I tried to hang myself a few weeks ago.

[fringe juniper]

Hey, I saw your message. I wanted to reach out because what you're dealing with sounds incredibly heavy. It makes total sense that you want to escape your family, but please don't let them be the reason you end things.

You asked if it's worth staying alive to take the abuse. Please don't stay alive to take it, stay alive to **escape ** it and see what life looks like on the other side.

If you're open to it, you can find local resources to help you at https://findahelpline.com/.

Sharing my two cents fwiw. Since your back is hurt, please don't push yourself physically right now. But if you can, try finding low-effort, quiet places to just exist away from your house, like a local library or community/rec club gatherings.

You don't even have to socialize. Just getting into a different environment and letting proximity do its job can give your mind a break. Eventually, you might cross paths with people who have survived their own dark times and actually understand what you're going through.

You deserve way better than what you're getting right now. Hang in there.