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Tennessee decided to ramp up it's bullshit now too
And the FDA stuff really worries me
I'm worried it's gonna get to the point that we're just completely screwed
i highly doubt it tbh trump has been fucking us over since before he was even re-elected
a lot of people r probably gonna resort 2 diy with all this shit happening
in red states yeah, i'd like to stay a bit optimistic and believe that blue states are a safe haven for trans people who wanna be on hrt
if anyone here can, i'd just suggest trying to take it easy, take breaks from the news and shit
as difficult as it is
and i hope that anyone who is in a red state can get out of there
please take it easy and take good care of yourselves. all of you 🩷
The problem is with the hate group appealing to the FDA is to get possession of diy hrt illegal period
good luck, lmao
its diy for a reason, so unless they want the 60+ year old grandpas clinging to their testosterone supplements to also throw a fit, its not gonna be erased that easily
Customs is the risk
Testosterone is already a controlled substance. They just want to also make estrogen that too
And if youre already making a list of whos all trans and customs busts you for importing DIY estrogen then youre gonna have a really hard time denying you ordered it
Not trying to be a doomer, but it really is my concern
i'd say a lot of blue states are pretty lenient on stuff like hrt, at least where i live!! i'm in oregon and i got a referral from an endocrinologist, who im still waiting to contact me and my parents if that gives any idea 😭 im also pretty sure there was a state law passed here that protects people in the medical field that administer things like hrt and whatnot too. like their information is private or something, id have to look more into it
im defnintely thinking about everyone who lives in a red state though, im genuinely wishing the best for you all
^^^
yeah but it seems like theres now a nationwide ban on gac for minors, one of my friends who's 16 couldn't get an appointment w my endocrinologist
so that's definitely worrisome
Yeah that is absolutely worrisome, I wish the best for ur friend!!
That’s really weird though, like they weren’t able to talk to the endocrinologist?
I’m 17 and I’m still waiting to hear back from the endocrinologist I was referred to, and I’m only going in to talk about hrt and stuff with my parents
moreso she couldnt perscribe him hrt
we're in nj so
and he didnt wanna go to an endo if he couldnt even get perscribed hrt
ooh i was in ur position just last year
if ur endo is anything like mine they js ask 4 ur therapy records and r like "yea ur good 2 go"
they also needed an additional letter from my neurologist (i have epilepsy)
Yeah I don’t blame him at all 😭
Ooohh alright!! The person I was referred to is in a dense city part of Oregon which are usually very progressive
whenever you mention oregon i think of elliott smith lmaooo
Yeah I can see that LMAOO
shoutout to my endo, who has recently been giving me my exact, usual perscription and not x4 of it somehow
same person who says trans patients are her fav and that if she's ever unable to give testosterone to anyone, she's going to be annoying about it and not give any to elderly guys either, citing the same bureaucracy
if there's anyone who's good at affecting us law, it's the geriatric population
Nice
To go back on what I said also; I don't think things will get as bad as you could possibly imagine but at the same time I don't say that with certainty and it largely depends on inaction and how far this is going to go.
Like I do think as people say; itll get worse before it "gets better" but man the people in power atm certainly have a grip and influence on everything politically and are largely against us/buying out their influence. I've seen more people become more hostile against the idea of transness locally even and its not to be taken lightly
But that said local voices have also been louder on the positive side of things.. I dont wanna discredit that either, hmm
This channel makes me damn glad to not be American.
ur endo is a real one
yeah </3
hrt actually starting to do things but i go back home in 1.5 months and i still havent told my mom i started it
i get to have a very fun phone call sometime very soon
Yeaaah good luck fr
I kind of live like that around family where they largely dont know or dont support it or "find out in some way" then dislike me entirely despite my previous standing w/them but. I also kind of dont care anymore (: im very distant from them atp anyhow
semi contradicted myself: when I say "live like that around" I mean the few cases where I happen to be around them idfk u get it
i get u
even tho im in college im still very dependent on them so there will still be periods where im living with them for extended periods of time
over the summer mainly
What is a pentacle
Yeahh I consider myself lucky but unlucky at the same time bcs I don’t really know what I’m doing and I’m one (emergency event) from complete failure/disaster/homelessness
But isn’t that most people atp, lol
OH YEAH I was the 100th
I noticed that it was at 99 and I wanted to make it even
Also hi transdome
deleting those cuz flashing
ur kinda lucky in that department i think
im in my last semester of college and im still heavily financially dependent on my parents because i don’t make enough at my part time job to afford ANY of my bills. but they are pieces of shit who don’t care if i live or die and they’ve said that they will cut me off starting in june, which means i don’t get to stay with them over the summer or vacations anymore because they think i’m too old for that shit regardless of how bad my financial circumstances are
if i still can’t find a full time job, im basically dead
Tough luck....
Really
Im going to bless you today okay?
On hold with the Kansas department of vehicles because I keep getting a letter that I need to change my drivers license but it should be valid because I didn’t even have an opportunity to change the gender marker 
Augh wtf
THEY FUCKING HUNG UP ON ME BECAUSE ITS 4 PM
Phones automatically cut because of that apparently what the hell
-_-;; Im sort of worried because iirc didn't they claim that theyd contact or keep a record of a "trans database" orrr at least attempt to have this info accessible
Clearly they have if they knew to contact me. I did inquire about a letter allowing for change of gender marker so that’s probably how they knew. I just fortunately (or unfortunately) never had a chance to get it done so my license is the same
Yeaaah I was thinking itd connect to that
Fuck them, as you said, they can't even get you on technicality
Yeah I’m just not wild about the possibility of getting a surprise bill even if it’s not something I’d need to pay :/ I’d rather preemptively nip it in the bud
i hope it goes well <3
jesus christ dude im so sorry
oh god i hope you can get the fuck out of kansas dude
so much bad news in the transdome 2day </3
wishing u all nothing but the best
I was gonna say maybe we can swap up the topic or smth. I wanted to upload a ton of images that I get gender envy out of lol
do it
YES
when I get the chance to sift thru images bcs im at work now for majority of the day UHH this is an invite for others to do the same btw 💖 fun way to analyze the identity vibe
on it
brian molko of placebo, trent reznor (no intro needed), atsushi sakurai of bucktick, park seonghwa of ateez, not sure who the goth is, and choi san of ateez
Okay, saw what seemed to be a trans girl today when university-hunting, they were pretty :3
And they were in a role that proved that they had been successfull in studies
real real
maestro r6, skyrim werewolf, billy butcher, orochimaru, and bert mccracken the used
Skyrim werewolf. real
I like the look of the last guy too
ok dumping mine in a sec
This ended up being a big rant wtf
1 - car headlights / this sort of vibe, ofc I dont have much to show but I like incorporating this in concepts regarding mech designs
2 - idk man (those weird shapes/patterns) (im skimming inspo folders rn but I can cred later/throw into reverse img search)
3 - Mark Otherman Dread Architect (everyone in the room groans) (probably smth to do with "weird look" / I actually like the ambience and presentation of the song/mv itself it really impacted me somehow and aligned with pre-existing concepts and sound/visuals I love. Dies
4 - human-inhuman designs, think deerchip or bwusagi's art. (no examples)
5 - weird bugs (spoiler?) like that. and that weird moth. rove beetles look cool too
6 - body horror/"threatening / uncanny looks" in general
7 - this early concept of godzilla final wars feels like it represents Something...
8 - yeah storms / lightning idk dude
and tbh i've always resonated with like concepts or inhuman characters throughout My Entire Life and that dysphoria has been persistent and atp due to the "mismatch" with myself and how I wish to look/be perceived; I mainly view my body as a weird "vessel to take care of that I happen to embody" rather than what I really am. grah.
#IAm14AndThisIsDeep
big yap
didnt grab as many examps as i wouldve liked but whatever the "trench coat glasses" look matt had at recent performances I was also like "damn" at (in a "wish i could present like this" way)--as an extra
Bayonetta, Samus, and Rosalina. Dont really have much that gives me gender envy, but I will say Bayonetta is at the very top of it xD
ppl call me a simp for maining her in sbu
I dont blame them.
samus for me too, but with her power armor LMAO
and ripley from alien, guess my gender envy is for competent space women
Big real
yesss real
i took ripley as my name
That's sick as hell
HEAVY on silver (white hair)
oh and how cld i forget
does this count
i do kinda get gender envy from a fuckin tuna head
transmasc gender envy never ceases to amuse me
i didnt even Think about the more abstract and monstrous so i'm going to take a moment to make some additions
ok it's like all fear and hunger. lizardmage, white angel, gro-goroth, the god of fear and hunger, vile, pillarmen, and specifically phase 2 of logic the machine god
and dwarven centurions
how so
i just like the spectrum between badass awesome werewolf and guy with fish head
hahaha
gender envy report: choso, gaara, both princess mononoke and the wolf, bobby brigs, both trinity and neo
real asf on choso if i was a man i wld cosplay choso i still may
he's so babygirl
truth nuke
i would cosplay him if i had hair hahaha
thanks for reminding me of one of my favorite memes
I love him sm
Ball
I want to be him
I have a friend who loves dorehedoro omg so whenever I see this guy its like a positive association
fun fact he is mista aka the guy i mightve talked about to first show me mg / mchn vs wlf / said it was a "me-core" song and nailed the vibe but yea!! ..2019 i think
but yes the designs and style of it is really cool
gaara 👅👅
OOOH YES
i see the vision w ibuki and chiaki im a trans guy but i love their swag
how do u guys realize u were genderly envious/euphoric of certain characters? cuz I realized that I want to achieve gender, but I dont have any inspirations...
tbh idk just
interacting with media
i guess does that
henry rollins gives me a lot of gender envy but also hes handsome asf bro
damn i c it...
it hits me like a fucking train
like I wont be consciously thinking about it honestly it just creeps up on me and then Hits and its strong
for me it dependsss but seems to be associated with certain vibe/personality/theme or made up of pre existing aesthetics ive already really enjoyed
if this makes sense
i mean the simplest idea is that you see a character and go “i wanna be like them”
thats tru too
although half the time it’s “do i want them or do i want to be them”
I mean I dont like this body now, yet I dont think I got inspired by any other characters. Since there's so many different vibes and aesthetics I could choose from and that I like
i think when im watching something i will sometimes find that i really really like a character other people don't like that much, or i'll just be really pleased with their qualities and wish i could see them on screen more, wish i had their swag
the everlasting problem of your faves not being generally well liked by the fandom
if i had a nickel for every time i fell in love with a bear with long hair who tend to be comic relief characters who barely get any recognition, id have two nickels
which isn’t a lot but it’s interesting that it happened twice
although it’s more “i want them” than “i want to be them” bc i’m trying to postpone twink death until i get married (which is never gonna happen anyway)
I've been power scaling being transgender so that I'm overleveled whenever I go into harder areas
How
Explain
it's pretty, I like it
Flower names go crazy hard
exactly
flower names rule
also shoutout to allies that police transfems calling themselves the t-slur, great work there man
this shit is exhausting
i only see a rectangle 🥀
why does it look slightly different for me
this one is sincere dejection and exhaustion
this is garfield when mondays
with a tinge of hangover
where is my pipe
Realitycore™️
every reality is personalized
yea its pretty
wait why is that an issue /gq
i understand some people being uncomfy w the word but if they can reclaim it it should be cool
they should js avoid usage w people who arent comfy
i use slurs i can reclaim at least but i don't use them around people that could be uncomfortable by my usage of them
it's a lil different when its people who can't reclaim those slurs are policing you tho
OH I GOT SO CONFUSED
OK THANK YOU 4 CLARIFYING
Yeah no that's
odd
obligatory gender envy post
This is mine
SHELLEY DUVAL MENTIONED
I love love love doing my makeup like hers
yea i wanna try that too once i get some more courage
the lashes make me go crazy
RIP shelley
Whaaaaaat thats a thing????
Amazing
apparently
i shall send mr krinkle to torment them
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go my fucked up piggy
My brain says all the bad words ngl
Crazy how hard reality hits when it leaves the mouth
Boom everyone is angy at me!
words between the t slurs scare the timid allies smh
T*mid
Twigger wawning!!!
wtf t*mid looks scarier
Is it just me or is the song "I / Me / Myself" by Will Wood a bit of a allegory for a closeted trans woman?
i got a friend who openly calls herself the t-slur even though the rest of us don’t like it
kate bush, heather, and.. omg i 4got her name
all u got great picks forreal
Shelly Duvall :}


NOT dismissing interpretation but the song was written actually as the opposite, will thought he was genderqueer for a long time because he enjoyed crossdressing and wrote the song about his frustrations about people not being able to accept that he came to realize he's cis :3
this is part of what he said about it in iirc his patreon blog
THATS SHELLY DUVALL?? DIDNT EVEN RECOGNIZE HER
yep!
now that i look
again
yeah holy shit that is her
fuck she is beautiful rip ugh
what a diva
shes an inspiration
truth nukeeeee
Huh, neat
lost weight and now i feel good abt myself
i hope everyone here can feel good abt themself too today
my feel good statement is so cursed
when i look at my body i do not see a dude
and if i try to think of myself as a dude, it backfires so bad its good
shit i could live like a deep voice femboy now, and maybe even 5 years later and the girl thoughts never leave me
fuck yeah that's what it's all about
at a certan point just being a girl is easy
at least thats how i imagine it
Problem is the way i present me online, i look less like a girl, and look more like a catfish

I genuinely clock people the second im in a vc 😅😅😅
i mean that's cool
Im so evil and deceptive like a witch when i do that
gender is what you make of it
Feels good
fire
Im half a girl and half a xenogender
Thats my secret >;3
I can maybe pass irl
Gender
In an old server I have there was a channel just called “gender” where everyone would just say gender
I’m coughing too but the phone cutting it out
I THINK WE HAVE A DRY AIR PROBLEM HERE RN OR SOMETHING I need a humidifier
YOU GOT THIS
Good Enough
this is true
if you think about it
being trans and being on hrt is like
fucking with magic
but biologically
"I WILL TAKE MATTERS INTO MY OWN HANDS AND CREATE MY BODY AS I SEE FIT"
you don't even need to be on hrt
or something
I LOVE JULIEEEE
creation looks like mutilation to the uneducated
don't remember where i saw that
i have basically their whole discography BAHAHAH
yeah me too
not a bad song
including xela fella
my pfp is from a xela fella fan animation
(it's alex' solo project in case you don't know)
real
thought this was a chicken for a second
I can see a dark rooster at the top
yeah that
K-T extinction event was an inside job done by a massive nonbinary chicken
This is what being Nonbinary feels like
Chicken on some demon shit 
dread architect but thers just a massive Rooster
i think i got razor bumps everywhere
first time i've used disposable razors
itches like hell
I hatw that feeling sm
after scratching it looks almost like an allergic reaction
raised spots/pustules all over
fuckkkkk
i razor burn my armpits all the time ive learned to just get over it icl
Phillips one blade is goated if ur trans
Great for everywhere
And its waterproof
I'm planning on getting a second one so I don't have to swap my face and body blades
Yeah, but mine cuts less close to the skin now, I need a new blade
Tbf for my face I need to use shaving cream to get a completely smooth feel but I probably need to change my blade too
It gets 99% of it tho
Concealer hides the really hard to get stuff anyway
getting good shaving tools is so important ngl
like single bladed razors, shaving soap instead of cream, using a good aftershave and all that
I thought aftershave was just fancy deodorant
not at all nah
I think my shaving cream is like multifunctional tbf
aftershave should help close your hair follicles and soothe (micro)cuts which will prevent irritation and redness
yeee a lot of creams are pretty good nowadays but as someone with sensitive skin and really tough facial hair i've really had to figure out how to get the most out of shaving lol
Gillette fusion
Its moisturising as well so IG that's why I never needed AS
The cheap shaving cream is cheeks tho
I bought superdrugs own brand and it barely worked
I got the Gillette one originally as a gift from someone I'm not out to
Funny enough
Only cream I used now
Works wonders everywhere
I'm not a shill for big shaving to be clear
Cus I keep saying brand names XD
hohoho i put on kajal for the first time
great rec, will probably buy one now :)
Something that helps me is exfoliating before shaving
Less blades can also help too like I use one that only has 3 blades cause anything that has more destroys my skin
I REEAALLLLY loved the safety razor I had cause its a single blade but it started to piss me off cause the handle part that you twist to take the blade out wasnt wanting to open cause of water getting into it so I just gave up on those
OH YEAH! exfoliating before shaving is always a good thing
dead skin cells cleared -> smoother shave
the battery lasts for ages its great
ooh i have the ep on bc
i forgot shaving was like
a thing people do
being able 2 stop feeling the pressure of having 2 shave because i came out as trans and since im not a girl i don't need 2 shave EVER
wait i phrased my message weird lemme
Shaving in general is always optional i never liked it but im sure it brings u guys gender euphoria like how the opposite brings me gender euphoria
wait idk what u mean 💔
scratches head
im bad at. wording and also comprehending words people say 2 me
i felt like my "you lucked out" might've sounded sarcastic or something
just brainworms, forget abt it
awesome
ooohh
im rlly hoping she re-releases that one song
i 4got what it was called aaa
i know she released something new very recently tho
👀 everyone’s looking (affirmatively)
Bro im a lireral png
Todays the day i identify as john cena
#U¢ME
I’m very ugly today #SwagNasty
you are Ugly Art
Yes
hoodiemaxxing today
yayyy
be an amazing png
I’m keeping my fingers crossed for Motherfather on this one
we need a version of that gif with ALL of the moths as trans flags
ik its gonna b hard to make tho
I can't explain why but I saw a trans woman that chose my deadname as her new name, and it makes me happy
chat, is this the one you want
I got this one
just be wary that the blades go out pretty quick on it
i also usually have to do a regular shave as well so it depends
i assumed 1 blade per body shave is about right
or am i wrong?
cuz they are pretty expensive
currently i shave once every week
back to being invisible 🫡
see you guys next year
oh i was talking about just face but yeah
its kinda pricey
gonna start my laser removal thing up again later today since i have the braun one for home use
facial hair is a fuck
sounds awesome
the laser thingy
did you buy it?
i have a friend that rents stuff like this from time to time
i was thinking about doing electrolysis
but that's expensive as shit too
maybe the braun laser is the way to go
I ideally want no facial and body hair at all
...
ive used it a couple times and it helped out a ton, thinned it out pretty well after a couple uses
recommended is like 4-12 weeks once a week and i only used it for a week or two
is it painful?
it depends. you can adjust the setting to be higher or lower depending on your pain tolerance. there's also a sensitive skin option.
its more startling than anything honestly
like a very light rubber band snap sensation
thats fine
so there really is no reason to go to a place that does laser hair removal, is there?
the only issue is that it depends on skin tone and hair color
so if you have blond body hair and/or a darker skin tone it might not work at all
it might work
i think braun has a hair color thing on their website to get a general idea for how effective it is
no worries ^-^
yeah basically
that is so fucking cute
maybe one day i'll have smthn like that and hate my deadname a lot less
Do you guys have to "break into" using new pronouns or does it just feel natural?
It was natural to me
The only thing I kinda had to get used to was people using my chosen name
Which I've changed since then so the 2nd time around honestly felt more natural to me since I got by the name I originally wanted to
(was with a girl that didn't want me going by a certain name cause it upset her so I felt like I had to go with my second choice to keep her happy)
it's kinda the opposite where i forget i use she/her pronouns because so many people use it/its lmfao
oh Wait you mean for urself I assume
in german many things like professions are gendered. And even many cis women use the "default male gendered one"
It's like police man and police woman, for example
so yeah im struggling a bit
When i was taking german classes in brick and mortar
HOLY SHIT
EVERYTHING IS GENDER
yeah, shit sucks
gender neutral pronouns also aren't a thing really
at least not commonly used
no "they" equivalent
it sucks
i usually choose to use more words so i can use "person"
lots of European languages are like this and I hate it
our shackles also take the form of words, after all
definitely the reason why japanese is superior LOOL
Basically there is over 2000 words and is just nothing but art 0_0
or is that hieroglyphs?
I don't speak japanese so I can't really say anything about that lol
im studying right now
but i prefer the simplicity of regular English, at least for gender
but no language is perfect
foreal lmao
if i speak japanese i might lose the ability to pronounce english some day
NO PROBUREMU
Which makes the people that refuse to accept that language is always evolving more annoying
maybe, do you intend to move to japan?
maybe you will be a grandma in Japan who forgot her native language
lowkey goals
i feel like i had to get used to it, esp with they/them i sometimes forgot that people were referring to me when i first started using them. but then it got natural pretty quickly
that seems like a red flag tbh
Well, at the time I didn't realize that lol
ooh wait this was a past thing
Yeeeeee
glad ur out of that situation twin
thay tham
Was with them for almost 10 years then in my journey to take back my life I decided I could change my name to what I really wanted and it was a lot of fun cause they had to deal with it since we both worked together at the same job lmao
ooohh
sounds tough but also happy you found your way
Mhm been in a much much better relationship for almost 3 years now with my gf who is also trans and it's honestly really nice being with someone who actually knows what it's like lol
No shade to any cis people but I can see why so many trans people end up being t4t
im not intentionally t4t but my track record is now t4t lmao
yeah it makes sense
the world we live in doesn't make it easy
but a lot of my cis friends have been talking about gender between themselves and recognize that things arent as simple or binary
so the world is growing
this might just be a texas moment but i
am more accepted at fucking chick fil a than any professional environment relevant to my uni degree, lmao
its crazy
that's pretty funny
I've never been to the states so I can't imagine what it's like
Do you mean working at chick fil a? or just being there
i'm kinda poor, and from my experience the people in "lower income" jobs and environments have the potential to be very chill and open
but i also live in berlin
which is very queer and woke comparatively
yeah like theyre hella religious but theyre also accepting which is
nice to see since im used to the batshit evangelical types
this is true
Oh that's nice to hear
refreshing
Also people in richer communities tend to keep to themselves. A lot of prople who have visibly more money are usually open but just never really interacted with trans prople
but ofc assholes can be everywhere
hate and phobia is like a disease
🙂↕️
i think it's very funny how you can tell when someones attitude changes
a lot of people are uncomfortable around trans people
but then ober time they really manage to tackle that internalized way of thinking
"wait they are actually chill??"
and then there are the ignorant ones where you can just TELL that they are really uncomfortable
Often times they have low self esteem themselves
so I just always try to be friendly, breaking the ice and all that
hiding doesn't help anyone
have you ever been to Berlin?
or do you mean that the states aren't as accepting
naur, but what ive seen and heard of it seems more accepting than a lot of the us
Is the religious part a big contributor to the non-acceptance in the us?
it can be, it depends
bc you have bible thumpers that havent read much of it that hate lgbt people and then you have some that are just hateful
Religion isn't that engrained in the culture here. A lot of the values are still based on christian ones, but not that many people are talking about it
yeah i understand
i think a lot of it here is moreso the politics and messaging against lgbt people rather than the religious themselves, if that makes sense
shoutouts to all the LGBTQ friendly pastors out there
oh yeah, especially recently
europe isn't spared either
US influence aside
Does it feel like the religion is used as a vehicle or "scapegoat" for certain political groups to push hateful beliefs?
wont forgive christianity for what they did to the pictish beast
usually thats the way it goes, yeah
esp in smaller towns
what's that
sad to hear that
that's goated wtf
oh theres also the whole thing abt the christian god being closer to a literal demon than most bc of the "dont use the lords name in vain" deal
eventually dissolved by christian colonization n whatnot basically
many such cases
YEA even then the term "lord" was an intentional distortion in the writing (in some version) to make people bow to thse in power more
i always thought that was weird
Im not religious but like people also dont realize this text has been warped through history just to control people anyway
yeah
It's kinda tough to talk about this sometimes because I definitely do not want to come off as someone who dislikes religions
also highly recommend this channel for religious history stuff
https://youtu.be/3592DMH-eyM
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I dislike most takes but I understand and dont care abt most ppl who find comfort in them
same problem with Israel and them using judaism to try and justify their actions. When there are people who are actually anti semetic
the catholic church is an institution that exists
will check it out, ty
I love learning ab stuff like this
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Last thing ill mention on the bible is also like theres so much text that goes against itself that people can pick and choose what they want to push I think
"read the bible" and then it contradicts itself hundreds of times
yea diff versions exist but its just like. im semi distracted help i just want to show off that site LOL
yeah theres a lot to crack open when it comes to this
Theres also a guy called Owen / telltale who's this ex jahovas witness and his channel is kinda based upon explaining the abuse that occurs in ties to Christianity and stuff, but im not sure if his content has degraded or not since the last time i've watched
On my end personally there's a lot of weird anger/grief because my moms side of the fam (specifically my gma) had been assimilated and sent over here/had everything stripped from her (native american/lakota in origin) and it caused this like. Generational abuse/trauma sort of shit that I myself am trying to break out of. It's insane to get into though, my own mom is like insanely obsessed w/Christianity and uhh I cannot stand her.
Im also not trying to be like those people who are visibly white and trying to claim they're largely native; but it'd also be wrong to deny that any of that impacted on my entire life experience with the instability I was born into
If i was typing for awhile it was bcs theres a REALLY good video I had that broke down assimilation/colonization and I cant find it (": It explains how its still very prevalent today
yeah jehovah's witnesses are their own rabbit hole and a half
similar category of abuse as flds iirc
yeaahh its a different thing on its own from christianity but he digs into the other stuff too is wim
FOUND
altogether not trans related but this is like yeah Good educational shit
yeah, the assimilation shit is fucked. i still remember learning about this in apush.
also to be clear, i dont intend to diminish the consequences of spanish/portuguese catholicism and british protestantism (to name a few examples) on the world at large
Oh nah you're good I assume most people arent; i kinda got into my own shit right here and missed a lot of the context of the convo im ngl
no worries ^-^
read the channel name and almost lost it
LMAO
please love me
i love you :D
Deadass i wanna
America is a PvP Warzone.
Japan work culture is hell
Especially if you're an immigrant
Unless you work remote for a company away from Japan
Ie like a European company but the timezones gonna be messed probably
Great to visit I wouldn't live there unless a new government significantly changes things
Not trying to crush your dreams buts thems important things to know
Also gay marriage isn't recognized so I imagine trans rights aren't amazing
I think there’s an issue with idealizing Japan in that sense yea
Like uhhh
Basically what u said yes
Idk I hear people talk about it
Anime has been amazing propaganda for the country for decades
Yeah 😭
I only watch anime where Japan gets fucked over like NGE (joking to be clear)
I do remember watching a video a while ago how generally trans people are more accepted than the rest of the lgbt community in Asia including the middle east because in their eyes for gays for example they would rather someone transitions to a woman and dates a guy than if a guy dated another guy because in their eyes it maintains the status quo
The rights overall aren't amazing but its interesting to know the biases of nations
||Like they still won't do anything if u get hate crimed in parts of the middle east but you'll only be killed by the public instead of the government if ur a straight trans person||
They still ||castrate|| and shit tho so again still not amazing
Moving on
Look at this dog
Trigger warning: anti lgbt treatment
I kind of went off yapping without thinking so read at your own discretion
american work culture might be just as bad if not worse
at least i heard at-will employment isnt a thing in japan, but also what jobs you can have are dependent on how well you did in school
Vocal progression 2023->2024->2026
Mask design for a cosplay
Japan will be just as bad as here if not worse for a queer person trust
^^ not to mention a decent chunk of the country is vehemently anti-immigrant
oh no.
Guys idk if i break your heart when i say this, but I am NOT queer, nor will i plan to identify or be one.
Just Because I Can

MOGAI is wht i use. More cool less (misophonic) for me
Whats that I forgot : y
Marginalized orientations Gender alignments and intersex
Ohhh
yeah no finding nice understanding cis people is difficult
i also have a t4t track record
yeah most of my t4t relationships went down the shitter
gender makes orientation twice as hard
it's not even that really
the more gender, the more times harder it gets
it wasnt even the fact that they were trans, we just didnt mesh well
im sure there's t4t relationships that r going strong and amazingly
in my experience, no
lemme scroll up n see what else i missed
Thats like the legendary pull
My type is too personal for me idk what i want but i know what i need
A girl who likes girls and me who also likes girls
what made you think this would be a good idea..
Damn lately no one here wants me to tap into japan
genuine. question btw
Lmaoooooooo
japan is not great with queerness believe it or not
wait other people basically brought up my exact points
The bl and gl manga is a trick ;(
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaghhhghhghgh
please don't tell me most of what you know about japan as a country is just from anime or something
no im a lil educated somewhat
The younger people in Japan are a little more progressive but a lot of Japan regardless of laws still have issues
I watch yt videos abt life in japan
i feel like you should educate yourself more, i mean this in the most respectful way possible
yeah that's a given
being queer in japan is not a fun experience but i'm sure you dont really gotta hear that from me
Like i know how everyone would like stare at me wildly if i walk in japan
i mean. i don't think that's true
I believe it was abroad in Japan that was talking about the topic of how same sex couples are treated and even though there are laws against discrimination when it comes to 2 people getting a hotel together there will still be people that will refuse to let you rent because of bigotry
most locals will prpbably just ignore you
yikes
Doesnt it depend what area
I think people in city area dont stare as much but idk about rural
yeah rural's a diff story
Like in terms of queerness im a bit low on that but like i gotta test yknow
Yeah but you'll still deal with xenophobia no matter what especially now after certain individuals
if you're trans psykohai this is. probably not the place you'd wanna move to
^
I could blend in like a pro
getting hrt there probably isnt easy either if that's what you're going for
be realistic bro i beg
Goddamit
Read The Boy is a Bride (I think that's what it's called) and you'll get an idea of what it's like from a Japanese trans womans prospective
Aaaaaaaaaarghghghghgh
bro respectfully PLEASE do your research w shit like this u look like a weeb who's only ever watched anime and is judging the country off that alone and not actual like. reality
We're just trying to be honest is all
because you're not thinking this through like at all vro
like i said PLEASE do your research
more like young and ignorant twin 😭😭😭
Same thang
Stop ratioing me
anywayz
Gender is all in the mind a propaganda to keep the traditionally advantageous in power!!!!!!!!!! RAHHHHHH
Ragebait before bed.
I meeeannnn you're not wrong
Gender roles are a made up thing but it's also ok if you enjoy to fill in some of those roles
Yea i agree
i understand what people mean when they say return to monke
if there’s ANYTHING that i learned in high school that stuck with me it’s that gender roles likely began in the neolithic era
people settling down and shit and wanting to make distinct roles and form a society based on rules and roles
we should go back to living like hunter-gatherers
Id totally be a gatherer
Peak
American work culture is not good by any means but trust me it gets worse. IE "Nomikai"
Tbf if u diy u might be able to get it from hong Kong but I have no idea what the consequences of being caught with diy hrt is there
If ur white lol, they treat black people like exhibits from what ive heard
Mine last ages
Make sure u don't lose the cable cus its a not a standard shaver one annoyingly
Tbf its IP7X so it's kinda excused
im hispanic but YIKES i somehow forgot to even mention that
That one family guy meme is basically japan
Idk why the cop is a printer that's just the gif
i get a week or so of hella smooth and then after that i have to use a razor instead
speaking of japan has anyone else seen Shinjuku Boys (1995), it's about three trans men in tokyo
Maybe my hair just cuts easier idk
Or European version built better
We should have a queerdome if there isn't one already. I feel like having a spot to talk about stuff beyond just being trans would be pretty cool
oooh that’d be cool
Tbf I think most active people on the discord are some form of queer
Machine girl main demo isn't exactly straight cis dads in their 60s
Yea true but itd be nice to just have a channel/forum thing specifically for that sorta discussion
yeah
yeah most "normal" mg fan i know is a 30 something british gay guy who works as a train conductor 😭
see yall got it easy.
I wish you luck🙏
One of the funnier effects of T that I didn’t expect was not being able to fit certain shirts anymore cuz they’re now tight around the shoulders. seems like muscle grew and fat got distributed in a way that old shirts just plain can’t fit my arms
I told myself I’d listen to this later but this awesom
Do you like try the vocal training thing?? I’d like to learn how to adopt “different voices” when I want but hmm
Same kind of I noticed some shirts didn’t fit well anymore (rip bcs I liked said shirts)
Hopefully I can go back on T after this moving shit is over with, rrrgh insurance
lowkey goals
oh man this is an issue i have even without t
my shoulders are already fuckin huge
luckily i wear big clothes anyway
TRUE
I didn't do any structured vocal training but I used a few apps (voice tools, voice games) and then mostly worked on pushing my voice into the high register
it’s funny comparing my pre-transition singing/screaming voice in older work w my current one
YEAH uh someone said i have a high pitched voice in vc last night and i don’t know how to feel about it
i’ve been on T for five years.
Idr if it was light voice or them saying u have happy upbeat voice but I dont even remember rn tbh
I just remember thinkign "wait I didnt think they meant high pitched" but wasnt rly my place to say anything
I've only been on for 2/stopped abruptly mid-2025, I need to find that old vid example I had
oh yeah it’s the jolly happy voice :)
i will try to keep it up and bring joy and happiness to everyone
Yaaay I get if that was initially upsetting tho sorry ab that. Sometimes I’ll make this semi involuntary laugh or noise and then immediately go EUGH when I hear it back in recordings lmao
ahahaha
Thats super relatable
I make a bunch of weird random sounds when im excited for no reason
In public i speak way more quietly so i sound more normal but with friends i get really high pitched
Sometimes im ok with it but sometimes im trying to be serious so i get annoyed at myself when i do that
yeah it’s very normal to talk differently around other people depending on who they are and the situation
it’s been more than a year since i spoke to anyone as close friends tho
it’s the head voice vs chest voice thing
I’ve more or less made peace with the idea that I’ll always have a tendency to slip into a head voice for one reason or another
Oh?
i do that but with recording musik
My voice gets so deep i clock ppl so hard and shit so i say, No this is not kouhai's voice
this is my voice.
God I get this so much. Anyone else I pull my voice off perfectly but then when I get comfortable around someone then I slowly start to drop it a little
Like it isn't to bad but its still a reduction in quality that I know I can fix if I'd just try more to change that habit
9 times out of 10 irl i can never talk with this voice
Thats because 9 times out of 10 irl im never kouhai
lmfaooo my lyft driver was an mg fan
lowkey i might be fried 
i have smaller medium sized shirts that. likely won't fit me anymore after a while
lmfao
ymmv
I definitely can’t fit some of my nice button ups anymore tho
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oh this is important
Lowkey watched it until i realized that I Almost Never Leave the House and I am Not Aware of My Surroundings.
any of y'all got fashion advice for a thick bitch? most of the femme shit i've found ain't great
Your fit 100% needs to complement colors
that also includes accessories and footwear.
my partner is transfem and over 6 foot/3-to-4XL in women's so i think i can help with this 🦐 not sure what sort of style you are trying to cultivate but there are some brands that offer clothes that fit bigger and taller girls while still being stylish. i buy the majority of my clothes secondhand on depop and you can sometimes find stuff on there in those sizes. my partner is of the gothier persuasion so some brands that offer things in their size are foxblood, forest ink, and killstar off the top of my head. i also highly recommend learning how to DIY (mainly sewing) as that allows you to modify clothing to fit you better and suit your personal style more :)
pickings for bigger femme folks in general are kind of slim, and that's not even regarding considerations that need to be made for transfems, so i totally get your frustration. it's going to take more effort for you vs. a straight-sized person to find things that will both fit you well and suit your style, but options do exist 
oh, and if you haven't already, make sure you have your measurements on hand (bust, waist, hips, inseam, etc.) when you're looking for clothes and always look at size charts because women's sizing can vary wildly between brands for some inane reason
taking notes for my gf
one last thing, when you're creating a wardrobe for yourself, i recommend trying to focus on "staples", or taking the "capsule wardrobe" approach. find pieces that are in a similar or complementary color scheme that are easily interchangeable in order to provide yourself with a bunch of different outfits without taking up too much closet space. so like, a handful of tops, a handful of bottoms, some outerwear, one or two pairs of shoes, etc. with considerations for changing seasons. this webpage goes more into depth :) https://wonder-wardrobe.com/blog/capsule-wardrobe
The Informative Misha has arrived
me logging on to say something in transdome and immediately dip
🎶 "When I find myself in times of trouble brother Misha comes to me speaking words of wisdom"🎶
Ima make a cover of running the show
Caine?
yeahhh
https://youtu.be/Q2niRpFhFXo?si=ImBmMwSapKQq6oRv
but first i wana try this
fun tech map idk why its getting downvoted to oblivion
idk what to upload anymore
had a shorties level crashout trying to record this, there was really bad screen tearing and it wouldnt go away. stupid cat capture card i spent my entire youtube paycheck on doesnt work properly
I'm gonna spoiler this just in case, so people don't start feeling bad in their bodies, but oughhhhh phonetics class is so bad for me it ||makes me so conscious of my adam's apple in my throat it becomes almost physically painful|| thanks ocd
if that forbidden fruit is what made you guys get an adams apple, then hell, let ME take a bite
Think of it as re-learning English.
hii anyone have recommendations for where to donate used binders? got top surgery and i would like to get them outta here
oh and bras
Congrats!!!!!!!
Omg congrats!!!! Hope you have a speedy recovery!!!
GG
hmm...I have some trans owned thrift stores in my area, maybe that's something aou could look out for
and congrats 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 🔥 🔥
thank you everyoneee
CHAT
all those random times doing weird voice messages are paying off for me lmao
i procrastinated on the caine cover but yesterday i was cooking a deathgrips cover
Brooo
If i finish it its gotta blow up
If there’s a gender-affirming clinic near you you should ask them. There’s one here that has a closet with free femme and masc clothes for trans individuals who might not have money to get affirming clothes
I tried to go to a dressing room separated by m/f today and I was like (both eyes go different directions) trying to think on "what im most seen as today" ended up ultimately going with f but got a weird look from the person who was tending that regardless
large sigh
Got some pants I wanted tho
i’m more androgynous leaning fem and always pick the men’s locker room even if there are gender neutral rooms and i’ve never gotten weird looks
maybe women’s locker rooms just in general are more sensitive to how someone presents? idk if that makes sense
probably, womanhood is policed more and much of the current anti-trans legislation is meant to specifically target trans women
i also use the men's restroom and stuff without much issue
yeah its used as an entire big token of an argument rn
sucks
too bad they just tend to stink way more LOL
ah yes. the 50/50 coinflip of whether or not some man is shitting his fucking brains out at the current moment
the men need a gut doc to check for sensitivities 🥀
its not supposed to be that rancid
another coinflip for whether they remember to flush </3
i am pro-going to the gastroenterologist
sometimes ill enter the mens bathroom to just immediatley leave bcs of The Stench and go to the womens' instead
i often opt for a single-stall restroom if i can help it lol
Luv single stall restrooms
my work has an accessible restroom that i usually go for (and i am multiply disabled so i prefer it for a number of reasons), and i will begrudgingly use the men's room otherwise
Tbh (at least in my experience) they're often more kept up/clean since everybody is using it
more mindfulness there or smth
i have not had the issue of poop somehow being in the toilet or on the seat with the accessible restroom
men's room on the other hand
I’ve seen a geriatric collect a stool sample in a grocery bag and missed the bag 
in a public restroom too???
On a less disgusting note
Tit pain is gonna kill me while I’m also dealing with this septum healing
oh that sucks 😭
i know it's because there's literally new tissue growing but god it's SO PAINFUL
sending you my well wishes <3
gender affirming torment is how ive viewed it haha
NO LIYERALLY WHAT BOTH OFNYOU SAID
I got lucky af with how early my breast development started but like goddamn I was not ready at the same time
sending you Painlessness
But it also like lowestrogenuinely feels a little bad to complain abt bc of that
Thank yall:3
need to shop for bras for my partner as she has reached the stage where running around is hurting her
naw i think it's a valid complaint to have
something can be awesomesauce and also a lil cringe
duality of life
aw
weirdly i dont have sensitivity in mine at All like other ppl do ((also fcukign God I wish it was socially acceptable just to be Dude w Big Tits visually im getting TIRED of my ribs being crunched every day and I dont give myself enough prep time for tape--might change once i move and im situated, idk))
I used to not care about the rib constriction but it is getting to a point....
i wish anybody could have boobs of any size 😔
I do a lot of phys work at my job too besides the front desk stuff but Yea
big true big true
i mean. they can. but without judgment
like i dont want top surgery I want to stay "confusing" but argh
yes
yeaaa my best friend has been binding since middle-high school and his ribs are not having it
america explain
yeah 😭
i am lucky enough to have already had a small bust and T has redistributed the fat so i can get away with binding most of the time </3 my heart goes out to all big booby tmascs
i wish we could swap parts
T kinda did that but i think it?? came back when i went off?? idek im permanently altered in some ways but also not as desired, i kind dont wanna be "fem or masc" i want to confuse ppl (: but ykykyk
would be great
My heart goes out to any of the tmascs that aren’t fucking insufferable like my brother(transition unrelated he’s just annoying af)
real as fuck
When i move im evaluating seeing if i can get on t again but insurance is still gonna be a lot of uhh cost
yeah unfortunately fat redistribution is reversible and dependent on what hormone is dominant in your body :(
fawkk
rn its a good 50/50 with what people assume, if they hear my voice they assume dude but visually it /can/ be fem.. sometimes. uhh idek i havent really tracked but it tends to be dude more now
I have a diy discord I could invite you to that’s p much a bunch of resources abt how and what to do if you wanna go down that route
funniest is when they assume "fem" but then correct themselves when i Talk
GIVE
been doing my hrt thru my insurance but i have. diy stuff in my back pocket just in case. hellscape
actually no funniest is when they totally see me as a guy, for days to weeks/months, but as soon as they learn im afab its "she" even in front of others who "assume im a guy"
fun stuff
I need to learn to diy cus ins is way too expensive for meeee rnnnnnnn
the awesome thing is that you can just bulk order everything
i like when trans ppl "she" me tho but it depend
cis people 👎👎👎👎
we need to bring the down with cis bus back
PLEASE
have you considered creating an excel sheet to track this information
no reason in particular i just think it's funny to have quantifiable data
actually I should but I think ill do so in the daily journal of mine I have to help me stay organized every day lmaoo
epic
some kind of tally system
Ok I had to request an invite link so depending on if they send it to my phone account or not it’s gonna be a bit sorry:3
No problme thank u
It’s no problem
Speaking of Ill always think it’s insane how cis is considered a genuine slur on Twitter as opposed to other things
Thanks elon
One of the things that made me leave tbh
(Sort of)
ngl, kinda related, my insta feed would give the median cis guy an aneurysm
Same
hot take: they want to keep the "valued" idea of women thats why they dont wanna allow trans women
sounds like a song lyric wtf
yeah, obviously the sexgender binary exists as a power structure, and in order for it to be perceived as legitimate it needs to be enforced culturally and by the state. trans people as a whole threaten the idea that the sexgender binary is immutable and real, while trans women are devalued because they aren't capable of performing the woman-assigned labor of reproduction via giving birth
its all fun and games until i hop in the vc
people get shocked and say "thats a girl?????"
from now on ima look at people and say, "that's a living thing?"
Cant believe how your life is predetermined by your flesh. smh.
that's why transphobes get pissed off by the idea that gender is a construct because to them that's just reality
it feels threatening to their basic worldview
if thats where we're living in im glad to see it shut down.
nooo but how are we supposed to oppress people if there's no class of people to oppress???? /s
The sooner people have power over of their gender the more intelligent humans will be >:3
maybe powerful if intelligence isnt enough
Like Me. >:33333333333333
Its like the "Woke Mind Virus" but the opposite (idk the name for it)
Imagine the fight i'd be in if i used it against some really insecure mf
they’re basically trying to enforce the toxic gender roles the bible speaks of in an era where that shouldn’t be relevant
see they’ll quote the bible only when it suits their agenda and forget that they would be against everything jesus stood for
man...that new knives out made a good point against those evangelical culty christians...
when it comes to religion, im like, eh.
¯_(ツ)_/¯
when it comes to gender, im like, eh. ¯_(ツ)_/¯
when it comes to race, im like, eh. ¯_(ツ)_/¯
BUT WHEN IT COMES TO WHATS IN MY PANTS
BUT WHEN IT COMES TO WHAT I LOOK LIKE WHEN I WAS BORN
For me im the opposite about gender
Im more concerned about societal expectations than how i look
i threw expectations away
a long time ago
mental weight dropped SIGNIFICANTLY
because expectations are overweight :(
Yes😔
felt cute when i looked in the mirror today 🎉
every time i look at myself in the mirror with headphones on im 20% cuter than i should be
I DROPPED A COVER TODAY (so you can criticize me on my voice of course 😤😤😤)
In the yr music channel
god damn im a trans dude who loves fashion and shit but i never thought this deeply about it
LNAFAODGWKNSHW
i do as well, i usually js go in2 the men's room and have been doing that since i came out
DOES DEVELOPMENT OF THAT. ACTUALLY HURT HELP I DONT REMEMBER [puberty was lowkey traumatic 4 me because im a stupid man]
YES
people either assume im a guy based off how i present myself or they look at me 4 three seconds and see my dyed hair and assume "S H E"
type shit
OUCH IM SORRY TWIN

