transdome

[spice sphinx]

KING OF PEAK

[strong heath]

my second radiohead vinyl 🙏

first was amnesiac i love that record to death

[spice sphinx]

You understand things most radiohead fans could NEVER

[strong heath]

thank you for the recognition

[bright bane]

Do you guys also hate the ppl that say "I can always tell when you're on your period because you get so bitchy"

It's not a hormonal problem if I hate you every day of the month broski ❤️

[spice sphinx]

Real

[frozen breach]

oh dude this shit pisses me off so much

I don't even get periods now because of hrt, so now the thing ppl say is "oh you must be acting this way because of the testosterone, you never used to be so aggressive"

huh yeah almost like it wasn't socially acceptable for me to be publicly aggressive until like a year and a half ago. crazy how that works

[bright bane]

I hate when ppl assume we're gonna be balls of sunshine and puppies just bc we're trans 💀

I will verbally assault you and sleep fine at night I don't have time to live up to the "soft uwu trans boy" stereotype

And no hate to anyone that is trans and tries to be super nice and considerate ofc, but we're all different humans with different personalities

[unborn atlas]

are you a steven universe trans man or a TITANE trans man?

[bright bane]

I've gotten into arguments with other trans dudes and been gagged so hard it's crazy, they're better at this than cis guys

[unborn atlas]

I've been burned by every demographic, I think

I am weary of this certain brand of overly positive "trans people are better" rhetoric I see from a lot of recently out trans people and I always roll my eyes at it

not because it's wrong, ultimately I do agree, but let me tell you, trans polycule breakup drama is downright apocalyptic

damn I wanna watch Titane now

[spice sphinx]

https://tenor.com/view/harry-mason-silent-hill-gif-23102943

Me searching far and wide for monogamous tgirls

[unborn atlas]

haha yeah 🚬

[bright bane]

Me searching far and wide for any tgirls

[bright bane]

There's gotta be some here in florida I just know it.. maybe they're hiding

[spice sphinx]

HAIIII :3

[bright bane]

Haiaiiiii

[spice sphinx]

I am resident florida tgirl

[unborn atlas]

they all moved over to Atlanta

[bright bane]

At this rate I might follow

[unborn atlas]

I prolly will eventually

[bright bane]

I wanna leave the south but at the same time I don't wanna go too far up north. Their weather and way of life frightens me

[unborn atlas]

Atlanta is weird for a southern state

apparently it's pretty progressive

Little Five Points had immense trans energy

[bright bane]

A lot of the coffee joints in my area are super queer without realizing it. It'll be a far right company and have like 5 Trans ppl working it's so funny. I appreciate it though because they're the only ones who know how to make coffee right

[spice sphinx]

I’m trying my hardest to move to nevada with a friend as fast as possible

Florida is a hell state

[bright bane]

I need some place warm and humid if I moved to a snowy state I'd never leave the house 😭

[spice sphinx]

After living in florida my whole life I need somewhere cold and dry

[bright bane]

Kinda funny how white people evolved to withstand colder climates but I can't handle anything under 65 F

[spice sphinx]

It’s mainly the humidity that gets me tbh

Dry cold is so much easier to deal with than wet cold

[unborn atlas]

ancient white people phrase: it's not the heat it's the humidity

[spice sphinx]

The ancient caucasus people explaining to the other indo-european tribes that they are experiencing the first “white boy summer”

[unborn atlas]

hahaaaa

[bright bane]

Every "Hold your horses" person needs their "It's the humidity" person

[unborn atlas]

now listen here buster

[bright bane]

Son of a gun

[unborn atlas]

there's this new zealand show called Wellington Paranormal

that's very funny

and there's an episode where they learn the police station is built on an "ancient pakeha (white person) burial ground"

and their chief (who's Maori) gets possessed and starts running around with a golf club saying things like IT'S NOT THE HEAT IT'S THE HUMIDITY

[spice sphinx]

I’m just a lil southern gal I’m allowed to have my southernly sayings 😭

[unborn atlas]

southerners are genuinely charming

my bf has an accent and oaghe 🫀

[spice sphinx]

Mine only creeps up sometimes like when I’m around my family or whatever

Floridians don’t normally have the southern drawl

[austere jay]

i feel like they have the right idea about it but refuse to be fully realistic

everyone sucks. that’s just what it is to be human

in general i prefer trans people in every way possible. doesn’t mean trans people are incapable of being horrible people. i feel like a lot of newly out people hate to even think about other trans individuals not being good people all the time

[unborn atlas]

it's just early optimism

second puberty

[austere jay]

that’s true

unavoidable in most cases i suppose

[unborn atlas]

you're so real for this

[austere jay]

whenever i figured out trans people won’t always like me just because i am also trans (at the ripe age of like 14) shit broke my heart lol

part of aging

in general i just thinks trans people do everything in life better to a degree. i think transitioning and questioning your gender frees up your mind in a lot of other ways

[unborn atlas]

you see the code

[austere jay]

i do

cis people hate me

actually that’s untrue. i regularly talk to cis people in my circles about how trans people do it better 99% of the time and they usually agree with me

i make a really compelling point

[unborn atlas]

they're also cowards that want to show that they're allies

you can exploit this and say increasingly off colour shit

[small sand]

HEHAHEHHAHE THy didnt even send any prescription

like i was waiting for nothing

they must be some other level of stupid how does that happen

[misty harness]

my gf is an expert at this

[small sand]

Got it.

[austere jay]

oh trust me i do

getting into the fringe transgender shit

[austere jay]

lfg

[grand hearth]

shark boy and lava girl different than I remember

[real meadow]

theyre t4t

[grand hearth]

true

[unborn atlas]

aren't they siblings??

[real meadow]

WAIT ARE THEY

[unborn atlas]

oh nope they are a couple

[grand hearth]

They aren’t!

[real meadow]

you scared me

[grand hearth]

Yeah

[unborn atlas]

oh sure showed me

[frozen breach]

me and who

i love straight t4t relationships because it feels like im minmaxing

like its one of the queerest straight relationships you can have

[unborn atlas]

what does queer mean anyway

[stuck dew]

[frozen breach]

no clue tbqh

[small sand]

What would happen if i ate all the oestrogen

[frozen breach]

too much girl

rip ardvarrk she overdosed on girl pills 😔

but fr I don't think you would like die or anything, but I recommend taking the dose you were prescribed and not messing with that before consulting with ur doctor

[spice sphinx]

Increased risk of heart attack or stroke

[small sand]

‘Increased risk of breast cancer’ i think thats because theres increased risk of breast

[bronze ocean]

thatas literally it yes

[bronze ocean]

you'd waste a lot of estrogen

youd get like no effects and youd piss most of it out

[small sand]

• and die

[bronze ocean]

nah you wouldnt die

[small sand]

It smelled like hand sanitizer

I think they put something in it

[bronze ocean]

wait is it estrogel

[small sand]

Ye i think

[bronze ocean]

oh

yeah you'd die from the alcohol

buuuut

the estrogen itself wouldnt be the problem

[small sand]

I want to die from estrogen not alchohol thats boring

Rather

I dont want to die

That was the worst sentence i think i’ve ever done i said voring and accidentally said i wanted to die this this tops it

[timid grail]

just wanted to share something nice that happened the other day but so ive had trouble only at one singular place getting my deadname changed with my cellphone carrier and i had to pick up a package from fedex and i explained to the woman working that my deadname they put on the package isnt my real name and she asked for my real name immediately and pronouns and said that her son is like me. and when i thanked her she was like it doesnt take much to not be a dick about that kind of thing and it was just really sweet idk

still thinking about it. i always feel shitty dealing with stuff still having my deadname when i legally changed it so it really made me feel better to be treated so respectfully

even tho theres a lot of shitty stuff happening out there theres lots of people who care about trans people and treating us as equals and it was a nice positive reminder of that

[grand hearth]

Do y’all have any ideas what to do with empty T/HRT bottles

I’m hording them because I want to make a project with them but not sure

[balmy pond]

i know theres a girl out there who'll make jewelry from your old bottles, but i forget her IG handle

[grand hearth]

oh I def should hit up a craft store today then

I want to do some sculpture shit

Also I think it would be funny as shit to turn them into fairy lights but that’s not really what I’m going for

[austere jay]

i’m planning on making a bolo tie with one of mine

just need to figure out how to effectively sanitize it before hand

[frozen breach]

if you find/remember her IG then please ping me here omg

ive had these two empty T vials sitting on my desk for ages because i want to make earrings out of them but i dont know how

[unborn atlas]

I had a similar idea with my old cyproterone bottles

I wanted to make them into a medi-son

[austere jay]

thought about making a string of my vials with no lights or anything for new apartment next year but eh

thought it would be cool to commission a local chain mail artist to make a piece featuring a vial

[grand hearth]

I’m wanting to make like sculpture using that and anatomy models but I’m gonna figure where to source the models or if I want to use those

[balmy pond]

i wanna make mine into a pendant that looks like it gives you +10% max HP or something like that

[grand hearth]

I’ve seen some people make like lava lamp type stuff with em hehehe

[balmy pond]

oooooh that fucks

but nah i wanna wear mine as the most OP piece of gear you can acquire in the game

[grand hearth]

Fuck yeah

[final heart]

Computer

[grand hearth]

huh

[final heart]

Make computer from it :)

Heheheheheh

[austere jay]

great news

final top surgery letter secured

scheduling my appt tomorrow

[final heart]

YAY

[tardy creek]

@final heart has leveled up! (0 ➜ 1)

[austere jay]

anyone know about diy t

might need it

insurance fucking me over big time

[austere jay]

no more top surgery and probably no more t for me

fuck you washington state

[small sand]

ohhh ughhh

[frozen breach]

oh shit Vinny that sucks so hard, I'm so sorry :(

[austere jay]

genuinely some of the most soul crushing news i’ve ever received

i’m going to work my ass off to possibly have a shot at getting my insurance back/getting new insurance but we might be diying for a bit

[austere jay]

thank you so much :, )

[bright bane]

Sometimes I hate the fact I will never be cis. But then I start to love it because I will never be like those cis male teenagers who went down the alt right pipeline at 10 and have since lost all empathy. I will also never be one of those cis male 20 year olds who think the world owes them everything since that's how their fathers raised them.

I think that's something to embrace very tightly

[frozen breach]

^^^^ as a guy who came very close to going down the incel alt-right path but managed to pull myself out with the help of my fellow trans folks, this is so so real

(i wanna clarify that this was years ago before i was very politically knowledgeable and i never got deep enough in it that i was actually espousing bigotry)

but yeah being trans is a super unique and intense and valuable experience and i think now that i'm at a point in my transition where dysphoria is at an all-time low i really dont have much of a desire anymore to be a cis man or to live as a cis person. basically i love the trans community rahhhhh!!!!

[spice sphinx]

Shoutouts to all the other trans women who dress/present very butch or whatever I think I’m finally embracing what I am

I’ve always held the idea of “I am a woman on my own terms” very closely but sometimes it’s hard to actually back it up in practice when people see me as masc for wearing dress shirts n slacks n stuff all the time

But yeah fuck em, doesn’t make me any less cunty

[valid sun]

hi transdome, dont really have a friend i can vent this to (already did to my partner). unfortunately had to deal with hefty transphobia in the classroom at college (in a way that wasn't necessarily "crude" so i can't really report it, but my professor was aware and apologized) and it kinda broke me. didnt defend myself or even say anything cause i didnt wanna break my stealth. i feel better now i distracted myself but it's been on my mind and makes me feel like shit when i think about it. idk if any other person has felt this way but nowadays i dont even want the topic to come up publicly at all even if it's a positive thing, probably just because ive heard too much negative shit and been going thru it. tomorrow will be better though, i just have to move on from it. surprised it hurt me so bad to be honest, it wasn't something insane but definitely not something i wanted to hear about for 4 minutes straight

ill prolly do my shot tonight since im already a day late, that might help my mood mellow out

[bright bane]

"Gender reassignment is mutilation" I assume other surgeries are too then? Why get a cavity filled when it's in mild pain? You can live with it right??
Why get your wisdom teeth removed? You can live with some jaw pain every day, it's not like it's gonna kill you.
Suck it up, God wanted you to have those cavities and those wisdom teeth right? You should be satisfied with what he gave you

[final heart]

i don't care what "opticians" you go to, you will always be blind. even if you can see through your glasses you're still blind idc. god made you blind for a reason so you should just accept it

/s ofc , like this shit is Literally what people are saying when they hold this opinion on gender reassignment

[bright bane]

You're missing a leg? Why would you get a prosthetic?? Clearly you were meant to struggle on one leg for the rest of your life, just accept it and move on

[chrome snow]

Yet those same motherfuckers don't have the same energy with people getting nose jobs and botox lips.

[bright bane]

Girls will enlarge their ass to 4x the size of their skull then turn around and shit talk trans gender affirmation surgery

[frozen breach]

transphobes piss me off primarily because their ideology is shit, but their constant and ridiculous inconsistency just makes them all the more infuriating

like if they reacted negatively to trans surgeries because they genuinely believe all surgeries/medical procedures/"plastic surgeries"/etc are mutilation or dangerous or w/e, then they would still be wrong and annoying, but it is so painfully obvious that it's all just targeted at us

transphobes would rather live with absolutely comical levels of hypocricy and cognitive dissonance than have their worldview challenged

[last pilot]

I feel the need to share this with yall.
I was in art history class today and my professor mentioned this one Czech artist. Assigned female at birth, they went for their entire art career with gender neutral name. Fellas my jaw dropped at that moment.

[unborn atlas]

oh yeah there's a couple examples of trans people

you know about Public Universal Friend?

[austere jay]

the realest

[chrome snow]

OH MY FREAKING GOSH

I swear, I am so close to getting a pentagram tattoo on my leg.

I want to get something simple and I feel like a pentagram would be right up my alley.

[tender silo]

DO IT !!!! that would be so cool

[chrome snow]

sometimes I wish that I could transition to be a little more feminine but I cant atm

but if getting a small pentagram tattoo can give me a little bit of euphoria

Ill take it!

[clear zodiac]

i want to get top surgery and i found a surgeon with highly reputable reviews

now i have to talk with her and find out the cost of the surgery and figure out if my insurance will cover the costs

[chrome snow]

BWORD!

[bright bane]

Being scared to admit you like guys as a trans dude because people go "oh so you're basically a straight woman"

[frozen breach]

god real...

for me it was the opposite though cuz all my friends before I came out were the kind of queer ppl who were like "ew all straight men are gross" so I didn't want to tell them I only liked girls

kinda feels like no matter who you're attracted to as a trans person somebody is gonna have an issue with it

[balmy pond]

yea the cissies will find a way to make you feel like shit for being you, no matter what

my favorite part about being a transbian is having the neurosis over whether or not youre being predatory multiplied a thousandfold :>

[frozen breach]

oh god i can't even imagine

a big reason why im t4t is because i feel like other trans ppl are the only ones who wont have a weird issue with every single microscopic aspect of my existence as a trans person

[bronze ocean]

and even then you can get unlucky 😔

[bright bane]

Cis ppl are neurotic.
If I get with a guy I'm "just a straight woman trying to be special"
If I get with a girl I'm "just a lesbian who's confused"

[frozen breach]

RIGHT there is literally no winning

[spice sphinx]

I’m in a t4t relationship with my bf rn and it’s so frustrating because even OTHER TRANS PEOPLE will assume we are just a cis het couple because we don’t “pass” all the time

Sometimes you just can’t win and gotta take solace that the person you’re with knows you for who you are and appreciates that

[clear zodiac]

cisgender people actually piss me off sometimes

[bright bane]

I wish every transgender a pleasant trans visibility day and easter. The rest of yall... hi ig 😒

[frozen breach]

"sometimes" is generous lmao

i have some wonderful friends and people in my life who are cis so its not rlly about individuals, more so just cisnormative culture and how the culture and politics around gender that cis ppl have created are the biggest causes of most of the shitty things we have to deal with

[bright bane]

I still remember when my uncle asked me "how is the t-word a slur?? I hear trans people use it all the time?" 💀

Guys why is the N-word considered a slur? I hear black people use it all the time? 🥺🥺

[tacit burrow]

How do other transgirl manage to tuck?? I watched an actual tut on it and it involves TAPE?!

[grand hearth]

do NOT put tape ANYWHERE near your genitals!

Tapping the sign furiously

[misty harness]

you can get a gaff or thick, somewhat tight panties which will maintain a tuck for a while. i haven't used it but pretty much every resource ive read recommends unclockable's kits, but they're single use and too expensive for daily wear. ive seen a lot of people general medical tape but you have to be careful with applying it and obv you can't use the restroom without undoing it. like systems said do not not use general purpose tape like duct or scotch tape ever

[balmy pond]

Literally all I do is wear one of my old compression boxers over a tight pair of panties. Not perfect but gets the job done; if anyone notices by then it's on the perv for staring at strangers crotch

||also wearing skirts and dresses helps for days I don't give a fuck lol||

[clever badge]

shoutout to skirts that have those folds in them (idk how else to describe them) it helps with bottom dysphoria so much

[valid sun]

pleated i think is the word

[fickle cypress]

so real tbh

[bright bane]

My Roman empire is the fact that my uncle is pro abortion but anti trans healthcare

"Yes! Abortion is a woman's right! Amen! Her body her choice! But you should never ever get your breasts removed because I think it's wrong"

[clear zodiac]

i mean my boobs cause me sweat and pain

they’ve gotten me mistaken for a girl

there’s no reason to be against trans healthcare

[grand hearth]

my relationship with my chest is complicated

I don’t want to remove any tissue but I feel best when I look down and they’re not sticking out

[frozen breach]

it's so fascinating to me how many people out there believe trans men should have even less legal bodily autonomy than cis women

obviously they dont want any trans people to have bodily autonomy, but i especially find the weird specific infantilizing sexism that comes with being seen as a "confused lesbian" or a "girl playing dress-up" so interesting

[grand hearth]

gross

[frozen breach]

evil world

[grand hearth]

I think it’s all a part of AFAB people not being taken seriously really

[frozen breach]

oh absolutely

[grand hearth]

I get things explained to me like I know nothing in medical school

I find myself cutting men (colleagues) off a lot because they’re going a direction entirely different than my question

[frozen breach]

i'm out at school in the sense that i don't hide that i'm trans but i also don't explicitly tell people, and i definitely notice a difference between the treatment i get from cis men who think i'm cis and cis men who know i'm trans

[grand hearth]

“Hey so what is this concept”
“ hmmmm yes what is it really. Let’s start from the beginning of mankind…”

my autistic cis woman friend: “it’s just [insert very simple explanation]”

[frozen breach]

oh my god real

i'm in a class on avant-garde film this semester and there are a couple of cis dudes in there who just completely dominate the conversation and make it so awkward for everyone else

[grand hearth]

blech

there’s a certain genre of film guy

[frozen breach]

one of my friends (nonbinary afab, very fem presenting) will say literally any opinion ever and there's always two or three guys who cant wait to disagree with them

[frozen breach]

luckily theyre outnumbered in all my classes, but there indeed is a certain genre of film guy unfortunately

[grand hearth]

the other day we were practicing intubation on dummies and my left hand is injured so I was having trouble

Guy was like “yeah you just have to understand the physics of it”

“I know the physics MY LEFT HAND IS INJURED”

I have TENDINITIS IN THERE JACKASS

[frozen breach]

like this person asked for clarification on a concept and this one dude started bringing up freud or whatever and monologued for five whole minutes, and then the professor just went "yeah its this" and they got it instantly

[frozen breach]

oh god ugh

[grand hearth]

Oh my fucking god

[frozen breach]

just jacking himself off over how smart he thinks he is

[spice sphinx]

Avant garde film class sounds like hell on earth

If only for the fact that it’s something cis dudes would be drawn to

[frozen breach]

i mean the subject matter is really interesting and i have a really incredible professor (he's my advisor and probably my favorite human being on campus), but yeah there are exactly the kind of dudes you would expect to be in a class like that

[bright bane]

I never ask my uncle to explain stuff bc he'll use big words to try and sound smart but he can't actually put them together in a way that makes sense so it sounds like gibberish. Then he gets mad when I point it out lmao

[frozen breach]

average cis male explanation /hj

[bright bane]

The only man I trust to genuinely explain something to me is my 6th grade history teacher

Because he isn't worried about keeping up the "so cool so smart" look he just wants to answer you

[frozen breach]

yeah thats how i feel about my film professor

if he doesnt know the answer he'll just tell you so up front which is something i find really admirable

[bright bane]

I still remember the time I told the same uncle I started listening to goreshit and he was like "eww their music sucks" but couldn't give me any reason for hating it other than the fact it's fast paced

[frozen breach]

bruh

[bright bane]

Then he got offended when I started arguing back

[frozen breach]

this is tangentially related, but i hate when people say "this thing is bad" when wat they mean is "i dont like this thing"

insane that grown adults cant distinguish between fact and opinion tbh

[bright bane]

"I have the right to an opinion"
If I'm eating mint ice cream and you come up to me saying "that flavor fucking sucks you should never eat that" obviously I'm gonna be a little pissed

[frozen breach]

real asf

or even if i order mint ice cream and you make a point to be like "well i dont like mint ice cream, i would never order it" like ok dont order it then???

[bright bane]

I just stopped talking to him about my interests eventually cause he always has shit to say. Anything different from his interests is horrible and garbage according to him.

Then he texts me asking "why don't you reach out anymore?" 💀💀

[frozen breach]

astronomical levels of cringe

[bright bane]

"I think your interests are cringe and you're a sad basement dweller of a teenager. But come back tomorrow so I can pick on you again"

[misty harness]

someone put my phone number on a republican advertising list and I cannot opt out of it and I get texts fucking daily about shit including very transphobic talking points and I'm genuinely considering changing my phone number just to make it stop

Fuck whoever put me on this list with my deadname for real, it was probably my grandfather tbh but fr fuck off

It pisses me off so much that I cannot have them remove me from this list at all because you can't opt out of political ads

[frozen breach]

that's actually so fucked holy shit

I think you'd be justified in changing ur number because of this tbh, it just sucks that there's no other way to stop seeing that crap

[misty harness]

It's a different number every time and they only have to respect the STOP text per number. The way they set things up is they have volunteers use their personal numbers to blast out messages to people in their lists, so it doesn't get caught by robo messaging rules either.

trust me I've looked into this several times, I've even sent complaints to the FCC about several numbers

there's a set of master lists of contact infos that various republican groups copy, and they share and merge lists regularly. if you file a request to be removed on one, it's already on a bunch of others that will get propagated over time to other organizations

it's fucking ridiculous, all so that they can spam out their hateful shit begging for donations

[austere jay]

my honest response to people who refer to me as any sort of woman or “confused lesbian” is to simply point out that they are delusional

that’s a delusional attitude to harbor

in my opinion is takes zero effort to look at a trans person and see them for the gender they are

[balmy pond]

It takes more effort to see trans folks as anything but their gender imo

I think a lot of those people are just doing it to be dicks. They don't actually care about our gender just hurting us

Sad

[clever badge]

objectively correct! i think a lot of media (whether it's poor representation in tv/pop culture, news or just any other form of mainstream discussion of trans people) obfuscates the fact that trans people are also just people

there's always this bigger 'discussion' in everyone's head but god. it's so simple to just view someone as a person regardless of what this discussion is

fucking pronoun pins?? it says it right there??

[gentle hearth]

I have started to trans my gender with hormones 🥰💗🏳️‍⚧️

[misty harness]

lets goooooooooo

[chrome snow]

BWORDED

[gentle hearth]

What's bworded?

[chrome snow]

Based

It's a long story but I'm not allowed to say the word.

:((

[gentle hearth]

:(

[spice sphinx]

Is anyone here on estrogen patches?

Are they particularly expensive because I’m really starting to hate injections

Fucked it up trying to inject 3 different times today and I cried + my insurance refuses to cover it anymore so I’m screwed

[chrome snow]

https://www.drugs.com/price-guide/estradiol-patch#:~:text=The cost for Estradiol Patch,on the pharmacy you visit.

They don't go above the $100 range.

[frozen breach]

don't have advice on the patches but omg fucking up the injection a billion times is so real 😭

my mom was like "how have you gone through seven syringes in three weeks" and i was like "well you see"

[spice sphinx]

Recently it’s been hard for me to do it consistently idk why, I used to never have issues injecting but this past month it’s made me super nervous and I fuck it up a lot

[frozen breach]

yeah!! in the past it's been fairly easy, but the past three or four injections have been super weird

i'm not nervous i don't think?? idrk what the issue is lmao it's really annoying

[balmy pond]

I feel like it's the sort of thing where you fuck up once you kinda freak yourself out and make yourself tense going forward so your more prone to mistakes

I've noticed that with myself recently. Gave myself a boo-boo-owie and now it's way harder for me to get in my flow state ;-;

[austere jay]

my advice as a weekly shot taker: put on a show or video that you enjoy and can watch/listen to while you do your shot. obviously you’re going to want to pay attention to setting up and doing the shot, but it’s massively helpful to me to have a pleasant distraction in the background while i do my shot. don’t be afraid to do it at your desk or in your room if it’s more comfortable and less scary than doing it in the bathroom. remember to breathe, not to slow or too fast, but a normal, steady pace

if i’m having a particularly hard time doing my shot one day, it’s been helpful for me to think about the long term goals i am chipping away at my doing my shots, and how worth it everything will be in the end. being willing to inject yourself to reach a personal goal is absolutely huge and you should be very proud of yourself for even trying to do it!

[frozen breach]

tbh i think that might be it for me

i fucked up a couple weeks ago and now i go into it like "oh shit what if i fuck up"

also the issue for me might also be that ive been doing injections in basically the same two or three sites for the past year and a half so there may be scar tissue developing thats harder to pierce through idk

doing injections did genuinely help me mostly get over my fear of needles so that hasnt been an issue for a very long time

[spice sphinx]

Wait can that happen??? Cause when I was trying to inject yesterday it felt way harder than usual to push the needle in

[grand hearth]

I’m not sure how much of this is a given but do not use a needle more than once

When I say this, this includes draw + inject

Needles are intended for single use and they dull each time they puncture something

So trouble injecting could possibly due to needle dullness if you aren’t using separate gauges for draw and inject

[frozen breach]

i think so??? my mom told me that might be whats going on and shes been working as a nurse for 20+ years so i'm inclined to believe her

[grand hearth]

Yeah scar tissue is a thing

Rotating sites helps a lot but I don’t think I’m doing that enough haha

[austere jay]

rotate which side you do your shot in if you do sub q t shots in your tummy, you will grow hair around the injection site and if you only do one side you will only grow more hair around there and you will look lopsided

ask me how i know lol

[grand hearth]

hehe I like how hair has been growing on my belly

[frozen breach]

tbh my tummy has so much hair on it by now tgat even if i exclusively did my injections on one side (which i dont lol i do rotate weekly), it may not make much visual difference

im hairier than a lot if the cis guys in my life at this point its so

[empty goblet]

good morning

[fickle cypress]

is it ok to take french fry from the family of four next to me without asking

[bright bane]

Take a handful

[fickle cypress]

has any transfemme person here or anyone on estrogen tried using pasties? my breasts are extremely sensitive so i haven’t been wearing a bra as often but my ||nipples|| have been visible through my shirt as my breasts are growing. would pasties hurt to put on take off? never tried them but ever cute shirt i wear it’s obvious that my pepperonis are poking through

[bright bane]

I've never worn them myself but my mom has and she says they're a lot more comfortable

[red hawk]

Tbh e patches are more painful than pasties

[austere jay]

would recommend the nipple covers that trans tape makes, you can buy them separate on their website. never had a problem with them

[fickle cypress]

wwww, thank y’all

[gentle hearth]

any recommendations for good boymodder bras? my nips keep getting pointier and eventually i'm going to need to hide it

[tardy creek]

@gentle hearth has leveled up! (12 ➜ 13)

[tender silo]

as a trans guy: my ~15$ sports bra from target works pretty well ! brand is "all in motion"

[gentle hearth]

Thanks fellas

[tender silo]

o7

[last pilot]

I have an appointment with my psychiatrist tomorrow and I would love to come out to her but I’m so nervous- and I don’t know how I should start-

[frozen breach]

dude i feel this so hard, coming out to doctors is so nerve-wracking

cuz like in theory they should be super chill about it because theyre trained medical professionals but that does not fucking stop some people lol

do you know if your psych is generally accepting of trans people? if they are then my advice is to just rip the band-aid off. maybe say smth along the lines of "this is something i've known about myself for a while, i just wasn't quite ready to share it with you until today. i think you knowing this about me will be beneficial to our relationship and conversations" (thats basically the script i used when i came out to my therapist a couple years ago; it may not work for u but it went very well for me so i thought jt might be a good starting point)

oh yeah update on my injections being super weird: i did mine today in a spot on my tummy where i dont usually do them, and i used syringes that actually let me swap the needle out, and it went fine. problem solved i guess 🤷‍♂️

[clear zodiac]

idk if i can inject myself

probably not i’d need someone to inject my testosterone for me

preferably a doctor

[opal dock]

If you have prescription vials of T you may be able to get them injected in a clinic (blood testing/injections)

Self injection is scary TwT

I might move to weekly injections of my E hormones cuz it's a hassle dissolving my pills twice a day

[grand hearth]

T injections have gone well for me but I’m also very desensitized to self administration lol

[grand hearth]

I actually got a shitton of T because I had a refill for SIX 1 ML BOTTLES

I went “hmm that’s weird why is it $25 this time”

I don’t remember getting a script for that at all but hey I’ll take it

[balmy pond]

@me when I took out my last epill script before I switched to shots so I have like 3 months stockpiles

[frozen breach]

dude i remember crying and being shaky and nauseous for my first T shot and now its the easiest thing in the world

ive gotten so so desensitized

even for like the first couple months of injections i had to lie down and drink water afterwards cuz i would get dizzy, but now its like a four minute ordeal maximum

its wild how far ive come from nearly passing out at the appointment where they were showing me how to do the self-injections

[bright bane]

I'm praying that when I start T I'll be calm enough to inject myself.
I've been less stressed during vaccines and blood draws recently so hopefully 🙏🙏

I remember as a toddler I was so scared of shots that they'd have like 3 nurses come in and hold me down while I screamed and kicked. All over a tiny injection

[grand hearth]

It might be a little different if you know you’re the one administering it

it could make it better because you’re in control of it and don’t anticipate it so much

[bright bane]

True.. most of my worry stems from thinking "are they gonna pinch my arm super hard? Are they gonna tell me to cough? Are they gonna go too deep?"

[frozen breach]

yeah those are the main things that make me afraid of needles/injections as well and they're all non-factors with self-injections

[spice sphinx]

Tbh for me it’s just been the pain and nervousness and general uncertainty of intramuscular injections

If it was subcutaneous I don’t think I’d have a problem but since I’m extremely skinny it feels like the needle is always too long and hits something too deep and it makes my skin crawl

[austere jay]

reminder that there are auto injectors you can use that make it far easier

[balmy pond]

ive heard very good things about them from local femmes, never tried one myself tho

[balmy pond]

yea tbh i don't know if i'd be able to do shots if didn't have some cushioning lol

[frozen breach]

^^^^^

[balmy pond]

not a day goes by where i dont think about it, and i live in a super progressive state. i can't image what folks elsewhere are thinking

tbh the only thing that's helped me is to link up with other people like me. u know, community and all that bullshit; find other trans women, try making friends. its not much but at least then i know im not alone, and if the worst comes to pass i wont be alone. bad girls have each others back n such

[frozen breach]

fr!! like i know i'm very lucky because i go to school in massachusetts and my permanent residence is in new york, but it's still really fucking scary

something that scares me as well is that if legal access to hrt is cut off then i'll basically be screwed because not only is T a lot harder to synthesize than E, it's a controlled substance and illegal possession of it is a federal crime (and i wouldn't be surprised if they tried to criminalize it further tbh). i've heard that some states are considering trying to make estrogen a controlled substance as well purely to screw over trans people even further, and that's scary as fuck too

[true elm]

As a Wyoming resident I don’t wish to be a Wyoming resident

[chrome snow]

All my homies hate Wyoming.

Fuck Wyoming.

[true elm]

Real

[misty harness]

literally me I have vivid memories of being held down by multiple nurses screaming NOOOO when I was little

[gentle hearth]

I did my first injection on my own last friday and i was fully locked in, but after i screamed like a little bitch

[balmy pond]

Just got my name change!!!!

[grand hearth]

WOOHOOOOOOO

LESS GOO

[unborn atlas]

fuck yea

[spice sphinx]

egregore is a really good word

can never hear that one enough

It's up there with words like "petrichor"

[balmy pond]

The most real thing about the token trans lady in Saga is her name being Petrichor

[tardy creek]

@balmy pond has leveled up! (19 ➜ 20)

[austere jay]

unironically how magic works and they are right

[misty harness]

yooooooooooooooo lets fuckin gooooo

[gentle hearth]

LETS FUCKING GO

[clear zodiac]

yesterday i got a call from my therapist, and she sent a referral for a therapist that specializes in gender affirming care

[grand hearth]

I’m apparently growing beard hair?????

Somehow I didn’t notice this???

I am unkempt because I’m biding time before date tonight

finally. I can achieve my dream of becoming wolverine. And grow mutton chops.

[bright bane]

UF trans Healthcare center denied me for being a minor BUT my mom has a friend at planned parenthood who's currently trying to squeeze me in for therapy/counseling

[gentle hearth]

LETS GOOOO

[deep oak]

nya

[gentle hearth]

Growing breasts is so painful ;-;

Worth it tho. My body is doing a good job and I'm proud of my little cells >:3

[bright bane]

Ugh yea I think that was the worst part of starting puberty for me. I still get occasional pinching pains in them, can't wait to get these freeloaders off

[gentle hearth]

Yeah the pain is definitely not worth it if you don't want them. I wish you the best ❤️

[chrome snow]

FUCK YEEEEEEEEE

[frosty ice]

massaging them often really helped with the pain for me, helps to stimulate growth overall too : )

[gentle hearth]

Oh yeah I've heard of that. I've been giving them plenty of attention lol

[deep oak]

God I love Taiwanese HRT so much

[bright bane]

It looks like candy

https://tenor.com/view/man-running-out-of-restaurant-man-eating-man-eating-and-running-cartoon-eating-cartoon-man-running-gif-24721662

[gentle hearth]

Yummy estrogen Skittles 😋

[bright bane]

Update, I didn't get much information but she's gonna tell me more tomorrow, my mom's friend ended up squeezing me in but I have to do a virtual session first. Hopefully soon

[fickle cypress]

^

i have to hold them while walking down stairs 😭

[gentle hearth]

I've heard of this. I can still jump around and everything without consequences yet lol

[fickle cypress]

just you wait 😭

[gentle hearth]

I'm oddly excited lol 😆

I guess they're so affirming I dont mind the downsides

[bright bane]

I haven't questioned it since I was like 12 but now I'm starting to wonder about it again. Am I really trans or am I a very confused and very masc lesbian.
Will let yall know if I ever find the answer

I think it'd be easier for my family to accept me if I was lesbian but still deep down something about experiencing womanhood thoroughly disgusts me

[last pilot]

Nah cuz I get you sm- I personally know I can’t be lesbian cuz I find men hot. But the trans thing- oh god yes. Idk if it’s just me, but I have days when it makes me sick to my stomach when people misgender me, other days I don’t really care that much.

But there are some aspects that always indicated to me that something wasn’t right, I have always hated my face, it’s pretty round. As 13yo I was looking at famous actors, staring at their jaw lines, wishing I could have that.

[dim sleet]

have you read stone butch blues or any queer books similar? it may help out

[bright bane]

No but thanks for the recommendation, I'll check it out

[dim sleet]

i wish you luck 🙏

[grand hearth]

Got some boxer briefs yesterday and I really like them so far….i could get used to this

[bright bane]

I switched from panties to boxer briefs and never looked back
Also why can't my autocorrect make up its mind

[unborn atlas]

remove the wrong one

[deep oak]

I wanna cry

I hate how I'm fat

found out I'm 90kg

[grand hearth]

I’m about that weight give or take

I might be shorter or taller than you

If it’s any comfort its sometimes more important to not look at the number and consider how you look and feel

Being fat is only a problem once it starts presenting health issues. Some bodies “ prefer” to stay at a greater weight because they’re “happy” there

Metrics such as BMI are very scuffed and don’t take into consideration a lot of things

[misty harness]

autocorrect is just getting worse and worse over time

[deep oak]

well context is that I'm 5'9

mainly because I am sick and tired of eating

[grand hearth]

Don’t do that.

5’9 is even taller than me

So it’s not nearly as bad as you think, if it’s bad at all

[deep oak]

https://youtu.be/DluAO6LTq9k

asian logic I am obese

[glossy pawn]

this is absolutely not a solution, from what you’ve said you do not seem to be overweight, and if you are looking to lose weight there are faarrrrr healthier ways of doing it

exercise and a good diet

[bright bane]

If I were you I'd try looking into foods that encourage weight loss, or just generally healthier swaps for the foods you already eat. Starvation is a pretty dangerous option and sometimes it doesn't even work how you intend due to the stress it puts on your metabolism.
I'm not a huge health nut but I hear green tea is great at slimming you down, that'd be a good start

[deep oak]

that's the thing I drink green tea like water here, we have green tea everywhere so like I walk also around taiwan everyday so that adds the factors

[glossy pawn]

alongside those eating/drinking that stuff you need to be doing consistent exercise too

[deep oak]

https://youtu.be/_wr7UTcpcoA

[bright bane]

That's great, drinking healthier and walking a lot. Should research and try to build on that

[glossy pawn]

lots of walking is good

running also

[bright bane]

Walking is really the only thing I can handle nowadays so I walk walk walk as much as possible. "Oh but you could be there in 5 seconds if you use a car" it's more fun to walk tho!

[glossy pawn]

walking is great fun I love it

[deep oak]

me everyday with the public transportation weeeee

[bright bane]

Try to find a nice scenic area/park. Idk how rural or urban your area is, but I live on a farm so I'll usually go out several times a day and just stroll around, watching the birds and admiring the land

[glossy pawn]

there’s also a lot of really easy exercises you can do at home

planking is good

[bright bane]

Pretty sure some you can do in bed too

[glossy pawn]

yes

squats are also very good

@boreal zodiac knows everything about this kind of thing

[boreal zodiac]

Hello

[glossy pawn]

he can give some really good exercise tips

[bright bane]

Could probably ask jackpots too. Bros 3 decades older than me and probably in better shape

[boreal zodiac]

So the heavier you are the more effective bodyweight stuff is, so theres literally never a bad time to start

[glossy pawn]

you’re 0?

[boreal zodiac]

Pressups are absolutely golden, you can work up to them by starting on your knees

[bright bane]

Typo 😭

[boreal zodiac]

Bodyweight squats are amazing

Situps are good but not very efficient so you can avoid them to begin with

Things like mountain climbers are rlly usefull

These

[bright bane]

I hear swimming is great too, and easier on the joints

[boreal zodiac]

All of those evercises are good for your core too

[bright bane]

My doc actually wants me to start swimming bc of my legs

[boreal zodiac]

Swimming is amazing

In general the key point to weight lose is what you do in the kitchen

Using an online calculator to eyeball your daily calorie requirements and then aiming to be a little bit under that

A pound of fat is a 3500 kcals

So if require 2200 a day, and your total intake is 2200, but you burn an extra 200 through exercise youl be in a 200 kcal deficit a day, 1400 a week

So lose a pound every 3 weeks give or take

But doing more then that is fairly straightforward

The main thing is not trying to just cut out food bc you'll only hurt your bidy doing that, try getting a good amount of steps in a day

5000 steps a day walking is about 3.8km, which would burn about 300 kcals at 90kg bodyweight

And take less then an hour

So if you calorie requirement is about 2100, eat 1900 and do 30 mins bodyweight stuff (squats and pressups) + 2 30 minute walks

Thats would be about a 500 kcal deficit a day, which will equate to roughly a pound lost a week, (just under half a kilo)

So in 4 months thats 7 kilos lost

In a year you could realistically shift 20kg

@deep oak hopefully this helps

Any questions ping me a message and im more then happy to help with routines, meals or just general advice

[grand hearth]

Me wearing boxer briefs all day

[frozen breach]

ik i'm mad late but i just wanted to say tysm for this message omg

i think a lot of people don't get that while being overweight puts you at greater risk for certain health concerns or conditions, it is not in and of itself a medical concern unless you're actively experiencing health problems, or your weight is hindering your ability to do everything you need to do in your day-to-day life.

like, my grandpa used to be a triathlete and has been overweight his whole life (in fat too, not just muscle weight), so at a certain point it depends on the individual.

if you live healthily and feel good in your body then there's absolutely nothing wrong with being heavier (i prefer to say fat but i know not everyone feels okay with that term)

[frozen breach]

one of the only benefits to my college campus's dogshit layout is that i have to (or get to, i suppose) walk all the time through a relatively scenic area

[deep oak]

I took a screenshot but ty for the long detail advice ;-;

[grand hearth]

I’m glad it’s helpful—it stems from both my experience of my own body and experience as a student doctor

Medicine is gradually shifting to not look at people and go “yeah you have to lose weight” if they’re even a smidge above “normal weight”

I’m 5’6 and 200 lbs, close to 90 kg. This puts me at approx. 32 BMI, the “obese” category

I used to be very neurotic about my weight—I’ve seen many doctors for other reasons and yet they have never suggested losing weight to fix my problems, and when I expressed a desire to do so they treated it as something optional rather than necessary.

Over time I’ve realized that my body just wants to be here at this weight now. I’ve been on many antipsychs/mood stabilizers that have shifted my metabolism a lot to the point that being under 200 lbs is difficult to do even with exercise.

I’ve learned to be kind to myself and my body. Being on T has cleared up some of the brain worms in that sense as well.

And of course, there’s always some old head physicians who still believe weight loss is the cure-all for every unhealthy aspect of yourself

[gentle hearth]

Well I just got nipple flicked

I'm in a trade job so that's just a thing guys do so the guy didn't mean anything and probably just thinks I have gynecomastia, but still I feel violated

[unborn atlas]

fucked up

[gentle hearth]

Yeah. Like it's not his fault. I'm boymodding so it's not like he knew

[misty harness]

fucked up either way, no one should touch anyone without consent

[bronze ocean]

it's 100% his fault tho

[gentle hearth]

True

[gentle hearth]

Ehh it's not outside of the norm for this environment so it doesn't feel right to fully blame him

I feel it's an environment problem not a personal one

[misty harness]

it's a personal problem to uphold shitty norms imo

[gentle hearth]

True there is a part to play

And I'm not innocent either cause I've done it a few times before my egg cracked

[grand hearth]

I ain’t touching no one at all without their consent

This is probably part of a training thing though

I have misgivings about patting people on the back sometimes even especially if they don’t expect it

Because I never know if people have a thing about being touched suddenly

I have been grabbed (like my arms) without being asked more than I’d like which is another reason

[bright bane]

As someone who grew up being grabbed randomly and still hates it thank you for this

[gentle hearth]

Yeah for sure I agree that people should just not touch people in general

[bright bane]

My parents usually start rubbing my back at random and it's terrifying. My aunt and uncle are worse, my uncle used to pull me into hugs without any notice and my aunt would just grab my hair?? For some reason??

Like am I a dog to you 😭

[grand hearth]

the other day we were reviewing for a practical. I was extremely overwhelmed because everyone was talking over each other—I was about to explain a concept but couldn’t say anything because I couldn’t hear my own thoughts over the noise.

Guy near me grabs the hand I had in front of me to demonstrate what I was going to talk about and I give him the most deer-in-the-headlights expression.

Have to explain I wasn’t explaining anything because it was too noisy and maybe don’t touch me

[gentle hearth]

Yikes yeah people need to not assume that's ok.

[deep oak]

how old are you because my mom does the same shit

[bright bane]

16

[deep oak]

god I hate that when I was a teenager you're almost an adult

I'm 27 and she does that shit to me

it's annoying as fuck

not only that but just a slipper slope for your family to not treat you like a person they only see you as an object which I find in the modern world as backwards and ontologically barbaric

[gentle hearth]

Yeah it's supposed to be a thing guys do when fucking around with other guy friends, but I don't feel safe at work telling people I'm trans and have actual breasts now. So all I can do is go like "bro don't fucking touch me"

Which just makes my want to vent in general. Like why people have to care what I do with MY body. Like can I just grow tits in peace??? How does this affect anyone? I'm still the same person I'm just changing my body to feel more comfortable in it.

[bright bane]

Real af. Cis people are so in our business all the time and it's super weird.
I still remember when my uncle told me "you should find a natural way to deal with dysphoria instead of getting surgery"
That's not your decision to make dude? How does it bother you? Is the sun going to explode if I get surgery to be more comfortable??

[misty harness]

god I have felt this so much recently

tfw having a beer after work and chill and dude starts trying to convince me that he will fight anyone who looks at me wrong

like bro chill

this happened like three days ago again

[frozen breach]

real asf

liberal cis women will invalidate trans mens' trauma or make fun of their dick size and call that gender affirmation (based on real experiences)

[grand hearth]

throwback to this one girl who was prying into some cheating stuff happening in a faculty member’s personal life with another woman but then she was like “but it says she’s an ally on her page 🙂” and looked at me pointedly

girl fym

she was also the same one who brought up a literal local hate crime while the group was discussing something entirely different and was like “I just wanted to make sure you’re ok 🥺 “

[bright bane]

Reminds me of all the times I've been told "if anyone gives you trouble I'll kill them just tell me"

Like.. are you aware I can fight my own battles

[gentle hearth]

Real. People will catch themselves misgendering me or something and go crazy with the apologies and I'm like you're good bro lol I'll live. 😂 Fr tho as long as I know they're doing it accidentally and not to be a dick I could care less if they misgender me like I know they're working on it.

[unborn atlas]

can't stand liberals

[frozen breach]

exactly. like, is the misgendering ideal? no. does it feel good? no. but what matters to me is the effort. i think the myth of the angry pronoun-obsessed snowflake trans person is so widespread that people feel the need to grovel for fear of incurring our wrath or whatever the fuck

[valid sun]

yeah like a quick "sorry, pronoun" works lol

that's what i tell people if they misgender my partner

just say that

it takes time and conscious effort but youll get there

[unborn atlas]

the ego of the liberal gets in the way of justice

[deep oak]

Oh my god
Liberal cis women are like the worse cuz like I had this happened before but like I dated one who’s a cis bi woman but she ended up dating a korean incel who’s a transphobe

[spring crescent]

like literally all u gotta do is 🫰 quickly switch the pronoun and continue the sentence like normal you'll get it eventually

no joke it is instinctual

[gentle hearth]

I just realized i'm at my 1 month HRT mark :D

[chrome snow]

W

[fickle cypress]

hrt got me fucked up

ever since starting i’ve felt so much emotion but none being good

[gentle hearth]

What's your dosage and how are you administering it?

[fickle cypress]

1mg tablets through mouth

[gentle hearth]

any testosterone blockers?

[fickle cypress]

yup!

[gentle hearth]

whats the dosage?

[fickle cypress]

100mg day and night

i was already a very emotionally vulnerable person, i think it’s just amplifying what i had

[gentle hearth]

ahh yeah, when estrogen is dominant emotions are a lot more intense

but i'm sure you already knew that

[fickle cypress]

yeah lol

[gentle hearth]

the reason i'm asking about the doses is because people usually have problems with emotions when they're on too high a dose of estrogen

[fickle cypress]

i let it dissolve under tongue like i’m supposed to

i’m very good with instructions

i’m visiting my doctor tomorrow and i will see what we can do from there

[gentle hearth]

I should also mention people can feel like shit if they don't have enough of either sex hormone in their system

you get menopause-like symptoms

so just make sure you mention whether you're feeling physically bad or emotionally bad or both

that will help your doctor the best

[bright bane]

Never understood why people will list off hrt side effects like they're the actual devil. "You'll grow haiirrrrrr ooooohhhh and you'll gain weight!!! You're gonna be sweaty!!! Eeeek!!"

[valid sun]

cause it erases femininity that they want the guys to hold onto, otherwise it's kinda funny

saw a post that was like "trans guys are so evil for using tgel it doesnt dry for hours and what if it gets on me" like girl what world do you live in

i did gel for like 3 days cause i was out of injectable testosterone (did not like it at all) and it dries in like 20 seconds it just smells very strong bc alcohol in the compound. also i think alcohol is why it dries so fast lol

it was probably bait but you never know anymore

[grand hearth]

Aspects of myself that I felt disgusting for as a “””””girl””””” I tend to take a lot of pride in now

Why yes. My armpits are full of hair. Look here! When I lift my pant leg, it’s a jungle!

I was told men wouldn’t be attracted to me because I wasn’t feminine enough. I no longer feel bad about this because I’m not even a girl!

[valid sun]

body hair is my favorite effect of HRT thats why im a gay bear

[bronze ocean]

it is theoretically transmissable skin-to-skin for like an hour but thats like

such a non issue u gotta be really transphobic to be like omg wtf what if you get your boy cooties on my divine feminine purity

[valid sun]

LMFAO

and also assuming that like

[bronze ocean]

also even if

it literally wont do anything

like if ur cis afab whatever and u get like

the tiniest bit of testosterone

its not going to do anything

[valid sun]

right

it wont even affect your levels in all honesty cause most of it is already absorbed

and thats assuming youre not wearing clothes and rubbing your bare upper arm on someone elses bare upper arm lmfao

[bronze ocean]

its so clearly just transphobic anxieties

[valid sun]

"what if the gel gets on me" idk man cope i guess

the smell of gel is way too strong i much prefer injectable bc of that

[bronze ocean]

the estradiol spray i have smells like a mix of alcohol and sunscreen

cause it basically is that

[grand hearth]

everyone produces testosterone anyway, AFABs just in more minute levels

people seem to forget that sex hormones really aren’t exclusive to one sex over another, just one produces more

[bronze ocean]

but one is the girl hormone and one is the boy hormone how could this be..

[valid sun]

if you equalize the boy and girl hormone levels you unlock a secret third hormone

[bronze ocean]

cortisol

[grand hearth]

hitmontop evolution strategy but better

[bright bane]

I remember the time my uncle told me "but I've seen women go on testosterone after menopause and they get all gross, and you'll have to do so much more laundry, and you'll grow hair everywhere, and and and"

Looking back I think he's jealous. He's very insecure he's cis and can't grow a beard so he probably doesn't want me starting hormones and getting manlier than him or whatever lmfao
Cis men smh.

He makes sure I know that I'm short and have long girl eyelashes and feminine curly hair and all that. At the end of the day it's very clear he's upset I'm naturally just as, if not more masc than him

[bronze ocean]

feminine curly hair means "takes care of it" 💀

[bright bane]

Pretty much

I worry that if I end up being taller than him his attitude might get even worse and he'll try to one up me in everything

[grand hearth]

Funnily enough I’ve found myself identifying with Baphomet during my transition

[bright bane]

At some point I started viewing them as tumors instead of breasts and strangely it made me feel a lot better

Like "I'm literally flat chested I just have these weird benign growths here for some reason"

[grand hearth]

it’s odd but I feel like there’s this weird sense of power by having my chest like this

I go shirtless during our omm/physical therapy labs when I can (with a sports bra)

[bright bane]

I remember I had to get my heart checked and took my shirt off for it. Laying there in my bra with the wires stuck all over me was weirdly comforting

[frozen breach]

perk of being a fat transmasc with medium sized tits (which have deflated a lot since starting hrt) is ppl just assume they're moobs

which like. yeah that is what they are actually

[frozen breach]

no fr, i used to feel so anxious about this, but now i'm neither a woman nor attracted to men, so it's like the world's biggest non-issue

[inland schooner]

My parents were never really knowledgeable on what would happen (when starting Testosterone) so whenever they had questions they'd ask me which was good

I am not really active here in this forum anymore but I hope everyone is well :D

I had a revision for my top surgery about 6 weeks ago, the fear that everyone gets about surgery happened to me 🥲 - an infection

It's okay, wasn't serious! It's honestly fine, just a bit of a gap

[digital geyser]

hearing they can do that and pass as moobs as someone (pre-T) with a similar body type is actually really good to hear

[frozen breach]

yeah! to me theyre still very visible cuz of dysphoria, but as long as i wear a baggy shirt (which is the only kind of shirt i own lol), other ppl dont seem to think much of it

[valid sun]

me cause i found out body hair will spread to my boobs like a year ago

Now i fully identify as a bear

oops i already said that

ive decided im chill w not getting top surgery

[grand hearth]

I’ve noticed that on myself and I was like :0

It’s cool tbh

[frozen breach]

boob hair goes crazy hard man

like i'm still very dysphoric abt my chest and i'm counting the fucking microseconds until top surgery, but damn. there is something about thick dark chest hair on a pair of fat honkers

i'm so sad that i'm probably gonna have to have my chest shaved for top surgery... like i know it will grow back, but still

[gentle hearth]

Based

[gentle hearth]

I'm so curious now. If you don't mind me asking do they lose sensitivity? Cause being a month on estrogen for me has made my chest very sensitive even tho there's not a whole lot there yet.

[bronze ocean]

yeah they do

after a year or two or so they'll get less sensitive

[gentle hearth]

That's crazy. So peoples chests seem to largely be influenced by hormones in terms of how they act that's pretty cool to know

[valid sun]

they also get slightly smaller but it vastly depends, could be noticeable or marginal depending on the person

like ollie mentioned

i think it's moreso the fat redistribution

[gentle hearth]

That's crazy

[valid sun]

it affects your chest as well

[gentle hearth]

Oh yeah that makes sense

[valid sun]

it is crazy though

[gentle hearth]

I swear HRT is like fucking magic

[frozen breach]

yeah for me they arent exactly smaller but more like... deflated i guess??? idk how to describe it

[valid sun]

yea mine got that way too

saggier i guess LMFAO

[frozen breach]

i mean i never had much sensitivity in mine to begin with but i would say theyre less sensitive now yeah

[frozen breach]

yeah thats a good description

[gentle hearth]

I guess I would have thought once the glands are there that's it, but I guess on testosterone your body just kinda ignores them

[valid sun]

yeah i mean they only account for so much of your chest, it's all fat besides that

it moves out more to the side in my experience

[bronze ocean]

breast tissue is estrogen sensitive so going on testosterone will make it shrink over time

[gentle hearth]

Huh, neat. I swear I've become like a fucking biologist as soon as my egg cracked. this stuff is so interesting

[valid sun]

same lol

[frozen breach]

yeah, it's so cool and amazing how many things about our bodies we think are set in stone but are actually controlled almost entirely by hormones

the human body is so adaptable

like, i assume most ppl here know about bottom growth, but it's still so insane if you really think about it!! like, your body is emulating a set of genitals it does not have and cannot have without surgical intervention purely because you now have a testosterone-based endocrine system. how fucking cool is that?!

the human body is so malleable and beautiful and intricate

[austere jay]

huge life saver tbh

i can pass in public as a guy with gyno with ease

if anyone asks what’s up with your chest say you have gyno and get really defensive about it and most will leave you alone

[grand hearth]

All humans start embryologically as female

The penis really is just an overly developed clitoris

Spoilered because genitalia but you see here this illustration of tissue development

[gentle hearth]

Yeah the cells that make up both male and female gonads are virtually the same from what I've heard. They're just in different configurations

[frozen breach]

this is a big part of why terfs and bioessentialists are so hilariously incomprehensible to me. when it comes to the parts of human biology that are "hard-coded" (i.e. can't be fully changed by hormones, so genitals chromosomes etc), we are all literally mostly the same. there are so many more similarities than differences and many of the differences that there are are so easy to overcome. we're literally all made of the same stuff. terfs are fr on some elementary school "boys are from mars girls are from venus" bullshit

[balmy pond]

Thanks for the heads up 👍

[tacit burrow]

im not american so idk if this is meant to be a big deal or not? so far all i got is that biden is planning to increase the amount of facemasks,gloves and syringes. is there anything else to it? and if so can you explain like im 5 pls?

[tacit burrow]

ah alr ty for explaining it to me

its honestly fucked up how the american government is increasing the price of medical products while having already expensive healthcare

[frozen breach]

land of the free 🫡🫡🫡🦅🇺🇸🔥

my political psychology professor called donald trump a snake oil salesman the other day and this reminded me of that lmao

even as an american this country just does not feel real sometimes

[balmy pond]

No I think especially as an American it's a surreal experience

It's one thing to gawk at the bloated corpse of this country from a distance, it's a other to be stuck with the smell

[frozen breach]

i've gotten extraordinarily lucky w/ professors this year lol; some of my friends at my same school have had really awful experiences

[frozen breach]

thats so real and also such a fucking badass way of phrasing it holy shit

its like you go online and non americans are like "haha cheeseburger healthcare donald trump mcdonalds" and then you watch the american news and its like "you're no longer legally allowed to exist and water is being sold for ten thousand dollars a bottle"

hyperbole but you get my point

[balmy pond]

This so hard
Like people make fun of this country all the time but forget real people are getting hurt because of this shit

Yea prob. It's cathartic to punch up I get it

Like so much of the world has been fucked because of the US and its imperialist BS I get it

It's just like

A bit of empathy for the people stuck here would be nice

[grand hearth]

hate it when people clap back at the states with school shooting jokes

like bro

[misty harness]

yeah it's not like I chose to be here

[balmy pond]

Real classy move making fun of a bunch of murdered children, nobody is at all affected by their kids being shot trying to go to school

Imma be real tho I'm real sick of this doom posting

Like venting about how much of a shit hole this place is, constantly telling myself it can't get better so I have an excuse to lay in bed all day

[valid sun]

recently ive made a bigger effort to organize people in my life and work at aid centers + kitchens or donate leftovers to my community fridge, it helps make you feel less helpless and actually has an impact on people. but i get sucked in very easily cause people are so hateful online and they would never act that way IRL

[balmy pond]

It's just draining. Doesn't make the current situation any more tolerable, doesn't help me figure out what to do next

Isn't funny, isn't cathartic

It's just numbing

[balmy pond]

This af, I need to be doing shit like this

Make the state obsolete by taking care of each other

[valid sun]

it's hard to get it started tbh you have to find places that genuinely want to improve others lives vs making a publicity stunt like those guys who record themselves giving homeless people $500 or something. i have the upper hand of having friends in north texas who are already organized in college via marxist groups

some churches are not interested in making a change but rather giving people the bare minimum to have them come back. some churches are not like that and i work with them (funnily enough they are the gay churches)

other religious buildings have the same issue, but the synagogue and the mosque on island have resources as well

[balmy pond]

I have a bunch of friends who're tapped into activist stuff, I should talk to them c:

I think part of it is that the image of resistance is of like rioting and fighting cops and stuff and all that's exciting but 1) that shits hard
2) people get burnt out way too quick making it feel like no progress gets made despite risking your life for it
And 3) not everyone's built to fight cops

I wanna know how I can help out with the reproductive labor part right? Like the logistics of it all

You still need to feed people, make sure people can get the medical care they need, get people and supplies where they need to be, etc...

I can do that c:

[valid sun]

100% get organized w anyone even if you have differences in ideology, my friends work with the IMT in the area which is a predominantly trotskyist group (many strong opinions about them) but they are also more moderate about their criticisms and analysis of the USSR than the stereotypical image of them. sectarianism is very counterproductive and you want to avoid it as much as possible

you can organize things like cooking classes or how to administer/do procedures ex. how to administer narcan, clean syringes, how to do CPR if you have a specialist or someone trained to help out

setting up a community fridge (we have two on the island) etc

[grand hearth]

So uh

My legs hairy now

👍

[frozen breach]

i love that one TikTok parodying this sort of "joke" thats like an aggressively british guy going "WELL AT LEAST OUR SCHOOLS ARE NOT A SHOOTING GALLERY MATE"

its so dumb and unfunny

[frozen breach]

yeah fr! and even with less intensive stuff, for people with disabilities or chronic fatigue (hello!), it can all just feel so impossible. this is why i feel like its so important to build large and inclusive communities so that the workload is more spread out and there's more resilience. obv thats easier said than done, but yknow

[frozen breach]

right!!! in the long run having fewer ppl on your side helps literally nothing and nobody (except the state that doesn't want us to be organizing at all lol)

[balmy pond]

I mean once you accept that this all comes slow it makes it feel easier to handle

Little steps first, which then become big steps yadda yadda

[spice sphinx]

Yeah I feel this so hard. So many people think immediate violent revolution is just around the corner and we gotta just go out there and crack heads and whenever that happens all us commies and anarchs are gonna be on top singing kumbaya. People gotta understand that this kinda thing is such a liberal romanticization of things. Real revolution starts at the bottom, gotta support your communities and actually uplift and recruit people before any real change is gonna happen.

Yeah sure there will come days where you gotta fight for freedom but so many of the people who I see screaming to kill the rich and the pigs and whatever can’t even make eye contact with the delivery driver, how tf do they expect to handle the kind of bloodshed they’re calling for.

[frozen breach]

i think some ppl just want the exciting parts of being a revolutionary without the boring and tedious parts

[balmy pond]

I'm not even sure these people genuinely want revolution

Like they think they do but what they really want is to release their anger

I get it but that's not realistic or sustainable

If we really want a revolution we have to be ready to fight this battle for years, that'll take hella planning

We gotta make sure we can take care of each other first. Have our basic needs covered so we have the capacity to put up and keep up a proper fight

Know how we're gonna coordinate

All that shit

[frozen breach]

as a wise soul on reddit dot com once said in relation to leftists who don't vote (or the actually deranged leftists who vote conservative), "the revolution is not happening tomorrow"

[strong heath]

that sounds so shitty i'm really sorry for you

[frozen breach]

real asf‼️

trans men r so based god bless

[valid sun]

i follow trans celeb emmett preciado on instagram and he has the chad jawline naturally, dude is fucking swole

he just had bottom surgery

[opal dock]

My dad is out of the Josie for a week

Time to wear makeup and paint my nails all week >:3

[gentle hearth]

It's really crazy just how T can just turn you into a whole ass dude

And a fucking ripped one at that

[grand hearth]

this is making me want to get top surgery

[chrome snow]

POGGGGG

[gentle hearth]

tomorrow is my first session with a speech therapist :D

[frozen breach]

no frrrrrr

[tardy creek]

@frozen breach has leveled up! (11 ➜ 12)

[frozen breach]

i'll look in the mirror and be like "aint no way a hormone did that" lmaooo

[tacit burrow]

Omg is it true vitamin d can increase estrogen??

[bright bane]

Most foods labeled as being able to increase certain hormones usually don't have enough of said hormone to make any difference, that or it'd take a very specific lifestyle for it to have any effect. Like yes large amounts of red meat will bulk you up and possibly effect your hormones IF on top of that you're consistently working out/body building, if you eat a bunch of protein but sit around all day you'll just get chubby

[grand hearth]

Vitamin D is one of the metabolites influencing estrogen production, so yes

But it’s contribution to an AMAB individual’s estrogen levels are probably negligible

[tacit burrow]

Would it be smart if i started popping vit d tablets? I dont think im old enough to legally medically transition (im 15) and my mum wont let me unless im like 20

[bright bane]

I was told zinc would help me absorb more of the testosterone in the foods I eat but I never saw much of a difference, everyone is different tho so 🤷‍♂️

[grand hearth]

ehhhhhhhhhh vitamin D toxicity is a thing so maybe not

[bright bane]

You could ask a doctor if it'd be safe if you really wanna. I take like 4 different vitamins but that's because they keep my levels average

[tacit burrow]

Ye ik but like i wouldnt take that much

[tacit burrow]

The thing is my mum wont let me medically transition YET

Like my mum is supportive and all but doesnt want me start taking hrt

[grand hearth]

you really can’t start HRT this early I don’t think

looks like 16 according to planned parenthood

[bright bane]

I was just saying you should ask about your vitamin d levels. My mom is also strongly against hrt right now so I get that.
I've had my blood drawn so often these past few months and they just happened to check in on those a few times, nothing out of the ordinary.
If you've had a recent blood test you could ask, or ask if they could test you in the future

[tacit burrow]

Ye i can only take hrt in like 1 yeT

Year***

[grand hearth]

you could ask your doc about options leading up to it

[bright bane]

They made it 18 here in florida smh and they'll probably try to push it back to 21 if they can, or just make it illegal all together. Just 2 more years

[bright bane]

This too. I've heard lots of people saying it took months or even years just to get a consultation at a gender clinic. You could get a referral now and might end up on a wait list until it's legal lmao

[grand hearth]

pretty much

[bright bane]

My mom contacted one of her friends that works at planned parenthood to try and get me an appointment with a therapist.
That was last month
We are still waiting on the confirmation email

[grand hearth]

Could you go to planned parenthood on your own?

[bright bane]

I might. I'd have to find a location near me, but I'll be ready to get my license next month 👀

Just hoping that my parents don't end up being too worried to let me drive by myself... like most things.
Makes me wonder what they'll do when I turn 18 and they legally can't stop me from anything

[spice sphinx]

Planned parenthood is just kinda like that

They get so overloaded and are so understaffed that it’s the best they can do unfortunately

And god forbid desantis laws here get any worse cause as it is now any time I want to change to a different brand, dosage, or delivery method for hrt they’re legally required to make me go through the entire consultation process all over again

Love this shithole state

[valid sun]

some states allow it at any age but i believe almost everywhere is 16, idk if thats changed cause texas was any age deemed medically necessary until last year now it's 18

i started at 14 in 2019

[valid sun]

also i just went through the TSA and landed in florida with no issues

i was bracing myself for something to get alerted but man it was easy

[frozen breach]

yeah idk the exact minimum age in new york but i started at 15, so its definitely allowed in some places. although tbf its a lot harder to access at that age especially w/o parental support. like if i didnt have my folks on board i never would have been able to start that young without going the DIY route, as unfortunate as it is to say :(

[valid sun]

yea it def is

i agree

[grand hearth]

Do y’all have any ideas to retain/regain higher range vocals while on T?? I can’t really go very high at all without it being a falsetto or cracking

I already had a lower range voice to begin with so now it’s more challenging than before

[unborn atlas]

high voices are hard after T

[grand hearth]

yeah 😔 I can’t do funny cartoon voices anymore

[unborn atlas]

just switch to funny mobster voice, easy

[grand hearth]

there we go

[austere jay]

after t i lost the ability to do realistic chimpanzee screaming because i can’t hit the high pitch i need to sell it

very very sad

[grand hearth]

YEA

😭

I can’t rizz up my girl with funny voices anymore 😔 💔

[unborn atlas]

just means you gotta pivot to christopher lee impressions

[grand hearth]

True

[austere jay]

can still do my lois griffin voice though thank god

[grand hearth]

the most important one

peetaaah the horse is here

[balmy pond]

Peeeeetaaaaah Mc ride is at the doooor

My Lois impression needs some work but at least I still got that Stewie impression I can punish chat with

[fickle cypress]

my mom is we the exact same way! now she gets upset if i don’t take my pills on time :) she’ll come around eventually

[bright bane]

Are you fucking serious... I am spotting again

Shitty ass birth control man

[clever badge]

love trying to transition before turning 18

had to go through a 2 hour psychology report just to make sure im of sound mind because there's such a big difference between 17 and 9 months and 18

[frozen breach]

those 3 months are so important though trust me /s

its fr such a trip

yesterday my top surgeon was explaining that when insurance won't cover top surgery because someone is a minor, they re-submit the request as a "breast reduction" which always gets approved

insane to me that a surgery is only not okay when its explicitly for trans ppl 😭

apparently theyre also more likely to approve top surgery (double mastectomy with masculinization) for cis boys under 18 with gynecomastia than for trans boys under 18

its so bullshit

[spice sphinx]

The higher evasion rate stacked with the double jump really makes us overpowered honestly

[unborn atlas]

I got a backdash that disjoints my hitbox

[pulsar mortar]

trans homies, how did you learn to come to terms with your identity? im nb but have been questioning if im trans for a couple months but ive been trapped by ppl’s (and my own) perception of me being a cis girl

[dim sleet]

in general just time

seeing what i feel comfortable in, what i dont

this applies to makeup, hair, clothes, names, pronouns, everything

just try new stuff and see what feels good

plus terms dont help everyone so thats why i put so much emphasis on feeling

[pulsar mortar]

i gotcha, im trying to shift my focus on what makes me feel good instead of how others around me are viewing me

[unborn atlas]

I felt like my assigned gender was incomplete for the person I was

[balmy pond]

Eventually I realized that all the people in my life I was trying the hardest to be like were the ones that society told me were "women" so I kind of just rolled with that

I don't think summing it with a word like that is too helpful tho

It's all just vibes yknow, what feels right

It's taken a long time of experimenting and working through things with myself but I'm pretty stoked to be at a point of not giving as much of a fuck as I used to

Sometimes I revel in being butch, others I let myself blossom

Just like

Whatever it takes to be in the moment, I guess

[pulsar mortar]

gotcha!!

[strong heath]

every time i see another fem aligned trans person “in the wild” i have to stop for a second and smile because. even if they didn’t notice me or we didn’t interact with eachother, i have to stop and think damn. we exist :)

[pulsar mortar]

that’s beautiful

[strong heath]

it rarely ever happens but when it does yeah it is beautiful

[deep oak]

I can’t believe I got gendered correctly in Italy

Compare to the United States especally california

[chrome snow]

WWWWWWWWW

[deep oak]

I know it’s a massive W but my Japanese Internet brainrot thought you’re laughing at me 😭

[grand hearth]

草

[chrome snow]

Do people laugh like that in Japanese text?

[grand hearth]

yea

it's short for warau (to laugh)

[chrome snow]

Oh!

[grand hearth]

it's also represented with kusa, 草、the kanji for grass

because wwwwww looks like a field of grass lmfao

or should i say 草

[grand hearth]

Got directed to the men’s fitting rooms hell yea baybeeee

[frozen breach]

dude being gendered correctly by store employees in public is so validating for some reason, like even more so than ppl i actually know

i think its because theyre complete strangers going off of one quick glance rather than someone who knows my situation

had staff at a museum be super rude to me today but they called me sir which kinda made up for it lmao

[bright bane]

No literally you could place a whole ass curse on my bloodline but I wouldn't care because you referred to me as a guy

[unborn atlas]

I got directed to the mens restroom at a wing place

but the rooms were "wingers" and "wingettes"

????

I thought I was supposed to have the weird gender

[unborn atlas]

my friend made this edit, original on the left

[spice sphinx]

I immediately recognized the gorgon and the reduvia this image really is accurate

look at this and tell me this isn't the most gender thing ever

[bronze ocean]

i love the gorgon

funny ass frame

[clever badge]

sorry the most gender thing ever is dog on wlfgrl cover you cannot argue

mtw (male to werewolf)

[grand hearth]

I’m ftw (female to werewolf) 🔥 🔥

[clever badge]

you can be the american werewolf in london dog and ill be the ginger snaps dog

[grand hearth]

FEMALE TO WEREWOLF FOR THE WIN

true!

[clever badge]

instead of hrt its dog biscuits

[grand hearth]

scooby snacks

[clever badge]

booby snacks????

[grand hearth]

We’ve discussed spirolactone in class for its clinical usage and in my mind it’s always The Boobs Drug

[clever badge]

:D

[grand hearth]

I Will get every single board question regarding it right, because in the vignette the possibility of boob growage is always mentioned

[strong heath]

im like if wlfrgl wolf wa sa girl'

[spice sphinx]

I’m wittawy like if a wolf got bit by a vampire and then turned into a cyborg and then ingested sand trout to turn into a shai-hulud hybrid

[spice sphinx]

Planned parenthood try not to cancel my appointments a week before the date challenge

Oh well time to wait ANOTHER month for an appointment just for them to probably cancel it again

Love this shithole country and state

[chrome snow]

OH MY FREAKING GOD

https://www.arcshopus.com/products/guilty-gear-strive-bridget-headdress-jacket-hoodie-with-brooch

200 BUCKS

[balmy pond]

Worth it

[deep oak]

okay so uh
international trans and queer folks who travel often I need some help.
I need to go back home on friday to the hell place called the United States.
I have a question
how do I take my meds back to the USA coming in from taiwan?
I am scared that the american DEA will question me about my HRT medication

beause in taiwan HRT like estrogen and spiro and progestrone is all OTC

[bright bane]

It's otc?? I need to get my ass to taiwan

[grand hearth]

fwiw hormones like estrogen and progesterone are not scrutinized nearly as much as testosterone here

spirolactone is just a diuretic so it’s not a big deal either

if you have a primary care provider of some kind you could ask them to write a note

[chrome snow]

I swear, old me would have impulse bought that shit up so quick.

[deep oak]

yeah but it's oral and you'll be given a lower dosage
you need to modify it to accomdate your reccomendation

[balmy pond]

Current me is 100% gonna buy it when I have the money

[chrome snow]

Dead ass

[chrome snow]

They also have other amazing stuff on their website, at one point you could literally cosplay as May

[deep oak]

@bright bane all of these right here are all over the counter :3

luckly I put it in my prescription bottle

I unpacked all of my meds and put them all in there

just that western and eastern attitude towards HRT is very VERY different

[spice sphinx]

Ngl I’ve flown all across the country with my hrt and tsa has never batted an eye

As long as you have some form of prescription bottle with your name on it I think you’re good, but also overseas flights are weird about meds

[deep oak]

that's state side,
International wise the united states will treat foreign medication like if it's hard drugs

[spice sphinx]

Yeah I realized after I typed out the first bit you were talking about flying from overseas

[deep oak]

but luckly my prescription bottle is from the usa so it should be fine?

[deep oak]

Dawg replublikkans just wanna push HRT as a controlled substance federally that’s why I worry about this shit

Moralist replublikkkans just wanna bring back prohibition of drugs, sex and personal freedom it fucking sucks

Worse is that they push their views upon the global stage so that it oppresses the people in the global south

Reason why I wanna move out of America so much

I wanna stay here for my HRT treatment tbh and get my blood test from here
We do have a queer health clinic in Taiwan but it’s very few

And I know a few trans folks here who are getting HRT prescribe like candy

[chrome snow]

BIG W

[deep oak]

I know this is gonna be a hot take but I think we need to start doing a massive moving program for trans kids in the UK to thailand or taiwan

https://www.bumrungrad.com/en/health-blog/february-2023/gender-affirming-hormone-treatment

thailand seems more a viaable opition for puperty blockers

[gentle hearth]

I'm at 2 months already! :D

[chrome snow]

WWWWW

[last pilot]

First sexologist appointment in about two weeks- I’m totally not nervous:,)

[inland schooner]

Ugh the uni I want to go to in germany is in a far-right state 🥲🥲🥲🥲

Shouldn't be a problem for me since I pass fine but it doesn't sit well

[frozen breach]

oh gosh yeah, i had to get rid of a ton of schools off my list because they're in states where i wouldn't necessarily be allowed to use the correct bathroom or get my hrt safely and legally (these were all in the US)

one of my top choice schools is in ohio which is kinda on the fence about trans issues, but i'm super worried it will swing in the transphobic direction and i'll have to give up on going there. luckily the school itself is super progressive and would likely put stuff in place to protect trans students (they did something similar when ohio cracked down on abortion access), but i'm still quite anxious

[inland schooner]

I'm basically "entirely transitioned" rn aside from bottom and my gender marker

But idk it wouldn't give a good peace of mind, germany doesn't discriminate with insurance based on state, I think it's more day-to-day trouble. But idk 🫠

[misty harness]

transfemmes in chat I just got a couple of these from Uniqlo and they are kinda awesome https://www.uniqlo.com/us/en/women/tops/bra-tops?path=%2C%2C40438%2C

great for those of us with small or still developing breasts, stretchy fabric and quite cheap

[unborn atlas]

oh I might need to get one of them

[clever badge]

ooh cute

[bright bane]

Cis ppl be like: oh my god.. HRT? you know that does like lifelong irreversible damage to your body right?... anyways, I'm planning on getting my tongue pierced, and I have a tattoo appointment later this week. This friday me and my pals are gonna go to the bar and drink until we can't walk straight, by the way do you smoke?

[clever badge]

my parents didnt want me to transition at first because they were worried about the irreverible effects

but

thats the point. that they're irreversible

[unborn atlas]

HRT is reversible!!!!! bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bright bane]

Even if it was totally irreversible. Wouldn't that be a good thing considering how greatly it improves our mental state. Who wouldn't want that

[balmy pond]

Not sure why it's so hard for cissies to understand that the reason we go so out of our way to change our bodies so fundamentally is that living as our gender is preferable

[chrome snow]

I don't see people having the same smoke for people that hyper fixate on bodybuilding or people that go out of their way to get plastic surgery.

[balmy pond]

its just cuz trans people challenge the rules way more than those other groups

one day it'll be normalized to a point transition medication will just be like another thing

[austere jay]

i would encourage self reflection without being attached to a certain outcome

allow yourself to explore what your gender looks like without an expectation for what you’ll find

[austere jay]

i would argue in many ways it is not but that is not at all a bad thing, your body will change as life goes one, and that is simply just another way for it to change

i think we should be transparent with the long term impact of hrt but not stigmatize it as “losing something” or “changing for good”

there needs to be a demoralization of hrt as a whole

it needs to become neutral

[grand hearth]

I cannot commit to being a man or woman I’m just a Horrid Man-Thing!

Ultimately I’m just nonbinary but transmasc

I cannot view myself as a Man I am a Wretched Creature

testosterone has been Very Good to me

[austere jay]

testosterone heals

[grand hearth]

my partner is also nb but transfem and I’m finding myself experiencing more gender euphoria and love with them than I ever would have if I continued to pretend to be cishet

[unborn atlas]

once you go through hrt, the way you interact with gender is changed forever

you see the code

can't detransition wisdom

[unborn atlas]

I've been zoning out and referring to you with masculine terms a lot lately is that okay?

[unborn atlas]

oh word same gender?

[grand hearth]

Yeaaa it’s chill :P anything’s fine as long as it’s not feminine tbh

[grand hearth]

yarr

[unborn atlas]

niceeeee

[austere jay]

same actually, nb transfemme partners kick ass

mines going on hrt soon

[grand hearth]

hel yeaaa

[inland schooner]

My teacher mentioned that today In psychology, how like being homosexual was an illness, gender dysphoria will likely just become a normal thing and be removed from the DSM/ICD

[frozen breach]

it genuinely makes me so happy seeing ppl in happy healthy transmasc/transfem relationships

t4t makes my heart so so happy in a way that not many things do

[valid sun]

idk if i'm t4t but i havent really thought about my sexuality because i've been committed to my partner for so long, i still ID as gay

theyre MtX nonbinary and their gender expression is very fluid but we still consider ourselves gay (yes i know nonbinary people can absolutely be gay/lesbian but sometimes it interferes with how your partner sees how u perceive their gender), they used to be transfeminine but decided that they don't necessarily feel that way anymore

it's still nice to be in a relationship with someone who isn't cis even if our gender experiences are widely different

(they don't ID as trans just nonbinary)

[unborn atlas]

I try not to split hairs over granular identity

I'm old

[frozen breach]

yeah sexuality has always been tough for me to parse and at this point it doesn't feel necessary for me

i like who i like, and who i like is usually girls

i feel close enough to straight that i use the term when it's easier to just use a concise label, but i'm not attached to it

oh yeah i almost forgot, i shaved my face for the first time today!!! i didn't want to for the longest time because i felt like i was getting rid of the facial hair i had waited so long for, but it was definitely affirming in a way, and my faces looks a lot better now that it's not covered in wispy unmanaged baby hairs

[grand hearth]

I’m just queeeaah

[valid sun]

ive been thinking whether or not to shave my face but i havent shaved since i started HRT so i ended up just trimming it

sloppy trim but who cares.. people know im young anyways and wont look too hard into it

im glad it made you feel better :)

[valid sun]

i used to and now i dont care

i tried different labels for my gender but never felt like they fit and just naturally gravitated to a "binary" male gender (for lack of better terms), and then i kept switching my sexuality label and realized it's no one's business so i just ID as gay

and a bear

[frozen breach]

yeah no thats very fair!! i mainly shaved because a) im hoping it will come in darker once it grows back, and b) most of my facial hair is on my neck and that is not the look i'm going for 💀

[frozen breach]

thats so real about the gender, when i stopped thinking so hard about it is when i was like "yeah im just a dude actually"

broad nebulous labels can feel so freeing. its like, yeah my experience of gender can't be accurately summed up in one single word or identity, and so fucking what? maybe i'm projecting, but i definitely relate to the idea of just going with whatever label is comfiest because you understand your own gender and there's no reason to compress it into a hyper specific package for the purpose of explaining it to others

im very tired rn so i may not be making much sense lol sorry abt that

[grand hearth]

T is great but it gives you the side effects of puberty because I haVE A BIG FUCKING ZIT/CYST ON THE SIDE OF MY TEMPLE RAAAHAHAHHDGGDHSANSNXMXM

[bright bane]

Bro those temple pimples are actual hell omg

I remember I had one and just the slightest breeze would send jolts of pain into my face

[carmine cobalt]

im in a transmasc enby 4 transfem enby relationship and it is so special, we've been together for 6 years since we claimed to be cishet and in the past few years have been affirming each other more and more, all t4t love is so special <33

[chrome snow]

WWWWWWWW

[deep oak]

I might need help with getting cup bras

[gentle hearth]

I'm starting to get weird stares from people even tho I'm still boymodding

Or maybe they're confused cause my hair is a mess?

It's definitely long if they're perceiving me as a guy

I want to think I'm already getting to the point where people are confused if I'm a twink or a tall girl which would be awesome

[grand hearth]

I’m in the hellstate of Kansas I do be getting stares

[pulsar mortar]

https://youtu.be/eoq2e4h_avs?si=0crB9w5Aw7zHdGS7

[valid sun]

anyone else wildly inconsistent with their HRT shots

i would think after 4 years id be fine doing them but no im always like a day laye

late

for awhile like a year ago i was super good at them and then i like stopped being good at them

[balmy pond]

that seems very common to me

[valid sun]

i think cause i didnt listen to my doctor and wasnt switching sites enough so it started hurting and i was like "hmm.. maybe i have scar tissue"

[balmy pond]

most of the girl vets i know just kinda do theirs when it "feels right"

like they can tell when their e needs a boost?

for my part ive been getting spottier the past few months