transdome

[frosty sky]

(not that it's bad because im good at body)

yipppeeee

[bronze ocean]

i am trans gendder

[frosty sky]

I immediately thought of a super saiyan transformation but the transformation is gender

[winter comet]

i always compare myself to a cocoon

[frosty sky]

You're turning into a butterfly

Amazingggg

[bronze ocean]

a cocoon but haibane renmei

<-

[frosty sky]

There should be a transgender stage like in dragonball

[winter comet]

well less that and more i'm stuck in the larval stage

i've been out as trans for 11 or 12 years but still can't get on t

[frosty sky]

Legendary Super Trans

whatever title comes after that

[winter comet]

it's very odd to be so "old" and "cultured" compared to some of my peers (not saying that in a pretentious way) but still pre-medical transition
i've known people who have gotten on hrt months after coming out because they were in the financial and social opportunity to do so

[frosty sky]

Im only going natural for a year now

Only change is dreadlocks in march '25

Once they grew out I felt changed highkey

(my ahh is seventeen years old lmfao)

[winter comet]

i'm 26
i am Tired

[frosty sky]

Damn

[left rivet]

Same for me its definitely gonna be a while before i can do any medical transition

[frosty sky]

Realshit

[left rivet]

It feels very weird to be half out and half closeted

Cause every now and then i get reminded that im still not fully passing yet

[frosty sky]

Ur like one person in one clique and a completely different one the next

[left rivet]

Yea

[frosty sky]

Except the different one is supposed to die

but it isnt somehow

Like a cancer

[left rivet]

Yea like even though i dont feel like im any different i feel super aware of how im being perceived and it feels so weird

[frosty sky]

It sux

I basically live thru it every day but when im online it's ez

Looking in the Mirror is complete RNG

[left rivet]

I blame society for having such a strange view of what genders are supposed to look like

I feel way less self conscious about my body at home than when i step outside

Whenever i hear my voice in recording though i shrivel up in cringe

[frosty sky]

As a music maker who does vocals sometimes i could not agree more lmao

[left rivet]

Ngl i admire any singers just cause of how they push past any embarassment of recording their own voice cause i think everyone feels self conscious from that

I think if i ever made music id make vocaloid

[frosty sky]

i wana make vocaloid so bad

(i cracked it, i done it but never finished a song with it)

[broken prism]

Does anyone have any good masculine voice training resources?

[candid ore]

i cannot wait to start T because i get very euphoric from wearing androgynous outfits (i always wear a suit with heels to formal events) and once i actually LOOK masculine in every other way it'll be even better... like Yes Guys im Bigender and im dressing gender NONconforming because now i dont look like a GIRL

it's especially euphoric when girls who i KNOW see me as a guy say "omg i could NEVER" about the heels i wear ...

[left rivet]

I dont feel like i identify with any gendered pronouns (he or she) but at the same time they them pronouns just doesnt feel like enough and its confusing, like if i cant cling onto any gender ill just fade away, thats the best way i can describe it

Idk its weird

[frosty sky]

pronouns aint for everyone foreal

[frosty sky]

Care to experiment with nameself or emojiself?

[left rivet]

Maybe but i havent decided on anything yet, i wanted to maybe try some neopronouns though

[magic verge]

i get that, i went by they/them for a short period of time and felt that it didn't suit me, i still get they/themmed all the time though even after i tell people what my pronouns are. i like it/its and i do use neopronouns as well but i find that people really struggle with neos, even other trans people that aren't binary. it's fair that people will struggle at first using them because they're not common but sometimes people literally just don't want to put in the extra effort. i don't mean to say this to tell you to NOT use neos i just wanted to share my experience

neos are cool though, people usually assume that non-binary inherently means gender neutral or genderless when that isn't true, one can be quite Genderful while not adhering to either binary gender

xenogender folks rise up

[magic verge]

https://transreads.org/wp-content/uploads/2023/12/2023-12-01_65696a0cf197e_DIYVOICE.pdf

you can also find voice masculinization exercises on youtube, this specific channel i'll link here is run by a speech language pathologist (so someone who is definitely qualified to give advice regarding voice training) https://www.youtube.com/@jordanrosscommunication

[left rivet]

Yea that basically describes how i feel

My friends are like 50 50 cause some literally use neopronouns and others are a little weird about the topic so idk

Anyways ill figure it out eventually

I feel like i wouldnt have this problem if people didnt attach so much meaning to different pronouns and stuff already so its just confusing

Cause theres times where i like things either “masculine” or “feminine” but committing to one or the other feels too much

[minor turret]

i dont use neopronouns but i think this stuff is really cool

[minor turret]

Gender always never made sense to me tbh I always intuitively interpreted it as deep neurological feeling and sixth sense of sorts even if that isn't quite what it is

[left rivet]

Its like when a game gives you customization but the 2 options are boring so you use the modded version to get cooler variety

[minor turret]

i guess thats a good way 2 put it 🐭

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/date-a-live-iv-kurumi-shadow-show-up-season4-gif-25405342

Me

[minor turret]

🐭

[swift spruce]

hello trans dome >:]

i lauv u

[frosty sky]

What if trans flag is a lazer beam and those fully hit turn trans

(it grazed me on the shoulder and the thigh)

[digital tiger]

helo hi !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[honest lake]

Istg i dont know why but i feel so represented by alan from smiling friends 😭

like as a closeted trans fem

[bronze ocean]

alan 🫶

alan is a transmisogynized character

[honest lake]

word

[candid ore]

i lowkey thought u were me bc i had an alan pfp before this one

[candid ore]

on a similar note i feel represented by pim as a transmasc like wow bro all my friends are mean to me too

[digital tiger]

alan is so goated i love him so much

i keep switching between alan and glep

[digital tiger]

anytime they're mean to pim from smiling friends i start violently sobbing and shaking like an old white woman's chihuahua

[candid ore]

me too because i am an old white women's chihuahua

[honest lake]

Sending love to you trans masc pim

But fr he’s so real for the anime con fit

[mossy thicket]

I reached peak manliness, women avoid me on the street

I ain't even start T yet

[pure wigeon]

https://youtu.be/riOYDaf1MdQ?si=_xMti3A7MtBbLLat

WHOLLY WHOLESOME!!

[frosty sky]

who here fucks with the feeling that you naturally stopped smelling like shit a certain amount of time after a workout

[elder saffron]

One thing I can say that sucks about being an estrogen fueled creature is getting cold way to easily

[winter comet]

the stereotype that women need searing hot showers is true

[digital tiger]

Does that mean that when I start hrt as a trans dude I’ll crave cold showers

[winter comet]

probably
not physically but out of the hubris only a man could have

"every morning i get up at 3 am and get into a sub zero shower. then i work out for 5 hours and eat unseasoned chicken. then i check on all 6 streams of passive income. i evict a single mom from my property. i work out for 5 more hours. i drink a ginger shot"

[digital tiger]

Trans boys turn into men the moment they find their alpha manosphere complex-yet-efficient morning workout routine

[winter comet]

the grindset

[digital tiger]

Exactly

They can only get it from a $1000 course from a bald dude named Brandon who sells cryptocurrency though

[bronze ocean]

how hard is it to find Inspired Mission as a trans guy

[bronze ocean]

but being able to wear more than two layers without dying from heat stroke is pretty nice

[elder saffron]

This is very true

[swift spruce]

truth nuke

[inland schooner]

been on t 3 years and i absolutely despite boiling hot showers i often have to get it cold before slowly increasing the temperature. most of my showers are warm or cold

[frosty sky]

i might need that foreal

i sweat too hard

i could never play beat saber in a sweatshirt

not even when i open the window in my room whenever it is winter

its too hot

:(

[winter comet]

i suspect i might already have higher t and i get hot very easy

i also get cold very easily
but i think it might be bad temperature regulation bc i have bad interoception

[left rivet]

Im pre-t, i pretty much cant stand feeling cold, dunno if thats related or just a preference

[mellow nimbus]

I have really bad hormone imbalance because of having high testosterone without medical transitioning at all and im just permanently cold even when everyone around me is atleast warm for some reason lmao (when I am actually hot though I hate it so much)

[magic verge]

my cold tolerance noticeably went up after i started T, and got worse when i stopped for a while

[grand hearth]

It’s your hypothalamus 😊

[magic verge]

yup yup, which is also why autism can cause issues with temperature dysregulation

meanwhile my poor partner is always shivering in the morning when we drive to work

[grand hearth]

cries in trans and autistic

I’m always so fucking HOT

and summers here are terrible for me

I’ve been grateful for tje temperatures cooling down lately

Though now I get it….now I get why I would see guys in the hoodie and shorts combo in winter……….

[magic verge]

just enough to keep the vital organs warm

[frosty sky]

relateable?

you know the most critical time temperature starts acting like a bitch?

SLEEPING

[elder saffron]

That's why I have a heated blanket lmao

[frosty sky]

Dayum!

my blanket is just heavy.

[magic verge]

REAL... i keep taking my blanket off in the night just to put it back on again 😭

[elder saffron]

I miss my weighted blanket fr

[frosty sky]

In the summertime i have 2 sleep with my window open

and fan on

and uhhh

(then nothing on)

[elder saffron]

Wack xD

[frosty sky]

such a struggle.

[magic verge]

sometimes having like any amount of clothing on is too much sensory input for me

which then makes the temperature regulation worse because i have worms for brains

[digital tiger]

wait is this true I always get so fucking hot for literally no reason at all and i hate it so much

[frosty sky]

if temp is not cool while i sleep i cant sleep

[elder saffron]

Brain worms?!?!?!

[frosty sky]

i pray for the time i am on HRT

[digital tiger]

Summers are the WORST EVER . Dont even get me started with binding during the summer and the sweat that comes with it

[frosty sky]

and finally lock in to my cold sleep

[elder saffron]

HRT is so great (obviously lmao)

[magic verge]

i'mtrying to find a paper on it but anecdotally i have heard this from many autistics and also since autism affects your brain structure it makes sense that it could then affect anything controlled by the brain

[frosty sky]

i read a book based on autism

apparently you are unable to do anything until an issue really gets to you

Like when im playing beat saber i do not stop until i making silly mistakes and i hurt

and i realize that my energy is low

that reminds me why do my beatsaber sessions rely on executive function?

so heavily....

?!?!?

[digital tiger]

I see, that would make sense !! I haven’t been tested for anything yet but ive been speculating that I might be on the spectrum and if that’s a symptom that would make a LOT of sense

Especially since that’s something ive been dealing with for a LONG time

[magic verge]

i'm a big fan of how many autistic trans ppl there are in here

[frosty sky]

same ass fucking thing for me god damn

except i recieved a diagnosis at five years old

[digital tiger]

There’s been more times then I can even begin to count where ive been with my mom and I’ll be hot and sweaty for literally no reason at all while she’s literally shivering 😭😭

[frosty sky]

my doctors say i have it an shit

but i still dont believe

but i still anticipate

[digital tiger]

My dad is the same way and Im thinking that he’s on the spectrum too..

[frosty sky]

and relate

[digital tiger]

Hmmm yeah that’s interesting, it’s a struggle fr tho 😭😭

[digital tiger]

TRUE TRUE

transgender autistic people swarm around machine girl like flies and meat

[frosty sky]

it amazez me how i seem to qualify so highly yet i still physically don't believe it

i blame me being entirely different on the internet

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/ulate-moth-trans-moth-moth-light-lamp-gif-1241474945407470801

[magic verge]

i had to teach myself to pay attention to my body while i'm absorbed in something i'm really enjoying.. the amount of times i've just sat for hours on end with no water and food and in a shitty position and not been cognizant of my physical state

and then i suddenly realize

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/suwako-touhou-transgender-trans-frogs-gif-12816498668722653715

[magic verge]

and i'm like wow i feel like shit

[digital tiger]

YES I WAS LITERALLY LOOKING FOR THIS EXACT GIF LMAOOO

[elder saffron]

[frosty sky]

ive been doing that a lot more now that i do online skool

now i forget to brush my teeth 💀

https://tenor.com/view/anime-jibril-no-game-no-life-loonie-gif-4968419061084224269

[digital tiger]

It’s so hard to keep up with it I swear 😭 I have cavities forming but getting into routines is so fucking hard

[frosty sky]

do not get me started about my horrible past with teeth

as a child it got so bad i had dental surgery

and lived with silver molars until i pulled the last one at 11 yrs old

[digital tiger]

Oh god trust me.. I had braces twice I toslly understand 😭

And so much more

[frosty sky]

i miss my silver teeth a bit :c

im only at a few tiny fillings

[digital tiger]

OMG YEAH I HAD A SILVER TOOTH FOR A WHILE

I remember always really liking the texture of it because it was smooth

I was so sad when I lost it

[elder saffron]

Same until it gave way on the side, now I just have a boring normal looking one lmao

[frosty sky]

Stimming in class with silver teeth was such a flex

on my god

[digital tiger]

IT WAS SO GOATED I SWEAR

On top of the fact I had braces twice as well as surgery twice on one tooth because they fucked it up the first time, I used to have a tooth gap but they closed it up after I told them I didn’t want it fully closed ☹️ I miss my lil tooth gap so much

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/anime-smile-teeth-smile-stan-twitter-kettlefaced-gif-26294176

im officially the master of anime gifs

[digital tiger]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1341401518666154037/1354949274915307560/attachment.gif

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/heavenly-delusion-tengoku-daimakyo-tengoku-daimakyou-kiruko-haruki-gif-5488980728829387239

[golden plover]

"meanwhile my broke ass partner [...]"
-# /j

[mossy thicket]

Idk why but it brings me joy that I possess some biological or stereotypical traits that men also have

Without even being aware of it

I love cold showers

I don't even own a winter coat

[minor turret]

https://tenor.com/view/vocaloid-dance-kasane-teto-teto-territory-cute-gif-17052544

[loud ridge]

3 years and two months until I start t

Its disgusting that it’s illegal to get hrt as a minor here

[frosty sky]

YIKES!!!!

[frosty sky]

テトテトテトテトテトテト

i have about five months left till i lock in to HRT foreal

Maybe six-seven if im lucky

https://tenor.com/view/smug-smug-anime-smug-face-gif-23056382

[minor turret]

Yay

[frosty sky]

True, even if that was the case i wish it would be done out of fuck-up prevention than blatant hating

your state sucks assssssssss

:(

i feel for u

One day there will be a time where you will be freed from all this despair.

https://tenor.com/view/madoka-gif-26102139

[loud ridge]

I’m getting a blahaj for Christmas

so peak

[elder saffron]

https://www.reddit.com/r/lgbt/s/EduH94mcG9 well she just gave me more reasons to dislike her

[next harbor]

rly sucks that kids look up to her

and I guess not really kids, but idk

younger audiences!

[frosty sky]

Not to like be a bitch but ain't Nicki Minaj is the reason why the quality and value of many (YOUNG WOMEN) went down drastically....?

[elder saffron]

Quality and value? What does that even mean?

[winter comet]

[elder saffron]

Like that literally comes off as "alpha male" talking points. Idk if you meant for it to come off that way but it very much does.

[frosty sky]

ahhh i dont know how to explain it

its like really dumb

this is like my worst take of all time

uhh

Basically inspiring young girls to be unnecessarily freaky is what im trying to say

😮‍💨

idk if yall get me

with this

[frosty sky]

oh yeahh

where did they go!???

Oh and then theres covid

after that do not bother being a child now.

[next harbor]

I've come to consult the Council

[frosty sky]

Real?

https://tenor.com/view/kablam-jumpscare-june-nicktoons-nickelodeon-gif-24584680

[next harbor]

I have a really good, gender neutral to masc somewhat professional pic I'm using in a professional capacity to appear as such. going for people assuming I'm a guy, if they're gonna do a binary assumption. My mom's wedding is in March, it's been maybe 5 years since I've told her I am not she/her to her yet because the yet for some reason means "yes." In the group chat with her new boo (who I love), her, and I, everyone calls me "A," distinctly avoiding using my new name.

I'm worried she will immediately say "shave it off!" as if she has any control over my life.
How do y'all look past feelings that you might be a speed bump in someone else's journey in this way?
She won't not say this, she WILL mention it. It's not an if, now that I'm thinking more on it but i digress

[frosty sky]

i misclicked the gif whoopsie

[minor turret]

i just think kids need to be treated much better

i used 2 find them annoying as hell in my early teens or whatever especially since i kind of grew up 2 fast but i feel for them more than anything being a kid feels terrible u feel stripped of ur agency with like no way out

i mean seeing for example how america is even if ur like in a middle class home, most people live in suburbia where theres like no parks nearby closest shopping anything is like 10 miles away and malls are fucking empty now so theres barely any place for kids to hangout

its upsetting seeing people like my sociology teacher back when i was in high school say things like "this world is more child-centric than ever" and her reasoning being... there are products for kids such as toys

??

oh great suddenly kids are happy and pampered and pleased with life because they have toys and big companies make a profit to sell things targeted towards struggling families Yep totally a reasonable analysis /s

anyway

kids end up being forced 2 resort to partaking in activities that just completely warp their perception of reality lol (social media primarily) so i just feel bad more than anything

[inland schooner]

Do it illegally anyway and DIY

Me @14 #swag

[swift spruce]

really late on my shot and feel like shit

i gotta remember to do it when i get home from work so i don't feel this way anymore

[minor turret]

🫂

[swift spruce]

shot done

[loud ridge]

Yea but wouldn’t that also cost a lot and take a lot of materials

[digital tiger]

How do you diy hrt? I’ve always heard about diy but I’ve never been sure what that looks like

https://tenor.com/view/fly-insect-bug-evil-plot-gif-5650927

I feel like this is info I should know as someone who’s been out for almost 2 years

[magic verge]

it only costs a large amount insofar as you're ordering in bulk. it'll be roughly $200 or so for everything, but that includes T, needles, syringes, sharps container, and alcohol swabs, so pretty much everything you would need to do injections. and this will be enough for like almost a year's worth of injections based on my rough math

if you know someone who will be okay with receiving packages for you then you could easily have everything ordered to them

[magic verge]

there's a subreddit for it (r/TransDIY) and also the website diyhrt.info

the process for it is the same as it is with getting it prescribed, save for source obviously. eroids.com is a site that reviews T sources that's run by the bodybuilding community

as long as the source is trustworthy you basically just place an order and it'll get delivered to your address

DIY is very safe so long as you make sure you're buying from legit sources

the only additional cost past that will be bloodwork to make sure your levels are okay, but that wouldn't be something you do monthly (i'm directed to do it every 3 months by my doctor but you can probably get away with longer than that). you can just order the tests yourself and go to a quest labs or labcorp or something

i've heard DIYing with T gel is also an option but not as easily sourced and not as affordable

i will not directly link sources here because i think that would maybe be going too far

[loud ridge]

yeah, i cant afford that

im probably just going to wait until im 18

[magic verge]

understandable

[inland schooner]

costed me like 100 bucks and prolly 20 for bulk bought neecles and wipes

[elder saffron]

https://westendmedicalsupply.com/ if anyone needs recommendations for buying needles I get mine here. I know Ive seen Amazon recommended a lot but the needles there are just not sharp enough and cause more pain than necessary (ask me how I know 😭). Plus this site has band name stuff like BD which I really like.

[tropic zenith]

JUST HAD THE BREAKTHROUGH OF A LIFETIME AND I FINALLY FEEL VALID

I AM VALID

[elder saffron]

Oh?

[loud ridge]

I probably will just skip t and go straight to top surgery, because I’m kinda scared of needles.

[frosty sky]

I deadass need dat top surgery

[golden plover]

AAAAAAAA

https://media.discordapp.net/attachments/832082850916466718/1223978093098831872/does_this_to_u_wrong_gif.gif?width=239&height=259

[frosty sky]

How euphoric would it feel to play BeatSaber after top surgery

And leaning left and right

and waving my arms around like a king but with big chest

[swift spruce]

yes yes yes yes

i want the opposite but i'm excited at the notion for u

[frosty sky]

Mhm

[swift spruce]

i've never played beatsaber but i HAVE played this one game that's basically beatsaber with guns

i think it's called pistol whip

i should play that again

[frosty sky]

That looks cool

FPS games on VR is definitely badass

I wonder if Neon White should be a VR game.

[swift spruce]

i'm gonna expose myself as a fraud

i've never played neon white

i keep meaning to

but i keep forgetting

[frosty sky]

me neither lmao

but i dont have computer and nintendo atm

[elder saffron]

It's honestly not that bad actually

It's a sting for sure but it's not very painful at all

Sometimes if you get lucky you won't really feel it

[frosty sky]

i got lucky with a covid shot

so i vouch

and all my HPV vaccines (i was dramatic for those)

[magic verge]

there's gel which i've used for most of my transition before switching to injections. i definitely got effects from the gel, i just didn't want to have to deal with showering every single day (which isn't strictly necessary, it just ensures better absorption and the gel will pill sometimes if you apply it to unclean skin). but my insurance covered it

[loud ridge]

I’ll just have trouble getting the supplies, and hiding them from my parents

The cost isn’t much of a problem

[mossy thicket]

What's the difference between gel, injections or other forms of taking T?

Are there benefits and downsides between them

Or is it just simply because a lot of people are afraid of needles

[magic verge]

the primary routes of administering testosterone that are available here in the US are gel, injections, and patches. i've heard that oral testosterone exists but isn't recommended because it's especially hard on the liver.
injections are the most common because of a variety of reasons; they're low maintenance (people typically inject weekly/biweekly), cheap, and readily bioavailable, meaning that more testosterone can be absorbed by the body. you can either inject subcutaneously (in the fat) or intramuscularly, and the difference is mainly in absorption rate. there's more blood supply in muscle so an IM injection will be absorbed more quickly than subq
people primarily use gel because of needle phobia but there are a variety of other reasons that you would choose this over injections. the main difference is that you're receiving a steady supply of testosterone every day, so you'll have fewer highs and lows that you might experience as you get closer to shot day. and obviously you don't have to deal with handling sharps, buying the supplies to inject, etc.
there isn't a hard and fast rule regarding which one is better than the other, everybody reacts differently to each administration route. you'll hear largely about people going to injections after being dissatisfied with gel but the opposite does happen

[loud ridge]

How expensive are testosterone injections per month?

[magic verge]

patches i have no personal experience with but they're pretty low maintenance, you might react to the adhesive in them though and if you need a higher dose you have to stick on more patches. they're also more expensive from what i've seen

[magic verge]

i only pay like a couple of dollars with my insurance for the T itself and they give me what is technically 4 months' worth since they advise that you dispose each vial immediately after use... but i keep them until they're empty so each vial is like 4 doses each for me

i inject 0.25 ml subcutaneously weekly

which is technically 25 mg of testosterone

[loud ridge]

alright

[magic verge]

as i mentioned before i bought my injection supplies in bulk

[loud ridge]

Screen time one sec

[magic verge]

so the supplies were closer to $100 including everything like shipping etc but you can also have them ordered through the pharmacy in fewer quantities and it should be cheaper that way

it was like 100 injections' worth of supplies

[mossy thicket]

Got it, thank you

[magic verge]

no problem 🫡

[frosty sky]

this is officially the most transgender song I made in 2024

[elder saffron]

I feel like I should give this warning (you may already know) but please beware if you ask a doctor about anything hrt related while you're still under 18 they will tell your parents

[pulsar mortar]

for anyone who gets liek bad waves of depression like seasonal pms clinical etc does it ever fuck with like ur self perception n make u question urself entirely about being trans

my brains doing weird stuff and i feel like shid……… biggest boyfailure on the front lines

[golden plover]

What country and other relevant region do you live in?

[elder saffron]

I live in the US

[frosty sky]

Too late >_<

Lucky only my mom tapped into it

Shit im a year too late to do dat now

https://tenor.com/view/heavenly-delusion-tengoku-daimakyo-tengoku-daimakyou-kiruko-haruki-gif-5488980728829387239

i wil be 18 in mid 2026 i have none to worry

[sudden echo]

I'm not trans but trans people are cool and fun

[frosty sky]

I may look transgender but in reality im a magigirl

[minor turret]

Squeak 🐭

[digital tiger]

hello transgender machine girl fans

[magic verge]

https://tenor.com/view/waving-wave-hello-hi-hii-gif-5162070633310464193

[signal salmon]

i found out i was non binary since this summer :p

[frosty sky]

i got two shots 🔥

(COVID and FLU)

[scenic falcon]

Me when I listened to the entirety of oil of every pearl:

https://tenor.com/view/always-sunny-frank-oh-my-god-i-get-it-gif-22328165

Speaking of, any of u ever cried or teared up when listening to the album?

[frosty sky]

Needles are uncomfy af :(

like why aint i deflated yet

the double vaccine makes me sick and anxious mentally right after

[swift spruce]

felt

[frosty sky]

My stomach is spiraling like a fish cake

that feeling

DATTEBAYO!

[magic verge]

it's one of my favorite albums, i've been listening to sophie for a long time and hearing it's okay to cry made me violently ill (said with positive intent)

[frosty sky]

Chat for me i got good news and bad news

the good news is that i get new dreadlocks tomorrow!!!

Bad news

i have to wake up at 4 am, get out of my house at 5, and get to the spot at 6 and i suck balls at sleeping :(((((

and waking up early ;(((((

how is this trans relate!?

cool hairstyle upgrade!!!!

Very Euphoric!!!

[grand hearth]

uboa - the origin of my depression

although the vibes are significantly less pleasant

[left rivet]

Yippeeeee!

[loud ridge]

I feel so me

Is it possible to get top surgery without doing t first?.. I’m making plans for the future, and having a chest present is kinda a sensory issue for me. It just feels uncomfortable and gross existing

[signal salmon]

prob i dont see why not?

[frosty sky]

It's completely possible

No hormone is needed for any surgery and that's a fact.

[signal salmon]

uh small thing a resource i use called TACIS (trans atlantic call in show) they have trans hosts and they are experts when it comes to trans stuff and they have at least one doctor (who worked for the military but lost thier job cuz trump) and they mtf theyd be able to help if you called in but they might not be able to help you but i like listening to them and maybe someone else asked a question you have too so

tho alot of times they prefer dealing with transphobes and teaching them why they are wrong but theres alot of trans pople in chat and the hosts are too so its nice there

thought it would help 😭.

sorry if it doesnt

[loud ridge]

That’s fucked that people are losing jobs to presidents. Hey, thanks for the information!

[frosty sky]

Trans people will be exonerated in the military just like the Central Park Five in society

I hope they get paid a million dollars each

:33333

[signal salmon]

trueism

[loud ridge]

Aaa little cat guy/gal/pal

[frosty sky]

gal pal goes tuff lmao

[signal salmon]

i heard us folks across the world in eu are getting lgbtq rights legislated as an eu standard in eu counrties (prob will be poorly upheld in the east

[frosty sky]

I heard that too

[signal salmon]

tho in ireland where i am we lost our biggest trans care (the hrt and stuff) service and taking no more paitents in march 26

[frosty sky]

OOF

[signal salmon]

becuase the queues were years long and not enough docs and money.

[frosty sky]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/725869393954865224/1434987217419370607/indoctrination.gif

[signal salmon]

which sucks. i think alot of people would prefer it they kept it even if it takes so long.

hope our social democratic president does something.

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/heavenly-delusion-tengoku-daimakyo-tengoku-daimakyou-kiruko-haruki-gif-5488980728829387239

https://tenor.com/view/transgender-gif-26879758

[frosty sky]

#prayforireland

[signal salmon]

thanks

[signal salmon]

yuckie person

[scenic falcon]

I always wonder why there's racist/sexist/homophobic/transphobic gay ppl, like bruh you're attacking your team members wtf

[frosty ice]

it's quite likely this statement was made in retaliation to the release of a voice recording a trans person had made during their initial consultation with one of the lead psychiatrists at the NGS, making public evidence of the harrassment trans people face from him and others at the service

but also, the HSE, our national healthcare service, immediately released a statement saying they don't have the authority to close their waiting list

[signal salmon]

oh I see

[frosty ice]

it's arguably a funny situation all things considered and isn't gonna materially change things for trans people here in ireland, if anything it's made a lot of negative press for the NGS, which is due to be replaced by a more functional service "in the near future" anyways

most of the trans people i know here do diy, even the ones who could afford the telehealth services we have access to from the EU, like gendergp or imago

anyways that aside, in what world is this second bit relevant to anything at all

imagine if say i brought up every problematic thing some american dipshit who happened to be trans did every time anyone talked about the politics surrounding being trans over there

you'd never hear the end of it and we'd never have any sort of useful conversation

anyways, if anyone here is seriously considering moving over to ireland for being safer as a trans person reasons, feel free to dm me, i might be able to point u towards some community resources nstuff

[frosty sky]

my dreadlocks are going to go so HARDDD

[swift spruce]

excited for u!!

[frosty sky]

im getting my hair crocheted as we speak

Deadass i look like madoka

https://tenor.com/view/kaname-madoka-madoka-magica-anime-magical-girl-puella-magi-gif-9044786622079490577

locks are so tight my heads gonna explode

glad im lowkey a masochist

[frosty sky]

MY HAIR IS DONEEEE

YIPPEPEEEEEE

[digital tiger]

Wait what’d they say?

If u don’t mind me asking

I’m curious

[signal salmon]

apparently some enby they met in ireland was bigoted and said its okay if we were to lose trans care here cuz irish people are bad

and something else i already forget.

[digital tiger]

What a strange thing to say 😭

[signal salmon]

ikr

its the same energy as gay people hating trans people 😭.

saying take the t out of lgbtq 😭.

its like dude u used the system and just cuz u dont like irish people doesnt mean they dont deserve it 😭.

[frosty sky]

Those people are the ultimate opps

This is why I am MOGAI

[signal salmon]

whats mogai?

😭.

[frosty sky]

Marginalized Orientations, Gender Identities and Intersex

Pretty much a better title than LGBTQ

it just is

[signal salmon]

never heard of it is it up and coming? now?

like a new title for it?

[frosty sky]

Alternative

[signal salmon]

oh i see

im trying to figure out if its like actually gaining traction.

😭.

[frosty sky]

I hope it is

because my ahh dont wanna see an unintelligible alphabet as a label

[signal salmon]

im looked it up theres talks with it since 5 years ago 😭.

[frosty sky]

like what is going on now

[signal salmon]

what does mogai mean? 😭.

lgbtq is like a sandwhich 😭 (a dude made one lmao

[frosty sky]

I rage at the acronym lgbtq honestly lmao

I have this really crippling stigma of it

[bronze ocean]

it was more popular in like 2016? thereabouts

mb a bit earlier

[frosty sky]

Dayum thats been alive that long????

well for all i know it's really rare af

and rare is cool

🕶️

[frosty sky]

update it's actually gender alignments because my dumbass looked at the google ai result sorry

🤦‍♀️

[signal salmon]

average ai moment

[bronze ocean]

it's pulling that from the mogai wiki tbf

[signal salmon]

it is

ill try and use it more

[frosty sky]

Real

[digital tiger]

UGHHHH GENUINELY FUCK ANYONE SAYINF THAT

It literally makes no sense, someone that doesn’t like the lgbtq is going to hate someone who’s gay just as much as someone who’s trans

Like why are we trying to kiss the shoes of the same people who want to take our rights away bro.. Marsha P Johnson would be so disappointed

[signal salmon]

its so dumb.

tho a side note i only recently started to socially transition. and next time someone asks me if im amab or afab i will defo do the why you asking me whats between my legs? we just met?

[frosty sky]

My ass would do the fuck around and find out

https://tenor.com/view/smug-face-butheremails-gif-26433806

[signal salmon]

oh i mean id say it loud enough for some people around to be able to overhear easily

[frosty sky]

Honestly i would fight any queer mf who is "LGB without the T"

and win easily

:3c

[magic verge]

if somebody believes in trans exclusion then they're not queer by definition. they just happen to be gay/bi/lesbian and a bigot

and should be put into the mulcher

[frosty sky]

i guess it's Fake queer then

Lol

[magic verge]

i would imagine anybody with that sort of ideology wouldn't even self identify as queer

though anything is possible

[signal salmon]

i could see how someone could be transphobic but gay?

[frosty sky]

gay/bi/lesbian Bigots are the sweetest people on earth

[signal salmon]

huh? 😭.

[frosty sky]

I wonder if they could get bruised just by me flicking them in the eye

[frosty sky]

i forgot the tone

Like when you are not tough at all

[magic verge]

sweet (derogatory)

[signal salmon]

i see

i dont think i can do harm unless its to stop harm to fall upon me or others in the moment.

[frosty sky]

see im a tart mf

[magic verge]

put a trans exclusionist in the boots of a black trans woman for one day and watch them crumple like tissue paper

[signal salmon]

physical

[signal salmon]

they dont know how to do hypotheticals.

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/anime-gun-gif-625056655053984019

Lock in

I happen to have the extra melanin

[magic verge]

🫡

[signal salmon]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/1432828838181732362/1448305588919468156/d6c98e006caba05d858aab1afb3cbd96.jpg?ex=69455330&is=694401b0&hm=0abff246e357a51b47e125cd35ad28eafadb688e87ad871c2a267d1e91524149&

god

the rez is ass im sorry 😭.

[magic verge]

LMAO I'VE SEEN THAT

[signal salmon]

its really funny

i think i only know uh 4 trans people me included personally

who im aware and are open ofc.

sorry that was like a complete like

random tangent 😭.

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/nerissa-irving-dreadlocks-locs-smize-sensual-gif-16202897810596817023

[magic verge]

i live with my partner and best friend who are both trans and my friend group is overwhelmingly trans (though it's not very big)

[signal salmon]

omg im so dumb 😭.

[magic verge]

all good

[signal salmon]

lmao

i forgot my partner

they are trans too

i gender affirmed them so hard i forgor

😭.

[magic verge]

assigned cis by partner

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/transgender-gif-26879758

[signal salmon]

my best friend of 8 years is a femboy hes on est via private healthcare but he got it via therapy in the first place for it to be checked if they really need it and they gave it to him kidna fast 😭

so he wants to look as much as a woman possible but still identify as a man

then theres a friend from highschool he transition years ago and stuff and the from of 8 years forgor thier dead name 😭 even tho we both grew up with him 😭.

[frosty sky]

Those people cheat dysphoria lmfaooo

[signal salmon]

well he kidna has dysphoria rn

well has

[frosty sky]

🤔

Not Immune huh?

Happens to everyone i guess

[signal salmon]

hes been on it for months now so theres effects like he has breast buds now

[frosty sky]

My new dreads gave me a lil more euphoria

The person who was doing actually told me that I would look like a girl lol

and she was right

[magic verge]

W

[frosty sky]

They are locked so tight i can still feel them

[signal salmon]

i guess i kinda had it but mostly thinking my self od non binary kinda helped me go like omg i dont need to worry how my body looks im non binary i dont need to care how manly it looks 😭.

[frosty sky]

Waking up at 4 am and having my mom drive me for 90 mins pulling up to the spot at 6:30 was worth it

[signal salmon]

but i do wanna laser my hair off

[frosty sky]

Same

[signal salmon]

my friend did 😭.

[frosty sky]

I am one of the unfortunate people to have hair in the most forbidden places

I used to dermaplane until i bleed a bit :((((

[signal salmon]

omg @frosty sky do u know cole?

the animator on yt

?

[frosty sky]

No

[signal salmon]

used what?

[signal salmon]

they are a black trans animator and thier dreads are so yummyyy

https://www.youtube.com/@Colehairlesscat/videos

[frosty sky]

that's epic

^_^

now i feel enlightened about my race and gender

something I never felt in a loooong time

Before it was just gender for a while

[magic verge]

dermaplaning is when you use a razor to remove dead skin, it helps your skin look "fresher"/less dull and also removes hair in the process obvi

[signal salmon]

look at this man

if i wasnt taken i want to make out sloppy style 😭.

[frosty sky]

100% pass

[magic verge]

HRT is magic

fr fr

[signal salmon]

more for me 🙏

[magic verge]

i think she means that he passes 100%

[frosty sky]

Maybe I could 100% pass too if I get HRT

[signal salmon]

oh 😭.

too bad 😭.

all mine

[signal salmon]

prob who knows

[magic verge]

it's possible! but the really nice thing is after a certain point in your transition you get so comfy with yourself that you stop caring as much

[signal salmon]

most likely its what they do 😭.

[magic verge]

passability is important obviously for a variety of factors but

at the end of the day you should feel at home in your body ^-^

[frosty sky]

For me it's like 30-50% if i get the hidden life hacks down

Like tightening a crossbody and masking up

and not talking ever

im throwing an uneducated guess here

[magic verge]

when people read me as male they usually think i'm a little boy 😭

[frosty sky]

Damn

[signal salmon]

i think cuz i grew out my hair im already can be kinda hard to guess?

and it being purple

tho my beard RAHHHHHH

BE GONE

[frosty sky]

Good news online i mastered passing as a girl online just like any other real male on the internet

I legit clocked a soundcloud oomf today

Blud thought I was Japanese

https://tenor.com/view/marin-marin-kitagawa-kitagawa-bisque-bisque-doll-gif-916671610781629467

[magic verge]

your name is kouhai...

[signal salmon]

omg his voice!?

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/wNXzQo75EVM

[frosty sky]

If I were American my name would be Junior

[magic verge]

yeah

but bro probably just saw it was japanese and equated it to you being japanese

[signal salmon]

he passed 1000000000%

[frosty sky]

Maybe a parallel universe

kouhai is junior in a parallel universe

and

you know the rest

[signal salmon]

i could slip this mans content to my red pilled family member and hed think hes cool and not know til he sees some of his trans content 😭.

[magic verge]

what's like the american version of a mahou shoujo

[frosty sky]

when i wake up my voice is extremely deep

[frosty sky]

Magical Girl

In the alternate universe it would be Mahou Shounen or something lol

[magic verge]

this is true but i mean like a distinctly american pop culture thing that's somewhat comparable but then i think i'm just talking about a superhero or something

[frosty sky]

🤔

If it's Western and it involves magic

Then Wizard/Witch is the selection

[magic verge]

oh yeah

[frosty sky]

Something about sorcery

see it already goes hard

[magic verge]

oh yeah iwas gonna say i'm really happy for you!! i feel like i'm still trying to get a handle on both 😭 i moved to a town that's majority white for college and still live here after graduating and it makes me feel. not great

[frosty sky]

I grew up in a majority white area

[magic verge]

i went from growing up somewhere where i saw a lot of other nonwhite people (my high school was majority asian) to this

it was very jarring

i would like to have more friends who are trans and nonwhite 💔

[signal salmon]

yall wanna hear a transphobic talking point i got when i played val today (its non sensical and funny

[magic verge]

do tell

[signal salmon]

are you from isreal becuase thats where trans people come from apparently?

i just replied with are yo u from africa thats where humans come from 😭.

[magic verge]

what

[signal salmon]

YEAH IDK

:SOB:.

[frosty sky]

Mf got it all wrong

[magic verge]

tfw trans people didn't exist until 1948

[signal salmon]

i think he was gonna go down the path of where do them come from 😭

[frosty sky]

Israel where the jesuses crishts come from

https://tenor.com/view/think-about-it-use-your-brain-use-the-brain-think-brain-gif-7914082

[signal salmon]

bible was brought up 😭.

[signal salmon]

he said no to this

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/bokura-wa-minna-kawaisou-gifs-to-reaction-gifs-reaction-anime-gifs-to-communicate-kawai-gif-14597719

[signal salmon]

and said garden of eden 😭.

[magic verge]

oh this is the sort of guy that thinks dinosaurs are fake

[signal salmon]

if i wasnt in a val chat in a ranked game i would have tearred that dude apart

[signal salmon]

idk if it was sarcastic or what i locked into the game instead 😭.

[frosty sky]

i thank adam and eve because i can't get swag without the help of them >:33333

https://tenor.com/view/think-about-it-use-your-brain-use-the-brain-think-brain-gif-7914082

[signal salmon]

sex toys?

[magic verge]

woah

[frosty sky]

Nah

[signal salmon]

oh

adam and eve is a sex toys company too 😭.

[frosty sky]

oh shi-

[signal salmon]

yeah 😭.

[frosty sky]

Realy?!

[signal salmon]

youtube sponsor somehow 😭.

[frosty sky]

I MEANT SWAG CLOTHES LMFAOAOOAO

[signal salmon]

lmao

[magic verge]

jesus watch my fit check

[signal salmon]

with him i didnt know which way to take it

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/madoka-magica-gif-23904805

we know who really watches over the world

[signal salmon]

go like ur god is immoral, or what he did to adam and eve was evil or im a satanist lmao and rage bait him with it 😭.

[magic verge]

yuri jesus 🙏🏼

[signal salmon]

amen

say what?

oh..

[frosty sky]

noooooooooooo

[signal salmon]

im sorry im like kinda in your shoes but not really.. i have my pins in my shoulder bag pocket and if my parents find out who knows and i am fully expected to be kicked out

i hate that so much its 2 things i hate most 😭.

[frosty sky]

I once told my sister that i was a magical girl and she snitched to my mom

she crashed out

Basically cut off all my braided hair

in fear that I would not be a girl

(i lied)

[signal salmon]

go for it.

[frosty sky]

Good thing she promised she wont do it again

https://tenor.com/view/hypnospace-transgender-trans-rights-skeleton-gif-21237962

GOOD LUCK OUT THERE!!!!!!

(i give you my luck blessing)

[signal salmon]

i am too and im across the ocean

i need to deal with it.

stay safe

[frosty sky]

🥲

[signal salmon]

ping me i wanna hear from you

[frosty sky]

see ya then ^_^

[frosty sky]

^^^^^^^^

[loud ridge]

farewell., until we meet again

[signal salmon]

see u soooooooon

[digital tiger]

COLE MENTIONED I LOVE COLE

[swift spruce]

i lauv u transdome

[signal salmon]

hey how's it going?

I'm at work rn so

that's fair enougj

enough

that's good did you have to interact with your family yet or?

I would start saying how do they know it's true and stuff but yk it's easier said than done.

are you able to move somewhere with someone else?

I'm in a similar situation most of then are close but family or they are in social housing so I can't just move in

sorry.. hmm I'm unsure I suppose I'd just keep going and endure.

but idk what's best for you

[frosty sky]

Hyper return????

[loud ridge]

Ye

[frosty sky]

Yayyye

[loud ridge]

Oh btw congrats on the dreads

[frosty sky]

Today my album is released :3333

this week is peak

[swift spruce]

that's awesome news

[frosty sky]

check #yr-music :33333

[swift spruce]

okiii

[swift spruce]

aaaa my song is up on streaming services 🥺

that's so exciting

[frosty sky]

all plats?

[swift spruce]

i know it's on spotify, i haven't checked the other places yet cuz i got the notification while at work

[frosty sky]

can i tap in

[swift spruce]

like listen to it?

[frosty sky]

Yeah

[swift spruce]

yea i think spotify links are banned in the server but it's called god cannibal

[frosty sky]

right i forgot MG is anti spotify

i might need the link because spotify is kinda stupid with searches rn

[swift spruce]

my youtube is also in #yr-music which also has a song that isn't on spotify yet :]

[swift spruce]

i can dm it to u

[frosty sky]

Spotify links are actually allowed there

Why capping 😢

oh well just dm ^_^

[swift spruce]

oh they are? i just saw they weren't allowed in the server

so i figured that meant the whole server

[frosty sky]

No that's for #music

for other people's songs

[swift spruce]

oh interesting

ok posted it in #yr-music then

[frosty sky]

So I heard the song

I like the intro, very cool

[swift spruce]

yea it's doing rlly well on youtube!!

like 700 views, 150 or so likes

[frosty sky]

ouuuuu

[swift spruce]

i wouldn't have put it on spotify otherwise, but a lot of ppl seemed to like it so i decided to :]

[frosty sky]

My only critique is that More sauce should be added in the rest of the song

[swift spruce]

yea i only started music production properly about two weeks or so ago

so i'm still learning as i go

[frosty sky]

Understandable

excusable even

My beats were just as simple when I started

not much reverb though

[swift spruce]

here soon, if things go well, i'll hopefully be trained a bit by metaroom and learn a thing or two about theory

[frosty sky]

i just made trap beats when i was a noob

then sigilkore

then actual EDM

U will come a long way though

I see bangers from you on the way

[runic fable]

Just woke up and then had a conversation with my parents which resulted in them now going to call me by my trans name and pronouns

[left rivet]

Yoooo

Congrats!

[runic fable]

https://tenor.com/view/pot-of-greed-gif-18181316633661561088

[signal salmon]

rare parents w tbh hope mine would do that some time i doubt they will

[runic fable]

It’ll happen trust

[signal salmon]

they are east european and said negitive stuff about them in the past when they are on the news.

so.

im closest to only them.

and my family as a whole.

[frosty sky]

You win

[loud ridge]

W!

[frosty sky]

Warning do NOT check #selfie🤳fitpic🤳zone you will have an emoi overload

[inland schooner]

The dreads suit you really well! :D

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/nerissa-irving-dreadlocks-locs-smize-sensual-gif-16202897810596817023

[solid oasis]

Lala

random binding talk but I think i've perfected my method now bcs UNFORTUNATELY I have large booba and like. hmmm. most binders suck, trans tape only gets so far, etc

so I kinda combine them where I use the tape + bind so that The Uniboob doesn't happen. its ok enough

Ideally I'd like to just Not Care though (i'd like to be non-conforming in general) buuuuuuut it's a little different when most people in the area I live give u weird stares for that and shit, maybe that'll change when I move to the city though

(For context to most I appear to be a guy + my voice is deep, I've had people correct themselves going from "she" to "he" as soon as I talk, which is interesting too. Long hair and all)

[scenic falcon]

Cant believe that my mom clocked the fact that sophie was trans through her eyes. Cuz we were talkin about facial hair and stuff and I pulled up some pics of sophie on google and my mom said that her eyes looked "masculine" and if she did her eyebrows a little then she'd pass 100%

Cant believe that sometimes, u gotta go as far as working on small deets on your face like eyebrows or eyelashes to pass

[signal salmon]

idk passing is stupid

you are who u are 😭.

if you say youre a woman youre a woman 😭.

am i wrong?

[magic verge]

passing as a concept is silly because it relies on inherently misogynistic/racist/bioessentialist ideas of what women and men should look like, and because it's entirely subjective, but it also is important for trans people in hostile environments. if a trans woman were to outright say she's a woman while not "passing" enough while being in the wrong environment then she would be actively putting herself in danger. it shouldn't be the end-all of a person's transition because i think it's unrealistic to expect to never be clocked or misgendered but it's a valid thing to prioritize

that said clocking somebody based on fucking eyebrow shape is absurd and it does go to show that it's kind of impossible to pass 100% of the time

[signal salmon]

the people who say we can always tell can never tell.

[solid oasis]

Yeha real

[frosty sky]

in real life i pass as a gentleman

it's so ezzzzz

can't wait to steal makeup and go to an unhosted party for 30 mins and bring shit that i snuck in my backpack that feels hella wild

i might take a fitpic of that later on

[solid oasis]

irl i pass umm with my car i pass you on da highway

[frosty sky]

Passing lane

On the passing lane i do 80 mph plus

[next harbor]

and pass my turn

[frosty sky]

Because im kewl

[frosty sky]

recalculating

https://tenor.com/view/alebdo-anime-gif-18464526

[grand hearth]

A broken clock is right twice a day

I think if SOPHIE was cis and had the same exact features your mom would’ve said the same thing. People make assumptions that a woman is trans when her jaw is too sharp when there are plenty of cis women that look that way as well

[frosty sky]

Normalize having the mentality to ask for gender first and then assume that correct gender later ✨

It works every time!

[minor turret]

albe do

[signal salmon]

watching valorant womens esports live and looking at chat is the funniest thing ever. u get people saying they are ass and ask the dumbest question ever about the game. but funnier is that if theres any woman who isnt an 8/10 or higher in their eyes they just ask are they trans? 😭.

[next harbor]

Weird lady at the grocery store last night nearly got a long explanation as to how to be kind to ppl and how inherent kindness should be the default when it comes to interacting with other ppl in areas like groceries bc it's fucking stupid not to. U are so statistically likely to see that person again, esp at a smaller store. I'm just glad I keep being oblivious but my friends r always rly quick to notice that shit and I get anxious that they're gonna cause a scene but rightfully so, sorta? Idk, been feeling like I identify as a burden lately tbh. My mom and her new fiancé also call me A, which I've 1. never asked them to call me and 2. is the beginning of the old nickname and given at birth name that they probably think it's okay to still think of me as. If there's anything I'd want for Christmas, it's that they'd just call me my name. Why is that too much? Why do I feel like I'll "ruin the holidays" if I make a big deal for myself? :((

[loud ridge]

Dysphoria sucks

Esp when you can’t do anything about it

[frosty sky]

Today im in Florida

And im still wearing pants

Because my legs exposed gross me out

If i cant get a shave for my legs may as well conceal them >:3

only in december yall

[loud ridge]

holy moly welcome to Florida I’m a resident here

Hell on earth

[minor turret]

10-15 celcius is ideal temp

Or like 60 degrees in "freedom" units

[loud ridge]

Freedom units 😭

[golden plover]

Here there's snow on the ground

[frosty sky]

Its too hot for me :(

i cant

My mom gave me no choice but to wear shorts

[loud ridge]

I’ve lived here my whole life and I feel like I’m melting every second

[loud ridge]

Awh 🙁

[frosty sky]

Thankfuly i got enough lotion and everything

so i feel fine now

rn im in an uber to to kennedy space center

[golden plover]

Going to Space where you can escape Florida heat

[frosty sky]

Real

the only heat i fw is the omega kind

[runic fable]

My gift to you all this Christmas season

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/yugioh-trap-card-actual-trap-astolfo-astolfo-yugioh-gif-22170032

Pulling up to xmas with futanari power

yall mtfers and ftmers and all and none of the aboves arent ready

[signal salmon]

cool way of saying non binary pals i feel included

[frosty sky]

Yes i am THAT cool 😎

[inland schooner]

It's been 90-95°F in Australia 😭

[frosty sky]

How it feels to be in the Southern Hemisphere

I hear it's summer down there

https://tenor.com/view/alebdo-anime-gif-18464526

[scenic falcon]

If a femgirl is an effeminite girl, is tomboy a tomminite boy? 🤔

[sturdy sluice]

its true, i hate it here

[loud ridge]

Awww

[loud ridge]

How hot is it in August?

[mellow nimbus]

So real 🗣️ 🗣️ 🔥 I’m not medically transitioned at all, have long hair, sound feminine as hell and I like cross dressing yet I don’t care that I rarely pass nobody needs to follow gender rules to be valid (and somehow even with this I’ve been called a boy by strangers )

[loud ridge]

so real

I used to be called a boy a lot

When I was like 12

And through my 13’s

Puberty hit and all of a sudden I’m a girl now

My voice is kinda deep

Iv been called a guy online a lot in vcs

[mellow nimbus]

Somehow I used to get called a boy quite often when I was like 11 to 12 yet my face hadnt even become more masculine then 😭 😭 (I practically cheated puberty halfway since I have really high natural testosterone so facially I look more masculine even if I haven’t taken testosterone)

[loud ridge]

I have high cheekbones which makes it hard for me to pass

[solid oasis]

I have bones

[loud ridge]

My head was an EGG

😭

[solid oasis]

HELP I might’ve seen u share before I recognize the first one

[loud ridge]

I think I did

I’m trying not to fall victim to the pink ribbons rn

help

[mellow nimbus]

LOORDDD MY WIFI IS SLOW 🥀 🥀
I literally look like this rn yet somehow still pass kind of 😭 💀 (just spoiled for myself since I don’t like posting images of myself normally)

[loud ridge]

Fire fit

[mellow nimbus]

Ty bro

[solid oasis]

My self image is fucked bcs I constantly feel vastly diff than I look and therefor I don’t want to ruin the vibe I’ve already created for myself if that make sense?? I like the hair

I share sometimes but it’s moreso a “yes I am communicating from this body” rather than a “this is me guys!”

[mellow nimbus]

Yea I’m similar honestly I think I look entirely different to how I really do until I take a picture or see my reflection it’s really weird

[frosty sky]

lowkey wanna get my mom into buying me one from amazon

Or straight pulling up to an ikea

Yall waking up to reality is the worst hit for me

Because number one thing only

Is that my voice gets deeper than a demon

And i get the ability to lower it until the frequency hits zero 0_0

Its really sick af

[golden plover]

Oh, IKEA got a online store

[frosty sky]

Swag

Do they got low prices

[golden plover]

Default IKEA prices I think

Plus shipping probally

[signal salmon]

christmas was great with family thank to drinks (yk the kind just dont wanna say it for tw reasons) then politics came up and my uncle said theres 2 sides and 2 truths from each side always. and i was like is 2+2=4? and hes like no. techincally 2+2=4 is actuall equal to 3 and 3 and 4 and 2+2 os simplified and and 2 is actually somehting like 2.333333 and on something like that and hes like its russian higher level maths and changed the topic to trans people saying they are crazy and shit..

so yeah small vent it fucking bums me out. oh and im closeted and `they dont know im pansexual and non binary.

[inland schooner]

August is about 66°F but thats spring

[solid oasis]

new shiny self-descriptor has been adopted

faceted ("having many sides" / multiple times a day I cannot decide upon a definitive self or identity to "push")
cringe (yeah)
beast (i find comfort in being inhuman or the thought of anomalousness(?)/animalistic)

[frosty sky]

be the beast you wanna see!!!!

[solid oasis]

GRAAAA

[scenic falcon]

hey transdome, does your family open the presents on christmas eve? if you did what did you guys get?

[candid ore]

my family doesnt but my mom gave me one of my presents early :3 i gotsa steam deck

[signal salmon]

steam decks rule

[loud ridge]

I got a paper ticket to a machine girl concert

[signal salmon]

thats so cool

[golden plover]

Yes we celebrate on christmas eve, it's the correct day, because I don't like waiting for that long to give and get gifts.

I got big pillowb!!!!!!!! :3

Also I got a pretty black dress from ma gf a few days earlier.

.
And my sis got me a ring that actually fits

[solid oasis]

Ngl I dont have people to celeb with (and come to think of it I havent in the past besides when I was a peanut/like 6 yrs old) (i've separated myself from my fam pretty much)

I drove around a lot today and I did help a guy with his car that broke down though

And i got another big comm so thats cool

[minor turret]

🫂

[frosty sky]

my xmas day i played beach volleyball

When i go to the beach when im older i wish to be a real girl

And wear real girl things

And actually feel like it without any self applied stigma

[misty harness]

spoke to my grandfather for the first time since coming out. its been five years. he didnt have much to say and could barely hear me over the phone though. he's hardcore maga, mid eighties. having emotions rn.

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/madoka-magica-madoka-kaname-sayaka-miki-madosaya-wap-kingdom-gif-24015930

[signal salmon]

i know how you feel my family isnt even maga but transphobic asf.

at least they dont know.

[solid oasis]

Ouch..

[frosty sky]

So i Came out to a bunch of teens at a lounge and flexed my pronouns page

And omg

They were wilding out >_<

[frosty sky]

i somehow got more respect from cis girls than cis boys

How cooked is people????

https://tenor.com/view/alebdo-anime-gif-18464526

https://tenor.com/view/madoka-blushes-with-her-eyes-close-while-hugging-homakala-happily-gif-2443044664615946173

You will find a better crowd.

I know it!

[pulsar mortar]

reminiscing on when i first realized I was trans and it was genuinely so magical

I think it was the day of trans visibility and i was looking at a bunch of posts n stuff until something just clicked and i began thinking about my childhood until it just settled on me and i realized how much i had suppressed that feeling

and now ive been out as trans for a year which is crazy

also on another note it’s scarily surreal to be referred as what i want to be referred as

it’s way different irl than online

whenever my partner uses my name and pronouns, especially around his friends, it’s so shocking and i have to be like wait. That’s me!

he also made me a birthday card which had lyrics using he, boy, etc and I practically sobbed reading it out of pure joy

being trans is so beautiful

[frosty sky]

Irl hit way different because your physical appearance is way more different

It is a shock tbh

Deadass not used to it either

And ive been trying to do ts for a year

[pulsar mortar]

yes exactly

[solid oasis]

I still feel this to this day ngl lol

I think I adopted my identity when i was 15/16, roughly 10 years ago..? Agender, which I still am

it went from uh "they/them" to "he/they" "he/they/it" "it/its/they only"

and now its like.

it/they/he preferred in that order tbh (and "any", im now fine with she and its a bit better given my voice is usually seen as masc now)

pronounse 🗣️

Overall i'd rather be indecipherable and confusing

[frosty sky]

Shits reminding me of genderfuck ngl

[solid oasis]

yea me

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/gender-beam-gender-change-trans-beam-hitoribocchi-gif-13560097170527868285

https://tenor.com/view/colors-wit-studio-pairo-colors-gif-comp-sci-transition-boy-to-girl-anime-gif-1324653471667193829

[jagged quiver]

message i found in my friend groups old server.

Does She Know?

i went on a basically unprompted rant about how i think feminine features are just way better than masculine features and that having a vagina would be infinitely more fire but like not in a trans way guys

jfc

😭

[bronze ocean]

many such cases

the repper of repute

[misty harness]

been there

[frosty sky]

Deadass i qualify but lowkey still dont wanna identify

Magigirl is my label not transgender

And irl its demigirl

[jagged quiver]

i also consider myself demigirl

[frosty sky]

I can only do transfeminine since it doesn’t have the restriction feeling / stigma applied

[jagged quiver]

but i also consider myself trans

[frosty sky]

Im trans in transformed chat

Like perfect cell

:3

[jagged quiver]

its funny bc i found this during a bit of an imposter syndrome episode bc to my knowledge i didnt rlly show much "signs" (which is stupid in the first place but i digress) then i j find that LOL

[frosty sky]

Imposter syndrome is wild

I get that from LISTENING to my MUSIC

OFFLINE!!!

[solid oasis]

I think trans could fit just as an umbrella word, like, just meaning youre not cis but ig it depends upon what labels someone would wanna adopt

im like yeah agender whatever but would still say im trans

[frosty sky]

Realshit

So i say im trans but dont actually gotta be it

Literally

So i guess thats fine then

[elder saffron]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7XWZnTikZ2A

[frosty sky]

👀

Yeah i peeped that

Now I gotta tap in!!!!

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/lock-in-locked-in-locking-in-roaring-kitty-crypto-gif-16816117992045530733

[frosty sky]

helyeahhh

Soon as im 18 gang

https://tenor.com/view/homura-akemi-akemi-homura-madoka-magica-gif-4134395894905239393

[signal salmon]

run 😭.

people will chase you

[frosty sky]

Is it a cuddle or kill?

[signal salmon]

abuse

[frosty sky]

Fuck

https://tenor.com/view/homura-gun-gif-5183239036903534806

[candid ore]

new weird source of gender dysphoria: servers being shocked when i order my steak blue rare

[elder saffron]

The fuck is blue rare?

Is that like the shiny Pokemon of steaks? XD

[winter comet]

almost raw

[elder saffron]

Wack

[signal salmon]

it touched the searing pan for a second

[frosty sky]

https://tenor.com/view/magic-madoka-magica-gif-23872218

[elder saffron]

https://tenor.com/view/gordon-ramsay-raw-its-fucking-raw-gordon-ramsay-raw-raw-fish-gif-23700556

[frosty sky]

raw dog

in the name of god

[mossy gyro]

it's blue because it's evil

Evil steak

[signal salmon]

its blue becuase its cold

[frosty sky]

it's blue because blue is more powerful than red

https://tenor.com/view/dragon-ball-super-broly-goku-goku-transformation-super-saiyan-god-goku-super-saiyan-god-gif-25780444

[next harbor]

my therapist won't stop she/hering me even after we've been thru the whole song and dance and idk I feel so close to giving up on anyone her age even remotely relating to me on a level I'm comfortable with changing my whole ass insurance plan just to continue getting care from? plus my associated psychiatrist has had a few sessions of me saying I wanted to be on less varieties. This was also after the rare call with my mom, being she/her'd there and called an older name as if it was normal

I feel significantly let down, but if anyone was to ask if it wasn't also my fault I would bend and break to say "yes"

Idk what to do about either situation rly so I'm just gonna gain some distance for now but that's equally unhealthy in ways

[grand hearth]

Idk how feasible it is to do so for you right now but getting a different therapist would be reasonable at this point

[next harbor]

I've been with her for maybe like a year and a half and idk maybe she's the toriel figure I didn't know I had that I need to defeat by advocating for myself smh

I think you're right.. T_T

[next harbor]

Follow up question: do y'all think it's within any possibility that I could get a medical septoplasty to include some form of masculinization? I don't even know what I'd be looking for, honestly, but don't know if I'm just not understanding the process well enough. (I am bad with pics and related info)

[grand hearth]

So this is me coming in with caution from a more healthcare perspective and my own experiences, I would maybe think about

1. Your goals for transition (I don’t believe transition ever “ends” but think of it as an end point for now)
2. What things you have done for yourself so far to feel comfortable and match your gender identity
3. What things you haven’t done and want to do

I think this might be a helpful way to determine if that’s something you actually want to do. Just suggesting this knowing my own experiences with transition—there are aspects of my body I was more than ready to jump to surgery for because of how distressed they made me, only for the feeling to ebb and for me to even be okay with those features to the point where I second-guess if I even want surgery—all after doing a few things for my gender identity.

I don’t rlly care what anyone does with their body but since it sounds like you seem unsure of what you want to do for yourself and how you want to express your gender identity, I just thought I would offer my thoughts. Please forgive me if I’m reading you wrong, though..

[golden plover]

Estrogen

[signal salmon]

we love mailpup

[topaz rapids]

mailpup mentikneddddd

[dull raft]

mailpu!!p!!!!

[frosty sky]

sometimes i do the gender euphoric thing and just nightcore machine girl music when im offline

i feel either extra girly like girlbossy or straight up stimulated

(question is which album songs would YOU want to nightcore? Me personally i'd do either MG Ultra or some BIYAAHEYSF or some PsychoWarrior)

[left rivet]

Mg ultra and reporpoised phantasies for me

[frosty sky]

yeah i wana do that

those are very worth doing

especially infinite potentiality

omggg im trying tmrw

[solid oasis]

This is awesome

[digital geyser]

🔥

[frosty sky]

Reclaim momento