly got better from there. Then overtime a lot of those bigoted managers got filtered out of the system

[frosty sky]

If this were an anime I would basically like take the air out of their lungs like its their body

coming out of their soul

[random flax]

jesus im so sorry gang

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah god glad they at least faded overtime

[elder saffron]

It's all good if anything it was a brutal learning experience. It taught me to have a back bone and how to fight against people like that.

[frosty sky]

yeah ima go to freelance

if ima deal with shit like that

i think violent thoughts.

[elder saffron]

You won't get that everywhere

[frosty sky]

i get that shit going to school like every day

def why im online

Smh

violent thoughts every day

ohhh lordy

how do i cope

[elder saffron]

School is just like that no matter what cause you have people growing up still

And learning about the world and life

[frosty sky]

nah i was toxic af at my old school

ever since FRESHMAN YEAR

[random flax]

twin please see a therapist

[frosty sky]

Yo ive been trying to get one

Its been two years

[random flax]

check psychology today my g

see who can help u and if they specialize in what u need

[elder saffron]

Lyra is one I went with that helped me get a therapist (funny enough free thanks to walmart lmfao)

Just what ever you do please avoid Better Help

[frosty sky]

Bro im so toxic i even got me a worst reputation at my online school

[frosty sky]

Yeah i hear thats bogus

This is america mental health is more scarce than physical health

[random flax]

real shit

[random flax]

jesus christ dude

[frosty sky]

America does NOT give af about mental health i cant lie

Like i found out a really harsh truth about the system

but im not going to tell yall here ur gonna have to find it yourself >_<

because

i dont wanna turn this into a horror show

[random flax]

what

[elder saffron]

I mean I think we all know how bad things are and can be

[frosty sky]

okay maybe i will tell you a little bit

[elder saffron]

I've been alive for almost 30 years lol and critical of the way things are since 13

[solid oasis]

Im trying to phrase this politely but I think we all know lol

[frosty sky]

They want your $$$

no matter what u do

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/sealyx-naked-gun-the-naked-gun-facepalm-facepalm-meme-gif-11743768702765397589

[solid oasis]

a few mg songs even reference it iirc lol

actually no in the arg too

but no im glad you now know now if anything

[elder saffron]

They wanna scrape your data too

[lofty nacelle]

Start scrapin yo data twin

[elder saffron]

And despite having no money at all I'm still a rat trapped in a mall

[frosty sky]

the system scrapes my data twin

my mom told me an instance of it actually happening but if i told you about it you will never think me the same again lmao

[spring lynx]

Hi! Welcome to the BlackRock™ Transition Program!
We'll first begin by compiling all of your available online information into one folder-
Nevermind. Please leave.

[lofty nacelle]

Scraping my data ie. Hitting my weed pen when my boobs hurt

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/rjumen-laugh-man-cool-nice-perfect-gif-23675313

[random flax]

n the sky is blue bro 💔

[random flax]

start scraping yo data twin...

[frosty sky]

maybe i should make a scrape my data song

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/jesse-blueman-why-are-you-blue-radioactive-glowing-blue-gif-7961548304504204931

[frosty sky]

The government scrapes so much of your data

[solid oasis]

extremely blue jesus christ

[random flax]

bro could join the blue man group

[random flax]

so does like. everyone

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/ayla-beautiful-glancing-in-love-soft-side-gif-11045073174167967583

[spring lynx]

brochacho dipped his body in the corium

[random flax]

type shit

[lofty nacelle]

I wish I was greeeen

[frosty sky]

heck they scrape your discord data

[elder saffron]

Wait until you hear about age verification at the federal level

[random flax]

fr

[elder saffron]

Protect the children my ass

[frosty sky]

the fbi is UGHGGHGHHHHH

[random flax]

if you're surprised about the government scraping your data wait until you find out about age verification laws in the us and uk twin

[random flax]

we all know its a weak ass excuse

[frosty sky]

Another reason to use protection.

[random flax]

i wanna try opsec or some shit

[spring lynx]

Flirting by scraping all of the data I can about you so when we cross paths again I actually have a better fucking line than "Guh? Hi?"

[random flax]

but idk if it'll work

[elder saffron]

Vpns are on the chopping block next so I'm sure the deep web will be next to fall after that

[random flax]

its genius..

[frosty sky]

god fucking damn it

[random flax]

honestly probably

[frosty sky]

I need a VPN constantly

because

my house is a bitch when it comes to internet

[random flax]

none of this shit is even constitutional

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/dexter-james-doakes-erik-king-stare-staring-gif-1343162792415382650

[frosty sky]

i hope we have a non aging president

with SMOOTH SKIN

FOR ONCE GOD DAMNIT

[lofty nacelle]

God I got outed my store cop almost had a panic attack bc he kept staring at me

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/pinkie-pie-pinkie-pie-crazy-insan-gif-394298167497580826

this whole time i was listening to death grips

[lofty nacelle]

Bro just gave me the most awkward smiling wave and suddenly acts like we’re cool

[frosty sky]

chatting with music on the best method fr

[random flax]

WHAT

[elder saffron]

Stun locked by your majesty

[frosty sky]

Bro could not handle your look

Mane if looks could kill.....

[solid oasis]

tbh what scares me is the thought of how theres this deep level of "buyout" when it comes to what corporations or billionaires want you to believe and lean into and how easily people fall for it but its a pretty deep thing to get into. Most of it manifests online ofc (or at least most obvious forms* to be clear)

[frosty sky]

You would turn em into stone.

[lofty nacelle]

One of my coworkers trying to be helpful corrected him and told him I’m a trans woman then he just SAT at the self checkout I was at STARING

[random flax]

i think he got a crush on u twin

[elder saffron]

The fact that everything that has happened for the past 30 years is due to a pedo will end up killing me

[solid oasis]

YeAH

theres such a deep and intricate chain of effect and its fucking insane

[random flax]

im genuinely still flabbergasted what the fuck do you mean he started the alt right bullshit w 4chan and microtransactions

hes somehow so cartoonishly evil and so genuinely evil at the same time i dont know whether to laugh or cry

[lofty nacelle]

REAL SHIT

[random flax]

i am trying 2 nitpick everything i can about this dude 2 js make fun of him i hate him so much

hes beyond a fucking loser

[elder saffron]

Don't forget getting companies to sexualize kids and pander growing up quicker

[solid oasis]

Yeeeep

[frosty sky]

BUllllshitttttt

[random flax]

yeah ugh

[solid oasis]

I'd say thats been really clear recently too more than ever

[lofty nacelle]

Godddd yeahhhh

[random flax]

what the fuck are you on about

[elder saffron]

It's wild how people for years have called it out just to get called creeps just for them to get proven right

[solid oasis]

may be sarcasm im not sure

[random flax]

OH

[frosty sky]

drowsiness.

[topaz rapids]

geez backreading rn

[frosty sky]

im drunk on drowsiness

[elder saffron]

Yeeaahhh I was about to say just look at how Victoria Secret used to pander to teenagers for instance that shit was due to pedos

[topaz rapids]

☹️

[random flax]

i would say if something supposed 2 be child friendly/just pander 2 children sEEMS off, it probably fucking is

[random flax]

maybe go 2 bed bro

[frosty sky]

ok im hopping off to make stuff

its 9 pm

i should be reading my wlw manga

[elder saffron]

Then you have nickelodeon with Dan the footman Schneider

[frosty sky]

while also beating a communication disorder manga

while also beating a heteromance manga

im busy the week godd damn

im dropping like a song on 4/20 (which is TOMOROW)

i should have finished my cover art an hour ago

[random flax]

i HATE that man SO MUCH

[lofty nacelle]

I forget his name but I’m glad at least the Carly ppl had that dood to help protect them somewhat

Spencer!

Whatever his actors name is

[random flax]

uhhh

jerry smthn

he was great man

im genuinely surprised the icarly reboot even happened

jeanette mccurdy isnt there 4 it iirc

[elder saffron]

Correct

[random flax]

honestly u go girl u been thru enough

write ur books

[elder saffron]

Her book was really good

"I'm Glad My Mom Died"

I hate how some of the stuff in that book was relatable

[lofty nacelle]

Read a synopsis Ill have to give it a read too bc sounds like it’ll be the same for me

[elder saffron]

There's an audiobook version that's read by her which I jumped between when I wasn't able to read the book

[random flax]

oooo

love when the author does that, feels a lot more personal

[elder saffron]

Mhm

[random flax]

like they're reading THEIR book 2 ME.

that's awesome

i havent rlly listened 2 audiobooks but i listened 2 an audiobook version of henry rollins' get in the van, it was pretty good

it was nice hearing him read it too

[elder saffron]

I need to listen to some of his talks

I've always seen clips from them but never got around to listening to the whole thing

[lofty nacelle]

What is a good audiobook website

[random flax]

i've listened 2 a few clips too, i wish i could go 2 his spoken word shows

lowkey he inspired me 2 get my shit 2gether

i have a bunch of rollins band cds i LOVE LOVE LOVE that guy

[elder saffron]

There was one where he talked about feeling overwhelmed by wanting to make the world a better place but there's so much wrong and that helping those around you is a much more realistic thing for one person to be able to accomplish. That stuck with me

[random flax]

yeah

he's absolutely fucking right

[viral hull]

hey. freaks. workers of the world.

anyone actually have those knee highs with the pawpads? i've heard they're ass to use but they seem so comfy.

don't wanna get some then find out they suck to wear, ya'know

[frosty sky]

holy i lowkey want those

[elder saffron]

Sooooooo the ones you can find from Amazon are hard rubber but the original brand that made them has soft pads

[frosty sky]

so i can stomp on people's heads and make then squeal

(they will not die in the process)

[viral hull]

type shit highkey. you free later?

-# this is a joke.

[elder saffron]

I had the knock off ones and they weren't to bad but I would of liked to get the original ones

[frosty sky]

Wait there original????

[viral hull]

gotchya. you know what's the original, at all? chill if you don't.

[elder saffron]

One sec

I think it's toebeanies?

[frosty sky]

These look WAY familiar.

i am going to look into these.

[elder saffron]

I've been retired from the trans cat girl world for a while now xD Am a trans bunny girl now

I feel like there's way less cat girls now lmao everyone's a puppy girl now

[lofty nacelle]

An endangered species fr

[viral hull]

i'm keeping the heat alive. tho it's more of a hyena thing now.

[elder saffron]

Ayyyy

[viral hull]

dogcat girlbeast fuckmutt type beat

[solid oasis]

Cringebeast (me)

[lofty nacelle]

Binturong

[solid oasis]

TRUE

popcorn

[lofty nacelle]

https://tenor.com/view/binturong-bearcat-cute-bear-cat-gif-27426066

Literally me if you even care🥀🥀🚬🚬/j

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/bunny-sleepy-gooba-owa-owaowa-gif-2311503198775714764

XD God however pops into this chat later is gonna be so confused

"what the hell did I just walk into"type shit

[lofty nacelle]

“Lemme check up on the transdome”

[elder saffron]

"oh I see they think they're animals now"

[frosty sky]

im a magical girl who sometimes turns into a bunny

other times

is a slimy black rainbow thing

[elder saffron]

Sailor Moon type shit

God I love that there's a Chao emoji

[lofty nacelle]

I DO TOO ITS SO AWESOME:33

[elder saffron]

Chao Garden is still my favorite thing from Sonic

If only Sega would do anything with it again

[lofty nacelle]

STRAIGHT BARS

SA2 is so peak

[lofty nacelle]

I PRAYYY

[elder saffron]

SADX was my first sonic game

Amy became my favorite character after that

[lofty nacelle]

Fuck yeah I think mine was heroes?? Excluding the leapfrog sonic game I grew up on

[elder saffron]

I still need to play Heros

[frosty sky]

i need to watch sailor moon

lowkey

(im only on the madoka magica shit lmao)

[lofty nacelle]

It holds a dear place in my heart but I also think it’s cuz it was my first ever and like

[elder saffron]

I love Sailor Moon but I will admit Usagi can be annoying

[lofty nacelle]

I have a shadow tattoo now so:3

[elder saffron]

Manga is worth reading 10000%

[elder saffron]

OOOO

[elder saffron]

That's also really good too (still waiting on the next movie to release after a billion delays)

[winter comet]

<- rare transmasc rabbit man that is not a fluffy bunny but rather at the watership down end of the spectrum

[frosty sky]

i got away with wlw manga at my house

my seven yr old is reading wlw graphic novel

makes me cringe inside but hey

[lofty nacelle]

I’m lowk sad not everyone has a sonic character that changed their brain chemistry at a young age

[winter comet]

i have an entire shelf of shadow

[elder saffron]

I have a shelf just for Amy xD

[winter comet]

i am not even a seasoned sonic player i just watched the shadow the hedgehog commercials in 2005 and was like damn. this goes hard

[lofty nacelle]

FUCK YEAHHH

[solid oasis]

Freaking Real

[elder saffron]

When I get home from work I'll drop a pic

[solid oasis]

me w metal sonic even tho I didnt really play any games or know of any sonic lore he juststuck out to me as a kid

metal overlord form cool as hell

[lofty nacelle]

I have a small shelf with some sonic stuff tbh not too much but my mom didn’t like buying me that stuff and like I have the tattoo so

[elder saffron]

The power of being an adult with adult money

[lofty nacelle]

Exactly lol

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/sonic-gif-14040365364911327845

[frosty sky]

https://soundcloud.com/deathgrips/death-grips-full-moon-death

one day i will rap and end up sounding like this

[lofty nacelle]

Live laugh hue hue hue hue

[elder saffron]

God I want someone to remake that bootleg plushie

[lofty nacelle]

I NEED ITTTT

[frosty sky]

chat if i graduate high school i will attempt to convince my mom to buy me a blahaj

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/blahaj-shonk-attack-camera-dive-shark-gif-14344361424253681658

[frosty sky]

shark attack

[lofty nacelle]

The bootleg metal sonic plush will be my stand in

I’ll learn how to make it atp istg

[elder saffron]

One day it'll join my army of stuffed animals

[lofty nacelle]

Tattoo

[elder saffron]

That's sick!

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh I’m still bouncing between a doom wing/shadow themed trampstamp or the mgultra x wings

Ty:3

[elder saffron]

Shadow for the autism

Gotta let'em know what's up

I almost got a tramp stamp but the plans fell through

idc if people think it's trashy I think they're cool af

[lofty nacelle]

Straight

Fucking

Bars

[lofty nacelle]

They’re sick af AND cunt af like ppl just hate cuz they have no swag ngl

Also tbhhh getting the shadow one would let me do the full mgultrax thang on my back…

It’s either that or evangelion spoiler: || Eva 01 during the third impact with the spear of Longinus on my spine ||

[viral hull]

i feel like you'd like shadow of intent.

tats killer, btw. but you knew that.

[lofty nacelle]

I’ll give em another listen when I get to my deathcore but I used to fw em heavy just never gave them the full discography listen

[spring lynx]

i gotta get a tattoo sometime soon but i gotta get a design picked out
i wish i didnt have the brainrot that makes the uh, early 2000s tribal tattoo designs look good to me
like this

[lofty nacelle]

Nahh bruh these go crazy

[viral hull]

real. i'm seeing them in a few weeks, they were my first mosh. real excited.

[lofty nacelle]

Fuck Yeah have fun and fuck shit up!!

[spring lynx]

might get it on the side of my ribs but ive also heard thats painful as fuck
maybe shoulderblade to shoulder partial wrap thing going on

also painful as fuck but would look so good probably

[lofty nacelle]

I fw both of those ideas HEAVY would indeed look so good

Shoulder blade was ehh for me tbh

Tho I just got the brand nothing too big

[spring lynx]

oh thats rad as fuck

[lofty nacelle]

Idk why my neck looks like that IGNORE IT

[lofty nacelle]

Ty:3 its tha two tats i have(for now) end goal is p much um_ashually if yk who that is

[spring lynx]

idk who that is but i think i can relate a bit since my current goal is icky, esp since im pale as fuck so any dark ink is prob gonna look radiant bc contrast

[lofty nacelle]

Yes!

Dripped to the fucking teethhh🗣️🗣️

[spring lynx]

oh fuck yes

big gender too

[lofty nacelle]

Literally

She’s trans too so it doesn’t feel too crazy a goal idk quite how to put it

[spring lynx]

i get it, yeah

[lofty nacelle]

Yurr I just feel like I gotta eat more fatty stuff for my early development on HRT then the cut is gonna go insane

It’s not like I don’t have abs tho so I can’t be too mad

What I tell myself to not feel bad abt eating sm fried chicken LOL

[elder saffron]

God I wanna look like this so bad

Been doing workouts so it's only a matter of time

[lofty nacelle]

And IN CASE you’re not aware abs like that are like 90% diet

[lofty nacelle]

You too btw I forgot to mention this but it applies to you too

[lofty nacelle]

Istg estrogen is impairing my decision making around scissors

Everything around me is slowly but very steadily turning into a potential sewing project(my ass does NOT know how to sew yet)

[open knoll]

lolmao

[lofty nacelle]

I keep putting on baggy/old stuff and going but if it had a sinched waist and was a bit shorter👀

Somehow have gone on the full loop where my old gym clothes feel cute now

[spring lynx]

beastmode
me realizing that the old sports jerseys i have are comfy as fuck

[elder saffron]

Oh yeah no abs like that are from doing a lot of unhealthy things

[lofty nacelle]

Yurr that or like to the level of doing ALL the numbers n shit which like even I ain’t tryna do all that ngl

[lofty nacelle]

Thisss

[elder saffron]

My main priority has been glutes and thighs

Tryna get that pear shape body lol

[lofty nacelle]

Type shit type shit

hip thrusts and abductions go so dummy ngl

I just spammed lower body for a while n now im tryna get the back going again except with less ugly icky traps(i jus dont like em on me)

Am I allowed to post pre transition pics?

I’ve been made aware I’m a bit odd in that I’m ok sharing it openly so idk if that’s a thing that makes some ppl feel weird or sum

I also just been spamming pictures of me I highk feel like I been a lil annoying

[elder saffron]

I don't think there's a rule against that

[lofty nacelle]

Well I kinda miss having a back like this but like yeah less trap idk why but specifically the idea of big traps feels dysphoric af to me

Used to be a creeture that’s fs

[next harbor]

It brings me a lot of trans joy to see so much activity in this chat

[frosty sky]

everybody was on a rampage last nite

[solid oasis]

Let’s go on more

I’m heading to work I’ll read up soom

[topaz rapids]

wsg

i feel transgender today🥹 🥹 🥹

[pale umbra]

https://tenor.com/view/cheer-kang-council-meme-celebrate-gif-8467032427926976352

[spring lynx]

i have a tummy ache from hell but we ball
to be hot is to suffer

[pale umbra]

https://tenor.com/view/thats-true-gif-16351693291354216543

[open knoll]

i feel kinda validated sitting in bio class learning about human periods

if i was a cis woman taking this class i probably would've known a lot more beforehand

[random flax]

theres knee high socks with paw pads??

lowkey i fw programmer socks

[random flax]

OH THEYRE ACTUAL PAWS

[elder saffron]

Ye

[random flax]

I thought they were js printed on or somethkng

that sounds uncomfortable 2 walk in

unless they arent then maybe i might cop but that brings up a concern w washing them

[elder saffron]

I walk on my tippy toes so they never bothered me xD

[random flax]

i occassionally do but. not. really at the same time

[elder saffron]

They held together pretty well in the washer

[random flax]

that's good

may just have 2 cop then

[elder saffron]

They make gloves ones too but they kinda irritated my arms

gloves? arm sleeves? idk either way uncomfy xD

[spring lynx]

i have the tism stride goin on so i kinda already walk like im wearing paw pads ngl
theres a few places online that have them too

[elder saffron]

Actually came across someone on etsy that makes them

MoochiBeans

[open knoll]

2nd time this week i used the pool (couldn’t use it yesterday bc it was closed for cleaning)

i think i might consider doing around 30 mins a day every day

[late kayak]

I plan on coming out to my mom once school is over for the summer does anyone have any tips for me😴😴

Or uh idk tell me anything that might help😓

[solid oasis]

Oof umm maybe start light? Do you think she's someone that'd be accepting of it?

[late kayak]

I think so she’s pretty supporting of rlly anything I do

[solid oasis]

Oh ok lol in that case I think you may be fine if she hasn't ever shown negative sentiments to it prior

[late kayak]

Oh ok tysm!

I’m honestly super nervous but I think it’ll go well

[solid oasis]

Yee I wish u luck

[solid oasis]

I reapplied for health insurance so I may be able to go on hrt again wahoo

• trying to get a psych eval as well

[open knoll]

INSHALLAH

[solid oasis]

"heres some things that may highten your risk of adhd" "being the oldest sibling" Lol??

didnt even know that

[frosty sky]

i wait for the day i get a psych eval

the last time i had my physical it said i had autism + depression + anxiety for some reason

my parents deny that i got autism to my face

but its not like i need closure >_<

[winter comet]

i need an adult psych eval as well because i was not diagnosed with enough as a teen
i was diagnosed w gender dysphoria under mental illnesses last time i was in lol

they stopped doing that a few years ago i think and moved it to another category

[solid oasis]

The people I’ve seen never had the credentials to be able to and I was never seen as a kid due to neglect basically, even tho signs were there

My eyesight was ass too and teachers didn’t believe me when I’d complain but it wasn’t until someone else got custody over me / in my teens where I had glasses provided and was like holy shit (I’ve had eye surgery now to correct my vision but yeah)

My initial reaction was like. Wow everything is disgusting (seeing everything in higher / normal detail)

Only thing was those same people to gain custody didn’t “believe” in adhd (among many other things) so ofc that’s still now a problem for me to navigate now

[open knoll]

i was diagnosed as audhd early but never received a diagnosis for PTSD/CPTSD and i never realized how difficult it would be to actually obtain any kind of diagnosis, even though my therapist told me i do meet DSM-V’s criteria for having ptsd

what i really want to get is a cptsd diagnosis but i can’t even have that bc “oh it’s not formally recognized in the DSM-V”

[solid oasis]

Lol shit im reverse in that regard, (received a diagnosis for cptsd, bpd, social /generalized anxiety shit)

Some people do strictly adhere to the dsm (i think), so sometimes its harder to breach the perspective of other therapists so i get that

I can be corrected if im wrong too but I think ptsd may be easier to address under most therapists, like just by recognizing what issues may have arisen from it and focusing on and addressing said issues

I went thru like 3 diff therapists but my 4th one helped the most with cbt-shit

(deleted a section of text bcs I meant to edit it out earlier whups)

[open knoll]

oh this would make a lot of sense

😭 idk what it says about me for having gone through more than 10 therapists and still being unable to find one that would actually help

i’m starting to think my situation and circumstances are entirely unique even though i keep getting told that i’m not alone in that regard

[solid oasis]

Nah I doubt you're alone, I mean the lack of success can be anything from a lack of communication or internal insight (on your behalf, but I dont mean this in a rude way bcs ive been there too) to that maybe you're genuinely in a poor network or these therapists arent doing much hmm

I wouldnt rly know what to suggest bcs at a point it takes personal knowledge but Shit

Also if youre in an actively shitty situation that can mess with a lot

[open knoll]

it probably is due to a lack of communication but i oftentimes need to be in the moment to have a deep conversation and scheduled appointments often mean i am not in the moment to understand what im going to say

also… good luck on convincing someone to unlearn something negative that is so deeply ingrained within them that they view it as a fundamental part of themselves

[solid oasis]

Right right, I found usually noting things to myself days-to-weeks in advance helps because i'd defintiley not know what to say in the moment otherwise

The "good" therapist I had would actually pry a lot actively and that helped

[winter comet]

i recently learned both my sister and i probably have impairments that stem from ptsd so i have to do differential shit to see if I'm actually on the spectrum or just have a really similar manifest due to ptsd + adhd

which would be tough because i've lived a pretty significant amount of my life now as someone who understands itself as autistic

but it would help more than it hurts to get everything straightened out

(and btw i know a profound amount of autists have ptsd)

[open knoll]

i would not be surprised considering how society treats us

[winter comet]

it's basically baked in

[solid oasis]

honestly thats a huge difficulty to navigate imo like i've always been Weird or exhibited Autistic Swag but at a point u rly dont know if thats autism or just from the (chaos uve lived thru) ) so, I avoid that identifier entirely now in order not to mislabel myself (getting a dx of that as an adult is also a can of worms)

[open knoll]

my situation is basically that AND having to go through all of it alone because i grew up with no friends

not helped bc i was homeschooled for a year bc my parents thought the public school curriculum was too woke. literally why

[solid oasis]

I am Very Mentally Fractured and its obvious when i analyze everyone around me

(there smth I tell myself or realized where even "among outcasts" i feel like an outcast but fuck it we ball)

not trying to sound depressive its just like. Ough

[open knoll]

they probably did try to make me “change my mind” about being trans without making it obvious

which as we all famously know does not work

[solid oasis]

this was largely due to me movng all the time too

[solid oasis]

aw fuck

[open knoll]

same

5 times throughout my k-12 career

[solid oasis]

looks at my hands uhhh for me it was every freaking year or less prior to highschool

and itd be very unexpected too just because of well The Parent that was going through it and dragging us along

[open knoll]

as a kid i never bought into the “new kids == outcasts” stereotype and thought i’d make friends just by being proactive and trying to talk to people… yeah, all of my efforts were futile and im afraid that real actual tangible people still see me as a human freak for even approaching them

also mix a bit of anxiety rooted in incel based rhetoric/behaviors in there as well

[winter comet]

real, i figured out what autism could look like when i was about 15-16 and it all clicked for me then but now that i'm older and some traits have dimmed and other parts of my mental make up are clearer i get more self doubt lol

[open knoll]

i do not nor have i ever participated in incel communities but i used to lurk in their spaces a lot

[solid oasis]

I say fuck it and try anyways because like wouldnt u rather be A Freak and free if youd get a Real Friend out of it

Like ive had a few to remain close to me / relate to me a bit even despite everything and theyre rly cool people, like I gotta try and keep that in mind too

I had a few solid months of social anxiety but im re-entering that mindset where i'd rather take more social risks again wahoo

[lofty nacelle]

YES SPIT THAT SHIT SNARE

[solid oasis]

Yass

[open knoll]

THATS EXACTLY IT

[lofty nacelle]

Also ngl doing that does kind of force adjust yourself to caring less abt what the masses think which I think is awesome

[open knoll]

i definitely have found myself acting much more like a freak around people who wouldn’t mind it

even including my few irl friends (i’m probably the biggest square out of em all)

[solid oasis]

Yea exactly and half the time (knowing us) those anxieties are irrational anyway. Its kind of good habit to force yourself to recognize that too, its what a lot of my therapy consisted of

[open knoll]

i’m just extremely shy and play it safe all of the time

something something i feel like i’m “not allowed” to feel this way

[solid oasis]

I get u

[lofty nacelle]

Nah I feel this af tbh my current job also helped a lot with this

I be blasting Jane and MG my coworkers love me for that for some reason

[open knoll]

going outside on valentine’s day feel like attending a banquet but not getting served any food

[solid oasis]

Woah thats real

[open knoll]

and when i ask when or where i can get food, no one ever says or does anything

[lofty nacelle]

Literally that one trans girl that listens to brain exploding music but they know ik ball and can get down w/ it

[open knoll]

then i go home hungry and eventually malnutrition and starvation will catch up to me

i’m on the edge of succumbing to it

i’m sorry that was really dark

[lofty nacelle]

This is so real I’m telling you tho dawg you just gotta drill it in these mfs are shit ppl or just not your crowd

[open knoll]

real

i think the last time i hung out with irl friends was over a month ago 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭

[lofty nacelle]

Same tbf tho mine is just I don’t fuck w/ my irls like I used to and they’re boringgg now

[open knoll]

we’re all on discord and/or signal but they’re not even responding to my messages which is the seriously concerning part

like yeah i can’t exactly properly hang out with anyone until summer but you’re telling me you don’t care about me enough to have a conversation online?

[lofty nacelle]

Ngl dawg just sounds like they’re just fake af

I feel you fs tho I went through the same thing p much it does suck fat nuts

[open knoll]

damn
everyone said this is what socializing as an adult would be like and i guess that just makes everyone fake

even fucking meeting people irl

always the same cycle of never being interacted with again after the first meet

i dunno, i hope there’s some light at the end of the tunnel after all, but i may have to move to a much bigger city

chicago… my second home…

[lofty nacelle]

Well idk abt that I feel like making friends as an adult is more just you have a LOT less free time to do shit

[open knoll]

makes sense

[frosty sky]

have we the feeling of being alone but never lonely

[open knoll]

i’m always both alone and lonely

even my friends always keep bringing up things they do with their loved ones that i’ll never have a chance to do

[frosty sky]

All of my irls be out of reach

Because i got transferred out my old school last year and went online

full time!!

All my friends are online >_<

Those who i meet in one world never know me from the other side.

[open knoll]

yes…

[frosty sky]

Shits always a one in a million chance that it happens

My irl and online friendships dont mixx well together

[frosty sky]

Damn

Nothing left but play the long game…

[tawny tree]

is there anything i have to look out for when buying womens boots

like docs or something

[elder saffron]

Hello boot enjoyer here. The things I look out for is width. Like just about anything clothing related one shoe size might not fit the same when it comes to boots so usually I'll look for anything that wide width in a brand if they even make it. Docs are my current pair and honestly my favorite and fit perfectly but that might be due to them being unisex with the sizing?

But other than sizing differences I don't think there's much else to watch out for

[tawny tree]

awesome thank you so much 💕

[elder saffron]

Mhm!

[tawny tree]

i hope i can thrift some :v

[open knoll]

is someone able to listen to me vent

i’m sorry i’ve been acting strange lately

[tawny tree]

sure

i might not have anything useful to say but i can listen

is thrifting docs a good idea

a friend said modern ones fall apart quickly

[pale umbra]

they just use "cheaper" leather

thrifting would be better probs

over buying full price

ive been wanting to get a pair from Angry Itch but im broke as hell

[tawny tree]

found some in my size for 50 bucks

i could go and try them on/pick them up

[tawny tree]

yeah im probably gonna wait till next month too

[tawny tree]

they do look cool but don't have many vegan options sadly

but thrifting doesn't make a difference anyways

[pale umbra]

oh yeah if youre looking for vegan secondhand docs arent any better

[spring lynx]

only caveat being if you can find ur size but yeah, thrift em if ya can

[spring lynx]

so, one of my partners is mostly vegan
i say mostly bc her only compromise is that the vegan leather industry is essentially a scam with how shittily vegan leather performs

[tawny tree]

ah good to know

i mean im fine with thrifting leather i think

i'd just prefer vegan one

but if it's shit im gonna avoid it

[spring lynx]

its just
its great to know that an animal wasnt harmed but also like
at what point is it not worth it to spend like $150 on some vegan shit thats just gonna disintegrate bc the synthetics break down and shit like that

[tawny tree]

yeah i definitely wanna have something that lasts

i agree

[spring lynx]

similar deal with like vegan leather jackets bc the ones ive had have fallen apart like, after only a few uses

[tawny tree]

it's a difficult choice

like here?

this pic is from a listing with vegan docs

some parts are peeling off

[spring lynx]

yeap

its so ass

[tawny tree]

ok im definitely gonna avoid that then

thanks a lot

[frosty sky]

we should start eating people

[pale umbra]

https://tenor.com/view/dog-true-eyes-dog-true-meme-dog-eyes-meme-gif-669697498800876669

[lofty nacelle]

I got told my pants make it impossible to tell I’m Latina and idk how to take that😭

[scenic falcon]

what kinda pants are able to conceal your whole race?? 💀

[solid oasis]

this is the best area of the server tbh

[solid oasis]

HELP?

[lofty nacelle]

Oh sweet summer child

[lofty nacelle]

She told me I should wear skinny jeans and tuck it in😭 😭

Tbf

Another woman I work with has twerked on me on the clock so maybe my coworkers are just weird

[scenic falcon]

https://tenor.com/view/cat-tell-me-gif-7298533566741016069

[spring lynx]

lmao??????????

[spring lynx]

who are these absolute specimens you work with

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh it’s just Louisianan women you either shake ass in clubs or are Christian

Like 5% alt 5% other bs

We don’t got much else to do😭

[spring lynx]

oh, true

[lofty nacelle]

You can also hunt and shoot guns ig

Got like two nice outdoor one nice indoor range near me

“Near”

[spring lynx]

oh hell yeah, fun

[lofty nacelle]

I almost just blacked out and knocked over an energy drink display

[tawny tree]

jloves

[frosty sky]

yep i can sound like a girl on cmd

I figured out my voice!!!!

[lofty nacelle]

Can confirm these are the pants I main

[left rivet]

You can main pants?

[frosty sky]

Very possible

i main comfy pajama pants with no pockets

[left rivet]

Ig im a sweatpants main

[frosty sky]

That too

[left rivet]

Im wearing this rn

I always switch to pajama pants when i get home

[frosty sky]

I got kpop demon hunters pants from track23

both huntr/x and saja boys

[left rivet]

Coolio

[lofty nacelle]

Baggy cargos

Just tuck em in the boots easy swag

[left rivet]

Id love to wear boots but i feel lkke the rest of my outfit is too basic in comparison

[lofty nacelle]

Your shoes can be the spotlight too!

[left rivet]

I have like 2 amazing shirts and the rest is the most basic stuff

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah just gotta get some cool pants or shoes then base the outfit off those

My docs and demonias have been good af workhorses I literally only wear them atp

[left rivet]

Oh lol

I just wear 1 pair of sneakers every day until theyre worn out completely then i get new ones

But i have to have sneakers for gym and i dont feel like keeping track in my mind which days i should wear my sneakers and which days i shouldnt

So i just wear them every day

[lofty nacelle]

I jus like having some options tbh I only wear two boots out and my converse are exclusively for bumming out or the gym

[lofty nacelle]

This is real I used to be the same

[left rivet]

For some reason im so weird about looking for clothes like whenever im in a clothign store i feel so awkward like am i just supposed to look at and touch all of the clothes

[lofty nacelle]

Well I mean how else are you gonna see all of them

[left rivet]

I feel like i have to look engaged in looking at the clothes even though im pretty sure i can tell i dont like them just from my eyes

But i feel like a weirdo just looking and not engaging

[lofty nacelle]

What

Wdym engaging

[left rivet]

Like im supposed to look like im there to actually find something to buy and not just walking around like an idiot

Idk

It makes no sense

[lofty nacelle]

Dawg shopping is like 90% just looking at shit and lollygagging you’re fine

[left rivet]

Im also really picky so like half the time i go look for clothes none of them seem like my sorta thing anyway

[lofty nacelle]

Nah I get wym now

[lofty nacelle]

Reallll

[left rivet]

Loll

[lofty nacelle]

Honestly I think it’s more abt having fun going out and toying with ideas maybe you pick up one or two things

That’s me tho idk how other ppl are

[left rivet]

That makes sense

I have more fun when my friends are there too cause im more interested in what they have to say about the clothes and stuff

[lofty nacelle]

Exactlyyyt

[open knoll]

i mean think about it
how many times have you gone just window shopping vs actually buying something

it’s also always good to have others’ opinions

[lofty nacelle]

I love shopping with my roomate and forcing him to give his opinions

[open knoll]

in my experience asking strangers they all just say i look good in pretty much everything i pick

maybe strangers aren’t good at giving opinions

sometimes i wish people would be more blunt or tell it like how it is

being nice only hides your true intentions

[left rivet]

Yea but tbf they dont know you or your style at all so their only impression of you is specificslly you in those clothes

So itd be hard to give a fair opinion

[lofty nacelle]

I jus wear band merch top baggy pant n boot

Easy mode type shit

[open knoll]

i mean it’s good for maybe wearing those clothes once
ofc they’re not gonna be indicative of my tastes or anything but it’s more like “if i wore this outfit for one night, would people think i look good”

[open knoll]

baggy is lovely

i don’t think there’s anything “basic” about it but accessories are definitely gonna do a lot of heavy lifting

[lofty nacelle]

The secret is just stop caring what others think and just wear what you think looks cool I’m tellinggg youuu

[open knoll]

https://canary.contestimg.wish.com/api/webimage/5d6e3ae22a91bc409fa5352f-large.jpg?cache_buster=48fe64fdb15fae37e8e6fac62a924eec

[swift spruce]

i would wear that hoodie

i lowkey wear stupid shit all the time it's liberating

the other day i wore a shirt that said "don't touch me kitten i'm edging"

[open knoll]

it does look fire tho

[swift spruce]

with a picture of a buff furry on it

[lofty nacelle]

Tbf this goes way harder

[swift spruce]

i wear dumb shirts often

[open knoll]

im getting into diy and i absolutely love it and i hope it evolves into making actual clothes from scratch

[swift spruce]

this is a classic banger from a manic episode

[left rivet]

Id feel embarrassed to wear this myself but if i saw someone wear this id instantly wanna be their friend

[open knoll]

the cards in the background add to it

[lofty nacelle]

See this is swag

[swift spruce]

all i do is post swag

it's a curse

tryna post a pic of me mourning my loved ones, can't stop being swagful

[open knoll]

i wish i had more swag but my eyes are far ahead of my wallet

[swift spruce]

my friends have said that i often accidentally hit really cool poses cuz i don't sit still

[lofty nacelle]

Aura pulsing or whateva

I was gonna say sum else but idk if it’s too close to a slur or not

[swift spruce]

😭

[lofty nacelle]

Swag-the gay one LMAO

[left rivet]

Bars

[swift spruce]

lowkey i forgot the f slur was a slur me and my girlfriend call each other that often

[lofty nacelle]

Issbrokie gave me that word that shit is PERMA in my dictionary now

Nah that’s so real

I just be ripping ts

Also man idk wtf it is but what is ppls DEAL with having literally zero personal space goddamn

Like specifically men and older women keep shoving their whole fucking body into me while I’m trying to do shit with the self checkout

[swift spruce]

on god

if i ever see u i will full force tackle u

u have a sign on ur back that says "kick me"

[lofty nacelle]

Get way to close to me-they smell like actual feces-then they call me bud like bitch I will maul you

[open knoll]

haven’t wiped in so long that they have olfactory evidence of it

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh I think some of them are just actually rotting or the concept of a shower is foreign to them

Sm b.o on some of these ppl I’ve actually gagged before

[scenic falcon]

are we talkin about stinky ahh people?

[solid oasis]

Seems it

[lofty nacelle]

Caca poopoo

Goddamn dawg spit it out

[scenic falcon]

ah, cuz one time I was walkin to school and there was this dood that I had walked behind cuz we were goin to the same place. but bro, that guy stank like ONIONS 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 mf smelled nasty as fuck. I was lowkenuinely dying of his miasmic stench, and the worst part is he looked ok, like he was decently groomed, like he showered...just...what the fuck is that smell??

and I KNOW it was this mf who was stinky caca cuz when he made a turn, the stench was gone

[scenic falcon]

man shaddap 💀

[solid oasis]

omg I had a guy who smelled like onione next to me every day in tech class

some ppl tbh tend to just Smell Bad even after showering best they can bcs of hormonal issues too

I have a relative who has that issue

[scenic falcon]

damn I am so sorry for u 😔 and I thought I had it bad

[solid oasis]

it was so oniony that I swear he was eating onions before class or something

I was like that has to be the answer

[scenic falcon]

was that guy, perchance, shrek?

[lofty nacelle]

Maybe type faster

[solid oasis]

whats crazy is i dont even remember what he looked like or his name I just remember him as the onion smell guy

[scenic falcon]

well I can fill in that void by tellin u he was shrek

he was a big green guy

who wore medieval brown n beige clothes

eatin onions

shrek

[scenic falcon]

mannnnnnn that's as fast as I can type. I'm able to type so fast that on this one typing game called NitroType, I kept getting 1st place after 1st place

if there are faster typing games then I NEED to know so I can type even faster

[lofty nacelle]

Well

[left rivet]

Idk i just use monkeytype

I dont think its a gamr though

[lofty nacelle]

How long you took to type that says otherwise

[scenic falcon]

🙁

[lofty nacelle]

I don’t make the rules

[lofty nacelle]

Me^

[swift spruce]

sometimes i maul people

[lofty nacelle]

As you should

Trans ppl should be legally allowed at least one mauling per month

[swift spruce]

truth

[left rivet]

https://tenor.com/view/watch-out-wolf-angry-dog-growl-gif-5500188

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/megumimary-chimera-crew-vtuber-chimera-vtuber-bunny-vtuber-gif-15145384406562934262

[lofty nacelle]

Me when I catch you

[frosty sky]

wolf girl

[spring lynx]

i can cope that i sound butch so i never have to voice train

😈

[frosty sky]

when i wake up i sound like a demon

basically corpse husband

[spring lynx]

oh no

[frosty sky]

If i wake up and vc im gonna increase their heart rate to uptempo

[scenic falcon]

u STILL never told me wut kinda pants conceal your whole race...

[frosty sky]

This is highkey insane wtfffff

i am never myself in the morning.

[pale umbra]

love u transdome

[frosty sky]

This vm is not kouhai.

[pale umbra]

we want kouhai we want kouhai

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/my-senpai-is-annoying-gif-23714294

https://tenor.com/view/madoka-magica-madoka-kaname-madoka-saturday-gif-10434927089104390992

[quartz parrot]

kouhai is fighting and battling

woofy ↩️

[Reply to:](#1025645033325608970 message) we want kouhai we want kouhai

[pale umbra]

https://tenor.com/view/homura-akemi-gif-25263507

[lofty nacelle]

You’ll get it some day

[swift spruce]

the hoodie evolved last night and it makes me very happy

[frosty sky]

Blocked and reported a transphobe today ima see what happens

[frosty sky]

Update: nothing happened

[grand hearth]

many such cases I fear. just block your enemies and continue with your life

[elder saffron]

Yeah sadly platforms could careless about any sort of phobia let along actual crimes, but oh boy you best not say anything political 🙄

[frosty sky]

ISRAEL (/j)

[open knoll]

ive always been a good student but this semester i went through so much grief that i felt like i was going to fail

i know my ability to do well academically is still there; i just wish i had more time and less stress

[frosty sky]

Wrong dome twin

[open knoll]

i may be blind

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/yagi-toshinori-all-might-my-gif-12457571853551928928

[open knoll]

"hontonti"
shinpaishinaiyo

[frosty sky]

Romaji wa Baka desu

[open knoll]

hahaha

[lofty nacelle]

This feels more fitting here

[frosty sky]

Egg alerm!

https://tenor.com/view/colors-wit-studio-pairo-colors-gif-comp-sci-transition-boy-to-girl-anime-gif-1324653471667193829

[solid oasis]

Musical Psychosis

"Would've been dope" you still can

[lofty nacelle]

The would’ve been done sends me

[next harbor]

Someone posted this in memes recently and it's been living in my brain and heart

Jazzed about the username Woku

[lofty nacelle]

Omg I didn’t even see

That’s so amazing

[frosty sky]

Shit would be awesome

Lionesses dont get fat at all ^^

Cuz they hunt in combat

[lofty nacelle]

Also my coworker just stared at my nails for a whole transaction and said she loved the way they sound

Idk how to feel abt that tbh

[solid oasis]

the way they Sound 🤔

[lofty nacelle]

That’s what I’m saying like

I get wym ig but also what???

Also right after a woman profusely apologized for calling me maam

[solid oasis]

I just set up an appt with a trans healthcare specialist(?) thing wahoo

still gotta wait on the evaluation thing she apparently says u need a pcp to refer you but that doc should work

[solid oasis]

help!?!?!?

that happens to me when I speak

[scenic falcon]

I think they meant the way you're using them for stuff, like pressing buttons by the nails, tapping on a desk with ur nails...yea

https://tenor.com/view/nails-im-waiting-waiting-patiently-hurry-up-nail-drumroll-gif-14280164

liek dis ^

[elder saffron]

I LOVE tapping my nails lmao

Especially when I take the time to actually do poly gel nails

[frosty sky]

If i do nails im gonna do 225 bpm breakcore on them to my favorite OP

[random flax]

eating a big ass fucking baguette

testosterone....

[random flax]

YAAAAY

[scenic falcon]

mmm big baguette 🤤

[frosty sky]

Bugatti

[random flax]

type shit

[left rivet]

Its your house and im a baguette

[elder saffron]

People say Im such a baguette

[scenic falcon]

frensh people probably

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/french-man-gif-13335005780324492778

[frosty sky]

transition effects

VWOOOOM

[pale umbra]

vvvvVWINNG- bawwowowowoing

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/madoka-period-gif-916368148750456297

[grand hearth]

https://tenor.com/view/trent-reznor-nine-inch-nails-period-cramps-period-cramp-gif-16582038128217861654

[lofty nacelle]

https://tenor.com/view/mephiles-mephiles-the-dark-sonic-dies-elise-the-move-that-killed-sonic-gif-17937170220691868216

[lofty nacelle]

I gotta get claws but at the same time I don’t wanna break emmm

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/blood-moon-period-period-pain-terraria-blood-moon-rising-gif-4294667029679252087

[elder saffron]

I just use my box cutter to pry stuff open

[lofty nacelle]

You just keep a box cutter on you specifically when you have claws or just all the time

?

[elder saffron]

At all times at work

[lofty nacelle]

Fair enough

[elder saffron]

Trying to open boxes with long nails is not fun

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah I don’t wanna imagine especially how much you be doing that shit I’m sure doing stocking or whatever tf

[open knoll]

going to refill my T at the campus clinic for the last time tomorrow

[open knoll]

my provider told me about testopel… has anyone heard about it/have opinions on it?

[solid oasis]

whats thart

ok no ill look it up

hmm the concept of this is new to me so I wouldnt know anything on it

[open knoll]

i got a fact sheet and i understand the process and what it does

it’s pretty interesting and she recommended it to me bc i keep forgetting my shots 😭

[solid oasis]

eugh ill have to talk to my doc soon on what ill do bcs the last few times ive used syringes ive ||stabbed myself Very Unpleasantly and may have severed a nerve too bcs one of my fingers lost feeling|| like idk what happened i just kind of got rly clumsy at a point

cw really EEEK description but ||one time i stupidly used the smaller cap for a smaller needle when trying to dispose of the big one, and was like "oh its not clicking" so I forced it on and it punctured Through the plastic into my finger||
a bit of tmi but yeah I dont wanna suffer like that again hooh

just horrible needle talk

[open knoll]

dude legit the same thing happened to me the first time i tried to do my injections bc i was clumsy

[solid oasis]

auUGH

[open knoll]

but one other good thing transitioning brought me is conquering my fear of needles

i used to need to be held down by like 12 people to get a vaccine

[solid oasis]

Im debating on trying needles again or just trying smth else but like I think i'd be poor with remembering to Apply Gel every day

[open knoll]

i’m already missing my t shot schedule

even if it takes less than 5 minutes to do i’m like “meh”

[lofty nacelle]

I have a suggestion…

[lofty nacelle]

SubQ or IM?

[lofty nacelle]

Also Jesus how brittle are your needle caps I forgot to ask beforee

[solid oasis]

HUH :y

[solid oasis]

They’re just typical plastic but the needle was strong and sharp and I was pressing stupidly hard when I shouldn’t have

[open knoll]

my insurance covers testopel… could this be a new era

as cheap as injections are i hate doing em

[grand hearth]

yeah idk after watching a video on how it’s done I think I’ll stick with injections lmfao

[lofty nacelle]

Subcutaneous or intramuscular

[lofty nacelle]

Dawg HOW hard goddamn

[lofty nacelle]

What wdym

[grand hearth]

It looks way more invasive than injections lol

in theory you could have them for months at a time but

[lofty nacelle]

what application are we talking abt

[lofty nacelle]

OH

WHAT

[grand hearth]

Testopel

lol

[lofty nacelle]

yeah ong I’d rather injections

[grand hearth]

They have to go under the skin and it looks like there’s a whole procedure to do that

[lofty nacelle]

I looked it up and immediately was like yeah nah fuck that

[solid oasis]

Intramuscular

[lofty nacelle]

Oh yeah owch I do subq:3

[solid oasis]

oo I see

[lofty nacelle]

Subq injection is goated

[solid oasis]

Tbh I dont mind the injection part im just fucking clumsy

also id inject my arm instead of leg for some reason

idk its easier to get into the muscle

[lofty nacelle]

Dawg

[grand hearth]

I would do subcu instead, I’d rather not hit anything important

[solid oasis]

Yeah big true

[lofty nacelle]

See this is why I fw you

[solid oasis]

ive alr ||passed veins|| before its freaky but im kinda unbothered *Edit ||IDK if it bleeds a lot i read thats bcs u passed one||

but ill talk to my doc abt it on the 8th tho

[grand hearth]

depends on needle size tbh

[lofty nacelle]

Yeah ask abt subq just pinch skin stick it in and it’s all painless for me at least

[solid oasis]

Yea that sounds way easier

[grand hearth]

yaaa

I have enough belly fat lol ^_^

[solid oasis]

I def do lmao

[lofty nacelle]

I do my legs:3

Makes me feel like the stim pilot

[solid oasis]

Realz

[elder saffron]

I can vouch for subq

I started out doing IM I wanna say for the first 4 times with the help of my EX and I just couldn't handle it the final time hurt so bad I cried but my endo encouraged me to try subq and it's been golden ever since

[lofty nacelle]

Tbh i don’t think I’ve heard anyone like hard vouch for IM ever

[elder saffron]

My girlfriend does IM idk how but she does it

Like I've watched her do it a few times and each time all I can think is how in the fuck can you just do that

[lofty nacelle]

Does she like spam it into her thigh or what

[elder saffron]

She just counts down and just jabs herself xD

[granite barn]

Dart method, then push it in the rest of the way.

Hello. I’m her.

[elder saffron]

LOL hi XD

[lofty nacelle]

Holy shit it’s the girlfriend no way

[elder saffron]

That is in fact the girlfriend

[pale umbra]

hello fellow WOL

[lofty nacelle]

What I assumed tbh friend showed me that bc I was a little scared when I did my first injection

[granite barn]

https://tenor.com/view/hildibrand-ffxiv-gif-25852888

[pale umbra]

https://gif.fxtwitter.com/tweet_video/HGEwPeaXcAAqaiH.webp

[granite barn]

I have experience handling needles from working at a hospital, I asked the nurses at my endo office to demonstrate on me and walk me through it the first time though.

[elder saffron]

YO A XIV PLAYER

[lofty nacelle]

Oh hell yeah that’s actually awesome af

I just had someone on her lunch on discord

[pale umbra]

https://tenor.com/view/ffxiv-final-fantasy-final-fantasy-14-ffxiv-hellozeli-hellozeli-gif-5640676826650564262

[elder saffron]

I'll have to share my XIV character in the gamerdome when I hop on again

xD I'm a Viera cause bunny superiority

Tho I do sometimes miss being Au Ra

[lofty nacelle]

Wait… have you seen rabbit and steel?

[granite barn]

Best I can do cause I’m getting ready for work.

[granite barn]

I have it and I think I’ve shown her but I don’t think she’s played it.

[elder saffron]

Yessss I wanna buy it when it goes on sale again

[lofty nacelle]

Ok was finna say ffXIV and rabbits im shocked if you haven’t yet

It’s peak af except I suck too much for the new update

[pale umbra]

purtyy

[lofty nacelle]

Can estrogen worsen pre existing things if you black out easy

Like I used to chug a monster and two reigns a day sometimes but now my vision blacks out with just two monster and a Red Bull🤔

[elder saffron]

XD I'd say that's probably to do with to much caffeine

[lofty nacelle]

Hmmm

It’s a real thinker that’s fs

[open knoll]

reverse tolerance?

[lofty nacelle]

Well I moreso mean blood circulation and dehydration type beat but if

Ig

[open knoll]

ah

[lofty nacelle]

I do think I get drunk easier maybe?

Tbh prolly just I’m sober now but

[elder saffron]

Estrogen does change your alcohol tolerance

XD found that out the hard way

[lofty nacelle]

It only took a cut water for me to get drunk a bit ago vs I used to drink tallboy IPAs like coronas

[lofty nacelle]

Apparently me too bc the night also ended in my convincing my roomates sister to come over and teach me to cook a lil

Roomates sisters girlfriend

[frosty sky]

So i watched a yt shorts of a transwoman checking levels

and omg

the testosterone lvl is SOOO LOW

[elder saffron]

Mhm you typically end up with T levels equal or less than cis women

[frosty sky]

I hope when i do this HRT shit like five years plus ts happens to me wtf!!!!!!

i can earn my tiny voice back without trying anymore

Becauz now i sound more like an idiot

Unless i record music :(

[frosty sky]

LESSS WHAT

[elder saffron]

Sadly E does not reverse voice changes like what trans men and others experience

[frosty sky]

fuck i will hav to sound like an idiot for five more years til i get it

[elder saffron]

Any trans women you hear with a fem voice trains or does that with a combination of surgery to get that

[frosty sky]

i tried training since 15 yrs old and im prety good but i cannot train so ez and confortably

Its too hard online :(((

in the vc

I burn out like hell

My mom bullies me for it too and it fucking sux

Kill me

[elder saffron]

R/transvoice might be helpful if you haven't gone there

[frosty sky]

I dont use reddit

[solid oasis]

It can be genuinely helpful tbh even if u wanna lurk but some communities can be weird (negative) yea

[spring lynx]

yt movile is now giving me ads for perfumes, vagisil, midol, redbull, rockstar energy, motorcycles, and skincare products so
ive won transition ig ??

[frosty sky]

Reddit i can find some banger videos in my memories foreal

[elder saffron]

XD how I felt when I started getting birth control ads