transdome

[supple quarry]

ride doesnt fart, he shits

[austere jay]

absolutely fair point

i have plans for an elaborate torso/chest/neck piece so i might be able to weave those in somewhere

i want to get some mg lyrics but i’m unsure what

?

[zinc oriole]

THESE ARE SOME OF MY FAV MG LYRICS !!!!!

DO IT

[frozen breach]

this would go so fucking hard you should do it

once I'm old enough to get tattoos I wanna get some of the lyrics from fuck puppet

I wish I could be a real boy 😔😔😔

[warped jacinth]

fuck puppet explains my whole existence

[last pilot]

I remember being at work once and the lyrics suddenly hit me and I just stood there like

[frozen breach]

I was already out as trans before discovering machine girl but tbh that song felt like a second trans awakening

[vapid dune]

No one had a trans awakening from decent man?

I sure did

[austere jay]

status has always been one of the ones i relate to the most

yeah it’s about weed but it is palpably vinny adjacent

[zinc oriole]

IS IT WEED

[unborn atlas]

[vapid dune]

[clever badge]

No idea who made this but i love it

[clever badge]

im actually so lucky that i sound andro/sometimes fem with zero voice training

like. formal training i mean

i used to always pitch it up until it kinda just stuck lol

i feel like lots of trans women would be helped by knowing that cis women can also have deep voices too.. i knew someone who went to my hs and her voice was literally more "masc" than most guys in my school

[unborn atlas]

crumb

@cuptoast

[bright bane]

when you just barely avoid being known as the "transgender friend" in the gc 🙏

[real meadow]

i didnt have a trans awakening but i had some sort of awakening listening to it

bro was like “beg like a dog” and i sat there like

i genuinely cannot listen to it without blushing a lil

[grand hearth]

land of the lustrous most likely my trans awakening, even though it would really happen a few years later

[spice sphinx]

Real asf

[balmy pond]

Hmmm I had lots a lil ones

Like little chips in the shell

For being transgender specifically it was prob like lined lips and spiked bats but wouldnt really come around to it until years later

[austere jay]

was talking to the vocalist from forced torment about this actually

she essentially just told me that it’s really difficult to remember to use voice training techniques out and about in everyday life so she just hasn’t been i thought it was awesome

think the band broke up tho very sad

[misty harness]

blehhh my grandmother called to wish me a happy birthday. she used my real name once but then immediately deadnamed and misgendered me after that, sigh. she's 80 so like I don't really have much expectation for her to change at this point but it still sucks

[balmy pond]

Yea I mean it still hurts, no matter how many asterisks you put

[chrome snow]

This goes so fucking hard.

[last pilot]

Lets not forget that Pokémon has canon trans fem character. Beauty Nova from X/Y

[fickle cypress]

second gender clinic meeting today :)

[balmy pond]

Figured this might be of use to someone

[unborn atlas]

who

[balmy pond]

Me

[unborn atlas]

that's u?

i wasn't very clear I should of said "who is that"

some kinda homestuck

[balmy pond]

Oh I thought u meant like who would have a use for this

No I promise you I'm not the person in the limp biskit logo

[unborn atlas]

ohh

[chrome snow]

Bworded as fuck!

[austere jay]

where are my queer bizkit bumperz at

i would like to make the argument that body modification not otherwise related to gender transition (ie not medical gender affirming care) can be counted as gender affirming procedures

tattoos and piercings, scarification, hair dyeing/cutting and what not

i think the trans community in particular has a very interesting relationship with it

saying this after stretching my ears and putting in my new septum

[real meadow]

https://x.com/vinutun/status/1714069174744498317?s=46

vinu (@vinutun)

I'm just a sweet transvestite
From Transexual, Transylvania

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Twitter · Oct 17, 2023, 12:01 AM

rocky horror my goat

[bright bane]

I didn't know true fear until i entered a public restroom and heard someone mutter outside "I think a guy just went in the ladies bathroom"

[chrome snow]

Oh God.

[zinc oriole]

Kill them

[grand hearth]

going to talk to my provider today. my emotions have been a mess. I was depressed already but I think hrt is exasperating my symptoms. it doesn’t help that I’m bipolar probably

[bright bane]

next time i see my GP i think i'm gonna ask like what age she recommends I should start hrt and if she knows any good therapists in the area or whatever. forgot to ask her last time cause they made me get nakey and get my legs x-rayed

[vapid dune]

This is something pretty common in early stages of HRT. Depending on your dosage and prescription the imbalance of hormones can really fuck with you emotionally, thankfully it only lasts a couple months before you start stabilizing again. It’s up to you how much you’d try to weather through it but I believe in you Sam ❤️

[grand hearth]

Ty Aggy 🫂 I’ll see what my nurse recommends. I feel like my dosage was increased pretty fast so maybe that’s part of it

[balmy pond]

Yeah u gotta remember this is a second puberty, which even at the best of times is a monsoon of emotions. Just be kind to yourself!! Remember that transitioning, as necessary of a step as it is for many of us, is never a cure all; you're going to need to work on the other parts at the same time. Take care of yourself, talk to people, do your best to find doctors and therapists that you vibe with, and take everything step by step. Before you know it you'll be living the life you were born to live, I promise you 🫂

[last pilot]

The struggle of not knowing if I should put my preferred name and pronouns into my portfolio which I will send to animation uni

[balmy pond]

DO IT!!!

In the right places it's actually way less of a big deal than it seems

Like I'm changing all my shit over for docs, works etc... it's usually like 1-2 clicks and ur good 👍

Granted I live in a relatively chill area, but for university odds are people will be chill :3

[bright bane]

i just straight up lie to people ngl

"My name is Bailey"
"but they told me your name was.."
"no they didn't"

[clever badge]

i wonder if i have an actual hormone imbalance

ive always been more feminine than other amab people

more emotional

etc

whatever

idk i need to see a gender professional

[frozen breach]

yeah I've wondered that before too ngl

like when my provider was describing the effects of T I was kinda like "I have that already pretty much"

like since puberty I was always really hairy, sweaty, horny, big appetite, deep-ish voice, etc

vv glad I got on T though nonetheless

[balmy pond]

same tbh

like when i was a kid i used to think i was intersex and getting periods

im kinda big too so i used to think that my boobs were from hormones and not me being overweight

i kinda think part of it is just instinct

like your brain knows what puberty you should be having

[small sand]

I was thinking similar for myself but idk how one would confirm that

[clever badge]

Blood tests i think

[frozen breach]

cis ppl (who are actual allies) will affirm your gender in the strangest and most out-of-left-field ways and it's so funny

my friend who's the only cishet dude in a group made up of mostly trans men said unprompted yesterday "I don't think my friend group passes the Bechdel test" and it's like yeah!! we don't!! which kinda sucks but like it was an absentminded comment which proves that he actually sees us as dudes

[austere jay]

yeah blood tests would help

that’s how they monitor my testosterone at least so i don’t see why they couldn’t do a blood draw to asses your hormone levels now

[spice sphinx]

I might have to ask them to check for lead in my next blood test 💀

I exercised my right as a murican to shoot guns recently and no one told me lead dust could be an issue with that so

Yeah

[austere jay]

god

monday october 30 1 year on testosterone

someone kick me im dreaming

[clever badge]

machine girl chose the date for the webster hall show specifically to celebrate that actually!

[tardy creek]

@clever badge has leveled up! (25 ➜ 26)

[clever badge]

ok i guess

[clever badge]

matt here, confirmed !

in all seriousness uhh Fuck Yeah! congrations

[austere jay]

they did because they know i did my first shot to athoth ❤️

i do all my hormones in the most machine girl way possible

also!!!! please help!!!! what do i do for halloween costume

where’s zenoby she knows me so well

or aggy psspsppsps i think you’ll be able to get a good read on me

holy shit idea just formed

dog girl

[clever badge]

I really wanna do that one day.. but itd have to be with my gf which i do not have at the moment!!

Seriously though itd go so hard

I think i saw someone do art of it where the one on the left had top surgery scars which is so real

[austere jay]

god i knew you would pull through

that would be so perfect but how could i possibly translate that to real life

might have to phone it in and do parappa

could do zoro if my t tape gets here in time god willing

[unborn atlas]

no that's me showing up when you mentioned my name

[unborn atlas]

parappa cute!

[austere jay]

OOOOH

we are similar in our “entity spotted” nature

i have an orange beanie and the ability to sew so i might just do that

RED ALERT

BEANIE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND

this is chaos

[unborn atlas]

OH NO

[grand hearth]

can’t remember my new dose of T 😨

I literally just saw my nurse today what the fuck

I’m pretty sure it’s ~0.37 ml for 200 mg/ml lol since the increments have been by about .125

going up from .25

[grand hearth]

they gave me the wrong 25 g needle connections again i'm gonna cry lol

(not actually i'm just annoyed)

it's probably not a bad thing that i didn't get to do it today though...maybe. so that i'm not achy and emotional for my exam tomorrow

[austere jay]

for me personally i’ve been able to miss a day or two every once and a while without too much issue

update we’re doing cowboy ken for the costume

[grand hearth]

Yeah I’ve delayed my doses on purpose before. By that i mean one other time. 🤷 it’ll be fine i just like getting routines done

[bright bane]

"behind every girl growing her hair out"-
behind every guy keeping his hair short is a guy who thought he was a girl as a child. so glad i grew out of that icky cisgender phase amirite 😂😂 #cissiessuck #transontop

[unborn atlas]

trans supremacy now!

[bright bane]

i will never speak to a freak subhuman cisgender. disgusting. you fake humans have no place in this world, your only point of existence should be to serve us transgenders. Fetch me a redbull, cis servant!

[unborn atlas]

women and cis women

[frozen breach]

realest shit ever

are u cis or are u normal

[unborn atlas]

look I'm not a bigot I just don't want them shoving it down my throat

[bright bane]

I know you're cis but.. have you seriously never gotten the surgery? I don't think i can date you, i prefer real women

It's just so hard.. being with someone who's comfy in their own skin. It's so rough

[real meadow]

AMEN ZENOBY

[balmy pond]

Slime time

Got the big girl juice

[strong heath]

slime time i love that

[chrome snow]

Can I please have a small smidgen, just a tiny pinch, just a bite-sized portion?

[clever badge]

Gender dysphoria and euphoria is so weird

[unborn atlas]

how strange it is to be anything at all

[clever badge]

I have a panic attack because of dysphoria but after i feel euphoric because my feelings of being trans are further enforced

Not that i self doubt anymore

My parents just cant accept me being trans so at least i can accept it

[unborn atlas]

that's rough

[austere jay]

any suggestions for my one year on t celebration

i have night time plans to celebrate but i’m trying to think of something fun to do in terms of like a video or something

[bright bane]

tea party

get it cause its a t party

im so original

[real meadow]

if ur of legal drinking age u should go out and have drinks w other trans friends maybe

[chrome snow]

Queen's Gambit.

[misty harness]

diagonal movement implies that pawn killed three people to get to that point

[strong heath]

😏

[austere jay]

not quite of legal age but me and my partner are having some fancy drinks and pre rolls that night to celebrate

[chrome snow]

Sacrifices have to be made.

:((

[bright bane]

the three people were probably against the pawn's transition

[grand hearth]

God forbid women do anything

[bright bane]

god forbid women have hobbies fr

she probably had a valid reason whateverr

[misty harness]

I was making a statement, not a moral judgment sheeesh

[bronze ocean]

can't transition without cracking a few skulls

[austere jay]

amen

[vapid dune]

you're telling me your anarchist ass didn't have to beat a few people to death with a blunt object to get ahold of some HRT? smh some of you have it way too easy

[chrome snow]

Bonking people in the head for a smidgen of the estrogen.

[strong heath]

[cold whale]

i just got f slurs yelled at me and was chased out of a park 😭 man this is SEATTLE I THOUGHT I WAS SAFE

[misty harness]

bigots lash out when they're not the majority in an area

[real meadow]

this is adorable actually

[austere jay]

unfortunately yes that is seattle to some extent

i’m sorry that happened that shit sucks

[chrome snow]

Im so sorry

that shit is fucked up

[austere jay]

it’s my one year on t!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳

[frank garnet]

Congrats!!!

[chrome snow]

WWWWWWWWW

[austere jay]

id post the video but honestly it was a very emotional and quiet moment for me so i think i will keep it to myself for the time being

i’m glad i chose to celebrate it by myself it felt really meaningful

[last pilot]

“I respect trans people but-“ SHUT THE FUCK UP SHUT UP SHUT UP YOU GUYS ARE THE REASON WHY IM NOT OUT YET

[vapid dune]

I think I’ve mentioned here how I once worked with a guy who said he respects trans people BUT if I ever got on his nerves he’d start exclusively deadnaming me and referring to me as a guy

So you don’t respect trans people you meant to say

[unborn atlas]

they want it both ways

[frank garnet]

Gn every beautiful person in this forum. You’re amazing and I love you regardless if you do yourself. Tomorrows another day. Sleep tight! <3

[unborn atlas]

I just went to my siblings art class showcase

met their cool friend and we looked at a bunch of spooky queer art they made

[bright bane]

tomorrow is another day? Like fnaf 4??? Fredbear plushie?#??*($(

[digital geyser]

helloo quick question for people here who bind, esp if u use spectrum outfitters, my sizing's a bit wonky but essentially when i measured in order to get a binfer that fits my chest measurement i'd have to go rlly big on my ribs but im thinking of going for a binder that's slightly smaller on the chest (and still a bit big on the ribs). is that a bad idea? im not sure how accurate my chest measuring was anyway tbf and it's only slightly smaller

im buying one at the end of this week (dependent on how much money i spent rest of the week as i need to ensure im well below my weekly spending limit

[frozen breach]

based on what I remember from when I wore binders regularly, I'm pretty sure getting one that's a bit tighter on the chest shouldn't be a problem. as long as it's still big or true-to-size on the ribs then theres no issue because the biggest danger with binders is rib damage I'm pretty sure. what I'd suggest is get the slightly smaller one and then if it's uncomfortable or painful you can exchange it; I'm pretty sure spectrum is good about returns and stuff

tbf I haven't worn a binder in a while so if my information is wrong feel free to correct me!!

[digital geyser]

thank you so much!!

[last pilot]

I got my binders from a friend who doesn’t use them anymore and they don’t feel as tight as I imagined. they work well tho.

[bright bane]

Being trans and getting excited when you see someone from your elementary school in public but they walk right past you cause you look so different

[vapid dune]

I forget ur 15 sometimes so I was wondering how tf u remember someone from elementary school when I can hardly remember anyone from high school

[chrome snow]

I legitimately don't remember anybody from my years in schooling and I sometimes feel really bad due to people remembering me.

One of my third grade teachers that remembers me from elementary school.

[digital geyser]

someone who bullied me in primary school is on my uni course and its so awkward bc we both recognised each other but i try to avoid her as much as possible, esp bc im openly trans now and she still knows my deadname

we’ve only interacted properly once and i hope it stays that way

[chrome snow]

Oh god, I'm going through something similar and it freaking sucks.

Im sorry

:((

[spice sphinx]

Hey those of you that are on injection hrt for estrogen I have a genuine question that I can’t get a real answer to online and I was hoping I could dm

It’s nsfw tho

[vapid dune]

Sure you can dm me

[balmy pond]

Got JUICED 2day

[grand hearth]

yayy yayyyyyy

I finally finally got mine Wednesday

after having to fucking fight Walmart for the right needles..

[frozen breach]

top surgery consult got cancelled and I can't reschedule until april I think I am going to punch a hole in my wall

no boob summer will no longer be real 😔

[bright bane]

fr tho why are so many surgery places booked out until next spring ts crazy

[frozen breach]

yeah it sucks

especially sucks cuz my appt was supposed to be in like two weeks and I scheduled that shit all the way back in july

but two weeks before they're gonna call me and go "ermm actually no <3"

goofy

[spice sphinx]

Got on injections today!!!

[balmy pond]

YO FUCK YEA ME TOO

Slime time

[spice sphinx]

Slime time :3

[bright bane]

when i tell a male doctor my brand of birth control and they say "oh i've never heard of that"
No shit, ya'll prescribe the worst brands and doses. assuming you even prescribe them in the first place

[bright bane]

seeing my doctor on the 16th gonna ask her abt hrt

[spice sphinx]

After having been on pills for over a year and a half I got on injections recently

Did my first shot of E just now

what is this power

https://tenor.com/view/vergil-dmc-walk-drip-gif-21366371

[grand hearth]

I also got fuckinn juiced up

[misty harness]

[balmy pond]

Everybody getting juiced wtf

[frozen breach]

juiced my shit two days ago feeling more powerful than ever (I hauve a head ache)

oh yeah I switched to weekly injections recently so now my juice intake is more frequent 💪💪

[austere jay]

juiced up monday feeling like a cowboy

that’s how you know it’s good t

[real meadow]

if i dont get boy juice i am going to riot

[whole monolith]

I started reacting weird to injections I had to switch to patches

[grand hearth]

best clinic 10/10

[misty harness]

thats adorable tbh

[chrome snow]

W

[tender mist]

🫶

[timid grail]

anyone have any tips for dealing with dysphoria.. i honestly havent dealt with much dysphoria since i started t bc it alleviated a lot of it but its been beating my ass again recently and its been hard to figure out how to cope with it

[misty harness]

idk but ive been in the same situation again, sighhhh

[tender mist]

same here

[unborn atlas]

I think my gender fell off

[austere jay]

idk how effective this would be for you but i often will study myself in the mirror, pick out features of mine that are masculine in a way that makes me satisfied, and focus more on those than on what’s bothering me

[clever badge]

something that helped me with dysphoria was reading and consuming other trans media or experiences

hearing different perspectives, trying out different lines of thinking, things like that

seeing the ways others deal with their dysphoria has always been something that has helped me, or at least helped me talk about it even if the dysphoria itself stays at the same intensity

(example, im mtf and reading The Pervert by Remy Boydell was a really interesting, beautiful and enlightening experience)

[last pilot]

One of my folks in class told me that our principal is a transphobic bitch. She apparently told every professor to call everyone by the name in their birth certificate, to avoid rude behavior. Does she realize that the said rude behavior is caused by their disrespecting asses?

[tardy creek]

@last pilot has leveled up! (8 ➜ 9)

[timid grail]

thank you guys that helps a lot

im also switching to injections tomorrow, i did gel for a long time but my mental health hasnt been great so its hard to keep up with every day

im hoping injections go well, im sure itll be a lot easier to manage as a weekly thing instead of daily

[frozen breach]

as someone who regularly forgets my daily meds and has never missed a t shot, it is truly so much easier

I've never been on gel but I'm sure if I was I would forget So Much

[unborn atlas]

@austere jay look it's u

[austere jay]

REAL

[grand hearth]

our school is doing a no shave November thing and it’s making me want to frantically inject all my T

pls let me grow a beard to participate

[balmy pond]

Just gave myself my first e shot

Omfg

[grand hearth]

Yayy Claire!

[balmy pond]

WE FUCKIN IN THERE SAMMY

I feel so fuckint powerful

[grand hearth]

💪

[balmy pond]

Overchrgd w/ enrgy

Swole

[grand hearth]

[balmy pond]

-type beat

||even tho I'm paranoid af I didn't give myself the right dose lol||

[austere jay]

will happen the first few times dw

you got it tho

[balmy pond]

Lol thx man

I can't imagine it'll fuck me up that much tbh

[austere jay]

realistically you can’t do much harm id imagine

also fun non trans related thing, got my elbows tattooed today :3

[proper igloo]

the girls can have a couple air bubbles as a treat

[balmy pond]

Just a smidgen

Just a morsel

[last pilot]

Trans people that have the strength to talk back when purposely misgendered are savage as fuck.

[bright bane]

no im actually not i just can't take cis ppl seriously when they're so obsessed with me

"yo that dude's actually a girl" my voice is 3 octaves deeper than yours i have no reason to listen to you

[misty harness]

dysphoria has kicked my ass this week

idk what to do about it

[clever badge]

crazy how being dysphoric 24/7 results in demotivation

i cannot do anything right now yippee

[frank garnet]

It be like that

Just do what you need to and get plenty of rest don’t tire yourself out

Idk how much it will help but it definitely will

[misty harness]

didn't think I'd learn a new term to explain dysphoria from the guy who made fallout but here we are https://youtu.be/NQneB2h40ms?si=VBVzAfV3I-wG8dv6

[bright bane]

SHES GONNA REFER ME TO A UF GENDER CLINIC

she wants me to go through therapy and all that before getting on hormones but she's not against it. W

[balmy pond]

[chrome snow]

POG AS FUCK

[misty harness]

yoooooo

[balmy pond]

Gotta say it feels so fucking nice to be running around the city in a dress and have it not be a big deal

[misty harness]

hell yes

[last pilot]

https://x.com/dewenjoyer/status/1725703342641332307?s=46

[digital geyser]

oh yeah forgot to share exciting news but i did buy a binder about 2 weeks ago and it works rlly well and im really happy heheheheheh my mental health has been generally eh but far less towards the trans stuff than normal which i think is evidence that being openly trans like helps...so much...

[digital geyser]

like not to add to that but living here as myself has been amazing these past few months. there's a community of trans students at my uni who i regularly interact with, not just in my own year although almost all my close friends here are also under the trans umbrella. its really cool meeting people older than me who are trans or people far further along in their transitions, plus people with a wide range of experiences of gender. prior to university every trans person i'd ever met in real life were transmascs or nonbinary people my age who all went to my all girls school. now i've met people from all sorts of different backgrounds and identities and its so cool hearing everyone elses experiences as well as sharing my own. not to waffle but yeah fun times university is so great for me when it comes to my transition hehe

[grand hearth]

hey! I want to put this out there because I think it’s important to know

FOLX health is on the list of HRT services, but I am going to point out that my experience was overwhelmingly lackluster

The pricing is kind of unsustainable for long term affirming care. Yeah, you pay $40 a month, but that’s not counting everything else you ALSO have to cover. Your initial consult is $159–when I did mine it was like 50-something, so this is a big jump—and follow ups are $79. Labs can vary from $29-47. When I first signed up, they told me it would be more in the ballpark of $15 at most. You also have to cover the price of your medication—injectable T is $94 for 90 days, for example. They take some insurance, but the list of insurance they do take is criminally low. Mine certainly doesn’t cover it.

Not only that, but when I ran out of needles (it was my fault tbh) they told me “we don’t just send supplies anymore” essentially. So where was I supposed to get needles then? Local pharmacies don’t just give out needles generally unless you have a prescription that requires it through them. Amazon is the worst place to look because most are not sterile, and if they are they are DULL. I only was able to get two doses and was forced to stop as a result of not having anymore needles.

I ended up coming across a local affirming clinic who has been doing a stellar job taking care of me, and even has given me needles from their office when I was having trouble getting them through Walmart. They are some of the kindest staff I have interacted with at any clinic, AND my insurance covers it.

This is all just my experience and assessment of Folx. Take it with a grain of salt—for some people this online clinic is the best option, especially if they have insurance included on their very narrow list. In the end I do recommend trying to find local affirming clinics. I am in Kansas, the American Midwest Hellstate, of all places, and somehow the local affirming clinic is amazing

[clever badge]

the world if

[misty harness]

As an alternative, look into plume. The subscription is quite a bit more at $99/mo but all appointments and labwork are covered. You have to pay for your prescriptions still. If you're in Texas and a couple other states they're starting to take insurance too, which lowers the sub to $40/mo. I've used them for two years and have been pretty happy, minus a couple months where response times were slow.

I understand $99/mo is not affordable for many people though. healthcare fucking blows in this country

[austere jay]

if you live in washington and qualify for apple health, please apply! hrt and labs are covered fully

i currently receive all my gender affirming care through planned parenthood for free because of this, it’s a fantastic opportunity especially if you’re low income

[grand hearth]

yeah expensive but it does sound better. I’d probably pick it up if I suddenly am not able to go to this clinic anymore. But for now I think the care I’m getting from this clinic is very good and overall pretty cheaper

[unborn atlas]

I go to get my implant today

[austere jay]

yahoooo!!!!!

was considering implant but i love doing shots too much

makes mondays special

[unborn atlas]

I am implanted weehaa

[misty harness]

lessgoooooo

[chrome snow]

W

[unborn atlas]

I'm normal now

[chrome snow]

That's good.

I'm so sorry that you have to go through all that stuff though.

[unborn atlas]

your friendship is emboldening me

[unborn atlas]

you are a saint

[chrome snow]

NO U

[unborn atlas]

Saint of slime! Saint of bugs!!!!

[crisp dawn]

yall got any recommended places to get fem vocal training online?

[misty harness]

we stan Josie

[real meadow]

https://x.com/themararosa/status/1727031959728292104?s=46

[bright bane]

goes hard af. might screenshot

[fickle cypress]

starting hrt the 30th!

[spice sphinx]

congrats

[chrome snow]

WWW

[real meadow]

LETS GOO

[crisp dawn]

nicee

[misty harness]

where is this i need to know

lmao thank u tibi, all-knowledgable bear

[grand hearth]

I love that you could find that omg

Never doubted that you could though lmao

[balmy pond]

Geographically not spiritual, Boston is so gender lmao

[bright bane]

"mom pleaseee i just want one i'll pay you back with my allowance"

[misty harness]

Makes sense because the person who sent me the pic is on a thanksgiving trip to rhode island and is hanging out with a friend from Boston

[austere jay]

real

opposite way for me i picture myself as a 10 year on t cowboy

[grand hearth]

me 10 years on T

[bright bane]

me 10 years on T

[chrome snow]

me 10 years on T

[unborn atlas]

strewth

[last pilot]

Me 10 years on T

[unborn atlas]

me

[strong heath]

me 10 years on E

[unborn atlas]

it's been five years

[strong heath]

I CANT FIND THE GIF

[unborn atlas]

shoulda done that first!!!!!!

[strong heath]

[grand hearth]

Got that RSD Government Plates copy today. It’s also injection day. I’ve determined Two Heavens is probably my favorite T injection song now.

[unborn atlas]

oh yeah? how'd you figure that

[grand hearth]

lol I set it up to play while I was getting everything ready and by the time I got to inject it was in the middle of Two Heavens

I also was thinking about it on the way home too

[unborn atlas]

hoh

[dim sleet]

it has been quite a while but i just got my hrt consult (i think thats what its called ive been having alot of brain fog lately :^p) and blood drawn today!!!! im starting T soon!!!!!

[misty harness]

ooooh let's go!!!!!

[timid grail]

yayy

also update being on injection has helped so much. i feel a lot better

i think it balanced out my hormone levels a lot in general. my skin is actually surprisingly clear now yay

[austere jay]

ME 10 YEARS ON TTTTT

[austere jay]

huge win actually congrats

pray that i’ll meet the same fate someday

[misty harness]

yesterday was my two year trans anniversary

got that girl juice in my veins for two while years now ..

[chrome snow]

I'm not going to even lie, I really want to be her so bad.

tw tho she has slur tats

I don't want that.

:((

[unborn atlas]

who's that!

[chrome snow]

idk but I saw it on red it

[unborn atlas]

Sister Wife Sex Strike apparently

[spice sphinx]

Raw asf I’d get those tats

I need scarification immediately

[strong heath]

i never realised how much i need a cow tools that

tat

[chrome snow]

I saw it for the first time yesterday and it looks so strange.

I love it.

[austere jay]

like my favorite genre of person ever

i need to befriend everyone like this they make me feel alive

[harsh blade]

Me 10 years on T

[last pilot]

if this is not me right after getting my first t shot

[final heart]

Someone shared this with me, I thought I should share too

https://www.tumblr.com/the-maddened-hatter/702029849623166976/please-reblog?source=share

[fickle cypress]

cow tools 💀💀💀

would any trans femmes here happen to have advice on summer clothes

like i wanna wear this but my arms make me feel really uncomfortable

[spice sphinx]

Get a light breathable cardigan and then you can wear really short sleeve tshirts like this

That’s what I do at least

[fickle cypress]

your pfp makes me sick

[spice sphinx]

rude

this is just a picture of me

[bright bane]

dont diss mariah too big to carry like that

[fickle cypress]

💀💀

[bright bane]

LMAOO

[grand hearth]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZE4shVkwqIk

[fickle cypress]

😭😭

[chrome snow]

You hurt me.

😭

[spice sphinx]

I love all my fans

[digital geyser]

[winter fulcrum]

started hrt today

[misty harness]

congrats!!!!

[austere jay]

upping my t dose finally

[austere jay]

for those who remember vinny t lore i have been on the lowest dose (.25) of subq for over a year now because the last time we tried to up it (.35) my t levels shot up dangerously high. so now after a year i’m going up to .3 and hopefully i’ll start to see some more results

i’ve hit a plateau in my transition that irks me a little

[chrome snow]

W

[vapid dune]

Vinny T lore is gonna be written in papyrus by hand and is gonna be more expansive than the library of Alexandria

[austere jay]

soon…. for now it’s like a watt pad chapter at best

[zinc oriole]

I live (ish) and I'm almost 4 years on T :] I've taken a couple hrt breaks but overall it's been about 4 years since I've started and I couldn't be more grateful

[austere jay]

testosterone is gods gift to his strongest men

specifically the trans ones

picking up my vials rn actually lol

[bronze ocean]

shoutout to testosterone

[frozen breach]

HUGE W

[frozen breach]

wait is that .25 subq per week?? if that's the minimum dose then I might be being microdosed cuz I've been on .2 weekly for a while now and I started even lower

my levels seem fine but I'm also hitting a plateau rn so that's a bit worrying to me

[austere jay]

i’ve been told that .25 is the lowest that my clinic administers but i’m not sure about other places

they were actually surprised my dose was so low for so long actually

[austere jay]

i believe some part of it is natural but at least on my end it’s been months of the same which feels odd for only being a year on. feels like more should be going on and doctors sort of agreed with me

[bright bane]

every time i go to pick up my birth control it just gets lazier and lazier. Normally you have a box, with the pills, some days of the week stickers, something to hold your pills, and a little paper telling you the side effects. Last time i went i got a plastic baggy with the pills and the holder. no box no nothing. I'm just waiting for them to start tossing the loose pills in a ziploc and call it a day atp

[misty harness]

My grandmother called today to say Merry Christmas a day early and all that, and she actually did pretty good with my name. She used my dead name once but immediately corrected herself without me reacting, and that made me pretty happy

[austere jay]

very awesome im so happy for you

[tardy creek]

@austere jay has leveled up! (15 ➜ 16)

[austere jay]

i get to see my biggest allies today (younger brother and my brothers wife) and i’m so excited

[misty harness]

yay! that's sick

I'm just shocked that my grandmother is actually making this effort because she's very conservative and catholic

[austere jay]

massive win actually

pleased to report that my mother has starting calling me v as opposed to my dead name so progress is being made

[real meadow]

YOOO

my grandparents have been good about using my new name which is really rad !! but they havent been good w the pronouns unfortunately

but they are trying their best

idk why i said "new name" its not really new

hut

my preferred name

[unborn atlas]

ya name

[misty harness]

i personally don't like saying preferred name cuz its not optional. my deadname is only allowed when legally required, and i don't think there should be any barrier to having a legal name changed

[unborn atlas]

I put in a lot of work, time and money to erase my previous name

[austere jay]

i’ll get there soon hopefully

once i move cities i think things will change positively for me

[spice sphinx]

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO TRAANSN OEPEOPLE

IL LOVE YOU ALLL MY CHILDREN

YOAU ARE LOVED

[valid sun]

dosage is very individual because it's dependent on your metabolism. i've been at 0.3 ml subq weekly and my levels are in the mid range, i've never been at a lower/higher dosage. i know guys who have been at 0.5 ml weekly because of their metabolism and some people at 0.3 biweekly, those are somewhat extreme examples though

Also i wish yall luck. "plateaus" are frustrating but normal. if some of yall are experiencing slower progressions, it's also not uncommon for people to start making pretty wide strides anywhere between 3-6 years into HRT compared to the first few years. doesnt make it any less frustrating, but youre not alone and patience is key 💪 a friend of mine had a staggering amount of progress happen late into his 3rd year of HRT and is still having it.

also happy holidays

[misty harness]

yeah, doubling what milo said: i felt like i hit a plateau for like six months and then suddenly noticed a lot of fairly rapid changes again. it comes in spurts, so as long as your levels are where they should be, don't worry about it too much. puberty takes 5~ years for most people, and this is just a second puberty.

[valid sun]

i can recall like 2 main plateaus: 8 months and ~2 and a half years. both were met with big changes in the first 1 and a half years and the 3rd year respectively. mainly body hair and voice changes

even if your voice hasnt dropped in pitch since your first few tears, your voice resonance changes a lot overtime and you may not notice it readily but it makes a difference. and for estrogen ive noticed a similar thing w/ fat redistribution

[unborn atlas]

[last pilot]

I got in contact with local trans folks and they recommended me this one doctor who should be able to help me get T. Gonna write an email to them and see what happens.

[grand hearth]

Yall got any suggestions for wearing boxers? for. someone whose anatomy doesn’t match the purpose

in terms of sizing and style and all that I guess

I bought a cheapish pack of 3 as an experiment lol. I actually like the feel of it but the ones I got don’t fit well (i need a size up maybe and im not covered like I should be)

[austere jay]

i just wear actual boxers (the plaid ones lol) and try to avoid briefs. hurts bottom growth

[grand hearth]

yeah I got plaid ones >:3

so far I like it. I think it’ll work best once I don’t have to worry about my period anymore

[austere jay]

it gets so much easier after they’re gone trust

i wouldnt recommend them during shark week tho, in the past i just wore them over whatever else i was wearing

[frosty aspen]

so im planning on getting on prog rn and im confused about the dosage

[unborn atlas]

how so?

[frosty aspen]

cycling and just dosage in general

i think cycling may be cia propaganda

i think 200mg is probably right

[grand hearth]

as far as concentration?

[frosty aspen]

yea ig

also its pretty expensive trying to find like the cheapest place to get it

[grand hearth]

I looked into it a little more out of curiosity because I had never heard of this

This seems to be the idea of supplementing feminine hormones timed in a way to simulate timing of hormones in AFAB people

What I’m guessing is that this is standard for AFAB people who are deficient in feminine hormones for one reason or another, and is preventative for complications such as development of osteoporosis/general weakening of bones. This is done with the understanding that the patient produces at least some feminine hormones on their own. In some cases this may be to encourage a normal cycle if there is a desire to become pregnant in someone with an estrogen deficiency

The goal of HRT for AMAB people is to result in general feminization. It sounds like progesterone is one of those hormones added to an HRT regimen to induce breast growth. Since AMAB people don’t really produce estrogen on their own (or don’t produce a lot of it—both sex hormones are present in either sex), there’s more of a need to supply levels of feminine hormones until reaching levels analogous to AFAB, and continue to maintain that for results. The cycling doesn’t make sense of that and may be counterintuitive

long as hell but I thought others should know

[frosty aspen]

yea thats kinda what i thought!!!!!

i think the general consensus is cycling isnt that good and can lead to like heavy mood swings

[misty harness]

yeah my Dr said no to cycling, you wanna keep it consistent

[austere jay]

one of my tiktok mutuals doses herself with some diy stuff and she never cycles

i mean after experiencing the effects of my normally cycling estrogen i wouldn’t wish that on anyone lol

[balmy pond]

Your body already does that on its own lol

Not a doc or endo but from my understanding at a certain point your body starts producing more estrogen on its own and so you naturally experience those dips and peaks in estrogen when your on femininizing hrt

[austere jay]

my condolences 😔 hopefully it’s not as awful for y’all as it was for me

so very special to me tho that i can share some aspects of my life and some of my experiences with trans feminine people, we have two completely different journeys but it’s so neat that there’s overlap there

genuinely don’t think there’s a group out there that i feel safer talking to than trans feminine people you guys fucking get it

[balmy pond]

Omgggg no u r, Trans mascs are the realest

Love every single one of you behemoths

[balmy pond]

Tbh it suxs but it's also insanely euphoric. It's not the same but there's a good week out of the month where I get super PMSy symptoms :3 I swear to fuck being able to say "I'm on my period"... that's gotta be what the presence of God feels like...

So worth it, all things considered

[austere jay]

i get it that’s how i feel about all the weird t fuckery that goes on

tbh i kinda traded the pms for a constant weird undercurrent of anger, really weird to get a hold of but i’ve got it down now

unironcially hardcore shows were a life saver great release of energy in a healthy and fun environment

[frozen breach]

see this is so beautiful to me as someone who spent years finding ways to avoid having to say the words "I'm on my period" at all costs. I love getting to see some of my experiences mirrored in the experiences of transfem ppl it's so poetic

this is why I love that my deadname is a common trans woman name, it makes me so happy to see others appreciate something that I hated for so long because it helps remind me that womanhood and femininity aren't inherently destructive, they just weren't the right fit for me

idk if this makes sense, I just woke up and I'm rambling, but yeah I love other trans ppl y'all are the actual coolest

[bright bane]

tired of tits. next full moon i'm just clawing them off

[real meadow]

based

[clever badge]

the plot of ginger snaps if ginger were transmasc

[cold whale]

that’s totally what happened wdym

[grand hearth]

the “mustache” area and chin of my face are definitely growing facial hair. Thought I was imagining it at first but it’s more apparent now. Starting to resemble shaggy if you look closely. Zoinks Scoob

I might have to start shaving it though which makes me sad. It’s supposed to be an inclusive school but I think most will find someone with facial hair AND a noticeable chest weird—students and faculty both.

Eventually I might invest in a binder so that it’s less “jarring” but I’ll probably have to start shaving for now.

As much as I really want to walk around with noticeable facial hair and an unrestrained chest (at least in a bra), I think that could become dangerous for me.

[grand hearth]

every fucking time there’s any health issue with me my parents say it’s probably the hormones

No it fucking isn’t!

I’ve been in pain for months. Ever since last summer. Suspiciously right after recovering from COVID.

Furthermore, I’m smart enough to know that can happen with HRT. I’ve researched it before starting and am continuing to research. Yes. I’m well aware muscle aches can happen.

Have you considered maybe I’m just fucking sick? and maybe some of it is that stupid fucking IUD giving me cramps as well? Stop telling me it’s T. I know the side effects. I know what can happen. Suggesting every single health problem is because of HRT is stupid and unhelpful.

[misty harness]

fucking hate that mentality. it's even worse coming from doctors.

"hey doc ive been having heart palpitations"

"hmmm might be the estrogen"

like fuck OFF you know it's not that

talked to my endo and he was like "lol no hrt doesn't give heart palpitations"

[austere jay]

that is 100% not hrt

it’s silly anyone would even suggest that

i’m sorry man that shit fucking sucks

hope they knock it off at some point in the future

[grand hearth]

It makes me mad because I’m literally studying medicine. This doesn’t make me a doctor but i have a good enough understanding how things work!!

[austere jay]

people have no idea what hrt entails at all and it’s so obvious they don’t care to learn

it’s a scapegoat

[grand hearth]

I hate it so much. It feels like they keep blaming it all on HRT in an effort to make me stop. They’ve blamed so many things on it.

Dad was being annoying earlier about me being in pain so I’m going to see if I can talk to him about all that. I’m sick of it.

Essentially told me to go to my room because I was in pain to the point I was making noises, saying I was distracting mom while she worked. Without offering to help me get there.

Sir, it’s much more comfortable in my bed. The only reason I’m stuck on the damn couch in the living room is because it’s hard to get there in this state.

[austere jay]

is there any way you can get to an urgent care and get checked out?

[grand hearth]

I think I’m ok. I took a nap earlier and ate and it remedied some of it. I’m just keeping an eye on things

Thank you for your concern!

It’s tough because I got slapped with $150 during my last urgent care visit, and $750 when I took my mom to the ER 😬 as much as I want to take care of my health, they put us in this dilemma of having to fork out an unreasonable amount of money just for that. Insurance companies are actively trying to prevent people from using ERs

[austere jay]

i get it trust me

i’m glad you’re feeling better, take good care of yourself

[unborn atlas]

trans broken arm syndrome

[valid sun]

ohh i wanted to add to this but this is such an insanely common thing apparently. for like a year and a half my doctors kept tryna say my long covid symptoms were caused by my HRT. that was insane 😑

[misty harness]

yuuup same

I mentioned this yesterday but big Washington W, I got my driver's license transferred finally and they just let you change the gender marker just because now, you sign a piece of paper saying you want a different one and it just happens

[valid sun]

yo thats awesome

self ID states ftw

[austere jay]

oh hell yeah

do you know how i can do this myself? like do i have to get a new id or will they just update mine

don’t mind getting a new id tbh old picture was pre t and i don’t think it looks like me

[misty harness]

I'm not sure, I didn't go in for this specifically, the woman helping me just said I could do it and gave me this short form to fill out.

[austere jay]

ah i see

i’ll poke around and see what i can learn about it

[valid sun]

idk if it helps but when i changed my sex marker i had to get a new ID

[austere jay]

anyone know of any actually good binder brands currently

heard gc2b sucks now and my old as shit one is almost dead

it’s like over five years old now

[grand hearth]

most people have had good experience with TomboyX

I haven’t ordered anything from them yet (I want to soon) so take the suggestion with a grain of salt, but they get good reception

https://tomboyx.com/collections/the-compression-top

There are mostly compression tops but there’s at least one listing for tanks + colors

compression tops are a bit less constricting than a traditional binder so while it may be comfortable it may not necessarily bind everything to a satisfactory degree

[rich osprey]

Depends where you're from cause i buy binders from iguanatrend n they're really good but also they're a polish brand so they're not going to ship everywhere

[last pilot]

Do they ship to Czech Republic?

I have two that my friend gave me but I feel like it’s good to have some extra

[austere jay]

i’m in the us right now

tempted to just keep my current binder cuz it works so well but there’s only so many repairs i can do before it’s essentially a rag lol

[rich osprey]

Im pretty sure they do !!:3

[frozen breach]

seconding this question; I haven't had a proper binder in a few months because I was supposed to have had top surgery by now, but since it's now gonna be at least another six months I need an interim solution

I'm in the US also btw

[valid sun]

underworks, but the fabric may be uncomfortable

but also, spectrum is good. i have a spectrum binder but yea it does ship from UK

tomboyx is OK for comfortability but for max binding always use underworks in my experience

and spectrum may feel loose at the bottom if you got big love handles and dont buy a tank, also from my experience

but it binds the armpit area fine

underworks can roll up a lil if you order a size too big

[last pilot]

hear some very good things about spectrum binders from my irl friends

[frozen breach]

I'm a tiny bit wary of spectrum because I bought one and it became threadbare really fast, but upon reflection I think that's my fault because I put it in the washing machine 💀

but other than that yeah I've heard nothing but good things

spectrum is also super good for people who are plus sized or who have sensory issues that might make binding difficult!! I fit both of those categories and I found it to be the most comfy binder I've ever worn that also actually has good compression

[grand hearth]

My learning specialist at school complimented me on my deeper voice :> (she knows I’m on T)

[frozen breach]

yusssss big W

[grand hearth]

taking notes from yall because im thinking of binding at some point as well

[austere jay]

hilarious to me that transphobic plebs with brag about their ability to “always tell” and yet so many trans people i know are stealth as hell and cis people have no idea

[balmy pond]

I've found that the sweetest most affirming people I've met are the most stereotypically redneck dudes

[austere jay]

exactly

most of the time, all they need is a few questions answered and then they’re on board

very interesting phenomenon. i got more support from random cishet guys about my changes on t than i did from anyone else aside from other trans people

[grand hearth]

need to shave sometime. The Neckbeard emerges.

[austere jay]

tbh don’t feel pressured to i haven’t shaved my mustache a day since starting t

[unborn atlas]

I'm getting there too

got a bit of a goatee

it's like somebody transplanted a metalhead's head onto the body of a smokin hot babe

[austere jay]

i’ve got chin hair and a light mustache and random ass hairs on the cheeks

all j want is relatively full scruff but i know i’ll have to wait for that

[unborn atlas]

https://www.google.com/amp/s/www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-12960933/amp/Birth-certificate-non-binary-Western-Australia.html

this is big news

[austere jay]

birth certificate??? that’s awesome

mfw changing the gender on my birth certificate is going to be a nightmare cuz i was born in a different state than the one i currently live in and it’s got archaic republican rules

[bright bane]

it's so funny when i run into those ppl because they'll be like "Oh hello sir, that's such a wonderful manly outfit you got there, i love those boots. You catch any fish recently brother? Wanna go 4-wheeler riding in the forest later this week son?"

[strong heath]

LFG

the one good thing australia has done

[misty harness]

oh shit fuck yeah

[frozen breach]

rare australia W???

so awesome lfg

[chrome snow]

BIG W

[bright bane]

"You're trans? so like what's in your pants?" Your mom's hand

[unborn atlas]

a screaming mouth

[frozen breach]

"what's in your pants" my legs, dumbass

[bright bane]

lots and lots of hair

[austere jay]

double action revolver

[frozen breach]

trueee

one year + three months on T and the gorilla genes are emerging

[grand hearth]

Yes >:)

I am full of hair

[frozen breach]

I have more body hair than my dad which is insane to me

[grand hearth]

I wonder how long I can go growing out my facial hair without it being noticed

School is generally inclusive but 🤷 it might be more of an issue in public

[grand hearth]

I find this really funny on the page of Suite Two by Dreamcrusher because I kinda make that association too

[chrome snow]

Such a bworded playlist

[austere jay]

i’ve only injected to bladee, death grips and machine girl

so stereotypical but it’s okay

[unborn atlas]

what's a good bladee

[austere jay]

hmmm

i don’t know if i have a good zenoby tailored pick

let me take a look

i’ve been listening to 1D a lot lately

[grand hearth]

be nice 2 me

honestly nothing else super clicked for me as far as bladee but i might check his stuff again

[austere jay]

waster one of my favorites

i’m a new gen bladee fan won’t lie

not my favorite artist anymore but i still like his music it’s comforting

[austere jay]

honestly there’s not much to bladee you either like him or you don’t

i think he’s great but not nearly this huge grand being a lot of people refer to him as

i think we would get along irl

[misty harness]

old edgy bladee: eversince
new woke bladee: the fool

[unborn atlas]

I like this one bladee fanart

https://vxtwitter.com/dyleedee/status/1712502515361800408

man I like the beats but his voice is kinda

:/

[bronze ocean]

i love bladee

[unborn atlas]

I want what you have

[austere jay]

i like his stupid dumb voice

it takes a while to get used to it

[bronze ocean]

my fave bladee album is crest :)

[unborn atlas]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gtg6X9_Wgrc

I like this one

[misty harness]

oh yeah crest is one of the best too

[misty harness]

literally everyone getting into bladee has this reaction

[unborn atlas]

damn bladee looks like tommy wiseau

I think bladee and ecco compliment each other really well

and I think I like ecco a lil bit more

[austere jay]

ecco wins 100%

ive got a big stupid gnarly crush on him and i have for years now

[proper igloo]

fake drain/j

[unborn atlas]

tell me about this ✌️ "drain gang" ✌️

[proper igloo]

is drain gang in the room with us?

[unborn atlas]

lowkey

I was listening to bladee talk about it and it's like

sometimes something drains you of your power and sometimes you can drain something else for power

and it's like

so you're the suck gang?

you suck things?

[bronze ocean]

yes.

[unborn atlas]

I don't get it

it's like

early 2000s vampire romanticism

[bronze ocean]

yea it rocks

[unborn atlas]

I feel like I'm at risk of sounding like a rube

"man the quality sounds like shit"
"UH DIPSHIT IT'S CALLED LO-FI?"

it does seem, like

self aware

and aware of what came before it

but a lot of it hits me like "damn why doesn't he sing good"

maybe it's just the like, tough guy hip hop posturing that takes me out

here's my doodle of a drain gang member

which one? iunno they all look the same

member slash fan

[valid sluice]

Im a drain gang gonna smoke some bangarang... im jack frost coming out the closet frosty flow

Got that ice flow floating in the transdome

Im a snake 🐛 tho cause u know i really move slow

[bright bane]

i've been chased by several snakes before those bitches move fast as hell

[real meadow]

i think i am going to have a girlfriend soon.

[vapid dune]

Wait you’re telling me cable isn’t exclusively a boykisser???

[real meadow]

fuck like
ok this is kind of a vent so ill put it in spoilers LMFKSDJ
||uh. im enrolled in college courses early. and on their site they have places for preferred name and pronouns. i filled it out but ohh noo they dont ever FUCKING use it. im enrolled in fucking everything with my deadname and its public to my classmates so now they get to fucking see it too. im genuinely fucking sick over it idfk. ||

forced myself to not cry by saying "remember son. crying is gay"

[grand hearth]

hugs cablé

the student affairs director at our school was the one who had the idea for pronouns on name tags/keycards and he still called me young lady as the single trans person for OMS-I 🫠 sigh

(he don’t work here anymore)

but. it’s ok to be upset. it’s not bad to let yourself feel sad or upset because of that

[real meadow]

nvm i was just overreacting i figured it out in 2 fuckinf minutes

[grand hearth]

ur all good I’m glad you figured it out!

[real meadow]

fellas how do we cope with insane dysphoria

[austere jay]

appointment scheduled for primary care provider letter for too surgery and asking therapist about the therapy letter next tuesday. we’re up

covered completely by insurance shout out washington

[balmy pond]

YO LFGG VIN HELL YEA

shout outs to washington damn

[bright bane]

fav hoodie

[misty harness]

still trying to figure it out, but mostly video games

[grand hearth]

reminded of a relatively new thing in the Vietnamese queer/nonbinary community

There are pronouns that vary based on relative age, but the main idea is that they are as follows for the older ones:

chị for “older sister” and anh for “older brother”

I dont really know how common it is or has become, but a running idea seems to be to combine the two pronouns to act as a gender neutral one—chanh.

Chanh also happens to be the same word for lemon in Vietnamese. Cam has also been suggested for use, which also sounds like the word for mandarin orange.

It’s interesting but I think it’s something so new to being “accepted” in any capacity that I dont think there’s a set in stone way to refer to nb people in Vietnam yet

[misty harness]

citrus is nb fruit now

[unborn atlas]

🍋

[grand hearth]

🍋 🍊

[bright bane]

breakthrough bleeding again. I hate my birth control

[frozen breach]

oh god this is so real...

which one are you on if you don't mind me asking? cuz the one I'm on is notorious for this and I wanna see if it's the same one

[grand hearth]

I been having that 🫠 I started the oral contraceptive and had extremely irregular bleeding. So then i decided to get an iud. Seems to be helping? But apparently it takes like. 6 months for everything to settle down

[frozen breach]

my uterus when I take my birth control at 10 AM instead of 8 AM like I did yesterday: 🩸🩸🩸

honestly I think the only reason I don't get irregular bleeding so much anymore is testosterone

but I still get cramps if I don't take it at exactly the same time every day

it's so fucking finicky

[grand hearth]

Born to remove uterus and ovaries

Forced to avoid osteoporosis 💔

[frozen breach]

we live in a society truly...

it's not gonna happen for years but I'm so pumped for hysto

rip the whole dumbass thing right out

[austere jay]

happening to me too i’m right there with you

doctors dropped the ball figuring out why lol. said it was “weight gain or fluctuating weight” (i’m always a solid 150) turns out it’s because of endometriosis and i confirmed this with like 30 minutes of research lol

remember if you’re on the depo shot please take a daily multivitamin with both calcium and vit d to prevent osteoporosis

let us not forget that having to go through the horrors of having a uterus makes us a good 30% stronger than cisgender men

[bright bane]

vienva. the lowest dose available i think

maybe i could ask my doc for a higher dose/different brand

ughh but then i'd have to go through that whole 3 month period of "try this out see if your body fw this or not"

[bright bane]

transition goals

[unborn atlas]

yea

that's a type of guy

[proper igloo]

this is the guy that you see at sunami shows

[last pilot]

Guzma was one of my trans awakening ngl

[grand hearth]

him for me

[last pilot]

Reminds of brassius from sv

[carmine cobalt]

i hate my ovaries sm rn!!! i switched from oral contraceptive to iud and now i am in constant ovary pain for another week of the month!!! i feel like most visits to the gynecologist end up like "eh you are probably fine/there's nothing we can do" and they don't tell me anything i didn't already know

[grand hearth]

He Garry from Ib :D he does look like brassius

[austere jay]

guess who got his therapy letter for top surgery : 3

guess who is scheduling its consultation with a surgeon : 3

[bright bane]

eats you

lucky bastard im so happy 4 you

[austere jay]

god is good and so is washington state insurance AMEN!

[bright bane]

Rant but i hate how trans mental healthcare isn't viewed at the same severity as literally everything else.
If someone has psychosis, adhd, autism, or literally anything else most people would agree that they need therapy/assistance.
But ask if gender dysphoria deserves the same treatment and it's "oh it's not THAT bad, they're just sensitive"

(specifically targeting a certain adult in my life)

[frozen breach]

or worse, if someone else has one of those other mental health issues/neurodivergencies, their gender dysphoria concerns might be dismissed as just a symptom of x y or z condition

like "oh you're autistic so you can't know for sure if you're trans or not because uhhh idk fuck you I guess"

evil world

[austere jay]

the autism bit is insidious especially for trans men for some reason they’re all convinced we’re just confused tomboys

evil evil evil

[frozen breach]

its like compounded infantilization; they infantilize us for being autistic and for being people who they percieve as girls/women

episode 2378 of "transphobia is basically just reskinned homophobia/misogyny/ableism/racism/every single other form of bigotry essentially"

[real meadow]

LMFAOOO gladion was mine

and then. unm

uhmmm

shuichi saihara.

[past saffron]

hey guys just wanted to let you all know that i had the scariest t4t moment ever today

[unborn atlas]

tell us more

[vapid dune]

We shall never know the scariest t4t moment in history

(WATCH UNTIL THE END. POLICE WAS INVOLVED)

[past saffron]

HELP

i have so many scary t4t moments this is just a regular tuesday for me

[valid sun]

Popping in to say that being stealth is strange. now i have 2 years of physical stealth experience and 3 months of legal stealth experience. i dont know how to exactly describe it right now cause im tired

also wish it was more common for people to not use "passing" and "stealth/stealthing" interchangibly, cause theyre different though one involves the other

[austere jay]

stealth is difficult and tiring

in my opinion

lots of work

[valid sun]

yea it is but it's easier for me because i have AVPD so i dont necessarily seek out many close relationships

but very situational in that sense, most people dont have that experience

dating is absolute hell if ur stealth im lucky to already have a partner i care a ton about otherwise i would just be too intimidated. a big factor is also that people always see me as "younger" n treat me like a teenage guy, which i mean im 18 yea but it's because of my height and somewhat my pitch i guess. i dont really mind it tbh

[austere jay]

the teenager part is irritating as hell the older you get

like yes i am viewed as male in society but never as an adult for some reason

pisses me off

[valid sun]

yeah i hope my beard changes that

it's growing but slowly. my neckbeard took 2 years but finally filled in, guess i have to wait the same amount for my jawline

at work and college it can be a blessing because now i can talk down on the guys i talk to who are being misogynistic and they'll actually stop out of shame lol it feels weird kinda

but good

it's easier to just tell people i'm gay if i havent told them im trans so i just do that and the reception is positive mostly

[austere jay]

stuck in the chin whisker and dirt stache phase rn

hell on earth

[valid sun]

my stache is thickening too slowly LOL

[austere jay]

tbh i’m way less open about sexuality than i am with my gender

i don’t tell people shit about my sexuality like ever makes me so uncomfortable

[valid sun]

for me i'm cool with it because i talk about my partner a lot, my gender i'm not open about because tbh theres 2 things that happen

is one, they think i'm MtF because transmisogyny in society (cant expand on this im tired but ykwim) or two, they fucking forget for whatever reason

like straight up they dont register it i guess

so it's just kinda useless info

i hate it when people use me as a way to shit on other trans people they know who are GNC tho, i dont play about that shit i shut it down immediately

it doesnt really happen anymore but it used to and just made me feel so disrespected cause like mind your business man.. just be normal and respect other people

i feel like a lot of people can relate to how you feel about sexuality though, i have a few friends who feel similarly

[last pilot]

I forgot to tell yall but I got an appointment with one of the best sexologist in the country (when it comes to trans people)

I will have to wait until June but considering my schedule in school, it’s perfect

[valid sun]

boooom glad to hear that!

[austere jay]

one year wait list for top surgery consult

time to find a new surgeon

[valid sun]

Douhhh

whats the general area youre looking in

[austere jay]

i’ve already picked a few out so i’m set on recommendations

just irritating

[valid sun]

i see i see

[empty goblet]

sup || ||

[strong heath]

wh

[chrome snow]

What, how did you do that?

😭

[unborn atlas]

what happen

[unborn atlas]

smort

[chrome snow]

|| ||

ok

[grand hearth]

||. ||

[austere jay]

primary care provider letter for top surgery on tuesday…. were so close

new surgeon selected therapist drafting referral letter

i’m pushing so hard for this guys

also buying first packer with some birthday money

we up

[spice sphinx]

My est/test levels are insane recently

Testosterone is like the lowest it should ever be and my estrogen is the highest it should ever be

They actually had to lower my injection dose cause it was too high

This whole time I’ve been worried that I’m fucking it up or the hrt isn’t doing enough but nah, I’m at the apex

[frozen breach]

you became the sigma female

[valid sun]

hi machinecord trans people. Hope you guys are having a good day

[valid sun]

felt, my T was way higher than expected last time to where i made too many red blood cells

no change in dosage i think it was just cause i was being inconsistent lol

[frozen breach]

gosh I haven't had my levels checked in months

that's probably not great because I switched from bi-weekly to weekly a couple.months ago and I haven't had levels checked since then

my beard is coming in nicely though so I doubt there's anything super crazy happening with my levels

[austere jay]

happened to me as well

honestly found that my results were worse when my t levels were too high

more progress after i went down a little

[spice sphinx]

Oh yeah isn't there some thing that too much testosterone just starts turning into estrogen?

Might be complete bullshit I thought I remembered something from a psyiology class about it tho

[austere jay]

sounds about right

body’s reaction to too much testosterone

also just mentally felt like ass the whole time

[misty harness]

yeah, there is an enzyme that converts t to e at some point

[grand hearth]

DHT

it’s not estrogen and I’m really not sure if testosterone can be converted to estrogen at all

But DHT is attributed to hair loss commonly. T tends to eventually get converted to DHT and high levels of DHT can potentially lead to that

[valid sun]

yup

and also doctors reinforce that to stop patients from upping their dosage too much without prescription, which is meh but a lot of people have done it thinking that theyll get changes quicker if they have higher T dosages

i used it see people asking about it a lot and upping their dosages without discussing it beforehand like a couple years back.. the other reason that's a bad idea is because T is a controlled substance and youre not gonna get another vial until those 70 days or however long are up

[frozen breach]

side note on this: I understand why T is a controlled substance and E isn't, but I wish it just... wasn't a controlled substance lol

would be much easier to DIY probably

[tropic tundra]

id do anything to be on T but im pretty sure im too young to start

[valid sun]

i agree 500%

i actually ran into an issue with that like a month ago lol it sucks cause the "stockpile HRT" advice doesnt work for us and DIY is much less safe for testosterone though definitely possible

though for estrogen, stockpile HRT is great advice

and people should do that when possible

[frozen breach]

yeah definitely

I kinda have a stockpile rn cuz my pharmacy gave me too many vials on accident, but that's not gonna happen for most ppl

[austere jay]

i’m just used to being shorted on a dose and injecting for that week with leftovers from a few vials

i do not recommend this

my pharmacy used to fuck me over and consistently leave me without a dose for 1-2 weeks

[grand hearth]

Big this 😭

[austere jay]

eeuuuuggghh cis men thirsting over “femboys” that are just stealing trans women’s trends and motifs makes me so fucking mad

i’m about to cave skulls in fr

[grand hearth]

Yes they took forever to fill my recent T prescription, it literally just got filled today and I think I called it in on the 1st >:( and I don’t think it was too early either, but maybe I’m also super accustomed to timing for insurance of my other meds so I expected it sooner

[austere jay]

saw one that was making a joke about how all femboys have that shark ikea stuffed animal, not like it’s the defining factor of trans women but i’m pretty sure most people involved with this stuff knows that’s kind of a trans femme thing

just so gross like i am going to beat your ass dude start running

[grand hearth]

It’s tough!

Like I wholeheartedly support GNC stuff in general

But, it feels. Eugh. It’s very difficult to pinpoint why I’m so conflicted about femboys/femboy culture. I feel like….idk I really see what you mean especially with the ikea shark

[austere jay]

like you can palpably tell when it’s not about gender expression and just about people’s fetishes

i have known and will probably meet more femboys that are genuinely just doing their thing, which is neat and i respect just as i would any other normal person

but when it becomes essentially co opting pieces of trans culture for fetishizing issues i have a huge problem with it

[frozen breach]

i feel like that ties into the thing with ppl like finnster or whatever that guys name is where the whole gimmick is "haha you thought i was a girl but actually im a boy hahaha lol"

i think honestly my biggest issue is with how cishet men act abt this stuff. ive spoken to a couple guys who genuinely believed that being into (cis male) femboys wasn't gay but being into trans women was. makes no fkn sense

as usual the cis are the ones causing the problems /hj

[balmy pond]

this is probably a super bad faith take but part of me sees it as this weird "pick-me" thing

[austere jay]

i really dislike finnster

something is so off about his whole thing

just feels bizarre

[austere jay]

oh most definitely

[balmy pond]

i wouldn't be surprised if a lot of femboys are in fact trans femme but won't own it in favor of cishet validation

what a lifetime on /a/ does to a mf

[frozen breach]

thats so real

[grand hearth]

yes this is the suspicion I’ve been having

to some capacity

[grand hearth]

wh

Huh! Ok! This! Is weird logic!

[frozen breach]

my reaction exactly

people will jump through all kinds of mental hoops to hate trans people

[unborn atlas]

bizarre

[small sand]

I need assistance

I have gcses (important exams) starting in May
My doctor has allowed me to have estrogen for some reason, and i’m wondering if it would fuck everything up with school. I’mmm not on blockers yet but i got uhhhrrr progesterone. My parents are worried idk i’m hesitant as well. Like i coild be too young it’s really weird that the doctor has let me have stuff already (i turn 16 in may as well) wghhgh it’s so comfusinngng

[red hawk]

It’s not going to have a detrimental effect on your grades. I started E a few days before my 16th and my grades have stayed the same level. It’ll take a while for enough hormones to build up for mood swings to even be a thing. If you’re worried about it in more of a social sense, that mainly depends on where you live. Personally, I’m in a decently homophobic part of the usa, and I’ve stayed out of the public’s ire. I should add I’m not much of a social person

[austere jay]

i don’t think age is a super big issue tbh

[misty harness]

starting earlier is better in terms of effects

don't commit to it if you don't feel ready to, but there really are no downsides unique to starting as a teenager besides hostile social environments based on where you live and how the other people at school are

but again that's not really based on age, you'll still run the risk of adverse social interactions no matter when you start

that said there isn't much harm in waiting a year or two before starting either.

[balmy pond]

yea the first year or so can be pretty rough mentally

youre going to go through a looooooot of feelings

for me a lot of stuff came bubbling to the surface that i never had the chance to process when i didn't feel safe in my body

a lot of that probably depends on your circumstances tho; like i started in my mid 20s and was dealing with family stuff/adjusting to post college life at the same time

my rec is MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A SUPPORT NETWORK BEFORE YOU JUMP IN

supportive friends/family, mental health professionals, doctors

just like people you trust and can help you process all that cuz it is a lot

not even like in a bad way, all that was stuff i needed to start healing from, but it can be a lot to handle

[austere jay]

super important for anyone transitioning

do not push it off or ignore it it will come back to bite you in the ass

[fickle cypress]

starting e tomorrow

[tardy creek]

@fickle cypress has leveled up! (2 ➜ 3)

[fickle cypress]

LETS GO

LEVEL 3 BABY

[grand hearth]

3 backwards is E

[fickle cypress]

:0 holyyyy shitttt

[chrome snow]

BWORDED AS FUCK

[frozen breach]

finally have real binders again for the first time in over a year... fuck I had forgotten how nice it is

[spice sphinx]

Transdome I’m looking to reach out for psychiatric evaluation and therapy stuff because I think I have bpd but I’m worried I’m gonna just get “trans broken leg syndrome’d” and told to stop taking my hrt or detransition or something

How should I go about this

[balmy pond]

I dunno tbh. So much of finding a good therapist is feeling it out, but that takes time and sunk cost fallacy is real af

I think the main thing is you need to find someone with similar experience to yours

There's queer therapists out there who specialize in queer clientele. My therapist is an enby lesbian who actually requested to take my case when they heard there was a Trans girl seeing therapy at their practice; best fucking experience I've ever had with a therapist and the first time in my life I feel like I've made any progress with my mental health

[spice sphinx]

That’s really nice

I’ve been struggling to find queer therapists in jax tbh

[balmy pond]

I can imagine : (

Might be worth reaching out of your area for someone who works remote

I do that with mine. They're still in jersey but far enough away to only meet online

[misty harness]

searching online has the benefit of being able to find therapists licensed in states they don't live in, so it's totally possible to find more accepting ones that are from better states. but even without queerness being a factor, finding a good therapist is real hard. i haven't been able to find one i like in the past four years

[final heart]

speaking my mind here,

I hate gender. I hate how I feel like I have to be one because it seems like everyone in my life does, like I know I don't have to but I feel like I do. It only adds onto my confusion of a lot of things

not much of a speak, more like a small rant I'd doodle in my notebook

[unborn atlas]

may I recommend agender?

[final heart]

I've heard of it, and used it for a little while, but idk it still doesn't quite fit me?

I do think experimenting is great to do, but I also think that if you choose to do it too much you might end up confused

[unborn atlas]

why's that?

[final heart]

thats what happened to me

[balmy pond]

New pride flag dropped

[tender silo]

finally a flag for me

[austere jay]

shout out to all trans people who use body modification as gender affirming care i am stretching my septum to 4g within the next few days

[strong heath]

me when i don’t have my septum pierced yet but i think about it so it’s okay

[chrome snow]

I want to get one sb

:((

[strong heath]

same 🙏

we’ll get there eventually

[chrome snow]

Yeeeeeeeee

:3

[chrome snow]

I feel like I have finally accepted the fact that I am one day going to need to rip the bandage off in order to transition someday.

For solid period of time, I was thinking of ways of secretly transitioning without telling anybody and I feel like I wouldn't be able to do it.

I can't hide who I am.

[unborn atlas]

who are you?

[chrome snow]

Josie.

:3

Dats me

[grand hearth]

like to sing in the shower or while getting dressed after and singing along to Forty Six & 2 with a voice now better suited to the range made me Hmm

[small sand]

I may be getting estrogen tomorrow

Or the day after

Or not at all

[last pilot]

I forgot to tell yall but me and my partner were on pokemon TCG tournament on Friday and some of the kiddos actually referred to me as a guy-

[austere jay]

second letter for top surgery secured

let’s fucking go

[chrome snow]

WWWWWW

[valid sun]

my medicaid kicked in last second and i didnt have to pay for my HRT this time sooo another free bottle i guess

[tardy creek]

@valid sun has leveled up! (16 ➜ 17)

[small sand]

Today?

[red hawk]

Hell yeah!

[small sand]

not today

[chrome snow]

:((

[small sand]

Today?

[unborn atlas]

here's hoping

[chrome snow]

Fingers crossed.

[small sand]

not today

tomorrow :)

[chrome snow]

Hopefully you can get the bag tomorrow!

[small sand]

they said 2-3 business days

it has now been that

[small sand]

not today :)

[carmine cobalt]

im signing up for a running race and feeling torn about which gender category to use (gender assigned at birth or nonbinary/nonconforming category). any other enby folks have thoughts about using a gender neutral marker in things that are kind of "official" ??? on one hand im excited for ungendered categories in sports, esp running since it's such an individual sport anyway. on the other hand id rather not have public records of gender queerness for privacy concerns in a transphobic society and whatnot

[grand hearth]

eufh it’s tough

Even if it may be “nice” that there would be a gender non conforming category of some kind….it would feel like being othered

I don’t really know what I would do in that situation but I’d probably pick the category fitting my AGAB tbh

In this town? Do not want to be “seen” for a public event like that

[carmine cobalt]

yeah that's what im leaning towards :/

[tardy creek]

@carmine cobalt has leveled up! (0 ➜ 1)

[small sand]

today.

[unborn atlas]

today!!!!

[small sand]

never fucking mind

[chrome snow]

:((

[small sand]

this is getting boring now

[spice sphinx]

Hey what’s the name of that shitfuck website that sells estrogen with the anime stuff all over it and it says “femboy juice” or whatever

[small sand]

ew

[balmy pond]

otokonoko i think

[spice sphinx]

Yeah that’s the one

I was telling a friend about it but couldn’t remember the name

[bronze ocean]

otokonoko pharmacy

[chrome snow]

Is it safe?

[spice sphinx]

I have no clue, my ex has had to order from them a couple times when she’s lost access to prescriptions and it’s cheap and works well enough I guess

But it’s like the most demeaning thing in the world getting some fuckin packaging with anime femboys all over and shit

I think in the past they used to have pedo shit on the boxes too which doesn’t surprise me at all

[unborn atlas]

smells of too-online irony poisoning

"was on 4chan too much but then realized they were trans but never ditched the attitude" type pharmacy

[bronze ocean]

nah otokonoko's stuff is good

no diy compounder can give an absolute certainty of 100% medical grade safety but iirc she has the whole process on the website

[spice sphinx]

I respect that it’s a quality product I just wish it was a more quality person

[unborn atlas]

isn't there a ukranian old lady who makes estrogen on a really bare bones website?

Lena something?

[grand hearth]

looks like it

she’s safe but it sounds like the conflict with Russia made it difficult for her to continue operations

if i were taking estrogen for HRT you bet your ass i would buy it exclusively from HRT Granny

relevant (thread about weirdest things to happen on rotation for med school)

actually no not rotations, residency applicants mb

[chrome snow]

I'm not going to lie, that is bworded as fuck.

[balmy pond]

yea but ive heard she's a racist twat :/

never dealt with her personally tho so i probably shouldn't say shit

the way the dolls around me do DIY is everyone tries to get their docs to overprescribe and then redistribute as needed

i think its mostly for emergencies, but everyone has a lil stash of HRT we keep just in case

all this to say y'all should probably link up with folks around you, if only for safety concerns

[austere jay]

one of my mutuals gets e in excess from another country and controls her own doses i believe

from what i’ve heard doctors are incredibly stingy with estrogen

[strong heath]

gives up the ghost radiohead reference mmmm king of limbs more like king of peak

[grand hearth]

THE KING OF LIMBS FANDOM OF DYING

REBLOG IF YOU’RE VERY LIMBER