transdome

[vapid dune]

Hang in tight sis. Be strong cus I know we’re all fighting the good fight in our own way.

[sturdy trail]

https://twitter.com/The_Man_Squatch/status/1668291103190024192?t=uj9L5F0rVpysvIZ8gBhawA&s=19

Danny 🐟 (@The_Man_Squatch)

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Twitter · Jun 12, 2023, 4:16 PM

hard drive banger

[spice sphinx]

real asf

[valid sun]

if you can try to contact someone who can send you theirs

or try to buy it DIY

when i lost my T access for a few months due to state pressure someone sent me a vial

it's illegal but everything else is too and fuck the law

[zinc oriole]

^ gotta make sure it's very discreet packaging though

[austere jay]

holy shit i love bald head

like genuinely very validating it’s taken off about 35% of my day to day insecurity

also trans tape is out of my shade of tape can i get an L

[austere jay]

okay raw

[spice sphinx]

Genuinely trying to reach out but I’ve got no one here

Any machine freaks willing to throw progesterone across the country

[valid sun]

is the transfem subreddit open

you might be able to ask there

i asked on r/ftm and a few guys offered

[vapid dune]

I have extra months of T blockers I could throw your way. Just couldn’t throw estrogen your way cus i do injection

But I don’t have spare prog. But I have like 4 months worth each of extra spiro and dutasteride but. Dutasteride is fucky to someone who hasn’t taken it before

[feral wind]

need t blockers

[zinc oriole]

If anybody needs testosterone hmu! I may ask for a few bucks since I could use it but I can send needles + syringes as well

Considering I am not doing injections anymore (hopefully)

[vapid dune]

I could probably get ahold of extra vials of estrogen and send them with syringes and needles and all too. Just idk how it would affect me personally down the road

But I’d do my best to help if I could

But I suppose at that point I’m also okay being someone’s middleperson for smuggling black market goods into Florida

[spice sphinx]

I still have some spiro and e to last, what’s dutasteride like?

[spice sphinx]

Hot person activities

[inland schooner]

Guys whenever a transphobe starts trying to "debate" you. Start making "WAHHHHHH" noises. Cry like a baby. It's funny as fuck you dont understand

[vapid dune]

T blocker, it’s uh one of the less researched ones for sure. It’s like finasteride. Just seemingly stronger and more volatile. It completely fucked me up emotionally the first few months of taking it hence why I offer it but… don’t recommend too much

[austere jay]

think i may have enough money now for legal gender marker and name change

i’m abt to go peak stealth

[chrome snow]

W

[zinc oriole]

W!

Once I start working I'm going to do the same

Soon....

[final heart]

i just submitted my petition for name change 🔥

[zinc oriole]

YEAHHHHH LETS GO

[inland schooner]

the state im in finally made it that you dont have to get SRS to get a sex change on your birth certificate!! yippie!!!

you could change most important things without your birth certificate but for my own validation i want it to say male

[spice sphinx]

holy shit I am saved

planned parenthood is able to give me an emergency refill of everything even though they can't resume care yet

I can get my goddamn meds

[valid sun]

WIN

[vapid dune]

I’m so glad to hear Jen. This sounds like an awful lot but hang in there

[spice sphinx]

Thank you aggy, you're the realest for offering help in my darkest hour 🤝

[vapid dune]

If supplies do run low hmu I’ll do what I can

Hopefully you make it out of this

[astral gull]

Aggy you are so kind for that

[astral gull]

And good luck on getting your E

[zinc oriole]

My testosterone is FINALLY coming by monday

I'll have been off of it for like a week :,)

Not much in the grand scheme of things but it's affected me a lot

[final heart]

YOOO CONGRATS 🔥

[vapid dune]

I went almost 3 weeks without E shots and yea my levels went down a significant amount

It’s kinda fucked up to think about tbh.

Just how quickly we can lose it all

[zinc oriole]

TY

[zinc oriole]

yeah its been stressing me out :[ my face has entirely broken out almost and it feels AWFUL but at least ill get shit back

i hope

gel thankfully works pretty fast for me

[vapid dune]

Yea same here with injections

One injection and you’re like roughly at abojt a good level almost instantly

[zinc oriole]

for T injections when youve been on gel, it makes your levels decrease a ton

like it makes you crash

so its been better for me to not even be on anything

it sucks

[astral gull]

Feeling mad good abt how ppl genuinely can't tell what gender I am, bc my face doesn't really look as if I'd be amab or afab

Aaab assigned alien at birth

[zinc oriole]

👽 👽

alien gender for the win

[astral gull]

Agrab

Assigned grim reaper at birth

[vapid dune]

I ain’t even mad at this point anymore about not doing being able to do laser i go out looking masc as fuck and I’m having a good time confusing people

[zinc oriole]

masculinity is fun butchness is fun

i miss that the community doesnt use butch as a universal term anymore

I am gonna start to bring it back

[vapid dune]

Yea the term butch is cool but I also feel very slime rn I feel like I’m letting my gender ebb and flow and ungulate

[sturdy trail]

shout out to trans men lesbians

[astral gull]

The way metal music sounds is so gender like yes I want to sound like an evil beast

[vapid dune]

A coworker dude seems like he’s trying his best to understand me he was like “so why don’t you let your hair grow out? Why don’t you present more feminine? Do you not want to?” And I explained to him the basics of non binary and how I feel like I moreso wanted to be able to look less overall masculine while still being able to present vaguely masculine and he seems to understand what I’m on

So I appreciate his attempts to understand wtf I’m on about

[astral gull]

Most ppl can't understand unless they're as such too

But he's trying and that's cool

[zinc oriole]

gender slime is so real... having fun and play gender

[vapid dune]

Like yea. I don’t want to look like the bear that I looked like pre transition 24/7 but still be allowed the option to whenever I feel like that suits the moment

[astral gull]

My gender slime has dirt and pet fur in it

[vapid dune]

Like be a dude but not be forced to always be a dude

[zinc oriole]

having options and fluidity is the most liberating part of transitionig

dirt and pet fur.. my entire life

[frozen breach]

frrrrrr

like I don't refer to myself as nonbinary or genderfluid because I feel like "man" is adequate but I def feel like gender slime sometimes and now that I'm trans that feels so much more "allowed"

idk if that makes sense

but I just feel a lot more free to present however the fuck I want and still feel confident in my identity

[zinc oriole]

Does make sense!! I agree in a similar way

For me I'm a guy but I'm weird with it

[astral gull]

Personally I say nonbinary to better explain to others but it's very complicated to me. I'm just myself and never quite fit into any box and I've tried being other things but they'll all still attach to male and female which I knew wasn't me

Because I don't really put in effort to look andro such as haircuts bc I honestly. Just look like that

Bc it took quite a bit of reflection and going "what about ___ label makes me not like it?"

Till I finally came out as nonb

[frozen breach]

this is so real

girlweird to boyweird pipeline

[vapid dune]

It feels weird to me that I am at a point where I can call myself a guy and feel euphoria from it tbh but I’m really fucking with it tbh

I think more than anything just cus of how good a job I’ve done disconnecting myself from my insecurities that led to any masculine treatment being dysphoric

I know myself better now

I know I can be treated male and thankfully know in my head it does not relate to how I look whatsoever and I am so happy

[zinc oriole]

The exact path I've taken

I am happy for you aggy :] reaching a level of comfort and self acceptance so strong is such an achievement

[astral gull]

That takes a lot so good work :) I am happy for you!

[inland schooner]

That's awesome aggy so happy to hear you've reached that stage 🤜🤜🔥❤❤❤❤❤

[inland schooner]

real asf

[vapid dune]

God so true

🥺👉👈

[feral wind]

fr

trans ppl are so cute

[vapid dune]

That’s cus everyone knows queer people are always the hottest

[bronze ocean]

[feral wind]

fr

[zinc oriole]

i send this in solidarity

I am glad there's both versions of this image in existence

[bronze ocean]

LETS GO

now switch them so the first one says boys and the other says girls

[zinc oriole]

YESSSS

SO TRUE

[unborn atlas]

do girls take testosterone at all?

I thought that was the opposite of what we wanted

[sturdy trail]

butches i imagine

[proper igloo]

girls can have a little testosterone, as a treat

[bronze ocean]

real and true

[zinc oriole]

Some transmascs rock the boygirl or call themselves girls still

And some butches too

[unborn atlas]

I don't fully get it

[zinc oriole]

I feel like anybody can play around with aspects of transitioning and not need to adhere to the norms of it

People enjoy masculinity in many ways and it's a good thing to deconstruct the societal structures around it

Also wish me luck trans friends that I don't get my period again bc of the break in T 😭

[bronze ocean]

also tgirls who use tgel

for their.. no. i shan't say

[proper igloo]

you musnt

[vapid dune]

If someone wants to present significantly more masc while still identifying fem. Hey that’s valid as fuck. Low dose HRT can significantly affect appearance without being very drastic and perfect for someone like that

[tardy creek]

@vapid dune has leveled up! (15 ➜ 16)

[vapid dune]

I’m still gonna do full dose HRT the rest of my life but hey I’m a bit of a lil dude on estrogen now that I feel like I identify more with my masculinity than ever before

[zinc oriole]

TY ALL FOR THE TRANS LUCK I know I will survive

Reclaiming masculinity from patriarchal standards of it is awesome

I read abt how the leather subculture grew due to that, it was mainly queer men reclaiming the masculinity they were denied and pushed out of

If I look at the pdf again I'll send the excerpt

From a trans perspective its even more powerful

I love being able to reclaim femininity in a gay dude way because I now lack the forces upon me that made me adhere to a feminine standard

I'm able to look like a guy while performing somewhat fem

[vapid dune]

Please do! Sounds like an interesting read

I completely relate to you in that. When I was younger people saw my clear deviance in gender expression as me being gay. Through my entire childhood everyone just assumed I was a gay boy. Turns out no I just wanted to express myself different. But now that I’ve come so far in this I want to embrace the masculinity in me I tried so hard to repress all those years?

And I’m glad that even if irl I’m surrounded entirely by cis people, on the machinecord I can find people to relate to in that sentiment. Albeit in our own unique ways shaped by our own unique experiences

[zinc oriole]

The community is so shaped by one another and takes inspiration from any and all facets of it and it brings me so much joy

Our journeys often overlap despite our differing societal upbringings (concerning gender

Transfems, butch lesbians, and nonbinary people have made me realize so much about my own gender despite me not having the same gender experiences. I often take a lot of inspiration towards butches and nonbinary people and how they perform their gender despite being transmasc/guy in my presentation

I saw an interview from around 20 years ago asking lesbians where their inspirations came from and they all mentioned gay men impacting how they wanted to present

[vapid dune]

Yea. I feel like before joining the machinecord all my friends were transfems and while that’s perfectly okay. It made me want to present more feminine than I really am. And it wasn’t until making more transmasc friends here that idk. I find y’all seriously so inspirational towards my own gender expression tbh tbh you kings on testosterone have warped my perception of myself a lot for the better

[unborn atlas]

transfemmes can be so insufferable sometimes

ain't no drama like transfemme polycule drama

[bronze ocean]

furry polycule drama tho

[unborn atlas]

shoutouts men

men get a bad rap but I love men

[unborn atlas]

comorbid

personally tho

I'm getting more exhausted with having to choose

I hate this cliquey little oneupmanship people seem to always fall into

my name is Zenobia Goat and my pronouns are she/her and that's literally all that matters for me right now

[bronze ocean]

trans dudes can have such horrible drama too tho lol

its really nothing unique

[vapid dune]

How about this: everyone can have drama cus people will always be dramatic regardless of gender expression :3 everyone is equally capable of being insufferable

[dim sleet]

its a human thing

[vapid dune]

That being said tho. Non-binary demiromantic bunnygirl drama gets real heated hoo boy

[bronze ocean]

do yall thump

[sturdy trail]

gay men the ogs

[sturdy trail]

although there is like a notable tendency for trans people to get into polycules for like survival reasons and it ends up falling apart sometimes

like it's a phenomenon at this point

[zinc oriole]

I feel like it's been a detriment to focus on subgroups and their infighting because like aggy said, everybody's going to have their own drama unique to their lived experience. It may be ridiculous to an outside viewer and even to the parts of the community that it involves but it doesn't really accomplish anything to deem certain groups in our community as ultimately annoying bc of their beef. There's more nuance and often negative voices are louder than the majority

[sturdy trail]

i don't really see it as a "community" partly because of that very reason

[zinc oriole]

This for me but in the inverse! Making more transfem and nonbinary friends has helped me realize I don't need to adhere to certain standards to be content with myself

[zinc oriole]

I wouldn't lose hope, it's also VERY much an online issue

I'm very active in irl queer spaces and the infighting is basically non existent

It helps to get out there and talk to a large demographic of queer people. We never talk abt online discourse and only ever political issues if anything. It's much more positive and welcoming imo

[sturdy trail]

i wouldn't say like discourse is inherently an online thing cuz like lesbian separatists and splitting in localized queer movements like the fhar happened

pointless like extra pedantic discourse is pretty online tho ya

[vapid dune]

When you’re stuck in the echo chamber of small online spaces it may seem like there toxic groups and infighting but nah. I feel like in general at any show I go to here or in other states I can approach queer people and we’ll have a great time and find a lot to bond over

[vapid dune]

These are such a non issue because they’ll stick with themselves and are easy to ignore. People will be toxic and you just choose whether you let them occupy space in your mind or not

[sturdy trail]

they kinda weren't a non issue tho cuz that was like the precursor to modern terfs

i have been ostracized from many "queer safe spaces" and such and along with the afab housing thing like for many queer people you can't guarantee feeling safe even in the nominally safe spaces

[zinc oriole]

Modern terf ideology grew because they'd bring 'issues' to legislative bodies and frame it as a medical emergency

It wasn't so much from our community as it was people with power and influence going to the government to further isolate us

JKR has done the same thing in the UK bc she has political affiliations and connections

[sturdy trail]

lesbian separatists overlapping with radfems pushed for laws that got queer zines threatened to be banned

[zinc oriole]

I don't deny that the impact exists from our own community participating in separating trans from cis people BUT its more of a byproduct than the source imo

[sturdy trail]

ya i'm not saying it's a source i'm more like emphasizing self criticism of the "community"

[unborn atlas]

okay but I was mostly talking from my lived experiences

[vapid dune]

Yea and Wayne is saying that you have your experiences with said subgroups but people of every possible gender expression can have the same experiences so it’s best to unite under what we share rather than what isolate traits to a specific group

[unborn atlas]

it was more a throwaway line expressing frustration with my experiences with queer spaces than a hardline "the queers fight too much" sentiment

my problem is I need more weirdo trans friends

[zinc oriole]

^ this exactly. I wasnt trying to downplay or denounce your own experiences, since Ive also had my fair share of unpleasant transmasc infighting shit happen to me that sucks a lot

it is never too late to make more weirdo trans friends

[unborn atlas]

also maybe a little bit sore about being abandoned a lot

the group that kicked me out collapsed within a month of me leaving

the thirst for purity will kill your soul etc

[zinc oriole]

🫂 Im sorry that happened, it always hurts a lot to lose your own community that youve built up because it feels impossible to get back and really isolating. Its already hard as it is to even find people with your shared experience sometimes
its one reason Im hesitant to leave the place I live in despite it being dangerous, Ive built such a community here and dont want to lose it

[unborn atlas]

they talk a big game about support

I think I made myself angry with this

[zinc oriole]

friend groups falling apart can definitely build some resentment, I totally understand why you'd be frustrated
there is still hope though to find healthier people who make you feel like you belong! Negative experiences can often feel more formative than the positive ones so its a tough balance

[vapid dune]

I completely get that too. I try my best to make friends but I tend to avoid conversation when I’m in queer spaces such as bars or shows cus like. Idk I feel a lot of people are very cliquey on shared experiences and have their friend groups firmly established without any room for someone like me who I know I’m some weird gender freak who may be a bit hard to relate to with my energy and expression. So I’m always happy with how freeform we are here with our friendships and like we’re not exactly alike but we find common ground somehow and it’s great

[unborn atlas]

I think the whole thing has made me wary of

purity aestheticians

[vapid dune]

I wouldn’t touch someone who frequents 4tran with a 10 foot pole because they tend to be the worst offenders in what you just said. From what I’ve noticed

[unborn atlas]

wuh

I don't really know much about the culture of that place

I went on 4chan before they had a LGBT board

[sturdy trail]

okay but how is this not technically isolating traits to a specific group tho

not saying /tttt/ people are good jus saying

every oppressed group has their own assimilationists that are necessary to call out

[astral gull]

Yeah its honestly so weird bc I can't really relate to the people around me in person bc I consider myself a gender abomination

Not a lot of people think like that the more I meet

[unborn atlas]

all I have are well meaning "allies"

and like baby trans I don't wanna interact with

"the trans community" lookinass allies

there is no such thing

[sturdy trail]

so real

[bronze ocean]

real and true

[unborn atlas]

https://www.theonion.com/teacher-surprised-the-2-weird-kids-haven-t-hit-it-off-y-1819576077

[vapid dune]

Because this is a collective of transmascs, transfems, non-binary folk and all sorts of queer people joined together in an echo chamber rather than a queer space for one particular fraction of the queer community?

[unborn atlas]

straight people trying to introduce me to the one other trans person they know:

[vapid dune]

It’s like people saying twitter is toxic. It isn’t isolating specific traits to a certain people group cus there’s not 1 specific people group there

[sturdy trail]

ya but why r big tent spaces like supposed to be immune from being toxic as opposed to those

[sturdy trail]

is the stereotype of /tttt/ users not a specific group

[sturdy trail]

i know people are probably not actually saying this but like i'm emphasizing like critcizing our own spaces instead of pretending it's a Separate Other problem

[vapid dune]

This happens to me too much here irl. God I fucking hate it. This one coworker is like “it’s okay I get you like I respect your people. I’ll introduce you to my cousin. His names Cesar. Well he wants us to call him Mimi now but his names Cesar. And he takes hormones and everything and he got titty implants and everything like he looks completely like a woman. And I respect my cousin Cesar he’s great and he has a boyfriend and everything. So trust me I respect you. Maybe you 2 would get along so I’ll introduce you to him”

And yes this shitbag did misgender his transfem cousin that badly and deadnamed her that badly

[unborn atlas]

they just don't get it

[zinc oriole]

I could go home looking like a grizzled biker dude and id still get deadnamed and called she

they just cannot separate the image of a person who does not exist anymore, or never did from the people actually in front of them

at least thats how its gone for me. Its why i can never go home unfortunately. if they cant accept me for how I am and get past their own mentality they dont deserve my time

[vapid dune]

Yea I wish I understand how I like. Managed to get everyone to exclusively call me Agatha at work

But they REFUSE to call me anything but a he

So. I get called Agatha. But referred to as a he.

How do these people not feel like a clown doing that

[unborn atlas]

sending this to my ghoul friends

[vapid dune]

God that’s so fucking TRUE

[zinc oriole]

so happy that bog bodies are butch

[unborn atlas]

this is swamp hag erasure????

[final heart]

holy shitte

[dim sleet]

tree burial being futch is soooooo real (my preferred option of burial before it found out its actually not all its cracked up to be)

gotta make new plans now

[feral wind]

im nobody /j

i look so much like a guy i hate it

[unborn atlas]

https://twitter.com/POCHOWEK/status/1667602792817606659

heats⁉ (@POCHOWEK)

BOY OR GIRL
Well, it depends on what you mean by gender. We cannot rule out the possibility that animas and animuses have their own equivalents on the inside too, which would make us ∞...TFTMTFTMTFTMT...∞ girlboy boygirls, infinitely recursive like a matryoshka

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I think I posted this

before

but anyway

disney is trotting out the "FIRST NONBINARY CHARACTER" now

can't wait for the seven next first nonbinary characters

[bronze ocean]

bog bodies 🤝

[unborn atlas]

https://literalstardust.bandcamp.com/track/bog-mummy

[astral gull]

"This is ___ they're trans"

Outing speedrun 2000%

[zinc oriole]

BOG BODIESSSSSS

I want to be one so bad

[unborn atlas]

I rly gotta convey to "allies" that being trans is like a footnote in my life

ironically a footnote that only seems to bring me grief from cis people

[astral gull]

I remember in middle school I had a friend introduce me to someone by going "this is ___ they're pan" then did the same with me being bi to them

We both looked at each other like wtaf...

[unborn atlas]

while we're at it fuck the word "lifestyle"

[astral gull]

I hardly tell ppl I'm nb bc they get all confused when I try to explain it which I understand but I don't feel like reiterating my complex identity (I'm not saying others are less complex than me)

[astral gull]

EVEN WORSE: TRANSGENDERISM

[unborn atlas]

oh me me me I'm the transgenderist 😌

[astral gull]

Ok maybe I'm just picky but I HATEEE when ppl say guys gals and nonbinary pals

It feel so like... demeaning

I feel like this when it's said

[unborn atlas]

<smashes bottle> I'm not your pal

[astral gull]

Lol exactly

Reminds me of something a kindergarten teacher would say

[unborn atlas]

I say that liberals are perpetual children

[astral gull]

Lol

I remember I got so damn mad at my mom bc she said she was an ally and described how you can tell a trans woman isn't a "real" woman in the same breath

[unborn atlas]

clueless!!!!

[spice sphinx]

Guys guys ukraine is like the freaking avengers dude aweee this is so awesome I love being xenophobic to russian people online I’m like a friggin superhero!!

You have to explain things to these people as if they’re 8 years old

[unborn atlas]

putin is voldem- 🤮

I can't even joke about it

[spice sphinx]

Everyone clapped

[astral gull]

Or they joke abt a show being made about it like it's some quirky reality TV thing

Like yeah they treat it like one anyways

[unborn atlas]

what show?

[astral gull]

Treating the actual war and genocide like its a reality show I mean

Bc they're so desensitized to bad stuff

[unborn atlas]

oh yeah nah that's vapid

[bronze ocean]

https://twitter.com/VAPORGROWL/status/1670257788822626304?s=20

🌈 𝙑𝘼𝙋𝙊𝙍 🏳️‍⚧️ ➡️ 🐶💞 (@VAPORGROWL)

❤️‍🔥TRANS 🏳️‍⚧️ JOY❤️‍🔥
Inspired by the work of Keith Haring 🥰

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Twitter · Jun 18, 2023, 2:31 AM

[astral gull]

There was a thing where ppl said they're using joking to cope with trauma when they have absolutely 0 association with it

[unborn atlas]

Keith Haring resurgeance!!!!

[unborn atlas]

I don't buy that

[vapid dune]

This image is a certified trans puppygirl classic

[astral gull]

I get it If ur family or loved ones are there or if you yourself are Ukrainian

[bronze ocean]

trans puppygirls 💪

[unborn atlas]

if you're gonna joke about it you BETTER be funny

otherwise you're just doing the exact same thing as those hack comedians and edgy teenagers who think being offensive is funny

[astral gull]

Yeah exactly

[spice sphinx]

Okay but 9/11

/j

[bronze ocean]

https://twitter.com/chimeracauldron/status/1670468263036485632?s=20

Withered Girlbeast (Comms CLOSED) (@chimeracauldron)

Sunday grilling

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Twitter · Jun 18, 2023, 4:27 PM

[vapid dune]

Never has a pic been more me than ever

[bronze ocean]

thats u fr

[vapid dune]

Non alcoholic modelo, that is

im straight edge, btw

[chrome snow]

W

[bronze ocean]

of course

ill put some in the cooler for u

[chrome snow]

Can I put some diet cokes in the cooler?

🥺

[bronze ocean]

yeah ofc

[chrome snow]

YIPPIE!

[spice sphinx]

What is the point in non alcoholic beer

That’s just piss

[vapid dune]

Everyone knows the cooler at the carnita asada has modelos, cokes and topo chicos primarily. Or the cheapest off brand soda

[vapid dune]

Depends on the beer

and there’s people like me who do enjoy the taste of beer

So I don’t see that as an issue

[spice sphinx]

Oh yeah some “hoppy ipa” or whatever made up hoora

Millennials will not gaslight me into thinking beer is good

You aren’t a millennial I’m not talking about you aggy

[bronze ocean]

i think non alcoholic beer tastes a lot nicer than most sodas

especially cause theyre so sweet

but tbf im the beer enjoyer

[spice sphinx]

I drink liquor like a goddamn red blooded rootin tootin shootin american

[bronze ocean]

liquor's also nice ya :D

everything has its place

such is the way of the world

[spice sphinx]

I drink beer to get drunk, I drink liquor to also enjoy getting drunk

That’s my experience at least

[bronze ocean]

simply a difference in skill

i like both and getting liquor drunk when all ur friends are still at like 3 or 4 beers is embarassingggg

like u gotta wait for them n shit

but! tbf! i am european

everybody drinks beer here

[spice sphinx]

My friends don’t drink beer or just don’t drink

[chrome snow]

Even though I can't drink alcohol anymore, liquor and most mainstream beers are not for me at all.

Especially stuff like IPAs.

[spice sphinx]

And my friends who drink beer will chug a 6 pack in 10 minutes and be fine

Fine as in “good to go”

[bronze ocean]

ipas suck shit more often than not

[spice sphinx]

I got a real grudge against ipas

[spice sphinx]

The thing about this is

I don’t really care and no one else does

So if one of us slams 5 shots the second we arrive at a party and the other pours a drink to sip we all have fun together

[zinc oriole]

They're overpriced for all tasting relatively the same imo

Ipas are

[proper igloo]

this.

[chrome snow]

Oh my God, there is this local craft a beer that is called F5 that legitimately tasted like a destructive tornado in my mouth.

I legitimately wanted to throw up.

[spice sphinx]

They’re sold and marketed to the kinda people who fill in gentrified hipster neighborhoods who have money to waste on mid

[chrome snow]

It was that bad.

[spice sphinx]

I think every goddamn craft brewery I have ever seen has been set up in one of these shitholes

[vapid dune]

Ok but don’t diss hazy IPAs until u try a good variety

[spice sphinx]

I WILL NOT BE GASLIT

[vapid dune]

That’s when it’s less about mouth-destroying bitterness and more actual flavor

[chrome snow]

Okay, there was a lot of hints of flavor.

I could taste the hint of flying cows and cars in every single sip.

[zinc oriole]

I have seen a lot of breweries like that in those places tbh

[spice sphinx]

Fiercely gripping the neck of a jack daniels YOU CAN’T TAKE THIS FROM ME I WON’T LET YOU

[zinc oriole]

Whatever happened to bars

[spice sphinx]

Bars will never die

Ingrained into our dna at this point the want to go sit with the mates n drink

[vapid dune]

As long as humans have a brain they’ll always have places to socialize and get shitfaced with the mates

[zinc oriole]

I meant like the surgence of like

What're they called

Taphouse type places I guess

[zinc oriole]

Like alcohol 'tasting'

I'd share a beer with him

[vapid dune]

Gender goals fr fr I wish i was Barry, 63

[zinc oriole]

Ik bars will never die but

[vapid dune]

You mean breweries?

[zinc oriole]

Yeas

[vapid dune]

There are plenty of places that are primarily about their craft selection on draft and give you samples

Hell I work literally beside one

[zinc oriole]

I don't hate them as a concept but am a bit bothered when I see more of them than bars

(I'm mostly spiteful rn bc my city is doing that and pushing aside queer bars

[spice sphinx]

Yeah those are for upper class white folk to go and get overpriced shit burgers and pizza and taste beer

[vapid dune]

As an ex-alcoholic I feel they fill a new market rather than kill other markets such as queer bars. Specially considering they’re mutually helping each other as. Queer people consume a shitload of craft beer turns out

[vapid dune]

That’s a gastropub. Fuck those places

[spice sphinx]

God help us all

[vapid dune]

Not to mention local microbreweries tend to be some of the most LGBT friendly establishments in a city

Since craft beer is highly preferred by the liberal crew moreso than the Republican crew

[bronze ocean]

yeah

this is true

[spice sphinx]

Maybe this explains it

Maybe alcohol is where horseshoe theory actually rings true

[bronze ocean]

it definitely does for shit like pbr lmfao

turns out a lot of lgbtq people are working class and dont got a lot of money

[spice sphinx]

Far left and far right - liquor and cheap beer
Liberals n everything else - craft ipas n shit

[inland schooner]

Hi friends:3

Today I have top surgery! Driving there now

[vapid dune]

YOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!! GOOD LUCK CALE WOOOOOOOOOOO

[inland schooner]

Thank you so much aggy!!!!!!

I'm so excited j feel like I'm gonna vomit

[bronze ocean]

lets goooo good luck!!!

[zinc oriole]

OMG GL CALE !!!!

[inland schooner]

Thank you!! I'm very nervous, I will post pics after w spoilers :P

[vapid dune]

Have the doctors store the removed chest and donate them to a transfem in need

[inland schooner]

No they're gonna check it for cancer 😔😒

I would donate to transfem in need otherwise

[cold whale]

FUCK YEAH HOPE IT GOES WELL

wishing u a speedy recovery

[chrome snow]

I hope everything goes well!

[frozen breach]

WWWWWWW CONGRATS

oh yeah slightly less exciting but my granddad who has been kinda transphobic in the past gave me a wristwatch that matches his and my dad's and told me that now all three generations of men in our family have matching watches and it just made me so happy 🥹🥹🥹

like idk how often I'll wear the watch but it felt very Gender Affirming™️

[inland schooner]

That's so sick big win

And Thank you guys :D!!!!

[stable cradle]

WOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!

[astral gull]

Oh my god it's so sweet to hear of the older generation coming around

[astral gull]

IK YOU ALREADY TOLD ME BUT IM HAPPY 4 YOU

[inland schooner]

This is so awesome but I have to stick around for like 2 hours until my actual surgery whomp whomp

[tardy creek]

@inland schooner has leveled up! (13 ➜ 14)

[astral gull]

Pass the time in the dome

[inland schooner]

I am :3

[astral gull]

Do you need to stay for a day or so after or do u just go? @inland schooner

[inland schooner]

It's just day surgery but admission I'll be waiting around for awhile

I'll be in there for about 2-3ish hours

Surgeries only 1.5 but they gotta wait for me to actually wake up b4 I can go

[astral gull]

Nah just throw you out with anesthesia still strong ur good

[inland schooner]

Good idea actuslly

I just aimlessly walk around the city

[astral gull]

Got draining tubes and shit lol

[inland schooner]

The machined they hook me up to go with me

Just a bunch of machines walking around the city becuz my mum didn't know to pick me up

[sturdy trail]

https://twitter.com/emme_emme_emme_/status/1664401777263771649?t=fQH22wfwDYE992aX911gug&s=19

emme :3 (@emme_emme_emme_)

this pride im thinking about that thing fran lebowitz said about how AIDS killed all the good artists that were out partying being cool and having sex and all that was left were the gay lame nerds that nobody wanted to fuck and that’s why art got worse during the 80s

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[bronze ocean]

SO true

im saying this on loop actually

[unborn atlas]

huh

you right

[final heart]

the amount of times at work my coworkers/boss have just straight up told me their trans friends' deadnames

[digital geyser]

this reminds me of this one transmasc model i saw who called himself a princess, he gave me so much confidence

[zinc oriole]

THIS IS AWESOME

Princess transmasc swag

[zinc oriole]

As a collective we can fix this problem

[digital geyser]

https://instagram.com/casil_the_goat_lord?igshid=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== i cant find where he said it, it mightve been his bio back when i found him, but this is his instagram

he was in the “mother’s daughter” music video for miley cyrus in like 2019 and i saw him and was like holy shit all my gender issues are over this is what i aspire to now, seeing him cured about half my self doubt fjskg

[zinc oriole]

HES REALLY GENDER OMG

I can see why he's so inspirational for you

[digital geyser]

i found another clip where he talked about how comfident he feels in dresses. he’s goddamn awesome

[digital geyser]

frrr

[grand current]

🥰
https://youtu.be/OiT7yo3qo2o

[inland schooner]

Guys

Out of top rn

🔥🔥🔥🔥

I'm so tired

Got drains in and a post op binder but aside from that veryy sleepy

[grand current]

drain!!!??!!

drain gang reference!!!!!!

[inland schooner]

TRUEEE

[austere jay]

congrats cale i’m so happy for you brother

wishing you a speedy recovery ❤️

on the topic of beer tho i consider myself a beer enjoyer but only shitty beers

likewise i am a curator of cigarettes but only shorty cigarettes

never EVER hand me some craft shit i’ll only drink coors and pbr but under the right circumstances

[inland schooner]

Thank you so much I really am so happy

Recovery will be tedious honestly but all will go well I'm sure :D

[chrome snow]

BASED AS FUCK

https://tenor.com/view/lets-go-lets-goo-lest-gooooooooooooooooo-gif-19416648

[spice sphinx]

you're so real for that

[spice sphinx]

this too

long cigs are a scam

[austere jay]

my absolute favorites will always be marlboro reds

[spice sphinx]

also real

[inland schooner]

Vvvvv sore but not in pain rn

[inland schooner]

I just want to share as the anesthesiologist put me on I said "under the knife I go" I'm so cringe but I had to

[unborn atlas]

you gotta!!!!

I'm wearing that shirt right now

this is a synchronicity

[inland schooner]

I did!!

[unborn atlas]

proud of u

[heavy canopy]

Please tell me I'm not the only one

[unborn atlas]

machine gender?

[heavy canopy]

Just Ultrakill machines in general are so gender

[bronze ocean]

keep practicing your railcoins ull get there

[spice sphinx]

https://tenor.com/view/shannon-sharpe-v1-ultrakill-suit-smile-gif-26496634

[heavy canopy]

Real

[zinc oriole]

TESTOSTERONE IS BACK ‼️

[vapid dune]

TESTOSTERONI IS BACK ON THE MENU LADS!!!!!

[bronze ocean]

sip

[zinc oriole]

SIPPPP

I am deprived no longer

[vapid dune]

Realistically tho how long would we have to be off of our hormones for changes to start being undone

I spent 3 weeks off estrogen recently and idk how long u spent off of testosterone

[bronze ocean]

depends on the changes

[vapid dune]

It did worry me a bit

[bronze ocean]

3 weeks isnt

really much

[vapid dune]

I know my ppm was at like 350 before and after going back to it it went down to 120

Big ass loss for 3 weeks

But still within acceptable range

[bronze ocean]

its literally no big deal

besides some emotional changes

3 weeks is not like

a lot of time at all

[vapid dune]

Yea I know I wasn’t saying it would turn my face more masc or anything just “had I gone without it longer when could I have begun seeing changes undone”

[bronze ocean]

theres no real like, exact amount of time but yeah

eventually

[vapid dune]

I would’ve woken up the next day looking completely like a pre transition bear again

Rather than my current nonbiney bear self

Speaking of. I’ve kinda been a lot more accepting of my body so yea the body hair doesn’t really give me dysphoria anymore so I’ve sort of been rocking that fur again lmaoooo I always admired trans people who are comfortable with that sort of stuff and I’m finally at that stage myself

[bronze ocean]

🤝

welcome to the team

[zinc oriole]

For me my facial hair has started growing a lot slower and my muscle mass looks like it went down

Maybe it's me scrutinizing though

It's also bc my T got messed up last month too I think

Hopefully I'll be so back soon

[vapid dune]

I mean not just the armpit fur like I got a FUCK TON of it

Pre transition I was a fucking bear like I was a thicc hairy dude

Now I’m back to that but looking less masc

[bronze ocean]

ive chilled a lot in like

shaving body hair

its nice

[vapid dune]

That’s so b word of ya

:3

me 🤝 cool rat

Letting the fur grow out

So squeaky of you

[bronze ocean]

ive been growing out my tummy trail 👍

[vapid dune]

Yoooooooo same.

[bronze ocean]

🤝

[zinc oriole]

Body hair is so swag

[bronze ocean]

tru?

tru!!

[astral gull]

I LOVE NOT SHAVING MY LEGS

[zinc oriole]

Me when I haven't shaved in years 🐗🐗🐗🐗🐗

[astral gull]

Wayne I remembered I was gonna say something to you ITS NOT NEGATIVE I PROMISE

I saw ur selfie and didn't realize how you could easily pass off as intimidating but the way I know you here on discord is talking abt the cat of which has the name "baby"

[astral gull]

Idk why for me it's like... freeing idk

[bronze ocean]

wayne has the power of a thousand mosh pits stored inside of him

[vapid dune]

Wayne is the mosher I strive to be

I firmly believe he likely goes way harder than I ever could

[heavy canopy]

Welp you have me beat

[austere jay]

honestly tho kind of achievable

all i need is a burlap sack and a chainsaw

[heavy canopy]

Yeag :DD

[vapid dune]

I respecc machine and horror transition goals. While I’m over here chilling with my more animalistic transition goals

[astral gull]

My gender goal is the mud from minecraft

[zinc oriole]

AM I .... I have had such opposite reactions abt how I look
Either people think I'm scary or extremely friendly looking it's funny to me

[austere jay]

when you think of vinny the images that should come to mind are huge hulking horror antagonists with obscured faces and melee weapons

that’s my niche

[zinc oriole]

MOSHING POWER!

[zinc oriole]

It's all the repressed energy I possess

[astral gull]

You def look friendly but could totally pass off as evil mode

[vapid dune]

That’s fuckjng respectable

[austere jay]

i identified it so long ago and i’ve just always stuck with it

[zinc oriole]

I have resting angry face sometimes

[astral gull]

Real

[austere jay]

i am actually 6’9 and 400 pounds of muscle this is a real fact

[astral gull]

My dad thinks I'm scowling when I just look like that

[vapid dune]

Literally me why are u literally me

[astral gull]

I'm shivering

https://tenor.com/view/dawg-shivermetimbers-dog-chattering-im-so-scared-gif-22657721

[austere jay]

my transition goal is intimidating energy

[bronze ocean]

i am rat max :)

[austere jay]

nothing specific just overall sense of like oooh this guys a little scary

[zinc oriole]

I am slowly draining you of your attributes >:]

[astral gull]

I suppose I already met my goal of people genuinely not knowing what I am

[zinc oriole]

My gender goals are looking weirder and scarier as well. And strong

[astral gull]

Like that is up to you brother

[austere jay]

meathead mode best way i could describe my goals

just dumb and full of muscle

[vapid dune]

I think I like my aura of coming off as friendly and welcoming and people say… rather motherly and caring? But when it comes to like a show and I’m moshing and all that I just let my hair loose and let my inner goblin come out

[astral gull]

You could pass as rlly scary vinny

Especially with your shaved head

[vapid dune]

Yea like meathead mode like u just said is what I am going for

[astral gull]

My goal is evil swamp goblin

[austere jay]

i’ve found after shaving my head that the goal of being generally intimidating is going well

also been exclusively wearing clothes to hide growing muscle which is fun

it’s all about fucking around with your gender tbh

[astral gull]

They'll never know till you beat them up

[austere jay]

that’s the plan

i find in pits tho i kind of look like everyone else which i don’t mind

[vapid dune]

One day me and Wayne have to settle face to face who tf goes harder in a pit

[austere jay]

cant tell me i don’t look like every other 19 year old guy that showed up

i fit that stereotype pretty well now it’s funny

[vapid dune]

It’s often some of the most plain looking mfers who go the hardest and I love that

[austere jay]

i need to learn how to do all that spin kicky shit

[astral gull]

Idk why it was so gender when my friend called said I was like a ferret last night

[zinc oriole]

WE SHALL >:]

[astral gull]

That'd be a pretty even battle

[zinc oriole]

Once my testosterone builds back up I will no longer be so sleepy all day

[vapid dune]

I have also been mad sleepy lately but I’m getting my energy back as my estrogen stabilizes

[austere jay]

there’s such a simple joy in showing up in a t shirt and pants and then going absolutely nuts

[vapid dune]

So TRUE

[austere jay]

rolling out of bed to put on the first thjng i see and then go kick and punch other guys for a few hours

life is so good

[vapid dune]

I love those shows when I don’t expect things to go that hard so I go in a t shirt and pants and i end up getting them covered in sweat, spilled drinks and dubious other body fluids

[austere jay]

alright back to work it’s line cook tkme

bye guys

[vapid dune]

Bye byeeeee Vinny

[astral gull]

Bye vinny

[vapid dune]

Tibi was always present I just realized

Tibi is always present.

Everywhere

All at once

[astral gull]

Next time I go to a show I prob won't get as done up since it's not comfortable but I don't wanna use a shirt that I care about

Idk why anyone would ngl

[vapid dune]

Yea. I have ruined many a shirt with how drenched/tugged on they get

December MG show I brought a really nice stripey long sleeve and it got completely ruined and faded with just that night’s pit

[astral gull]

Cover yourself in spiked studs and go into a pit

That'd be funny

[vapid dune]

Hell like I said people almost entirely tore off my shirt during MG/gecs

[vapid dune]

Nope

That would be an asshole move more like

[astral gull]

A hypothetial

I wonder if anyone ever brought glitter into a pit it'd be funny but in practice that glitter will not go anywhere for a solid year

[vapid dune]

Hell, I even refuse to put out my fists most of the time. I am trying to slam and thrash without actively injuring people I don’t want to ruin someone’s night

So I tend to mostly stick to using my forearms and upper arm to cushion blows

[astral gull]

Idk why anyone would actually go into the pit fully intending to hurt ppl

Ik it's happened bc some dude squared up with my parents at faith no more of all shows

[vapid dune]

Cus they think the point of it is injuring someone and letting off steam in a very Kyle way to go about it

[astral gull]

I haven't been in one but seen it and been near it

Bc I was 15 at the time no one's gonna risk that with a minor

[astral gull]

Yeah fr I'm almost scared to go to certain shows solely bc of ppl who act like that

[vapid dune]

I do feel like pits made me more comfortable with my masculinity and just being one gnarly dude cus like. People do seem to be more wary moshing around what they perceive to be a girl, specially if they’re small

So I’d rather not bring that upon myself. I want people to go full force on me

[astral gull]

Yeah ik for a fact you could take it but it must be rlly affirming of ur masculinity yeah

[vapid dune]

Affirming for my masculinity? Bro I was born masculine

[bronze ocean]

i feel like theres a difference between how i was raised and how i choose to express masculinity myself

[vapid dune]

Yea I developed my own form of masculinity very different from what I grew up with

Cus it does come with a lot of pain to say at least in my country toxic masculinity is a MAJOR issue like it’s a very unfortunate case of a lot of men in my culture still being very abusive and treating women like property and idk being very stereotypically toxic. And I grew up with that not only from my family but other people too

And I really hated seeing all that shit take place and idk I’ve done my best to set apart my own brand of masculinity as this like unhinged meathead type of attitude that still does its best to be respectful to any and all forms of life and treating it all as equal

So I do feel at least all my childhood experience did set a model of what I shouldn’t be in terms of masculinity

[valid sun]

this is a non trans answer sorry lol but people take T or E in case their endocrine system is unable to create proper levels of either hormone

also bc people just feel like it lol

i know someone whos a cis girl but microdosed T so she could get a deeper voice and grow hair

she went off of it when she was satisfied with the changes

my dad uses T patches because he was severely burned 31 years ago so he's unable to make enough testosterone by himself

as in his endocrine system doesnt function properly

[zinc oriole]

theres also cis men on spiro for hair maintenance reasons/balding

gender affirming care isnt just trans exclusive

cis people get it all the time

[bronze ocean]

finasteride mostly

[zinc oriole]

no hormone levels are uniform or to standard, plus societal structures around biological sex are created from colonial beliefs about it
basically, if somebody wants feminizing or masculinizing hormones regardless of their gender or being cis/trans, it's justified because there is no regular state of being your gender

its what you make of it

everybody should have the chance to play with their identity, and some people who are cis feel emotionally better with more regulated hormones even if its not their 'birth hormone'

[zinc oriole]

ty i was forgetting this one

[bronze ocean]

its a DHT blocker specifically

[zinc oriole]

plus not to mention intersex people who grow up not having a choice about their gender, people with PCOS, and those with naturally low estrogen levels or testosterone
its a lot less black and white than the standards placed upon us and everybody should have the choice

the rat knowledge is bestowed upon me

[valid sun]

yeah

i think a lot of people bring up intersex individuals a lot in debates surrounding HRT but never know of the procedures or know an intersex person personally

i have a friend whos transfeminine intersex and has a vagina but is infertile and her parents make her take T and stuff since she was a kid plus doctors have done multiple cosmetic surgeries on her genitals

it's pretty traumatizing to have all of that done to you without your consent

she's 15 turning 16 soon but shes been offline for awhile and i hope shes doing well

[valid sun]

her mom did this because she was angry that she couldnt have a son who was a "real son" to her and essentially forced her to transition to male since she was a kid

it's pretty terrible stuff

[zinc oriole]

What I meant was intersex people who grow up and pursue hormones due to their lack of agency in their youth

[valid sun]

being intersex isnt queer itself since it's a medical condition but it puts into perspective why so many intersex people consider it queer

oh yeah i know

i went off topic

lol sorry i was just thinking abojt her though

theres a lot of intersex people who pursue hormones for that reason

i wish there was more online resources about intersex conditions in general honestly

[valid sun]

and this is true too

the same should go for surgeries

theres a lot of women who would get breast reduction or masectomies if the culture around literally having breasts wasnt... yknow

[zinc oriole]

I agree, most intersex people I've interacted with have said all they had was their own experiences to go by and little to no resources by intersex people online

[valid sun]

yeah ive heard the same

[zinc oriole]

I wish it was an option that was more available to people considering people with larger chests have back pain

Sometimes it's covered by insurance, IF you live somewhere with good Healthcare policies

[valid sun]

they literally try to avoid it unless it's an emergency with those cases too :(

its so stupid

a girl in my 7th grade class got breast reductions done because her chest was a size F and her back hurt so bad

but her mom was trying to talk her out of it

and its like for what reason would you ever want a 12 year old to deal with that

ive been debating top surgery cause i dont really mind my chest but i dont bind in public and it hurts walking around w/out chest support

ive been thinking of sports bras but im scared theyll shape my chest too much if that makes sense

[valid sun]

also in this current year this wouldnt happen in texas because of everything tbh

insane how quickly things change cause this was in 2019

2018*

[valid sun]

https://twitter.com/kagcomix/status/1670844524279791616?s=20

Kathleen (@kagcomix)

comic. 1/5

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i just saw this on twitter

related to this conversation but this is a great comic

[zinc oriole]

its so fucked up what people have to go through and especially as children because of horrible gender standards

really scary stuff

[zinc oriole]

this comic is really lovely, Im really glad that she was able to have such a positive experience! I hope that more women wanting a breast reduction will feel able to do so

[unborn atlas]

hey this is good

[inland schooner]

boooo i gotta get my drains out on monday

[austere jay]

question for other testosterone takers who do sub q shots: does anyone just buy their needles in bulk online? if so where

i keep going through my pharmacy but they give me wildly varying sizes of inject needles and i don’t feel safe having them just give me whatever needles they have in stock, but i’m having trouble figuring out where to buy needles and syringes online

[valid sun]

amazon

my doctor told me to do that even though it's frowned upon by other doctors

used them for 4 years so far no harm done

i use a 26 gauge needle

[zinc oriole]

medical supply websites! they sell in bulk packs of up to 100 for needles and syringes of basically any size

u will need to buy the injection needles separately, ofc, but the liquid intake ones are included with the syringe on most sites

not always though

[zinc oriole]

Hey I know some of you have mentioned living in seattle/thinking of moving around that area. Since I'm finally going to be working soon that may be the place I save up towards moving to! If anyone knows affordable places in Seattle or Washington in general that'd be good, please hmu! I'm most likely coming with one of my friends

I figured the expensive moving cost wouldn't matter in the long run if I'm going to be somewhere that's assured safer than where I am and where I'd be happier

[vapid dune]

When do you plan to make this move? Does that mean we can’t meet up next MG tour? or is this a plan for the future

[zinc oriole]

NOT SURE I'm shooting for January to next April or May

Or essentially whenever I have the resources

WE WILL STILL MEET UP I PROMISE 😈

As much as I wanna stick around longer for friends etc it's getting really dangerous here, and my options are limited to where I can move that's safer on this coast bc of family

[misty harness]

i'll be moving up there in september, so if i come across any areas that seem more affordable, i'll let you know. i'm looking at seattle proper and the suburbs to the north and east of it so prices are pretty high around there

[zinc oriole]

Ty! I also have a friend from WA state that reccomended Olympia, lacey, and a couple of other places to me so I'm also going to be looking there

Anything with access to Seattle, though I've heard public transport is decent so that shouldn't be too hard

[misty harness]

tacoma prices for a 1 bedroom apartment are about 1400~

but that's still somewhat high for a lot of people. are you looking at getting roommates?

[zinc oriole]

I've looked at Tacoma and it seems like there's a big military presence there so I may not shoot for that area
And I believe one of my friends wants to come with me yes!

[misty harness]

i know a number of queer people in tacoma, i don't think that would be a huge deal really

[zinc oriole]

I may keep an open mind but as somebody who's lived in a military area for a couple of years now I don't think I can handle it again

[vapid dune]

Yea I’d really love to move out of Alabama by around march next year when my contract expires

Fuck this place

[austere jay]

i live closer to tacoma, kind of expensive and not the safest at times but very lovely place

[austere jay]

i don’t even notice the military presence that much im gonna be honest

[zinc oriole]

I believe in you!! We can both escape

[zinc oriole]

Ahh these are both good things to know thank you

My experience here has been. Bad. Like they've really industrialized the area, killed the environment and it looks like a huge wasteland in most areas around here

And the culture is horrendous

So I am sorry for being weary. it's just so desolate 😞

[austere jay]

not like that as much in tacoma, but it can get a little dicey in certain parts when it comes to safety, that’s been my biggest concern with the area lately

but regardless it’s definitely not a bad city, i have family that have lived here for ages

[zinc oriole]

Most places are gonna be safer than where I am tbh

I'm starting to see bullet holes in more signs and open hostility towards me and my friends

[austere jay]

oh no yeah you’re good

come move over here wayne we’ll hang out

[zinc oriole]

THATD BE AWESOMEE :]

I can't wait I really hope it's possible

I'm gonna save every cent that isn't for baby or my hrt each month

[timid grail]

i live in oregon not washington but i’ll warn you the seattle freeze is very very real, try to make sure u dont become isolated moving there from out of state

all of my friends that have moved there have moved back to oregon because they got really lonely living there so just be careful, it can be more brutal than you’d initially expect

[zinc oriole]

Ahh ty for the heads up! Tbh I have heard it's incredibly isolating :[

Is Oregon any better with that? And is it safe for trans people

I'm looking in the pnw or more west in general rn, so any place suggestions I am willing to take

[vapid dune]

Gotta love how I have not once in my life been asked by a trans or GNC person about my genitals but I am more than sick and tired of being asked by my cis coworkers everyday about my genitals

Reminder that society gaslights everyone about us and cis people are the real creeps who are obsessed with the contents of our underwear and it’s immensely disgusting

[astral gull]

Like it isn't the most inappropriate shit ever

Even allies do it

[vapid dune]

I’m not going to tell you what’s in my pants I’m not gonna tell you if it works or not I’m not gonna tell you if I have sex or not I’m not gonna tell you what type of sexual partner I want I’m not going to tell you if I’m a top or bottom holy shit cis people are fucking disgusting I’m literally asked all this shit and more every. Single. Day

I’m like at my breaking point like can they not be such sexual degenerates for a SINGLE day?

[timid grail]

oregon is very safe for trans ppl obviously depends on the city but im in portland and ive always felt pretty safe here

portland has a lot of issues i won’t sugarcoat, but every trans friend i’ve ever had visit me from out of state/country said they felt like they were respected and safe for once

[astral gull]

So fucking true I've had even other queer ppl ask if I'm a top or bottom then assign one to me??

That's so gross????

[zinc oriole]

ty for the info!! I will keep it in mind
I have very low standards rn I just dont want to be followed/harassed/stared at anymore so

the bare minumum is enough for me as long as i can exist

[timid grail]

yeah ppl don’t stare at me here everyone is normal

and i feel safe presenting how i want

there are lots of visibly trans and gnc ppl here

[zinc oriole]

WOO

I cant wait to be somewhere non hostile lol

forgot what thats like (to be fair where I used to live sometimes was too but almost exclusively at school

[austere jay]

i feel like in tacoma if you’re gonna catch any shit it’s less about you being trans and more about you being just a person existing yknow

if that makes sense

[spice sphinx]

Tacoma was one of the places I thought about scoping out a long time ago but idk if I’ll ever make it to the west coast ;-;

[austere jay]

mfw planned parenthood cancels my 9 month checkup that i also get other important healthcare at and i can’t schedule an appointment online because the system is broken and i’ve been trying for literal days to reach someone over the phone but no luck

this is so fucking frustrating im tired of planned parenthood dropping the ball over and over and over again

[spice sphinx]

Many such cases

Unfortunately they’re all I have here

[supple quarry]

if i cant be a girl irl due to my current position, ill be one online. idk if im fully trans or what but idk, gender or whatever

[chrome snow]

BASED AS FUCK

[supple quarry]

fucking love you joey

[chrome snow]

Here's me!

It's been hell of a long time ever since I made a picrew.

[zinc oriole]

I totally get that

Ik it's different but it's like that here since it's a military area LOL

People are just pissed off and individualistic

[zinc oriole]

This is happening to ALL of my friends on hrt and begun happening to me. I left bc they said I couldn't do telehealth anymore despite them knowing I had no transportation

[astral gull]

Picrew chain in transdome mayhaps?

[zinc oriole]

I want to make

I'll make one of my ocs in it

[vapid dune]

Picrew sharing in transdome?????

[chrome snow]

YEEEEE

[vapid dune]

Gotta love it when people take very different directions with a picrew and it shows idk a lot of personality of how everyone is

[sturdy trail]

post more picrew links

[zinc oriole]

^

It's so hard for me to make picrews for myself at times and my ocs bc they have varying bodytypes

So it makes me happy when a picrew has variety

[austere jay]

upon consulting my partner, parents, family and friends it has been confirmed that i will most likely age very similar to peter caine

i’m going to be the next petercainedogtraining1

[spice sphinx]

fuck yeah

[frozen breach]

oooh are we posting picrews??

[sturdy trail]

moar

[frozen breach]

I really like this one, if you go to the info section it has a link to the same one but with a different body type https://picrew.me/ja/image_maker/1944831/complete?cd=YzsGHazFQo

made my transition goals

[austere jay]

tried to find a picrew to do but couldn’t find one that didn’t make me dysphoric whomp whomp

if you guys make more please send them they’re so fun to look at

[zinc oriole]

me :] didnt have eye bags unfortunately lol

I tried being more realistic with how I look

[cold whale]

ohhh shit we doing picrews!!!!

[zinc oriole]

Picrew share time :)

[cold whale]

raaa

[zinc oriole]

DOGGG OMG

https://picrew.me/en/image_maker/1908798

This one is fun

[dim sleet]

:^)

[zinc oriole]

U COULD DO YOUR HAIR CLLORSSS

[dim sleet]

finally.

shrimple

[balmy pond]

Ummmmm

[supple quarry]

Silly

Would hug

[vapid dune]

Had to do the other picrew

The bbyun creature

Clearly realism wasn’t the goal cus I don’t look like that (but I wish I did)

[austere jay]

not me but i wanted to join in, this is my actual irl cat

[spice sphinx]

I could even get my dumb heart glasses in this one :3

[austere jay]

the guy

name is trip

[bronze ocean]

me:

[sturdy trail]

coo rat

[bronze ocean]

hiiiii ^_^

[astral gull]

Uhhh I did it rah

[final heart]

https://picrew.me/ja/image_maker/129580

[astral gull]

Ok I actually rlly liked that one but the ad under the finished product

Oh yeah the result :

[spice sphinx]

hooooly shit

(completely fake btw but don't google it)

[vapid dune]

Picrews that give u more andro options

Also closest one to having goofsteralls

[vapid dune]

Also my cat that I never posted

[bronze ocean]

hol shit ktiiy aggy

[cold whale]

friend :)

[astral gull]

The ethot one was my favorite ngl

[vapid dune]

The toon me was my fav cus it had a shitload of options

[frozen breach]

yeah I really like how much variety that one has

oh yeag I made Another

this is the first picrew like ever where I've been able to make my hair really similar to how it looks irl

[zinc oriole]

closest they had to my hair

[bronze ocean]

<(?) users 💪

im SO confused all the time

[zinc oriole]

SAME HERE everything is so confusinggg

[bronze ocean]

my life be like Huh?

[zinc oriole]

Huh. Bwauh

https://tenor.com/view/huh-huh-whuh-huh-huh-whuh-crab-scared-crab-gif-23792302

[bronze ocean]

TRUE

[zinc oriole]

I LOVE THE CRABS !

Confused rep

[vapid dune]

God this is SO ME

[zinc oriole]

The confusion population grows...

[bronze ocean]

huh?

[zinc oriole]

huh?

[astral gull]

It was good but the art style wasn't my thing

It wasn't bad I just didn't feel it

[astral gull]

So true tho!!!

[vapid dune]

Huh????

[astral gull]

WHAT???

👽

[valid sun]

i can never do half the picrews i wnat cause they dont have facial hair

heres the few that ive done with my boyfriend

[astral gull]

Those r very fire

[vapid dune]

https://picrew.me/ja/image_maker/1794119

We need more garfsonas here

[bronze ocean]

yoo im literally eating lasagna rn

[astral gull]

Hard asf

[unborn atlas]

hey I've done this one

[vapid dune]

very goat coded

[valid sun]

who does this guy think he is

[frozen breach]

grafnild

[misty harness]

drainfield

[bronze ocean]

im so #drained

[tardy creek]

@stable cradle has leveled up! (5 ➜ 6)

[digital geyser]

(sorry to clog up chat but i love picrew because it helped me gain a better sense of my goals for the future which is this one, the other one is what i currently look like)

[unborn atlas]

is this that dariacore I keep hearing about?

thank god picrew saves your lil guys

[astral gull]

THATS SO RIHHT THO

[unborn atlas]

gonna do these two picrews and then post MY COLLECTION

I think this one's unfinished

ANYWAY

I got a type

and some stragglers

[sharp oasis]

meow

[zinc oriole]

Hiyeee miaou meoww

[bronze ocean]

mrrp

[zinc oriole]

Mrr!

[supple quarry]

also idk if this is just me but for some reason, when im high i feel way more, idk, fem leaning? idk why that is

[austere jay]

when im high i get nonbinary

in that i am not a man, but enough of me lines up with being a man that i use the label for convenience, but when im high my gender traits line up more with non binary

im so much more than both labels but it’s more about what gives people a better idea of what’s going on if that makes sense

[zinc oriole]

WEED MAKES ME GIRLY LOL

[proper igloo]

🤝

[final heart]

real

[austere jay]

been a while since i’ve been in the gym, now i no longer get weird stares when i’m here i’m wondering if it’s cuz of more time on t

[final heart]

i’m told i get “white girl wasted”

[austere jay]

i feel like i look older so people aren’t staring at me as much

[austere jay]

every now and then i get white girl wasted it’s so fun

everyone should be white girl wasted at least one

[zinc oriole]

Getting white girl wasted is so fun

[final heart]

my tolerance is so low bc meds so

[austere jay]

my wee tolerance is probably way too high but i never drink so it’s always a gamble

[final heart]

wee tolerance

[austere jay]

last time i drank i swallowed a truly can tab ☹️

[final heart]

loll

[austere jay]

sorry i’m working out i’m very shaky

auto correct is saving me

[final heart]

ur good i thought it was funny

[austere jay]

my wee tolerance (british accent)

[zinc oriole]

Wee bc weed makes you have fun and be silly

[austere jay]

amen wayne you get it

[supple quarry]

the trans weed

[zinc oriole]

If I am not smoking to be silly or introspective (or girly( why would I!!!

Trans weed

[proper igloo]

[final heart]

highest i ever got i started talking about some idea for a trans girl union (where they’re all girlfriends) and then i started communicating with the fae (we were in a hut in the woods)

[zinc oriole]

While the highest I ever got I saw the face of Mark hoffman from the saw movies in a circular white glowing fog

It was a white light ish like how the stereotypical 'into the light' or heaven looks

I also was apparently on and off laughing for 2 hours while half asleep

I was laying next to my bf at the time and he said I was just laughing at nothing for a couple of hours only I remember doing that for a few mins bc I was falling asleep

[supple quarry]

Highest I ever got, I got dropped off in front of my house, and walked up and down the street trying to find it

THAT WAS AFTER A MACHINE GIRL SHOW TOO

[zinc oriole]

Being stoned and not able to find your house is a nightmare it's happened to me once

[final heart]

a similar thing happened when i took ONE edible and i just got ridiculously high bc i forgot i had just started my meds again

i was like laughing to the point of pain

at gay sex and taxes

those two things specifically

[zinc oriole]

FOR ME IT WAS AN EDIBLE TOO

The gummies.

[final heart]

ya then i had a seizure lol

ya it was a gummy

[zinc oriole]

IM GLAD YOURW OK that sounds scary

Was it a delta 8 one

[final heart]

no i think it was actually mostly cbd but apparently my body metabolizes it rly weird or something

and yea it’s cool i have seizures normally so it wasn’t that out of left field but still scary

prettyyy sure i saw god

and i think i started talking in a flawless southern accent

shit was crazy

[zinc oriole]

Edibles that make you see God 😟
It's so tricky sometimes when you have more sensitive conditions

Has to do with cannibanoid(?)receptors
Idk spelling lol

Along with other stuff

[final heart]

yea i put off doing any substances for a long time bc i was concerned about it interacting with my shit but it’s been better lately tbh

it sucked that one time tho bc i usually just take edibles to sleep and wasn’t signing up for all that

[zinc oriole]

That is a jumpscare

The evil twist ending of edible...

I try smoking once or twice a month bc im the same way with just different stuff body wise

[austere jay]

highest i ever got i was laying in bed with my partner (also dangerously high) and i was staring at the vent on my ceiling (outside of vent had been removed so it was just a hole in the wall) and i kept getting these horrible images of something crawling out of it to get me but all i could do was laugh i thought it was extremely funny

[zinc oriole]

THAT IS REALLY FUNNY TBH I can feel it

I love getting so high u get scared BUT only when it cycles back to it being kinda funny abt wjat you're scared of

[final heart]

ya tbh being high is like when i have delusions except everything is rly funny

[valid sun]

i took an edible a bit ago

at a punk show

this one queer bar was hosting it and let underaged people in if they had a marker not to sell alcohol

30 minutes in i ran outside and went into my friends car and stayed there for an hour calling my boyfriend

and every second felt like minutes

about 3 hours in i tried to sleep but my senses were hyperactive so they were driving and i kept clawing at the seatbelt to change areas since the texture and temperature kept changing

couldnt keep my eyes open because i was basically asleep

or felt asleep

i laughed at everything but it sucked tbh

[inland schooner]

top surgery recovery is kind wild guys

if u dont like doing shit, this is for you. if you do then definitely not

[vapid dune]

I’m glad to know that despite all the blatant transphobia and fake “allies” at my workplace there’s one coworker who is a true ally that I am real proud to have met and he’s into all this punk and DIY stuff so I am planning on taking him to a show or 2. He’s always so incredibly respectful. Matter of fact he’s shown me pictures that he’s gone to pride events in Mexico City back when he lived there and trans rights protests. Glad to see finally a cishet person who actually has the balls to act upon what he believes in and I’m glad to have met someone so cool and ACTUALLY interested in fighting alongside us

And I’m embarrassed to say I forgor his name and havent bothered to ask the past 3 months cus it would be awkward to ask and make it clear I’m bad with names… but he’s a cool dude

[zinc oriole]

Cishet allies are important! I think of the moms/dads who go to pride in support of their lgbt kids

Or for lgbt people there who aren't supported by their parents

[sturdy trail]

a lot of liberal parents like autism moms only superficially support their queer kids and just see them as a political tool

i feel like the focus should be more from queer people themselves instead of foreign paternalistic advocacy groups

[zinc oriole]

Well of course

I still think allies are important to have though. Genuine advocates who use their privilege to get through to others

[frozen breach]

yeah having outside people who are genuine supporters and willing to actually put their money where their mouth is is really important

and way too uncommon sadly

definitely very sick of performative wishy-washy liberal allyship

[astral gull]

Yeah unfortunately I live with one of those people and the moment the doors close they're saying rlly shitty things and willfully ignorant

Ofc there's great cishet allies just not who I'm talking abt

[timid grail]

i don’t have any straight friends (lol) but the cis friends i have are incredibly good allies. my little brother i came out to when he was 5 has genuinely been more respectful than some trans people i have met about respecting peoples pronouns and correcting people

i don’t want to get into any discourse-y territory so i’ll just leave it at this but not all trans people are kind and supportive, there are plenty of transphobic, racist, homophobic and misogynistic trans people too. and it’s good to surround yourself in people who are kind and supportive even if they aren’t also trans or lgbt in any way

[astral gull]

Yeah totally agree

My straight friends have come around and got genuinely mad at one of our past friends for being a transphobe and homophobe to the point of yelling at him which was rather relieving

[timid grail]

just my personal experience growing up as a teenager i automatically assumed all trans people would be safe and i ended up getting hurt a lot actually, i think this is especially true for nonwhite trans people

[astral gull]

Exactly

Ive met some rlly bad trans ppl but I won't get into that